‘Internationally lauded “explosives artist” Cai Guo-Qiang has already amassed some stunning stats: He may be the only artist in human history who has had some one billion people gaze simultaneously at one of his artworks. You read that right, one billion. I’m talking about the worldwide televised “fireworks sculpture” that Cai Guo-Qiang—China-born, living in America now—created for the opening of the Beijing Olympics in 2008. If you’re one of the few earthlings who hasn’t seen it, either live or online, here’s Cai’s description: “The explosion event consisted of a series of 29 giant footprint fireworks, one for each Olympiad, over the Beijing skyline, leading to the National Olympic Stadium. The 29 footprints were fired in succession, traveling a total distance of 15 kilometers, or 9.3 miles, within a period of 63 seconds.”
‘But a mere billion pairs of eyes is not enough for Cai’s ambition. He’s seeking additional viewers for his works, some of whom may have more than two eyes. I’m speaking of the aliens, the extraterrestrials that Cai tells me are the real target audience for his most monumental explosive works. Huge flaming earth sculptures like Project to Extend the Great Wall of China by 10,000 Meters, in which Cai detonated a spectacular six-mile train of explosives, a fiery elongation of the Ming dynasty’s most famous work. Meant to be seen from space: He wants to open “a dialogue with the universe,” he says. Or his blazing “crop circle” in Germany, modeled on those supposed extraterrestrial “signs” carved in wheat fields—a project that called for 90 kilograms of gunpowder, 1,300 meters of fuses, one seismograph, an electroencephalograph and an electrocardiograph. The two medical devices were there to measure Cai’s physiological and mental reactions as he stood in the center of the explosions, to symbolize, he told me, that the echoes of the birth of the universe can still be felt in every molecule of every human cell.
‘As a youth, he says, “I was unconsciously exposed to the ties between fireworks and the fate of humans, from the Chinese practice of setting off firecrackers at a birth, a death, a wedding.” He sensed something in the fusion of matter and energy, perhaps a metaphor for mind and matter, humans and the universe, at the white-hot heart of an explosion. By the time of the political explosion of Tiananmen Square in 1989, Cai had left China and was in Japan, where “I discovered Western physics and astrophysics.” And Hiroshima.
‘The revelation to him about Western physics, especially the subatomic and the cosmological Big Bang levels, was that it was somehow familiar. “My Taoist upbringing in China was very influential, but not until I got to Japan did I realize all these new developments in physics were quite close to Chinese Qi Gong cosmology. The new knowledge of astrophysics opened a window for me,” he says. The window between the mystical, metaphorical, metaphysical concepts of Taoism—the infinity of mind within us and that of the physical universe whose seemingly infinite dimensions outside us were being mapped by astrophysicists. For example, he says, “The theory of yin and yang is paralleled in modern astrophysics as matter and antimatter, and, in electromagnetism, the plus and minus.”
‘Maybe there’s the sly wink of a showman behind these interspatial aspirations, but Cai seems to me to be distinctive among the current crop of international art stars in producing projects that aren’t about irony, or being ironic about irony, or being ironic about art about irony. He really wants to paint the heavens like Michelangelo painted the Sistine Chapel ceiling. Only with gunpowder and flame.’ — The Smithsonian
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Further
Cai Guo-Qiang Website
Video: Cail Guo-Qiang @ PBS
‘Why Cai Guo-Qiang Is Good For China And Bad For Art’
‘Meet the Artist Who Blows Things Up for a Living’
Cai Guo-Qiang Studio Blog
Cai Guo-Qiang @ Facebook
‘Contextualizing Cai Guo-Qiang’
‘Cai Guo-Qiang Explodes Onto Soho Real Estate Scene’
‘Playing with fire’
‘Cai Guo-Qiang, Move Along, Nothing to See Here’
‘An Encounter With Cai Guo-Qiang, The World’s Foremost Explosion Artist’
‘Gunpowder Plots’
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Extras
Cai Guo-Qiang Explosion Work
‘Body Scan’: 2013 Cai Guo-Qiang Interview
Cai Guo-Qiang at Guggenheim Museum New York
cai guo-qiang with wu yulu: robot imitating damien hirst
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Interview
from Cool Blog English
Where do you find themes for your works?
