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Spotlight on … Ai Cruelty (1973)

 

‘Several contemporary writers challenge neatly drawn, “naturalized” cultural categories by ernphasizing their own mixed ancestry and the multiplicity of their identifications. . . .

‘The poet Ai refuses to reduce her identifications to a single ethnicity and thereby calls cultural boundaries into question. Disturbance of boundaries–though by no means only ethnic boundaries–also characterizes Ai’s poetic practice and makes of that practice a powerful cultural critique.

‘Ai’s poems have the indirect effect of calling cultural definitions of all kinds into question. A dramatic monologuist, she invents voices for those whose entrapment in their cultural definition is most apparent. The speakers of her poems include the obscure and despised who are usually presumed to have no voice at all and those public figures who have become sheer icon, whose cultural meaning subsumes anything they can be imagined saying. In the crucible of her work, their unbearable identities seem always at the point of being shattered and remade, or simply shattered. The poems’ speakers by no means transcend cultural definition, but they speak in such a way as to profoundly unsettle the very positions from which they speak.

‘The poems achieve these effects by a variety of devices. As Bulgarian literary theorist Julia Kristeva argues, ambiguous image–images that obscure or transgress boundaries–tend to disturb the sense of settled identity. The speakers of Ai’s poems often describe themselves breaking the body’s boundary through violence, by transgressing laws and gender roles, or by crossing from the world of the ordinary into surreal, dreamlike experiences. The poems contain horrifying and unsettling images of the bodily remnants and effluvia that disturb because they seem neither human nor inhuman, as well as characters who disturb by their ambiguity, seeming both innocent and evil. The reader is both deeply engaged and deeply unsettled by the poems’ speakers; none of the positions constructed by the poems invites comfortable identification. Thus, the poems have the effect of destabilizing the reader’s position as well as the positions of their own speakers. By means of these destabilizations, Ai’s work performs a radical critique of the identities constructed by contemporary culture.

‘All Ai’s work is stark, harsh, and dramatic in style. But as her preoccupations move from personal violence to historic atrocity, her imagination opens out into the public arena; the domestic turns political. Throughout her poetry, a stripped-down diction conveys an underlying, almost biblical indignation–not, at times, without compassion–at human misuses of power and the corrupting energies of various human appetites.

‘Although virtually all the poems present themselves as spoken by a particular character, Ai makes little attempt to capture individual styles of diction, personal vocabularies; the result, if monotonous, is also striking. A Mexican revolutionary, an old woman with a young lover, the dead Robert Kennedy, a Vietnam veteran–all speak with a sullen, deadpan passion that galvanizes our attention through the voice’s intensity rather than by the accumulation of realistic detail. The foreshortened, nearly parodic vividness of Ai’s characters makes them closer to types than to historical portraits.’ — collaged

 

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Further

Ai @ Poetry Foundation
Ai @ Modern American Poetry
‘Cruelty’ @ goodreads
Ai, a Steadfast Poetic Channel of Hard Lives, Dies at 62
Ai, an Indigenous Poet You Should Know
A 1999 PBS Interview with Ai
Tribute to the poet Ai
Carolyne Wright Remembers Poet Ai
A Conversation with Ai
You write largely “persona” poems.
Ai 1947 – 2010
Assuming the Mask: Persona and Identity in Ai’s Poetry
Ai Ogawa’s Poetry and Being Incomplete
Walking, bleeding, breathing on the page: A tribute to Ai Ogawa
Write the Body Bloody: Violence, Gender & Identity in the Poetry of Sylvia Plath & Ai
Buy ‘Cruelty’

 

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Extras


“The Good Shepherd” by Ai


Marilyn Chin spoke about Ai Ogawa

 

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Interview

 

Michael Cuddihy: Would you like to tell us something about your childhood—what forces, conflicts, or events led you to poetry?

Ai: Well, when I was fourteen we lived in L.A. and I went to Mount Vernon Junior High. One day I saw an ad up on the board that said “Poetry Contest.” The poem had to be about a historical figure. But before I could enter the contest we moved back to Tucson. But I’d discovered that I could write poetry, and I’ve just continued from the age of fourteen, though there wasn’t much in my family life that encouraged it.

I remember I’d written once before, when I was twelve, at this Catholic school in L.A. The nuns said we had to write a letter in which we were a Christian martyr who was going to die the next day. They told us to go home and pretend this was our last letter. But, as I’ve said, I didn’t really start writing until two years later. It was a rather unconscious thing—as I grew older I realized that poetry offered a way to express things that I couldn’t do otherwise.

Lawrence Kearney: Some of the poems in Cruelty have that quality of “last letters” for me.

Ai: Maybe they do, I don’t know. Sometimes I can’t even remember the poems in Cruelty. I guess I don’t care about them as much anymore.

Kearney: I’d like to ask you about Cruelty while we’re on the subject.

Ai: Sure, I’ve got it right here—in case I need to refresh my memory. (Laughter)

Kearney: Which poems in the book do you feel closest to?

Ai: The only one I really feel close to at all is “Cuba, 1962.” For me, that’s the beginning of my new work, my new interest.

Kearney: In what sense?

Ai: The character speaking in “Cuba” seems to me a character with “heart,” a character larger than life, no matter how insignificant his own life is. . . . That’s what I think has happened in the new book, Killing Floor—the characters have moved beyond their own lives into another world.

Kearney: How would you characterize that other world? Or is there a way to?

Ai: I don’t know. It’s not so much a world as—what’s that science fiction term?—”dimension.” That other dimension, rather than inspiring fright (as it did when I was a kid and watched The Outer Limits) is simply an expanded consciousness.

Kearney: A sense of oneness with life? That kind of consciousness?

Ai: Not so much a oneness as a not being separate.

Kearney: An interesting distinction. . . . Sticking with Cruelty: many reviewers, although it seems to be missing the point, accuse the book of being obsessed with sex-and-violence. But to me, the poems are about loss. I remember you said once that Cruelty was a book of love poems.

Ai: I don’t remember when that was. The distinction between my “sex-and-violence” poems and others you might read is that in mine the characters love each other. The poems are not hate poems. A lot of women’s poetry approaches the theme of trouble between men and women in terms of hatred, I think, or “giving it to the man” in the same way that men have given it to women—and I never wrote from that point of view. Loss is very important to all the characters in Cruelty—even if they don’t identify it as loss—it’s something they can’t get or can’t get back. And so, there’s quite a bit of desperation in it, and I’ve used violence and sex as a way to express that desperation. . . . What I wanted—I did have a “grand reason” for the poems (at least after I’d finished the book)—I wanted people to see how they treated each other and themselves, and that’s why I accepted the title Cruelty for the book.

Kearney: What was your original title?

Ai: It was Wheel in a Ditch. It symbolized the wheels of the chariot in Ezekiel’s vision. Wheel as the circle, of course, and as the spirit of man trapped, stuck and not able to pull himself out.

Kearney: In a recent interview, Norman Dubie says something to the effect that the characters that speak in his poems are “contexts” for his own voice, rather than personalities separate from himself. Do you feel that way about the people who speak in your work?

