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Nathan Schiff Weasels Rip My Flesh (1979)
‘The debut feature from cult filmmaker Nathan Schiff is a sci-fi horror flick with a title that says it all. Starring Schiff regular John Smihula, Weasels Rip My Flesh centers on a rodent that grows to giant proportions when it is exposed to a mysterious substance brought to Earth from Venus. After the weasel terrorizes a small town, leaving a trail of carnage in its path, it is captured by a mad scientist who hopes to breed the monster and use the resulting bloodthirsty army to carry out his plan for world domination. Fred Borges and Jody Kadish also star.’ — RT
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Monte Hellman Beast from Haunted Cave (1959)
‘In a skiing station in Dakota, a gang of criminals leaded by Alexander “Alex” Ward plans the heist of golden bars from a small bank. While the lover of Alex, Gypsy Boulet, goes to an isolated cabin with the ski instructor Gil Jackson, a time bomb explodes a cave to divert the attention of the locals and the gangsters steal the gold. But the explosion releases a spider-like monster and due to a storm, the group becomes trapped in Gil’s cabin and threatened by the creepy beast.’ — letterboxd
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Narciso Ibáñez Serrador Who Can Kill a Child? (1976)
‘English husband Tom and his pregnant wife Evelyn are on holiday in Spain. They take a trip out to Almenzora Island. Arriving, they find the island strangely deserted, buildings having been left open and abandoned. There are no adults anywhere, just children playing. They then discover that the children have killed all the adults. The children now close in, intending to kill them too.’ — moria reviews
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Del Tenney The Horror of Party Beach (1964)
‘Peculiarly, the monsters, despite their claimed need for human blood, seem to prefer abducting only women and Del Tenney throws in a number of scenes of them carrying girls off like some incarnation of a 1940s pulp magazine cover. Indeed, despite their bloodlust, the monsters seem to be plain old red-blooded males who get uncontrollably worked up about girls – there is even a scene where one of them gets so worked up as to attack a storefront mannequin.’ — Moria Reviews
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Sean MacGregor Devil Times Five (1974)
‘A quintet of weird kids stumble into the luxurious winter retreat of a wealthy patriarch (Gene Evans) and his arrogant guests. Little do the effete vacationers realize that the children are escapees from an asylum for the criminally insane — a fact they realize only after their doom has been sealed.’ — rt
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W. Lee Wilder The Snow Creature (1954)
‘This film is bad for a lot of reasons. It suffers from a bubble gum machine budget, bad writing, bad acting, and a bunch of clearly Japanese actors speaking in Japanese that the film tries to pass off as Tibetans. The real draw to this movie is the Yeti costume, which looks like an actual rug with eye holes cut into it. This is possibly the first horror film ever made about the yeti.’ — Ranker
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Gary Sherman Raw Meat (1972)
‘For generations they’ve lingered beneath the streets of London. But now their last survivor has emerged, driven by a desperate hunger for human flesh! Donald Pleasence stars in this daring horror classic that dishes out heart-stopping jolts and hair-raising thrills! When a prominent politician and a beautiful young woman vanish inside a London subway station, Scotland Yard’s Inspector Calhoun (Pleasence) investigates and makes a horrifying discovery. Not only did a group of 19th-century tunnel workers survive a cave-in, but they lived for years in a secret underground enclave by consuming the flesh of their own dead. Now the lone descendant of this grisly tribe has surfaced, prowling the streets of London for fresh victims…and a new mate.’ — Blu-ray.com
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Herschell Gordon Lewis Color Me Blood Red (1964)
