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wantToBeYourDaughter, 20
Yeah, i’m a bit over the top. So what? I have extremely brutal and horrific desires that makes me excited and pleasure i need help. My desires are (A) to be burried below my neck for days, to be embeded by cement or concrete in my limbs (legs upto above knee and my arms upto my elbow) on ground and seen above elbow and above knee like live monument for days, etc (B) to be tortured my dick from simple torturing upto destroying and removing. I like to be tortured my dick, to be pierced by different needles, to be nailing down on board, to be brutally bitten, to be sewed, after all types of brutal torturing done on my dick then i want it to be cut off completely with the balls.
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Funz_anytime – Aug 26, 2026
Would love to have my cock in your throat and break each of your fingers one by one. Every time your screams would vibrate on my dick. If you got lucky and made me cum before all 10 fingers were destroyed we could have a second play session later.
wantToBeYourDaughter (Owner) – Aug 25, 2026
When i say i need help i mean that i need a right person who will excite by my desires and then want to absolutely dehumanize me by different methods intesnsively and similarly extremely torture me 24/7. My owner takes me to his home and lock me in small room the whole my life. My owner should torture my mind intensively till my mind shutdown its regular task. Not only this but also my owner can modify me or change me into whatever they want even up to amputating all my limbs and remove other necessary body parts.
AlexSmartGermany – Aug 25, 2026
Be specific, do you need help to achieve your desires, or help to overcome them ?
wantToBeYourDaughter (Owner) – Aug 25, 2026
Really?!! Are you the right person i need? This is my lifetime dream i were dreaming. So I want to be owned by the right person wherever he is. But i want to be extremely tortured, i want to be amputated all my limbs and want to be Quad amputee, then after i become quad amputee i should have to live crawling by my four short stumps, i should have to be to live difficult and challenged life by doing things by myself without limbs, etc.
SirThornton – Aug 25, 2026
Seems to be hot! Would help you and torture you extremely and do all you want.


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breedmelikeyoudo, 18
Im n escort in Győri járás lookin for rough sex in the forest n get pay
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Jamestaylor – Aug 11, 2026
I love him but I’ve never fucked him.
EagerVoid – Aug 8, 2026
I dated/bankrolled this closet case for a while. He wouldn’t introduce me to his friends or family because they might “FIND OUT.” Not even as a friend. No hole is worth that bullshit. He thinks he’s hiding the big deep dark secret that EVERYONE KNOWS because he’s fucking gay from space.
eightandahalf – Aug 6, 2026
He has that sadness in his eyes that you only see in Eastern European gay porn.
WillSplitUinHalf – Aug 2, 2026
Impossible to fuck his ass hard without cumming earlier than you want.

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DrugTestFail, 22
I love being knocked out cold
Put me to sleep with rohynol or ambien or whatever else you have
I CAN HONESTLY SAY EVERY KO MASTER ON HERE HAS BEEN FULL OF CRAP
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DrugTestFail (Owner) – Aug 20, 2026
DELETE ACCOUNT – SEVERAL ATTEMPTS – ACCOUNT STILL OPEN – UNLAWFUL UNETHICAL… Illegal practice and behavior – A person should be able to delete all info, pics, DELETE THIS ACCOUNT
LongTallPop – Aug 17, 2026
He is still with me in my place but I had to leave a note here…He is a miracle of nature…This is how man was foreseen to be experienced…Heavy as a boulder, floppy as a rag doll, a metronome of gurgling snores, no opinion above the shoulders, no reactions below them…Only drawback, he’s not as cute without his facial expressions.
twinkhandler – Aug 10, 2026
If you take him out by choking and watch his face you can see his weirdness evaporating like a rain puddle.
sleeperer – Aug 7, 2026
I knocked him out with a combination of sleeping pills and chloroform and GHB and fucked him while he was totally passed out in his Nirvana t-shirt and he got his super tight smooth ass fucked all night long in different positions until he finally started to wake up to me inside him pounding him and rubbing the Nirvana t-shirt on us both and he realized he was being fucked in his Nirvana t-shirt and he started to moan and beg me not to stop until he felt my eighth load of cum fire INSIDE HIM.


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PukeBoy, 24
I am the happy property of my Master who named me “Dylan”. And i’m very proud to be His slave. (And of course i’m also very fond of His sweet boyfriend, but not sexualy)
My Master is specifically into making me puke. I am kept permanently chained to a chair in his dining room, eating and blowing until there’s nothing left. He is the most depraved, perverse man who has ever lived! If you’re interested in watching a boy spew, ask.