Ai: No. I think that might be the fundamental difference between Dubie’s work and mine, or at least the way we approach our work. I know from the new book, Killing Floor, where I’m dealing with some historical figures, there will be people who will see similarities. But my characters are just who they are—they’re not, you know, vehicles for my own voice that much. My characters aren’t me; some are archetypes, some are people I knew, most are made up. I used to preface my readings with a statement that I hadn’t been pregnant and had never had an abortion—because people tended to believe all those things in Cruelty had happened to me. Which seems pretty naive.

Kearney: They couldn’t believe you could write those poems without an autobiographical intent.

Ai: Yes. It’s the tyranny of confessional poetry—the notion that everything one writes has to be taken from the self. Which for me isn’t true. If anything, my poems come from the unconscious—I’m irrevocably tied to the lives of all people, both in and out of time.

Kearney: Okay, but I’ve heard you talk at poetry readings about some episode from childhood or whatever that gave rise to a poem. I guess what I’m trying to get a handle on is where is Florence Ogawa then, in your poems? If it isn’t you speaking, then what kind of continuity of sensibility do you feel in your work? A continuity that would be “you” in the poems.

Ai: Hmmmm . . . Sorrowful? That life is sad, or is most of the time. In Cruelty you just see that side of it. As a child, there were good times, but they were always eclipsed by bad times. It’s like I haven’t been able to accept that I’m an adult, that the bogeyman isn’t just around the corner. Of course, that’s something one goes to therapy to deal with. When I was a child in San Francisco we never had enough money, and my stepfather would go down to the street and borrow some. He’d buy a hamburger and cut it in half for my sister and me for supper. Sometimes he’d spend the whole day borrowing money and by the next morning he’d have gotten some polish sausage and grits and we’d have milk and maybe even fried potatoes. But most of the time we just had S.0.S.—shit on a shingle. To this day I hate biscuits, because they were always the shingle. Bad times just around the corner.

Kearney: In reviewing The American Poetry Anthology, Louis Simpson says something to the effect that your work makes the work of your contemporaries look juvenile. Do you agree?

Ai: I don’t feel very comfortable assessing my own work. And I don’t feel very knowledgeable about contemporary American poetry. My tastes run to older poets’ work, poets like Galway, Kinnell and Phil Levine. Randall Jarrell. I love Cesare Pavese’s poetry. I loved The Lice by Merwin when it first came out. I like Gerald Stern’s work, and of course, Louis Simpson’s. Honestly, there are very few of my contemporaries whose work I admire or feel inspired by—I really like Steve Orien’s poetry and Jon Anderson’s and Norman Dubie’s. There is an obvious kinship, I believe, between Dubie’s work and mine. . . . My favorite poet for a long time has been Jean Follain, whose work is totally different from mine. The list goes on and on.

Cuddihy: I’m aware of your wide reading, particularly in Spanish and Japanese literature. Could you name any writers or poets among this group who may have influenced you?

Ai: I don’t believe my work is influenced by anybody. People may not believe that, but the hell with them. I am inspired though, by other writers. Miguel Hernandez, and Vallejo, when I was younger. I really love Hemandez’s work. I recognize Neruda as a master, though I don’t particularly care for his work. A Chilean poet, Enrique Lihn, his early work is very inspiring. My greatest inspiration comes from fiction, especially Latin American. Some Russian work, also. Juan Rolfo. Asturias’s Men of Maize. And, of course, Marquez—whom I really love. “Cuba, 1962” was inspired by reading One Hundred Years of Solitude, though I wrote it months later. Also, “The Woman Who Knew Too Much,” which I wrote a first draft of about the same time, which is in Killing Floor. Even then—this was the summer and fall of 1972—I was moving away from the poems in Cruelty. The bulk of the poems in Cruelty were written between March and July, 1972, when I was twenty-four. It’s always interested me about myself; an incredible maturity on one hand, and an incredible immaturity on the other. (Laughter) So, I was still able to put all those poems in Cruelty, and, at the same time, had already moved away from them.

Kearney: An obligatory question about craft. How do poems happen for you?

Ai: The way it does for most writers, I suppose. I might hear a tune, or see something, or read something, and that sets me off. . . . The other day I was reading the first chapter of Serenade by James M. Cain, a mystery writer of the ’30s. I’ve been working on a great poem (or at least what I hope is a great poem)—and I happened to start reading Serenade. They have a way, Cain and Raymond Chandler, of suspending you—of holding your breath while their characters talk. And you don’t breathe till they’re finished—whether it’s a chapter or a paragraph. I was sitting there in a local shopping mall and when I’d finished I said, “Boy, that’s great!” and I let out my breath and took out my notebook and just started writing.

There’s also another way I tend to write: everything I want to say is filed in my head. I work out the first stanza or first part or whatever in my head first. Before I write anything down, it’s planned—”planned” is the wrong word, it makes it sound like planned parenthood. I’ve got to have my character. I’ve got to know what kind of person he or she is. What are they doing? What would they wear? What colors do they like? Everything. What I’m doing, really, is painting—I’ve got to picture them before I can write. Like the poem “Childbeater” in Cruelty—I have to be that person.

Cuddihy: In a related area, how do you answer the criticism of some that too many of your poems are written from the male point of view?

Ai: Whoever wants to speak in my poems is allowed to speak, regardless of sex, race, creed, or color.

Cuddihy: You have been criticized by some black and feminist spokespersons for not identifying yourself sufficiently with either group. Is this because of your ethnically mixed background, or because, as a writer, you simply wish to be treated as an individual instead of being classified according to race or sex?

Ai: I’m simply a writer. I don’t want to be catalogued and my characters don’t want to be catalogued and my poems don’t want to be catalogued. If a poet’s work isn’t universal, then what good is it? Who the hell wants to read it.

Also, I don’t feel black. I can’t be more honest than that. I was telling Lawrence the other night that my mother was a maid and my grandmother was a maid; most of the black women I know were maids. I certainly relate to “the black experience” on that level, the human level of having to be a maid all your life. That means a hell of a lot more to me than an educated black person using a bunch of “dems” and “dats” when he writes poetry, even though he doesn’t talk like that himself. It’s pretentious. My experience is not “the black experience”—it’s simply the experience of having lived as a poor person.

 

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Book

Ai Cruelty
Thunder’s Mouth Press

‘When Cruelty was published in 1973, I read the collection repeatedly, transported by the mystery in the poems and by the politics of gender on almost every page. The way the first poem in the collection, “Twenty-Year Marriage,” opens is a clue to this poet’s psychology: “You keep me waiting in a truck / with its one good wheel stuck in a ditch, / while you piss against the south side of a tree. / Hurry. I’ve got nothing on under my skirt tonight.” The speaker’s insinuation is calculated. The intentional, invented tension breathes on the page. She has our attention. But Ai knows—like any great actor—that language and pace are also crucial. Sometimes a poem may seem like personalized folklore, a feeling culled from the imagination. The characters hurt each other out of a fear of being hurt, and often they are doubly hurt. Do we believe her characters because they seem to evolve from some uncharted place beyond us but also inside us? They are of the soil, as if they’ve always been here; but they also reside on borders—spiritually, psychologically, existentially, and emotionally—as if only half-initiated into the muscular terror of ordinary lives. All the contradictions of so-called democracy live in her speakers. Most of the characters in Ai’s poetry are distinctly rural, charged in mind and belly with folkloric signification, always one step or one trope from homespun violence and blasphemy. What first deeply touched me in Cruelty is this: Ai’s images—tinctured by an unknown folklore—seemed to arise from some deep, unsayable place, translated from a pre-language of knowing or dreaming with one’s eyes open, as if something from long ago still beckoned to be put into words.’ — Yusef Komunyaka

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Excerpts

Child Beater

Outside, the rain, pinafore of gray water, dresses the town
and I stroke the leather belt,
as she sits in the rocking chair,
holding a crushed paper cup to her lips.
I yell at her, but she keeps rocking;
back, her eyes open, forward, they close.
Her body, somehow fat, though I feed her only once a day,
reminds me of my own just after she was born.
It’s been seven years, but I still can’t forget how I felt.
How heavy it feels to look at her.
I lay the belt on a chair
and get her dinner bowl.
I hit the spoon against it, set it down
and watch her crawl to it,
pausing after each forward thrust of the legs
and when she takes her first bite,
I grab the belt and beat her across the back
until her tears, beads of salt-filled glass, falling,
shatter on the floor.

