Month: May 2020 (Page 5 of 7)

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cuteboy_1, 19
Munich

wanna suck a cute boy’s dick?
need money for beer

Guestbook of cuteboy_1

cuteboy_1 – May 3, 2020
thats trippy to know thanks

Anonymous – May 3, 2020
you’re so cute that just smelling your groin was like a million christmas mornings. you could’ve had a 2 incher and I wouldn’t have blinked but you have a large 8 inch whopper that leaks precum like a broken faucet so when I finally downed your delicious load of cream it was like spending quality time with a dear friend! p.s. I love your balls!

Dick L, Uncut
Orientation Bi
Body Muscular
Body hair Shaved
Piercings No
Tattoos No
Smoking No
Speaks German, English
Position More top
Kissing No
FF No
S&M No
Dirty No
Oral Top
Rate per hour 100 €
Overnight On request

 

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Shark, 21
Taka-Töölö

If you are planning to be naughty in bed then Shark is here for all your needs.
Your ass is my first preference but that doesn’t mean others can’t ping me; respect to you all!
Your age doesn’t matter for me. If you are for shark, Shark is for you ❤😎😘
But don’t waiste my fucking time!!!🔥
You don’t want see me angry!!!

Guestbook of Shark

Anonymous – May 11, 2020
OMG, I fucked this guy too
actually he is in prison, so I wonder what he’s doing here again?

Anonymous – May 9, 2020
Finally he is back … 🥰 I met this escort … several times … he is very cute. Crazy mofo, man a cock very stiff and well veined he smashed my pussy like a bull … 🥰🥰🥰🥰 my anal mucus was leaking and sloshing all over and spraying him … he likes to bathe it 😘😘😘

Anonymous – May 6, 2020
I once had sex with this Finnish boy
A liar and a great speaker, nothing behind it
very behaviorally disturbed

Shark (Owner) – Apr 27, 2020
I’m also a actor porno and I’m looking for amateur beautiful ass for make porn movie so I offer also for that ass.

Dick L, Uncut
Orientation Bi
Body Muscular
Body hair Smooth
Piercings Yes
Tattoos Yes
Smoking Yes
Speaks Finnish, Swedish, English
Position More top
Kissing Consent
FF Active
S&M Yes
Dirty Yes
Oral Versatile
Rate per hour 200 €
Overnight 1000 €

 

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marco_XO, 19
Phoenix

Don’t mind me, I’m just here to help my fiancé pick out a stripper for his bachelor party.

Guestbook of marco_XO

marco_XO (Owner) – Apr 30, 2020
You and everyone I know would get along famously.

Uknowhatiwant – Apr 30, 2020
You’re awfully young and gorgeous to be getting married. You sure you don’t want to play the field for a while longer?

Dick M, Cut
Orientation Gay
Body Average
Body hair Little
Piercings No
Tattoos No
Smoking Yes
Speaks English
Position No answer
Kissing No answer
FF No answer
S&M No answer
Dirty No answer
Oral No answer
Rate per hour On request
Overnight On request

 

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GoodBabyBoy, 20
Corpus Christie

Im looking for someone to come into my area and buy a hotel room. We can then meet up there and we can do whatever you want, you take control. Im a virgin, so please go easy on me. Bring lots of money!

Message me! My legs they are always open!

Guestbook of GoodBabyBoy

GoodBabyBoy (Owner) – May 4, 2020
I hate fat people.

Anonymous – Apr 28, 2020
stressball in human form

GoodBabyBoy (Owner) – Apr 20, 2020
I was going to write please dont contact me if youre ugly but every man on here is very ugly!

Dick M, Cut
Orientation Gay
Body Slim
Body hair Smooth
Piercings No
Tattoos No
Smoking No
Speaks English
Position Versatile
Kissing Consent
FF No answer
S&M Soft
Dirty No
Oral Versatile
Rate per hour 150 $
Overnight 500 $

 

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willsuck4weed, 18
Fort Worth

Love weed and money!

(Tried to start a meme account but now I’m taking 10″ dick instead! Humour 💯 Fuck me not my planet 🌿 )

Guestbook of willsuck4weed

youllneverknow – Apr 22, 2020
What was the childhood of someone who can only express their opinion with a single adjective.

Anonymous – Apr 19, 2020
I wrote the first review. After that some idiot copied it and added things and has filled this profile with shit.

Anonymous – Apr 19, 2020
Very good kid but he cries and smells his legs. I do not want to blame, I do not know if there is a problem with hormones or anything else, but I tell the truth and we talked about boho.

Anonymous – Apr 18, 2020
Yesterday we found ourselves! Baby brainless finishing late with sex. And above all a very good kid but he squawks like a chicken and I came out laughing!

Anonymous – Apr 17, 2020
Yesterday we found ourselves! Very good at sex with a ridiculous. And above all a very good mouth but it was drooling and talking in tongues!

Anonymous – Apr 16, 2020
Yesterday we found ourselves! Very good at sex with my pole cock. And above all a very good kid but he was out of it!

Dick S, Uncut
Orientation Bi
Body Average
Body hair Little
Piercings No
Tattoos No
Smoking Yes
Speaks English
Position More bottom
Kissing Yes
FF Versatile
S&M Soft
Dirty No
Oral Versatile
Rate per hour 80 $
Overnight 400 $

 

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saleHooker, 21
Iowa City

Isolation can be a scary thing especially if you’re a hooker who’s used to getting it several times a week. It can lead us to a lot of dark thoughts. It can make you think about going back to the bottle and drugs, or suicidal thoughts. I will admit that’s what happening in my case. Although most of us are in a self-quarantine situation, that doesn’t mean we need to shut others out. Look out for each other! I’m ready to risk getting the virus and will barely even charge you if you want me!

Guestbook of saleHooker

saleHooker (Owner) – May 7, 2020
The worst part of being an escort it’s this💩

Anonymous – May 7, 2020
I sometimes wonder if there isn’t something in certain boys’ DNA that gives them a particular kind of almost cute faces and nearly hot bodies plus just the right combination of cynicism and a high, undiscriminating sex drive that causes them to mesh perfectly with men whose lust for youth in general causes their erections to have a magic wand-like beautifying effect on these almost hotties and predestines the boys to be hookers and risk their lives, in this case to Covid-19, in order to feel realistically hot and cute for an hour or two. If so this guy is definitely one of them.

theoppositeofbad – May 7, 2020
What can I say? He’s a generic, standard issue gay boy with delusions of adequacy who to his credit drifts all the way to slutty for a reasonable price.

Dick L, Uncut
Orientation Gay
Body Slim
Body hair Shaved
Piercings No
Tattoos No
Smoking Yes
Speaks English
Position Bottom only
Kissing Yes
FF Versatile
S&M Yes
Dirty WS only
Oral Versatile
Rate per hour 250 $
Overnight On request

 

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VictoryisYours, 19
Paris

Into older man.
From Nothern Europe (not Scandinavia, Europe is bigger than you think.)
Haha no I am not fake.
But if you think like that, that means my friends made a great pictures of me.
I don’t want to meet any Europeans. Sorry but other ethnic groups are more appreciative of me and I prefer that.