Some people may remember me as PupSquirmy on X. I did my best to try it but the pup community wasn’t very welcoming and i decided to branch out instead of going through abuse that i got.
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HardAsDiamond – Aug 9, 2026
Yesterday, I spent a couple of hours making him puke, and today people I don’t even know smiled at me and my barber asked if I was an “artist” (because “I looked ‘radiant’ today”)… Coincidence? Maybe.
youaresexy – Aug 8, 2026
You were also on this site as “Footballblowjob” if I’m not mistaken?
bringmeheaven – Aug 8, 2026
-If making this boy vomit is not part of your sex routine, add it. You might be pleasantly surprised. Even kiss with puke, so hot 🥵💦
-He closes his eyes. He opens his mouth. You put your hand or dildo inside. And he vomits up every drop and morsel like the regurgitating faggot slut he really is. 🤤
-I never feel sad when his mouth, face, neck, and whole upper body are covered in vomit… 💦🤤 Life is better this way.


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shootmetodeath, 24
Look for Gunplay .. real Hard ..
A loaded gun in my mouth makes me extremely horny….
I Know only few men who like this and have the Equipment…
and i know How to behave with a gun in my mouth…
Terror makes me Hot ..
Imagine getting Away with it
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Cannibal – Aug 18, 2026
Death is lit
shootmetodeath (Owner) – Aug 17, 2026
Let’s start a conversation here and move to an encrypted platform.
peter1060 – Aug 17, 2026
You with a gun in your mouth and your brains splashing the walls like 4th of July would be my fantasy fulfilled to the fullest! Now you have ruined it for all others I’ll fuck because that is my new standard now 💀
alorsvoila – Aug 13, 2026
Before he went insane Henrique was a well known escort in Switzerland, with an excellent reputation as a bottom.
shootmetodeath (Owner) – Aug 12, 2026
If you need to fly in from another country to do this I can pay. In advance obviously.

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SmartAndHard, 21
You ever just been tryin’a go get you some big D, but things kept interfering to the point you felt like you must’a been the victim of some sorta divine cock blocking like you must’ve pissed off some thalassic Bronze Age deity or something?
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SmartAndHard (Owner) – Aug 13, 2026
Um, excuse me?
HUNGRYFORTEENS – Aug 13, 2026
Dude i made your ass sing like Diamanda Galas not even two nights ago.
Batman07 – Aug 3, 2026
His autism is the good kind.


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RiskyRicky, 19
This Friday, starting at 5:00 PM, I’ll be at the Pluto Sauna (downstairs) and ready to take it.
I’ll be waiting in a lockable cabin downstairs, ready – you just come in and fuck me :). You’ll recognize me by my dog mask. Best to book a slot in advance.
Available slots:
5:00 PM
5:15 PM
5:30 PM
5:45 PM
6:00 PM
6:15 PM
6:30 PM
6:45 PM
7:00 PM
7:15 PM
7:30 PM
7:45 PM
8:00 PM – booked
8:15 PM
8:30 PM – booked
8:45 PM
9:00 PM – booked
9:15 PM
9:30 PM
9:45 PM
10:00 PM
10:15 PM
10:30 PM
10:45 PM
11:00 PM
11:15 PM
11:30 PM
11:45 PM
12:00 AM – booked
12:15 AM
12:30 AM
12:45 AM
1:00 AM
1:15 AM
1:30 AM
1:45 AM
2:00 AM
2:15 AM
2:30 AM
2:45 AM
3:00 AM
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RiskyRicky (Owner) – Aug 16, 2026
I’m a klepto. That’s why I changed how I do this. I already sold your stuff, sorry. As for the rest, maybe you shouldn’t have eaten my poop.
Unique_Love – Aug 16, 2026
Dear Ricky, shortly after you left my home you urged me on WhatsApp to write a good recommendation about you. Now, before I can do this it is my turn to urge you to bring me back all the things you stole from my place. My home is not a self-service “take with you whatever you find interesting” place! After you have returned back to me ALL things I can amend my comment here!
Also, please for the future don’t insist that you know how to give a slam. I asked you many times before you started if you were able to do this and you insisted with replying with yes. When you started I said no, no this is not right this is not the way how to do it…but you still insisted. And it was completely wrong. I have a lot of pain and problems now because nothing went into the vein and all went to the side. So please in the future don’t insist persuading people that you know what you are doing. You do NOT KNOW how to slam.