Cai Guo-Qiang: After the 9/11 attack in New York, my themes and works has been quite diverse. For example, I made the rainbow of fireworks above the East River and expressed the colorfulness of the city. I also made the black rainbow under the daylight, whose theme was to express the dismay of the modern society. The pieces with cars inspired me to produce pieces about terrorist attacks.
You have works which have concepts of Feng Shui. Do you arrange your studio according to Feng Shui?
Cai Guo-Qiang: Absolutely. Feng Shui is the first priotiry when choosing studios. Even after choosing the studio, I rely on Feng Shui where to place Buddha and other stuff. I placed the Lion Rock between doors. I have many female staffs, and when they complained that they were too busy with work to date, I placed some stuff that would bring opportunities to meet great matches. I also made a Japanese-style garden in the studio. At exhibitions at local towns, Feng Shui represents the energies of the culture, people’s history, and space of the town. The life energy “Qi” is an invisible energy. I develop ideas and work on my pieces, taking that energy highly into consideration. I don’t always express like “This is Feng Shui” in my works directly, but when I am working, I am conscious of Feng Shui in an invisible way, like aesthetically.
Upon the production of your works in which you use gunpowder, you invented the technique to control the altitude of explosions of fireworks by putting microchips into firework balls. How did the invention affect your work after adopting microchips?
Cai Guo-Qiang: First, it had been said that using gunpowder was dangerous. Until I started developing the technique of built-in microchips around 2001, all the fireworks were exploded by fuse and the timing of explosions were calculated by the length of fuse. Since fuse was made by hand, it was very difficult to fix the shape and order of explosions of fireworks. But if you use fireworks with built-in microchips, the altitudes and timing of explosions are already calculated.For instance, it is like 2000 people who have tickets get seated exactly in their right seats. I can control the altitude and timing of the explosions of 2000 fireworks. However, there are a good thing and a bad thing about introducing microchips. The good thing is that now I can use the sky as canvas. The bad thing is that they are expensive. I feel pressured in many aspects because huge amount of money is spent on few dozens of seconds of art. That is, promoters try to gather many people to see that expensive piece of art by using the media. The pressure gets even more intense when thousands of people come to see the few dozen seconds of art. That kind of pressure is basically nothing to do with arts, though. Now that I can collect funds and attract people for my work, but I still feel apprehensive if that something in the sky was an art and that the piece was really an artistic piece.
When do you feel the excitement while working?
Cai Guo-Qiang: All the time. I always joke that making pieces is the same thing as having sex (laughs). Even when you fail, you can’t start over again. Each time is the last time, and you never know if it will end up good or bad if you don’t try. But when I finish working, all I feel is a joy. No matter good or bad. I always feel delighted and happy after completing my works.
What is an art for you?
Cai Guo-Qiang: An art is what I do. Through the artistic eyes, everything in the world, from election campaigns of politicians or constructions on the streets, can look as arts.
If you were not an artist, what do you think you would be doing?
Cai Guo-Qiang: I can’t imagine. I can’t see myself being anything but an artist. Sometimes I myself think that I am good at making artistic pieces, but I am not that good at anything else.
