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Roommates of the Florida teen who allegedly bludgeoned a 36-year-old man to death last week say the suspect was a Satanic male escort after an $800 debt.
Dillon O’Donnell, 18, was charged with first-degree murder Saturday in the death of William “Billy” Davis III, whose body was found in a pool of blood outside his home in Ormond Beach, Fla.
Dillon O’Donnell playing an online game.
On Monday, O’Donnell’s housemates told The Daytona Beach News-Journal newspaper that the teen had recently started working as a male escort and that Davis, who worked at a nearby Publix, was his second client. The friends said O’Donnell told them Davis was his “sugar daddy” and owed him $800.
The roommates, both brothers, had been sharing a house with O’Donnell for seven months. They said the teen routinely participated in devil-worshipping rituals and sometimes wore red and white contact lenses. They said he spray-painted the number 666 on the walls and on the side of the house. They also said they saw him waving a knife around the night before the murder.
Mr Davis, pictured, was O’Donnell’s second client who the teenager saw as a ‘sugar daddy’.
“He told me and my brother what he was going to do (kill Davis), but we thought he was kidding,” Richard DeForest, 21, told the News-Journal. “He was satanic so we thought it had something to do with that.”
After exchanging several text messages, O’Donnell and Davis made plans to hang out Thursday night. Davis reportedly picked O’Donnell up and brought him back to his house. An arrest report released Monday shows that early Friday morning, O’Donnell beat Davis with a concrete lawn lion before stabbing him several times with a folding knife.
In the yard at the end of a bloody trail, the ornament, a lion, was found drenched in blood.
The report also shows that investigators found O’Donnell’s picture on a dating app Davis had on his cell phone. The roommates said they think O’Donnell and Davis met and communicated via gay websites.
In the days before the murder, Mr Davis and O’Donnell had been texting each other, police said. The texting was initiated by Mr Davis, who at 10am on Thursday, asked O’Donnell if he could see him that evening. At around 10pm that night Mr Davis picked O’Donnell up from his home and took him back to his house.
Dillon O’Donnell’s escort profile photo.
Sometime early Friday, Davis’ aunt Shirley Davis noticed a man was trying to hard in the side yard of the property and called the police.
According to police, O’Donnell returned home after the murder. DeForest and his brother said they saw O’Donnell in his bedroom, wiping blood off his naked body. “When we saw him we didn’t even ask why he had blood on his arms,” DeForest told the newspaper. “I thought it was that devil-worship stuff.”
The scene of the crime.
In court, O’Donnell testified that he and Davis were new friends. They met on a dating app called Grinder. O’Donnell said he never wanted to hurt Davis and that Davis attacked him first after an argument about unwanted sexual advances. He said he was leaving when Davis pushed him down the stairs.
That’s when O’Donnell said he stabbed Davis with a knife. “He kept hitting me on my stomach, on the back of my head. I managed to cover up my face like I always do when I’m in any type of fight.” he said. “I’m sure he stumbled back and hit his head, and I was trying to defend myself.”
Dillon O’Donnell shown just after being sentence to life in prison.
Prosecutor Ed Davis said during his opening statement that a forensic exam of O’Donnell’s phone showed he had researched how to quickly stab someone to death. While Davis was stabbed, the prosecutor said it was the blow to the head from a 50-pound lion statue that killed him.
In 2014, the then 20 year old Dillon O’Donnell was sentenced to life imprisonment. A jury took an hour Thursday to find O’Donnell, 20, guilty of first-degree murder in the slaying of Davis, 38. Circuit Judge Margaret Hudson then sentenced O’Donnell to life in prison.