Also I’d like to mention here that from the night following your visit I have been doing VERY poorly! I am incontinent which means that my entire flat is covered with shit. Now I am using self-made diapers. I also have headache and a cough and body aching a bit also stomach pain. I cannot say how much of this is your fault, maybe is pure coincidence. However my mouth area is completely inflammatory and I have never experienced a diarrhoea like this before.
jock4bro – Aug 11, 2026
I open the door, its dark but I know where u r, I can smell u, fuck bro, yu’re already hard, fuuuck bro, why do u understand me so well, dunno, im your alpha, your my cunt, just a vibe, what I want now, weird to want a hole I know now, after so much random hole, fuck cunt, fuuuuck, I’m hard inside u, im kissin your face, neck, chest, youre not kissing me back, just feel u fukin yourself on my dick, ass moving, pussy milking, your ass is alive, chewing my dick, milking, slime slopping out, wet, potent, fuck bro, fuuuck fuck here it cums, dude, duuude, fuck dusw, fuck u, fuck fuk.

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whodoesntknowmyname, 22
hey guys. i haven’t partied regularly in about 1 year now. but i played with this hot guy who busted out a needle full of meth and offered me some. i didn’t at the time, but now i keep thinking about how good it would feel. plus i’ve never tried tina in a needle. and he seems really into helping me relapse. seems like it could be a hot fucking situation. last time i snorted it was 6 months ago. was able to pick it up and put it back down after trying it again. but i’m still nervous, yet so incredibly turned on. there can’t be too much harm in giving it one more go right?
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Slutverypig – Aug 15, 2026
I applaud your attitude and that you have such experiences, especially that you are willing to share them on your Telegram account which I joined yesterday so that I could see and confirm that you are true to your statement below.
whodoesntknowmyname (Owner) – Aug 14, 2026
i now slam 3 times a day big ones to .8s. SIR CHARLES sluts me out a lot to guys that i normally dont want to fuck but slam makes the word no dissapear from my vocabulary and i let anyone fuck me. im really upset i let some of them have me but im a full blown drug addict that my whole day is based around slamming and getting fucked.
SIRCHARLES – Aug 9, 2026
It* is now owned object of SIR CHARLES.
*it is an ugly, unattractive, plain, homely, unsightly, ugly as sin, ugly as fuck, hideous, awful, vile, gross, dirty, filthy, nasty, disgusting, revolting, repulsive, repugnant, abhorrent, foolish, useless, worthless, pathetic, perverted, sick fuck piece of shit.
Oxone – Aug 5, 2026
I’ll just say this- I have introduced fuck toys to slamming and it has never worked out well for either of us. It’s usually incredible in the beginning but quickly changes. I watched two fuck toys fall into the abyss and never return — one died and the other is now a full time meth whore lost everything and lost his mind. He blames me to this day. Careful. You can’t control what others do once you put that inside them.


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YourVictim, 20
WANT TO CAPTURE A TWINK?
USE ALL YOUR BRUTE FORCE TO SUBMIT HIM?
MAKE HIM ONLY STRUGGLE, DROOL AND WHINE BEHIND A GAG WHILE YOU DO TO HIM WHAT YOU NEVER THOUGHT YOU COULD TO ANYONE?
STRAIGHT PERSON WITHOUT TIME TO LOSE AND AVAILABLE.
PUT ME INSIDE A BAG, SHOVE ME IN THE TRUNK.
I’M INTO MEN WHO DON’T END EVERY SENTENCE WITH “HAHA.”
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YourMaleXL – Aug 13, 2026
Benjamin Franklin said: “Two may keep a secret, if one of them is dead.”
Rockattitude – Aug 13, 2026
Salvador Dali said: “Never fear perfection, you’ll never reach it”. Well I think I demonstrated that Dali was actually wrong.
YourVictim (Owner) – Aug 9, 2026
Yesterday, I got kidnapped by a Jewish guy, and basically, his house was full of Nazi flags. He whispered in my ear, “I always wanted to fuck a Nazi boy”. While I understand it’s just a kink, it did hurt my feelings in that very moment. I’ve noticed that many Jewish kidnapper guys have these Nazi fetishes. I just can’t understand it.
comeoverforever – Aug 2, 2026
Very nervous and juicy.

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Incredibile_, 21
Don’t want to toot my own horn too much, but I think I’m pretty hot* .
That said, if it wasn’t for sleazy old guys, I would probably still be a virgin. I lost my virginity to one of them when I was 13. I probably would have lost it earlier if adults hadn’t told me to wait for the ‘perfect person’.
Sometimes it feels kind of sad because I’m only having sex with guys my dad’s or grandad’s age, but I have zero chance with guys my own age because I just don’t know how to communicate with them.
* I have cum hands free from being praised, but I was on a medication with that as a side effect.
