‘Riot Grrrl saved my life. Reading those zines when I was a teenager saved everything. Man, I was in Alabama. And in The CD Version of the First Two Records, Kathleen Hanna was saying, “There’s no such thing as a gender analysis without a race and a class analysis. There’s no such thing as a race analysis without a gender analysis.” It’s before we started using the word intersectional. In my head, there was this trifecta of identity and what it means to be someone, but this felt so 3-D. When you’re fifteen and you’re a faggot and people are fucking with you, and someone’s like, “Being told that you’re a piece of shit and not believing it is a form of resistance”—it was really fucking rad. Riot Grrrl basically taught me that I didn’t have to kill myself. It really helped.
‘When I was in tenth grade, I had a teacher who said, “Gay people are a genetic mistake.” I hadn’t come out, but I knew I was gay. I wrote Kathleen Hanna a letter about it and she wrote me back. I still have the letter to this day. She was like, “Yeah, it really sucks that people are acting that way, but you’re going to get through it, you’re going to be fine,” and she sent me the first Le Tigre CD.
‘Before I moved to California, I lived in Indiana for a little bit. There was a band there called PANTyRAiD, who toured with Le Tigre, and I got to dance for them at their shows. At one show in Chicago, Kathleen Hanna started talking to me, and it was the first time I’d met her; I was beyond awestruck. She was like, “Hey, I remember you. Didn’t you send me a letter one time?” She told me she had saved my picture that I sent her when I was sixteen and used it as a bookmark for years. I always thought that was really, really sweet. That’s when I thought, I’m going to do this for the rest of my life.’ — Brontez Purnell
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‘Transgressive, foulmouthed, and brutally funny, Brontez Purnell’s 100 Boyfriends is a revelatory spiral into the imperfect lives of queer men desperately fighting the urge to self-sabotage. As they tiptoe through minefields of romantic, substance-fueled misadventure—from dirty warehouses and gentrified bars in Oakland to desolate farm towns in Alabama—Purnell’s characters strive for belonging in a world that dismisses them for being Black, broke, and queer. In spite of it—or perhaps because of it—they shine.
‘Armed with a deadpan wit, Purnell finds humor in even the darkest of nadirs with the peerless zeal, insight, and horniness of a gay punk messiah. Together, the slice-of-life tales that writhe within 100 Boyfriends are an inimitable tour of an unexposed queer underbelly. Holding them together is the vision of an iconoclastic storyteller, as fearless as he is human.’ — FSG
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Me and all the rest of the boys on the block had learned a very trash and burn style with sex: no guilt, no morals, no new boyfriends. It was the rule.
Every once in a while two of us would pair up and monogamy about it while the rest of us talked shit: “Not cool, not anarchist—hoarding all that dick like that—sexual capitalist!” (We said shit like this.)
Sometimes the need for normality would pinch me in the ass. Some new young thing I was dating would seem like a good idea and I would go wander off in bliss with him for awhile, but under no circumstances could he meet my slutty best friends. They would all fuck his brains out, for sure. I would look at the little chicken and think, “The second I wife him he’s gonna fuck all my friends,” or “Actually, he’s probably already fucked all my friends,” or, the even more precise realization, “Wait—I’VE FUCKED ALL MY FRIENDS.”
(I wanted to go bathe in penicillin.)
It was a peculiar coven and we kept the circle open. I had many “brothers.” I often called on Nathan on nights when I couldn’t scratch my own itch. Nathan lived next door. I had fucked him for five years. His name was Nathan Alexander Carmichael. He was a white boy. (Hence the name Nathan Alexander.)
We had fucked each other so much that sex at times felt like scraping the last bit of toothpaste out of a tube that had shot its last load two paychecks ago. We had to re-invent our fuck buddyhood. The world moved so goddamn fast—it was all bills heartache and defeat—those moments of tenderness sometimes had to be engineered.
We did terrible things to each other. It was exciting.
It was his turn to top. He made all the rules; for this session we sat on a clean white bed sheet naked in his room, across from one another. We were only allowed to talk through text messages. He texted, “Let’s pretend we’re Boyfriends and make love.”
“Ok,” I texted back. He moved to my side of the bed. “Only I can speak now—lay on the floor.” He bound my hands and feet together with suspension ropes and blindfolded me. He left the room and I heard him set something down on the floor, heard him rubbing his hands together. He put something under my nose. “Smell,” he said. It was basil. He had to have seen me smile. He put another object to my nose—it was a cloth of some sort with Terre d’Hermes on it, his favorite cologne. I couldn’t feel my body anymore.