Guestbook of VictoryisYours

MattCalinus – Apr 29, 2020
he’s my best caucasian friend! i make ravishing love to his colourless body three times a week!

rovin52 – Apr 26, 2020
Im from indonesia and i like white skin

Blessed – Apr 24, 2020
A truly exceptional caucasian: physically superb, a face so beautiful it’s hard to keep one’s eyes in focus, flawless tender white skin, humble, kind, intelligent, inherently and neverendingly sensual, sexually profound because his perfect body adapts exactly to your requests, tenderising and opening to your desires no matter how taboo without any reservation, the veritable dream come true made flesh. For my part I keep most in memory the wonderful hourlong moments I sucked and devoured his rich, lush and ever saliva refilling mouth as he so evidently loves.

Dick L, Uncut
Orientation Bi
Body Slim
Body hair Some
Piercings No
Tattoos Yes
Smoking Yes
Speaks French, Dutch, English
Position More bottom
Kissing Yes
FF Versatile
S&M Soft
Dirty No
Oral Versatile
Rate per hour 300 €
Overnight 2000 €

 

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ShadowNinja, 20
Munich

HELP, confined all alone without my boyfriend and job and going crazy in MUNICH! My ability to do sex is only 25-30 minutes so rush jobs only. No romance!

Guestbook of ShadowNinja

ShadowNinja (Owner) – May 8, 2020
Well, if you put it that way 👍👍

crazydragon – May 8, 2020
All you would need to do is relax, hold your nose and light some incense.

ShadowNinja (Owner) – May 8, 2020
Never tried scat but don’t think would enjoy it.

crazydragon – May 8, 2020
Studying the human body is my favorite part of the nursing profession. You don’t do scat by chance do you? I’m dying to discover what your ass has up its sleeve.

Donminic – May 5, 2020
let’s just say there’s a very good reason why he says his boyfriend’s nickname for his ass is the pinky palace.

ShadowNinja (Owner) – May 1, 2020
For those who keep asking the time limit is because I have heart disease and my doctor says 30 minutes is the most my heart can safely take. I also cannot get a hard-on anymore.

Dick XL, Uncut
Orientation Gay
Body Muscular
Body hair Shaved
Piercings No
Tattoos Yes
Smoking Yes
Speaks German, English
Position Bottom only
Kissing No
FF Passive
S&M No
Dirty No answer
Oral Versatile
Rate per hour On request
Overnight On request

 

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immoralxxx, 23
Berlin

Young student, no longer having school or his baby-sitter job to pay bills I therefore make my body available to satisfy your desires and fantasies in order to compensate for my lack, I am available all the time and open to ABSOLUTELY EVERYTHING except sodomy.

Guestbook of immoralxxx

immoralxxx (Owner) – Apr 26, 2020
Okay for gays instead of sodomy here are various games you can play with my butt if you want:
1. You can ask me to write something on my ass.
2. You can ask me to pose in any fuck position and take a a pic.
3. You can ask me to stretch my hole and stand like that for whatever time you want.
4. You can make my ass a comment wall and I will write anything and you can take pic of it after writing.
5. You can ask to watch me do anything with my butt, I will do it and you can take a pic of it.

PirateRumDrunk – Apr 24, 2020
We want Ass

Leaaaa – Apr 21, 2020
Hi Im a girl -sry. Just looking for a gay friend. I feel super comfortable with gays (I know that sounds strange …).

immoralxxx (Owner) – Apr 19, 2020
New rule, ONLY FOR PURE TRANS WOMEN MEN
TRY TO UNDERSTAND, I AM STRAIGHT GUY NO GAYS

PirateRumDrunk – Apr 13, 2020
We want Ass

Bulldozer – Apr 11, 2020
Never for one moment do you not know how much he hates having to do this.

Dick S, Uncut
Orientation Bi
Body Muscular
Body hair None
Piercings No
Tattoos No
Smoking No
Speaks German, English
Position No answer
Kissing No
FF Active
S&M Yes
Dirty WS only
Oral Top
Rate per hour 25 €
Overnight 100 €

 

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the_hawk, 18
Valencia

surviving the only way i know how

Guestbook of the_hawk

the_hawk (Owner) – May 2, 2020
that would be a go

Sparklingbubble – May 2, 2020
looking to sniff your ass and get some gas love farts and would love to sniff you farts all night long while you mess my place up that’s right I also love slobs

LIONVC – May 2, 2020
Call disney. This prince escaped.

Dick M, Uncut
Orientation Gay
Body Slim
Body hair Smooth
Piercings No
Tattoos No
Smoking Yes
Speaks Spanish, English
Position Versatile
Kissing Consent
FF No
S&M Soft
Dirty No
Oral Versatile
Rate per hour 200 €
Overnight 1000 €

 

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Any_sugar_daddy, 19
Valletta

I’m looking for anyone who can give me a large amount of money. DM me to suggest an amount and ask me for my age (it may be low).

A good man will be happy with his life and the world around him, and he will want to look out for others and help them, personally I prefer the wealthiest.

Guestbook of Any_sugar_daddy

Any_sugar_daddy (Owner) – May 3, 2020
Man gays are so arrogant!

Anonymous – May 3, 2020
Your attempt to make a living from being a nervous robber does not make you an escort!

Any_sugar_daddy (Owner) – Apr 30, 2020
I’m not white but I act white.

Dick M, Uncut
Orientation Bi
Body Slim
Body hair Little
Piercings Yes
Tattoos Yes
Smoking Yes
Speaks Italian, Sicilian, English
Position No answer
Kissing Consent
FF No
S&M No
Dirty No
Oral No answer
Rate per hour On request
Overnight On request

 

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e m o t i o n a l – m e s s, 19
Munich

Holla together,

even if I look gloomy in black, I think colorful! I’m just asking myself what I want here. Money absolutely, and maybe you have a reason for me, or even better: maybe YOU ARE the reason for me!

Here is a small overview for better handling of my admittedly not always lightweight type, or maybe just a good start for you:

+ Eating … EATING A LOT
+ Loud emotional depressing music
+ Eloquence
+ Behavior
+ Warm summer rain
+ Cuddling
+ Banana milk (somehow eating again)
+ Rats (PETS !!!)
+ Good theta pieces

– No sense of proper behaviour
– Don’t understand my “no”
– Soap operas
– Mucus
– Whole grain bread
– no real life … live 24/7 on PC … why?
– fond of animals

P.S: I’m very emotional, so don’t be too offended if I tell you I’m in love with you.

Guestbook of e m o t i o n a l – m e s s

e m o t i o n a l – m e s s (Owner) – May 10, 2020
I’m gonna review everyone who reviews me. Skye is a funny lay, he ­cracks jok­es at the ­wrong time­, like “I’m… so funny,” and I like getting laughs but he’s very, very apathetic… sorry. He’s not gay for real just as a joke but you can’t tell. 3/10.

Skye – May 10, 2020
Just another broken young person dressing up and blabbing to distract himself from himself. And btw yes, he would be hot if he shut up. And a last minute warning, skip the small talk and shove your hand in his pants the moment the door shuts. From that point on he’s drinkable and an 8 out of 10.