Video: Details Emerge In Ormond Beach Homicide
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Comments
SIlkxxx -Apr. 19, 2012 at 5:36pm
Dillon Is bisexual, But he WAS NOT! a satanist! He was an extremely close friend of mine and my ex boyfriend. No one saw him doing this coming. Hes was quiet, yet very sweet and out going. You needed help he was there for you. He always had a gold cross on around his neck and spoke of getting a cross tattoo on his arm. He was very caring but his new roommate ended up somehow getting him of the wrong path. And someones sexuality shouldn’t have a matter in anything. I myself, I am bisexual and there should be nothing wrong with that. We gays are more caring and opened minded then any of you could dream you were. And someones religion shouldn’t have anything to do with a thing as well because in some way or form it all leads back to having faith there’s a god out there. Also i myself never heard anything about him being a male escort. If anything He did it on his own and didn’t go through a company! The media also twisted Richards (roommates) words. The house in witch Dillon lived in is just a whole bunch of young kids. They like to play pranks and have a lot of fake blood in the house so that’s why the roommate didn’t care when they saw blood on Dillon. And considering he’s a teenager he was in there teenage eyes thought oh maybe he’s taking some weird facebook picture. Never believe all of what you hear and half of what you see. Be more open-,minded. He was a great kid that in the last 2 months was turned down a dark road that ended quickly with him do this.
SLOWBIDEN -Apr. 18, 2012 at 9:12am
Totally offended that this newspaper put this in the faith section.
JT Brooklyn, Apr 16, 2012
The YOUNG ain’t always Pretty on the inside! 😉
hogorina -Apr. 12, 2012 at 4:10pm
“MODERATION OF A GENUINE DEMOCRAT
I live in a redone school bus, as a share cropper with eight children. Education from TV commercials. Wife is ex-pole dancer. Her father was a former dirt farmer. Both of us are Democrats. L.B. Johnson is our alter ego. Our ancestors came to America with hats in hands. We are born again mental slaves and trying to avoid the ghetto life.
Hobbies are fish’n and drinking. Medicaid saved our way of life with extra money for booze and idle time to enjoy the fruits of others. America is the land of milk and honey. Thank goodness for those tax payers of whom give us the good life, We love the Constitution and the rights to march for more bread from Uncle Sam.Further, two sons want to be lawyers and two want to be police officers. One daughter wants to be a firemen.One son wants to be a building inspector where the political graft is a Heaven on earth. Our motto is let the government do for us what we are too shifty-minded to do for ourselves My advice to the suckers of whom pay the taxes and fight wars is to study ruling systems via Machiavella’s ( PRINCE ). Bleed them for all it is worth. I belong to the global Interfaith movement and along with my peers.Religion and democracy is the going thing today. Imcidentally, my wife was expecting triplets before she hit the road.”
Dismayed Veteran -Apr. 11, 2012 at 3:10pm
“…a man was trying to hard in the side yard …” Is this a misprint or what really happened in the side yard?
jjkrkwood, Apr 11, 2012
The kid was kind of cute and had he not been insane might have made it in the work/world of escorting.
BobtheMoronsp -Apr. 11, 2012 at 9:32am
When you are a genetic dead end, it is natural to hate yourself and everyone like you. The futility of living weighs heavily on the ‘people’. Some channel their energy in to positive things, others disintegrate into insanity in one form or another. Being a genetic dead end must really suck.
mikee1 -Apr. 11, 2012 at 9:02am
Both are big DUMMYCRAPS. You see, in order to be a dummycrap today, you have to be a NEO-SATANIST, COMMUNIST, who supports all things PERVERSE. OR you have to be so stupid that you listen to them and are duped by them in your FOOLERY. iF THE dummycraps are not taken out of power in this country, the UNITED STATES will soon FALL.
[Suspended User] -Apr. 11, 2012 at 3:27am
the only people dumber than atheists are devil worshipers. (And their roommates.)
duke37, Apr 10, 2012
Does he kiss? I sure hope the first client, the one who wasn’t killed, writes a FULL review with all the details..
FreedomWitness -Apr. 10, 2012 at 10:22pm
Imagine in some states these two could have gotten married and adopted a child. Wouldn’t that have been great! Man are we diving to the bottom of the cesspool at an alarming rate.
lukerw -Apr. 11, 2012 at 4:03am
Water finds it’s own level… yawn!
progressiveslayer -Apr. 10, 2012 at 6:58pm
The elder rump rider of boys is dead and the younger rump rider will wish he’s dead after some hard prison time.
[Suspended User] -Apr. 10, 2012 at 6:02pm
People like getting naked in times like this both ways.
NancyBee -Apr. 10, 2012 at 8:35pm
The escort company did a terrible job checking ths guy out!!
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Dennis, Hell, even David has a passport, haha. It’s a good thing to have. He’ll get one.