I move off, let her eat,
while I get my dog’s chain leash from the closet.
I whirl it around my head.
O daughter, so far, you’ve only had a taste of icing,
are you ready now for some cake?

 

The Hitchhiker

The Arizona wind dries out my nostrils
and the heat of the sidewalk burns my shoes,
as a woman drives up slowly.
I get in, grinning at a face I do not like,
but I slide my arm across the top of the seat
and rest it lightly against her shoulder.
We turn off into the desert,
then I reach inside my pocket and touch the switchblade.
.
We stop, and as she moves closer to me, my hands ache,
but somehow, I get the blade into her chest.
I think a song: “Everybody needs somebody,
everybody needs somebody to love,”
as the black numerals 35 roll out of her right eye
inside one small tear.
Laughing, I snap my fingers. Rape, murder, I got you
in the sight of my gun.
.
I move off toward the street.
My feet press down in it,
familiar with the hot, soft asphalt
that caresses them.
The sun slips down into its cradle behind the mountains
and it is hot, hotter than ever
and I like it.

 

The Kid

My sister rubs the doll’s face in mud,
then climbs through the truck window.
She ignores me as I walk around it,
hitting the flat tires with an iron rod.
The old man yells for me to help hitch the team,
but I keep walking around the truck, hitting harder,
until my mother calls.
I pick up a rock and throw it at the kitchen window,
but it falls short.
The old man’s voice bounces off the air like a ball
I can’t lift my leg over.

I stand beside him, waiting, but he doesn’t look up
and I squeeze the rod, raise it, his skull splits open.
Mother runs toward us. I stand still,
get her across the spine as she bends over him.
I drop the rod and take the rifle from the house.
Roses are red, violets are blue,
one bullet for the black horse, two for the brown.
They’re down quick. I spit, my tongue’s bloody;
I’ve bitten it. I laugh, remember the one out back.
I catch her climbing from the truck, shoot.
The doll lands on the ground with her.
I pick it up, rock it in my arms.
Yeah. I’m Jack, Hogarth’s son.
I’m nimble, I’m quick.
In the house, I put on the old man’s best suit
and his patent leather shoes.
I pack my mother’s satin nightgown
and my sister’s doll in the suitcase.
Then I go outside and cross the fields to the highway.
I’m fourteen. I’m a wind from nowhere.
I can break your heart.

 

Cuba, 1962

When the rooster jumps up on the windowsill and spreads his red-gold wings,
I wake, thinking it is the sun
and call Juanita, hearing her answer,

but only in my mind.
I know she is already outside,
breaking the cane off at ground level,
using only her big hands.
I get the machete and walk among the cane, until I see her, lying face-down in the dirt.

Juanita, dead in the morning like this.
I raise the machete—
what I take from the earth, I give back— and cut off her feet.

I lift the body and carry it to the wagon,
where I load the cane to sell in the village. Whoever tastes my woman in his candy, his cake, tastes something sweeter than this sugar cane;
it is grief.
If you eat too much of it, you want more,
you can never get enough.

 

Grandfather Says

“Sit in my hand.” I’m ten.
I can’t see him,
but I hear him breathing

in the dark.
It’s after dinner playtime.
We’re outside,
hidden by trees and shrubbery.
He calls it hide-and-seek,
but only my little sister seeks us
as we hide
and she can’t find us,
as grandfather picks me up
and rubs his hands between my legs.
I only feel a vague stirring
at the edge of my consciousness.
I don’t know what it is,
but I like it.
It gives me pleasure
that I can’t identify.
It’s not like eating candy,
but it’s just as bad,
because I had to lie to grandmother
when she asked,
“What do you do out there?” “Where?” I answered.
Then I said, “Oh, play hide-and-seek.” She looked hard at me,
then she said, “That was the last time.
I’m stopping that game.”
So it ended and I forgot.
Ten years passed, thirtyfive,
when I began to reconstruct the past.
When I asked myself
why I was attracted to men who disgusted me
I traveled back through time
to the dark and heavy breathing part of my life
I thought was gone,
but it had only sunk from view

 

 