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Run-Go – Aug 14, 2026
Get out his kitty and tell him his ornery, itchy, overheated pussy is really just screaming to be SMASHED and you need to shut it up! Then savour the agony and the ecstasy as you pound, jackhammer, beat it down, rip it open, turn it inside out and beat it down into a puddle of wet, throbbing tissues purring as happily as a sleeping kitten that’s finally had her fill of fresh, warm milk for the first time in her life!
ZeusESP – Aug 7, 2026
DON’T WASTE MY TIME ASKING HOW I AM. If you ask, you’ve never known anyone with chronic back pain. I move like Frankenstein. I’ll never be anyone’s fantasy & what I offer is a harsh reality. I don’t drink, smoke cigarettes, or do hard drugs, though I smoke a lot of pot. Be clear that I want a PAIN slave, NOT a sex slave. I have ED resulting from the spinal issues I mentioned. Pills don’t work, so my sex life is non-existent. I can deal with it. You’ll have to as well.


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ShiteatingTeenSlut, 18
The name says it all.
I think watching so much Dark Web porn at a young age really fried my brain. 😵💫
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ShiteatingTeenSlut (Owner) – Aug 16, 2026
My ultimate interest is someone brutalizing my testicles and ultimately castrating me by breaking them into pieces.
Wurmi – Aug 12, 2026
Did you go on vacation or do you have a stomach virus, baby? 🥺🏖️
I love you ❤️ I love you 💕 I love you 💘 I love you 😭 I love you… ♾️😂
I made you some “cassoulet”, baby… 🫘🥘💨❤️
You could’ve taken me on vacation with you 😭✈️🏝️
I would have eaten like a hog, like usual, darling! 😭🍑😂
You know I love the smell! 🐱👃🤣
Anyway, I love you so much, darling!!! ❤️❤️❤️🥹💍
Someone told me that I was the 83rd person who shit in your mouth this month! 😭📱📱📱
I was so embarrassed, baby… 🫣😂
Anyway, I’m constipated. 🥵🔥🌡️
ShiteatingTeenSlut (Owner) – Aug 9, 2026
I sometimes have migraines. And I’m usually at work from 10pm to 6am.


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p.s. Hey. ** Dominik, Hi!!! I hope you like them. Same for me with KFC, which has strangely edible biscuits. It does feel like fall here, or at least a strong hint. Yay. No Kongeparken, very sadly. It was too brief a trip for that. Regrets. But love’s wish worked on the rest of the visit. Love moves like Frankenstein. He’ll never be anyone’s fantasy & what he offers is a harsh reality, G. ** Bill, Hi, B. The screening went well. We won Best Actor! Same here on queer comix, and, yeah, it’s the explosion that’s the best part. ** Sarah Palmer, Hi. Happy to provide. Yes, Steven Parrino was a real loss. Hard not to wonder what he’d be making by now. Mm, well, contemporary French authors … he’s deceased but I love Edouard Leve. Theo Casciani is interesting. I really like Mathieu Lindon. I liked the first Constance Debre books I read, but then I sort of lost interest. I’m sure there are more, but I need to think. I’m actually just about to check the Festival d’Automne schedule to see what’s up this year. Oh, right, ‘Salopes’, I am curious to see what in the world that’s going to be. Happy Monday! ** Noah, ‘House’ is really a trip. See what you think. Your thriller sounds very intriguing. And you’re so far along. Obviously I encourage you to publish it. It’s impossible to judge one’s own work, and starting the way you’re saying is a non-dangerous way to get your work out there and see what other eyes see. I hope you will. I’m excited to discover it. Welcome to Monday to us both. ** Tosh Berman, Right, you’re in a Warhol film. That’s so crazy and great. I’ve never seen that film. It’s kind of a hard one to find. One of these days I want to get to the Warhol Museum because you can watch any of his films there by request, I’m told. ** James Bennett, Hi. That rain was lovely. Hopefully it’ll become old hat very soon. The best and maybe only way to keep up on experimental/adventurous film screenings to get on the venues’ mailing lists. The Pompidou has a great series that’s going on at a satellite venue while they’re closed. Jeu de Paume has a great film series, and they almost always show films with English subtitles. Re/Voir does experimental film screenings occasionally, usually at the Brady theater in the 10th. Le Clef is a fantastic film venue. Get on the mailing lists and you’ll keep up. Joy Williams is my favorite living American fiction writer. She’s incredible. Always. Her stories are great. ‘The Visiting Privilege’, her Collected Stories book is a must. ** ⋆˚꩜。darbbzz⋆˚꩜。, Hi. Condolences about Kusama. At least she has a super long, productive life and certainly reached the masses. I’ll look at your tribute. Everyone, ⋆˚꩜。darbbzz⋆˚꩜。 