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Boop, 19
Extreme twisted mind that scares myself.
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Themanyouneed – June 27, 2026
Wow, that’s exactly what I want to do to him! I thought I was alone.
Walter_White – June 27, 2026
What would you say to undergoing laser hair removal to make your body smooth and then having your entire body tattooed black and glossy as much fully blacked out as possible. I would then have the tip of your nose tattooed white or pink along with your hands and feet paws printed white or pink. Your penis and nipples would also be coloured. A permanent metal collar or with tags would then be added. You would then live as my dog 24/7 and be as much dog as I want although I would feed you human food.
BillyTakeMyWilly – June 22, 2026
mentally not theređ€
Sharp_guy – June 19, 2026
I am with him right now and he is making me speechless. I donât tell too much when I say this is an amazing unbelievable very best experience I have had in my life. Will be hard to accept something less now than the crowning glory I have with him. You will understand after meeting him.
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ilovebigthings, 21
You may recognise me as the bottom half of the popular twink porn star duo Ken and Kim. My bottoming talent is globally accredited, nominated for awards consistently- Xbiz, Pornhub, Europa, Grabby’s, etc. Yes, after incessant requests by fans for a one-on-one meet and greet, my Rubicks Cube of an ass and I are now available to be plummeted. And yes it’ll cost you an arm and leg, but Iâm not here to convince you. Take a look at my porns, run your wildest fantasies by me, and face the reality that Iâm your perfect match.
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ilovebigthings (Owner) – June 13, 2026
He’s still around, he’s just bored with me and he wants to watch other guys use me to see if thatâll rekindle his lust. Heâs charging for that because heâs a hyper capitalist.
ROUGHinFL – June 13, 2026
What happened to Ken?
megamaxxx – June 10, 2026
I craved for this ass for longer than a year and I finally managed to meat it. It took just 30 minutes to reduce it to something that makes me slightly nauseous to even think about.
journeyofme – June 8, 2026
Hey little fucker. By way of some very complex & arcane chemical mechanics, your ass doesn’t merely “bring out” the sex pig hiding inside me by dint of social convention, it’s deeper. It somehow triggers and then focuses the part of me that uses innate physical language-making, our instinctual capacity for signification, to sexual effect. I hate to sound all phony-psycho-babble, but I mean your ass doesn’t just work on my cock by way of my brain, it seems to work on my brain on the way back from my cock. I don’t just want to stick my cock in you when I might not otherwise be doing that; I want your ass to express THE FACT OF MY BEING in it. I don’t just feel “really horny” for your ass, I feel like I AM EXEMPLIFYING PENIS ITSELF. It doesn’t just cause arousal, it motivates CARNAL BASENESS. It does to the expressive-brain that same thing that makes me want to strain your gluteal cheeks for 6-1/2 hours and wrench my mouth into TWISTED SNARLING FUCKTUP CONTORTIONS.
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Johnny_duh, 19
I prefer to get choked with cock down my throat to the point I canât breathe. If a top wanted to choke me with his hands or a belt during that I wouldnât say no. Guys sometimes put a plastic bag over my head and fist me until things to start to fade. A few times guys have used a scarf tied to a door handle then raped my throat until I passed out. If I get snuffed, oh well.
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sameoldchris – June 21, 2026
đ¶ Imagine there’s no Johnny, it’s easy if you try đ¶
greatsoul – June 21, 2026
I had a great time with u! You’re a beautiful strangling pig and Fire! Cant get enough off you, I will see you again soon! Next time I m in for the whole experience.
Johnny_duh (Owner) – June 20, 2026
Yes, I’m young, but I don’t want pity because of it.
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IwIllkIllmyself, 18
So my 16 yo son is in a sexual relationship with a friend of mine Iâve known for 20 years.. My friend is straight, married, kids etc. donât know how I feel about it. Their relationship is intense. I keep hearing them upstairs having sex. I hear him being pissed on, shouting for it etc. I hear every word. I keep hearing my son scream. not sure how to handle it.
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SpunkJunkyPissHound – June 4, 2026
Boys need to learn to love their assholes as early as physically possible. No one can threaten you with violation once you know how good it feels to get it filled. My colon was shaped just like my grandpaâs cock long before I was old enough to go hunt cock on my own.
