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ExtremeSlaveBoy, 18
I’m 18 spent the last few years living in dungeons.
Things I want to explore but I know it’s not everyone’s cup of tea but really want to:
Bloodplay/scarring
Extreme body modifications
Full body tattoo
Choking/Slapping/Punching
Heavy pain and torture
Being drugged and then my ass carved up
Snuff (depends)
I can understand this isn’t for everyone please don’t judge 🙂
I’m not a psycho just a normal young person who wants to be destroyed.
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unfriendlyfire – Feb 23, 2025
I need to see you naked first. I’m sure you’re lovely. I’m just anxious.
ExtremeSlaveBoy (Owner) – Feb 20, 2025
I only want to give my life if you have yours together.
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iMakeUaSandwich, 24
I used to be a gay4pay and bi/het porn star a coupla years back now slightly underweight from unhealthy living and I’ve come to realise that I am simply too stupid, silly, and horny all the time to function as a person in this world and that it is simply better for me to be some gay daddy’s 24/7/365 live-in property doing my porn star emoting act and shit while he whites me out and possesses me as he sees fit.
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iMakeUaSandwich (Owner) – Feb 21, 2025
7 am, Feb 20, 2025 ready or not, I signed my life away then will enter my forever home and never leave for the rest of my life, IF it’s NOT tomorrow it will be the next day… I don’t know how to do this, but who does?
xSemx – Feb 19, 2025
not bad for a 5 w no talent
ChubbyArctos – Feb 16, 2025
Incredible. I met Kyle Polaski! I was able to admire and touch and sniff and taste his harmoniously shaped body. And he took care of my cock with his infamous generosity. And I fucked him. I fucked Kyle Polaski! Hardcore and a great amount. Thanks again Kyle. I can watch your old porns now and fill in all the flavors.
iMakeUaSandwich (Owner) – Feb 14, 2025
I have always allowed my fate and future to be decided by horny men on the internet.
savemejesus – Feb 14, 2025
I have been following your descent from professional studio porn to handheld gangbang cumdump porn with enormous enthusiasm. At a certain point it seemed inevitable that you would end up here, and I have been counting the minutes. Choose me and I guarantee you will end your porn career with such unprecedented controversy that you’ll be spoken of in hushed tones for centuries.
HUGO1991 – Feb 14, 2025
My word – can it really be the boy I jacked off to so many times? I even made my bf copy your hairstyle.
alphadart – Feb 14, 2025
Fentanyl strikes again.
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bunsbunny, 19
I’m in Brazil and I want to be a ghost.
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bunsbunny (Owner) – Feb 7, 2025
I don’t look like an emo, but i am haha.
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Idonetherightthing, 18
I’m looking to become a voluntary missing person. Understand I’m leaving a well established life and people will likely look for me. This will need to be planned deliberately. But if we set up an arrangement, I can become yours, maybe not the sexual part as much you would want. I’m still a virgin, I’ve been scared of sex my entire life and even now I’m scared of starting my sexual life, rough out here. That’s always been my big problem, and apparently nothing will change that.
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Idonetherightthing (Owner) – Feb 22, 2025
Am Robert by name
OWNTHISPIG – Feb 20, 2025
If anyone wonders what happened to him, he’s in the southeast US being used as much as possible by anyone any where, with a permanent catheter installed and a punched out Kunt so it’s permanently prolapsed, caged and chained up when not in use, fed filth, and nothing more than a full time high slut.
Idonetherightthing (Owner) – Feb 18, 2025
Under reconstruction
Clipper – Feb 9, 2025
My name is Maurice. i’m just horny and want to masturbate with someone that’s it
Boolg – Feb 9, 2025
Bullshit, no one will look for him, I’ll give anyone the info needed.
Idonetherightthing (Owner) – Feb 9, 2025
I love music and movies, reading too, but I don’t read THAT often, mostly when a cover looks interesting enough to make me buy it.
YouCantResist – Feb 6, 2025
If you’re concerned about being too intimidated by his cuteness, his tiny, pathetic excuse for a cock is a powerful counteracting force. It’s a joke, an embarrassment, a constant reminder of his inferiority.
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Prettyblondboy, 19
I’m high and want rapists to cum in me
Please keep me somewhere I can’t escape from and invite them over 24/7
The only way I get to stay alive is getting raped
Happy if they kick me in the balls until I do everything
And then hardcore rape
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thedragonscards – Feb 8, 2025
I appreciated his feeble attempt to seem like he wasn’t enjoying it.
Prettyblondboy (Owner) – Feb 5, 2025
Thank you for being straight
Experiencepleasure – Feb 5, 2025
He’s a sweet boy. Just a bit of a drug problem. I thought raping him was very nice.
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dis_one_a_scorcherr, 22
im jus a stoner that likes to take dick to the head n to the ass fuck you ✌️
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dis_one_a_scorcherr (Owner) – Feb 20, 2025
also lookin for some one to beat me in mario kart
BearLooking4U – Feb 17, 2025
Maybe it’s a midlife crisis but I really want to tie you up permanently forever. I’ve tied up boys before but they could always get loose. I believe in Happy Ever After. Relationships aren’t always rainbows with unicorns.
DukeNukem – Feb 12, 2025
What I found personally great about him is that during the prelims he gives off a masc, authoritative top vibe, bragging about all his beautiful girlfriends and boyfriends and how he’s fucked lots of married men and women too. But when the clothes come off he has a very small dick and a very used asshole, so when you’re pounding him there’s a rich psychological subtext.
dis_one_a_scorcherr (Owner) – Feb 9, 2025
sometimes mah ass is shaved sometimes not roll the dice
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johnathan0115, 18
Very young. For sale. Curious? Contact me immediately.
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masterbubba – Feb 11, 2025
Damn it!
johnathan0115 (Owner) – Feb 11, 2025
Sold.
johnathan0115 (Owner) – Feb 2, 2025
It knows it has fucked up in the past and screwed around and toyed with Owners. Through devotion to Satan, hypnosis and brainwashing it has discovered the error of its ways.
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failedboy, 21
Real now Sun Feb 2nd 2025 00:00h FG7H+R5P Homestead, Florida, USA.
No gay interactions masquerading as military discipline.
You must buy a two way frs\gmrs radio to make contact. Presume both a temporal paradox and man-in-the-middle were in effect. Chose channel 1 no privacy code,
If CB: channel 9.
You’re a friend until I hate you enough.
Young deranged freebooter former escort but I maintain a sane exterior.
It’s the Stockholm surprise only an original will do, I hope one of them meant to be honest as I would see it from here.
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arlo94 – Feb 13, 2025
An object with a pulse.
TreeBoi – Feb 8, 2025
Just looking to smother you to death, nothing major.
failedboy (Owner) – Feb 6, 2025
!!Warning!! Girlfriend with a kid. At some point she may want to meet you. if that is a NO then ADIOS.