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Mystery Circle, MOCA Los Angeles, 2012
‘Wait — he’s shooting the fireworks at us? That was the general worry Saturday night as Chinese artist Cai Guo-Qiang readied his explosion show outside the Geffen Contemporary at MOCA. After all, fireworks should go up, vertical, away from people — not toward them. But Cai didn’t get his reputation as a world-renowned pyro-wiz by doing what’s expected. “Mystery Circle,” Saturday’s event, would be no exception. Around 7:40 p.m., the sky rapidly darkening, the two-minute warning was given, then it was one minute, 30 seconds, 10 seconds, a spirited countdown — and boom. Some 40,000 rockets, arranged on the northern wall of the Geffen Contemporary in a crop circle-like pattern, exploded outward in a massive display of light, heat and sound.’ — LA Times
City of Flowers in the Sky, Florence, 2018
‘Cai Guo-Qiang brought his daytime firework display to Florence this weekend as he launched 50,000 fireworks over the historic Italian city. Shrouding this scenic corner of Tuscany in colorful smoke, Cai’s 10-minute long work was entitled ‘City of Flowers in the Sky’ and was comprised of seven separate movements: “Thunder,” “God of the West Wind and Goddess of the Land”, “The Birth of Flora”, “Venus”, “Three Graces”, “Spiritual Garden” and “Red Lily”.’ — RADII
Black Ceremony, Hiroshima, 2008
‘The City of Hiroshima has selected the winner of the 7th Hiroshima Art Prize, contemporary artist Mr. Cai Guo-Qiang (born 1957 in Fujian Province, China, currently resident in New York). Cai Guo-Qiang has created a great number of pieces that are not only based on a unique vision of the universe rooted in traditional Chinese culture and thought but his art offers a penetrating view of human history and civilization. In his outdoor project in Hiroshima, both a celebration of the rebirth of Hiroshima and a requiem, Cai was able to use his personal methodology of using gunpowder to raise questions regarding not only the historical significance of Hiroshima but also the physical phenomenon of the A-bomb.’ — city.hiroshima.jp
Tornado, Washington, D.C., 2005
‘Washington will be treated to a state-of-the-art pyrotechnics event along the Potomac River, created exclusively for the opening of the festival by artist Cai Guoqiang, who has stunned onlookers from New York to Shanghai. Called an “Explosion Event” by the artist, his spectacular display will incorporate beautifully choreographed traditional fireworks, basic primordial gunpowder and fuse, and high-tech computer-chip embedded firework shells to ignite dancing boats, floating kites, and flying fire dragons–as well as an awesome tornado spiraling across and punctuating the sky.’ — china.org
Black Ceremony, Qatar, 2011
‘At the Arab Museum of Modern Art in Doha, Qatar this week, Chinese artist Cai Guo-Qiang put on his largest “explosion event” of the last three years, utilizing microchip-controlled explosives to form incredible designs and patterns. The video we’ve embedded of the event is an impressive testament to how a volatile black powder explosion can be controlled and shaped by computer.mEach set of explosions was calculated to paint a different picture. One series of explosions created black smoke clouds that looked like “drops of ink splattered across the sky.” In another, 8,300 shells embedded with computer microchips exploded in a pyramid shape over the desert.’ — Nate Mook
Black Christmas Tree, Washington, D.C., 2012
‘Just in time for Christmas, Cai Guo-Qiang has brought his pyrotechnics skills back to America. Commissioned by the Arthur M. Sackler Gallery at the Smithsonian in Washington DC, the renowned Chinese contemporary artist executed three separate explosions in a performance entitled Black Christmas Tree described as acupuncture treatment for arts in the city. Surprisingly, the tree is still alive post-detonation and will be re-planted elsewhere.’ — Arrested Motion
Simulated Demolition, Taiwan, 1998
‘A simulated demolition by fire of the Taichung (Taiwan) National Gallery of fie Arts (1980), as it reopens in modernist carapace in 1998. The incendiation seems meant to be a celebration of the re-architecturing and change in focus of exhibitions: Destruction” opening the way for “Construction”.’ — asianimperialisms.com
Fallen Blossoms, Philadelphia, 2009