‘This overwrought horror film is one of many inferior derivations of Roger Corman’s classic A Bucket of Blood (1959). Don Joseph stars as Adam Sorg, a pompous artist who discovers that human blood provides his paintings with just the right shade of red. The over-the-top splatter includes stabbings, slicings, and evisceration, with Sorg going so far as to squeeze blood from a victim’s dangling intestine. Still, the film is not as grim as it sounds, due mainly to the shoddy effects and Lewis’ flamboyant direction, which makes every action and line so hyperbolic that it crosses the line from horror into campy self-parody often and with wanton abandon.’ — rt
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Don Sharp Psychomania (1973)
‘Members of a biker gang who wear skull helmets and call themselves “The Living Dead” decide to start really talking the talk, committing suicide one by one so they can come back as undead soldiers of Satan. Psychomania is especially notable for its psychedelic rock soundtrack by John Cameron.’ — gizmodo
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Jack Arnold Monster on the Campus (1958)
‘Biology professor Donald Blake receives a prehistoric coelacanth shipped from Madagascar. Water dripped from the coelacanth’s tank causes a dog to regress to its lupine ancestry and turn vicious. Blake cuts himself on one of the dog’s fangs. Soon afterwards, a prehistoric man is seen attacking people on the campus. Later Blake manages to accidentally smoke a pipeful of the dog’s blood and the prehistoric man reappears. Blake realises that he is the prehistoric man and that he is regressing to his primitive ancestry under the influence of the coelacanth’s blood.’ — IMDb
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George McCowan Frogs (1972)
‘A shocker reminiscent of Alfred Hitchcock’s The Birds” (Variety), this amphibious horror flick is teeming with thousands of nasty-tempered creatures that are hopping madand murderous. Jumping with action, suspense, revenge and Southern Gothic charm, Frogs’ stars Sam Elliott, Joan Van Ark and Ray Milland are constantly a lily pad away from croaking! Jason Crockett (Milland) is an aging, physically disabled millionaire who invites his family to his island estate for hisbirthday party. The old man is more than crotchety he’s crazy! Hating nature, Crockett poisons anything that crawls on his property. But on the night of his shindig, it’s nature’s payback time, as thousands of frogs whip up every bug and slimy thing into a toxic frenzy until the entire environment goes environ-mental.’ — AET
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William F. Claxton Night of the Lepus (1972)
‘Night of the Lepus Director William F. Claxton was a television veteran known for westerns (The Rifleman and Bonanza). Producer A.C. Lyles was also an old hand at westerns, as well as being the guy who gave Deforest Kelly his first acting break. This combination explains the film’s distinctly cowboy movie feel, complete with stalwart rancher Rory Calhoun defending his land from mutant rabbits that could just as easily have been murderous rustlers or a band of renegade Apaches. The cast of sagebrush vets probably brought their own boots and Stetsons to work. Even the hordes of rampaging Cadbury bunnies are shot like a charging herd of Buffalo. It’s painfully obvious the filmmakers would rather be making a straight up western without the whole monster movie angle; a genre they clearly don’t get.’ — HNN
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Ted Post The Baby (1973)
Less a horror film than an outright freak show, The Baby grows oddly hypnotic in its accumulation of oddity. It begins as something approaching a straight drama, but it never quite stabilizes. Though the audience is left uncertain about the characters’ motivations for most of the film’s run time, it is quite obvious that something unspeakable is bubbling underneath the outwardly pleasant interactions between Ann and the Wadsworths. The off-kilter performances create an uncanny vibe that comes to define the film. Post rarely tries to build suspense, but with a concept this zany, he does not need to. The shocking ending of The Baby is rightfully famed as one of the strangest in cinematic history, and to spoil it would be a disservice, but the sustained build up to that ending, which twists camp into something subtly disturbing, is just as memorable.