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david_analbitch, 18
My top bf and I have been fantasising about rawfucking his younger brother and making him our live-in btm cumdump. But we don’t know how to do it. My bf is early 20s, and I’m in late 30s. His brother just turned 18 on Tuesday. Just 3 of us gay guys living together. Looking for bros on the Virginia side of the river to come by and hang out with our wangs out, online gaming, talking shit, working out, showing off our cocks, and getting my bf’s little bro’s deep throat and anal slime all over our dicks and balls tonite until 4 am.
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david_analbitch (Owner) – Feb 14, 2025
He is a guy with a positive outlook on life.
david_analbitch (Owner) – Feb 11, 2025
We are hoping to melt his brain before he turns 19. We want him to become so dumb that the only thing he can think about is what our cocks tell him to think about.
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Claus, 19
I used to call myself Claustrophilia but nobody was typing all that so it shortened to Claustro and now i’m just Claus.
Writing something about myself makes me feel sick.
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piggyphd – Feb 10, 2025
For me it was just having acceptably rough sex with a dweeby little nerd. What was I missing?
EnigmaX – Feb 6, 2025
I rarely come across beauty in such a concentrated and feasible form. How can such a young, beautiful boy be masochistic in such a way. He reaches to the means that I would never have guessed in my worst dreams. This adult child, meat-made human child groans with pleasure when I abuse him and I can then greedily lick him. Divine beauty to worship. No matter what and how much cum you swallow out of his body, everything just tastes incomparable and you want more and more. Scat, NS, spit, sweat, PUKE … But I can beat, kick, insult, soak, bottle and rape it as soon as my sexual-perverse desire awakens. You will become pathologically addicted to the body of this dreamy, dizzyingly beautiful young man!
iguessimnotstraight – Feb 1, 2025
Christ, you are sexier than hell (yikes I know!)
ornamentandcrime – Feb 1, 2025
I don’t think you deserve to be happy and think you should be miserable. You will do everything for me as a slave and it will be forever. You will stay with me forever and not leave and never be on your own again. For instance if I want to starve you, you will allow me to do that. Not that I intend to starve you necessarily, it just popped into my head.
quiteanimpression – Feb 1, 2025
I’M LOOKING FOR A YOUNG HUSBAND WITH A SUPER KINKY MASOCHISTIC STREAK.
YOU WILL WORK UNLESS YOU’RE RICH LOL.
AND YES! I’VE GOT A SINCE OF HUMOR.
I’M LEGALLY BLIND. NO CANE OR GUIDE DOG. JUST ALMOST NO VISION.
I TYPE UPPER CASE ALL THE TIME. I’M NOT YELLING. JUST CAN’T SEE LIKE I SAID. GET OVER IT!!
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WillObey, 18
I’m 18 and really unexperienced with this whole sex thing, and I’ve never had a gf or bf so I don’t know anything about it…
but I know one thing!
I’m looking for something that’s gonna hurt, someone that’s gonna put me in pain and hopefully doesn’t have a heart.
also someone who’s into giving me a lot of substances maybe.
Idk how I can really be. Exploring.
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WillObey (Owner) – Feb 17, 2025
WOW! Are you psychic or something? Ding, ding, ding. Hit me up!
XMenfan – Feb 17, 2025
I have had the fantasy for YEARS to BRUTALLY gangbang a virgin with a group of other nasty, total perverts and have his complete and utter debasement filmed as a documentary. And I want his parents to see a video detailing his total destruction. Slapped, choked, called names, screamed at, humiliated, made to beg and scream and plead for his punishment, his cute face and pristine hole DESTROYED. I want his parents to hear him screaming into the camera about how much he loves being a mindless fuckdoll cumdump. I want his parents to never be able to deny what he is ever again. I want them to FINALLY see who their “innocent son” really is.
WillObey (Owner) – Feb 13, 2025
I also sometimes kinda love being fucked for money.
DominicPerignon – Feb 13, 2025
How about if I clock you, stuff you in a wooden box and bury it.
WillObey (Owner) – Feb 13, 2025
Unfortunately it turns out I’m a badly behaved sub thats out of control. Tried many type of humiliating, punishment and nothing seems to make me behave….can you help!
Chlorohead – Feb 8, 2025
If you are aroused by the thought of someone hiding behind a door and deviously pouring some chloroform on a cloth, jumping behind you when he enters, and just pressing that cloth hard over your nose and mouth so you eventually fall numb into his arms then tying you up and injecting you with sedatives you keep you unconscious for the foreseeable future then we have a thing in common!
WillObey (Owner) – Feb 5, 2025
Yes I have a broken arm in the foto. So what.
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Revenge, 19
Using this app as a third party to find someone interested in physically disciplining a college student in Oxford at the more extreme end of the scale no questions asked.
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Revenge (Owner) – Feb 9, 2025
Oh Oxford Mississippi not the college.
Revenge (Owner) – Feb 4, 2025
He can be branded, pierced, tattooed, sold, kept in bondage, shaved, punished with or without reason, used as a toilet for both ends, made to endure extreme pain, beat up and punched hard everywhere including his face.
Revenge (Owner) – Feb 4, 2025
The need is GREAT, he absolutely MUST relinquish or in other words be stripped of power because he totally fucked up trying to live like a king but he is a true SUBMISSIVE bitch.
Revenge (Owner) – Feb 4, 2025
He thinks im too much of a princess, and I am, but im really pissed off.
Revenge (Owner) – Feb 4, 2025
Don’t send photos so I don’t know your face. The discussions will be made with me so it will be unexpected for him.
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legalvictim, 23
I’ll gladly let you know when and where i’ll be out late at night, ready for you to rough me up, hold me in indefinite confinement and do everything you may ever dream of.
Young and unable to fight, even if i wanted to, so do what you want, how you want.
I’m eager to get the worst things done, but must be kept a secret
Fourtwenty bottom. Call me a pothole.
… the highest bidder gets me.
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StretchArmstrong – Feb 17, 2025
I dated him for a while, might’ve gotten married, but he’s overly attracted by the violence/insults that we sadly see too much in porn.
Anonymous – Feb 16, 2025
timely hate seems to please
the bland Giovanni, and that he enjoys
finding himself the victim of atrocious hunting
frustrated by a tensile cock
by an unknown gentleman (let him be silent)
that pre-tasty Giovanni, tied
and in handcuffs, my bland one
treated with a firm whipping
while tough grim brawny silent
to make the fashionable victim’s cum
gush in waves on the floor
and staked abysmally Giovanni’s butt
SpacedOut07 – Feb 13, 2025
He has not said no too much, in fact just one thing during the two hours then short break for hydration then six hour session then cigarette then two more hours.
legalvictim (Owner) – Feb 10, 2025
Back on here after having a weeklong blowout with a thug who should be in a mental institution frankly. Still as slutty as before but with way fewer limits and brain cells to get in the way.
legalvictim (Owner) – Feb 2, 2025
It takes 4999 beers to get me for a one night stand. That means, it’s never happening.
