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ilikeyoualot, 20
It’s time for me to admit that I am no good.
I have never had sex with a man, but if that is part of your method of controlling me, I accept it. My few times having sex with women have been terrible.
I would love to be kept away from human contact. If I could be in a dungeon or jail cell at all times, that would be perfect. I have thought of committing a crime and getting myself sent to prison for real.
I do not care what I look like. That is up to you. I like the idea of having my testicles removed, also my cock. If you would like to remove my tongue so that speech is no longer part of my life, I think that is an excellent idea.
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ilikeyoualot (Owner) – Nov 24, 2025
I think I finally found someone truly sick enough to truly ruin me. Someone I’ve given all my details too but also humiliating videos of me drinking my own piss and eating my own shit. The trick is to find someone who hates you.
Kasper_the_polish_ghost – Nov 20, 2025
The hole is so big that you can throw an apple inside.
ilikeyoualot (Owner) – Nov 17, 2025
So far I like being belittled, humiliated, getting rimmed, and being fisted, gaped, and, prolapsed most of all.
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pliéboy, 18
Young, flexible ballet student — fit, smooth, and always in motion.
I spend my days perfecting form and balance; at night, I want to surrender that.
I have a short refractory period and love having load after load milked out of me and fed back to me, but that’s not a requirement.
Ownership vibes more than welcome.
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pliéboy (Owner) – Nov 7, 2025
Please stop with the fake military profiles.
AussieLAD – Nov 6, 2025
bruh mascular bit ruff looking acting 8.5 cut gym hero junkie party guty get spun af and naked with you ne day aye awesome face gimme gimme
Vince728281 – Nov 6, 2025
Hi I do everything for you hot me up and i suck your gum out of your Dick!
upforanythingjake – Nov 6, 2025
Wanna try some fingering your ass and shit comes out from you. And eat it.
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oneforall-allforone, 18
kinda willing do whatever it takes to be spoiled rotten hehe 😉
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MasterOfSex – Nov 11, 2025
fist him or whatever
danny – Nov 9, 2025
Bring as much 420 and coke as you can fit in your pockets.
oneforall-allforone (Owner) – Nov 5, 2025
not sure if im sexually attracted to guys or if i just dont mind doing things i kind of hate haha
LodgerFromHell – Nov 2, 2025
fragrance of decency is missing
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Goldielocks, 19
2025 model research-chemical rape-toy desperate to be kept in a non-stop chemed-out hypersexual coma.
Bootybumps until I’m permanently horny, pupils blown, hole gaping from XXL Bad Dragon, Chance, Crackers, Diego, Apocalypse knots 24/7.
I need a sadistic intellectual Master to finish frying whatever’s left of my brain.
Extreme cerebral requirements: Filmed daily IQ tests while I’m peaking — laugh for hours at how many brain cells I’ve killed this week
Forced mental degeneration journal that you read back to me while I’m knotted and slamming another rail.
Only message if you actually stock 3-MMC/a-PVP among other chems and have already turned boys into real 24/7 chem vegetables before.
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CrossRunner – Nov 20, 2025
His sincerity is the most touching thing.
Operationcodeblack – Nov 17, 2025
Hey sorry just been slamming this kid and fucking him with a group of buddies. One of the guys just prepared a new round of points and a tourniquet and a point is laying on his chest so I think we are about ready to admin again. Yes one guy is tying off his arm. Should be RIDING the RUSH into the abyss any second. Talk on the other side.
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i_doom_you, 19
so here’s the lowdown… been auctioned off as a longpig a few times. no one ever went through with it (not really shocked) if u want a longpig and have a use for my meat let me know, happy to discuss. just don’t scam me anymore please. i’m not doing it.
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bonesawfilm – Nov 16, 2025
Fast food eating junkie meat is an acquired taste.
dicknotized – Nov 12, 2025
If you’re feeling trepidatious ask him to tell you stories of all the miserable things that have happened to him in his life. He has plenty. And he loves to talk.
i_doom_you (Owner) – Nov 4, 2025
DON’T MESSAGE ME IF YOU ARE NEED FRIEND.
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sadhorrorclown, 20
im looking for aboyfrined im into horror movie role playing thier no fetish I won’t at least try once ill admit im not very attractive I look kind of ugly but thiers a top for every lid or so im told either way im rlly into the band carcass
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FreddyKrooger – Nov 13, 2025
You love hearing that you’re a demented faggot who’s too stupid to know any better than to get pozzed. You wanna hear that you’re doomed to die of AIDS. Tell me there will be a red ribbon on your gravestone. It’s your destiny. You wanna take chem shards in your butt to really get you good and brain dead for your conversion. You’re a fucked up faggot.
MichalMyers – Nov 13, 2025
You’re past the point of no return, your mind and soul have been converted completely into depravity. Now you just need to you’re body to catch up.