IwIllkIllmyself (Owner) – June 4, 2026
2 years ago I would have reacted with horror and disgust if somebody told me they were turned on by my son, but I have to admit there’ve been occasions where I couldnât help noticing how incredibly sexy he looks and my trousers would feel a little tight in the front! But I quickly stop myself and remind myself that he is my biological son for crying out load!!
heyyjustgothere – June 4, 2026
Jealous?
Anonymous – June 4, 2026
I raped my son. I naively thought that would bring me a certain peace of mind, in fact, it is quite different.
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Prettyboy, 18
Very pretty boy seeking only for sex/live in relationship for fucked up period with Daddy.
Honestly and really dream requirement of my life is this:
When Daddy and bottom both are in love and starving for each other.
Think about me that I could be just for fun as prostitute or something like disposable.
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echothebunny – June 16, 2026
God give me even 1 hour in a remote secure phone signal impairing location with this Devil!!!!
saphir55 – June 15, 2026
These my viable seeds do to me the ass on it once viable in his baggy jeans from me swam and wriggled win it so infinitely sorry because these viable seeds from me just as much as they would have wanted to live out of his baggy jeans.i feel so srry for these viable seeds because they have now been killed by him and have died. How gladly would these viable seeds of mine have lived out of his baggy jeans and they are now deceased and dead;(
JohnWayne – June 12, 2026
I just creamed looking at you and didnât even touch my cock. Itâs too good to be true. You’re my fantasy exactly stuffed and stretched with Multiple huge toys buried in you to their handles from every end. Iâm going to pass out if I think about this any longer. My Gawd! Iâm so Hott and dripping with sweat standing naked right out of the shower.
Prettyboy (Owner) – June 7, 2026
Have recently had a man administer my first enema and drink it, very humiliating but also good to know how clean I was afterwards.
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WeakWeakWeaker, 21
I am Bi and i want someone to completely break my mind till my desire to top and my interest in women is literally fucked out of me.
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obligeme – June 20, 2026
he makes memories hard to forget
199X – June 11, 2026
Just so you know this guy went to prison for fucking two 12 and 13 year old girls. He didn’t tell me until after we had been together a few times. It doesn’t make any difference to me. I wont comment on the morality of what he did. He got caught and was punished as our laws require. He has a hungry ass and thats really all I care about.
Daddyhasatemper – June 11, 2026
OK.. So THIS one is seriously dangerous!! Twisted, raunchy, racist as fuck. Total sociopathic, depraved pervert. Perfect body – with a sixpack you could grate carrots on. Bricks up watching videos of shitheads his age suffering and dying without faking anything … so in conclusion: I am TOTALLY FUCKED.
WeakWeakWeaker (Owner) – June 6, 2026
I’ll obey, if you bring enough alcohol to make me do it.
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iwouldlike, 19
Need some real bad ass dudes that get turned on by the idea of ending the life of a “dude” (formerly my daughter). There’s ways to do this without getting in shit, just needs planning. Ya need to be bad boy look, hot body, tattoos or piercings, big cock. You must be willing to get high as fuck with me and the “dude” and play around for awhile as we explore some hot things. Basically I will want you to start off feeding “him” drugs slowly then add more and more. Want this to make your cock hard and if you do it right Iâll become really into it and horny to the point I start asking you to go all the way. Once I say it, actually want you to drug the “dude” until “he” passes out then you keep going and donât stop. If you follow exactly how Iâd like this to go down (and want you to enjoy it too), you’ll also be getting a 60k dollar reward on top of it. Just need to follow my instructions and trust it because I want this done and “he” won’t be spending my money anymore so why not?
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tallslenderguy – June 11, 2026
Sexual murder is still murder, and by whatever name it’s still an abomination, and an un-negotiated (well in advance) scene including that kind of behavior just seems too fraught with unpleasant results for my taste.
iwouldlike (Owner) – June 10, 2026
Should also probably mention that I’m “his” mother.
iwouldlike (Owner) – June 9, 2026
Will admit I’ve had “him” 8 maybe 9 times. Always blast “him” with T (smoking, booty bumps, slam, snort) add poppers and G. Sometimes C (lines and buttshots) and Molly. Have had “him” on K, Acid, Addies and Heroin. And speedballs. So “he’s” a tough cookie.
