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Rememberme, 20
Grand Rapids
Some guys in my area know me for my butt. I’ve bottomed a lot. Others know me as a big dicked top. I’ve enjoyed both scenes. Feeling into my butt at this point but can be persuaded otherwise.
Guestbook of Rememberme
Rememberwhenisit – Feb 12, 2026
I always knew you’d end up here.
goneandoneit – Feb 10, 2026
Very hot boy. I once defecated in his mouth during an overnight date at Axel Detroit while he was asleep 💩😮; He wasn’t that into it at first – but I was 😛; he hasn’t wanted to see me since 😔😭
Rememberme (Owner) – Feb 8, 2026
If you’re not horny I also offer live drawings sessions with you as the model. Each artwork will be signed and given to you to keep.
OnePieceForU – Feb 8, 2026
Cute boy, interesting conversation, but I wasn’t hard enough to take care of his starving ass.
Body Type Slim
Ethnicity Caucasian
Body Hair Smooth
Smoker Yes
Languages English
Position More bottom
Dick L – Cut
Dirty Ask
Fisting No
S&M No
Kissing Consent
Hourly Rate 40$
Overnight Rate 150$
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justanotherweirdo, 18
Leipzig
Hi, I’m Jonas and I’m 18 years old. I’m boy but when I’m a girl, I’m better. Your choice: #son, #daughter, #boywife. I’m looking for a man who want to be my pimp or rent me out to other men. I’m open to anything and into everything. Maybe someone in Leipzig knows the gay prostitution scene. I really want to become a gay prostitute and work on the street or in a gay brothel.
Guestbook of justanotherweirdo
justanotherweirdo (Owner) – Feb 12, 2026
I am grateful to all the men and the handful of pimps I’ve been lucky enough to have. They’ve helped me on my journey and made me a better lay.
Conversational – Feb 11, 2026
You had to be there.
DonJoe – Feb 7, 2026
I’ve known Jonas forever and his/her daddy issues run very deep so as much as i hate to say it he’s/she’s nothing more than a filthy, vulnerable, cumdump slut when he/she gets around nasty, aggressive, preditory pervs with huge, veiny, gay dicks. He/she thinks horny, rapey, unrepentant men have every right to violate his/her personal space uninvited, disrespectfully spit in his/her face and literally take his/her pussy asshole from him for long extended periods. I could see him/her married to a hyper sexual, punishfucking pig who has an elephant trunk for a dick, enjoys treating him/her like a cum sponge, and takes him/her on extremely nasty gay dates and adventurous gaycations.
justanotherweirdo (Owner) – Feb 5, 2026
If I seem socially awkward that’s because I’m in the dark corners of my mind contemplating my existence.
Body Type Average
Ethnicity Caucasian
Body Hair Shaved
Smoker No
Languages German, English
Position Bottom only
Dick M – Uncut
Dirty Ask
Fisting Versatile
S&M Soft
PNP Yes
Kissing Yes
Hourly Rate On request
Overnight Rate On request
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VirtualDroneAvatar, 19
Pompano Beach
Looking to be hired as a digital avatar inside your phone. Prompts, trained to speak, admin tasks etc. A human Chatgpt.
Want to be rewired and re-educated into being a digital avatar, my personality, thoughts, words, body, all coded by you. A digital servant under your finger tips.
I need this and hope this is the forum to help me make this a reality.
Guestbook of VirtualDroneAvatar
Danielsmith – Feb 6, 2026
Completely lacks the innocence his photo exudes.
VirtualDroneAvatar (Owner) – Feb 3, 2026
I take pride in shooting huge loads. Been told that my rambunctious member is pretty generous during eruptions.
Body Type Slim
Ethnicity Caucasian
Body Hair Little
Smoker No
Languages English
Position No answer
Dick XL – Uncut
Dirty Ask
Fisting Ask
S&M Ask
PNP No
Kissing Ask
Hourly Rate On request
Overnight Rate On request
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Skinandlegstolick, 18
Fortaleza
Until recently I had a sugardaddy who ruled my life and used me for sex without a shred of mercy. I have had to move back to Brazil because my mother is dying. I don’t think I can handle living with a sex maniac again right now but I do need to find expression for the part of myself that needs to be sexy and financially supported.