FreddyKrooger – Nov 13, 2025
There’s no turning back for you now, the bug has fully taken over your brain. You need death cum in your guts. You lust for the day that you learn that you will die from AIDS. It is your destiny. You’re doomed, and the more you realize that, the harder you get.
FreddyKrooger – Nov 13, 2025
You are a fucking slave to poz cum. It’s all you think about. Your dick gets so fucking rock hard instantly thinking about taking a death load deep inside your bowels. Dying of AIDS makes you so fucking horny. You want a poz dad to look you in the eyes as he’s cumming in you and tell you You’re going to die of AIDS. Get knocked up!
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mouth4yourusemylord, 19
looking for a cool man who’s up for a quick hookup, squats on me, and shits down my throat
can’t get it up, my sex life consists of eating men’s shit
send a picture of your “production” in the toilet bowl
live in Afghanistan if my location is an issue well tough 😂😎
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mouth4yourusemylord (Owner) – Nov 6, 2025
before what you people call the Taliban took over
Twinkwhisperer – Nov 6, 2025
But apparently you can travel (Eiffel Tower!)
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Ironbutterfly, 19
I have slowly developed a compulsive fetish for shooting cum into my open eyes. I constantly fantasize about a bunch of men ejaculating directly into my open eyes. I know it will be excruciatingly painful, but it sounds feels hot. Man after man shooting cum into my open eyes. They take turns holding my eyes open so they don’t close. Could this be my destiny?
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TallDaddyBear – Nov 22, 2025
He is completely fantastic.
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Clumsy, 20
I’m 20
I’ve had a very disappointing history with dating (as in lack of) and am so fucking tired of it
I’m a virgin
I’m looking to not be by whatever means necessary
So I’m actually irl a chill very religious guy who likes hiking and board games
Jesus Christ is my favorite artist
Nashua Nh is my home town
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slumslut – Nov 12, 2025
I kill you 2 Night …
Clumsy (Owner) – Nov 9, 2025
I will say it again and again, WITH GOD ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE!!!!!!!!!!!! Just prayyyyyyy and have faith!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
needlover – Nov 8, 2025
Kim is polite, steady, respectful, genuine, responsive, reliable, private, disciplined boy who believes in God. He has the stoic perfect attitude to be sex meat, and a face so cute I wanted to fist his nostrils.
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cheapthing, 19
I will include this astrology info on me as it has a huge impact on my sex life and those in my sex life or coming into my sex life. You should know this about me!!!
I am 5 times Scorpio. 5 of the 9 planets were all aligned in the house of Scorpio at the time & location where I was born. This is considered a rarest of rare, next to impossible grouping.
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cheapthing (Owner) – Nov 15, 2025
I remember you, you seemed like a Leo.
unknowncharm – Nov 15, 2025
Looking back, I had my bare cock in almost 80 teenaged drug whores. I prefer scrawny, used bodies over a perfect body. I’ve even fucked fat boys, if they were young enough. But I prefer skinny so I can imagine they’re emaciated due to AIDS. These days, nothing gets me harder than seeing a boy with track marks, or who openly smokes crack. The other day I picked up this skinny dirty looking whore, same shirt pants and astrology bullshit. To my delight he immediately began smoking crack in my car. He asked me to buy him more and he left the car for 20 minutes with $30. I didn’t think he’d come back, but he did, and immediately began making out with me in between hits off his crack pipe. I was ready to explode. I got him home and he took another hit and I pounded him for 3 hours and flooded his pussy with four thick loads. I had a full body orgasm imagining the diseases he might be giving me.
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VaguelyHorny, 22
Help me not be afraid of sex.
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ncbareback – Nov 21, 2025
😅😅😅 I’d kill to slam and go absolutely disgustingly mental with Mark Conners 💦🤪🍆 I’m sweating and incoherent thinking about it.
mattg – Nov 21, 2025
I would fuck Mark Conners until he was crippled.
BoyStrngler – Nov 21, 2025
Dear God please tell me you actually are the guy who played Mark Conners on The Conners and didn’t just steal his photos. I wanna blow my load in that skinny fagboy. But only after passing his skinny ass around to a bunch of hung men and gangfucking load after load into the bitch and then fistfucking his hole into a gaped out cavern.
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Branching_out, 18
im just looking to hook up with nice older guys in denver colorado
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BetterCallJerome – Nov 22, 2025
He’ll hardly do anything and he wants money for it.
imjustboredok – Nov 14, 2025
I am a 56 old cowboy who travels around the USA driving the large trucks soon to pass through denver and i’d likes to take pictures and videos of your nude body while tied up in all sorts of positions and areas that include the outdoors, which include pictures and videos of your nude body being sexually and physically abused by me in both indoor and outdoor settings. I dream what your bare bottom would feel and look like if it was spanked almost to the point of it turning black and blue. I wonder what your nude body would look like if I was to wax my whole body while you were hanging naked by your wrists. I do have other sexual thoughts which include being you placed in a position of you being my nude slave for the rest of my life.
whiteslut – Nov 8, 2025
His novice ass thinks most cocks are huge at this point, so…
early_bird – Nov 3, 2025
Really hard asf right now. You look fun.