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RedPillMeSir, 22
low life pervert, been on a journey to the bottom since grade school
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RedPillMeSir (Owner) – June 23, 2026
jerking off from all the killyourself messages i’m getting
PUMPSKIN – June 19, 2026
ugh, he’s great.
WorkMyShaft – June 16, 2026
This straight junkie boy has been coming over for about a year to shoot heroin n get his dick sucked and ass eaten. Thanks to my prodding it progressed to him wanting to be slammed with meth after he shot the dope and now I can fuck him while heâs fried. He still doesnât kiss but now heâll open his mouth and let me eat it out.
reverseengineer – June 13, 2026
Everything about him is made for you guys who wants to have a fucking good and intense hard moment of pleasure like in hell.
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SlavePorn4Sale, 19
Hello and thanks for your visit.
The young man in the photos is Justin, 19, my owned property. He has an innocent look, but also very kinky. He’s very potent and ejaculates at least three times a day.
I’ve made two long films with him: one 50 minutes, and the second is even 100 minutes long.
Both the films are high quality with original sound and each tells a story (plot) I created. Here are the descriptions of the individual films, including photos.
Film 1 (50 minutes):
A man Justin sexually rejected takes revenge. He hires two older skaters to ambush Justin on my way to school, tie him up, and kidnap him in the trunk of a car. Once they arrive, Justin is tied to the bed and abused. He has to give them both deep throat blowjobs until he vomits. He’s insulted, held down, verbally abused, raped in different positions, and finally impregnated with cum. Since the client and the skaters can’t agree on a payment for the kidnapping, they “kill” him (very realistic) and ejaculate heavily in his dead face. There’s also a bonus scene afterwards where one of the skaters gets aroused by Justin’s dead ass until he reaches ecstasy.
Film 2 (100 minutes):
Three older muscle men are horny and want to find someone young to rape. They notice the boyish Justin, who’s just leaving the cinema with his girlfriend Vanessa (18). The couple says goodbye, and they hatch a devious plan. While one man follows the girl and knocks her unconscious in a deserted park, the others approach Justin and convince him to come home with them. Once home, they perform sexual acts on the shy boy. He’s curious at first, but when he thinks about his girlfriend, he wants to stop and go home. But it’s already too late. The men for their burly colleague Ingo, who is hidden in the next room. Justin is tied up and taken to the next room. This is a BDSM playroom where Justin will have to hang in a sling and suffer for the next few hours.
They use dildos on him, insult him, and beat him with their fists and various implements. The man who had previously kidnapped Vanessa is back. He, too, is eager to take advantage of Justin. The poor young man now has to be raped and tortured by the four of them. Justin is told that his girlfriend is tied up in the apartment and that something will happen to Vanessa if he doesn’t obediently cooperate with their destruction. Justin continues to be tortured even more violently. Finally he’s put in a tub and drenched with the men’s golden-yellow piss. But the worst is yet to come for him. Bound and gagged, he has to watch as the men rape and “kill” his girlfriend.
All films were filmed with great care over three days each, followed by editing.
I’ve also filmed a short clip of 8 to 9 minutes showing me licking and eating out Justin. This is included free with the purchase of all three films.
My prices are as follows:
1 film of your choice = âŹ29
All 2 films = âŹ50
These are download prices.
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AbjectOmega – June 21, 2026
Seeing Justin naked is one of the wonders of the world.
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SIKKKOTWISTEDMOTHERFUKKKERSONOFABITCH!, 18
LOOKING FOR A PRIEST TO RECEIVE COMMUNION!
BRETT DEICIDE SATANIC METAL FAN!
ANYTHING GOES FROM BOOTS TO VOMIT!
ALCOHOL METH AND CHEM FUKKKIN ADDICT!
FUKKK YESS, WOULDNT A SATANIC DEATH METAL BAND COMPRISED OF TRUE SATANIC LOW LIFE TEEN TRASH THAT HAS KILLED FOR KIKKKS, FUELED BY METH, A NEED TO SEED, RAPE AND SLAUGHTER, KILLING ON STAGE, THAT IS A BAND I WOULD JOIN!!!
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maxthunder – June 19, 2026
You’re almost my son’s age, you’re 15 days older, pm me sometime.
GexTrick – June 17, 2026
I’m this lad’s dealer, filled him with Tina rn, he’s so high and looks such a bitch on heat, I’m selling him to customers (SE London, 5 min from Deptford Rail Station), it’s gonna be a long night, thanks Satan and Tina for surfacing his true colors.