Guestbook of Skinandlegstolick
Skinandlegstolick (Owner) – Feb 8, 2026
I blocked you because you already know why. Sometimes I need space to process things, and I prefer to disconnect, forget, and remain silent.
Packingaweapon – Feb 8, 2026
Why have you blocked me?
Skinandlegstolick (Owner) – Feb 2, 2026
But no fisting my breadwinner.
Significant – Feb 1, 2026
He’s into what I’m into haha.
Body Type Slim
Ethnicity Latino
Body Hair Smooth
Smoker Yes
Languages Portuguese, Spanish, English
Position Versatile
Dick L – Uncut
Dirty No
Fisting No
S&M Soft
PNP Sometimes
Kissing Sometimes
Hourly Rate 180$
Overnight Rate On request
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touchytimmy, 21
Prague
Split me open
put your hands in
rip my heart out
eat the music
Guestbook of touchytimmy
theguybehindthedoor – Feb 11, 2026
He is deeply weird, even by this site’s standards. He’s also very cute, but it’s a cuteness that is mass produced in the Czech Republic. But once the hood went on, I relished the disappearance of that overfamiliar haircut and bone structure into the alternate universe of my imagination.
Ontheprowl – Feb 6, 2026
Few words come to mind .. spoilt brat, cheeky, playful, high energy, loud, HORNY, cum dump, total slut/whore, sleazy pervert.
SecretGentleman – Feb 1, 2026
I’m Tim’s roommate. To give you some background he just left the exgay movement, two time rape survivor, 420 addict, 5 times in a psych ward, a bit dense.
Biggmancockpenis – Feb 1, 2026
He needs to be fucked until he can’t take anymore, and then some. He will struggle and want you to stop…but just keep going regardless. He needs men to make him into a piece of meat whose sole purpose is to get fucked for men’s enjoyment and entertainment. I can’t stress enough how badly he needs to get fucked.
Body Type Athletic
Ethnicity Caucasian
Body Hair Shaved
Smoker No
Languages Czech, Russian, English
Position More bottom
Dick XL – Uncut
Dirty Ask
Fisting Versatile
S&M Yes
PNP Yes
Kissing Yes
Hourly Rate 200€
Overnight Rate 900€
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GetHappyWithMe, 23
Naples
I am a fairly sweet, arrogant and lazy young gay man from Bosnia who cruises through life because I’m just used to getting my own way. Speak RUS, ENG, BOSNIAN.
It’s just that people always meet my demands to have sex with me, never argue with my decisions. A guy I hooked up with once said “What’s the point in arguing? I’ll just end up giving whatever you ask anyway.”
Guestbook of GetHappyWithMe
GetHappyWithMe (Owner) – Feb 3, 2026
Thanks for stopping by.
EqualityMatters – Feb 3, 2026
He’s 6’4”, but on his knees he’s only 3’8”.
Body Type Athletic
Ethnicity Mixed
Body Hair Shaved
Smoker No
Languages Russian, Bosnian, English
Position Versatile
Dick XL – Uncut
Dirty No
Fisting Active
S&M No
PNP Ask
Kissing Consent
Hourly Rate 200€
Overnight Rate 900€
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AcidHead, 19
Pittsburg
I do sex dirty. From deep rimming/ass cleaning me after I have shit to you getting absolutely full on shit faced messy in my ass. Spread them ass cheeks bury your face and get absolutely full on shit faced messy with my shitting hole and ass, chewing, gagging, heaving and wallowing in my shit. If I’m on a high I can shit for minutes, longer. When we meet my ass will be full so eat it till my ass explodes its load. Feed all you hungry eaters but I like my eaters to get messy (shit faced) and to gag on my cock with your shit filled mouth. I do have 1 rule: If you cum, then you have to let me cum.
I’m an avid user of psychedelics so if I seem like I’m not interested in you that’s why.
Guestbook of AcidHead
redpenguin – Feb 12, 2026
The doctor will see you now.
iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii – Feb 11, 2026
I just hired him for the third time and I am starting to see change in my life, in who I am, what I want, and a new chapter in ‘The Book of Life’.
NotSureAnymore – Feb 7, 2026
I recommend getting insanely zonked first.
str84gay – Feb 4, 2026
Good luck, but I would seriously reconsider your career choice.