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RapeBitch, 21
I think you will be pleasantly surprised.
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DarkDesireX – Nov 12, 2025
He has a cute, slappable face. In other worlds he could have been a model, only there it was flushed and screaming… *sigh* such is life.
BlueNuts – Nov 9, 2025
Go to his place, slam him, roll him on his stomach, get down to business, have 2-4 hours of insane fun.
MasterOfSex – Nov 5, 2025
Buddy-like conversation over a few beers then I screwed his butt into a pile of mashed potatoes. Pity he won’t kiss.
Spankozzy – Nov 1, 2025
Gave him a hard spanking, paddle and belt and whip until fire truck red. Then we had anal.
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Sxturn, 18
I want to be your breeding calf. During the day you have me chained down. A machine milks my cock for everything it has. An iv drip pumps chemicals into my body to produce endless milk. a tube flows into my mouth set to feed me forever. My hole has a plug in it keeping me lubed and milking my prostate. my ass has your initials branded into my skin. When you come home you check on me, drink some of my milk, and breed me for how long you would like. Then you leave and start all over again. I dont have a calf suit unfortunately.
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JohnnyLeash – Nov 20, 2025
Perfect for dairy farmers! PERFECT PERFECT PERFECT! Keep it up! This is what dairy farmers deserve, and only him! PERFECT PERFECT PERFECT 👍 👍 👍
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BisexualStardust, 22
Hey, nice to meet you. I am a total jerk living in Central Texas. I like to meet new people. Like talking and chatting about kink hah. I’m a kinky guy. Very into kinks. Definitely that hards kinks heh. Some kinky ship could be not bad. I’m like German men. My dream here to being germanized by German patriot and become some German fanatic lover.
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AT11hours – Nov 19, 2025
Straight but may or may not have experimented with a man and mine was a very big cock. Now his brain is kind of cooked for it.
Super discreet straight (if you can call it that).
Super normal but obviously if there’s big veiny German donkey daddy meat in front of him it sends him a bit cross eyed.
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Spic4Snuff, 24
Listen up, you pale-skinned predators. Let me lay out exactly what’s on offer here—a broken-in, prime piece of spic meat, lean, athletic, with an ass that won’t quit and an 8.5-inch cock that’s been trained for abuse, not pleasure. Owned already by a master who gets hard watching me bleed, choke, and scream. He’s a cold-blooded racist with a vision: my endgame.
My owner wants me slaughtered—slowly, creatively, savagely—by a select crew of White sadists who understand *real* hatred. Think branding irons, knives, guns, gang fists that split me open. Anything goes except scat. That’s the only line I’ve got left.
I’m here because he’s handpicking killers for my last scene. You want a corpse? I’m it. You want to hear bones snap under pure White dominance? That’s the soundtrack we’ll make. Come claim what’s left of this spic before it’s too late.
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Europe2026 – Nov 16, 2025
We heard you the first time.
Spic4Snuff (Owner) – Nov 16, 2025
One last time, you White, racist sadists with steel in your eyes and hate in your veins. I’m prime for the butcher block, real spic objct – built like a brick shithouse, ink-scarred hide, swinging 8.5 inches of brown meat, and an ass hot enough to make a racist’s teeth itch.
My Owner’s a connoisseur of cruelty. Loves watchin’ me raped raw, beaten bloody, tortured ’til my screams sound like hymns to him. But here’s the *pièce de résistance* – he’s curatin’ a finale. His magnum opus. Wants a few *select* White men to help end me. Permanently.
I ain’t here to beg. You want in? Then you better come heavy. Bring your knives, your fists, your guns, your blow torches, your coldest contempt. My pain’s your pleasure, my agony your dessert. Tear me apart while my Owner watches, smirking.
And when I’m finally still? There’s an afterparty. Taste my flesh. Maybe he’ll tan my hide into leather – a souvenir for the *real* enthusiasts.
Think you’re worthy? Prove it. Bring the hate. Bring the hurt. Let’s make this death a true masterpiece.
Iamxavier – Nov 11, 2025
why are you still alive? just to make us suffer?