“Open your mouth,” he said, and I did. He put a piece of cake in it. He rolled me on my back and undid the cuffs on my ankles. He pulled my legs up and wrapped them around his hips and entered me. “I own you,” he whispered. He forced a pillow on my face and began to fuck me, hatefully. Within a minute he was done. He put a blanket over me and laid on top of me. He rubbed my lips with his fingers and kissed me gently. He lifted up the side of my blindfold and exposed my left eye. I saw him wink at me. I was freed.
I put my clothes on and walked out the door. I turned to see him standing in the doorway, waving at me. I looked at him and saw the same thing I saw when I looked at my right hand: a life line, running strong and clear through the center.—
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100 Boyfriends Mixtape (The Demo) by Brontez Purnell
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‘During her teenage years, Fini suffered from rheumatic conjunctivitis, which forced her to have her eyes bandaged and to live in total darkness for two months. She later recalls that this experience really helped to develop her imagination and to conceive complex visual imagery in her mind. The need to bandage her eyes may also have also inspired a later love of being masked. By the age of seventeen, Fini was already exhibiting her portraits in Trieste, and frequenting the artistic and literary circles of the town, where she was generally considered highly intelligent (she had read Freud before she turned sixteen) and sensitive.
‘In 1931, she moved briefly to Milan and then to Paris where she became acquainted with Carlos Carrà and Giorgio de Chirico; both became profound influences on the aspiring young artist. By this point, Fini was an ambitious 24 year old, with, as art critic Sarah Kent writes, “a gift for friendship – people loved her warmth, intelligence, and beauty”. It was at this time that she met Max Ernst, who became her lover and introduced her to the Surrealists, including Man Ray, Salvador Dalí, and Henri Cartier-Bresson along with many other painters and writers of the group.
‘Fini quickly became an integral part of the Parisian art scene and social circles. She became known for her eccentricity, flamboyant personality, and particularly theatrical ways of dressing. Art critic Sarah Kent says, “She would dye her hair blue, orange, red or gold and attend private views and parties dressed as a man, or wearing nothing but white boots and a cape of white feathers”. During this time, she was also exhibiting her work in Parisian art galleries – one of her first exhibitions was at Christian Dior’s gallery that was run by Dior before he became an acclaimed fashion designer.
‘Throughout this time, Fini also worked as an accomplished portraitist (painting portraits of many celebrities and visitors to Paris, and especially of her friends including writer Jean Genet, actress Maria Casarès, ballerina Margot Fonteyn, and the socialite Hélène Rochas) as well as an illustrator, illustrating Edgar Allan Poe and Shakespeare, and often donating her drawings to new emerging writers. Besides being generous, she was talented, glamorous, and often perceived as being profoundly controversial. Art critic Catherine Styles McLeod describes her as “magnificent, perturbing, mocking enigmatic, terrible, and compassionate”. Art critic Joseph Nechvatal further enhances her colorful existence in that he writes, “her wild lifestyle, open bisexuality, and infamous ménage à trois relationships shocked even the Parisian café society”.’ — The Art Story
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‘Originally published in French in 1979, Rogomelec was the third of Leonor Fini’s novels. All the qualities of the paintings for which she is famed can be found in it: an undermining of patriarchy, the ambiguities of gender and the slipperiness of desire, along with darker hints of cruelty and the voluptuousness of fear. This novella’s ambiguous narrator sets off for the isolated locale of Rogomelec—where a crumbling monastery serves as a sanatorium and offers a cure involving a diet of plants and flowers—and moves through a waking dream involving strangely scented monks, vibratory concerts in a cavernous ossuary, and ritualist pomp with costumes of octopi and shining beetles. As the days unfold, the narrator discovers that the “the celebration of the king” is approaching, the events of which will lead to a shocking discovery in Rogomelec’s Gothic ruins. This first English translation includes 14 drawings by Fini that accompanied the novella’s original publication.
‘Born in Argentina and raised in Italy, Leonor Fini (1907–1996), concluded a rebellious youth with a move to Paris and a career in painting. Her six decades of work as artist, illustrator, designer, and author bore close ties to the Surrealist movement, but though the Surrealists saw her as one of them, she herself never identified as a Surrealist. Rejecting the role of muse, her work focused on portrayals of women as subjects with desire as opposed to objects of desire, and was groundbreaking in its explorations of mythology, androgyny, death, and life as Mannerist theater.’ — Wakefield Press
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Angels of Anarchy: Sphinx – Leonor Fini and Surrealism
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‘The morning meant hangover and strong coffee, juices delivered automatically from the smoothie bar Elena preferred. They lived together in a loft in Brooklyn Heights, no mortgage just yet because the question of children still hung in the air.