Dick L, Uncut
Orientation Bi
Body Muscular
Body hair Shaved
Piercings Yes
Tattoos Yes
Smoking Yes
Speaks English, German
Position Versatile
Kissing Consent
FF Versatile
S&M Yes
Dirty No
Oral Versatile
Rate per hour 250 €
Overnight 2000 €

 

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ShamHot, 18
Boston

Do not trust this person at all. He is not safe at all. This profile is created so that you do not trust this person at all.

Comments of ShamHot

NationalSport – Apr 8, 2020
You have very beautiful eyes. I would love to suck them out of your head and swallow them.

Dick S, Cut
Orientation Hetero
Body Average
Body hair Smooth
Piercings No
Tattoos No
Smoking Yes
Speaks English
Position No answer
Kissing No
FF No
S&M Yes
Dirty Yes
Oral Versatile
Rate per hour 170 $
Overnight 800 $

 

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ivegotacuteass, 21
Stuttgart

Hello! It’s nice to meet you~ I’m not in Germany, I’m just using a GPS mocking app because Japan is boring.

I’m here looking for men who would like to invite me for a short or long time to their homes anywhere in the world except in Asia ☺️

I worked in a brothel in Osaka and was very popular so you know I’m great at sex. Then I was the boytoy of three wealthy, important Japanese men who were very obsessed with me so you know I have staying power. Then I starred in some BDSM porn videos so you know I look exciting when I’m tied up.

I also have a hand fetish so you I will treat your hands very, very, very well 🥰

I might have problems with English since I get dizzy looking at Latin letters and my grammar isn’t perfect but no white man has ever seemed to mind.

Guestbook of ivegotacuteass

ivegotacuteass (Owner) – Apr 23, 2020
ivegotacuteass does not write this, but one of his best friends. I think almost nobody could describe him better than I do, since I have known this young man for exactly 11 years. What can I say? If I had to describe him in one word, it would be “different”. He’s just different. The way he speaks, how he behaves. How he thinks about life. How he gets dressed. His hobbies, his intelligence and how he deals with people. However, not always in a positive sense. He is a strange young man. Despite everything, he is always available and makes other people horny, even if he has a lot to do. He is not a good listener and not much of a talker, but can tell exciting stories that are so boring. Luckily you can talk to him about everything. Really about everything. God & the world. He is tolerant of talking and is not rude to anyone who is not rude to him. And he’s crazy. And no, when I say crazy, I don’t say that because it sounds “cool” when someone is crazy or something. No. No, he’s really crazy. He spontaneously rides alone to Osaka by bike (that’s 4 1/2 hours by car !!) for sex dates, he spontaneously goes into someone’s dungeon for days, he really dares a lot and if you should get him to talk you will find some stories that he will tell you will not believe because they sound so crazy. But they are true. They are really haha. On the whole, he is mysterious and at the same time an open book, and he is really funny. So, if you are lucky enough to take this freak here to Germany, you will wonder if you made a mistake, but feel very horny and satisfied in some way and appreciate and possibly even learn to love him. He definitely deserves to find someone who takes him the way he is, and if you shouldn’t take him that way … then you should make it easy for everyone and back off. Otherwise I’ll break your neck.

Dick M, Uncut
Orientation Gay
Body Slim
Body hair Little
Piercings No
Tattoos No
Smoking Yes
Speaks Japanese, German, English
Position More bottom
Kissing Yes
FF Passive
S&M Yes
Dirty Yes
Oral Versatile
Rate per hour On request
Overnight On request

 

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ESCORT1, 20
Olivet

I’m into me pretty much. Unless you’re into me ;$

Guestbook of ESCORT1

ESCORT1 (Owner) – May 5, 2020
My favorite film is the fifth element, my favorite album is outkast’s stankonia and my favorite book is frank herbert’s dunes. more or less I think there is everything.

Dick M, Uncut
Orientation Hetero
Body Slim
Body hair Smooth
Piercings No
Tattoos No
Smoking Yes
Speaks French, Czech, English
Position Bottom only
Kissing Consent
FF No answer
S&M Yes
Dirty No
Oral Versatile
Rate per hour 50 €
Overnight 50 €

 

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dont_wanna_know, 20
Cardiff

Sissy, needy and genius at pleasing 😈 who is supposed to offer myself here to earn money for my boyfriend.

Beat me up, hold me down, and rape my pussy hard until I’m in tears. Or lie back and relax and let me worship every inch of you while you ignore me completely. I’m only 20 but I don’t have any limits and I want to be pushed even further. I will move in with you so long as you are demanding and heartless and will hide me from my boyfriend and have money to share.

Ask me about my lack of limits, particularly if you’re interested in trying out more brutal interests.😏😈 I just happen have the world’s highest tolerance for pain as well as non-physical torment.

I often have bandages from mistreatment or self harming so if that irritates you I understand but please don’t report that to the social services.

Outside of that, I’m a very fun, conversational, high energy guy who loves telling and being told jokes more than anything.

Guestbook of dont_wanna_know

cockinyourmouth1 – Apr 26, 2020
Established a contact
Informal
To exchange, to appease
What does beauty matter, subjective
I’m frantically typing on my smartphone

Fraykus – Apr 24, 2020
If you are searching for a new dress like that one they sell them at most thrift stores for a buck or two.

iluis – Apr 13, 2020
He don’t need drugs to be crazy cause crack is coursing through his veins naturally

obsceneaddict69 – Apr 10, 2020
Very resilient, not really fussed about the sex side of things to be honest – but took cock every time and everywhere I forced it in him. Spent the night as my fuck hole and punch bag, gave him plenty of bruises. Treated him to a tattoo at the end.

Textmethenfuckme – Apr 8, 2020
Baraback and more, only pigs

Dick S, Uncut
Orientation Gay
Body Average
Body hair Shaved
Piercings No
Tattoos Yes
Smoking Yes
Speaks English
Position Bottom only
Kissing Yes
FF Passive
S&M Yes
Dirty Yes
Oral Versatile
Rate per hour 60 £
Overnight 800 £

 

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ShitTwink98, 21
Glasgow

Young dirty shit piss cum gob sweat blood puke eater.
No limits appetite.
Anything from your body goes in my mouth!

Young dirty shit piss cum gob sweat blood puke feeder.
Anything from my body can go in your mouth!
Can be deep fisted to get at my deep fluids and slime.

Guestbook of ShitTwink98

ShitTwink98 (Owner) – May 2, 2020
Because everyone says I’m arrogant 1) I’m not arrogant because I don’t want to get to know you, I just don’t see the point.

Dick M, Uncut
Orientation Gay
Body Muscular
Body hair Shaved
Piercings No
Tattoos No
Smoking Yes
Speaks English
Position Versatile
Kissing Yes
FF Versatile
S&M Yes
Dirty Yes
Oral Versatile
Rate per hour 150 £
Overnight On request

 

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CallMeJohn, 19
Hannover

❤️ 420, u don’t have a joint, don’t worry 😉 i got one 🙈

Guestbook of CallMeJohn

Anonymous – Apr 27, 2020
This boy is beautiful almost beyond comprehension, when he looks you in the eye, you practically stroke out … He has a super perfect body, and when he lies on his back it’s like a conveyer belt of priceless treasures, not a mlm of his flesh that doesn’t beg to be devoured, and a pristine cock, hard as tensile steel, whose orgasm is volcanic and unreal in its deliciousness, and …. [A great experience with him To have sex!]