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TrashCANnotTrashCANT, 18
Artem Zemskov (aka SlashnDash) was a 17 year old male from the Bashkir town of Tuymazya, Kazakhstan. He was known well in the Minecraft Parkour community and uploaded videos of parkour maps throughout late 2019 – early 2023. He was a racist pedophile and had an alleged CP discord server and even admitted that he masturbated to CP, harassed mentally ill underaged boys and masturbated to CGI CP rape and torture. He was also under investigation for claiming to have raped and killed a missing 8 year old boy, but it also might’ve been because of his alleged dark humor and that it was a “joke”. Even after all of that, he still uploaded on his Youtube channel until nine days before his suicide.
On November 19, 2023 SlashnDash was found in a rented apartment. There were bruises, abrasions and hematomas all over his body (the boy was beaten before his death). According to media reports, the fatal injury was a fractured cervical vertebrae (a typical injury from hanging or strangulation). SlashnDash started a live stream of what initially appeared to be a consensual S/M sex act with a hooded man. The livestream lasted around 12 minutes before being taken down and around 45 people were on the live stream. Ironically SlashnDash, who looked younger than his age, had a large number of pedophile subscribers which he claimed repulsed him. The livestream video of the early stage of SlashnDash’s murder leaked due to an insider source and was very popular on the dark web. The suspect in the homicide was identified quickly. Dmitry Nekrasov, 48 years old, claimed that Zemskov and he were lovers involved in a heavy S/M relationship that had gone wrong. Zemskov/SlashnDash was buried at a Lane Funeral Home and Crematory in Bashkiria, Kazakhstan and he was Cremated.
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Meesh – Feb 8, 2025
Savage power of stupid thought.
SSpisspig – Feb 8, 2025
The slut was once an arrogant, talentless, attention whore Nazi boy, unaware one friday night he would be drugged, tortured, and strangled by a pedophile then maimed by another pedophile and end up being eviscerated in a morgue then burned into a handful of goop and bone chips.
Gayguy – Feb 8, 2025
In addition to his SlashnDash persona, Artem sang, released his tracks and posted them on social networks under the pseudonym “TwisteR”. The young man was going to soon enter the Tkaikovsky College of Music in the city to train as a professional pop singer. On the last day of his life, Artem’s friends said that he was writing a new song.
davidgrifter – Feb 8, 2025
Hey BoredMidwest did you ever find that video with the twink getting pounded out by one Top while the second Top stabs him to death with a pair of scissors?
BoredMidwest – Feb 8, 2025
You neglected to mention the most interesting part of the story. Between the time the livestream was reported and the police arrived, someone had broken into the apartment where Zemskov was murdered and used a knife to remove his cock, nipples, armpits, ears, and a chunk of his left buttock. Approximately three weeks later, Alexey Bukhgamer, 56 years old, was arrested for defiling Zemskov’s dead body. A search of Bukhgamer’s hard drive uncovered dozens of homemade videos showing Bukhgamer having sex with Zemskov sometimes in combination with other adult men as well as videos showing Zemskov having sex with very young boys. Bukhgamer had been uploading them on the dark web with Zemskov’s face obscured for the previous three years. So Zemskov already had quite a following before the crime scene video was circulated. That’s why it was so sought out.
TrashCANnotTrashCANT (Owner) – Feb 8, 2025
I forgot to mention that a toxicology report found Zemskov had a lethal cocktail of cocaine, fentanyl, ketamine and the date rape drug gamma-hydroxbutyrate acid, or GhB in his system at the time of his death.
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suckRobinsAss, 18
I love the 1966 Batman TV series. I like to do authentic roleplay–often starting with my being suited up as Robin in public and meeting strangers–a lot.
When I’m Robin I look about 15 years old just need a ride
Used to be here under RimMyVirginBrother but we had a fight and now it’s just me
Not here for long moving to telegram soon💙
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usemybed – Feb 8, 2025
My favorite weirdo just living his truth and getting off with who he does.
Nipuff7 – Feb 7, 2025
Willing to pay 20$ per hour. You don’t have to do anything just relax and enjoy your snacks. I will just smell your shoes as it is my “oxygen”. I’m huskular not fat. Can pay 20$/hour. Easiest way to make money.
suckRobinsAss (Owner) – Feb 7, 2025
I thought I was asexual until recently when I discovered my “peculiarities”
kdkdkdkdkdkd – Feb 7, 2025
Whether he’s done up in his Robin outfit, doing laps in a pool or sitting in his underwear playing his drumset, he is always the best.
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MakeMeHomeless, 21
There’s a young homeless dude who sleeps rough and begs for money in our neighbourhood and he’s actually very hot and got an slutty-vibe about him, despite the circumstances.
My boyfriend of 3 years who I live with has kinda-jokingly (kinda not) suggested that he thinks the homeless dude and I should switch places. So for the homeless dude to move in here and kick me out on the streets and not only that, for me to give up my bank card and all my savings and possessions for him, so I literally am made homeless and left with nothing….
And as fucked up as this all is it fucking turns me on so much!!
He’s had a hard time in life for long enough, he deserves more and it’s about time I got put where I fucking belong. I seriously want to hand it all over to him and thank him for replacing me and leaving me to beg and sleep rough….it really shouldn’t excite me this much but fucking oath, it does! Really thinking I’ll do it…!
After confessing how keen I actually am to do this, my boyfriend has easily just responded with “fuck yeah, I’m down for it. We’ll kick you out with the clothes on your back and nothing else, everything else will be his after that. I think it’s gonna be great to see how happy he’ll be” with a sinister smile.
Fuck…….so messed up….but so turned on….!
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MakeMeHomeless (Owner) – Feb 14, 2025
You guys are being completely off topic and impractical but you’re giving me a woody so props for that.
nick6425 – Feb 14, 2025
My ultimate dream would be to forcibly shave you from head to toe eyebrows included with an electric shaver and then wet shave you smooth then lock you for 2+ weeks in my dungeon in chastity with a ring gag and shove a giant toy down your throat and up your ass all day every day.
MakeMeHomeless (Owner) – Feb 13, 2025
Ok what are the “few other things”?
stillhaventfound – Feb 13, 2025
Sure why not.
MakeMeHomeless (Owner) – Feb 13, 2025
But I would remain homeless because that’s kind of the whole point.
stillhaventfound – Feb 13, 2025
Hello! I’m would be interested in whipping your ass. Not looking for sex just shredding your ass with a whip and a few other things related to that.
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Mindset, 22
Hey 🙂 since we’re on this site I’m not going to beat around the bush.
I am looking for a killer who snuffs me by headshot. Dream is to be raped at gunpoint several times and then get my final fuck. When you unload in my ass, you pull the trigger while the barrel is deep in my mouth.