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p.s. Hey. So, here’s the deal. Tomorrow I fly to NYC to do a reading on Monday. On Tuesday I fly to LA where we’re showing ‘RT’ on Thursday. I’ll be in LA for about a week and then I’ll fly back to NYC where we’re showing ‘RT’ twice on the 12th and 14th. Then I’ll return to Paris, and the blog and I will return to this space with my annual favorites of the year post on Wednesday, December 17th. Feel more than free to leave comments or hang out or do almost anything you want here until the blog and I get back and catch up with you. ** Carsten, Your chosen cake is reflective of your allergy to Xmas’s eccentricities, and god love you. I’d practically still be a foetus if it wasn’t for the French. I take 2 mg of melatonin per night except when I’m traveling and suffering through big time changes in which case I take 4 mg. Melatonin definitely helps me sleep, but it doesn’t have an effect on everyone, for sure. It’s worth a try re: your mom. It’s completely harmless. ** _Black_Acrylic, Haha, thanks. Friends here and I had an initial discussion about our buche candidates, and the staircase one was among them. Also the cheese wheel, the melted apples one, the ‘coffee cups’ one, and the pinecone. So far. I watched ‘The Center Will Not Hold’ and enjoyed it as well. Have a truly lovely early December, Ben. ** Steeqhen, Hi. I listed my pals’ and my initial possible buche purchases just above. I’ve never watched ‘Stranger Things’, so that one just looks a goth Xmas ornament or something to me. No Thanksgiving for me, nope, and no Black Friday exploitation either. Everything about Disneyland interests me, so I’ll look for that video. I hope if you made the trip that she rocked you or whatever she does. From her name, she doesn’t seem like a rocker. ** Uday, Oh, good. I often feel my blog’s buche love falls on deaf ears. Yes, the Sonny Bono piece was in ‘All Ears’. I cut it when did the bigger non-fiction book ‘Smothered in Hugs’ because it was just a workmanlike thing for money. Amazing how much magazines used to pay for journalism. That piece was for John Kennedy Jr.’s old magazine George. Blondie better than ABBA?! No way, dude, haha. But I love your love. Where are you applying or maybe where are you most hoping will accept you? ** Bill Hsu, Not bad, yeah. Unfortunately the Black one is only available very far away from Paris despite the name of the maker. I crave that one too, yes. eBook, cool, if nothing else. Any particularly pleasurable Xmas build up plans? ** HaRpEr //, Hey. The cheese one is a very strong candidate, white chocolate notwithstanding. The Hermes one is way, way out of our price range sadly. Oh, pal, I’m so sorry about the job center catharting. But maybe you feel better somehow and hopefully its witness feels better or worse and something. Yes, I leave tomorrow, but I should have downtime in LA to assemble your post while I’m there. Thank you! I hope your next two weeks provides plenty of upbeat stretches. I’ll be teleporting offshoot vibes from whatever good shit happens on my end. ** Laura, Yes, the trick is to try to see the buches in the flesh before forking out for them because the photography can be and often is very glamorising. I think it might be google translate that neutralised the descriptions because I had to feed the originals into that platform in order to give y’all the English scoops. Way, way, way too long a story re: why ‘RT’ was so difficult to make. In a word, we had an absolutely horrible and neglectful and often destructive producer. My faith is based on my usually good instincts. Great news that you edited a bunch despite insufficient sleep. I am, yes. a bit rushed preparing for the big trip, as might be evident. We don’t usually watch the film at screenings. We go out, walk around, have a coffee, etc. and go back at the 92 minute mark to do the Q&A. That said, we have watched the film a thousand times. Have a lustrous two+ weeks. ** Right. By sheer coincidence, the blog’s time away will leave you looking continually at the month’s slave contingent for better or worse. You all take care of yourselves and so on, and I will see you again before too long.
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Hey, Dennis! How are you?
I’m really glad to hear the first Paris screening was a success! And, of course, I hope today’s will be much the same, along with the ones in New York and LA! Have a safe and lovely trip!!
If I can make myself leave the house this weekend, I’ll see a Bruce Gilden exhibition that’s just opened here and maybe go on a little bookshop tour – but it’s a big if. Brain death season is still in full swing, and I might just stay home and decompress.
I always have enough brain cells for the annual Bûche beauty pageant, though! They’re always spectacular, but this year’s contestants are exceptionally beautiful! (Au Petit Matin? How?? It’s breathtaking!) A very, very tough choice. Right now, I’d go for The trompe-l’œil, LE SAC À MAIN, Joyau des Pins, The Train of Wonders, or Café Kitsuné. Which ones are your front runners?
Love looks kind of ugly but thiers a top for every lid or so he’s told either way he’s rlly into the band carcass, Od.
Bruce Gilden exhibition? Where’s that happening? Do report back if you end up going. Just recently discovered his work & felt drawn to it right away, so much so that a couple of his photos found their way into my Duende Day here a few weeks ago.
All the best for you guys’ forthcoming travels!
Stumped for a Xmas present this year? I have requested this Erratic Boulders of Uig 2026 calendar from the Scottish art duo of Dalziel and Scullion. Louise Scullion was teaching at Dundee Art College while I was in attendance, although I never did get a tutorial at the time. They have made some great work together and I think this would set my kitchen wall off nicely.
Happy to report that just when it seemed like the UK had given up on its Xmas Blunderland tradition, we do get this story to celebrate.