‘They had met at a reading given by Colson Whitehead where a coked-out V, the opener, stumbled through one of his better stories and Elena, bored, beautiful Elena, was intrigued by his delivery. They hooked up several times, usually fumbling after drinks, and he accompanied her to more than one event, but while the initial spark was there it was somehow clear that their relationship had no future. V was a dirty kid from Indiana, no money to speak of, living in a sublet in Bushwick with an even-tempered young couple and an app development wiz, while Elena had her own place (the loft) and put on her own shows in outerborough galleries, and had a trust fund courtesy of her father’s copper mine in Argentina.
‘It wasn’t that Elena was shallow, more that Elena didn’t want to engage in anything resembling a serious relationship with someone not serious, and the truth was that V was simply a mess. None of his work had taken off, and as a person he was more interested in partying than living. And while Elena could party with him, she had explained multiple times that she didn’t just want someone to do drugs with.
‘“I like you a great deal,” she said in perfect, accented English. “Sometimes I even think I am in love with you. But I cannot be with you, because of how you are.”
‘So one day, filled with a Gatsbian passion to make Elena his, V sat down and wrote a novel. The entire process, fuelled with illicit adderall and pot after pot of strong coffee, was completed in ten months, an insane amphetamine trip through his own memories. He mined his relationships, his great passionate love affairs, his pathos, all that had befallen him in the brisk 27 years of his life.’ — Alexandrine Ogundimu
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‘Considerations of self erasure are impossible if you are never really there. The writing has an exciting brutality and has me hungry for more. Highest possible recommendation!’ — Adam Hudson
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Audrey Szasz is a London-based writer and poet. Her experimental narratives weave exotic prose-poetry with surreal imagery and transgressive satire.
‘Audrey Szasz is a deviant genius of surreal and perverse image-play; her subversive imagination shocks and thrills in equal measure. She may well be the strangest and most disturbing new writer now at work in Britain. If she was in France she would be fêted.’ — Todd Swift
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‘Tears of a Komsomol Girl is an experimental concept novel based on the real-life crimes of Soviet serial killer Andrei Chikatilo, who was finally executed in 1994 having been convicted of murdering 52 people between 1978 and 1990.
‘USSR, Rostov, 1980s. Arina, a young girl — insolent, obnoxious, but most importantly musically gifted, poses as the ideal student — upstanding, hardworking, and a member of Komsomol — the Soviet Union’s Communist Youth League. Fantasising unrealistically about becoming an internationally famous classical violinist, and yet simultaneously behaving as cynically and hypocritically as she can, Arina uses her Komsomol duties as a pretext for strutting unsupervised around town of an evening, fraternising with soldiers and Party bureaucrats alike, compulsively lying to cover her tracks. And yet her sleep is punctuated by obsessive and oppressive dreams concerning a certain killer who’s been on the loose for years — a ruthless, sadistic and thoroughly vicious opportunist referred to in rumours as Citizen X, the Rostov Ripper, or simply Satan — a monster who brutally slays children and adolescents having assaulted them at knifepoint. As the killings become ever more tortuous and frenzied, and the number of innocent victims tragically swells, it’s only a matter of time before Arina finally crosses paths with Satan, and her nightmares turn into a reality.’ — ILP
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Audrey Szasz // Marquis de Sade // Cut-up of Justine
Audrey Szasz // Have You Seen This Girl?
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‘Any art that co-operates with the prevailing ideological structure of power can be subsumed under an ‘aesthetics’ (Vichnar and Armand, 2017). On this principle, the association of the avant-garde throughout its history with a generalised anti-aesthetic bears within it broadly political connotations of economic and class antagonism, traceable to its origins in the militant revolutionary discourses of the nineteenth century across the political spectrum. Yet the notion of a specifically proletarian or working-class avant-garde is rife with paradox – stemming firstly from the fact that, historically, it has been the avowed function of the avant-garde to affect revolutionary class consciousness in the first place, and secondly from the necessity to contest precisely those ideological forces seeking to legislate the meaning of work and its role in political ontology.