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Paolo Heusch Werewolf in a Girls’ Dormitory (1961)
‘Werewolf in a Girls’ Dormitory is apt to face audiences who are ill-disposed to forgive its intrinsic faults or to detect any of its merits at all. The former category includes a lukewarm, flavorless porridge of a hero who progressively bogarts the limelight that more properly belongs to a plucky and engaging heroine; an overly convoluted mystery with at least one more red herring than the script can contrive any practical use for; and in its English-language version at least, a dense tangle of unworkable and frequently self-contradictory dialogue that makes virtually every character look like a nitwit in at least one major instance apiece. The merits, by contrast, are much subtler, and would be more difficult to appreciate even under ideal conditions. Indeed, some of them look like yet further defects at first glance. Take the character design for the werewolf as an example. It is undeniably unimpressive even by 1961 standards, looking even less specifically lupine than usual.’ — 1000 misspent hours
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Herbert L. Storck The Crawling Hand (1963)
‘The hand of a dead astronaut washes up on the beach and possessed the college student who takes it home. The student is slowly transformed by the hand and begins killing people in a small town.’ — archive.org
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p.s. Hey. ** Adem Berbic, Your comment arrived after I had posted the post it was attached to, but by some miracle I noticed it, so hi. Yury just brought home this new coffee labeled ‘Intense’ that’s supposed to be the closest coffee can get to being crystal meth. If it works, I’ll pass the name along. Yeah, I romanticise hard-to-get books too, but if you don’t know the books exist, it doesn’t work. I almost watched FD6 last night because I found it on soap2day, but something, I can’t remember what, called, so maybe tonight. I’ll keep your review in mind and maybe even handy. Don’t get too psychotic. ** _Black_Acrylic, Surely that’s the only thing you and Simoniscrazy have in common, haha. ** Misanthrope, Liars! Liars everywhere! Except maybe here, I hope. ** Steve, It’s certainly very possible. Everyone, Steve reviewed Dag Johan Haugerud’s LOVE right here. No, I hadn’t heard about that, but, yeah, of course that would happen, and in fact I know someone who employs ChatGP in almost that very fashion when they’re not littering TikTok with AI nature simulation videos a dozen times a day now that I think about it. ** Carsten, Hi. Oh, okay, let me put my mind the press question, this weekend if not before. If ‘No Other Land’ has screened in Paris, I missed it. I’ll check. I would imagine it’s on view somewhere. ** Bill, Haha, a typo. I looked it up too and got zip. Early 90s whores had a great look, maybe not as great as early 70s whores, but clearly related. Hippie -> Grunge. Yes, RT in SF is announced! And yes, Zac and I will be there! ** Steeqhen, My day was relatively solid. Great luck vis-a-vis the bookshop. Sounds promising indeed. Nothing ever falls apart, it just mutates. Or so I tell myself. ** julian, Hey. Thanks. I find the profiles on a handful of sites where escorts offer their services. The profile texts are all found, but I do edit them a little and do things to disguise/protect the identities of the actual authors. The version in ‘Guide’ is fictionalised. “Words from the Front’ is the truthful version. Brad Renfro said a lot of things that didn’t end up in the printed version because his managers threatened the commissioning magazine if those things ended up in print. He was very open. They didn’t want him to be. ** PancakeIan, Thank you for the intricate feedback on the escorts! You justified the ridiculous amount of behind the scenes work that goes into assembling them. Ah, it was explained to me that the eggs you buy in supermarkets are sterile and would never have developed. Okay, the breaks you got makes imagining being inside those costumes a lot more fun to envision. Yeah, I was, like, 7 or 8 when I saw Mr. Disney in the flesh. I grew up going to Disneyland many times every year from the age of, like, 2. I did know Shaun a little, yes. Ultimately a sweet boy. ** charliezacks, Hi, Charlie. Congrats! You can certainly send it to me, but, honestly, I can’t guarantee that I’ll be able to read it very quickly. ** something top secret, Hello to you. Thanks you so much about my stuff. Well, that is almost certainly the most novel use or attempted use of my blog ever, haha. Good luck. And, yes, ixnay on the summer heat. ** HaRpEr //, Famulus, very nice. It’s snuggly but a little raucous too. Whew. Interesting about artists’ roots in puppeteering. Given the kid puppeteer character in our next film and my head’s immersion in ‘him’, very useful. I really liked ‘It’s Not Me’ too. It barely got released, even over here, which I guess isn’t a massive surprise. ‘Pola X’ is one my favorite Carax films. Strange that it’s hard to see. Scott Walker’s score is amazing, of course. That CraigsList entry is hilarious. I had no idea people still use CraigsList or, really, that it even still exists. ** jay, Hi, jay! My guess would be that TWNKCORY was brought to the UAE by some sugardaddy who ended up changing his mind with such acrimony that he wouldn’t buy TWNKCORY a return flight ticket? Yes, there have been repeats amongst the escort commenters. I honestly don’t pay that much attention to the names, but once in a while when a name is particularly clever, I do. Huge luck on your final presentation today! Did it … go well enough? Please say yes. You deserve luxury, my friend, so eat it alive. ** Nicholas., I always feel like I should have some kind of entrance sound or theme song when I get to your comment, like a WWE wrestler. My agenda is just a TextEdit doc on my computer screen, but it works. My nightmare food combo … mm, liver and beet juice. I do need my list to keep track of things, although my brain is pretty imprisoning. ** Lexi, Hi, Lexi! Wow, ten years? Crazy. I remember you, pal. Nothing like horniness to wake one up. The post title was snipped out of one of the escort’s profile texts. I always scour them for the best headline. Very happy to make your brain flicker. Well, yeah, hang out again, and who knows what’ll happen. xoxo. ** Okay. I have restored an old guest-post for you today because it’s fun, or it seemed fun to me. See you tomorrow.