Body Type Slim
Ethnicity Caucasian
Body Hair Smooth
Smoker Yes
Languages English
Position No answer
Dick L – Cut
Dirty Yes
Fisting No
S&M Yes
PNP Yes
Kissing No
Hourly Rate On request
Overnight Rate On request
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Fabian, 19
Kraków
I’m a genius at giving blowjobs!!!!
Deep throat, your cum in my stomach – I love it!!!
Passionate sopping wet french kisses, use your tongue like a sponge!!!!
Miracle ass – enlarge my hole and eat it babe!!!!!
You can also buy my love, if any of you want it, that is!!!
Guestbook of Fabian
Daddyofbottoms – Feb 10, 2026
Hello fellow shoppers. I am desperate to spend money on him. But I don’t really understand if he is capable of taking big cocks. When I say big I mean really big. Can anyone who has had experience with him confirm this so I can peacefully invest ideally for several consecutive days?
Fabian (Owner) – Feb 9, 2026
To you ambitious men, I’d love to be taken on a holiday to some warm destination. I won’t go to a country that wants me dead.
8inchhdick – Feb 7, 2026
Does wanting to fuck this whore ever go away?
silentwillow – Feb 2, 2026
I wanna eat your ass until I have your toes curling but i’m scare.
Body Type Slim
Ethnicity Caucasian
Body Hair Smooth
Smoker Yes
Languages Polish, English
Position More bottom
Dick S – Uncut
Dirty Ask
Fisting Ask
S&M Soft
PNP Yes
Kissing Yes
Hourly Rate 200€
Overnight Rate 1000€
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i_luv_croissant, 18
Perímetro Urbano Barranquilla
I’ve been getting paid for sex longer than I’ve known I was gay.
Guestbook of i_luv_croissant
xxxxmkx – Feb 9, 2026
He just turned 18 and has committed to become a sex object in my mansion in Ft. Lauderdale as soon as he graduates high school in May.
i_luv_croissant (Owner) – Jan 27, 2026
I am willing to kiss, but it’s not the main reason why I am here.
Quickyyyy – Jan 24, 2026
He doesn’t deserve to wear clothing. When he arrived I immediately cut off his clothes with scissors like he was an animal.
i_luv_croissant (Owner) – Jan 20, 2026
I believe that there is a God out there somewhere, but that don’t make me straight. I am what and who I am so deal with it.
Body Type Average
Ethnicity Latino
Body Hair Smooth
Smoker No
Languages Spanish, English
Position Versatile
Dick M – Uncut
Dirty No
Fisting Ask
S&M Soft
PNP Weed only
Kissing Yes
Hourly Rate 150$
Overnight Rate 600$
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TheCapitalist, 22
Torrevieja
Trying to be successful.
Please my brain and I’ll please your cock.
Guestbook of TheCapitalist
silky – Feb 9, 2026
I am a Chinese man who loves to heavily (completely from head to toes) & helplessly tie up boys with few hundred yards of silky ribbon. I wrapped this boy with silk and turned him into a silk cocoon. I wrapped him tight with hundreds of silky scarves, wide silky ribbon/silky fabric sheet/silky fabric bag for long hours and then hugged him like a silky mummy to sleep.
TheCapitalist (Owner) – Feb 8, 2026
Don’t take it personally I suck at talking to people.
Bottomdollar – Feb 8, 2026
He let me kiss and worship his ass while he ignored me and played video games.
Someoneelse – Feb 6, 2026
🗣️ 💤
TheCapitalist (Owner) – Feb 3, 2026
I have been in a relationship since the age of 16, for over 6 years now. I am desperately unhappy and would love to separate, but it seems so complicated.
Body Type Slim
Ethnicity Latino
Body Hair Smooth
Smoker No
Languages Spanish, English
Position More bottom
Dick M – Uncut
Dirty Ask
Fisting Versatile
S&M No
PNP Yes
Kissing Yes
Hourly Rate 90€
Overnight Rate 350€
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Hype-, 22
NYC
I’m not just a body… I’m an experience.
Subtle, profound, magnetic…
A body of sin, a face that disarms you, and a mind that dirties.
Explore me for what you don’t even dare say out loud.