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p.s. Hey. ** Niko, Hi, Niko. Yeah, bummer indeed. It’s hard to describe how the maze would have worked without showing you diagrams and things, and I’m not sure where they are at the moment. Basically, vaguely, there was a front part of the maze that was a replica of an abandoned and rather disorientingly laid-out hotel with lobby, hallways, doors to the rooms, some of which could be entered, etc., and you eventually entered a destroyed kind of employees only/behind the scenes space where the maze became very constricted and was threatening to collapse upon you and where you discovered something that explained everything you had experienced thus far. There was to be a very complicated sound and lighting design that would — as you said — be prerecorded and designed to confuse/attract. It would have been pretty incredible and quite a feat to pull off, but also prohibitively expensive, it turned out and alas. Wow, I have to say the novel you’re working on sounds really incredible! I don’t know if you’ve read my novel ‘The Marbled Swarm’, but it does some of the things you’re doing, albeit in a surely different way. I love the sound of that a lot! I passionately urge you to keep at it and not give up or worry about it failing. I would kill to read it, let’s say. That’s very exciting. Please feel free to share whatever is of interest to you to share as you build it. Thanks! ** Misanthrope, Good, good. I hope your today fell in line. ** Dominik, Hi!!! Ah, so glad you’re feeling right again. I’m bettering too, but it’s a weirdly slow recovery. What a strange effect. Oh, well, if he looks like twinkletwinkle then I think he and can work something out for sure. To be that loved, sigh, I’ll take it, ha ha. Love that is as accommodating to your every whim and wish as TheHeavenlyHellBoy’s butt, G. ** Sypha, Okay, gotcha. ** Steve Erickson, Yes, not a bad batch yesterday, I agree. And some new angles even. I’m assuming they’re comparing the new one to ‘Love’ because they mean it’s less flashy, more laborious, and badly written? ** David Ehrenstein, Wow, I haven’t seen Gerard in ages. He got old, just like the rest of us. No clue as to why I’m slightly surprised by that. ** Brian, Hi, Brian. Yeah, I had a soft spot for Hardcorestreetboy, ha ha. I think the problem is what people want ‘depth’ to mean. They usually mean psychological or emotional depth, but there are all kinds and varieties of depths, obviously. The prioritisation of exhuming emotional/ psychological trauma as art’s optimal goals is a big reason why most films, for instances, are so crap, if you ask me. Dumb example: even in disaster movies where all one wants is a visceral charge, there always has to be an estranged father/child or couple or whoever whose journey to mutual love/etc. is laced throughout and poisoning the fun because it’s set in stone that otherwise the film will be just a ride, but all that badly layered in phoney ‘human’ stuff does is just ruin the ride. Depth can be just fun or intellectual or whatever and still be fully deep, you know? Anyway … I’m better but it’s a slow, slow thing. Everyone I know who had this says it is, so I’m just waiting and trying to be patient. But I’m okay. I did book the US tickets, yes! I can’t believe it! ‘Sodom’, yeah, great. Luther Price’s stuff is very cool. I did a post about him. I don’t know if you saw it. Hm, tough call on that tricky trip to Light Industry. Especially solo. I’d probably end up with a ‘nah’, but I’m not so into going to the movies solo for some reason. You might go to a prom instead? I don’t know why that sounds so much more fun — my light fever might be to blame — but it does. Mostly yesterday was figuring out the US trip. It’s complicated because Zac and I want to stopover in Orlando for a few days on our way to LA to hit the theme parks, but we managed to sort it. Crazy! It’s been so long. And the producer of Zac’s and my new film is coming Paris this week, so I’ll get to meet with him and get updates on where we are in the fund-raising, which is info that Zac and I sorely need. So it was okay. It’s boiling hot here today, and I’m not expecting a miracle. How was Wednesday chez vous? ** Dalton, Hi, Dalton. My own personal theory is that the more destructive or self-destructive the stated desires or offers are, the more they’re likely to be just guys fantasising aloud and having an online circle jerk. Otherwise the sites where I find the escorts and slaves would have been shut down years ago. Simple logic, I guess. Yes, Portland does seem to be the hottest of the US hot spots for rebellion and resistance in recent months, wait, years. Interesting. Oh, man, I’m so sorry you’re in a downward swing inside and health-wise. Maybe the reopening is weirdly exaggerating things? I know that a lot of my friends are not feeling the bliss-out I do at the world returning in its familiar form. I hope you feel infinitely better as instantly as possible. They don’t show ‘The Great British Baking Show’ over here — well, not officially — but I saw some episodes the last time I was in the States, and, yeah, I ate ’em up, as it were. A bit of minor genius, that show, no? Yes, come visit France. I swear it’s really nice here. I’ll even show you the insider Paris scoop stuff. Take care, man. ** Okay. When I was just post-teen I was really, really into the book I’m spotlighting today. Recently I decided to go back and find out of Ai’s poems are still as blunt and powerful as I used to think they were. And I think they still are. Hence, the spotlight. See you tomorrow.

“Use flavoured over plain lube you’ll thank me”

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sashamiller, 19
Dubai

SASHA MILLER

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Rate per hour 300 €
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fransiscoums, 19
Kuala Lampur

I’m financially battered and jobless since pandemic started. I live in a conservative homophobic third world country where alot of lgbt people are being prosecuted since 2014.

So I’m really really looking for someone who could take care of me till i could back on my feet again after the pandemic is over.

I make music too. Here’s my 5th original song. Its short. Genre: metallic punk (probably).

Music is not really my passion. Just been doing it to kill time. My real passion…the only passion left inside of me… is to get out of this “goddamn religious fanatical conservative homophobic third world country”!

PS:
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fransiscoums (Owner) – Jun 1, 2021
I hate mosquitoes! I mean, I know I’m delicious but damn.

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Orientation Bi
Body Average
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frenchkiss1, 21
Paris

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Nonsense, don’t listen to them, he’s absolutely unbelievably staggering!

nervytop – Jun 4, 2021
Yes his butt looks very pretty in the moonlight, enough so that what you trade for it (an older generation iPad still boxed in my case) is probably worth it. But there’s something tragic and depressing about him and his foolish pride, so much so that when he started licking himself I burst into tears.

DildoBaggins – Jun 3, 2021
I am like AC, I flip back And forth real fast.
He is not some clean posh boy really, he is like some poorly drawn character from a perspective that seems loosely connected to life.
I am probably pretty crazy, but if I was laughing hysterically that is good right?

NonSuspiciousGuy – May 29, 2021
According to this site’s rules, an escort can only have one profile, he has not had less than 13 in the past 6 weeks, but he is not fake, just a real materialistic OCD mess and such other weirdness.

Anonymous – May 27, 2021
The poor thing, he plays like he’s the princess of the 8th but he lives in the 13th, go to his tiny place and you will have tea with his short hysterical and fat depressed mother before he leads you to the roof, can confirm that he is tall thin and has a pretty ass, on the other hand he licks himself vociferously and is rather vulgar.

Dick L, Uncut
Orientation Gay
Body Slim
Body hair Smooth
Smoking Yes
Speaks English, French
Position More bottom
Kissing Yes
FF Passive
S&M Yes
Dirty WS only
Safer sex Let’s talk
Rate per hour 70 €
Overnight 700 €

 

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TommyBoy, 20
Bratislava

Ass is just a game! So pay for one!

All what you want and ever imagine to know about ass.
I give you the way to go deep and wide.

Guestbook of TommyBoy

hurricanefag – Jun 9, 2021
I grew up beating off to you.

Pardonmyinterruption – Jun 6, 2021
Sorry Tommy, I tried.

fuckyouforeignguys125 – Jun 6, 2021
@Pardonmyinterruption That’s quite a feat you pulled off considering I’ve had the pix in this escort’s profile on my hard drive since 2003.

Pardonmyinterruption – Jun 6, 2021
I should add that he chuckled occasionally.

Pardonmyinterruption – Jun 6, 2021
I asked him not to rinse, wash or defecate beforehand. Upon arriving, I collected a stool sample. I rinsed him three times gathering the liquid in a plastic jug I brought with me. I examined and examined him rectally with a proctoscope and endoscope camera. I fucked him while saying all kinds of intimate, embarrassing things. I stretched his rectum with dildos, plugs, and balls. I fisted him, spontaneously and easily while he urinated involuntarily.

Dick L, Uncut
Orientation Gay
Body Athletic
Body hair Shaved
Smoking No
Speaks Slovak, Czech, Polish, English
Position Bottom only
Kissing Consent
FF Passive
S&M No
Dirty No
Safer sex Let’s talk
Rate per hour 100 €
Overnight 1000 €

 

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twinkletwinkle, 20
Seoul

Haven’t had sex for money in a long time

Take a seat…

Use flavoured over plain lube you’ll thank me

Bon appetit

Guestbook of twinkletwinkle

straight2gayalpha – May 22, 2021
You are very cute but not within.

twinkletwinkle (Owner) – May 22, 2021
It’s homophobic not to fuck me. I’m sorry I don’t make the rules

twinkletwinkle (Owner) – May 21, 2021
My boyfriend and I have been together since we were 13 (same birthdays) and we have a newborn son via surrogacy

twinkletwinkle (Owner) – May 21, 2021
I want to see how I look in the mirror with my eyes closed

twinkletwinkle (Owner) – May 20, 2021
I can’t smile on purpose, then my smile looks fake

twinkletwinkle (Owner) – May 19, 2021
I’m looking forward to wasting some time with you

Dick XL, Uncut
Orientation Gay
Body Slim
Body hair None
Smoking Socially
Speaks Danish, English, Korean
Position More bottom
Kissing Yes
FF No answer
S&M Soft SM
Dirty No
Safer sex Let’s talk
Rate per hour On request
Overnight On request

 

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Snickersaddict, 23
Stockholm

OK go:

Only for all day on yacht, all night in hotel.