Blessed – Apr 11, 2020
He is a very, very beautiful kid, moving, endearing, it’s a dream! In sex he is a genius at the same time completely passive and wild with a perfect little puff of an ass to eat without moderation.

Anonymous – Apr 3, 2020
Best fuck ever! Ever!!! He is extremely beautiful, insane body, soft skin, perfect bone structure, the perfect amount of flesh and minimal muscle, angelic smell, tastes like god, sweet asshole … his spit and cum taste utterly incredible. And fucking him … I’m struck dumb.

DevilWhisperer – March 28, 2020
My session with Kris was just the best money I’ve ever spent. He knows how to give to men in bed, he is a rabid kiser, I ate his snakey, flooded mouth like I was starving to death, and he takes assplay and cock like there’s a time bomb you’re helping to defuse in his ass – He also looks even better in real than on the Pics. Amazing, Staggering, Thank you! 😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘

Dick L, Uncut
Orientation Gay
Body Slim
Body hair Some
Piercings No
Tattoos Yes
Smoking No
Speaks German, Portuguese, English
Position More bottom
Kissing Yes
FF No answer
S&M No answer
Dirty No
Oral Versatile
Rate per hour 100 €
Overnight 1000 €

 

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IraqiBomb, 20
Sussex

I’m a bomb from Iraq! I like to give clients unplanned pleasures!

Dick XL, Uncut
Orientation Hetero
Body Average
Body hair Little
Piercings A lot
Tattoos A lot
Smoking Yes
Speaks Arabic, Kurdish, English
Position No answer
Kissing No
FF Active
S&M Yes
Dirty Yes
Oral No answer
Rate per hour 250 £
Overnight 1200 £

 

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dima_global, 19
Kyiv

Hi
I’m 19
Have zero real life experience
Never even had my first kiss yet
I have a very very long list of sex I want to have and message me if you want me to send it to you
Looking for an older generous man to start and then many older generous men to follow
Will chat online but I really want to try start getting real life experience
I want to try and have lots of generous men sex partners in this wonderful city
I don’t smoke or drink
And I’m skinnier than a twink
Also always looking for people to play call of duty with on ps4 but cod is cross platform now so doesn’t matter if u have pc or Xbox or ps4
Also love watching sports
Also can’t feel love

Speaks English, Polish, Russian

Guestbook of dima_global

RASKO – May 8, 2020
I believed him! I’m so stupid …. I feel very sick. The boy is really slut!!!

Kris – May 2, 2020
To add to the first reviewer, I gave Dima the fuck of the century not even a week ago. I split his hole so wide open I suspect it won’t ever close tightly again, so think twice not only if you want a virgin but for hygiene reasons too. My friends, don’t fall for it.

dima_global (Owner) – Apr 30, 2020
I don’t why I said that about zero experience
I’m unhappy kind of depressed and idk
I just want some money or idk

Anonymous – Apr 30, 2020
I’m an American expat living in Kyiv. This boy is the opposite of inexperienced. I’ve had him many times as have most of my friends. I can recommend him, but if his butt were a lamp it would work perfectly well but you could pick it up for 15 cents in a yard sale.

Dick M, Uncut
Orientation Gay
Body Slim
Body hair Smooth
Piercings No
Tattoos No
Smoking Yes
Speaks Ukrainian, Russian, English
Position Versatile
Kissing Yes
FF No
S&M Soft
Dirty No
Oral Versatile
Rate per hour On request
Overnight On request

 

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FeederBoy, 21
Denver

I’m looking for someone that will buy me gothic clothes….in return you can’t fuck me but my mouth is wide open 😉

Guestbook of FeederBoy

FeederBoy (Owner) – May 5, 2020
….Or if you are scared of corona and practice social distance I am 6’1″ and love having my feet licked and my and toes sucked.

FeederBoy (Owner) – May 5, 2020
I have a lot of piercings, and I love dipping my French fries in ice cream.

Dick S, Cut
Orientation Bi
Body Slim
Body hair Shaved
Piercings A lot
Tattoos Yes
Smoking Yes
Speaks English
Position More top
Kissing Yes
FF No
S&M Soft
Dirty No
Oral Versatile
Rate per hour On request
Overnight On request

 

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🅿️🅰️✝️®️❗️K, 19
San Diego

This profile is not for everyone, but it is the most authentic version of myself and what I am seeking. If you are upset or concerned by anything in here, while I appreciate your concern, I believe this is what is best for me.

For the past year I have struggled with where I fit in in the escorting community. After much contemplation I now believe that what is right for me is to be wrapped permanently in slick nylon and down with the support of my future Sugardaddy.

About my future Sugardaddy: An interest and desire to have a sugarboy forever enclosed in slick nylon and puffy down is a requirement. I am much more concerned with finding the right man on an emotional level then I am temporal things such as big dicks and tight asses.

Creating this profile and expressing these interests is leap of faith for me. Please understand if I hesitate to jump for the first man who shows me his Sleeping Bag.

Dick L, Uncut
Orientation Gay
Body Average
Body hair Smooth
Piercings No
Tattoos No
Smoking No
Speaks English
Position Versatile
Kissing Consent
FF Versatile
S&M Yes
Dirty No answer
Oral Versatile
Rate per hour On request
Overnight On request

 

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CoronaSuperHero, 19
Paris

confined n desperate n trying out a new angle, not looking for bf but i love sucking D n getting my B licked n if u wanna get my ** , i have paypal😛 please help my superhero to become famous 🙏🙏🙏

Guestbook of CoronaSuperHero

CoronaSuperHero (Owner) – Apr 27, 2020
also sell chems tina coke poppers viagra shitt G Mdma

CoronaSuperHero (Owner) – Apr 24, 2020
i have a tattoo of a Mies van Der Role quote on my left arm, “I don’t want to be interesting I want to be good”.

CoronaSuperHero (Owner) – Apr 24, 2020
btw if you look at me and have a fetish for being facesat, I TOTALLY GET IT.

CoronaSuperHero (Owner) – Apr 21, 2020
important thing is im virgin anal because was only top b4 but need more €€€ would like to try 🙂

Dick M, Uncut
Orientation Gay
Body Slim
Body hair Shaved
Piercings No
Tattoos No
Smoking Yes
Speaks French, Arabic, English
Position Versatile
Kissing Consent
FF Active
S&M Soft
Dirty No
Oral Versatile
Rate per hour 80 €
Overnight 500 €

 

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GoldilocksBoy, 22
Manchester

I’m Goldilocks and my whole body smells like fresh flowers.

The prices are real and, yes, it costs so much – whether you like it or not. You meet me and you will renounce capitalism.

This is my side job, I don’t care about my customers. I am also healthy and it’s only right that getting unhealthy should make me rich.