I prefer big caliber revolvers with short barrel such as Taurus 444 or S&W 627.
I’m autistic and come off as shy although I’m very opinionated.
I’m book smart but I am retarded when it comes to social cues, strategy, and showing sympathy.
Believe it or not I am straight but I recently got a bit too drunk and had an incident that left me less curious about myself.
Let’s say this lack of curiosity has put me in a new situation.
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Mindset (Owner) – Feb 18, 2025
I swear to god I’m dead serious, I’m not joking at all and I swear to god my death will always make you happy and you will never regret it I swear to god.
Mindset (Owner) – Feb 15, 2025
So’s the outcome, asshole.
Anonymous – Feb 15, 2025
I repeat, this profile is part of a conceptual art piece.
Mindset (Owner) – Feb 11, 2025
I am open for all suggestions as long as I have a gun at my head.
Gunaddict – Feb 11, 2025
I wish I could stick my dick so far up your ass that cum will be spurtin out your mouth and blood dribblin down your face.
Mindset (Owner) – Feb 11, 2025
No that is not what I am looking for.
Huffko3 – Feb 11, 2025
What about a gun to your head while I torture you for weeks, then I will shoot you after there is nothing left but a mangled body and your soul has given up any hope.
Anonymous – Feb 10, 2025
Heads up, this profile just part of some conceptual art piece he’s doing.
Mindset (Owner) – Feb 9, 2025
I’m dead serious I’m not playing at all, I swear to god, I have been searching for a murderer for years but everyone is either scared or they play games.
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DoNotBeAfraid, 20
I am a fucking scat pig in Bulgaria who absolutely loves shit. I save all my poop for future play. I farm public shit and have eaten my own, my bf’s and strangers’ poop but it’s never enough. I also smear my bed with shit and sleep in it. What more do you want from a toilet scat pig?
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MforMisery – Feb 21, 2025
Dumped a turd in him on Thursday. Part of me was like “ick”, and part of me was like “yum”. Tough call.
Dirtylad44 – Feb 15, 2025
Just even thinking about what I did with him gives me butterflies in my stomach. Shitting on his face and all over body (Always stick to basics 😉). Him eating my shit with a knife and fork in a sophisticated manner so that he got the real taste. Jim eating real food which I had shit on while drinking a glass of my fresh piss. I am sure I’m forgetting lots of things.
Hairychunk – Feb 6, 2025
Today i swallowed his shit the second time. It was so great and wonderful.
I realj enjoyed it to make out with his asshole and then to feel the shit coming, to taste it and then to swallow it completely, yes completely! It’s a strong fetish to eat the dregs of cheap fast food from a trash white boy, but why not …. If you also have this kind of fetish to (), then meet him, swallow his shit and enjoy it. Life is so beautiful 😊
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LooseyGoose, 18
Apropos of almost nothing but curious what dead twink porn star would you guys most like to have autopsied?
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ManGrey – Feb 9, 2025
Billy London. Found dismembered in a trash bin in West Hollywood in 1990. My wish is to be the unsuspecting homeless man who opened that bin assuming that qualifies.
TheLondonLad – Feb 8, 2025
He was also weak and worthless and didn’t have any confidence and was stupid.
JustLikeHoney – Feb 8, 2025
I fucked Dakota Shine. His rectum was a grenade.
NachoKacho – Feb 8, 2025
Dakota Shine. Need I say why.
KingTom50 – Feb 8, 2025
If he hadn’t died by jumping off the roof of a 28 story building …
WhereIsMyHome – Feb 8, 2025
Well I’d have to kill him first (if that’s not a rule breaker) but Spikey Dee. I’ve spent far too much time wondering about the purple world and scaffolding inside that bod.
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p.s. Hey. The LAFM site now has a page about ROOM TEMPERATURE with info and a still and stuff if you’re interested. Here. ** Misanthrope, Hi, G. Well, the ‘gun’ thing is seriously a cry for help thing, but I don’t know how you get past the ‘nah, I’m good’ overlay. It just seems like it’s at the point where action needs to happen, but I don’t what to suggest other than keeping on him to get himself normal. I’m stressed just thinking about it, man. You’re doing everything you can. What else can you do than that? ** Nick Toti, Hi, Nick! How nice to have you show up on that particular occasion. Super interested to check out the article. Let me share. Everyone, the filmmaker of excellence Nick Toti, whose films have been featured right here on the blog, has an interesting side trip for you if you’re interested. Here’s the scoop from him: ‘My wife and I bought this very inexpensive, rundown old duplex in rural Missouri to shoot two horror features in. The place was covered in satanic graffiti and all sorts of haunted-seeming found objects, like old-timey photos and children’s toys. The first movie we shot there had a surprisingly successful festival run, and at one of those festivals we decided on a whim to auction off the duplex during our post-screening Q&A. Financially, it was probably a dumb decision because we made less than we paid for it, but it was pretty funny and we got some press out of it, which resulted in booking more screenings, so maybe it was worth it? Here’s an article about it.’ Do go there. Thanks about the premiere, pal, and definitely wish you could be there. ** Dominik, Hi!!! Yes, thank you, it’s exciting. Doll Factory is so terrible that it’s hard not to adore it. But if I had to choose, hm, it’s hard, but maybe Molar Manor, but I’m not even really sure why. Wow, I didn’t recognise Nirvana. My Grunge card has expired or something. On a very different note … And love may grow, For all we know, (Laa-ahh-ahh-ove), G. ** Joe, Thank you, Joe! ** Bill, Thanks. If we get lucky, ‘RT’ will play in SF at a festival this summer. We’ll see. Finish the trailer? I hope whoever is the self-appointed judge knows that you are the side of the bread on which his is buttered. Do I not know ‘Things We Lost in the Fire’? Perhaps not. Okay, okay. ** Bernard Welt, Hi, B. Interesting that you can’t just see the scare proprietors in haunts as mere Halloween enthusiasts with strict rules not to actually touch or do anything remotely dangerous to you. Or else interesting that I can’t just get scared by them. Haunts are all about the decor and architecture and inventiveness or lack thereof, seriously. The ‘boo’ people just like flies buzzing around. Okay, stay unembarrassed, be that way. Haha. I would obviously love the post from you, so if your schedule really is open, do have at it with my compliments and puppy dog eyes. Boy, I hope you’re right about people’s cultural tastes going sideways. Makes sense. But with everyone having access to everything nowadays, I wonder how such art would fall into place without being either disrupted or distorted by outside interference. I guess I think of the good old neglect and secrecy that fuelled so much. But anything is hugely possible. Good day to you, sir. ** Sypha, I favored Molar Manor too! How about that. I think it’s wholly possible to get full visceral pleasure from Extreme Metal while finding its enterprise’s philosophy and belief system silly and ridiculous. Or I do. ** Justin D, Thanks, Justin! Yeah, I’m happy they used that still. It’s from one of my favorite moments in the film. Scarevania