I’ve now spent over a year sexually with the same two boyfriends without being paid a penny. And that means it is really time now to let go of those freeloaders.

I will spare you various narcissistic statements about my interests and my super interesting complex personality excerpt to say I have a little quirk that I don’t want to see any hair, except on my head.

Levin out

Guestbook of Snickersaddict

Goodstuffin98 – Jun 5, 2021
Let me fist you!! Allll im here for baby. Ask for my snap. I’m not paying either!!!

Anonymous – Jun 3, 2021
this is the profile of the other guy from the same city that got deleted 10 times in 1 month ……. the instagram “influencer”

constructionguy – Jun 3, 2021
I have a yacht and nice thick cock that fucks really good and never disappoints and big balls that shoot a real good load but when I tried to hire this guy he said “sorry, I never connect with anyone less than 9 inches”. Listen pretty boy, step outta the porn film and into real life and you might get rich.

Dick L, Uncut
Orientation Gay
Body Athletic
Body hair Shaved
Smoking Socially
Speaks Swedish, English
Position Versatile
Kissing Consent
FF Versatile
S&M No answer
Dirty No
Safer sex Sometimes
Rate per hour On request
Overnight On request

 

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Hardcorestreetboy, 24
Paris

Nihilistic twink into no taboo, 666 no mercy anal destruction.
Very gigantic dick.
Want to shove it in an ass as quickly as possible. Simple, isn’t it?
No rimming (traumatic experience).

Guestbook of Hardcorestreetboy

Hardcorestreetboy (Owner) – Jun 12, 2021
Absolutely NO guys involved in the “gay scene” or anything like that what so ever.
The gay “community” is incredibly toxic and full of warped, repulsive, sexual predators with serious mental health and emotional issues.
I am not interested in any of you despicable people.

Dick XXL, Uncut
Orientation Hetero
Body Slim
Body hair Smooth
Smoking Yes
Speaks French, English
Position Top only
Kissing No
FF No
S&M Yes
Dirty Yes
Safer sex Never
Rate per hour 1 €
Overnight 250 €

 

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Getmym8, 20
Leverkusen

My mate needs taking way forever. He needs to go the little bitch. No limits I’ll get the info I can that you want and you decide what you afford but I know most he just needs to go. Make him your cunt forever.

Guestbook of Getmym8

MystifyingMiasma – Jun 13, 2021
I came here because I don’t have any friends.

Getmym8 (Owner) – Jun 2, 2021
My mate’s in a wheelchair due to nerve damage in his feet. Everything still works it’s just his feet are fucked! His clubbing days are over.

Dick S, Uncut
Orientation Bi
Body Slim
Body hair Smooth
Smoking Yes
Speaks German
Position Bottom only
Kissing Yes
FF Passive
S&M Yes
Dirty WS Yes
Safer sex Never
Rate per hour 80 €
Overnight 300 €

 

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Unfortunately2000, 19
Kochi

I am ready to get married.. i make music and listen to music I honestly dont know where the relationship will go all i can say is fuck it yeah i be.. whoever want to marry me got the privilege to text me and talk to me but know I am business minded.. a goth boy tho.. thank you

Guestbook of Unfortunately2000

Fuck77 – Jun 6, 2021
He’s into Richard Wagner and double penetration.

LookingForSissies – Jun 4, 2021
Virgin LOL!!!!! I have a photo of him naked and covered with cum holding his Drivers ID if you’d like me to send it to you.

thatdude1020 – May 30, 2021
This boy’s cum loads are so huge they border on being really crass.

PizzaHot – May 26, 2021
Claims to be a virgin who’s saving it for his future husband but we shared a bottle of wine and I wound up pounding several loads into him and he didn’t act like that was out of the ordinary.

Dick S, Uncut
Orientation Gay
Body Average
Body hair Smooth
Smoking No
Speaks Japanese, English
Position Bottom only
Kissing Yes
FF No answer
S&M Soft SM
Dirty No
Safer sex Let’s talk
Rate per hour On request
Overnight On request

 

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methodactingartist, 20
Évry/Corbeil/Milly-la-Forêt

I offer for you something different than just sex. My parents own a really nice rustic house in the forest. They’re away traveling in Arabia. You can spend here more than just one night and I give you their bedroom with my friendly company.

Activities for you: Tennis court, small pool, ride on the HORSE in the forest, BBQ, piano and me!

One night – 150e
Check in 12AM, check out 12AM next day.
(activities dinner and breakfast are included. Alcohol please bring yours).

I know I look kinda young but it’s because of genetic reason and my type is kinda clichee – big muscles and a big d but it doesn’t really matter on this site.

Weekends are all of them almost reserved! So please do your reservation at week.

Guestbook of methodactingartist

pinkpluswhite – Jun 1, 2021
Couldn’t shake this feeling that his parents are buried in a spot near the tennis court that smells like cadaver

lookingforlovemaybe – May 25, 2021
I’m a natural slob, so I kind of empathize with messy people, but the house is completely disgusting. Hoarder, you can’t even walk, there’s clothes and trash and shit EVERYWHERE, a pool of cat vomit on the carpet I was warned to step over. I held my nose and did what I came for but then I drove into town and got a myself hotel room.

Dick M, Uncut
Orientation Gay
Body Slim
Body hair Not very hairy
Smoking Yes
Speaks French, English
Position More bottom
Kissing Yes
FF No answer
S&M Soft SM
Dirty Yes
Safer sex Sometimes
Rate per hour On request
Overnight On request

 

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PlsFuckAndFundMe, 18
Reseda

Im soooooooo horny!!! Sex is an act of mercy 😉

Shrooms 😶🌫️🙉

Guestbook of PlsFuckAndFundMe

notfivefeetapart – Jun 8, 2021
Good god damn pay him whatever he asks for sex no matter the cost. I’ll elaborate later.

notfivefeetapart – Jun 7, 2021
Hi. So straight up you’re a not too shabby looking. Maybe we could find a time to talk to and get to know each other, and see where it leads? Honestly, I have no idea of what I’m after.

I-Drink-Milk – Jun 7, 2021
He has ferrets that make his room very stinky, and his indifferent hygiene should be illegal, and one thing for sure is he doesn’t use deodorant or brush his teeth so don’t even ask, but if hard reality is your thing then fucking him is an insane privilege and 5 stars easily.

Dick L, Cut
Orientation Bi
Body Slim
Body hair Little
Smoking Yes
Speaks English
Position More bottom
Kissing Yes
FF Active/Passive
S&M Soft SM
Dirty WS only
Safer sex Let’s talk
Rate per hour 120 $
Overnight On request

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Invictus_perfume, 18
Nottingham

Nice if you read this text:
We are a couple (18 and 30) looking for brief encounters with one of us.

Ludo = manager
Tim = dancer* / musical artist / escort
(* which means yes he’s very flexible)

We are one of those couples who‘ll fight for their love Romeo & Juliet style. The world ain‘t be able to brings us apart.