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ontheprecipice, 22
Polish submissive masochistic Twink living in Malta. Love when you beat and rape me.
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WinkAndNod – June 12, 2026
By sheer coincidence, I loved when I beat and raped you too! It was quite the love fest!
chinese_whispers – June 3, 2026
NOTE: He has medically what is called a micropenis. (under 2″ in length). If that small size doesnât infuriate you, you and he are not a match.
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p.s. Hey. ** Adem Berbic, Hi. I don’t think the blog is launching that much earlier, but maybe. Amsterdam isn’t my good place, it’s just more potent due to my complicated time there than a lot of other places. Zac’s good place is probably on a roller coaster. I don’t think I’ve heard the first Carcass album, but your description is singing one of my songs. ** jay, Hi. Yeah, they’re weirdly scary, right? I’m still trying to parse why. Because it’s more than the obvious reason, I think. I’m good, and we’ll see how long that lasts. How are you employing the nicer skies? ** _Black_Acrylic, Haha. I hope your outdoors is acting as benevolently as mine. Benevolent considering the summer is far from over. ** Aleks, Hi, Aleks! No, I don’t know those videos, and, yes indeed, they look very exciting. I’ll take more than a peek a little later on. Thanks a bunch, that’s super thoughtful. How are you? What else are you doing? ** Bill, True, but you’ve got to hand it to their weirdness. Your report on ‘Camp Miasma’ confirms what I’m expecting. I’m glad to hear it survives the gentrification issues, which is what I was fearing it wouldn’t do. I know someone who knows Schoenbrun and says they’re pretty angled towards a Hollywood career, so this new one might be the last hurrah? Thanks, man. ** James Bennett, Hi, James. Provincial, yes, I would think. Yeah, the current PdT show is classic PdT, i.e., as you said, a few good things. One of these days they’re going to put up a show worthy of its great architecture. I didn’t see the lightning but I heard all about it. I think I go to sleep a little too early. Dads, ‘Shit Twins’, I’ll go find it. Pinback-like is a major lure to me. Man, I am so enjoying the temp drop. I was walking around yesterday in disbelief. ** Carsten, Ouch, yeah, find someone and anoint them your chauffeur. Give some advance warning when Paris becomes an option. I’m busy and then I’m not busy at all. Very random. Hope you got the best sleep. ** Hugo, It does sound like objective input would be good. Readability is a hard thing to suss on one’s own. If you didn’t see, Harper offered to read your novel and opine. Noir … like you mean plot-wise? Or is it more like applying a particular stylistic filter? ** HaRpEr //, My pockets too. I wonder if they’re affordable if you buy them in India and thereabouts? Of course the price of getting to those places would ruin that. I have all kinds systems by which I live and work too, but I guess a lot of them are so instinctual that I couldn’t even describe them at this point. Well, don’t short-shrift the thinking and formulating time, obviously. That’s kind of the most important part? ** laura w, Thanks. I was happy to have accidentally come across them. I can already guarantee you that I would love Stew Leonard’s. I’ll see if google can help me look around inside it. I think he’s still quite popular. But I think he’s popular in a mainstream realm that doesn’t penetrate my cult-y feed and friends. Thanks for the tip on ‘Killing Stella’. I don’t know it, but I’ll endeavor to. ‘Castle Faggot’ is like the … what’s place called … Morodor of contemporary novels. The weekend was bleak because the heat was still lording over everything, but this week is looking ripe. All the ultra-best luck with that heat. If sympathy was an AC, I’d make sure that you’re fine. ** Uday, Not too late. Welcome home both physically and electronically. See, if it was me, I might’ve thought, ‘oh, he likes Vuong, how sweet’, and then wasted months gradually realising it wasn’t. Love suggesting your friends trying doing drugs instead? ** Okay. End of the month inevitably fills the blog’s facade with slaves, and this month is no different. See you tomorrow.
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Fair enough. I have been known to conflate potent with good.
âReek of Putrefaction,â itâs quite brilliant. Excellent song titles. âMalignant Defecation,â etc. In a similar vein — and Iâm not much of a metal person now, if I ever was — I think the Full of Hell-Merzbow split has dented my formal thinking above and beyond music. I found it very forward-thinking, or at least forward-thinkingly dense. But I thought Full of Hell’s follow-up records were much closer to standard-issue chug-a-lug grind, so I tuned out. Likewise with Carcass and their melodeath turn which, personally, makes me want to run for the hills.