Also last semester I had a 1.5 gpa while also failing a class and this semester isn’t going very well either, so there’s another reason.

Guestbook of GoldilocksBoy

GoldilocksBoy (Owner) – Apr 22, 2020
I’m not a cheap sex doll okay so piss off you stingy guys!
Trans people are the happiest people in the world, like even in our darkest times we never forget how to smile and make people happy!
We trans also are very clean and you should see how we take care of ourselves.
I know that God loves me unconditionally, you should too but I don’t care!
PS: I’m a moody person sometimes like now so please do understand and adjust!

Anonymous – Apr 19, 2020
he turned me lesbian

Anonymous – Apr 19, 2020
He turned me straight.

NoOneKnow – Apr 17, 2020
1000 £ !!! Sweetie, if you were a 10€ breed & go I would try to haggle down the price.

Dick S, Uncut
Orientation Gay
Body Average
Body hair Shaved
Piercings Yes
Tattoos No
Smoking No
Speaks English
Position Bottom only
Kissing Yes
FF Passive
S&M Yes
Dirty Yes
Oral Versatile
Rate per hour 1000 £
Overnight 3500 £

 

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I-know-why-I-exist, 18
Istanbul

I began having sex with men around 7 years of age at a neighbors house in Istanbul after he began to molest me. I was afraid at first because he told me bad things would happen if I told anyone.
After a few months of him playing with me I began to enjoy the experience and would look for him if he didn’t contact me. That was about 2009 and I have not stopped since.
Thank you for reading. I will be patiently waiting for my next man and I’ll be doing this naked in my room pleasuring myself with my hands and sex toys as that feels normal to me. I am a Pisces.

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I-know-why-I-exist (Owner) – Apr 30, 2020
I remember you :-0

saTanicMasTers666 – Apr 30, 2020
I am full gear muscled aggro biker.
He is 18 slim buTTerscotch subpig for sickass shiT.
I shoveD MonSTer toys up his aSS so HaRd so LOnG I sweated an Ocean and nearly bROKe my back.
All Hail SaTan n ME.

Dick S, Uncut
Orientation Gay
Body Slim
Body hair Smooth
Piercings No
Tattoos No
Smoking Yes
Speaks Turkish, Arabic, English
Position More bottom
Kissing Yes
FF Passive
S&M Yes
Dirty Yes
Oral Versatile
Rate per hour On request
Overnight On request

 

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ABody, 20
London

I am someone with who You can share time with, have funny, and who be deeply connected to each other, enjoying a special and unique moment together, or who You can simply breed 💰💵

Guestbook of ABody

Anonymous – May 2, 2020
Also, mostly talking to myself here, another reason I did it is because I knew he’d had COVID in March and recovered and is immune now so he wouldn’t give it to me and wouldn’t get it from me if I have it.

thefetishdud – May 2, 2020
If you put on House (dance music) he becomes an amazing trip that you will never forget I guarantee you and you can fuck him over and over and over until his ass becomes a flower.

Anonymous – May 1, 2020
I don’t know why I’m going to share this. Maybe it’s for the men among you who still care about morality in this day and age. I’m very close friends with ABody’s longtime boyfriend now fiancé. I am 100% certain the boyfriend knows nothing about ABody’s whoring around. I would have been shocked to find him whoring here until last week when I hooked up with a faceless “cum dump” bottom boy on grindr and it was him. Yes, I partook, and yes I am horrible person. And yes, I wanted to tell my good friend but didn’t. And yes, I would do it again in a heartbeat. Maybe I just want to get that off my chest.

Dick M, Uncut
Orientation Gay
Body Slim
Body hair Little
Piercings No
Tattoos No
Smoking Yes
Speaks English
Position Bottom only
Kissing Yes
FF No answer
S&M Soft
Dirty No answer
Oral Versatile
Rate per hour 150 £
Overnight On request

 

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SammyGey, 19
Pattaya

I LIVE HOME
AND
I BURN MY HANDS
IN THIS HELL
VERY SCHOOL!!!!!!!

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SammyGey (Owner) – Apr 22, 2020
ALSO IF I SEAM MEAN WHEN I TEXT YOU IT’S JUST THE WAY I TALK SO SRY BOUT THAT!!!!

SammyGey (Owner) – Apr 22, 2020
I LIVE HOME WITH MY WHORE MOM YOU CAN TALK DIRTY ABOUT HER!!!!

Dick M, Uncut
Orientation Gay
Body Slim
Body hair None
Piercings No
Tattoos No
Smoking Yes
Speaks Thai, Japanese, English
Position Bottom only
Kissing Yes
FF No answer
S&M Soft
Dirty Yes
Oral Versatile
Rate per hour On request
Overnight On request

 

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KinkyTwinkWhore, 21
Barcelona

Fistfuck sub twink bottom with gaping hole. Hungry ass pig looking to get my ass worked over whit many cocks 🍆 🍆💦💦 and hands (you can double FF me -ready to go elbow deep & wreckedhole -) . Love 🅱️☣ & dirty 🐽😈. Make my ass a primordial soup.

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KinkyTwinkWhore (Owner) – May 6, 2020
I’ve decided to describe my most recent experience with a man called Chris Underground. This is the second time I have been with him. From the first time I knew only that with Chris Underground would I get paid very good, because that alone is a real gay neighborhood. The previous time he was patient as he opened me. This time it was another Chris Underground …

He entered my apartment and took off his thick woolen socks and started poking them into my mouth at dawn. And when I say socks I mean sweaty by the sobs as you squeeze the zoom from the homeless pedal. He pushed me to the door and ripped my jeans and started kicking and kicking my ass while trying to pee into the hole, which was impossible, because yes I am loose on the first lap but 24 hours past my last date and my ass mouth was closed again.

He tells me with a shouting voice we go into the porn bed! Chris Underground lay on the bed and stuffed his hand in MAN … Come on baby baby, eat the fisherman. You didn’t want this? He throws me face with a push and falls on me. He was trying to get his forearm in but it was difficult again. I shouted and pushed him. Let me just say it and catch my hands back, bring your fist to tear it down after you’ve eaten it all, that’s not what you want; to rip me ? I tremble and he kicks my ass and it stabs it with his arm all over…. YeahYes so fucking fucking now do you like it? He stays his arm inside until I get used to it, and then he starts fisting me fast and so deep I pass out to the unconscious … so your fucking momma tears you down.

After he woke me up (after fisting me for I don’t know for how long) he threw me 4 face slap then climbed on top of me – ruthlessly ripped my hole up and made me look like a bunch of wild boobs … Then he tells me to sit up now. I sat and began to fist myself with my back turned to him. I lay back down to take a break, but the hardest started there… .. Seized the opportunity and started shadowing me with a very fast fistfucking almost to his shoulder saying So do you like it now? does your ass burn pizzas?

No matter how much I wanted to hold on to it, I couldn’t stand it and started pouring cum without touching my dick … .. Did you burn dirt? Do you like it now that you have a elephant’s pussy? He comes over me, starts fucking me in the puddle of rubbish of my hole and throws me rivers of cum into the berry.

Believe it or not believe me, I made 2500 euros that night.

