The blog of author Dennis Cooper

“Hey guys don’t be shy I won’t give you an STD … or maybe yes.”

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TheRealMccoy, 20
Frankfurt

Hey, I’m Leon, I’m 18, and I’ve always known I was made by God to drain the balls of older men. I need to buy a car, so I thought I’d sell my asshole for some cash so that men who want to use my asshole can get their pleasure and I can buy a car.

I don’t let anyone photograph or film that because my loved ones mustn’t know.

Guestbook of TheRealMccoy

TheRealMccoy (Owner) – April 13, 2026
I’m also looking for men who want to host me for a night on my cycle route through France in mid June. Route will probably be entering from Belgium or Luxemburg down to Lyon, then across to Toulouse and cross the Pyrenees somewhere.

Dontbetoogay – April 10, 2026
The escort is facially superb and in excellent physical condition and offers a sexual experience as thorough as that offered by much lesser mortals. So what’s wrong with positioning himself in the upper price segment? Therefore, I can only describe complainers’ comments as expressions of envy. To use an analogy: They “have to” shop at Aldi due to their financial situation, which doesn’t necessarily reflect on the quality of the goods, but they would prefer to shop in luxury stores. These stores, however, can’t set their prices according to the wishes of Aldi shoppers, but rather according to the quality AND exclusivity of their products.

TheRealMccoy (Owner) – April 3, 2026
Don’t offer me love, I beg you.

Futurecop – April 3, 2026
Gods ultimate masterpiece of a human being ❤️

Body Type Slim
Ethnicity Caucasian
Body Hair Shaved
Smoker Socially
Languages German, English
Position More bottom
Dick L – Uncut
Dirty No
Fisting No
S&M Soft
Kissing Yes
PNP Ask
Hourly Rate 180€
Overnight Rate 1200€

 

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TheTwinkanator, 18
Halle

The Twinkanator is back. With all new boys and one old favorite. Those who know know. Ask for what you want.

Guestbook of TheTwinkanator

LongLivetheHole – April 9, 2026
Really scraping the barrel’s bottom there, Twinkanator. But then you always have.

dadstoyevsky – April 9, 2026
I don’t know why the sexiest fuckmeat in Germany ended up with Ahmed’s body, but it did.

EarnedCorrection – April 6, 2026
Dear Twinkanator, Shortly after Andy left my home you urged me on WhatsApp to write a good recommendation about him on this site. Now, before I can do this it is my turn to tell Andy to bring me back all the things he took from my place. My home is not a self-service “take with you whatever you find interesting” place! After you have returned back to me ALL things Andy stole (including bath foam, swim trunk, towel, lube, etc.) I can amend my comment here!

Also, please for the future tell Andy not to insist that he can take a slam. I asked him many times before I started if he was able to handle this and he insisted with yes. And it was completely a mess. He went into convulsions and had diarrhoea all over my bedroom. He does NOT KNOW how to get slammed. Also I’d like to mention here that from the night following Andy’s visit I have been doing VERY poorly! I have headache and a cough and body aching a bit also stomach pain. I cannot say how much of this is Andy’s fault, maybe is pure coincidence. However my penis area is completely inflammatory and I have never experienced pain like this before.

TheTwinkanator (Owner) – April 5, 2026
– Andy (top photo), 22, raped at 9 years old, was a whore when he was 13 years old, used for rough use, gang rape, pig sex, degradation, in many videos as white trash whore.
– Leon (second photo), 24, sex addict since 13, heavy drugs, fucked all the time in a room with a dirty mattress, guys paid to use, door open all the time.
– Ahmed (third photo), small, 5’3” 135 lbs, shaved all over with smooth Arab skin, no tattoos, some marks and bruises, deep throat, smooth ass for pig tongues, can suck and swallow big cocks, deep stretched open asshole, for FF, BB, cock and balls still there.
– Keith, 21, was a prison whore at 14, owned by inmates, arrested in a truck stop in Texas when he was 13 for hooking, did 5 years in Texas juvie prison, passed around, traded as a “favor whore”, good for groups, there is no NO in prison, he can never cum cause he was hypnotized in prison to never cum, why he wants to get fucked all the time.

Dom4ForTwink – April 1, 2026
Ah, he’s finally back! :o) The boys from Twinkanator are always young and very naughty, that’s how it’s always been. Hopefully it’ll be like that again. I’d love to have another go with Klaus if he’s still around. He was the biggest meth whore in Halle. He wracked my heart with his scruffy, lonesome face. It was the best and worst sex I’ll ever have.

Body Type Average
Ethnicity Mixed
Body Hair Not very hairy
Smoker Yes
Languages German, Czech, Ukrainian, Arabic, English
Position Versatile
Dick M – Uncut
Dirty Ask
Fisting Ask
S&M Ask
Kissing Ask
PNP Ask
Hourly Rate On request
Overnight Rate On request

 

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Winsomefacetightass, 19
Milan

Dont waste your time with me. Too cowardly to meet.
Seems I am a wannabe.

Again the information, so that you will not waste your time with me:
Because I am too scared to meet, I am not available.

Guestbook of Winsomefacetightass

oioio – April 11, 2026
Disappointing people since 2024

Winsomefacetightass (Owner) – April 4, 2026
Currently my mattress is on the floor due to a broken bed. Will be replaced soon.

Body Type Slim
Ethnicity Caucasian
Body Hair Little
Smoker No
Languages Italian, English
Position Bottom only
Dick S – Uncut
Dirty WS only
Fisting No
S&M Soft
Kissing Yes
PNP Ask
Hourly Rate 2€
Overnight Rate 1€

 

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SeaShell, 18
London

Hi, I just joined this app, it looks kinda grungy.