Dennis, Oh, okay, no worries. If you don’t have time, you don’t have time. There will be other times. We’re still gonna be there the 11th through the 14th. Any time comes available let me know. We’ll just be running around NYC eating and doing whatever.
Safe and comfortable trip for the both of you. Xo
Excited to see RT when it comes to NYC.
The Christian boy, ha. Dubious taste in art though.
Have a great trip, Dennis and Zac! Oddly enough, I’ve never been to the Roxy. I see they’re showing Drugstore Cowboy on the same day as RT!
Thanks for the heads-up on the year-end lists. Now I can spend the next 2 weeks preparing mine, and not be caught flatfooted.
Bill
Hey, Dennis! How have you been? I had to look up what a “longpig” is, I assumed it was just someone who can be a “pig” for an extended period of time, but the actual definition is a lot more interesting. This post is reminding me of a conversation I had with a friend the other day where he said, “I have a lot of pervert friends and at the end of the day they all just want to be loved.” Hope your busy early December goes well. What are you reading in NYC? Oh, also, I released an EP with some of those songs I recorded over the summer that I was telling you about. I’ll put the link here if you’re interested: https://juliansellers.bandcamp.com/album/salt-ep
Hi Dennis! It’s been a minute since I’ve commented – life got in the way – but I’m so excited for the Room Temperature screening/Q&A here in NYC! Haven’t been to the Roxy since Mysterious Skin last year (strangest crowd I’ve ever watched a film with…). Have been haunting the AMC Lincoln Square to make sure my taste is as middlebrow as possible. Have, of course, been silently keeping up with the blog, and as always, love everything you’ve been putting a spotlight on, although I fear for my sanity when it comes to lingering on the slave roundup for a good two weeks. In the best way, of course. Went to Codex the other day and they had an absurdly priced copy of Eden, Eden, Eden that I will be fantasizing of receiving for Christmas. Sadly not much to comment on beyond my excitement for the screening. Working on writing a short story for the writing group I’m a part of, which is totally paralyzing. I’m used to writing plays, but they won’t accept that, so trying to turn what is normally all dialogue and stage directions and inferences into actual blocks of structured text gives me even more respect for those who have a gift for it, as do the commenters on this blog and you. The only live music I’ve experienced lately was I Hate Models at Knockdown Center. Hope that all your travels go well!
Hi Dennis,
Welcome to LA! I’m sorry to miss the screening tonight. Break a leg. Hope to see you sometime when you are here.
B
This is, as always, beautiful. I wrote a poem for Jean Genet and wanted to leave it here as a tribute to the two of you:
Oh let me mother you, Jean, let me love you with all the ferocious, stupid tenderness of a mother.
Let me love you with the love that makes all your sins sweet, every misdeed a charming bit of impishness from a too-clever son.
Oh, let me adore you with all the maternal ardour of a queen, even as I dream of my womb having been that which birthed you into the world.
Was I her? Your mother?
Once upon a time. I hope so.
I wish it so, though if I were, I know I must have wished I could have kept you, darling boy.
Hey, Dennis! I Hope you’re having fun in LA. Just wanted to drop in and tell you I saw that ‘RT’ made John Waters’ top 10 films of the year—very cool! Safe travels back, and I hope to chat more when you return. xoxo
Hey there Dennis! Hope your trip has been going well : 3
I just wrapped up the seminars for this term. Honestly I’ve been feeling unwell about them. In general the philosophy that’s taught doesn’t resonate with me. It feels actively reductive in the ways that it limits artistic agency for commercial viability. There’s other reasons too. My seminar lead gave this strange bit of advice saying “why don’t you use AI gen tools to hear your favorite writers read your work out loud.” Sentiments like that have been recurring. It’s felt limiting to want to delve deeper in your artistic voice, as there is obsession with fitting your work within contemporary spaces. It’s odd, though I suppose that is to be expected with institutional environments.
Still, I’m trying my best to find others to speak with. Lately I’ve been aching for collaboration, especially when it comes to video editing. I’m not really sure how to ask others if they want to work on something. I suppose we’ll see what comes of that.
I’m really excited about the end of the year though. One of my best friends will be coming back to my home town soon. She studies up north, so I haven’t seen her in a while. For New Years, we will be travelling with some other friends to see Hugo up in York. I’m looking forward to see him again. If anything, I feel I need to ground myself within spaces that I can voice myself in. These feelings of disassociation are odd, and I don’t like how recurring its become for me in the past few months. I’m thinking of trying to reach out into different social circles again. Perhaps online or in person. We shall see!