Tim is obsessed with the number 78 so he wants men who’s age is really not far from 78, thank you.

Guestbook of Invictus_perfume

gunslinger1011 – Jun 8, 2021
You can bend Tim into any position you want. He’s also very perky so not only can you have amazing amazing sex with a human pretzel, he can also sort of hold a conversation.

ilostmyaccount – Jun 5, 2021
Normally I hate boring fems but Tim’s the rare exception.

Dick M, Uncut
Orientation Gay
Body Slim
Body hair Smooth
Smoking No
Speaks English
Position Versatile
Kissing No
FF No
S&M No
Dirty No
Safer sex Let’s talk
Rate per hour 130 £
Overnight On request

 

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urmomlovesME, 23
Helsinki

Straight boy needs money to invest in crypto. I am crypto crazy. All my money is in my crypto portfolio and that’s 50% down at the moment. What do I do now? Everything to invest more in crypto;)

Guestbook of urmomlovesME

hardix – Jun 2, 2021
Not sure but one time I had taken a .5 slam and G as well as smoking T and the top, who had been Partying with T, G, K, and MDMA all night, pissed in my ass, and even after what I had taken I could feel the effect of his piss permeating into my system and working its magic. It blew my brain to smithereens. For the next two days it was like I was watching every cartoon I’d ever seen in my life playing all at the same time.

Danny94 – Jun 2, 2021
Idk but I saw a video claiming that taking loads anally you absorb it and it can make you happier orbsomething

urmomlovesME (Owner) – Jun 2, 2021
I’m wondering if swallowing large amounts of cum can get you in a high-like state? I swallowed three cum loads the other night and that got me in a happy state. Not sure if you’d call it a high but it was def enjoyable. Any truth to the cum-high?

urmomlovesME (Owner) – May 28, 2021
If you don’t know how you’re going to get me horny yet, you can say you don’t know yet.

Dick L, Uncut
Orientation Bi
Body Athletic
Body hair Shaved
Smoking Yes
Speaks Finnish, English
Position Prefer not to say
Kissing Consent
FF Prefer not to say
S&M Prefer not to say
Dirty Prefer not to say
Safer sex Prefer not to say
Rate per hour On request
Overnight On request

 

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noindex_test, 21
Madrid

Hi and welcome to my profile. I am OLIVER, a 21-year-old Canarian boy. I am just testing something. I will delete my profile as soon as I am indexed because that is my fetish. The DELETE fetish. PLEASE DO NOT CONTACT ME! You can’t afford the 400 Euros per hour anyway. Sorry honey :*

Warsaw 3-8 June
Malta 8-11 June
Athens 11-15 June
Rome 15-17 June
Venice 17-21 June
Rome 21-22 June
Zagreb 22-27 June
Saarland 27-30 June
Berlin 1-16 July
Split 16-31 July
???? 1-8 August

Guestbook of noindex_test

imThirten – Jun 9, 2021
Read firs letet of each sentence

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marco49xxl – Jun 7, 2021
Would be fun to kick you in the balls repeatedly. Or spice it up with some punches. Hell I’d love to slice them off and take them home as a souvenir if the price isn’t too exorbitant.

Dick XXL, Uncut
Orientation Gay
Body Slim
Body hair Smooth
Smoking Yes
Speaks English, Italian, Arabic
Position Versatile
Kissing Yes
FF FF Active/Passive
S&M Yes
Dirty Yes
Safer Sex Let’s talk
Rate per hour 400 €
Overnight 4000 €

 

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Official_Famebitch_, 20
New York City

There are several things you should know about me:
I’m as cute and young looking as fuck.
I have an android.
My tastes in music vary from rock to classical to folk (what I consider witchy).
I am a witch, I have altars in my room, magickal items. I do witchcraft.
I enjoy poetry, the arts, Broadway shows, coffee shops, strand bookstore, on reading I am going to start reading more books to help me become more artistic. I’m hoping with me reading more and becoming more artistic it can help me develop a side hobby that makes me extra money.
I was diagnosed with a couple of mental issues (if you’d like to know more, just ask).
I work as a file clerk for two doctors (currently, looking at other hobbies that’ll turn into potential future jobs).
Last summer I had a mental breakdown for about 4 months and had sex with everyone I knew and didn’t know. I highly enjoyed it.
I have a deep voice to make you go crazy as fuck.
I’m looking for everyone except bears sorry.

Guestbook of Official_Famebitch_

shineboss – Jun 7, 2021
A huge shoutout to your parents for creating you gay😄😄✌️

Official_Famebitch_ (Owner) – June 5, 2021
Does any other escort keep lists/notes of their paid activity? I do. So far this year (2021) I’ve been hired 25 times (thru 5/5/21). Of those encounters; I’ve bottomed 17 times, been rimmed 19 times, took 8 loads in the ass, sucked 23 cocks, swallowed 15 loads, had men swallow mine 9 times, and I topped 1 time reluctantly. Does that make me a success, or just an average escort?

LonrelyBear – Jun 4, 2021
4th greatest moment of my life easily

Needahusbandforced – May 30, 2021
his (‿ˠ‿) was 🥶 but my ╭ᑎ╮was 🌋

gabrielthegreatx – May 29, 2021
🍑💥4⬆️🍆XL🐻🤯

kinkyescapist – May 25, 2021
just a 👄 and a 🍑

inyourmouth – May 21, 2021
This lad understands that being a great escort is quintessentially to cultivate his usefulness and selflessness and work, work, work.

Dick M, Cut
Orientation Gay
Body Slim
Body hair Smooth
Smoking No
Speaks English
Position More bottom
Kissing Yes
FF No answer
S&M Soft SM
Dirty WS only
Safer sex Let’s talk
Rate per hour 120 $
Overnight 700 $

 

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Ftmcumdump, 19
Berlin

You can knock me up 🙂
I really will if opportunity presents
I’m fertile so the risk is real

Guestbook of Ftmcumdump

nullandvoid – Jun 8, 2021
The idea of watching your belly swell and knowing that I did it to you drives me crazy.

robjock72 – Jun 8, 2021
i’d love to impregnate a hot boy like you, give you my babies for real, knock you up and make you mine 4ever.

ObristInvcta – Jun 8, 2021
I absolutely love spreading a dumb FTM bitch’s legs and fucking them for as long as it takes until the preg test comes back positive.

Dick No answer
Orientation No answer
Body Athletic
Body hair Not very hairy
Smoking No
Speaks German, Croatian, English
Position Bottom only
Kissing Yes
FF Passive
S&M Yes
Dirty No
Safer sex Never
Rate per hour 60 €
Overnight On request

 

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breakupwithyourbf, 18
London

Heya! Thanks for stopping by to hear a little bit about me. My main focus on here is to find older men to pay to tickle me senseless. It’s a huge fantasy of mine to be tickled by men until I’m in tears.

I’m in no way looking for sex but I am more than happy to give myself a facial while being tickled and maybe you could add to it. Also fine with being called a tickle slut n tickle whore etc.