‘Fallen Blossoms consists of a poetic meditation on the passing of time, memory, and memorializing. One of the artist’s signature “explosion events,” Fallen Blossoms: Explosion Project was specifically commissioned for the exhibition and occurred at the Philadelphia Museum of Art; followed by a second explosion event at the Fabric Workshop and Museum. It took place at sunset on Friday, December 11 on the East Terrace of the Philadelphia Museum of Art, where a blossoming flower shaped from gunpowder fuse was ignited.’ — dissidents.com
Black Rainbow, Valencia, 2005
‘Cai Guo-Qiang conceived Black Rainbow: Explosion Project for Valencia as part of a series of salutes that will take place in cities across the world (Black Rainbows are also scheduled for Edinburgh and Beijing). Black Rainbow is unique as a project sited in multiple venues. The repetition of Black Rainbow in the international community is intended as a series of omens of widespread unease. While signaling alarm like ancient smoke signals, the ominous arc of smoke in Black Rainbow also serves as a somber and dreamlike salute and reminds us, despite our contemporary associations with explosive materials and warfare, that violence and its signifiers can possess ethereal and profound beauty.’ — Culturebot
New Years Fireworks, Taipei, 2011
‘2011 was a special celebration for Taipei, the new year saw in the Centennial of the Republic of China’s (Taiwan) founding in 1911, and to celebrate, China’s Cai Gui-Qiang was commissioned to choreograph a special fireworks display. The superstar artist who’s has previously worked on displays for the Beijing Olympics and World Expo Shanghai’s, and fireworks are very much of the artists method of work, in his iconic ‘Gunpowder Paintings’.’ — slamxhype.com
Explosion Event, Copenhagen, 2012
‘For Faurschou Foundation’s inaugural exhibition, Cai Guo-Qiang has referenced the foundation’s new location in the Free Port of Copenhagen, as well as the country’s historical and cultural connection to the sea. On the day of the opening, Cai ignited thousands of mini rockets from a small traditional Danish boat ‘Freja’ on the water behind the foundation, in front of an enthusiastic crowd from all over Denmark and beyond. The scorch marks from the explosion transformed the boat into a three-dimensional gunpowder drawing, and this sculpture subsequently becomes a part of the exhibition.’ — faurschou.com
Elegy, Shanghai, 2014
‘Cai’s work in front of the Power Station of Art in Shanghai, China is eight minutes of colors filling the sky, in a ritualistically sincere elucidation of the ‘death of nature’. The show personifies the natural world with remembrance, looking back on the past and the transitory nature of time through a display of colorful smoke. The smoke fades away until nothing is left, no reminiscence of the beauty that once was, just like everything that exists in nature. The police asked the artist not to publicize the event to prevent traffic problems. The fireworks left many people clueless, thinking that the massive, yellow and black-and-green clouds were the toxic results of a serious accident. Aware of recent, non-artistic explosions (factory in Jiangsu3, gas pipes in Kaohsiung4, both in 2014), widely publicized in the Chinese media, concerned locals started calling the police.’ — Public Delivery
When the Sky Blooms with Sakura, Fukushima, 2023
‘Cai Guo-Qiang recently illuminated the Japanese skies with a display of daytime fireworks, illuminating the Iwaki coastline in Fukushima. Commissioned by Saint Laurent, this mesmerising tribute paid homage to the lives lost in various tragedies, including the devastating 2011 Great East Japan Earthquake and the relentless three-year-long Coronavirus pandemic, which claimed the lives of millions worldwide. With meticulous precision, the artwork, that spanned an astonishing 400 metres, unfolded in three visually captivating sequences, unfolding an orchestra of smoky shapes that were both explosively captivating and profoundly poetic. Each explosion was artfully arranged to form intricate compositions, such as a dozen white chrysanthemums and blue waves symbolising the relentless force of a tsunami.’ — Molten Art
The Last Carnival, Paris, 2025
‘On September 22, 2025, Centre Pompidou closed the doors of its iconic building for a five-year major renovation. To usher in this new chapter, Centre Pompidou marked the occasion with an extraordinary daytime fireworks performance on October 22, conceived by artist Cai Guo-Qiang in collaboration with his custom AI model, cAI™. For the first time in its history, the Centre Pompidou’s façade became a monumental painting. Cai delivered his most profound and complex work yet, in dialogue with both AI and the Parisian public. Far from a nostalgic farewell, The Last Carnival unfolded in three explosive acts—The Banquet, The Dawn of AI, and The Last Carnival—transforming the Pompidou’s closure into a detonation toward the future.’ — CP