‘Though having evolved in direct symbiosis with market capitalism, the avant-garde – in its militant, anti-institutional phase – emerges from an adversarial stance towards the ‘abstraction’ and ‘impoverishment’ of labour in the production of cultural surplus-value. In refusing the industrial work ethic as alienated and dehumanising – and l’art-pour-l’art-isme as its mystification – this emergence (from Blanqui and Bakunin to the Situationists and Arte Povera) manifests as a form of radical counter-work, one which sought to circumvent what Nick Land has called ‘the rage of jealous time’ and ‘matter’s positive effacement by utilitarian society’ (Land, 1992: 65). In doing so it salvages notions of usedness and uselessness (as determined by the capitalist work ethic), and entropy (as later delineated in cybernetics), for a critical affirmation of the art (or anti-art) of everyday life. Land draws on Georges Bataille’s concept of general economy and ‘expenditure without reserve’ (Bataille, 1991: 21ff) to posit such a counter-work in a virulently antagonistic relation to the logic of surplus production. ‘Expenditure without reserve’ opens within cultural labour the space of an ecstatic chthonic function, through the purging of normative social desire. This radical potential can be understood as the means of avant-garde art to affect contradictions in the instrumentality of Power (capital), in such a way that Power itself (in its mechanism of desiring-production) is caused to dissipate in a histrionic effort to re-normalise and re-commodify.’ — Louis Armand
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Louis Armand VAMPYR: A Chronicle of Revenge
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‘An anti-novel of the end times, set in the heart of Golemgrad under the spell of the CORVID-69 pandemic & an apocalyptic Corp[orate]=$[tate] terror apparatus…
‘The mirror is empty. Surely this is a sign? The error is too consistent & gigantic to be ignored. One moment, History is there, replete, like cinema. The next: Void. Where purpose was, now doubt, trepidation. Something must be to blame. We are not speaking of merely vulgar misunderstandings or an emotional ambivalence. Every disappearance can only be considered a murder, caused by a hidden hand. A crime of violent omission. These accusations demand an energy of response, not bands of superstitious dilettantes. The world is not a psychoneurotic disorder. Those still living have good reason not to feel safe from the revenges of the dead, even w/ a sea dividing them. Their taboos are as a mirror held up to a guilty conscience. Originally, all of the dead were Vampyrs. Yet we do not come from the past, but from the future.
‘A fiery half=moon low over Plague City 4:00a.m. A hole in the eastern sky. This clustering of timeframes in the phase=horror of pandemic. Catastrophe’s just another word for the future catching up w/ you. Within hours the entire city was in lockdown. Funny how we get dark cyberpunk dystopia in the newsfeed, when in reality everything’s falling apart because of incompetence. The quote uprising unquote died of apocalypse fatigue. GPS = General Paralysis of the Sane. Every posthumous affordance has its trolls. They expected to discover the complete vocabulary of extinction before words dissolved into nonsense. Transcendence w/ a humxn face. An emoji covering the void.’ — Alienist
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In front of a landscape of erasures, a darkness that engulfs everything. (There was a border they didn’t always let you see, but you still knew you had to cross it.) This is the key to the game. Life stands under orders to retreat to the Quarantine Zone. Positioned outside the game, the adversaries pretend they’re only imaginary. Il n’y a pas de hors=jeu. Stated otherwise, existence of strategy doesn’t automatically confer a “tactical” advantage. There are, for example, two types of mask: those that are worn openly & those worn in secret. >the chill of sodden paper stuck to the neck glued smooth over eyelids force=fed between cracked teeth a papier=mâché of endorphined suffocation inkblotted gagging mute to dream of surfaces & air when all is a red pulsing of the eyelids turning black the blood in the ears bile in the throat welling up w/ sudden ferocity like a fountain pen from a jugular to scrawl its immodest encyclopaedias. Like Miss Muffet, you watch in sick fascination as the giant blowfly sucks the brains out of the itsybitsy spider. “There is a great danger threatening the task of emancipation, which isn’t an excess of ideology, but the opposite: an insufficiency of ideology in the direction of the task itself.” Immense relief from breathing (after all). They are selling oxygen in bottles. First degrade, then ration, then commodify. THE ONLY FUTURE WORTH ANYTHING IS ONE THAT PAYS! (“Virtuous & meek means lead to nothing!”) You’ve seen this coming but weren’t always prepared to believe it. An alibi only gets you so far, the real art is in convincing them of everything you say. Palinodes of complacency. Trocchi: “Protest is based on the assumption that social behaviour is intelligent: the hallmark of its futility.” What if everything to be accomplished, & the means of doing so, were self=evident? [An inevitable invisible insurrection?] Yet nothing cld be less clear / i.e. further from the truth (like a point on a Möbius strip returning to itself “as the crow flies”). >in place of “landscape,” write “geometry.” Perhaps before proceeding further we shld define what is meant by a distance: being the magnitude of an anomaly between two frames of reference. “She looked in the mirror but her reflection wasn’t there [wasn’t where she expected it to be.]” ¿Somewhere inside the mirror time had slowed down? The virus integrates an error into the system, which propagates until the error IS the system [the system “fails”] [or until it evolves a different system].