I guess we’re winning the fight. We’ve heard nothing back after this latest weirdo shit they’re trying to pull. Just know it’s wholly unnecessary and weird and we’ve taken appropriate steps. I’m hoping this is the last of it.
Oh, poor guy. Both the victim and the perpetrator, very sad. Satanism does seem like a great way to hide your tree feelings or anxieties under a coat of pure evil, which I always find interesting – particularly with the Burzum case. If I wasn’t on your blog, I’d obviously mention this super cool author I’m a fan of, who has some really interesting writing on that aspect of satanism/emo, but I’m sure you already know him very well, haha.
Oh, Blue Prince is something one of my flatmates is obsessed with at the moment. He’s the only other person in, so whenever he comes down to eat he debriefs me on what he’s solved in that particular day, and it sounds incredibly interesting. He explained one particular puzzle, which involved assigning a “letter” to every room in the 9×5 grid through some clue in every room, which spelled out a sentence. Maybe it’s just me, but that kind of “mapping” of information onto real-space is always toe curlingly pleasing.
Cool, I hope you manage to find something good in the post-Easter overflow. I’ve got a hoard of low-quality chocolate that I managed to pick up, so I’ve been living/eating a little like one of a child in a cautionary tale about the importance of parental discipline. Sounds lovely, your literary agent meetup. See ya!
I may be stupid because at first I thought ‘Lawn Lion’ referred to some super efficient brand of lawnmower, but, no, it meant a literal stone lion. There used to be two in front of a house I’d be driven past in primary school, but they are no longer there. My favourite part of this post is the comments. Comment sections are such, like, free game areas. They sometimes remind me of The Wilderness in OldSchool RuneScape, a PvP area. hogorina went off on some wild presumably politically-critical ramble. Of all the places to mock opponents, Lord knows why they chose the comment section for this story to do so. But then again, reports of a gay Satanist are like, perfect for the American right wing to bitch about. Dismayed Veteran is kind of a hilarious username. I don’t share that one commenter’s opinion of the guy in question being cute. I approve of mikee1’s using ALL CAPS in order to EMPHASIZE CERTAIN POINTS because I DO THAT TOO. duke37 and NancyBee have the right idea. What’s your specific/stance opinion on ‘Satanists,’ if you have one?
Morning Dennis. Haven’t been sleeping very well the past few days so am like eternally tired. Put my hair up in a bun for the first time in a while this morning. Woo, go my memory for remembering Cunningham’s work. He’s super welcome :]
Growing up with the internet’s given me even more time to share an awful lot of different stuff about me with a lot of different people. I wonder if it’s enough for people to coordinate the one singular me I’ve split over however many sites or forums or comment sections. I don’t post much personal stuff on social media. I try to save that for places where anonymity is the standard, uh, weirdly. Counter productive. If people expect total facelessness that makes it super easy to stand out even remotely by sharing any given personal fact. And it makes recognition feel a little more special, like, seeing someone in a thread where the only identifier is a random string of numbers which changes each post go ‘oh, it’s you, from that other thread!’ It’s all pretty fun, and a little scary.
As for demureness, I remember that being a. Meme. Trend. Thing. I never quite got to the bottom of its origin, but it’s had its day, and now I’m struggling to see what’s the hot thing right now to say. I just can’t keep up ;-;
My ears itch for more Pavement. I paused Newark Wilder on my laptop before I left, and I plan on picking up Crooked Rain again when I get back.
Cheers. I got to see the inside of Edinburgh’s McEwan Hall, and it admittedly is a crazy gorgeous building. But I mustn’t let pretty buildings get in the way of a more serious assesment of my potential future academic situation. Even if I did think that it would be an ideal place to kiss in. I’m sure Durham will have its sufficient smooch spots too. I’d say my decision is almost made. Really Durham makes more sense. But I always have a nagging voice of dissent inside me, no matter what I pick. Have until June I think to properly make my mind up.
Mhm, I don’t hear many use whale of a time other than me x/ tragedy. But hope you have many whales today.