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p.s. Hey. ** _Black_Acrylic, Yeah, I have lots of coloured vinyl that sounds as good as any other. But every picture disc I own gives the recordings of Thomas Edison’s experiments a run for their money. ** Laura, He sounded gruff and bark-y in my experience. How did the someone’s mouth run, or, obviously, how runny did you make it? ** Carsten, Hey. Thanks for helping darby. James Bennett doesn’t comment here daily, and I’m not sure what his reading habits are. Next time he’s here you can ask him in a comment reply. Sure, everyone has a particular hunger that they want art to satiate. I have lots of friends who are only into paintings whereas it’s rare that I look at a painting and don’t think, ‘Why do people keep making these?’ ** Steve, Today, good, I’ll get my checklist together and hit bandcamp. Luck on finishing the track, although I suppose you’ve either succeeded or not by now. Everyone, Steve has reviewed the film ‘Pillion’ right here. Sade is kind of peculiarly romantic. Picture discs are still rampant. Check the current Record Store Day offerings. I have heard parents say their kids have grown up too fast. In fact, I think my mom did. ** HaRpEr //, Awesome: your wisdom sharing with darby. You said something on TV! I wonder if that show is streaming outside the UK. I’ll check. But don’t worry, I think you’re the coolest, guaranteed. Totally get it: I literally have a hard time looking at myself in a mirror even. I mostly glance and duck. Somewhere I have what I think was the very first popularly issued pop/rock music picture disc. It was by this band called Curved Air. It sounded more like a fireplace than music, if I recall. I’ll have to ask my pals what their problem was with Part 2. I don’t think they disliked it. I vaguely remember them saying it was more literal or something than Part 1 and that they were sort of disappointed by that? ** kenley, Ditto. Oh, nice, that Belmore piece. I even like how hard it is to figure out in that video. Thank you. I’ve been to Vancouver, but not for, wow, decades. I liked it. I wish I knew a place there that we could screen the film because then I would have a formal reason to go back. I will make it a point to remember and share any new as-am lit I read and get on board with. I feel like there must be some prime things out there just by the law of averages. Wait, Tony Tulathimutte’s ‘Rejection’ was pretty fun. Paris would turn your alley into a promenade, I swear. ** darbz (⊙ 0⊙ ), Hi! First, both Harper and Carsten had Horus information and wisdom for you in yesterday’s commenting arena if you didn’t see them. The French magazine is print only, I think, but maybe I can scan it or something? Yeah, my head is way back inside the script, it feels really good. French pastry … they’re super basic, but you usually can’t go wrong with an old fashioned Choux à la crème or cream puff as we Americans call it. ** Okay. One of the many things I’m a wanna aficionado of is fireworks, and Cai Guo-Qiang is easily one of that medium’s masters, and I’m putting his works in your face today. See you tomorrow.
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I like Cai’s work, though I share the reservations in that Forbes article.
There’s a little local bakery Choux a few blocks from my house that makes excellent choux and financiers. Even my Paris visitors approve.
I thought there was a lot of funny and clever stuff in Tulathimutte’s Rejection. But I was a bit uncomfortable that an author with a young and attractive profile pic seemed to spend so much time making (often unkind) fun of characters who were unhappy mostly because they couldn’t get laid, despite being reasonable folks.
Bill
Here in England we have this ritual every Bonfire Night where we burn an effigy of Guy Fawkes, the guy who attempted to blow up the Houses of Parliament back in 1605. Turns out we’re celebrating the murder of a Catholic freedom fighter by the UK Establishment, so the whole thing has not really aged that well. Oh dear! Still, we do get to gather round and eat toffee apples so that is a bonus.