made a tribute to Yayoi Kusama on their blog, and do obviously go have a look. Here. I did get close to being beheaded, or at least be-skulled. Huh. Dude, you’re plenty smart and funny. I can totally vouch for those qualities of yours. You can do any kind of post you want, maestro, and any kind of Halloween-appropriate one would be ace. We’re almost there. Wow. Be like Kusama and live very long and amaze the world. That’s the ticket. Thank you about that quote. I’m so honored it spoke so deeply to you. Toes are crinkling, you bet. Yours too. Twinsies! ** Dev, Actually you were commenting early given my mini-vacation. I hope the parade delighted you both. Seems likely. Paris doesn’t seem to have a lot parades other than kind of uninteresting military ones on the big holidays. I grew up in close proximity to the Rose Parade, so I’m spoiled. ** _Black_Acrylic, Stavanger was good, thanks! Go ‘The Shards’! How was the induction? So exciting. And reasonably soon! ** Adem Berbic, I am back. Screening was very nice. Like I said above, we won Best Actor. Not bad. Our first festival prize. I don’t understand why you don’t like Norway so I have idea whether Stavanger would change your mind. How great that you and Oscar met up and went successfully toe to toe. Nope, I haven’t had ‘Miasma’ time yet. This week. That ‘Cleansed’ production sounds like an infuriating meh nightmare. Thanks for taking the bullet. Paris had better not be toasty. Uh, I should be around. Can’t speak for Zac. Probably him too. ** Carsten, Warhol’s early paintings and installations were very important, but then he just went into production like so many artists do. But his films stayed adventurous and challenging to the end. Congrats on getting your mind, etc, closer to making that film. That must be very invigorating. Norway was good. No, I’ve been up there several times. I like it a lot. Incredibly beautiful among other things. ** laura w, Mm, I think things would be very, very different if there hadn’t been a Warhol. Like it or not, he influenced virtually everything. So happy you liked ‘TPatP’! I was very influenced as a writer by that book. She’s singular and very addictive. ** Steve, Stavanger is a small seaside city on Norway’s far west. I’d been there before when Zac and I did our Scandinavian theme park road trip years back. There’s an excellent park there: Kongeparken. The film seemed to go over very well, yeah. The Warhol Museum is very stingy with his films, which seems counterproductive to me. It doesn’t really make any sense. It’s impossible to see Warhol’s last film, ‘Surf’, anywhere but there. ** HaRpEr //, Hi. Stavanger was very nice, and very not summer-y. But Paris is cooling day by day. ‘Flesh’ and ‘Women in Revolt’ are really Paul Morrissey films. Warhol’s name is on them mostly as a selling point. The last Warhol directed film is ‘Surf’, which is kind of impossible to see. Yeah, ‘Soap Opera’ is a fascinating one, really singular in his work. ‘Inner and Outer Space is an outlier too. Great about the feeling of the novel coming together. Hold onto that belief. That hold is all you need now. ** Nicholas., Well hi there! One more feather in Dolly’s cap that she got you off the death trip. She could do anything. It means something, yes. Death is just a dead end. It’s only interesting for a moment. I’ll go illustrate those lyrics with a an audio visit to the Heidi Montag song because I don’t know it. Thanks, pal. ** Thom, We both are arising from good festivals, cool. Yours sounds more … spectacular, for sure. Congrats on getting the audience fully on board. Pursue your contemplation, obviously. You sound very revved. Nothing better. Fine week ahead -> you. ** Okay. If you’ve kept your eye on the calendar then today’s post will have been no surprise whatsoever. See you tomorrow.



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Hey Dennis,
Thanks for that treasure trove of cinema tips. I’m sitting here looking at all my packed up belongings for the 3rd time in 6 months. It’s going to be another short sublet for the moment. A room of one’s own needs to make its way into my reality pronto. Lord almighty, the lives we choose! Ok, noted re: Williams’ short stories. On a brighter note, fights have been booked for my rural writing getaway in October, and that’s flashing like a lighthouse. Congrats on RT scooping Best Actor. Very well deserved.
Xo James
Flights!
Contrary to the above missive, I have not reserved my place in any upcoming brawls in County Sligo.
Hi!!
I’ve never tried those—KFC biscuits.
Ah. I’m sorry you didn’t have the opportunity to visit Kongeparken. But I’m glad the rest of the trip went well! Best Actor?! Congratulations!!
Love has that sadness in his eyes that you only see in Eastern European gay porn, Od.