In the mean time, I look forward to seeing you back here. Thank you for the conversations we’ve had. It was lovely to meet you, and I’m grateful for our continued talks. When I feel lost about the spaces I can speak in, the thought of this blog does comfort me. Wish you well!
girl i’m feeling you so much re: institutional settings and fitting in and tbh, ime even the crustiest ad hoc artsy social circle rn wants to have an authoritative (authoritarian) ring to it, even if it says otherwise, and everyone is totally the same, it’s like a cult lol.
uh, neither of us needs to be glazed probably, but it’s so tweak how ppl won’t shut up about spectrums and diversity or whatever, yet the only stuff they like in the end is whatever is in-group-coded.
tbh i think a lot of the current artistic community experience is ‘i wanna have friends so i’ll make smth blah which falls within the guidelines and then we’ll all go out for whatever is allowed’. like nahh man i prefer to suck by my own merits or whatever. really.
what is it you make? video art, or…? wish i could point you towards anyone, but alas. share smth sometime! AI reading stuff out loud is literally what my husband and I reach for when we want to laugh our arses off, idk what your seminar person is on about fr. anyway, enjoy your visit w your friend!
Hi Dennis, first time writing to you, I was put onto reading your works by another commenter, Jay. I finished Closer some time ago, I really enjoyed the prose and the way you structured the narrative, I think it’s had a profound effect on my personal ability to write “erotic” prose, for better or worse lol.
I come with a recommendation for an internet horror series, “_9MOTHER9HORSE9EYES9,” alternatively known as “Mother Horse Eyes” or “The Interface Series,” and it can be found archived in its entirety on the r/9M9H9E9 subreddit. The actual substance of the work is incredibly fascinating, shifting rapidly through multiple perspectives, from the LSD using metanarrator to concentration camp guards to even black hebrew israelites.
The insanity and shifting narratives taper off near the end, I don’t wish to spoil any of the story’s contents but it is fantastically written.
Awesome to see you here Dustin B^)
cheers, that sounds readable! *makes note*
How were your trips to New York and Los Angeles? (Screen Slate should run my RT review tomorrow.) I hope you found an enthusiastic audience. Did anyone ask a memorable question?
Have you found that the poster leads people to expect a conventional horror film?
@Dustin–Thanks for the “Mother Horse Eyes” link.
I posted the next-to-last “Radio Not Radio” episode of 2025 tonight: https://www.mixcloud.com/callinamagician/11132025-radio-not-radio/. This one features Hayward X Dalek, Sonitus Misssarium, Logic Lost, Voivod, Ortopedic Quartet, Qasu, Zu, Effie, Chappell Roan (DJ Ericnem remix), Aphex Twin, Racio Sensacion & Stereo, Not For Radio, Hopeasiivet, Infinite Coles, Ezya, Syztema, Brenda, Opiate, Midori Hirano, Klein, Split Enz, Anthony Moore, Peter Hammill, SPELLLING, Marta Del Grandi and Metal Preyers.
Hey Dennis – How did the screenings go in NYC and LA? Any particular highlights from the trip overall? A few friends who went in both cities were really impressed by the movie. Hope the rest of the audiences were similarly knocked out.
I emailed you the guest post for Julian Calendar’s just released debut album. One email has the text, a second has the images. Everything is labeled with links so hopefully it’s easy to put together. Let me know if anything seems missing, confusing, etc. Really appreciate you hosting this – it’s so hard for a new band to get any exposure these days.
Two recent 16mm screenings of Flaming Creatures (first new print struck in ages) and six short Robert Breer films both went really well. The audiences were into the films in gratifying ways – and selfishly, it was incredible to see those movies projected in great prints. Next up: two Nathaniel Dorsky films. We acquired a projector that can show them at the slower frame rate he requires. Excited for that.
I’m in the final stretch of teaching this semester, which has been frankly overwhelming. I’m out of pocket until the 19th, but would love to catch up after that. I’ve been pushing local theater here on RT and making progress – lots of other things to catch up on as well.
Hope your screenings & travels went well & you’re not too beat from it all. How’d it go? What did you think of Brain Dead Studios?
And congrats on making John Waters’ annual top ten! I hope that steers even more folks toward RT.
I’ve been good, despite dealing with some unnecessary bullshit. My car’s still in the shop for one thing (blame the insurance crooks), the house I’m renting has some serious maintenance issues that weren’t noticeable until winter & I’ve come down with a cold. All at once, as so often…
Anyway, I’ll pull through. In the meantime we need a new greeting for your international travels. How about: may your journeys be paved with smooth roads & mild jetlags. Hasta luego my friend.
your car is still in the shop? fuck that! do you want me to give them a ring and shout at them in Spanish?