The first chunk of the piece which may or may not be EXEMPLIFYING PENIS ITSELF is close to the end. I think Iâm getting better at making time to really settle into the required headspace, and not kicking myself when I canât. I need to lull myself and I want to lull the reader as well. What I mentioned before about short-circuiting their goodwill. Iâve always been awestruck by authors who, whatever their method, are minded to do that. Where the work comes at you like a square peg being crammed into the round hole of your frame of reference. Setting the writing up to do that is extremely precise and not some blunderbussy ‘here you go’ thing, as far as I can tell.
I think that a non-negligible proportion of the writing I hear here doesnât seem very attuned to crafting its relationship with the reader/listener. Whatever the tenor of that relationship. It has a lot more of the ‘here you go’ quality, which I struggle with, and for me that tends to lapse into who’s offering it, not what’s being offered. I think I really have to be seduced in order to not fall into that thinking (which I don’t like falling into, I’d like to add). At the very least, it’s helped push me towards thinking more about how I can be seductive. Again, I think that kicking around in these music and performance universes has been very instructive for me. I think those forms (or at least the ways in which they’re instantiated here right now) manage the relationship in ways that are much more, sort of, tangible and practical, and some part of me has been trying to map that onto the mirage of writing.
Hey Dennis. Eek, “IwIllkIllmyself”… scary situation, albeit probably fabricated, although that almost makes it scarier – at least to me. Quite significantly scarier, haha. I find the satanic captioning stuff “SIKKKOTWISTEDM[…]” is up to interesting too – I’ve always kind of thought that kind of fetishism was an offshoot from Satanic Panic shit, so it’s cool to see it make a return.
Hope you’re well. Yeah, the weather being colder has been nice. It was so hot last week that I sort of had to wear my sleeves up when I walked around outside, and because I so rarely do that, my forearms got really nastily burned, so they look pretty crazy at the moment, it looks like a hot pink-ish cyanotype. It sounds bad, but it’s actually really visually pleasing. Hope you’re well, praying for continued cold weather near you. Adios!
Really enjoy Prettyboy’s drawings here. Should the slaving not work out for whatever reason, the guy’s got a definite future in the art world.
When not enjoying the World Cup, I’m getting back into fiction again. Derek Raymond is of course a long time favourite, and his A State of Denmark from 1970 is an all too plausible story of homegrown fascism in England. Here in Leeds we now have the dreaded Reform on our council, so I’m sorry to say it’s not too far away from the truth. It is a good book though.
@harper, if you wanna read my stuff, you can share where I can contact you. I dunno if I’ll send the full thing, but I can send pieces ^_^
@Dennis: I guess the work is “noir” in stylistics more than plot. The plots of noir novels are mostly (but never fatally) contrived; I guess that’s why that book “The Lime Twig” interests me the way it does, because it takes those elements and pushes them into abstract territory. I also wanted a deadpan and lyrical voice, something I feel I could work with in a more definite way since in the bigger novel the voice “creates” rather than “witnesses” most of the time. I’ve also been rewatching a lot of Hitchcock and Robert Altman movies and wanted to make something in their milieu. Not something nostalgic, I think that would be maudlin, but more disjointed and violently grotesque, a clash rather than a fusion. Does that make any sense?
Hey. Yeah sure, send what youâre comfortable sharing. My email is harperstringer@outlook.com
Iâll get back to you when Iâve read it and have organised my thoughts. Awesome, thanks for bestowing me the honour!
“I AM EXEMPLIFYING PENIS ITSELF” is pure poetry. SIKKOT… probably has a solo black metal project up on Bandcamp.
Did you come across the props featured yesterday while researching haunts?
It’s 90 degrees Fahrenheit here today, and pretty suffocating. Friday, it will be 105!
Thanks, I did get exactly the deep sleep I needed, in a cool little Airbnb in MontĂ©limar. Made it to Zurich today, where we ended up crashing with some friends. This wasn’t really planned. We initially thought we’d miss each other, since they were just coming back from their own travels. Now they’re inviting us to stay a few days. Which I just might do, not for Switzerland’s sake but theirs. How’s your schedule after you return from Amsterdam? Cause now I’m thinking I could stay here a bit, then do Paris, & then fly home to Malaga from there.