might be my second choice, I think. For some reason I’m leaning toward Molar Manor. It’s a teaser trailer, and it should be launched in the next couple of days. You will be informed. Nose to the grindstone for me, and for you? ** James, If the blog was a cellphone, what would you use as its ringer? Thanks for giving the haunts your prying eyes. Haunted houses are one of my big things, correct. Roy Andersson’s films are wonderful. You should watch them. They’re not too dark. The saying did start from a movie title, okay. Sayings always seem to start from some filmic or musical or TV source. My mom used to practically talk in sayings only. ‘T’aint funny, McGee’. ‘If it’d been a snake, it would have bit you’. Etc. I count my lucky stars — quoting my mom there again — that I never thought Hell was anything more than a lack of imagination. Your back’s even better, one hopes? Or I do. You always make me want to have a much more social life, which is good, not that I’m going to self-improve in that manner necessarily. ** Poecilia, Hello! Can I build a haunted house around you next Halloween? Will you be free on the weekends for the month of October? ** Steeqhen, Hi, S. Were you in agreement re: the two graduating bands? Contortionists must really set your teeth on edge. Thanks re: ‘RT’s’ impending birth. Now we just have to make sure it pops out without pre-existing conditions. ** Steve, What’s the results? I’ve had walking pneumonia a couple of times. It’s a drag, for sure, but it died peacefully with the right meds and, in my case, smoking less cigarettes. The film is currently submitted to, let me count, 4 festivals. So, yes, waiting and seeing. And more submissions in process. We’ve pretty much given up on the really big festivals. We spent a year trying them, and it’s just too unorthodox a film for the likes of them, it’s quite clear. Plus, a film like ours would just get swallowed up and disappear in those contexts anyway. ** P, Greetings, P! It’s very good to meet you. Thank you a lot for coming in here. Brontez is pretty friendly, I wouldn’t worry too much about bothering him. Thank you so, so much for reading my books and thinking so well about them. That’s exciting to hear, thank you. What kind of art do you make? I’d be really interested to know. Yeah, I know about the not-fitting-in thing. I was a total weirdo when I was young, and strangely considered even weirder amongst my gay peers than amongst my non-gay peers, I’m not why or what that meant. It doesn’t sound like I need to tell you to maintain your self-belief, but, if so, do realise that what makes you not fit in what gives you the possibility of being great and achieving greatness. The unique ones always end up winning. Well, there’s no ‘always’, but you know what I mean. If you get to the Premiere, for sure say hey. Anyway, tell me about your art or about anything. Thanks! ** HaRpEr, The hospital one has a fixer-upper possibilities, for sure. Most of Seidl’s films are pretty good. ‘Import/Export’ might be a good start, yeah. And the ‘Paradise’ trilogy, yes. ‘Sparta’ is intense, but it’s hard to see. Congrats about the doll performance. Great! A lecturer who seems bonafiably interested in experimentation. Obviously, I hope you film it. Word of mouth: the viewings. It’s all about word of mouth. So nice! Happy for you, and for everyone in proximation. ** jay, I’m obviously glad you got pulled into the haunt subculture. It’s my bread and butter, obviously. Is the spasming occasioned by external forces, physical movements or something? You don’t have to say any more if you don’t want. I have this lifelong fucked up lower back, and it suddenly goes out, and there’s never really any reason that I can tell, which is why I guess I ask. Anyway, best vibes possible to you! ** Diesel Clementine, Wow, that’s some cupboard there. Kitchen booth! The new flat sounds really primo. Back in the late 80s I got to live in this absolutely massive loft of a friend in Soho/NYC for a year and only paid $100 a month, it was insane. But he’d lived there since the days when Soho was a shithole, and was still paying $200 a month for it long after it had become the fancy, groovy area. That might be the coolest place I’ve lived. My apartment in LA is really nice, very eccentric, extremely well located, but affordable because I’ve had it since 1990. The worst: When I was living in Amsterdam in the apartment of a guy who’d gone insane and stabbed someone to death and was in a mental hospital. It was a shambles, and every day a letter would arrive in the post written by him in the mental hospital to himself, and I lived in fear that he was going to escape and come back to his place and find me there and kill me. I think that wins the worst contest. ** Okay. February ends, and the slaves emerge right on time. See you tomorrow.
Hi!!
The LAFM page about “Room Temperature” looks so clean and beautiful. I wish I could teleport to LA for the premiere!
Molar Manor is an excellent choice! They put so much effort into it.
I grew up listening to Nirvana, and I still know most of their lyrics by heart.
Huh. Google told me love might’ve come from Carpenters? A little different from Nirvana indeed, haha! Love’s in Brazil and he wants to be a ghost, Od.
Dennis, Yeah, that’s the thing with that threat. We call somebody and he can just say he didn’t say it or that he was joking, and there’s really nothing they can do about it. In MD, you can’t force someone into rehab and, with threats like that, they have to be an imminent danger to themselves, i.e., they have to be standing there with a gun to their head or have to have attempted suicide. It’s tough.
Oh, and now it looks like they have a workstation ready for me. It’s in a “contractor bullpen.” So, I’ll be sitting there with a bunch of people I don’t know when I do have to go in. Ugh.
Hope you have a swell weekend. I’m a try to have one here.
That’s an interesting hat legalvictim is wearing! I’m no expert on knitting but I do know that yarn, texture and ply have something to do with the process. Headgear that chunky looks like it’s been Photoshopped to the top of the slave’s head.
Yeah, in regards to extreme metal “philosophy”, people who love to gloat about being a “misanthrope” or “nihilist” are often just conservatives in disguise. It’s more or less just an inverted reinvention of “good vibes” hippie mentality where you make a single emotion into a marketable brand that you can’t disrupt lest you upset a consumer.
Did not get a comment in yesterday, but while we’re on the subject, the kawaii death metal thing is basically novelty music but I like that sort of smashing together of incongruous aesthetics. The KDM albums I sampled on Bandcamp remind me a bit of these amateur hard dance mixes that plagued Youtube when I was a teenager: it would have a very low res cute anime picture as the thumbnail and the audio would be 2-plus hours of extremely compressed music that was like gabber or hardstyle but less danceable, more noise with a bunch of sample of J-pop, hentai, and films like Battle Royale thrown in. Also realizing now that the dungeon synth derivatives field guide I linked from RYM was made by Nick Shutter, a very prolific noise musician who you should go check out on Bandcamp: https://nickshutter.bandcamp.com/
Mr. Cooper, hello! If you can build an ordinary house around me then I can haunt it and then it would be a haunted house. I would be delighted and honored. Sadly, logistics would be a nightmare, so I can only thank you for the thoughtfulness and leave it at that.