Guestbook of breakupwithyourbf

breakupwithyourbf (Owner) – Jun 4, 2021
Want to learn how to fuck? Come practice on me😛

breakupwithyourbf (Owner) – May 23, 2021
Me getting my first dick, it took 2 hours!!

breakupwithyourbf (Owner) – May 17, 2021
Since almost every man here is asking to fuck me I would like someone to give me ideas on what toys I should use to practice for that.

Dick M, Uncut
Orientation Gay
Body Slim
Body hair Smooth
Smoking Yes
Speaks English
Position Prefer not to say
Kissing Consent
FF No
S&M Soft SM
Dirty No
Safer sex Let’s talk
Rate per hour 80 £
Overnight 250 £

 

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nothOrnyrightnow, 18
Bordeaux

There’s this stereotype where older rich gay men and young broke gay boys can’t be friends without having sex and I wanna be the one to prove that it’s not true.

I need money😔😔

Guestbook of nothOrnyrightnow

nothOrnyrightnow (Owner) – Jun 13, 2021
I know I’m pretty🤷

nothOrnyrightnow (Owner) – Jun 11, 2021
I have epilepsy. I haven’t had any seizures for about eight years now.

nothOrnyrightnow (Owner) – Jun 10, 2021
Don’t ask what gets me off because even I don’t know.

nothOrnyrightnow (Owner) – Jun 9, 2021
If getting me off without sex also gets you off, good. If not, also good. Just as long as I get off.

nothOrnyrightnow (Owner) – Jun 9, 2021
I am left (-green) because I’ve had to work hard all my life for everything I have today, which is not much, while another section of society lives in abundance without ever moving a muscle.

Dick L, Uncut
Orientation Gay
Body Slim
Body hair Little
Smoking Yes
Speaks English, French
Position No answer
Kissing No answer
FF No answer
S&M No answer
Dirty No answer
Safer sex No answer
Rate per hour 250 €
Overnight 2500 €

 

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TightPinkSpermBank, 19
Bethesda

I haven’t made one of these since Craigslist but I am beautiful, short, blonde, thin and have a weakness for letting grown men slide in my 19 y/o hole and pump it full of their seed and I need to hustle for the coin rn.

Guestbook of TightPinkSpermBank

TightPinkSpermBank (Owner) – Jun 3, 2021
In real life I’m a potter and an art student at Alfred University. My favorite movie is The Fifth Element and I love Minecraft.

evilalex – Jun 1, 2021
You may want to stick it in the freezer.

TightPinkSpermBank (Owner) – Jun 1, 2021
Earlier today I took 3 huge loads from a 10in bear. He told me to push them out into a cup and save them for the next time he comes to breed me.

dave12344 – May 30, 2021
His ass is (◞º❒º)◞₎₎(◟º❑º)◟⁾⁾➟➠➨

TightPinkSpermBank (Owner) – May 24, 2021
Just part of being a slutty skanky nasty cumdump whore. These days I welcum all STIs, another trophy on the shelf, if you will, to share with others similarly minded.

gowiththeflow – May 24, 2021
warning this little pig gave me chlamydia

Masterthroaway – May 22, 2021
So i got a simple idea. i want to come over to your house very angry and rape you until you die.

TightPinkSpermBank (Owner) – May 22, 2021
Took 4 loads last night from a man who turns out to be a school friends dads fiancé😈

Dick S, Uncut
Orientation Gay
Body Slim
Body hair Not very hairy
Smoking Yes
Position Bottom only
Kissing Yes
FF Passive
Dirty Yes
SM Yes
Safer sex On request
Rate per hour 1 $
Overnight On request

 

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makemesleepyandurs, 21
Detroit

Call me Kenzo. Before covid boredom made me horny, my job was making sushi. At odyssey rn.standing by the bathroom. Come get me. Ask me to come to your vehicle or hand me.something here to take inside.. If you show interest I’ll give you information to make sure you know its me. Straight drunk Asian wearing short pants with a fantasy of being given something to make me sleepy and taken.

Guestbook of makemesleepyandurs

Anonymous – Jun 6, 2021
4:38 AM

Dick S, Uncut
Orientation Gay
Body Slim
Body hair Smooth
Smoking Socially
Speaks Japanese, English
Position Bottom only
Kissing Yes
FF Passive
S&M Yes
Dirty Yes
Safer sex Never
Rate per hour 300 $
Overnight 800 $

 

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longliveme, 20
Tokyo

Hello there gloomy asocial Japanese boy here looking for older men to corrupt me completely and turn me into a complete slut. The thrill of the concept of being used for sex is very addictive and I would like to dive into it completely. I want to be used and played with all the time until your money runs out. I want to think of nothing but being played with and used all the time from the very first second our eyes meet until you can’t afford me anymore. I’m horny all the time and can cum multiple times and I want that fact to be taken advantage of. I think I am a nympho.

Guestbook of longliveme

Idonotknow – Jun 5, 2021
There was a Aspergers children’s club , where he came every day. There he made various origami crafts , and in the summer he went to Aspergers camp for one month . There he lived in a house where there were a lot of Aspergers children , and there were teachers who wathed over them.

JoeSummers96 – Jun 4, 2021
Ah. I just knew that longliveme? was fairly into the idea of being snuffed, so I wondered if you were him. Guess not. Damn it.

longliveme (Owner) – Jun 4, 2021
Unfortunately I am not the person you are looking for.

JoeSummers96 – Jun 4, 2021
This might seem like a random question, but was your username on deviantart longliveme? (with a question mark). His name was Japanese, and he was often the subject of really extreme guro art.

Dick M, Uncut
Orientation Gay
Body Slim
Body hair Smooth
Smoking Yes
Speaks Japanese, English
Position Versatile
Kissing Yes
FF Versatile
S&M Yes
Dirty WS only
Safer sex Rarely
Rate per hour On request
Overnight On request

 

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Icallitdarkness, 21
Rotterdam

created, deleted, created, deleted, and now again created same account to remain in touch with a Sugardaddy previously considering me..

hoping the Sugardaddy will still consider me if I do as instructed, but won’t be suprised if I have run out of my chances with him as warned and that he has long moved on and forgotten about me.

will update more, not sure what else it can even say at this point. feeling a bit hopeless and pathetic the longer this goes on.

Guestbook of Icallitdarkness

Anonymous – Jun 3, 2021
For the millionth time I tell every guy I’m fucking I love them, you psycho!

Icallitdarkness (Owner) – Jun 3, 2021
You left out the part where we had sex almost every night for more than 3 weeks and you told me you loved me!

TunnelVision – Jun 3, 2021
My offer stands.

Anonymous – Jun 3, 2021
I am the “sugar daddy” in question. I fucked this femboy as part of a group thing in January. Literally the next day he started stalking me. He’d leave Post-It notes with messages under my windscreen wiper. When it was wet weather they’d be in plastic ziplock bags. He must’ve followed me around doing this because I could drive 40-50 miles somewhere and still find notes when I returned to the car. Work, Gym, Home, Friends, Parents, Shops – nowhere was safe. He would crouch in the bushes outside my bathroom window waiting for me to use it then rise up and put his head through the window and inhale. My gardener caught him. I had to get a restraining order against him, and now he stalks me online. It’s a shame he’s so insane because he’s hot and was a great fuck.

TunnelVision – Jun 3, 2021
I’m not who you’re looking for but if you decide to move on I’ll shower you with so much love and sex and money you won’t want for anything for the rest of your life.