Made a group chat to update two of my friends on my ongoing thoughts on popular internet celebrity Clavicular (do you have any thoughts on the man ? Surely someone’s asked before… apparently he’s reading Proust). One of them sent (into this chat) a photograph of a page in a book which had some astrology text and then: “Dennis Cooper born Jan 10, Woolf born Jan 25” (I have asked what the context is here and should update in due course)
What I did today:
[Work: Enjoyable]
Bike; Meet Friend; Burger; Run Into Person Whom I Wrestled At T-Boy Wrestling In The Park (I like this person, I think they’re generally very pleasant); Run Into Fellow DC Fan; Shop At Lidl With DC Fan; Drop By Support Meeting To Pick Up Alcohol Wipes; My Best Friend Is Worried Of Relapsing (Heroin); Draw Out (Pencil) Rough Outline For Oil Painting Of My Husband; Type Out And Send This.
I’m getting heavily into my oil painting again! Trying out the Vardaccio method and I feel relatively positive.
My Insta feed is just like yours full of Clav which is unfortunate as I have little interest in him. His recent trip to Paris was explosive to say the least, people were cussing him on the street giving him middle finger as he was attempting runway walk wow
He did cuss back France
Anyway I really don’t care
Now my feed is back to normal and normal means Ariana Grande new tour videos which is more of my thing
I read Gary’s memoir. I like the minutae descriptions of Cuban life that do a turn from traditional memoir. Things become really interesting for me when he goes into his commune days with Carol and Ferd etc. He seems very comolex person and I admire the way he talks about his life and showing all the different periods of a life that someone can so relate to and see themselves in them
He is so cruel to Susan Sontag and David Lynch wow. And also he is so cruel to a writer he ghostly shades and I gathered it was William Vollmann I wonder why he and Kathy had this reaction to him Lol
Anyway was a nice read
Even better read was Mina Loy’s Insel. That is the definition of gorgeous prose. That’s like even better than her poetry which is already so good!
And now I am reading Muriel Spark’s Loitering with Intent which I really enjoy
How is your week going btw Happy month ahead and forthcoming trip to Amsterdam again! Do you have plans other than the screenings this time? đ
Half of these profiles and guest comments have to be art projects, right? Whew.
Interesting to hear about Schoenbrun’s career aspirations. They spoke briefly onstage when accepting the Frameline award, seemed pretty lowkey and all “gee whiz can’t believe I’m here”.
Saw Rose of Nevada. Great concepts, some lovely visuals, but I kept hankering for more.
Bill
I guess being sold to a murderer by your mum is the hot new fantasy? Interesting that these highly specific things come in waves in the slave community.
Iâm not going to rush my planning for the novel, no, I just have a weird phantom limb after finishing the previous one so feel like I ought to be in the middle of writing something big. But no fret, Iâm putting all the care in the world into this project.
Iâm currently returning to notes I made when I was 14! and thatâs really strange and emotional. I have this plan to weave old pieces of writing into the book, which I guess is a subliminal metatextual thing that only I will get something out of haha, but I really do think it will do something to the work that people will notice.
I watched my first Straub-Huillet today, âClass Relationsâ because I was interested in the Kafka connection.
I sensed a Bresson influence? The performances gave me that impression, and the acting made a real impression on me. But unlike Bresson thereâs something sort of uncanny or unsettling about the rigidity. Less âfloatyâ maybe.
The sense of space and place were also really impressive. The shots are of course very claustrophobic, but this setting of a supposed âAmericaâ in what is obviously Germany becomes a total nowhere. Most of the film is in interior spaces, and that ânowhereâ feeling is always something Iâm drawn to. I donât think Iâve ever written something set somewhere thatâs named. I actually remember you talking about something similar with âPermanent Green Lightâ which really contributed to the tone of the film. You and Zac really nailed that.
i very much appreciate your ac sentiment! i felt like i was melting today. did you ever notice that during a heatwave the sky isn’t really blue and it’s also not really sunny but it turns this weird and omnious pale yellow color? freaky.