Dick M, Uncut
Orientation Gay
Body Slim
Body hair Shaved
Piercings No
Tattoos No
Smoking Yes
Speaks Spanish, English
Position Bottom only
Kissing Yes
FF Passive
S&M Yes
Dirty Yes
Oral Versatile
Rate per hour 300 €
Overnight On request

 

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THOR, 24
New York City

I’M DOING SEX NOT ONLY FOR MONYE I FELL HABY WHEN I DO THAT

I LOOK LIKE THOR I KNOW

Guestbook of THOR

mateos-20cm – Apr 24, 2020
I confirm, a lying goose

anonymous – Apr 23, 2020
An insane job

imcuteperiod – Apr 20, 2020
a monkey playing a violin

Dick L, Uncut
Orientation Bi
Body Muscular
Body hair Some
Piercings No
Tattoos No
Smoking No
Speaks English, Polish
Position Versatile
Kissing Yes
FF Versatile
S&M Soft
Dirty WS only
Oral Versatile
Rate per hour 250 $
Overnight 2000 $

 

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staygold, 24
Toledo

I don’t fancy men, but they fancy me, and I got laid off from my job thanks to the virus crap, so I need an income and this seems like my only option, and I don’t like it, but I didn’t like the job I got laid off from either.

Why I will not take my shirt off: In the past I had two major surgeries that have kept me from becoming paralyzed from my legs down. When I was about 7 years old, I was diagnosed with Scoliosis. For you that doesn’t know what Scoliosis is, it’s a spine condition where your spine curves when you grow instead of staying straight. This can become a hard problem for the lungs, breathing, and possibly paralyzation. To prevent this from happening they started me with braces to wear everyday to stop the curve instead of surgery. Soon enough, after 2 years, my spine had became a 50° curve which is the limit for surgery since the braces didn’t work. This surgery included placing to ladder titanium metal rods down my spine with 18 screws screwed in there. This way my back no longer curved or caused me any harm or difficulties. Last year in November, a piece broke from my titanium rod. So, I had to get a revision done to fix that. I am doing all better now thanks to hospitals and technology. But my back is very scarred and ugly, and you do not want to see it, trust me.

Also: Excessive computer use during quarantine has led to carpal tunnel in both of my wrists.

Guestbook of staygold

i_like_vibrators – May 4, 2020
He also has bladder control issues. I picked him up and was driving him to my place and he pissed on the floormat of my car, just whipped it out and let loose.

Dick L, Cut
Orientation Hetero
Body Athletic
Body hair Smooth
Piercings Yes
Tattoos Yes
Smoking Yes
Speaks English
Position More top
Kissing Consent
FF Active
S&M Soft
Dirty No
Oral Versatile
Rate per hour 75 $
Overnight 1000 $

 

 

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p.s. Hey. ** David Ehrenstein, Hi. I figured anyone who would look at this blog is already familiar with the Jeffrey Dahmer story and I was going for discoveries. As best I can recall, Ronald Popov is alive and I think, but don’t hold me to it, that he’s had facial reconstruction surgery. Everyone, Mr. Ehrenstein has newly topped off his legendary FaBlog with a thing called ‘Unmasked and Anonymous’. Go here. ** _Black_Acrylic, Hi, B. Thanks for the link. Everyone, Should you want to get ahold of a fine seeming item called Quarantine Zine Project that includes work by our very own Ben “_Black_Acrylic” Robinson, you can score a copy here. ** Bill, Hey. Yeah, Timothee Chalamet could play a couple of those cannibals in the movie versions, or he could play their victims at least, which would be quite meaty roles, ha ha. Yes, wrong time to suggest, but you really must come back to Paris once it has become the new version of what it used to be. The Criterion Channel isn’t available in Europe, which is an ongoing big drag. ** Dominik, Hi, Dominik!!! Yeah, I decided not to include the famous ones like Luka, rightly or wrongly. I always like making posts where it’s like entering the unknown in some way. Ha ha, impeccable tastes. That opinion crossed my mind as well, I will admit. I’m fine. Getting out. The be-masked Paris is starting to feel more normal. Talked to Gisele for the first time in more than a month, gonna see her. People are starting to want to interview me re: the Diarmuid Hester book, so I’ve started to field that. And the usual. Great about you feeling pumped! A great time to be pumped, obviously. I’m sorry that my post stole you from Jung, although there is some kind of relationship there, between cannibals and Jung maybe, no? How was your day? Walking home from the American/British store WH Smith with two boxes of Kraft Macaroni and Cheese love, Dennis. ** rewritedept, Well, hey there, Chris, good to see you! You are surely not alone in those lockdown expenditures. I assume you can preorder ‘Wrong’. It’s on Amazon, so … Well, if you remember, you know where I am. Take care. ** Jeff J, Hi. Female cannibals are relatively rare but not unheard of, although they’re almost always part of a male-female cannibal partnership from what I can tell. I haven’t seen ‘Caniba’ only because I don’t think I’ve had the chance. I’d like to, duh. If you watch it, give me your report. I saw ‘Beach Rats’. Mm, I felt like I was on its side, and the kids were mostly terrific, and her cinematographer is fantastic, but I ultimately didn’t buy it. I can’t remember precisely why. I think I thought it was too mediated by something I wasn’t interested in. I haven’t seen ‘It Felt Like Love’. Cool, bon day, bud. And thank you! ** Sypha, ‘Epic Mickey’ is a terrific game. Much more strange and interesting and artful than the word Disney would lead you to expect. And it looks great, beautifully designed. Recommended. ** Steve Erickson, Hey. Everyone, Here are your Steve Erickson trips offsite for today. (1) His review of Dan Sallitt’s FOURTEEN, and (2) a new song that he’s proud of. Cannibal fantasies are fairly common in the master/slave scene. Not as common as foot fetishists or ABDL or puppy play, mind you. And, interestingly, the pandemic seems to have turned a lot of those guys into either wannabe cannibals or wannabe meat. You’ll see at the end of the month. Yeah, from over here where people are just adjusting and being relatively chill, the chaos and insanity and fear going on in NYC and the US proper is quite astounding to watch. Scary shit. I count my lucky stars every day that I’m riding it out over here. ** Joseph, Hi. Oh, I don’t think laughing at the cannibal’s travails is weird, but I am, you know, me. It’s more interesting and fruitful to laugh than to, oh, vomit, for instance. Is ‘uje’ the correct way? I too have always wondered. And no matter what wordage I’ve ever tried to type to say that, including ‘uje’, the dreaded red underline that tells me I’m wrong always pops into existence. I did get out for some strolling and shopping, yeah. Like I said above, it’s starting to kind of weirdly normal. But Parisians are being very pragmatic about it, and the vibe is very, well, ‘c’est la vie’. How is your world around treating you at this very time? ** Misanthrope, Le Petit Show could probably keep y’all’s stomachs full for a good several days if it ever comes to that. Fingers crossed for everyone indeed! Well, almost everyone. ** h (and now j), Hi, h (and now j)! A true pleasure to see you! Yeah, a bit intense, that post. I guess I was in a strange mood the day I made it. I’m okay. Paris has reopened to a degree, which is very welcome. I’m so saddened and astonished to watch the insane, hellish coordination of the pandemic in the US. It’s par for the current government’s course but so deeply shocking. Take care! ** Corey Heiferman, Hi. You might have to go back pretty far in the centuries to find a time when those guys would be considered fine upstanding citizens, or else way, way out into the ultra-rural world maybe. I know about Rick Gibson, and I’m at a loss to explain why I didn’t remember and include him in the post. Good news, such as it is, about your dad’s chemo success. Ongoing magical vibes towards him/you/them. Your audio pieces were terrific. Are terrific. Curious to see the ones with found footage involved. I will go hear Netta Zak, thank you. Weekend? See Gisele for the first time in ages. Hopefully Zac will return to Paris from his quarantine outpost down south. See if any galleries are open. Try to find take-out Mexican food. Stuff like that there. How about yours? ** Okay. Mid-month = escorts, this time coping with/exploiting/etc. the lockdown situation in their own sometimes imaginative ways. See you tomorrow.