You’d have to join me in shouting at the insurance company in German, since they’re mostly to blame. The Spanish shop was ready to go from day one, it’s the warranty giver who tried to wiggle out of covering the cost for damn near a month. I actually took down one representative’s name the other day, telling him I’d specifically avoid him like the plague. They know I wish crippling diseases on them by now…
the fuckers! well, i could get my husband to shout at them in German, or even better, in Dutch. say the word lol, santa paciencia
How awesome was that! And a total quantum supernova honestly I had no idea I was on the path to finally meeting you and getting some of the best end of year laughs of my life! When I started talking about joyful art you should have spoiled your new movie was the exact dreadful brillant hilarious new age media I was dreaming up! Favorite shots honestly your ghost movements were better than enter the void really ghosty so yall nailed movement. Next Charlie through the gate just beautiful and HILARIOUS. And of course the opening literally genius. I had it on my manifesting list that we’d meet one day so I have finally locked into the right place/time/narrow path with your help so thanks for being the first marker. Also everyone says your kind and you bring out an interesting artsy demure crowd glass animals primal power in sensitivity and awareness beautiful. Im still tired but gosh it was great to see you my mom and friends love the pics of us I told well showed Joey first then my mom lol.
hiya Dennis!
sorta miss you! have your travels been all the things? what was the best part?
it wasn’t a bad idea to leave us with the slaves and those who… love them (?), like man, what a particularly entertaining edition. i spotted a Nirvana tshirt so i reckon that’s the discerning choice, tho the dancer guy pops into my head every once in a while— he’s got such nice hands but if he’s not on pointe yet he’s never gonna be, and if he is then he’s worse than me at self-promotion, for which i’m like so sorry lol. that bloke AUSSIELAD!!!! or smth else overexcited was having a conniption, hope he’s been heard from since. and did you cherry pick or is absolutely everyone having this massive one about AIDS-y thanatos and…? gosh, the gentrification. totally misread this one guy saying his life consisted of eating shit lol and then felt lowkey shortchanged bc he meant just his sex life, obvi. would have been such a total statement if he’d been all no, dude, it’s my life generally speaking, i don’t do anything else, like go big.
hope talking does a lot for them, cos otherwise who’s paying for all of the rectal surgeries etc. these things matter!
anyway, fuckloads more editing going on over here, way more than i initially set out for. i annoy myself bc i’m not patient enough to complete a first draft before i go there, i just get superweird that the longer i wait the larger the gap becomes between earlier stuff and the day’s work or whatever, see above for my surgical concerns. it’s all this mixed endeavour now and uh… ugh. totally fear i could just edit away for the rest if my life, which, uh, fuck that.
i might be a Try scholar by now, tho! srsly it’s quite possible i’ve never re-read smth w such pleasure and detail. reckon the first time, way back when, didn’t have the same impact bc i was permaworried about everyone dying? the mostly living end goes v v v hard. anyway, my editing deadline is the day after tomorrow and after that it’s back to active writing and i’d better be half normal by then lol.
you’ve def heard the new-ish Hüsker Dü, right? fuuuck they were feral live, i so missed out. sigh. extra beautiful. Ziggy must be so chuffed. wish they’d put in Up In The Air tho, which is my current ordeal’s undisputed theme tune or whatever.
oh! been meaning to read your poetry more! i know it a bit and like i made a song out of Haiku Physics over ten years ago at least but most of your verse work is still a mystery. where should i start? i wrote a poem the other day lol, which goes like this, https://i.postimg.cc/HsqckGCY/poem-x.jpg
anyway, you all packed up and ready for home and your bûche de noël etc? and the dirty tea, obvi, have you checked out that huge Heated Rivalry adaptation? lol. no idea about the books but the show is like this good soap opera. except for when two background characters take the stage for like a whole ep and they’re so normal it’s cringe. one of the main actors is supergood, tho, he can do. ^_^
speaking of watching, i was thinking of Permanent Greenlight the other day, which is something else completely <3 how that Italian kid actor did something great in the final scene, like they all witness, right, then he barely hides behind someone else and the end comes mid-motion, it sort of made the film for me. was he told to do that or is he just v good?
mooooan, back to editing. but wishing you snow! or uh, the spirit behind the letter.
<3
ugh link broken, here lol https://i.postimg.cc/Lsm5vrKR/poem-x.jpg
Hi Dennis! So excited to view your annual favorites post. Been waiting to comment on this one for a while, it was kind of conveniently timed in a way, but I didn’t want to overwhelm you in case you got sixty some comments like you did during that one hiatus! A few weeks back I had a guy in his early 60s reach out to me asking me to like… genuinely snuff him out (with a gun, he likes guns). I thought he might have been hyperbolic in a “I don’t want to break character” way, but he’s not. He lives in a whole other continent and expressed he would drop everything & travel to fulfill his “ultimate fantasy”. Out of curiosity I asked him why he has this desire and he said he couldn’t say. Scary stuff all around! It’s interesting to know that violent fantasies that extreme occupy the minds of some older guys… I wonder if this desire has been with him since he was my age, or if its onset is more recent. I don’t think I should ask him though cause 1) I don’t think he’d tell me and 2) I don’t want him under the impression that I have any desire to fulfill his death wish. It’s comforting to know that nobody is taking him up on it though. It kind of reminds me of Bataille’s secret society where (if my memory serves me right) multiple people desired to sacrifice themself, but nobody showed interest in carrying out the execution.