Now available in North America 
A lot of sleazy fun up there. Blaxploitation is the genre I’m most likely to watch for cheap thrills even if the work is shoddy. And though long sober, I understand the appeal of watching a cheap horror flick while under the influence.
The internet tells me No Other Land did get a theatrical release in Germany, but if it did, I certainly didn’t notice it. And I’ve been wanting to see it since day 1. By the way, to you & anyone else here in the Franco-German zone, my favorite recent doc Soundtrack to a Coup d’Etat is available for streaming on Arte: https://www.arte.tv/de/videos/109338-000-A/soundtrack-fuer-einen-staatsstreich/
I heard about the painful experiences you & Zac had with Arte. Did it sour you permanently on the network?
Seen The Baby which I can confirm well deserves its place in this spotlight. Plenty of other delights to be found here so thank you for this, dear Noel!
Last night I watched the 1st episode of Fred and Rose West: A British Horror Story via Netflix which was the true crime equivalent of a cheap frozen pizza. One for the serial killer completists, I would say.
Dennis, A lot of these don’t look too bad.
Haha, I’m not detecting any liars here.
I’m going to a graduation party for my friend’s daughter on Saturday. And then into the office on Monday (because the last Monday is Memorial Day and the office will be closed).
I hope you have a good weekend.
Horror movies are so special. There’s not that many situations most people willingly choose to get scared, right? I liked movie slashers more than most of my classmates for a long time. Those ones were never too scary, except maybe Child’s Play, but I already had a thing about dolls before that. For a while I was into Hannibal Lecter in Silence of the Lambs, and then he was played by Mads Mikkelsen in the NBC show, and can you really blame me? Scream is probably still my favorite “classic” slasher. I definitely had a crush on Billy and Stu when I found that one. Matthew Lillard is still doing some cool stuff, too.
Sometimes I whistle when I feed the starlings outside my house, and they’ve started singing it back to me. A lot of people don’t seem to know that they can mimic, but a lot of wild birds can, and they’re damn good at it. Ravens and crows, too. What geniuses.
Hey Dennis! Presentation went great, thank you for asking. The guy before me was super high and slurred his words, and the guy after me was pretty aggro towards the markers, so I think I managed to make a good impression purely by virtue of my position. My presentation itself went great too, I managed to get everything I wanted to across. Luxury incoming, most definitely! Hope your weekend is as great as mine is shaping up to be, see ya!
Hey Dennis! Long time no see. Just busy with school and life. How have you been lately?
I watched The Baby on YouTube when I was about 12 or 13 and it scarred me for life lol. I had seen quite a few disturbing films already at that age but I guess I hadn’t yet seen anything with that seedy B-movie quality which made it feel somehow illegal, especially given the sordid fetishistic nature of the subject matter.
Hi! Nothing like a good cheesy horror movie . I had forgotten how big the ‘evil kid’ craze was, back in the day. Like ‘The Omen’, The Exorcist’, ‘Children of the Corn’, etc. These remind me of this sometimes great show that was around for a while, ‘Mystery Science Theater 3000’ . Where this random guy and a couple robots were forced to watch truly awful horror/sci fi, and critique the flicks . Wonder if the show still exists….
Glad you don’t mind my escort commentary. It fascinates me , seeing guys attempting to ‘objectify’ themselves like this. Plus, I lead such a tame, sedate life…….It’s rather fun to speculate what I’d do if one of them crossed my path. Although the reality I’m sure would be way less glamorous , sorta like your idea of TWNKCORY being left stranded high and dry by some sugar daddy in the middle of the Arab Emirates. Yikes.