“mordor” is a good way of describing castle faggot. it certainly does have a lot of really great evil energy. given your taste, i think you’d really enjoy that novella. it’s very tense and claustrophobic, and the way she was able to maintain a distance between the narrator and the plot despite the narrator’s often direct involvement in the story is inspiring.
i’m glad the heat has finally broken over there, even if the weekend was a bust. summer is here and here with a vengence. my sister is trying to get me to go to nyc on friday but between the holiday weekend, the world cup, and the heat, i’m thinking it’s a no-go. my algo decided i’m obsessed with phoebe bridgers though i don’t find her music that compelling. most of those new indie gods are just okay to me. her, geese/cameron winters, christian lee hudson, mj lenderman, etc. i love elliott smith, but i can only take so many people trying to be elliott smith. at least with cameron winters he’s trying to be some 70s art rock god, so he gets some points from me there. most of it is music for people who think that just kids by patti smith is the greatest book ever written, which sounds very judgemental now that i’m typing it but it’s not it’s an o b s e r v a t i o n.
happy what day is it?
also while this isn’t the stew’s i go to this is their flagship store and is a pretty good idea of what the interior is like https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zfX6jZdChVI. the one i go to is much more mazelike but you get the idea.
Hi!!
Somewhat later than planned, but Iâm finally backâafter visiting Nova Rock Festival (Itâd been ages since Iâd last been to a festival, probably because Iâm not too good with crowds, but Iâm glad I went; I had a lot of fun. We saw a ton of bandsâBreaking Benjamin, Melrose Avenue, A Perfect Circle, The Pretty Reckless, The Offspring, and The Cureâand we got really lucky with the weather too.), editing a really long, fully AI-generated book (I said yes to this project mostly out of curiosity and because it paid quite well. It was an interesting experienceâthere was a complete lack of âauthor voiceâ; the whole text sounded bland, and the content was extremely, maddeningly repetitive.), and surviving the worst of our current heat wave (Compared to this, we got so lucky last year. This is absolutely extreme.).
How have you been? Whatâs going on in your part of the world? What are you up toâif the heat allows you to do anything other than whatâs strictly necessary for survival?
Love doesn’t just feel âreally hornyâ for your ass, he feels like HE IS EXEMPLIFYING PENIS ITSELF, Od.
hey Dennis
don’t have much time these days, I’ll have to catch up on your posts
somehow became friendly again with an old writer I’ve known since I was a teen (he was already old then). I didn’t see RT yet I’ll tell you what I think once I do. Hope you’re doing well
July 1st
Ahhh so this is a very delayed comment from the day of the LSD blotter post due to some weird time vortex swallowing my comment. Have so much to ask and share today but unfortunately this comment never sent, altos.
June 28th
This didnât send yesterday. Weird.
Holy shit so cool!
My favorite are the Mickey from Fantasia, Syd Barret, Ganesh Elephant, and Bosch.
Bookmarked and sending to a friend whoâs apparently going on one last trip before their friend moves out of town. Give them something cool to look at.
Oh so ive been working on piano and such and such, broke but hopefully working at 7/11 soon and hopefully wont get held up for ransom, hahahâŠ.hopefullyâŠ
If I do iâll offer them all the donuts and coffee at the coffeee station for exchange of my life.
From an entryâ
they wear the same underwear/boxers as me which is strangely comforting.
In reference toâhaha…ha
I think ive not felt sweetness and shyness like this before in a while, maybe I see it in them, or im just being delusional as I seem to do in other occasions, like, oh I dont knowâŠthe word.
I like that they invited me to look at the music store by my house today spontaneously on the phone while i was in the midst of working on a project. I made a sacrfice and stepped out of my productivity zone, thats always the hardest.. I didn’t recognize them at first over the phone, then they said their name (Which I haven’t shared yet and probably wont for a while) and my voice very noticeably brightened in a way that im somewhat partly embarrassed by but not completely because how else will they know? Ya know?
Hmm, this may be melodramatic for here, haha/well thats where I am at right now.
Did you ever experience shyness when it came to commited/ emotional and long-lasting intimate relationships? I think there is a hesitancy considering I dont feel anybody should really be exposed to the unstable side of meâŠalthough in a watered down way im sure people have, the reminents of a shipwreck written all over my skin and, on ocassion, social media when I get really desperate from the pain. Although I dont want to do that because its humiliating and I’d rather not be seen as anything other than a “whimsy, curious, sapient go-getter with…something slightly off….but is very kind and sweet so maybe there is a reason.” No that I try to think too much about what people think of me. Other things too. Hope thats not too deep for here, friend.