Do you dare to discover how far your desire can go?🥵
Guestbook of Hype-
SomeonewithStyle – Feb 11, 2026
I have a friend who dated this narcissistic twit for a while and it was heartbreaking seeing what he went through.
J777 – Feb 10, 2026
Hey everyone, I’d like to mention something in my review, but I don’t know what people usually write here, but I’d be happy to tell anyone.
Hype- (Owner) – Feb 7, 2026
I am proud of being the cutest, loudest and most blonde out of any room I enter 😜
MillerJay – Feb 7, 2026
He was always a great bottom, but since he dyed his hair blond, he’s become memorable.
Body Type Slim
Ethnicity Caucasian
Body Hair Shaved
Smoker Yes
Languages English
Position More bottom
Dick XL – Uncut
Dirty WS only
Fisting Versatile
S&M Soft
PNP Yes
Kissing Yes
Hourly Rate 100$
Overnight Rate On request
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boneyboy, 20
Nijmegen
I’m a very skinny guy, I don’t look it cause I wear loose clothes, but ever since I was a kid, I’ve been very skinny.
I always starve myself up to 24 hours before I have sex.
You can’t fuck me when I’m lying on my stomach or I’ll break cause I’m soo fucking weak and skinny.
I’m looking for money, but maybe I’ll even find true love 🫶
Guestbook of boneyboy
boneyboy (Owner) – Feb 6, 2026
Body Type Slim
Ethnicity Caucasian
Body Hair Little
Smoker Yes
Languages Dutch, English
Position Bottom only
Dick S – Uncut
Dirty Yes
Fisting Passive
S&M Yes
PNP Yes
Kissing Yes
Hourly Rate On request
Overnight Rate 1000€
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p.s. Hey. ** Charalampos, Hi. Happy that the Charli album floated your boat. Hi back from the usual. ** _Black_Acrylic, Oh, sure, a bunch of the Industrial bands were influenced by and namecheck the Aktionists. ** Carsten, I suspect that they might have been quite pleased by your reaction. I did a Jess Franco Day several years ago, and I suspect she’s heavily represented in it? Your French Toast method sounds so easy, but, even so, my clumsiness as a cook can never been underestimated. Congrats on the traffic front! ** Steve, A24’s doing it? Urgh, that’s worrying, but we’ll see, I guess. Everyone, Here’s Steve with an excellent gift: ‘Paul Vecchiali’s 1978 short MALADIE, a stark film about his father’s years of serious illness, became available with English subtitles for the first time last week. I’ve posted a copy on the Internet Archive.’ No, the Ukrainian woman relocated quite far away from me, and I don’t imagine I’ll hear from or of her again. If I spot her on the metro or something, I’ll try to remember to say so. This weekend … ideally finish the revisions on the new film script, going to a reading event tonight featuring the painter Laura Owens among others, might go check out this ridiculous looking ‘Titanic’ immersive experience thing that a friend is trying to talk me into seeing with him. ** Steeqhen, I wish someone would have pointed me at that area/otter trail when I was there. Couldn’t you just request a gay therapist? I would assume the Mental Health Services wouldn’t find that request strange. So much Charli excitement around here. She really is the thinking person’s pop icon, I guess. ** Laura, Whoop, Laura. So sorry about your day’s hideous component. Jung, haha. I would definitely say he accomplished something. ** HaRpEr //, So many guys in the online slave world want to be castrated of late. It’s starting to give being a puppy a run for its money. To believe them, they just want to make it so their genitals aren’t competing for their bodies’ spotlight. Which just raises another ‘what does it mean’? All of which is to say that you, castration, the destroyer of balls, would be highly sought after there. ‘Malina’, so great, right? The Schroeter film is interesting in its way, but, yeah, it’s way not the novel. Oh, wow! Your playlist will be my only form of celebrating Valentines. Everyone, First, Happy Valentines Day to those of you who mark this occasion, and, secondly, and more importantly, HaRpEr // has made all of us a Valentine! Open it! Harper: ‘I made this pervert valentines playlist, compiling not breakup songs at all but anthems of perv love, stalker love, psychotic love, pathetic love, self love, and just plain lust. Available via this (unfortunately) Spotify link.’ Thank you! ** Uday, Hi. Cool, I’ll go look for your email. Here’s hoping you sweep into your friend’s birthday celebration with a victorious smile on your face. Hugs boomerang. ** Hugo, Yes, I’ve disliked Joni Mitchell for a very long time. I should go look a that Rate Your Music list because I don’t remember. I tried to get Michael Gira to let me republish ‘The Consumer’ in my old Little House on the Bowery imprint, but he declined. And he seems to have continued to decline all offers. Seems very strange. You can download it in pdf form from Scribd if you want. Here. ** kenley, I suspect the Aktionists were more than a little familiar with Artaud. Hahaha, they seem to keep closing Rainforest Cafes, so you might get lucky. I used to want to live in an IHoP when they were situated in a kind of Swiss-looking fake building. So I get you, but for me it was the naugahyde that was the appeal. I think I might sell my soul to Satan if I could see something that made me sink to my knees and wail with my hands outstretched. So I guess I haven’t yet. Don’t get a lobotomy! Stay a role model! ** darbbzz⋆｡°⋆❅*𖢔𐂂☃︎꙳, I love your name’s festive exhaust. If you sent that message, it didn’t arrive. The blog does sometimes say it has swallowed a comment that it hasn’t, I don’t know why. I haven’t seen ‘Pixote’ in a million years. Wow, good idea. ‘Petite’? Mm, I’ll have to check. Sometimes I blank on song titles. Dude, I love your insta presents. I’m never too busy. Exciting, intriguing, on the crush person. Votive candle mentally lit. With an imaginary wooden match no less. Yes, I’d like to see that art. That Flunker speaker only wishes he could speak like you. Thanks, buddy. ** Okay. The stars seem to have aligned and brought the escorts out of the woodwork on Valentines Day! See you on Monday.
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I’m not so sure the Aktionists would’ve gotten much of a kick out of my calm dismissal. I’d imagine it was shock & revulsion they were after, no?
Yes, Soledad featured quite brightly in your Jess Franco day, especially those gifs. Man, I haven’t thought about her in a while & looking at those she still casts a spell. Takes me back to my teens.
General publishing question: I heard somewhere that the usual amount of time between acceptance & actual publication is about a year. Does that ring true?
Enjoy the weekend, brother. Here we’re getting the tail-end of storm season it seems, with a bit of wind on Saturday, followed by what looks like spring on Sunday. Which means I’ll be spending the bulk of the latter outdoors.
Well so much for “a bit of wind”… Saturday night’s winds were savage enough to knock out the power grid in these decrepit hills—yet again. I always sleep like a log so I didn’t notice until Sunday morning. Power & water were both out all day, & just came back on around 6 pm. The gate to the house is electric too, so I couldn’t even drive out. Hoofed it down the hill & passed the time in the sun. Hopefully your weekend was better…
Happy Valentines everyone!
happy Valentine’s jay! it still counts, i think ^_^
happy valentines day!!!!
ok…”sweet, arrogant and lazy”, “my rambunctious member”, and “Hello fellow shoppers” all made me giggle. of this batch, im the most terrified for i_luv_croissant
ouuuuu…faux-swiss ihop sounds wonderful. plus…pancakes! (did i hallucinate the ihob/international house of burgers rebrand?)
well…if i do get lobotomized, ill present the whole thing in public as a tribute to the aktionists. hope your weekend is swell!!! pray for me…i’m meeting the boyf’s parents tm. meep!
A happy alignment indeed. Yesterday I looked at the top image of the post, and thought it was slaves/escorts day already. But it’s today. That was Heinz Cibulka? Surely there’s an escort/slave profile that uses his photos from Schwarzkogler. Looks like Cibulka himself is also an interesting photographer.
Years ago I went to MuMoK in Vienna for the first time. They had a whole floor devoted to the Aktionists. After that, every subsequent visit has been a disappointment.
The boy who does live drawings, wow. And I need one of those “It’s not manipulation if you believe me” t-shirts.
Bill
First time commenter, trying to engage with spaces other than the big social media… love how you highlight real specific stuff, i remember the Permenent Green Light post, i knew The Three O’Clock so it was sweet to see some love given to even more obscure yet related bands… None of my old bandmates or anything knew of those “paisly underground” guys even if they liked psych pop type stuff…
Really love the Aktionist stuff, mostly was into Hermann Nitsch as a teenager, especially including his harmonium drone albums… Been reading Cosey from Throbbing Gristle’s book, and the Aktionist stuff def informed her pre-TG stuff. The photographs of Rudolph’s stuff are just gorgeous…
I found a copy of Gira’s The Consumer for less than five dollars at a thrift shop, shocked for multiple reasons to see it on the shelf!