[1] Q: Is the virus a “revolutionary” force? At what point does it renounce revolt? At what point does it dissimulate? i.e. by precipitating collapse, does the virus in fact strengthen the hand of e.g. the I=L=L=U=M=I=N=I=S=T conspiracy? “We must restate the problem of Evil upon new information.” [Every demon serves a master, but not only a demon may kill its master.] Once more back in the realm of false consciousness & instinctive dread, where G.O.D. alone maintains the Supreme Good in perpetual tumescence. To the extent that sublime revolt lives, grows & develops over the course of History… Does violence so quickly lose its attraction, when all it does is pay a salary? [A riot must also be a deconstruction.] Note, to be inscribed on every mirror: KNOW THYSELF / KNOW THY ENEMY. Thus are we all creatures of speculation. Yet who wld be the logos fallen among those deprived of speech? image among the blind? vaccine among the terminally sick? And if the virus itself wld send the image=cancer consuming the world into remission? [i.e. by debilitating global kapital], or only appear to, while in reality accelerating the cancer’s spread under a regime of inoculation [i.e. against whatever remains in the cancer’s way]? Or: if it participates in the regeneration of the world it destroys like an active supernatural force? Or: if though it represents a step towards a new world, it must still be excluded from this one? One crisis washes the hands of the other. The opportunism of love or tenderness: an open secret in front of the camera. Always the hope of future antagonism. (In the end there will be only the sound of dollars crying themselves to sleep at night.) Even when the lights have finally gone out, our task is more fraught & uncertain than ever, & the enemy is everywhere.
[1] >memory: discontinuity / a zone of inconsequentials? [political memory: power vectors that have expired?] >nostalgia: an image returning to its starting point after its reflection has already flown the coop?
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p.s. RIP Goddess Bunny, Sophie, Clayton Eshleman. ** David Ehrenstein, Thank you, David. It’s part of my novel, not a poem. It was indeed hard for me to read. It’s a very personal and emotional novel, very different for me in that sense. Anyway, thank you very much for the kind words. ** Dominik, Ha ha, that’s true, I hadn’t thought about that. My favorite? Oh, hm, that’s hard. I like raven too, I like obeyyourlastOrder too, I like TransphobicTrans. (I think I have a weakness for long hair). Yeah, I wish mushrooms didn’t start evil, but, yeah, it’s worth it. That was a good poem, right? lolokaythen doesn’t need to attend the workshop. Love, drunk, sitting on your couch, telling you the secret to winning anyone’s heart in a slurred voice that you can almost understand, G. ** Misanthrope, I have to agree with you. Deciding what someone can handle is just a wee bit authoritarian, dude, ha ha. But roll as thou rolls, golden rule. Thanks about my reading thing. Our govt. here seems to like to announce things on Thursdays for some, I guess, French reason, so it’s tenterhooks until then. Your weekend flew by? ** JM, Hi, J. Thanks about the reading and the slaves. I did see. I wish I could see that top hat performance thing. Duh. I haven’t totally finished Damien’s book — it’s a biggie — but it’s great, yeah. Best with all the things you’re doing. ** _Black_Acrylic, Yeah, very sad about Sophie. Their stuff was really fresh and sharp. A real tragedy. Thank you about the reading, my bud. Oh, and I almost forgot, thank you for the heavily banging new episode. I liked it so much my neighbour banged on wall! ** Bex Peyton, Hi, Bex Peyton. Welcome! It’s very nice to meet you. That’s so true, what you wrote, and so beautifully put. Thank you a lot. Hope I’ll get to see you again. Take care. ** Thomas Moronic, Hi, T. Yeah, of course I was thrilled to see that P&P reference. Trust me, such things are very few and far between in the wider world of slave profiles. Thank you so much, buddy, about my reading. That means a ton. Yeah, early September is what they tell me. Did they release the cover? I’ve seen the mockup. You good, writing, holding up, staying safe, etc., etc.? ** Sypha, I only saw the new Coil book in your Facebook post about it, so I’ve only seen the cover or whatever. It sounds very thorough. I’ll try to get it. Thanks, James. ** wolf, How does one best say hello to a wolf? Hm. Well, whatever that best approach may be, this very sentence is attempting to do that. Okay, understood, and you know animal stuff much better than I do, for sure. I wasn’t meaning to say they don’t feel a thing akin to love. It’s just that, for me, I resist deciding/assuming that what they