Yes, I guess most eggs one buys are unfertilized and sterile, so I could be splitting hairs there. Oh well, I’ve gone without eggs my whole life anyways.
Just to give you a bit more Disney character info…… the ‘fur’ characters get a lot more breaks than ‘face’ . Fur , meaning any wearing a full costume with a head, or mask. All we could do was gesture, or mime , to the guests. Face characters have their faces showing , whilst wearing wigs and make up, and are allowed to have actual conversations with folks. Because they’re less covered up with padding and gear, they got less break time, because they can deal with the heat better . They’re usually the more attractive characters. Snow White, Belle, Cinderella, Peter Pan, Aladdin, Jack Sparrow, etc .
So neat that you were taken to Disney Land so often as a child. My mom wouldn’t allow it until high school graduation. And that you saw Mr Disney . I heard he would just walk around the park, trying to be on a first name basis with any cast member he encountered.
Also , cool that you did actually know Shaun Cassidy. I always like hearing about celebrities who are nice people too. This is prolly dumb of me, but I find it sad when I see pics of young stars at the height of their fame, and then photos of them years later. It’s like ‘The Picture of Dorian Gray’, IRL .
Totally off the subject, but have you ever heard of this dutch novel, ‘For a Lost Soldier’, by Rudi van Dantzig ? I re read it not long ago …….it’s quite a sobering tale.
Yay, RAW MEAT and THE BABY!
Did the intense coffee do the trick?
I’ve done almost all the work for my next radio show and just need to edit it together. Since I turn 53 on Sunday, it’s particularly meaningful to me to upload it then.
Does anyone know if NO OTHER LAND will be streaming on MUBI in the U.S.? I couldn’t find any mention of it.
Great to hear you’ll be in town soon, Dennis! Let me know if you and Zak have time for a meal or something.
I was a big Famous Monsters of Filmland fan when I was a teen, and was always salivating over some of these. I’ve only seen Color Me Blood Red, on a small B&W TV, ironically.
In case you haven’t seen it, the new Michael DeForge is very good. I’ve been thinking about making a graphic meta-storytelling or something blog post (DeForge, Bhanu Pratap, Sam Liu…) . Let me know if you’re interested.
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My friend and I have been looking for websites where escorts advertise themselves. It’s hard to find ones where people are as direct about what they’re selling as they are on your posts. There’s something really fascinating about people sexually advertising themselves in that way. It’s a lot more honest than what you’ll get on dating apps like Tinder or whatever. I think you can learn a lot about someone from their sexual fantasies. What made you want to revisit the “Words from the Front” article in Guide? Definitely will be checking out some of these movies. Who Can Kill a Child catches my eye, as a semi-ironic lover of the “scary child” trope. I think I read somewhere that you’re not a big horror fan, but do you have a favorite horror movie?
Hey Dennis,
I’ve been on a bit of a cheesy old horror movie watching streak at the moment. Mostly thanks to Amazon loading one up after another one finishes. But there’s defo some on this list that I haven’t seen that I’m gonna check out. This evening’s films are “Strange Behavior (aka Dead Kids)” and I’m currently at the end of “Zombie Flesh Easters”… “Day of the Animals”, “The Hearse”, and “When a Stranger Calls” are just a few of the of the others that have kept me entertained over the past few weeks. Haha.
I saw on insta about RT being in SF on the 20 June. That’s awesome. Do you have more showings lined up for whilst you’re out there? That’s the weekend I’m gonna be in Paris, so it’s shame we’ll miss each other, but I’ll be at the showing supporting you both in spirit. My dad is excited about looking after my dog for a few days.
And I’ll defo provide the link to the DW audio when it becomes available.
Okay… Amazon has loaded a new film: “Zombie Creeping Flesh”… let’s see what it has to offer.