? The nakeds earlyohhh ’cause we’re in the small month of the year, I forgot
My chest X-rays don’t show any signs of infection. I just spoke with my doctor, and he thinks the problem is allergies, not walking pneumonia. He prescribed 2 meds to treat them; if they don’t improve things within two weeks, he wants me to see an ENT. I don’t feel well today, but I think I’m just very anxious and tired.
Is Kyle Polaksi an actual porn star? Could the comments by “anonymous” on Mindset’s post be alluding to this blog?
Recently, I’ve gone back and listened to some of PSF Records’ early ’90s releases from Mainliner, High Rise and Fushitsusha. They achieve such a specific sound and vibe: a Blue Cheer/Hendrix Experience/Stooges-style power trio playing to a bar full of bikers having bad trips. I remember paying a truly insane amount for Fushitsusha’s double live CDs when they first came out – now the whole discography is up on YouTube!
Hey, Dennis? How are you? Not many cute guys today, huh? But I identify myself with Idonetherightthing. I really like these posts. Recently I had the idea of doing a couple drawings with short dialogues inspired by the AskWendy bit of the Wendy Williams show. I don’t know if you are familiar. I haven’t finished it yet but I had an idea of doing something similar with the escorts list. But I don’t know, I’ll see how these will turn out first.
I had some consistent ideas for drawings since we last talk, and ironically, I got a comission on the day that I was whining to you about how desperate I was. It’s an album cover, the music is funk (Brazilian funk is different than the American, and it’s also not the same thing as phonk, but you probably know that) and it mixes with house and trance and it’s also inspired by j-pop. The songs I had the chance to listen are actually very nice, I hope it will be the DJ’s breakthrough, he’s a nice boy too. I think the album will be ready by the end of March.
I’m messaging you because today I found a new internet niche that I’ve never heard about. Zombietwt. Apparently these people like to eat themselves and also… mold. Ever heard of it? I got more disgusted by the mold part, but do what you like I guess. Some do it for fetish and some do it for… fun? I don’t know exactly. I knew there was some cannibalistic communities online but I didn’t know they were so trendy with the “twt” thing. And also the mold! I believe some people really get off with it but I doubt the whole community is genuine about these desires. That’s a very cliché phrase, but some people will do anything for attention! I would do many things, but not any.
See ya
Cracks knuckles and neck. It’s time. Living in dungeons – affordable? Fashionable and fun, surely. I am in no place to judge ExtremeSlaveBoy. He’s so polite. unfriendlyfire’s anxiousness is endearing, as opposed to many reviewers who just go straight (gay) to saying outrageous shit. ‘I only want to give my life if you have yours together’ is so damn sensible. iMakeUaSandwich – yum? Depends on the sandwich. Not sure what ‘whites me out’ implies but it sounds interesting. xSemx – ‘not bad for a 5 w no talent’ – Christ, rude. ‘I have always allowed my fate and future to be decided by horny men on the internet’ is relatable, to an extent. Not quite ‘always’ or ‘decided,’ but they’ve played a role. Sigh, another bloody blond, yawwwwn. Very skinny. I approve of the butt, though. bunsbunny has my undying allegiance for being an emo. Rather remarkable nipples. Wonder why Idonetherightthing, as a virgin, decided slaving is the way to go. I think, in fact, he may not have done the right thing, I fear. Free my man from that cage in the Southeast US! Clipper, you refreshingly normal chap, to just want to whack off with another, and no more. Nice but limited hair – and I’ll never get the fuss for Monster drinks. They’re meh. Consensual nonconsent is a real interesting doozy of a kink. I want Prettyblondboy’s jumper. dis_one_a_scorcherr, man, I don’t even know you, why tell me ‘fuck you’? Mean. But I’d hopefully wipe the floor with him in Mario Kart. That final photo of his, with the hands grasping, very hawt. Dude looks as miserable as me on Thursdays. johnathan0115 is not convincingly 18-years-old-looking, to me. I LOVE THAT failedboy WANTS RADIO COMMUNICATION, INTERESTING! My kind of man! I liiike his flamingo socks. He could do with more hair. david_anilbitch’s photos are awful. All those empty shoes creep me the fuck out. I don’t know what they mean and I’m unnerved to think what they might. Claustrophilia is a GREAT username. I feel not great writing about myself, either. EnigmaX is a better reviewer of guys than I am. Man has an unfortunately large forehead, I feel for him, me too. But at least I’ve more hair than him to hide it. I like that backpack pic, moody. It took me several seconds longer than it should have to realise WillObey was Will Obey, and not just a weird name. ‘fuckdoll cumdump’ is such a lazy, unoriginal thing to call a sex slave. Like that’s just, a boring overuse of pornspeak. Revenge – ANOTHER blond! Gosh. ‘He thinks im too much of a princess’ – huhm. Coincidentally, today I was told I have ‘princess hair.’ An appealingly flat stomach and pleasant tight short shirts. legalvictim is a similarly oxymoronic username to the idea of consensual nonconsent (Currently newly hypnotised by the movement of my typing cursor in my Notepad, woah). When sex is on people’s mind in that immediate, must-achieve-climax-by-any-means-necessary way, they just think and say the stupidest, dumbest shit. It’s hilarious and pathetic and fascinating. I’m not impressed by Anonymous’ poetry, but I approve of his trying to do something new. SpacedOut07’s pic is funny. Cuuute hat, if silly. Yeesh, TrashCANnotTrashCant has a story. Very unfortunate affair. Summarily, shit is crazy. suckRobinsAss, I share your appreciation of ’66 Batman. The scene of Adam West running around with a bomb he can’t dispose has been making me giggle since I was tiny. Of fucking course he has a Sonic shirt ToT. Sweet-seeming guy. MakeMeHomeless serves as proof of how silly people can get as a result of horniness. Mindset has a knack for making extreme stuff sound more palatable to a vanilla mindset. The photo of him with a gun in his face amused my chum. DoNotBeAfraid is very blunt, which I respect more than the scat fetish he has. The PornHub shirt is just awful, awful taste. LooseyGoose is out here asking the important questions. I don’t know any dead twink porn stars, though. O depraved new post, that has such people in it!
Hello Hello D-Dawg. I’ve been thinking about your blog-as-cellphone, what ringer? question intermittently for most of today. I’m unsure if I know or like any music which especially ‘fits’ the blog. One of the earliest joke thoughts I had in the morning before English was the ‘Threnody to the Victims of Hiroshima.’ A GbV track mightn’t go amiss, but I wonder how much of yourself thinks goes into this blog. If I knew any songs about blogs, I’d name those. Man I’m in deep thought about this. Shuffling through songs to see if anything fits. A terrible song but mildly suitable title for the blog when it’s posting things like this would be ‘I Cry Cutely While Sucking Cock.’ Ah, GbV, suitable title for me and my feelings for the blog – ‘Sad If I Lost it’! Bingo. There you go. That’s my answer, for now.