Sometimes I really miss isolation and the freedom of absolute no human perception, or thinking of other people that came with that…well that is until you have to leave the house to score or something.
Im used to fleeting illusion of intimacy because it leaves less space for damage. Of course there are the suicide inducing pregnancy scares of a body you wish you could replace.
I hope this doenst sound terribly wallowing and gloomy aswell, haha. Very hopeful in a none self-sabotaging way.
I hope the heat has mellowed down and wrapped itself in a blanket cuz your frustration is tangible understandably as someone who duffers in heatâŠunless at the beachâŠoh I dont know but hugs from me and a cup of ice cream; of your favorite flavor, friend đ
Before I forget, are you a fan of Endless Dismal Moans?
Someone was talking about how âpsychotically unlistenable it isâ so I was expecting a big thing, but holy shit the project goes hard, and is not the most âcataclysmicâ sounding thing ive heard but maybe that says more about me. I mean, I listened to Frankie Tear drop for the first time at 12 while walking around my neighborhood at 2am
. Granted, it is very tragic how they ended, the lead singer dealing with mental illness stuff.
July 1st
Apoloiges for how delayed the first chunk of this comment was.
Anwyas, will be in Myrtle Beach tommorow
I also wish to share with you something beautiful,;..
BUt I dont want to overwhelm you with the addition of this old comment, which I hope such time traveling doesnt bother u considering its essentially copy and pasting…but it is my own voice, albeit delayed.
: )
Ive been trying to be mindful fo these things lateley.
GOod one friend!
Hi, As you’ve surely noticed, the blog hasn’t updated for the past two days. The reason is because there’s a huge power outage in my area of Paris. No electricity, no hot water, etc. This makes impossible for me to do the blog for now. And they’re saying they don’t know when the problem will be fixed. Apparently the power cables feeding my area were damaged/fried by the recent heatwave. The blog is panned to go on vacation from Sunday through Wednesday because I’ll be in Amsterdam screening ‘Room Temperature’. It’s possible I might not be able to post again before I leave, in which case the next new post would appear next Thursday, the 9th. I’m so sorry. It’s tremendously frustrating, and I so hope things will return to normal here asap. xo, Dennis
glad you didn’t melt due to the heat wave! hope the trip goes well!
Hi all, My electricity has bizarrely and miraculously returned. If it doesn’t break down again, the blog will return tomorrow. xo
I wondered if you were OK, but I figured it was probably a heat-related outage. Hope it stays on!
heyo, ignore my last message. or well, i’m gonna reiterate it here.
jeez the tempuratures in france are scary, glad you are okay. a friend’s dad had to be hospitalized. it’s been stupidly humid over here, thankfully not at all having any type of heat wave. (the highest it got here is 21c, and that’s like below the lowest it’s gotten over there.) but god, the humid over here. bleh. i’m so sticky and feeling like shit over here. which is the main cause for my absence.
prettyboy looks exactly like a friend, even sharing drawing vivid brutal stuff. though, i know for a fact it isn’t the same guy. mainly becuse my friend is like ten years older than prettyboy. though i wonder if there’s been people lying about their age downwards.
been mostly helping a friend with her rpg game, doing either some programming, minor art tweaks or mostly writing. though, i mean writing as in npc #22’s hint for getting something, and nothing like overarching stuff. so that means nosebleed has been way in the background. maybe once you’re back, i’ll have something on that front.
made myself a veggie soup to freeze down, woo! i’ve gone at least 3 months without any meat, eggs are a problem for me to get rid of, and i’m sure there are some products i have no clue about having some animal in it. i gotta double check that. but still!
anywho, i might not be able to catch rt in stavanger, but we have to hope either way. though knowing me, i’ll probably be too shy to talk to you (no offense!), hope the amsterdam screening goes well.
that should be all, if not. i’ll leave it for today’s post to leave over the vacation.
just to clarify becuse i forgot a line break. my first friend (and his dad) is french.
Love how youâre here in the comments! But sorry about the outage. Watched Christian Petzoldâs newest last night. Pretty good. I loved Barbara. Like, loved. As always, the acting and actors were fantastic in his newest. And slowly making my way through the Feneon, natch. Glad itâs cooler where you are, and perhaps lit up now? Take care, Don