Thanks, Trinidad and Gerstler I’m unsurprisingly not very i.e. at all familiar with. Best wishes with the new script. Regrettably, you’re right – write, ha – in saying I’m not writing, damn it. Even if I keep getting those vague flashes of phrases and sentences and ideas in my head which I can imagine as words on a screen, argh. I want to write, but I have maybe irrational fears about my plans to produce fiction somehow getting in the way of my exam mindset. During/leading up to exams I get quite worried and scared about anything other than the content I need to know entering my head. I’ve had my time in Edinburgh off studying, which my family say I need, but I don’t know, I feel bad for not working. Will leave Edinburgh tomorrow sometime in the late afternoon, and then Friday I’ll be driven back home. Oh, how I hate having stubble. I look and feel terrible x( oh, thing I thought a few days ago but forgot and remembered, I’m a massive fan of elastic thwapping on skin.
In better news – have had cutesy things posted about me by someone, woo, and I finished Marbled Swarm this morning! So now I’ve got that novel to pick apart. It’s been great fun reading your stuff become increasingly trippy/knotty. Reread the final sentence several times this morning and frowned in ‘hmm’ing, and I’m still rolling it around in my head. Stylistically it’s an insanely impressive novel. How long did it take to finish? Plus it’s funny at times. I’m still mostly at the stage of using words as like, the building blocks of a story, and thinking less about the words in and of themselves and what I can do with them. But that many consider it a good novel isn’t news. I think. But whatever, a very good job on that. All the thumbs up ever from me. Not sure what I’ll do with the rest of today, but seeya.
Hey Dennis,
I’m happy to know that my enthusiasm for your work is appreciated. It’s also good to know that my bordering-on-schizophrenic connecting of elements when it comes to your novels has some merit!
I’ll put ‘Smothered by Hugs’ into my mental notes, so that when I go to read ‘All Ears’ I’ll remember.
When it comes to Blue Princes, the guy I’m watching has gotten far into it that I’m a bit worried I won’t be able to play it and enjoy it now that I know all the secrets; at the same time, I feel like if I forget about it for a few months and play it I won’t even remember!
I’m sat in a library (not the UCC one but a different one where I grew up), revising the second chapter of my dissertation since I finished the first draft of the third chapter. Maybe I should work on the conclusion but I don’t think my brain is ready to create entirely new sentences. Plus I have to read a novel and a play for my exam on Friday. Have to get my bloods done in an hour, so hoping that my brain won’t be wonky from that, nor will working at home make me unable to focus…
It’s strange how close I am to the end of this all. 2k words and technically I could just submit it, though I don’t have the correct format or proper citations. But still, I basically have a solid argument here, and I think I do a good job asserting it! If I think of any more questions I need to ask for it, I will try and put them in a reply to this. Otherwise, I’m really crossing my fingers that I could send you an almost finalized draft of the piece sometime next week. I don’t know with timing if I’ll be able to slot in any feedback into the final product, but potentially I could…
So what exactly is a “Lawn Lion”? That’s the one part of this story that I just don’t get.
Hi!!
I honestly don’t know whether the article or the comments are better (or whether to laugh or cry, for that matter).
Yeah, that makes sense about the difference between writing and working on a film. Writing feels like a much more inward process. Although I can’t say for sure – I’ve never made a film.
“Baby Invasion” and SCAB would be a killer duo, haha!
Yes, love managed to reach his friend, and said friend is now expected to arrive on Saturday – just for a short and sweet weekend visit.
Did love’s shoes arrive on time?
Love wondering whether the man noticed by Davis’ aunt Shirley Davis managed to hard in the side yard of the property in the end, Od.
Hiya Dennis!!! Great News: Zita would be delighted to show ‘Room Temperature’! Since two people who work at Zita also work at Stockholm FilmForm, the programmer who I have been in contact with suggested we at Zita should talk to them about arranging the screening. They also said that they would love for you and Zac to guest the screening, as you did last time, but that is of course only if you have the time and want to 🙂 Are there any contacts that I should pass forward to the people at Zita to make this screening possible? Maybe we should mail about this, what is your mail address? Mine is [email protected] ! So excited about this, I’m sure the people of Sweden will love the chance to watch ‘RE’.
Saw that you and Dominik were talking about ‘Baby Invasion’! I showed that one at my schools film club, I paid for both the versions of it available (pure and impure: cost me 30$) and let the people vote for which one they wanted to watch. It was surprisingly a success, I kind of loved it myself (even though it’s hard to formulate an opinion about) and rewatched it just 2 days later. I think we’re probably the first (and last) school film club to show ‘BI’, and I’m kind of in love with how polarizing it was: everyone either gave it a one or a five star rating. Excited to see whatever Harmony and his goons put out next.