Hugs and love
Dom
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I did the know fan/mosquito trick! Most of my mosquito bites happen when I am out of my room, unfortunately. I keep forgetting to pick up bug spray when I go on a grocery run. Completely forgot that your life and Buster Keaton’s overlapped for a good decade and a half. Maybe an odd question and certainly a massive change of pace but what was it like growing up during the Civil Rights Movement? How did people in LA suburbia talk about it?
PS: Thanks for this post, Noel! Have added some of these movies to my watchlist.
Some truly amazing schlock here. As a bunny lover, NIGHT OF THE LEPUS holds a special place in my heart for its vision of lagamorphic apocalypse (even if the buns clearly weren’t treated very well in the making of the film).
If anyone is interested in pursuing the rabbithole of truly bizarre no-budget horror hallucinations, check out the MURDERDRONE “manifesto” and the films that fall under that banner. They will re-wire your neurons beautifully.
Hey. Cool, so our minds will both be focused on puppeteers. It’s interesting when it comes to kids how playing with toys is probably the first time the recesses of their imagination get to be played out.
The soundtrack for ‘Pola X’ is indeed stellar, and I say that having not seen the movie because I’m a huge Scott Walker fan, from basically every era. Carax certainly knows what he’s doing when it comes to music incorporation.
Yes, Craigslist does still exist, but the fact that less people know that is what makes it interesting to prowl. Half of the wanted ads are supposed agencies looking for escorts, and the other half is older men looking for a young man or woman to both fuck them and be their cleaner. But yeah, suffice to say, the ads should never be trusted. It’s a sort of hobby for me to get lost in Craigslist. The marketplace also has some crazy stuff.
I’ve seen… none of these movies. Ever seen ‘Night Tide’? It’s an early Dennis Hopper film from the early 60s that I’ve been meaning to see again. Apparently it was made by a friend of Kenneth Anger. It’s about the Hopper character meeting a girl who turns out to be a mermaid. I remember watching it without knowing anything about it and being surprised by genuine Angeresque ambition and sexual frustration/horror.
‘Trog’ would be my contender for a terrible (but also amazing) horror/monster movie. A drunken Joan Crawford in what amounts to ‘Frankenstein’ but with a troglodyte that gets unfrozen and Joan sets out to prove that he aint so bad.
Have a great weekend, are you going to watch Eurovision tomorrow?
I love myself so low budget, somewhat trashy horror flicks, though I think I’ve definitely mentioned that here before. Some of these look right up my alley. I’ve started watching films a lot again; in the past 7 days, I’ve watched about 9 or so films. Most being horrors like The Autopsy of Jane Doe, Heretic, and the Final Destination movies which I’ve been binging with my family before I go see the new one sometime soon. My mom is a bit obsessed with them, she used to love horror until she had us, but I’ve converted her again over the past few years. I’ve found myself drifting a bit from horror to more ‘psychological’ films, or really just strange and weird films that are surreal or unnerving, which tend to a lot of the time be horrors, but a lot are also dramas or comedies. I have a list of films that I want to work through over the summer, though I tend to suck at doing that.
I’m feeling a bit better again today, didn’t wake up early which is both a negative as I love waking up early, and a positive as it meant I wasn’t coughing myself awake. You’re right about things mutating; my whole treatment of friendships and relationships is that they’re always fluid, and that you should treasure them for the magic they are, even if that magic can only last a short while. My interpersonal conflict yesterday was honestly more just me having a bit of anxiety about having to disagree with my entire friends on a person they hate and I have a conflicting care for. From a lot of experiences in my life, that tends to lead to me being belittled, or made to feel wrong or crazy, but I think I handled it well / they understood me even if they didn’t agree. It eventually led to a great conversation about how I view myself and the world and how my messy brain works; overall, I have a great understanding of the world and of things, but I have trouble doing the things. I always feel like a bit of a kid, and that everyone knows better than me, which is hard when it comes to not feeling bad after I stand up for myself, but is a bit of a superpower in being able to understand others.
Anyway, I’m hoping I can make a faster recovery, as I need to get back to exercising, and back to meeting up with people, especially guys, but for now I’m just allowing myself to enjoy being sick like how a child enjoys it.