feel when they do things that seem to be generated by an emotion that resembles what we human call love is so precisely love that I can just name it that and think that I understand what they’re doing. For me that feels lazy or something. I just don’t feel that I’m in a position to understand their emotional lives and motivations. It’s my way of showing them respect, I guess. I can totally see that that might be just me overthinking and being weird, but there you go. Ultimately that thing you say we can agree on is definitely a way of thinking that I totally agree with you about. And I like thinking of myself as meat with a heart. Sexy. Ha ha. How are you? How are you dealing with the viral shithole stuff? Miss you. Big love. ** Steve Erickson, I know I shouldn’t envy your blizzard, but I do, sorry. Yes, yes, it’s a true loss that Sophie won’t be here to evolve their clearly distinct talent and work. Terrible thing. The gig I saw was Moor Mother singing/talking/etc. with a guy on a laptop and a percussionist. It was very wandering and textural and quite dynamic. She has great presence. I didn’t know the material she was performing. ‘The Extra Man’ sounds like something that could well be on one of the ‘illegal’ sites I have bookmarked. I’ll go look for it today. Thank you! ** chris dankland, Hi, Chris! Sight for sore eyes, my friend. And funnily timed since I just restored an old guest-post by you that’ll be launching here a week from today. Thank you so, so much about my reading. Aw, that’s so nice of you to day. Really, thank you, buddy. I think it was an especially wack bunch of slaves, and, as always, it’s just luck of the draw. How are you, man? How’s every little thing in your life? xo. ** Brian O’Connell, Hey, Brian! Thanks a bunch about the posts. My weekend was alright. Saw a friend, saw some art, did the Zoom bookclub thing with my US writer friends, finally started getting my brain into a writing assignment. Not so bad. Glad you liked the ‘AP’ movie. I like it too. The star of that film is an old friend of mine, and he’s so good in it, no? How are your classes and everything else going? Are you doing in-person classes or still just Zooming and stuff? Enjoy your parcel of snow. Envy. Just rain and rain here. Hugs and love! ** Bill, Yes, I think they might have a wee bit wackier than the average. But I don’t know why. Luck on the blog’s part. No, my novel is out in September. Early-ish September unless something changes. I haven’t checked worldscinema.org in weeks. I need to get over there and join you in your rich cinemaphiliac life. ** Okay. I’ve got five, count them, five books to recommend this month. (Two of them are quite short). Have a look and see if any of them seem like things you might want to similarly ingest. See you tomorrow.
@ DC, thank you about the new Play Therapy and apologies to your neighbour haha.
Am reading the Audrey Szasz book right now and very much loving it. UK buyers can order Amphetamine Sulphate titles from Cargo Records, so I’m waiting on Alexandrine Ogundimu – Desperate to be sent by them in March I think.
Drank my first coffee since March this morning! That’s when I returned home to Leeds from Dundee to avoid the virus. I bought my dad some ultra posh Jamaican Blue Mountain stuff for his birthday and sampled some of that for myself. Having just fallen off the wagon, I can see a major relapse might be on the cards.
Bronson Purnell is precisely the sort of black boi I’ve always avoided.
Leonor Fini is perfect.
EAT SHIT HONKY😘
love,
a black boy who loves to avoid people like YOU❤️❤️❤️
Heyo Dennis! First of all yay for Brontez, glad to see his book on here. My profile of him should be coming out in the next few weeks, hooray. Secondly, thanks for the kind response. I’m still feeling really blech to be completely honest although I’m not feeling catastrophic. I know things will turn out ok. My challenge in life is that I’m a self-saboteur, so I’ve gotta learn to be kinder to myself. I was up last night thinking the most negative thoughts, feeling like I’m a burden and a failure. I think that self-talk comes from my childhood, I don’t know….Anyway on the bright side I’m still at work on my new short story plus I pitched something for the first time in a few months. It’s snowing like crazy, I’m at my mom’s house in Connecticut and we got like 18 inches. Wild stuff. How’s the lockdown going in Paris? Also congrats on the Poetry Project reading, I’m gonna give it a listen soon. Thanks again for the kind words Dennis, catch ya later!
Hi!!
Ah, I love these posts; thank you! I’ve been eyeing Audrey Szasz’s book for a while now, and “100 BOYFRIENDS” has been on my list since we’ve talked about it. And now I’d like to read “Desperate” too. And since we’re talking about books: I’m currently reading Ian Brady’s “The Gates of Janus.” I don’t have a fully formed opinion yet because I’m only one chapter in. Have you read it?
I can definitely second that. I might have a little weakness for long hair myself, haha.
And then maybe I could try your drunk love’s secret on him – to see if I could really win anyone’s heart. Love listening to your wish to be able to travel again and knocking out this whole virus as easily as Anthony Kiedis knocks out the shark in the music video of Californication, Od.
hi dennis, it’s brontez- can i ask you a question?