XO, Swedens biggest Edglrd
I may be stupid because at first I thought ‘Lawn Lion’ referred to some super efficient brand of lawnmower, but, no, it meant a literal stone lion. There used to be two in front of a house I’d be driven past in primary school, but they are no longer there. My favourite part of this post is the comments. Comment sections are such, like, free game areas. They sometimes remind me of The Wilderness in OldSchool RuneScape, a PvP area. hogorina went off on some wild presumably politically-critical ramble. Of all the places to mock opponents, Lord knows why they chose the comment section for this story to do so. But then again, reports of a gay Satanist are like, perfect for the American right wing to bitch about. Dismayed Veteran is kind of a hilarious username. I don’t share that one commenter’s opinion of the guy in question being cute. I approve of mikee1’s using ALL CAPS in order to EMPHASIZE CERTAIN POINTS because I DO THAT TOO. duke37 and NancyBee have the right idea. What’s your specific/stance opinion on ‘Satanists,’ if you have one?
Morning Dennis. Haven’t been sleeping very well the past few days so am like eternally tired. Put my hair up in a bun for the first time in a while this morning. Woo, go my memory for remembering Cunningham’s work. He’s super welcome :]
Growing up with the internet’s given me even more time to share an awful lot of different stuff about me with a lot of different people. I wonder if it’s enough for people to coordinate the one singular me I’ve split over however many sites or forums or comment sections. I don’t post much personal stuff on social media. I try to save that for places where anonymity is the standard, uh, weirdly. Counter productive. If people expect total facelessness that makes it super easy to stand out even remotely by sharing any given personal fact. And it makes recognition feel a little more special, like, seeing someone in a thread where the only identifier is a random string of numbers which changes each post go ‘oh, it’s you, from that other thread!’ It’s all pretty fun, and a little scary.
As for demureness, I remember that being a. Meme. Trend. Thing. I never quite got to the bottom of its origin, but it’s had its day, and now I’m struggling to see what’s the hot thing right now to say. I just can’t keep up ;-;
My ears itch for more Pavement. I paused Newark Wilder on my laptop before I left, and I plan on picking up Crooked Rain again when I get back.
Cheers. I got to see the inside of Edinburgh’s McEwan Hall, and it admittedly is a crazy gorgeous building. But I mustn’t let pretty buildings get in the way of a more serious assesment of my potential future academic situation. Even if I did think that it would be an ideal place to kiss in. I’m sure Durham will have its sufficient smooch spots too. I’d say my decision is almost made. Really Durham makes more sense. But I always have a nagging voice of dissent inside me, no matter what I pick. Have until June I think to properly make my mind up.
Mhm, I don’t hear many use whale of a time other than me x/ tragedy. But hope you have many whales today.
Thanks, Trinidad and Gerstler I’m unsurprisingly not very i.e. at all familiar with. Best wishes with the new script. Regrettably, you’re right – write, ha – in saying I’m not writing, damn it. Even if I keep getting those vague flashes of phrases and sentences and ideas in my head which I can imagine as words on a screen, argh. I want to write, but I have maybe irrational fears about my plans to produce fiction somehow getting in the way of my exam mindset. During/leading up to exams I get quite worried and scared about anything other than the content I need to know entering my head. I’ve had my time in Edinburgh off studying, which my family say I need, but I don’t know, I feel bad for not working. Will leave Edinburgh tomorrow sometime in the late afternoon, and then Friday I’ll be driven back home. Oh, how I hate having stubble. I look and feel terrible x( oh, thing I thought a few days ago but forgot and remembered, I’m a massive fan of elastic thwapping on skin.