*Poof* https://youtu.be/svjMiqVeiG8 *Play that first then read the comment just 30s will be fine* Its so funny but This one is perfect if it wasn’t for him it’d be for me! New day and I came up with the best equation for my brand ethos and the perfect type face/ format for all company documents imagine direct, simple and possibly mystical its great and sort of naturally loud on the page. Hum textedit document ill have to figure it out and try I think I have a free floating note that said “Meat, Flesh, Sex, Cum, Smut, Juice, Wads, Cream, Filth, Skin, Raunch, Lewd, and Scum” for awhile and that basically is my daily tasks lol. I get the feeling but Ive tuned the prison into a palace and now the prison has great reform programs and crystals it’s basically club Med. hum more tomorrow It was raining all day and I walked around and it was fun but I got dirty and wet and tired so brb and ttylxoxo!
Oh I’ll def have to read this and watch some of these while stoned especially since I’ve been smoking more weed to help with PTSD symptoms
Hey want to hear a very intriguing coincidence, well there is a dog here a shih Tzu named Talllulah just like the Tallulah biography book I’m reading. Also her biography is 200+ pages so I took a pause on it. She has a VERY eventful life I suppose. I read somewhere that she bought a baby lion from a NY zoo and kept it as a pet.
I think I’m going to watch “paris is burning” on YouTube and then “Juliet den Paris”be ause I saw a frame from the movie that looked cool. As for Paris is burning ive been meaning to watch it.
I did sew a Laura Palmer patch that says “we miss you” onto a black tank top which I’m gonna wear tonight.
Tonight I’m going to a show w at this pretzel place called Croftons here in Wilmington and theyve been doing hardcore show gigs there lately. Rosary is like this local band I’ve heard a couple times and they are really good. I’ve heard them play a couple times they are good. I started reading soft machine and I have no idea what rectal mucus is but I Iove that the word keeps popping up. In my book I try to combine anatomical words in a distorted sense that replicates the main character (James) obsession with his belief that his body is a rotting corpse and how this descent into madness and psychosis completely disregards accuracy and just becomes self mutilation he convinces is the body decomposing.
Speaking of self mutilation I’m going to NY tomorrow and I haven’t had like a self harming thought in two days. Woo-hoo!
This is a just mumbo jumbo nonsense anxious soradic release energy
Did you ever find a little local venue with any good music? What’s the scene like in France? What kind of places and names do they bestow that ooze with amazing people. I’m curious if you know anybody/friend who every time you look at their face they have a bunch of piercings? I can’t be the first, I’m curious.
I’ll possibly give an update on that pretzel place show tomorrow since I love live music but rarely go out because social interactions are draining when you have ASD and borderline personality makes it hell.
I love solitude it makes me happy when you aren’t being perceived by people who will tell you that your attention seeking or weird. My cat understands me and that’s all that matters.
if I’m not able to reply by my departure I hope yo have a good weekend and don’t lose another tooth if you do I can send you one of mine although I think my enamels are eroded from years of bulimia as a teen. I brush twice a day nowadays and have a healthy diet if you want a tooth. Wait maybe if you still have the tooth you can sell it
I’m sorry if I just said a bunch of diagnosism I really don’t know what I’m doing all I know is that my coworker who’ve I’ve been getting close to is so open about her having bullimia and being a drug addict on the past and I admire her for that because she’s 15 months
I don’t care honestly. My roommate Maggie was so open about psychotic episodes!
Anyways I say all this to say I don’t ever want to make anyone uncomfortable. That’s why I try so hard to be nice because I think there’s already so much awfulness in this world and we are already being pinned against each other everyday by the anxiety and frustration of being alive. Im definitely not a door mat either.
Aghhhh HAVE A GOOD ONE!
I wrote a lot. Jesus Christ, my bad.
I was around the age of stoopidslappedpuppies and misha, @ theflooredblog or sth, I don’t even remember my name back then.but it’s been more than ten years , I was checking in occasionally, but writing? It’s been almost 20 years lol. Thanks for rekindling the ashes of my life. Even if it lasted like, a few hours. I’m diagnosed with shit. The usual, u know? Bought what I think was your latest book, cos the George miles saga transformed me. Maybe if I make a new blog here, and put the things I had back then, maybe you’ll really remember me. But I think I was so… unremarkable.