Also yeah, re: the pumpkin competition I won a couple months back, I did get a prize! Wasn’t anything crazy, I think I won 5 free drink cards. Might’ve wasted them low key, I don’t really drink alcohol so I exchanged them for root beer and ginger ale. It’s an interesting place to hang out and draw after work- “wacky” is a pretty apt descriptor. All things considered though it’s extremely laid back, definitely removed from the whole old guard ideal people like to romanticize.
Hope your visits to LA & NYC were pleasant for you, and I hope you have a wonderful day!
Hey Dennis,
Never ended up going to the Oklou concert. Was sad to miss it but I don’t seem to regret not going. Like others said I saw RT on John Water’s list, which is great promo! Think I saw a few publications like Vulture posting about it. Hope the US screenings went well, I saw on Zac’s story that ye were with Brandon Flynn whom I recognized from one or two shows (one being 13 Reasons Why) which was a surprising crossover haha.
Seem to be out of my slump, as I’ve been leaving the house and getting up at a reasonable hour most days now, and my friends and I have set up a ‘writing group’ today, where we sit and research and discuss ideas, and start off drafts. I’ve been making myself write some reviews of albums/songs as a bit of practice, and it felt great to feel the passion again.
Getting an MP3 player for Christmas, which I’m really excited to have. Been thinking a lot about streaming and the notion of having every song at your fingertips, and how the Spotify algorithm tends to feed everybody the same songs but make you think you’re the one discovering something, and how I want to develop a fresh connection to music.
Need to visit London soon, possibly for James Bennett’s event with Gluck, but I might try and visit Paris again soon, since I have a surplus of income and probably won’t for a while once I move to London, so I’ll let you know when I’m around if you wanted to meet up again.
*soon being in the next few months, by the way! I doubt I’ll be leaving Ireland until 2026
Hey Dennis! Hope everything went well. I’ve been basically as chaotic as usual except I have this weird sickness at the moment. I think I have the flu or something, I’ve been ill for over a week. Don’t know what it is but it’s driving me mad that it won’t go away. Probably exhaustion again. I have felt very weak and fatigued for a while so I’m hoping that’s just it and my fickle body got swept up in something harmless. I’m really having some extremely intense dreams though.
I finished the first draft of novel 2 by the way! Which may be part of the reason why I was fatigued now I think about it but I took a break from it for a while and when I came back wrote slowly but steadily and managed to get to the end of my initial plans, so I don’t know actually. Now the fun part awaits.
Was The Dare at one of your ‘Room Temperature’ showings by the way? I love that guy.
Can’t wait for your lists! I have mine ready… see ya!
Hi Dennis,
Congrats getting on John Water’s list! This is a great slave post. I like that everyone ignored the race play guy. He misread the vibe. It’s wild how the craziest comments are under the normal bios. Like the poz cum guy under the “ugly” guy looking for a boyfriend. I guess they’re trying to shock people.
Thank you for your kind words about my Christmas piece a few weeks ago. I need to rewatch it with my family sometime soon. It’s one of my dad’s favorites because he’s in it (he’s the paramedic interviewed). I love that the Santa and I could hardly think of anything to say about my hometown. That first interview says everything I could say about the place. Which is basically nothing, but like, an interesting amount of nothing.
I hope you have a merry lead up to Christmas and find yourself on the nice list!
Hello how was your trip?
So my poem was not accepted. wahh. Maybe the subject matter was too dark. It had themes of child abuse. I’ll send it to you if your interested. I know your busy so theres no obligations. Ive been doing my own searching but do you know of any good LIT magazines or things that accept poetry/writing/art submissions of newer writers….possibly experimental and gritty?
u said u were an artist, but not very good at it. Do you have any depictions of your work floating around? It can wait, as im sure your jet lagged. I Threw up this morning yay! (Haha, no) Hope you had an amazing time in your vacation. So much has happened…but i’ll tell you tommorow.
Dude I’m going to have to tell you the experience I had watching twin peaks on shrooms..wow Oh and…. something very great is happening before my eyes….but I’ll tell you that as soon as I know this isn’t just a dream. This very very interesting person who ive met and am falling bashfully for and I like I mentioned I don’t fall for people often and mostly do fleeting kind of loves and oh the last time I felt like this sort of love was….February….wow. It is not involving the shroom trip but a different scenario entirely. I’m falling but I hopefully can make time to write these feelings down onto paper to make sense of it. Im up very late tonight because of how this person is making me feel, I cant concentrate on work or sleep,,eeek. They are just so very cool and artsy. Anyways, I enjoy being the buttplug to the end of this comment section, which is why i abstained from commenting until the very last day (hoping no one comments after me, sabatoging my plans of becoming this comment sections butt plug. But if someone else wants to be the butt plug thats ok with me.