In better news – have had cutesy things posted about me by someone, woo, and I finished Marbled Swarm this morning! So now I’ve got that novel to pick apart. It’s been great fun reading your stuff become increasingly trippy/knotty. Reread the final sentence several times this morning and frowned in ‘hmm’ing, and I’m still rolling it around in my head. Stylistically it’s an insanely impressive novel. How long did it take to finish? Plus it’s funny at times. I’m still mostly at the stage of using words as like, the building blocks of a story, and thinking less about the words in and of themselves and what I can do with them. But that many consider it a good novel isn’t news. I think. But whatever, a very good job on that. All the thumbs up ever from me. Not sure what I’ll do with the rest of today, but seeya. Oh, and I was pleasantly slightly but not very surprised by your knowing of guro. I can’t remember if I commented or not. Had one Hell of a nap this afternoon. Sorry if this is a dupe x/
His sugar daddy worked at Publix?
Well, this is certainly a lurid story. Maybe the best part, in hindsight, is preserving the comments from over ten years ago. Whoever decided to call themselves “SLOWBIDEN” was remarkably ahead of the times. Just this past New Year’s, I met a guy who had a roommate who murdered at least one person, and probably several, while they were sharing a house. This was back in a fracking town in North Dakota, where there weren’t enough houses to meet the demand from the natural gas well, so people would live in vans and trucks and it would often be 20 below zero or worse when you went outside. Well, it was quite a story, but I’ve already forgotten some of the details that gave it its full flavor.
Looks like Brinton’s The Anatomy of Revolution is available to “borrow” on the Internet Archive, and fairly available online otherwise. The overall gist is he creates an analogy between the typical course of a revolution and the process of coming down with and recovering from a disease, especially a fever. It helped me lay some basic groundwork as far as the definition of the concept of “revolution” for my Modern Revolutions class three years ago.
Yes, I share your anguish about ZLib. There’s still the LibGen family of websites, though that has been experiencing occasional troubles and outages over the past few months. In the worst case, Anna’s Archive seems to be immune to whatever people try to do to the other such sites, but they want you to send them Bitcoin to qualify for anything other than a molasses-like download speed.
I forgot to ask yesterday, but did your friend have anything to say about Tocqueville?
How has Ryan Murphy avoided the temptation to turn this case into a Netflix series?
I didn’t know Norman Yonemoto directed porn, but his interest in Sirk comes across in his “mainstream” films.
Preamble: some glitch made it appear (on my browser at least) that April 19 had been your last post, & another glitch made me post the same comment there three times. Here I’ll try again.
Hey man, long time no see, speak & the like. You might remember me as stan_cz, the moniker I used here ages ago.
Tough to decide where to start & especially how to keep this digital reunion brief. I see that you just returned from L.A. I lived out there for almost six years (2010 to 2015). Came in on a student visa & attended L.A. City College, married a Jamaican girl & stayed on, working odd jobs & playing the usual artist’s survival game. Things went downhill with the wife, now ex, which led to a nasty divorce that I’ll spare you the details of. After that war I reluctantly returned home, to Germany, where I took a Cambridge course & became a teacher. Did that for a while, teaching English & German to adults & refugees, which doesn’t pay well but provided a decent enough income security to get by on. Plus I actually enjoyed doing it most of the time.
I kept up the poetry all these years. Poetry, which is really my life blood & what’s kept me alive, during both the light & the dark patches, & of the latter I’ve had many. It wasn’t until my mid-30s though that I reached a style & a perspective that satisfies me, or rather that matches the distant music I could till then hear but not quite reproduce. Ethnopoetics was the key that unlocked everything for me. A hunger for the sacred (outside of organized religion) coupled with a love for experimental form led me to the poetries of the world’s deep tribal/oral traditions. Or to narrow it down to one book, Jerome Rothenberg’s anthology Technicians of the Sacred. The stuff I write now lands on my blog carstenczarnecki.blogspot.com plus I’ve been assembling a collection I will probably end up self-publishing, most likely with some photographs, to add a visual component.
Glad to see you’ve found another creative outlet in film now, though I’m sorry to say that I haven’t been able to see any of your films yet. I barely watch any these days. I still find the form appealing, but the end result tends to bore me to tears. It’s all still so tied to melodramatic plot convention & formula… Your stuff looks rather avant-garde though, which is right up my alley.
I’m currently in Spain until Sunday finalizing a long-planned move out here (Malaga region), because I still refuse to let Germany keep me. Late August is when I’ll stay here for good.
Sorry to hear about David E’s passing. I hung out with him once in L.A. Feels several lifetimes ago.