Well, that’s a congratulation right there. Which of the actors was the recipient? And how’d the Q&A go as well? I’m really getting antsy for that Halloween screening to show itself into here. Again, congrats.
I saw ‘Love Exposure’ last night. It was great, and I can see why some people call it Sono’s opus, but I didn’t really think it was his best. At first I found it cool that it was drawing in so many of his formal and thematic interests, but by the end I thought it was kind of a ‘jack of all trades’ situation. The ending especially felt like a weaker retread of the ending of ‘Noriko’s Dinner Table,’ plus a coda which I thought were weirdly confined to resolving things at the level of plot and nothing else. I think ‘Noriko’ is so absurdly good. Have you seen it?
I think the escort and slave-master posts, plus obviously a bundle of your other stuff, highlight that I find it sort of – hm – unheimlich when anyone’s able to exactly describe some version of what they claim they want. I mean, of course so much of the above is fantasy, and there’s a lot of other complications besides, but even with those caveats – i.e., regardless of whether it’s an accurate expression of an accurately-identified and genuine desire – there’s something kind of perturbing about it to me, or kind of askew. Does that make sense? Sorry to bring Big L back into it, but I’ve been thinking about ‘extimity’ a lot. At least in terms of what I think it denotes rather than as a theoretical bludgeon.
Okay, cool. Hopefully Paris will compromise between bread and toast for both our sakes. I’ll dribble you an email into next week, if that suits. T will be around for two weeks as well, although my and his visits only overlap next Monday.
The Leeds Print Workshop thing went pretty well yesterday, even if it was just an hour of being shown where the fire exits are. They’re saying that my mum can come and assist me in making this 1st screen print on the 22nd. Dunno how busy she will be what with moving house etc but will try and put a word in..
Hi Dennis, it’s me, Ilán Valdés, the Peruvian follower. I just finished writing a novel and was wondering if you might be up for having a chat sometime. I’ll be in Europe in October and November, and I’d love to meet for a coffee if you’re around. I’d be more than happy to travel to Paris.
My email is ilanvaldes@gmail.com. Hope to hear from you 🙂
Best!
Congratulations on the award! I thought all the actors in RT did great work, so whoever got it sure deserves it.
Thought I’d share some thoughts on a couple of things I read & watched recently. Read two Aimé Césaire plays: “A Season in the Congo”, about the Congo crisis, & “The Tragedy of King Christophe”, about post-revolutionary Haiti. Both make for fascinating reads & I’m sure they play well on the stage. I was a bit let down by how conventional they are. I mean knowing Césaire’s poetry I was expecting something a little wilder. He does inject a lot of poetry into the dialogue & some of it has his trademark surreal twinkle, but structurally the plays move along the tracks you’d expect them to. Also, & this might be a very personal criticism, but I think he botched Lumumba’s assassination in “A Season…” It’s rushed & lacks weight. I guess he was more interested in the man’s life than his death, but I feel that he missed an opportunity to crystallize his themes there. But all that is very subjective criticism. These are obviously subjects that occupy a good deal of my own headspace & so I can’t help but nitpick. But both plays have very important things to say about both revolution & its aftermath.
The film, again thematically related, was Raoul Peck’s “Lumumba”. Long overdue catch-up of mine. Very fine acting, but overall a disappointment. Because of—once again—playing it safe with a by-the-numbers historical drama approach. But it proves a point I often make when compared to Johan Grimonprez’s “Soundtrack to a Coup d’Etat”, which also has the Congo crisis as its subject. The latter uses a jazzy, intensely layered montage style & rhythm & manages to illuminate the subject from dozens of different angles. Peck’s film seems dwarved by comparison, narrow & falling short of the subject’s complexity. So yeah, good example of how the experimental approach wins. And I think Peck realized this himself later on in his own, stylistically much more adventurous docs, both “I Am Not Your Negro” & especially “Exterminate All the Brutes”.
even if you’re not a warhol fanatic, i can say the museum is incredibly worth it. i’ve always been more interested in his as an artistic influence than an actual artist and found it likely one of the best single-artist devoted museums out there.
i can definitely sense her addictiveness as a stylist, particularly for her prose’s effortlessness. it glides across my eyes. i also like novels that have a very sharp, waspish wit and she has that in spades.
if i may chime in about joy williams: the quick and the dead is one of my favorites ever. i remember there was a period where i kept seeing writers i liked rave about her and then i think you shouted her out in some interview and that was enough to tip me over the edge? very singular novel, i’ve not read anything like it before or since.
went to a doctor’s appointment for issues with my hands and walked out with a bunch of tests to do and an ortho referral. 3 years from 30 and feeling defeated. it sounds like your trip went great, though! good weekend overall?