Haunts rather lose their spooky haunting value with a bit of prying, but I imagine more prying would eventually make them seem spooky again. Maybe it’s scary that humans want to be scared? Like, I’m all fine with comfort and safety and security. Big win for haunted houses, that you like them.
Andersson noted, and his films. More stuff for me to think ‘man I should engage with that’ until I find another thing I think I should engage with. In honesty, I don’t know if the saying came from the film. I just put Laugh, Clown, Laugh into Google, saw it was a film, and closed the tab. My research was non-existent, basically. But like, that might be the case. I really do not know. I also don’t know how many of the sayings I use are film/music/telly-inspired. People speaking in only sayings just makes me think of Sancho Panza from Don Quixote, who strings all these silly proverbs together until they mean nothing. Counting one’s lucky stars is one I’m familiar with, though. It’s the name of a record label which puts out some music I don’t mind. Emo-y stuff.
Hm, I think Hell is kind of proof of human imagination. Like, did we really have to come up with all that shit just to get people to stop doing certain things? Tsk. But I consider Hell a part of religion and I don’t think religion is ‘right’ or ‘real’ so I see all of it as an exercise of human imagination. And religion is rather a big thing. And it’s captured the minds of so many. The black and white moral thinking behind the concept of Hell is unimaginative, but I think the all the pretty fires and awful torture people have come up with demonstrates a decent capacity for fun thinking. There’s a passage in Joyce’s Portrait of The Artist As A Young Man where some clergy dude freaks out a load of young guys with this, really, like really rather long and detailed description of Hell, and I thought ‘hm, doesn’t sound fun.’ But I guess that’s more courtesy of Joyce than religion, in terms of imaginative-ness. Bleh, thinkythink.
I’d say my back’s better, fingers crossed I’m not jinxing it. I have not been sobbing and breathless like I was on Tuesday – I’ve even managed running and throwing and jumping, without having to sit down and cry in pain. Though my heart did feel a bit uncomfortable for a bit. But I’ve eaten like SHIT today so that won’t have helped. Your hoping for my back not being a bitch (as well as Poe’s) is appreciated, thanks. Ooh, before I forget again, gratz on Room Temperature.
Nice, wouldn’t have thought I would make you want to be more social. I don’t know what kind of people Paris has on offer, or how that measures up to the inhabitants of my awful post-industrial English town in the Midlands. But when my friends are fun, they’re great. And my, was today amazing. I’ve had such a wonderful and marvellous day. Seriously, Monday was fine, Tuesday was fine then awful, Wednesday was dull, Thursday was draining, but today’s been so much fun. English was alright, finished Crash, had a little gossip. One of my friends – the one who recently got a girlfriend and has been somewhat disagreeable a chap as of late – flaked on us dead early in the walk. Like he just dipped, without explanation. But my two friends who stuck around and I had so so so much fun. We walked through our gravel pits, past the aptly-named Dogshit Bridge, over some big green sports fields we haven’t explored before, they fought each other with flagpoles (me recording), dicked about with hoses, pipes, I’m not sure what they were, but there was much phallic joking around – as there was when a friend’s piece of chicken resembled the shape of a penis – and we ate fast food in this little tiny shelter on the sports fields, where there were 5 rickety plastic chairs for the 3 of us. The food was deliciously unhealthy, the birdsong was gorgeous, my friends were very funny, and the day was just seriously gorgeous. It’s been the first beautiful day of the year. Seriously, so nice. And after walking our friend home, the other chum and I shared a croissant with cherry jam and vanilla filling, which was yummy, and being digested as I scrolled through this post with my friend next to me. Many silly photos and videos have been taken, some of which see me and my friend holding a footpath sign next to another sign, this sign in this park we always take a pic with on Friday walks. I stargazed and listened to Minecraft music. We sang Mambo No. 5. My feet are killl-iiiiing meee, but it’s so worth it. Such a lovely evening. After 2 weeks without a Friday walk, the general consensus is that the Friday walk is so back. Even if that one friend had to flake. But it’s been a great day! I’m not sure how long I’ll stay up tonight. I suspect I’ll conk out before I can make a start on an email or two. Anyway, rambly ramble done. See you tomorrow!
Hey D,
Well the voting process was a mix of crowd votes and the scoring of the 3 judges (worth 30%); in the end the two bands who won were the winners in both the crowd votes and judges scoring so it was a done-deal.
I spent today napping again, I think I’m just exhausted after all the shit I’ve been doing. I even meant to submit something to SCAB which I only remembered now. My dad came back from the US on a work trip today, and my sibling came home after not seeing them for a week or two, so today was all of us together again. I’ve been sat with them playing The Sims 2: I get really into the Sims every couple of months, and sometimes it’s the Sims 4 (newest one even though it’s 11 years old, also a very shit micro-transactions based game), and sometimes the Sims 3. But at the moment I’m obsessed with 2, which tends to be considered the best, and is a lot easier for my laptop to handle.
In a weird way, contortionists don’t — well they still freak me out a bit, but I don’t imagine them breaking their spines or body from it. I think the sexual aspect of self-fellatio adds that layer of danger that makes me imagine that something will break…
I’m sure that Room Temperature has no conditions, and the midwives will take good care during this exciting process!
Hey. Oh lord, I always forget how short February is. The slave posts once again remind me of the inevitable marching of time. Spring is sort of sprung, but in the UK we always have a ‘false spring’ season that suddenly leads into a second winter / rainy period so you never know. I do like early spring a lot, it makes me feel very euphoric and like it’s the first time I’ve ever been happy.
Yeah the doll performance went really well and I will hopefully film it this weekend. My lecturer told me that I was born to do the monologue thing and that it is really fitting with my general ‘aesthetic’ so has ‘commissioned’ me to do another solo theatre piece for the next of the readings which he organizes. He just told me to go easy on certain things haha.
‘I’m in Brazil and I want to be a ghost’. Funnily enough, one thing that I’ve been trying to write which will probably end up being that very monologue involves a kid who wants to be a ghost so that they can haunt their enemies, which is a very vague outline, but anyway. Years ago I remember being disturbed reading about how the Columbine killers used to write fantasies in their diaries about coming back as ghosts to haunt the families of their victims, so the idea of someone who is not a ghost but wants to die only so that they can be a ghost has kind of stuck with me.
Also, a little secret: my lecturer is a uk writer that you have read and enjoyed, but I won’t tell you until I’ve graduated and when I’m not scared that he’s reading this. So yes, he’s pro experimentation, and a great guy. The best lecturer I have.
But oh yeah, I found out today that my university is axing its creative writing department. Me and the two years behind me won’t be affected, but they won’t be going ahead with the module anymore. It’s kind of chaos in class at the moment; a lot of writers who are teaching here will be out of a job unless they also teach English literature, so it’s a nightmare.