Dick M, Uncut
Orientation Gay
Body Slim
Body hair Smooth
Smoking Socially
Speaks English, Dutch
Position More bottom
Kissing Yes
FF Versatile
S&M Soft SM
Dirty WS only
Safer sex Sometimes
Rate per hour On request
Overnight On request

 

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TheHeavenlyHellBoy, 20
Zurich

Submit myself to dom/violent/macho/brutal guys to serve as a balloon.

My talents:
Rolling shovel
Force suck
Be insulted
That someone spit at me
Watch illegal porn together
Be strangled
To be attached
Everything buttocks

My biggest success is rape, a real nasty rape where no matter what I say you do what you want even if it means my ass is bloodied and making popping and ripping sounds.

MY TATTOO PROVE THAT I’M ALL IN PIG

How to start a conversation with me:
Hello, my name is *****, I live in Zurich, I would like to rape you at my place, I want to rape you for 3 hours, Can we meet at 20:00 today?

Guestbook of TheHeavenlyHellBoy

TheHeavenlyHellBoy (Owner) – Jun 9, 2021
Don’t be afraid.

TheHeavenlyHellBoy (Owner) – Jun 7, 2021
I broke my left leg in 5 places, still available though.

TheHeavenlyHellBoy (Owner) – May 26, 2021
I am also into eating scat. Big time. Oh, and puke. Can drink piss too but it seems kinda lame.

TheHeavenlyHellBoy (Owner) – May 25, 2021
Get the picture?!

TheHeavenlyHellBoy (Owner) – May 25, 2021
To those of you asking for a normal vanilla fuck I am far beyond that and absolutely disgusting and I’m extremely proud of it. I gave my virginity away at 13 to a 28yo man that I met online with a fat 9” cock and a registered sex offender pedophile. I let him molest me, whisper disgusting things into my ear as he choked me and raped my hole and spilled his seed inside me multiple times. I let him get me so high and drunk I barely noticed him inject me with meth then choke and slap and breed me for few more hours until my parents got home hiding him in my closet. After they went to bed we snuck out the window and he continued raping and abusing me in his car then finally strangled me until he thought I was dead and dumped my body in a forested area. When I woke up I jacked off thinking about it. So no thank you.

Dick L, Uncut
Orientation Gay
Body Slim
Body hair Not very hairy
Smoking Yes
Speaks German, English
Position Bottom only
Kissing Yes
FF Passive
S&M Yes
Dirty Yes
Safer sex Never
Rate per hour 100 €
Overnight On request

 

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247toy4VIP, 18
Paris

Age: 18 ✅
move out France ✅

No escort !!!
Looking for a New 2/7 Keeper 💰⛓

For 24/24 live-in toy life only
my current keeper Mr. Modality will discuss with you the terms of the transfer ✈️📦

Guestbook of 247toy4VIP

MrModality – Jun 3, 2021
This boy (I can’t stress this enough) SHOULD BE IN JAIL. Period.

MrModality – Jun 3, 2021
*VERY IMPORTANT*: If you do not know how to manipulate a very manipulative boy then don’t even bother.

MrModality – Jun 3, 2021
You will never be right in the head again when he takes you for the scariest rollercoaster ride of a mindf**k ever!

MrModality – Jun 3, 2021
Get him the fuck away from me!

Dick M, Uncut
Orientation Gay
Body Slim
Body hair Shaved
Smoking Socially
Speaks French, English
Position Prefer not to say
Kissing Yes
FF No answer
S&M Soft SM
Dirty WS only
Safer sex Occasionally
Rate per hour On request
Overnight On request

 

 

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p.s. Hey. ** Misanthrope, Probably, yeah. Finagle the grind. ** Sypha, Hi. Oh, so you’re just not curious enough about the films to watch them? That labyrinth-obsessed person sounds interesting, so if his name ever pops back into your head. …** Bill, Hi, B. Oh, funny that I didn’t find ‘Grass Labyrinth’ in my search. It was ages ago though. Yeah, no, I’m about 90-something percent sure I’ll never read Lovecraft for all kinds of reasons. ** Dominik, Hi!!! Oh, no, our love of the other day was a complete failure. Eek. Ouch, that sounds intense. I’m just vague and kind of listless. High hopes that you’ve woken up today with a Popeye arm. Placebo for the win! Thank you for the sickness eating monster. I hope he does it by inhaling and not, you know, by chewing or something. Well, depending on what he looks like, I guess, ha ha. Love concentrating all of his efforts on making Barbara Cookie the new Ru Paul, G. ** _Black_Acrylic, Thanks, Ben. And, on the other matter, the thanks are all and passionately mine. ** Steve Erickson, Hi. Everyone, The hits keep coming in the form of Steve Erickson’s newest sonic output aka ‘Storefront Blues’. What I’ve heard about the new Noe is that it has perhaps his worst title yet, ‘Vortex’, and that it’s ‘in the mode’ of ‘Love’, which bodes very poorly, and that it has his biggest budget yet. I expect very little. I thought ‘Lux Aeterna’ was him running on fumes and wanking. I’d love to think he’ll use this occasion to start adventuring again and doing something he hasn’t done already one too many times, but I don’t have much hope. Today I’m not 100%, but the effects do seem to be waning incrementally. Thank you for asking. ** Niko, Hi, Niko. Good to see you! Thank you, I think I’m on the mend. Yes, were working on a theater piece that would have involved the audience walking through labyrinth where the piece would transpire via special effects and robot actors and an elaborate sound design and so on, but it was too unfeasible/ expensive ultimately. It was called ‘Last Spring’, and it evolved into an opera project that would have been a collaboration with Scott Walker, but that never happened either, sadly. It would have basically been in the form of a more sophisticated and meta and narrative walkthrough Halloween-style maze. It would have been pretty great, I think. We got pretty far in the planning. Fuck money, you know? How are you? ** David Ehrenstein, Yes, I presume that’s a lot of people’s favorite, understandably. ** Dalton, Hey there, Dalton! Yeah, upon finding that family or whatever that surrounded their home with a maze, I immediately wanted to do that too, although I think I would definitely make sure there was a secret extreme short cut. I totally, totally agree about the maze in the middle of nowhere ideal. I’m surprised some Land Artist hasn’t done that. Unless they have. I hope you like ‘Frisk’, natch. How’s stuff? Life going okay? Reopening world floating your boat? ** Brian, Hi, Brian. Ha ha. Wait, I wonder if the ‘maz’ in amazing is related to ‘maze’. Wouldn’t shock me. No, no Lovecraft for me. I think maybe I was assigned a story of his back in high school or something, and I think I remember even at that naive age thinking his writing was bleah. Some of the greatest books and films and stuff in the world aren’t deep in the sense capital D depths. You know? ‘Playtime’, just to cite the most obvious. Like I probably said, the shot effects are very odd, like they want to be a flu or something, but they have no substance, so it’s like wearing an actual illness’s costume sort of. Yesterday wasn’t much due to this drifty, weird thing in me, but today I think I’m going figure out and maybe even book a long, long-awaited upcoming trip to my hometown LA, which will be momentous, if so. So I’m alright. How did you use Tuesday’s material? ** Right. It’s that monthly day when the escorts rent out DC’s for 24 hours. Fraternise with them as you see fit. See you tomorrow.

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