Congratulations on the best actor award, Dennis. This is for Charlie Jacobs?
That guestbook quote in the title is too much! Wasted on the slave though.
By the way, I just discovered Glacier Bay books:
https://glacierbaybooks.com/?v=0b3b97fa6688
They publish some obscure indie manga, among other things. I’m reading the Byu collection, which has some interesting stuff in it.
Cultural calendar really ramping up this week. Crossroads starts, and the 4K restoration of Tsai Ming Liang’s The Hole will be at the Roxie.
Bill
hi Dennis!
just here to say rough sex + the lovely woods + adequate pay is a bit like what do you think this is mate, the land of milk and honey
anyway— your slaves own a piece of my heart, which you should know, and i’m taking your script writing advice to heart but also i want to see one of yours more now than before? what do you think…
idek how things are going over here, hopefully there’s some rhyme and reason to whatever but in the meantime our common friend Charalampos is turning me onto Jean Rhys whom i used to think was a bloke, cringe =D
v glad you’re getting your autumn early over there, can’t wait to hear what you’re working on now!
the dead kid is def gender neutral dw, that’s handled ^_^
much love <33
The parade and party were fun! My daughter collected several throws as usual because they like to give them to kids. She got a little stuffed dog. I did not know anything about the Rose Parade other than that it’s the title of an Elliott Smith song, but I just looked at some pictures and it looks beautiful! Not to beat a dead horse but if you like parades you have to see Mardi Gras at least once.
Congrats on the Best Actor award!
I watched a couple of movies last week, (which is something I hardly ever do): Jacques Demy’s Donkey Skin and Elaine May’s Ishtar. I’m sure you’ve probably seen the Demy one, but maybe not Ishtar? Loved Donkey Skin, so sweet and opulent with just enough melancholy, and I love that Demy’s movies are musicals. Ishtar is known as May’s messiest, most polarizing film, and I definitely thought it was a mess, but I was entertained and there was a lot of funny dialogue. It’s basically a dumb 80s action comedy by someone who probably shouldn’t have made one of those, but it’s kind of charming because of the ways it doesn’t work. It’s very idiosyncratic. I doubt it’s your type of movie – I don’t know if it’s anyone’s type of movie – but it was fascinating to witness, lol.
Yeah, I know that trilogy and the others are technically directed by Paul Morrissey, but I do view Warhol as the godhead in that dynamic, so that colours everything for me with Warhol’s whole artistic project being partly about complicating the concept of authorship and everything.
Morrissey was a curious guy. He minimised Warhol’s involvement in films that Warhol is well documented to have been heavily involved with, like ‘Chelsea Girls’. So funny that he made a film intending on making fun of feminism and ended up making one of the most forward thinking feminist films of all time (‘Women in Revolt’).
The novel is still emotionally very difficult but I have to follow its trajectory. Like, if you find a secret door in your house and you don’t go in, what are you doing?
But yes, I’m firmly held on now, and crucially have found out how I’m going to deal with the things that seem impossible to put on a page.
The day’s title is even better after reading the reply.
Poor YourVictim, always getting kidnapped by Jewish men with Nazi fetishes! I laughed out loud at that.
Did you and Zac go to the theme park on this trip?
Yesterday, a friend told me he and his family went to the New Jersey theme park Jungle Habitat, during its 1972-6 run. It allowed customers to drive through 800 acres otherwise inhabited by wild animals. Warner Brothers operated it, but they shut it down because the animals kept injuring their guests and escaping. He said that monkeys jumped onto the roof of his parents’ car and shat all over it. (In a promo video, a lion rides atop someone’s car.)
I was reading the comments and just wanted to say congrats for your film winning best actor! Where was that? If you dont me asking. Running of my post-school schedule lethargy.
Been frantic with school, in a good way, I have to remind myself. Learning is growth and where I could dig burrows of shame and doubt I can instead plant the seeds of growth from the surrounding knowledge im so lucky to be given. I do also have a job interview tommorw! Pray for me or whatever, gosh im getting burnt out from interviews and facades of functionality to impress a corporate checkbox. I will get my shit together job-wise. This interview is actually at a food place my friend works at literally less than a 10 minute walk from our neighborhood. This could be very promising, but I know its also up to me to pull through. I learn my lesson from little Cesuras, and to be fair, I dont think I preferred that workplace, although I loved the momentum of kitchen work and food hospitality (plus I can learn from the workplace!)