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you
masochist
hazy transactions
in the dark
an amateur
is all you are

to spend
most of your life
forgotten

to fit in nowhere
to be a permanent exile
to be ‘intensely ironic
and therefore
intensely difficult’
to wind up
in one of the dullest places
under heaven

to be as much monster
as victim

events and experiences
repeat themselves
split into selves
eyes overcast
on a shrouded sea
of regret

She’s perfect if you’re alone, disenfranchised, dislocated, devolving, displaced. Because she could write it clearly, she could transmit it down the wire. Her stories are pure melancholy, the beauty of pure pain. What you put yourself through. She wrote the beauty of the THUD, the reality drop of emptiness when you want to shroud it in a dream. If they had a taste, they really would be the darkest chocolate, verging on bitterness.

Anyone who knows her work knows how a Jean Rhys novel or story will end. There are no happy endings, ever. The heroine is defeated and fully aware of it before, during, and after. And she rarely fights back, or does it when it’s too late. She’s naive, or deliberately ignorant. She’s irreparably damaged, a horror.

I promised Dennis this Day more than a year ago. And every time I began it, I had to stop almost immediately afterward. It was never right. My point was, I wanted to compel people to read Rhys who’d never heard of her before. I could never do right by her work, it seemed. And I still haven’t, either. But I’d made a promise to finish this. I wanted to try, because I hate broken promises. They look shitty on everyone.

There are some fantastic studies of Rhys. I don’t want this piece to mimic them, although I’ve read them and they’ve helped to clarify some of my own unfinished bits. There’s also a good biography of her, and an incomplete autobiography. You can read them, if you find she catches hold of you.

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Rhys was very much like the heroines of her novels and stories, but to say that every story and novel that she wrote was completely autobiographical is inaccurate. What is true: She was a failed vaudevillian dancer and clothes model whose affairs and marriages all ended badly. She was the daughter of white Welsh colonialists, who grew up in Dominica and who endured reverse racial discrimination from the native Dominicans, who she’d hoped might embrace her more warmly than her own family did. She spent nearly all of her adult life barely scraping by. She was Ford Madox Ford’s lover, the third person in a twisted ménages a trois created between Ford and his common-law wife, the painter Stella Bowen. What is also true: All of these aspects of her life are either key features or plot lines in her work.

What is not completely true: She learned from her mistakes and her novels were a way of refining herself, protecting herself. She never really learned, and whether this was due to the fact that she knew better and didn’t care enough, or knew better but found her instincts too strong to avert disaster, is a matter of debate. But her novels were everything she herself wasn’t: precise and perfect.

Gone, and she was caught in this appalling muddle. Life was like that. Here you are, it said, and then immediately afterwards, Where are you? Her life, at any rate, had always been like that.

(Quartet, Chapter 12)

I found Rhys when I was 15, via a thick book inexplicably left on the shelf in my reading class. My teacher claimed to have no idea how it got there. Doubling as an English teacher and one of the school’s football coaches, he knew nothing of her work.

The book was a thick one, like a textbook. Paperback. Red and white lettering on its black spine: JEAN RHYS: THE COMPLETE NOVELS. I pulled it out of the shelf and stared at its cover, on which was the photograph “Lovers, Place d’Itale” by Brassai. I was mesmerized. I had never held in my hands anything like this book looked. I had no idea what was inside.

What that book contained was a style that was beautifully sophisticated and at the same time stripped of all pretension. It contained the ultimate outsider’s worldview. It embodied everything that meant being utterly alone and fucked. There were five novels hidden within its covers, and not one of them diverted from this course. I read each one slowly, and as I did a dark clarity slammed into me again and again. When I finished the last one, I wanted to know: Who was this person, that she could write like this? And what the fuck had she done to me? How did she know these things?

Diana Athill: “In the years when I knew Jean Rhys… she often spoke about how much she wanted to ‘get things right’: to be as true as possible in her writing to place, speech, mood, the taste and texture of experience, and to achieve this precision without… ‘any stunts’…. The stuntlessness of her style is its great beauty. She fell in love with words as a child, but she never used them rhetorically, to show them off. I have sometimes thought that the way she wrote resembled the way a cat moves. Her language does what it needs to do with an elegance and economy which is perfectly natural and easy… or rather, easy-seeming.

“You cannot get something right unless you have a thorough knowledge of it. Jean was a conscious and dedicated artist who wrote novels, not a woman displaying, or brooding over, her own experience in the form of autobiography, but she never denied that the material for her novels came from her own life…. She thought– or said– that she chose to use it because it was the only thing she knew well, but she was not really choosing, she was following her nature. She could not have done anything else, being a deeply self-absorbed person who was also honest.”

Rhys was born on the island of Dominica in 1890 as Ella Gwendolen Rees Williams. She studied drama at the Royal Academy in London and later flopped as a chorus girl. Abandoned, with no real family nearby to fall back on, she posed nude for an artist and was, in succession afterwards, a volunteer canteen worker and office clerk. She married a Dutch-French journalist in 1919 and wandered through Paris, Vienna, and London with him, until his arrest for bigamy and for selling foreign currency illegally. And that was when she met Ford Madox Ford, a well-known writer in his time, and began an affair with him, and also began to write. She went through three husbands in total, a lot of seedy boarding houses and hotel rooms and liquor bottles, and ended her days in the countryside in England, difficultly sweet and complicated until the last.

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Rhys is best known for Wide Sargasso Sea, a real masterpiece and prequel to Jane Eyre, which tells the story of the original madwoman-in-the-attic, Bertha Rochester, in her own words. In it, Rhys was able to use her own experience of the Caribbean to give this minor character, who in Austen’s hands amounted to nothing more than a device to divide her heroine from her object of affection, into a symbol of the irreparable damage of colonization. Feminists and scholars have high regard for the novel, and its publication swept Rhys out of obscurity and poverty. It was the last novel she ever wrote.

But I don’t want to dwell on WSS. Great as it is, it’s a culmination. The apex and the end. I want you to know about the other novels, the ones that languished in out-of-print status for decades, the ones that show just as much brilliance, the ones that were such a revelation to me at 15.