Hey Dennis,
Great post! I didn’t know such control could be exercised over fireworks… that’s pretty amazing. Did you see that Pompidou one live? Last night Adem and I went to Will Cox’s London launch event for the anthology he edited. A fun evening and definitely stepped my Paris excitement up a notch.
I’ve started reading “Tender is the Night.” Any thoughts on Mr. F. Scott? I’m liking it so far. Tender would be a good word to describe the book itself I think. It also contains some philosophical-sexual-economic observations that made me think of Deleuze. My copy has this introductory essay about capitalism and incest which I’ve heard great things about, but I’m saving it for when I’ve finished the book.
Are you still hard at work on the new script? Any weekend plans?
See ya
xo J
@Carsten Hi Carsten. Congrats on your chapbook! Very exciting that you’re having a launch in Paris too. Do you live there? My launch for Adem’s pamphlet is probably going to happen some time in mid to late May. I’m not sure about a joint launch for books from two different publishers. It’s not something I’d ever considered. However, why don’t you email me some information about your book and the kind of launch you envision and we can consider it in more detail? It’s info at ssnakepress dot com
Thanks
James
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Oh ya know I think trader joes sells those Cream Puffs, Imma get some, thank you for the recommendation they are yummy. Going to a show with a lot of good local rock bands tonight where this local community is serving coffee for a charity organisation, and the ticket proceeds go to a shark conservation.
Oh wow, today I saw something about submission for the SCAB magazine on my feed and it sounded familiar, and I was like “oh yeah” You know, there is this piece form my book that, for a very long time, I considered slicing out and submitted to a magazine, because it works as its own piece. Although, its a very, weird? Part in term of its subject and theme, its also explained graphically so I was having some trouble there having some idea where to submit but now that I saw that I might consider it. Recently emerged idea.
Have a good weekend : ))
Hey @Carsten so first and foremost, soo very sorry for missing your message yesterday, was a very rapid day!
OH my, I would actually very much appreciate you sending that PDF
my email is darbyvasquez950@gmail.com
if u want to do it that way
thank you! MY library doesn’t have much specific kemetism practice work, and the internet can easily overwhelm me from intentions so i appreciate a reliable source of wisdom!
@Harper, same 4 u as I said to Carsten above! I really appreciate your sacrifice in sharing so shrouded a book of value, I will definitly put forth a blessing for you! I have a friend really into Aleister Crowley, they might have that book! Crowley seems to have fruitful ideas i’ll look into!!!
evening, Dennis!
Cai Guo-Qiang is v great, i have no patience for side-eyeing the guy lol. and he came to my hometown, i reckon bc we’re big into pyrotechnics tho we could def use a bunch of experimental impetus a propos of. sadly i was out of the country when he did Black Rainbow, but i’m not critically bummed out i missed it bc the terror attack stuff is easily my least fav part of his work. as per this post, i would have wailed if he’d done #12, #17 or #19 right there at my doorstep and i’d been elsewhere lol. bruh is just like busting at the cosmos, so gorgeous.
how’s the script! is it v fun atm? ^_^
my character ran his mouth way too runny lol, not all the way but def enough to get folks on to him. 🙂 like, he was having sex w someone who enjoys a spot of gossip in the thick and is casually p apt at getting ppl talking and then forgetting. so when she was all ‘tell me a secret’ he blabbled out smth along the lines of ‘Theo Crosse tasted like my come and his own bile and was more still than the world,’ or smth else as yet unedited lol.
ofc ppl in their town know that guy and the fact smth p secret and weird happened to him when he was like 12, so now they’ll go digging some, think they’ve bumped into smth metaphysically huge, be red herringed or not etc. think i could technically call the book an apocalyptic fantasy, but that’s mostly a device serving some existentialist streak maybe, so it doesn’t really matter. just an Achilles and his heel thing lol =)
think i just read you say you barely look in the mirror? why would that be, if i were you i’d luxuriate or whatever. i need to check myself in the mirror relatively often bc i’ve got this p unstable mental picture of what i look like, if i conjure up it quiquly degrades into smth funhouse-ish so i need the reminders lol.