Anyway I am in the midst of my own “French February” in terms of my reading material. Robbe-Grillet’s Jealousy blew my mind, and I certainly felt like he was doing stuff that really alligns with my own literary vision, good inspiration to chip away at my prose once more… Also finishing up Maldoror which of course is amazing. Bit of Camus (The Fall) in between, and I’m gonna read a newly translated Huysmans book as well. His stuff is maybe more verbose than I usually go for, but its so textured and speaks to me for some reason…
I certainly have a strange relationship with the escort type stuff… doesnt really “do it” for me per se, but I am endlessly fascinated by sex stuff… to the point that people have assumed I was a sex freak in my private life. In reality I’m pretty tame, but I write and talk about stuff like that a lot. The language around it all is just so interesting to me…
hi Dennis!
happy belated! =) HaRpEr’s playlist has been a total gift today! also made a v on point contrast w Charli’s Wuthering Heights album, the violins on which (not just Cale’s, tho i have to say he and Charli look almost absurdly beautiful together even when no-one is playing anything) go hard & which i’m really loving rn ^_^
so thanks, @HaRpEr <3
sigh, wish i played violin lol, like actually.
anyway idk what would have been most Valentines-y today, the Aktionists or these guys. agree w Bill above, i had to do a double take to make quite sure i wasn’t looking at Cibulka up top lol.
the Barranquilla guy looks weirdly familiar! like have i seen him in smth before or…? anyway, he’s got an easy face to emote w, hope he’s been happy or content or not giving a fuck today.
the bloke whose arsehole is not a doorbell reminded me right away of this thing a fuckton of years back when someone translated Star Wars Episode I from english to mandarin and back to english and the result was the Jedi Council becoming The Presbyterian Church and Padme Amidala not being a road for running about. translation engines have this massive yeet factor imo even if they’re murdering my former job, and i hope this specific lad used one just to get that… banger or whatever.
meanwhile the confused scat bloke was p amusing bc what do you mean ppl need to get shitfaced in order to get shitfaced w you it’s all v complex, man.
i’m reading Mariana Enríquez at last! i take it in english it would be How To Disappear Completely? i know she likes you and Ishiguro likes her so p high hopes a priori. so far it comes across (compare! blergh!) like a cross between Try and Invisible Monsters, but w a p opaque teenage protagonist (not nothing as he’s basically only ever monologued thus far) and a far less proactive jawless girl. hope she may yet surprise us. anyway, getting into the groove of a diff spanish dialect often takes a bit of work and her prose style is still a question mark to me (also what argentinian friends i’ve had were never particularly slangy but i keep hearing from other ppl their youth slang is ubiquitous and totally impenetrable to outsiders, which so far not the case). in case, i’m def curious. have you read her…?
my husband got me flowers today which always feels a bit super spesh, like let them speak for me a bit, just not the usual way <3
did you have a good one if you observe to any degree? two of my characters had p weird sex today and it felt quite Valentines-y, considering.
anyway, goodnight now, love you!
@Steve thanks for sharing Maladie! <3 it was a proper emotional watch precisely bc it wasn’t trying to be, i think, amongst other stuff. that profound headache at the end… anyway, hope hope was right, yerhamo.
@Laura-Thanks! I hope more of Vecchiali’s work becomes widely available.
I’ve spent the day feeling like I’m coming down with a cold: sneezing a lot, constantly thirsty. I hope tomorrow improves. I’ll be seeing my doctor Monday, so if this keeps up I can talk about it with him.
Did you make it to the Titanic VR experience? Does it recreate the film? (Or the time the film’s crew was dosed with PCP-laced food?)
Hi!!
Case in point – I finally have enough energy to be a bit more social online, so here I am. Sometimes I’d kill to have energy reserves like yours, although I imagine they might also have their frustrating “side effects.” Do you ever feel like things/people are too slow – that you want to get things done far more quickly than the circumstances (including people) make possible?