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You Think I Want More Than I Do: Voyage in the Dark –(Anna’s dream as nightmare)

Anna is a displaced girl from the Caribbean, practically alone in England and with lousy prospects, who falls into an affair with a proper young man who beds and abandons her. She’s the embodiment of inarticulation, an uprooted beauty who’s never been at home anywhere– not even at home, where she hated being white but couldn’t find a place among the Creoles, either.

Her impression of stepping onto England’s shores is the beginning of the novel, “…as if a curtain had fallen, hiding everything I had ever known. It was almost like being born again. The colours were different, the smells different, the feeling things gave you right down inside yourself was different. Not just the difference between heat, cold; light, darkness; purple, grey. But a difference in the way I was frightened and the way I was happy… I couldn’t get used to the cold.”

Anna’s feelings about England never really change; she never adapts. She never adapts to the codes and etiquette of affairs, nor to her status as a shabby little chorus girl who will eventually wind up on the abortionist’s table. She begins on shaky legs and ends with smashed kneecaps, stranded in a country where she imagines everything as artifice in a dream– the streets are all the same, a fire in the fireplace seems “painted”. And as the novel progresses, and she continues her fall, she finds herself longing for objects and things to fill a void and halt anger in her that she doesn’t truly sense, let alone understand; a really fine example of this is when her lover gives her a bracelet, and she imagines it as a knuckleduster.

When the lover disengages, and she sees the end of the relationship coming, she resists it. He’s full of reproach, trying to extricate himself from what he sees now as a distasteful girl who wants everything from him. And the only thing she can say, inadequately, is, “The thing is that you don’t understand. You think that I want more than I do….” Which doesn’t communicate what she wants or thinks or needs half well enough to persuade him to see her again.

The ending is a cynical slap, at the same time allowing Anna to keep her dream state via a lot of gin, legs spread for an abortion while the gloved doctor hovering above says, “You girls are too naive to live, aren’t you?”

Laurie laughed. I listened to them both laughing and their voices going up and down.
—-“She’ll be all right,” he said. “Ready to start all over again in no time, I’ve no doubt.”
—-When their voices stopped the ray of light came in again under the door like the last thrust of remembering before everything is blotted out. I lay and watched it and thought about starting all over again. And about being new and fresh. And about mornings, and misty days, when anything might happen. And about starting all over again, all over again….

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Genital Games = Self-Preservation: Quartet –(Marya as victim turned co-conspirator)

“You forced me to share you for months,” said Marya, “for months. Openly and ridiculously. You used your wife to torture me with.”
He answered coldly: “I don’t know what you mean.”
And she saw that it was true.

Originally called Postures, which brings to mind both the gymnastics of trying to maintain emotional control in public and sexual positions, this novel takes most of its form from Rhys’ nasty affair with Ford Madox Ford, under the nose of his wife, the painter Stella Bowen. The affair and friendships between them all ended badly, but Rhys was able to take the wreckage and create an incredibly, psychologically true and devastating piece of fiction:

After her husband’s arrest in Paris for shady dealings, Marya (her name means “bitter”) finds herself stranded with no money and very quickly falling apart. (A taxi driver even sees it at a glance, calling to her one evening, “Hey, little one. Is it for tonight the suicide?”) Acquaintances Hugh and Lois Heidler, artists of the Montparnasse set, offer her a place stay and friendship… which devolves nearly as quickly into a jealous menagés a trois as Lois complicitly orchestrates a seduction between her husband and their guest. As they use her and corrupt her for their enjoyment, Lois slowly begins to realize that Marya is no longer their toy; she willingly becomes a participant in not only the relationship but an emotionally jealous co-conspirator, which sets her dead against Lois.

Hugh Heidler is the first real masochistic lover in Rhys’ collection of characters: Absolutely a manipulator, a pervert disguised as a pillar of his social set, he creeps into Marya’s room and watches her sleep and at first lavishes attention on her, only to pull back the moment she drops her cold reserve and reciprocates. As her allegiance to her husband vanishes, Heidler sees it and turns hostile.

She collapsed on to the bed and lay there breathing loudly and quickly as if she had been running. He stood looking down at her…. Her head had dropped backwards over the edge of the bed and from that angle her face seemed strange to him: the cheekbones looked higher and more prominent, the nostrils wider, the lips thicker. A strange little Kalmuck face.
—-He whispered: “Open your eyes, savage. Open your eyes, savage.”
—-She opened her eyes and said: “I love you, I love you, I love you. Oh, please be nice to me. Oh, please, say something nice to me. I love you.” She was quivering and abject in his arms, like some unfortunate dog abasing itself before its master.

Heidler was saying in a low voice: “I have a horror of you. When I think of you I feel sick.”

Quartet has some kind of emotional distance between its characters. Coldness pervades it and grows with each page. And along with it, there’s this central character who willingly goes to the gallows with hardly any protest. Marya is full of rage, dependency, and trauma. Her lips are constantly trembling and the only thing that seems to traumatize her more than the Heidlers is the awareness that she could easily be left behind in some shitty, dusty-smelling hotel room or boarding house, left to rot now that her corruption’s been completed. What’s especially stomach-turning is how, when you’re permitted a glimpse of Marya’s unchecked thoughts, she’s only thinking of how lost she was before Heidler. And how “happy” she is with him, “without thought for perhaps the first time in her life. No past. No future. Nothing but the present….”

There are lots of novelists who’ve written about how sick we can be in love, lust, and debasement. But Rhys captures it so well, and she did it long before any of the postmodernist renditions.

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p.s. Hey. ** Golnoosh, Hi, Golnoosh! It’s so very nice to see you here. Thank you so very much! I enjoyed your first podcast. Take care. ** Dominik, Hi, D!!! The book Jeff mentioned is the same book that you mentioned. The TV project is a confusing mess. There remains an extremely remote possibility that the TV series could still happen, but only if our producers can find another production company to co-produce the series and if a new writer is brought in to normalise the script with Zac and me as ‘advisors’. That’s what Gisele wants to try to do, and Zac and I have no say in that. If that fails, Gisele wants to try to turn the script into a feature film. I remain very skeptical that that will happen. So, so as not to have wasted five years for nothing, and because I think there’s a lot of really good things in the script, Zac and I are going to try to turn it into a readable text or fiction, which may not work, but that’s the current idea/hope. I haven’t told Gisele we’re doing that yet, but, if it seems like it’ll work, I will. Your weekend sounds pretty A-okay. Very best of luck with the session today if you need it. Yeah, Paris reopened kind of. You know, it is strange out,  but it’s really, really nice to see people everywhere again, and to have most stores reopened, and to hear the sounds of life everywhere, so it was kind of exhilarating, but ominous too since more people means more risk. But I walked all over, enjoying the return of Paris for real, and it was, yeah, quite nice. Ha. Nerdy kid so high on bud he turns his baseball cap backwards even though it makes him look even nerdier love, Dennis ** David Ehrenstein, Hi. Strand seems to be Christophe’s go-to distributor over there. Makes sense. He just made this tiny 50 second long film about my novel ‘Closer’ in quarantine for a big French mag/site Les Inrokuptibles. I’ll link to it once it’s up. I’m being cautious. 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