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bronny
Hi Dennis. It’s very nice to meet you too. Thank you for this post today, I’ve been scrounging for more recent transgressive works. I’m also really interested in getting into some of these experimental true-crime novels like “Tears of a Komsomol Girl”. I know you’ve read New Juche but have you read “The Devils”? I’m currently finishing it up and I think Audrey Szasz’s book is my next logical choice, so thanks for the recommendation. Anyways, not to be cheesy, but it’s great to connect to with you, your work’s really been getting me through these last couple of college semesters in the hellscape of online classes and civil unrest. Later!
Coop, buddy! Ok, yeah, I think we basically agree. But it’s interesting that you say “I just don’t feel that I’m in a position to understand their emotional lives and motivations” because if anything that’s what I would say of other humans, and perhaps more so than of non-human animals. Because the diversity of experience and consciousness in humans is so mind-blowing to me, I find it really hard to assume that someone else would experience the same as me or similar enough that one word would cover both – in fact I take it as a given that they do not. Even though non-humans species will be very different from us as a whole, the individuals amongst that species tend to be less different *from each other* than humans are. The more complex the species the more character and behaviour variation you get. So the fact that people are at all able to communicate is a complete mindfuck to me. By all means it should not work… and yet it more or less does. But it has to be in that tacit denial zone where we start with “ok, let’s assume we have enough in common to understand each other”, even though that assumption is resting on impossibly shaky foundations and will crumble the moment you so much as glimpse at it. But I guess to do what you do, you kind of have to not think too much abut this or you reach complete paralysis.
The viral shithole, uh… I don’t know, I’m not really dealing with it per se. Suspended animation and all that. I’m reading. Just ordered 3 books from your 2020 recommendation list, actually! The ones today look great. That Brontez Purnell excerpt is brilliant. What would I do without DC’s, I wonder. Shudder to think.
Thank you so much for the write up! I’m working my way through your books, starting with Closer. Glad to have such a talented artist recognize what I’m doing, it really means a lot.
“the sort of black boi”? please get your racist ass out of here. brontez has more talent in his pinkie finger than you do in your worm-addled brain. we celebrate black queer people here, thanks.
Um, just for the record David Ehrenstein is also black and queer, so… don’t let the last name fool you, ha ha.
Hey, I actually read one of these, Alexandrine Ogundimu’s Desperate, which I very much enjoyed… wish AS did more fiction-type books like that tbh. Been meaning to get the Audrey Szasz (as I’ve liked some of the other books she’s done that I’ve read) but keep getting scared off by the photography, ha ha. I did get one of the other Infinity Land new books recently, HATE, which I liked a lot. Other recent books I read included Patti Smith’s JUST KIDS (the deluxe illustrated edition, very nice), James Nulick’s THE MOON DOWN TO EARTH (my 2nd time reading it actually), book 1 of Alan Moore’s SWAMP THING comic book series, JERK (we all know who wrote that one ha ha) and the aforementioned Coil book.
Right now I’m getting close to half done Flaubert’s SENTIMENTAL EDUCATION. I also got Elizabeth V. Aldrich’s RUTHLESS LITTLE THINGS in the mail. That one’s published by Expat as well. She’s a friend of Nulick and I find some of the stuff she posts on Twitter hilarious, so I’m very interested to see what her prose is like.
thank you!!
Dennis, [Hmm, hahaha, I don’t know what to say. The world’s gone batty. I think you know what I’m referring to, haha. Yikes! Eek! Excitement! Or not.]
Well, I only do authoritarian with Rigby. He loves that shit, you know. 😉
Yeah, we’ll get announcements on a Tuesday, with shit to go into effect on Friday. Luckily, nothing like that has happened recently, and I don’t foresee it happening (which means I just jinxed us, right?).
The weekend rocketed by. We did the Scary Strokes thing and then the pizza and cake thing and then the bonfire and s’mores thing. Got home around 1 a.m. But it was fun and funny and all that.
Back to the grind today. Lots of work to do. I’m about to work on my power chords on the guitar.
Good selection today. Another list to add to the list. Oh, man, my lists…
Hey, Dennis,
Damn, an absolute banger of a line-up today: I want to read every one of these (perhaps 100 BOYFRIENDS especially), none of which I’d heard of before. I don’t know whether to applaud your excellent literary taste or grumpily shake my fist at you for adding to my cyclopean stack of want-to-read books. (I’ll decide on the former.)