Anyway, looking forward to catching up with you. Hope the jet lag is wearing off. Take care.
Hey Dennis,
From what I learned on Tuesday, the risograph doesn’t seem to be overly tricky if you’re just printing black text. But let’s see what happens when I’m unleashed on it in the coming weeks.
Wow, Sirkian porn… I’ll make it my business to go down that tempting rabbit hole very soon.
Peace and love,
J
Xo
Hi Dennis,
Poetry is something where I know pieces that have meant a lot to me, but never know where to go next. People whose work I’ve loved include Saul Williams, Hannah Faith Notess, and Philip Larkin.
Thanks for the kind words about job loss.. Things have been an awful lot, but at least I’m spending my time on nice things when I can. I saw that new film ‘Sinners’ this afternoon and it was really damn good, well worth the big screen experience.
Also it’s world book day, and I’ve been sharing the fantasy novel my bf wrote (and I edited) – TITANBLOOD – so with only a small sense of self-consciousness I will link it here. In the slim chance your audience are interested in a Redwall-inspired middlegrade adventure chock full of forbidden magicks and trauma. https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0DQHSPL1F
One thing I’m really looking forward to is my birthday next week. Boyfriend’s gonna come up, we’re gonna go to a concert, and hopefully eat like princes. So I just have to make it one more week til the 1st…!
Have a great Wednesday! Or a great Thursday morning, when you read this…
Hey. I finished re-reading ‘Infinite Jest’. It got really addictive towards the end, but I’m glad it’s over. It did make me sort of emotional, particularly the Hal and Mario dynamic and the whole thing about the father wanting to reach his son and making this film to try and get him to speak. Excited about reading something else, though. I’ve bought a load of books recently, one (technically three) of them is ‘The Aesthetics of Resistance’ by Peter Weiss since the third volume was just recently translated and I’ve been really intrigued. I’ve never read anything by Weiss, I just know that ‘Marat/Sade’ was a big deal/socially significant, and I’ve read that Sontag essay about it. I doubt I’ll jump into that for a while though, I’m in the mood for several short books. I know thick books aren’t your preference but I like a heavy tome every once in a while, but only really when I’m not around many other people and I need a substitute for friends.
Oh, and yes the excitement continues. I made a great development on the story I’m writing today and initially it was just a thing for an assignment but I really want to do something with it now. I’ve had a couple of let-downs submitting my work to places recently, but of course I’m keeping at it, I just need to find more and more interesting sites publishing interesting work.
I agree with Jay about satanism, hiding anxieties under a cosmetic of evil. The other coin is that I sort of know people who weren’t born or raised catholic and are adopting that whole thing as an aesthetic and I think it’s kind of shallow. They’re all talking about sin and stuff as if they are some aristocrat in the 1890s reciting Baudelaire over mid-afternoon tea.
Im so happy with my surrounding atm! I just reorganized my room a bit organizing. things like its an exhibit. I’d send a pic if you are interested and give consent
I want to go to Nitehawk cinema maybe not in it but watch it illuminate at night, theres some cool book/record store, and then I want to like eat street food obviously.
I have no friends right now. I think im in the process of making new ones at work but, no friends so just me to NY just me. Iast time my guardian denied the trip and prohibited e because it wasn’t sane or whatever. I dont kno, so im keeping it on the downlow. I messed up at work nothing new, I accidentally called the owner by his dogs name. It was kind of funny, because theres like murphy’s law incoded into me or something.
Listen, ok Tallulah Bankhead was wild. At least from how she’s described but i’ll let you do your own research:
Heres a quote from the book that encapsulates her with precise accuracy “To think of Tallulah as a wanton woman perpetually holding a drink in one hand and a warm body in the other is almost accurate. Sometimes she changed hands. But if that summed her up, her life wouldnt be worth exploring. In fact she was a constant suprise with many hidden and unreported sides to her, both worse and better than she was painted.”
Talluulah watched soap operas as if she were getting special insight into real life.”And also her father was I think some political member so she was in constant fear her unconventional behaviors would ruin his campaign.But she was primarily a stage actor who stared along Joan Crawford (who was scared and fascinated by her) and was comparable to Zelda fitzgerlad. ALthough she also was incredibly sick from doing coke throughout the day aswell as her constant smoking and drinking.