Anyways, my friend, I mostly stopped by today to say I saw your instagram post promoting yesterdays slave post, and lemme just say, seeing “Dude, I made your ass sing like Diamond aGalas” as the caption certainly made me belt into laughter first thing in the AM after waking up late for school, so thank you for that, hahah.
Yesterday (sunday) I went to a film screening at this very cool and retro book/record/everything cool store called fuzzy needle wich I may have mentioned before, and saw my very first Angnes Varda movie.
Oh excited for tommorow morining! Recently I got my license and tommorow im hopefully going to be picking up the person I adore to go to this bookstore and get coffee before they go to school. Possible chances to open up? A subconscious date? Never said it was but……hmmm although I want to be mindful of this. They are so kind its almost scary to open the door to vulnerability since I dont want to lose em, but we both seem to hold this fragile introverted/reserved energy typical of artist or idk, that I think makes us both so hesitant. (In some ways, I wonder if this fear on my end is the same fear as them…maybe they are just more skilled at keeping their moments of distress covert.) I think its fruitful, and in ways I think it could motivate me more to keep such emotions under the wraps. My manicness (Although I admire and aspire the meditative life they hold and I think in ways that could be a great influence, as it’s a nice balance I try to maintain for my own sanity, despite my boundless energy) like the ocassional meltdowns which ive confidently been able to manage (this is proven by my ability to particapte in a club and yes be more functional) yet such as today I felt that instability—but I managed it! Nevermind my occasional soliloquies of curses and grumbles im sure other people heard (wether I couldnt find my class room, or had to venture to get a pack of cigarettes after swearing I wouldnt leave the house again after the overwhelming hustle of today). Sometimes I falter, but there is always room for grace.
And I think this is what I fear, opening that door, because I know I cannot hide such mental distress (if our relationship gets to a point of intimacy or vulnerability, if you know what im trying to say, like when you open your heart to people.) Which is why ive always avoided commited relationships and have become reliant on my independence (at least in terms of wanting others to fulfill my emotional needs) more often than not these episodes are a result of a deep unmotivation for my hobbies, passions and my own projections of my self-worth.—yet at the same time, I am great at getting through these moments on my own. Ive been thinking about how I will confide this moment of pain in someone I’m intimate with, (This is also something ive been trying to do with friends more) but also at the level of them knowing “Im getting through this, and I hope it doesnt distress you, and if it does, I’ll take a walk or scream in a pillow.”
But also, something happened today, which I’d never expect from another person no matter how much they care for or love me. As I was walking to class, having just cried and feeling disregulated from waking up early, I heard an angelic voice call my name—it was them! Waving across the street. Embarrassing it was at first. I waved, averted my eyes (still red and slightly sobbing) and kept walking so they’d continue talking to whoever they were talking to, and then as Im walking towards the building—I feel them behind me,—they pull me in and give me a very sweet silent and long hug. (they are very great at silence, I like this and admire it about them, but I could see how someone else would dislike it in relationships)
At a certain age you stop believing a prince or fairy will save you from a disenchanting reality—but moments like these, remind you that although there never will be a mythical character to grant you a happy ending, or push u in such direction, it never hurts to put your trust in someone, and that if they want to help, as much as any emotionally limited human can, having their own goals and ambitions, they will.
And as this beautiful human pulled away, me apologizing and blaming this on my late waking,(which it likely was + homework and job search stress) I saw the most beautiful Syd Barrett retro pink tinted glasses on their face, and was like, “God I love you glasses!” and after that I planned our book adventure (my disjointed articulation, drenched in shame and always in fear that my sudden alertness and hope following devastation will make people think im being fake sad for pity.)
But the truth is, I learned that from these terrible depths of emotions, to fear them, is to not grow from them, or even understand them. Yes ive made mistakes in the past, and to my advantage, I feel ive learned things ive seen other people my age around me still struggle with. (this might be too self-absorbed, but im sure we are all working on things, and I know I struggle with things people my age dont seem to) Sure there will likely be moments where they do cause discomfort and tension, but I value the art of communication and self-growth as a way to improve relationships with the people we love.
Gosh, anyways, ive gone a rambling meadow and have nearly walked into the burning horizon. Take care good friend. GASP. We are one month from Halloween!
Hahaha, “Twinsies” I can almost see the self-mocking nutty smile briefly flashing before your face as you wrote that. Nutty…? Sure I couldve found a better word in a less tired mind space. “Parodying?” “Self-scorning” “Self-aversion?” Not in character but funny to replicate unseriously, as you would never say such thing. hmmm
oh…this reminds me of the time I kept submitting very long past word count assignments to my teach despite vehemently trying to limit it.
Im sure you can tell when I take my ADHD meds pre-comment. Bad idea.