Ah, that’s not terrible as weekends go. That bookclub thing is a really good idea. Maybe I’ll try and strike one up in my own circle, if I can convince any of them to read. Wow, didn’t realize Mr. Bale was an acquaintance of yours! Amazing. And yes, he’s absolutely phenomenal in the movie. A force of nature.
My classes have started, and they’re still online, yeah. They’re mostly really early (or early for me), as I mentioned, and they’re a little more concentrated and rigorous than they were in the first semester. So I’ll have work to occupy me, at least, although that’s a mixed blessing. Oh well. The snow has actually buried New York and become a “storm of the century”, so that’s a mixed blessing too, but it is very pretty. What’s your Tuesday looking like? Hugs right back.
I really want to read Ogundimu and the Szaz of course because I love both presses and Audrey’s book with AS was excellent. Purnell looks great too so I might have to check that out. Loved hearing your reading from I Wished. XO.
thanks for the book recommendations today !! i was especially interested by the leonor fini book (also thanks for including the video of her paintings) and the excerpt from the ogundimu book impressed me a lot, i ordered a copy
thanks about re-upping the old post of mine !! i’m curious to see what it is 🙂
life is pretty good these days !! but online school is getting old…a lot of the kids are bored and sick of it and i don’t blame them. overall i’m having way more fun this year than last, and it’s really nice to be home. the district will decide in a couple weeks if we’ll go back in person for the last quarter. i really hope they don’t, but i’m also ready for a change. i got my first vaccination last week and my second will be in a month. since they’re vaccinating all the teachers, they might move back in in-person learning after spring break, we’ll see. i’m still worried about my students and their families, and i’m worried about coming home from work and getting jennifer sick.
if u were in this zoom school situation when u were a kid or a teen, how do u think u would have handled it? would u have kept up with it, or do u think u might have tuned out school by this point? i know for me i would definitely be trying to get away with whatever i could — i’d probably be skipping class as much as possible.
what else…weed is legal in arizona !! stores are selling it recreationally as of a week or two ago.
and xray is going well, it keeps getting bigger and bigger . i haven’t had anything to do with running the magazine in a very long time, it’s all jennifer and the group of editors that she’s delegated work to, and i’m proud of her for it. a few months ago xray started using submittable to help make reading submissions a bit easier, because they’re getting so many now. submittable has an option for people to tip the magazine 3 or 6 dollars if they want to, and now we’ve actually got a small little profit that we’re making. so now we’re trying to decide what’s the best way to spend that money, like what’s the best way to put that money back into the magazine.
besides that it’s quarantine in america, and everything that goes with it
how’s life over there in paris?
hope u have a great morning !!
Hi Dennis,
Your words about my site / label are incredibly kind – I am truly flattered. Perhaps I need to update it more frequently, honestly – if nothing than to escape the bad spaces of the social media drain. Honestly, your previous blog (and the issues it faced) was something that inspired the urgency of finding a platform such as noblogs to use for my own writing.
How have you been? I spent most of last night in a sleepy haze reading a DIY journal about early 20th century literary / philosophical egoism a la Artaud, DH Lawrence, Bruno Fillipi, Novatore, etc. The journal is snail mail only (they are at DistinctivelyDionysian.noblogs.org) – though I am afraid a close COVID death may have ended or suspended the project for now. Today my partner and I submitted our collaborative poetry + illustration zine to the small press that commissioned their work. I also made “steak” frites + caramelized leek bernaise sauce using grilled king trumpet mushrooms for the steak.
Fantastic recommendations today – the Brontez Purnell and Audrey Szasz have been on my list – the Louis Armand seems very interesting as well! I’ll have to order.
Your recent shows (doesn’t it feel crazy that all that was over a year ago now) all sound great – I love Container and have seen him several times. Subotnick (!!!) is so wild, and Emptyset is fantastic. I need to dig into Moor Mother, tbh – I’m sure I would enjoy. I don’t believe that I have eaten at a Sikh restaurant – oddly enough, I read an article about how there is a large population of Sikh long-haul truckers and – as a result – a wave of interstate truck-stop Sikh diners has popped up to accomodate them. I should try to visit one (or several) if touring is every a reality again.
https://www.latimes.com/nation/la-na-col1-sikh-truckers-20190627-htmlstory.html?utm_source=pocket-newtab
Package out to you soon! p.s. happy belated birthday!
Dentist – So many book mountains to climb. Good thing you are a super Sherpa. For whatever reason I gravitated to Audrey Szasz. For whatever other reason it suggested to me Rebecca Grandsen, whose “Sea of Glass” novella I just finished. (Me wonders what you would think of her.) Any thoughts on Clayton Eshelman passing? The Emoji Fidget Spinner knows all !!!