Speaking of – how is the script revision going?
The main difficulty with finding publishers (or even just one publisher) is that I work on a lot of different projects, but most of them are academic or educational, so my novel/fiction portfolio is very small. I’ve thought about getting an internship instead, and trying to work my way up that way, but making a living from freelance proofreading is already a massive juggling act – I simply don’t have enough time or certainty to make that kind of commitment. I know things will fall into place at some point, and in the meantime, I don’t particularly mind proofreading boring crap – it still satisfies my obsessive perfectionism, haha. Lately, I’ve found myself thinking about “the dream job” a lot, though, and I guess that maybe means it’s time to start looking into how I could get there.
Love’s boy but when he’s a girl, he’s better, Od.
My brother and his family are off to Dubai for a week with his work. Ought to be a bit more sunshine over there, I would’ve thought.
Saw a really good early Alan Clarke film last night. The Hallelujah Handshake from 1970 is about a church parishioner who arouses suspicion with his lies and strange demeanour. The guy’s no Epstein but ire is sparked among the small-town clergy. Very understated in comparison to AC’s later work and you can see his talent shining through, available for free via YouTube should you be interested.
Hi happy middle of the month Sunday to you
Hi to Rememberme, VirtualDroveAvatar, touchytimmy and GetHappyWithMe
Happy yesterday’s Valentine day for everyone here and was the birthday also of Alexander Kluge and Tina Aumont and my late beloved grandfather
Imagine your bio opening with Born on Valentine’s day hehe
Hi from Chania
Hello about to read Flunker while smoking a cigar and twirling my feet on the bed, haha kidding, I actually typically sit when I read somewhere so Frankie da cat doesn’t sit t her fat ass on my book
I accumulated positives by running in the rain after work to get my cigars hahah.
Im gonna send a pic of my art and then ME from goth night so u can see what I look like now + with dreads
O very much well could be on T now although you already know the bullshit with that + my mom gaslighting me into saying “it’s in the past, you can’t blame me for your problems” despite the fact the reason I’m here is because of her controlling decision
She never even apologized exactly for it, immaturity to not even say what for
Anyways what a short spilled tangent
I think my feminine side is masculated quite well
I’ll send the pics tommrow tho, ok? Very tired, havent slept in 2 days, yet im still restless so im probs going to find a way to sleep tonight cuz im tired. Probably an insomnia thing.
If you listen to the song “Petite” by XIu XIu you have to watch the official youtube video. It adds a layer of pognancy
THe song is about these young girls who were trafficed on backpage,an escort site,and it had, actually, taken place in LA, in Jamie’s neighborhood, according to the youtube description.
Im so so tired but here
https://youtu.be/xB8pb8KKpZg?si=4bZZqf4rDAEpndG4
@ Laura: Thank you!!!!!
@ DC: Haha, the first escort’s image with the older guy on the bus is so great. He clearly does not want to be there at all.
Yeah, that’s very interesting wanting to be castrated so that your cock isn’t what you are valued for sexually. Because if not your body then what else? Your mind?
I’ve been reading ‘Anti-Oedipus’ this weekend which critiques Freud’s notion that men are dominated by the fear of being castrated and that women by desiring a penis. As a trans woman, I cannot relate to either, so that was cool. But yeah, I’ve been very captivated so far. Sometimes I think ‘oh, I get it!’ and then am immediately like ‘shit, I’ve lost it’. But I think the most effective way of reading it is to just take from it what I want, because I think it’s not supposed to be understood in such a strict, binary way. And the prose is so unorthodox and invigorating that if I’ve lost the plot it’s still pretty thrilling. Apparently Delleuze and Guattari argued about the meaning of some of their concepts.
I got antsy with my novel and started impulsively writing this poem thing that’s spiralled out of control and I won’t know what to do with it when it’s done. It’s sort of an experiment using some of the ideas I have for the next novel and I’m actually coming up with a lot of stuff. When it’s done I’m worried it will be in a weird purgatory where it’s too long for some places and too short for others, but there’s value in me writing it anyway, even if it doesn’t find a home. It’s one of the strangest writing experiences I’ve ever had. Maybe I’m just tired but the whole thing has a kind of sickly energy around it which I don’t know whether is good or bad.
Where in the world do you find this shit?