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@darbz (⊙ 0⊙ ): Just sent you that email. Let me know if the attachment goes through, cause the PDF’s quite large.
@James Bennett: Oh I don’t have a launch yet, I’m just trying to figure out how to set one up. I’ll email you in a little bit.
@DC: Very pretty fireworks, no question, but that has got to be the most environmentally damaging artwork in the world, no?
The most beautiful firework art I’ve ever seen is the finale of Bruce Conner’s “Looking for Mushrooms”. The rhythm there, the superimpositions, the colors, Terry Riley’s score… there’s nothing like it.
Re. our talk of Tarantino & the Vista the other day: Kristen Stewart just bought the Highland Theater in my old hood (Highland Park) & plans to resurrect it. That thrills me, because it was my old neighborhood theater & because I love Stewart & trust that with her it’s in good hands. That woman’s got spirit.
Your reaction to, as you say, most paintings is hilarious. I still dig paintings. Again, exposure. A trip to MoMA in NY as a kid was major for me: staring at those giant Picassos & Pollocks… But it takes a lot for a painting to impress me these days. Tribal art on the other hand… recently I walked into some new friends’ house & couldn’t step away from the assortment of African masks hanging in their hallway. They wanted to move to the couch like civilized people but I was stuck & mesmerized, haha
@Carsten Bruce Conner’s Mushroom situation is by far the best, hard agree
@darbz: Glad I could be of any small help. Crowley is worth the read. Whether he was an attention-seeking hack or not, he’s pretty interesting and knew his shit to a certain degree and his prose can be pretty invigorating at times. I got sort of obsessed last year. It might be embarrassing but I do think I identify with that stuff leagues more than any other religion on the planet.
@ DC: I’ll see if I can screen record the part where I speak and just share it with you. It’s available on this thing in the uk called iplayer which you don’t need to sign into but it may shut you out due to your location.
I still haven’t plucked up the courage to watch it back yet. Unfortunately, what happened last night was one of those moments where I remember that I live in a sort of bubble surrounded by a lot of people with open minds and that tons of people that you pass on the street have been brainwashed to hate people like you. It was one of those unfortunate moments that I remembered that I’m trans and to a lot of people that’s all I am.
I was seated between a group of people who were muttering about how they seemed to like the fascist reform guy and they and several others gave me some dirty looks and seemed sort of stunned by my presence. I remembered ‘oh yeah, some people actually believe this shit’. One guy sitting next to me was very creepy and kept asking me these vaguely sexual questions which was very uncomfortable because I was worried he was going to follow me out of the building or something. He kept wanting to know where I lived as well.
I was actually just thinking the other day about the time when I was about 12 and someone brought some fun snaps/whipper snappers/indoor fireworks in and we decided to throw them all at this boy who was bullying us. We got suspended for a week since the (completely unharmed) little shit was a tattle tale. Our head of year kept telling us that we were using ‘category one’ fireworks and should actually go to prison. Yeah right. I had a good week. Lots of daytime tv. I was also relentlessly bullied all throughout school so I don’t feel guilty.
@HaRpEr girl no! they actually sat you next to a perv? i’m so fucking sorry, it’s wherever he lives that should be interesting, the fucker.
hi dennis!
im a van fangirl haha, altho thats probs very coloured by my not living there and dealing w their crazy cost of living. im just a west coast girl at heart i guessssss
hrmm….if i remember correctly, theres this place called the cinematheque? i saw this really cool indonesian film called monisme there when i was in van last. might be good idk?
ouu! ive been meaning to read tualathimutte!!!!! i will put him on my list after…the 1 million things im poking in and out of for editing inspo hahahaha. but fr i will read it!!!