I forgot to say congrats about the premiere: congrats! And that still from the website with the window is really striking. You and Zac are magicians. I really like windows in movies, which may be a strange thing to say, but I like the effect of a camera looking through a window. Bresson has a lot of good windows. I think the scene in ‘PGL’ that stayed with me the most is the one where the boy next door hangs himself. Just the way it’s lit or something, I can’t even communicate how much that hit me. Anyway, I know you hate compliments, so, uh, sorry. If you don’t want the compliment then maybe pretend it was only for Zac?
Hi Dennis!
what a wonderful slave day, huskular is such a fun word
amazing to hear about the ROOM TEMPERATURE world premiere, congrats to you and Zac! the description definitely has me piqued. any hopes/plans for a screening in Canada?
my partner and I spent most of February house-sitting for a friend who lives on Toronto island. we got hit with three heavy snowstorms while we were there. it was an intense amount of snow but made the lake and all the trees really beautiful. It was a good short retreat from the city too, I got a lot of writing done and submitted to some interesting zines. I’m back at my apartment this week and going to see Laurel Halo do a DJ set tomorrow night. what’s your plan for Saturday night fun?
Hi! MakeMeHomeless is so, so interesting. I always really admire people who are willing to be totally in thrall to themselves, while not really thinking too heavily about anything. It’s almost cooler when someone totally blows their life up for something like this, like some minor mental defect that they haven’t quite registered consciously cracking open into something huge that consumes them. Obviously there’s the whole pozzing community, but seeing new forms of that behaviour is always fascinating.
Spasming is the same for me and you, I think. I’m sure there’s something like temperature and humidity that affects it, but I’m not bothered enough to look into it. Mine is a autoimmune nerve thing though, so that may be different. Ooh, sorry about your back, I never knew that. I hope it isn’t too disruptive, although I’m sure you’ve managed to figure out a routine for this kind of thing by now. Anyway, I hope you have a great weekend, lots of love to you and this month’s slaves.
Hi Dennis! Thank you so much for your kind words .
Reading back on what I said yesterday it kinda sounds like I don’t appreciate my friends as much as I should say I do. I skateboard and am thankfully have escaped Wisconsin 2 years ago because of the online queer skating community mostly connecting with everyone through instagram. Most of the queer skaters here are trans girls or lesbians and all the hot skater boys that are around are straight or too worried about losing their dl status fucking on the one younger gay skater . Only a handful of my skater friends do other things than skate and party . Dont get me wrong I love sitting , smoking pot and drinking beer , but I have other things that I want to do. I guess I’m more frustrated with the hot skater boys being straight , the cute faggots all being so annoying, and the masc gay men wanting nothing to do with me , than my friends not wanting to sit around and talk about creative ideas and important things. But there is an overlap in isolation between the two because there is something about people who have only lived in California. I haven’t been able to pinpoint exactly what it is , something about them not knowing what its like everywhere else. Growing up was so isolating and awful and I have waited my whole life to be out here , just for me to feel emotionally isolated and asking myself so often what the fuck is wrong with all of these people hahaha. I was wondering if you have felt that way in France. I do have a big brother type friend , who is from east la and thankfully normal, is also an artist ,and is basically the only person who really pushes me to make shit. Ok the bitching is over i hope ,,, I have been making air brushed t shirts for the past two ish years under the name ” cock jock” and its been a pretty good little hustle. Cock Jock , a play on words of shock jock … Subject matter is mostly all gay porn that I find online with the occasional celebrity portrait. I find the images, edit them, and then play human printer with my projector and my airbrush. Back in Wisconsin when I was living with my dad he helped me set up a screen printing studio in our attic which we would both use. I don’t have the type of space now ( all my shirts i make in the corner of my room by my door) but I do want to get back into it eventually. Airbrushing feels way more personal, each shirt takes about an hour, and they are all different even if I redo an image. Its a lot of fun and not too much work and makes me a little bit of cash whenever I need it ( usually often ) . I’m trying to do more pen on paper stuff too. I made a little website so you can check out my stuff . Hope you like it 🙂 and if I can make it down to LA maybe I can make a shirt for you if you are interested. Ah still cant get over how cool this is . Hope you have a great day
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(https://placentajuan996.wixsite.com/my-site-2)
(big bro friend is forcing me to make a roxy music fanzine bc of my lifelong love for the band and im not sure what im going to write in it yet but have been doing some drawings, suggestions appreciated)
yo, wild week for me. nothing i’d want to put out in public, so uh please imagine it right now.
short notes on the days i missed; i like metal logos but specific out of context from being metal logos. like apoc party has a cool metal logo, and it is fun in the context of being a publishing house logo. though, i’m sure if i finally get the time to do it, my death — possibly not kawaii — metal band will have. guess i’ll need to consder ways to subvert having it.
seidi is one of those artists i like for what he stands for and how i hope he still gets to make movies, even after the sparta scandal, more than i like actually watching his stuff.
god that hallway of arms is going right into the scrapbook / lookbook of my current book project. there is a lot of hands and arms in the book as is. i wouldn’t know where that whole thing came from.
and finally these peeps, trash can’s whole bit is hilarious, i giggled way too much than i should. my next pick up line is gonna be writing a creepypasta of a fictional minecraft player.
i don’t think i can tell what exactly changed or what breakthrough i made, in a split moment i had both ‘i am writing this wrong,’ and ‘i know how to write this right’, and changed my whole mind. maybe if i get a time machine and asked nat in that one specific second, i’ll know. whatever it may be, i am doing a lot better actually getting this together like i want now. yippie.
split pea soup is really great, yeah. one of my new years things has been going at least flexitarian, even pescetarian weeks that i’m not eating at friends. and at least i’ve gotten a lot of cool new understanding of food i wouldn’t care for. nat vegan arc is not gonna be like until five years sorry.
that should be all.
Hi Dennis! I’m savoring every new bit of Room Temperature I can get right now. Can’t believe it’s slave day already. I had an insane day yesterday that started I started by sleeping through a job interview and I ended stoned like 15 feet away from Roger Deakins at a No Country for Old Men screening. Someone at the QnA asked him “sunrise or sunset” and he said neither. Curious to see if Room Temperature is a sunrise/sunset/neither movie. His big piece of advice for filmmakers was to watch Bresson, and I was like how do I know that name, and then I remembered, it’s through you.
Me-wise, I actually just wrote a little write-up of an art show at that studio space I joined. It was for their substack so had to be nice about everything even though I didn’t care for most of it. It’s cool to know you used to review art shows, too. I really enjoy whenever I get to race around the city for art purposes.
https://substack.com/home/post/p-157864503
Also on my own blog I just posted a bunch of tree drawings I’ve done over the past couple months. I’ve starting doing these digital gallery posts every now and then when I don’t wanna write something. This one is very minimal and abstract.
https://dangcarroll.wordpress.com/2025/02/28/thirteen-trees/