Give her a look!
I like music I think i’ll share another song I like because we must have similar taste or something.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E8L83gOpioo
This is different than th e last genre I sent. I know you like metal music aswell as electronic. SO there is a really amazing three woman doom metal band called Faetooth. You do know them? I feel like you would since they rose from LA but who knows I neve know!
Anyways, if you dont know I think you’d like them
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E8L83gOpioo
I might be back later tonight im not sure, oh btw your movie is on tubi so i’ll probably be watching sometime later this week since i finally have no work and can write and think straight and not go insane.
for further context the things in my room consist of harlequin dolls, a gifted dead bird in a jar, incense, printed anatomical illustrations, and then you know one of those Jack T Chick BIble comic strips but I only kept it because the illustration is two parents and a baby with 666 etched onto their foreheads and itst kind of sick stylistifallu like an album cover so I nailed it.
Yes, an actual letter. Love them. Might actually end up spending in the low triple digits on postage this year, which it will hopefully not come to. Did you end up seeing that duck? I don’t know how many ducks are in Paris. I like to picture flocks of birds descending non-threateningly on your balcony. Can you whistle at birds and talk to them? It’s a lot of fun. My translation was well received, and I might think of putting it out there so I’ll start on that.
*poof* Yes! The base of what closed practice is does exist on my site but ive been building the brand out more recently. I had been doing all this magic stuff and it’s really just affirmative and transformative self psychology and therapy really. On top of my already bristling creative direction it just seemed like the logical next step on top of all my Ai echo chambering and its about personally finding purpose truly! Now im in my outreach stage since im proud of the foundation and ive been hand writing alot of my digital stuff do you type or write more than the other or do you type and transcribe? i think its important to pull stuff from the ether/digital into the physical it gives it power truly. Ive been trying to keep a diary for that reason and writing goals and the like aswell! But yes Closed Practice is seeking to reawaken true gay zine stylings(im obsessed with gay book covers(phil andros, TOM ect.) and STH zines) with the modern and mythic from tees and skimasks(gay guys love masks ive noticed) too my book and other wellness media and special Closed Practice inventions to come. I need to start making videos and podcasts about my wordview and whatnot so more to come shortly! What was for dinner? and ill ttylxoxo! Opp dupe check p.s i tried junior mints way safer candy but i need them chilled they should be a lil crisp I think like a m&m almost!
hello, mr cooper. gosh that made me recoil writing out. hey dennis. i wonder if this is gonna post, not due to cloudflare but my internet is spotty.
wild case, though i think the picture of the guy playing a game is an injoke, becuse the guy in the picture — according to vague memories of my ex who was into this — was a part of a podcast, but then stopped showing up, and the other members were silent about it. so i guess it would be a funny joke that he was a satan worshipping escort. the comments were a great touch.
i got something new to talk about woo, so a friend of a friend asked me becuse he knew was a writer, and asked me if i could write a screenplay, ignoring that i’m a novelist and not a screenwriter, though people can make the jump, you for example. (assume that said ‘dennis for example’ if you aren’t dennis.) it’s just it was meant to be written in a week, eek. i wrote a short script about a guy who goes to see his homophobic dad but gets embarassed / jealous that his bf is bonding with his dad. director loved it, gave notes, etc. and then decided to do a documentary instead. woo. so i’m gonna wonder what to do with this, i’m probably not gonna be the one to film it becuse i hate the idea of director, and i dont know anyone else nearby. i’ll think about it.
my longer and personal thing is still going swimmingly, currently dulling out a killing scene thingy. i want it to feel like a petty crime. kind of like the criterion movie vengeance is mine, idk if you know about it.
bogdanovich feels like he never got a second wind, like the rest of the new hollywood guys who petered out, other than like texasville. like altman — i guess not one but still close enough, — who was able to get back via the player. though i guess you could argue he was doing way more interesting stuff during his ‘down’ period. at least peter made targets, the last picture show, and paper moon.
also, this has nothing to do with anything, but my heater is broken again. in an annoying way where i have to turn it up to like a stupidly hot number for it to start running, but by ten minutes of heating, it starts boiling me alive. so i have to turn it off until one hour i feel frozen and start the whole thing again.
i think that should be all from me.