I’m a Belieber, which means I’m a huge Justin Bieber fan, and I’m proud that I look similar to him! And yes, I’m not Justin in the photos! But to everyone who thinks I’m Justin, thanks for the compliment 😉

What am I looking for here? I’m looking for generous men to get to know for short periods, men who have some sense and know what decency and respect mean!

And yes, I’m (barely) 18 years old!

Guestbook of SeaShell

LetMeHelpYouWithThat – April 10, 2026
Got a bowling pin, can I force it inside you?

TroyeSivan – April 9, 2026
Kiss me

DeepFuck67 – April 5, 2026
When I fuck a boy it changes the whole way that i feel towards him and creates a lasting desire to fuck him. It is because of these intense feelings that i have never been comfortable with escorts because it’s hard for me hide these feelings afterwards. I should probably also note that although i love fucking boys i don’t get especially turned on by sucking their cocks – i can’t help it and it’s just how i am. I wanted to make this note to ensure that you don’t cause me any disappointment.

Body Type Average
Ethnicity Caucasian
Body Hair Not very hairy
Smoker Yes
Languages English
Position Versatile
Dick L – Uncut
Dirty No
Fisting No
S&M No
Kissing Consent
PNP Weed only
Hourly Rate 150£
Overnight Rate 750£

 

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ElbowRoom, 20
Phoenix

I’m too high to write a full bio rn so just look at my stats then ill come back and edit this later today.

Guestbook of ElbowRoom

Fuzzy_Twunk – April 12, 2026
He sleeps in my garage and i will share him with anyone i get along with.

ElbowRoom (Owner) – April 10, 2026
Have been being a little more reckless then usual lately ive lost weight i should take new pics. Haven’t always been willing to put out for party favors but now am.

Cyril74240 – April 6, 2026
Nice enough. Hot ass. I fucked him with a condom, it broke. He got my cum inside. I’m poz with a high viral load. He didn’t care. I gave him extra big tip.

Studio1 – April 1, 2026
I met him on the street when he was homeless and may still be. I took him to my hotel room and fed him a fuckton of meth, most of a gallon Ziplock bag full of sTuff. I was shoveling handfuls of this sTuff into his mouth and ass. Then the high progressed to point where he collapsed and was incapacitated while I ravaged his hole. It was quite a sensation, and thrilling, and so damn hot. I had him back the next night. That’s how good it was. I hired him again a few days later, and that was the last time I saw him.

Body Type Athletic
Ethnicity Caucasian
Body Hair Some
Smoker Yes
Languages English
Position More bottom
Dick XL – Cut
Dirty WS only
Fisting Passive/Active
S&M Soft
Kissing Ask
PNP Yes
Hourly Rate 150$
Overnight Rate 500$

 

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ActorsWantedForPorn, 18-22
Berlin

For an artistic underground pornographic film (extreme, experimental) to be shot in Berlin, we are searching for young slim masochist no limits twinks guys, age max. 22. And for a hyper masculine sadistic no limits top, redneck style, masculine, bearded. This is a non-paid project! This is not porn for the regular internet to put it mildly.

Comments

ActorsWantedForPorn (Owner) – April 7, 2026
chrisT kinky_smart YOU’RE FFUCKHOT PURRFECTION

kinky_smart – April 7, 2026
i take my role very serious like my life depends on it because it actually does.

Oliver_Thompson – April 2, 2026
I’m an actor. if there’s anything horror and gay, there’s a high probability you’ve seen me in it. 👻

Micheal – April 2, 2026
Hello, I am a loving, easy-going, polite, sweet 22 year old guy. I am open to performing in porn and modelling. I have knowledge about BDSM and am willing to explore it, I am ready to perform both sexually and fetishistically. My sexual interests are very flexible and am very versatile and open to various areas of erotic pleasure.

Body Type Ask
Ethnicity Ask
Body Hair Ask
Smoker Ask
Languages Ask
Position Ask
Dick Ask
Dirty Ask
Fisting Ask
S&M Ask
Kissing Ask
PNP Ask
Hourly Rate On request
Overnight Rate On request

 

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WeakendUpdate, 19
Uddevalla

Next available dates:
From Thursday, April 12th to Monday, April 16th, 2026.

What’s possible:
I like older men than me, like a lot older. I especially like them with a large dicks that I can empty until their balls are parched.

There, I’ve got that out in the open… haha.

Like many others, I’m always horny, but you can also have a normal conversation with me — though not for long.

I don’t want to ejaculate during it. If ejaculation is a must, it will cost an extra 100.

Guestbook of WeakendUpdate

xxxLpotent – April 14, 2026
You can have him for a long time or a good time, you choose.

Hardwood – April 14, 2026
come to thailand with me this summer and i’ll get your cock and balls removed and we can get you a fresh new fuckhole to go with a nice set of titties.

DaddyandS0n – April 14, 2026
I have tentatively agreed to be his sugardaddy. We are in a trial period. He has until the end of April to proof his worth. Until then hold your horses.

WeakendUpdate (Owner) – April 13, 2026
Please note I am not interested in men who misinterpret my sluttiness as a cry for help.

MickyMouseMan – April 12, 2026
If I were to describe his personality it would be with the stillness of a buddist and a quiet strength from Kali-ma.

Body Type Slim
Ethnicity Caucasian
Body Hair Smooth
Smoker Yes
Languages Swedish, English
Position Bottom only
Dick No answer
Dirty Ask
Fisting No
S&M Yes
Kissing Yes
PNP Yes
Hourly Rate 70€
Overnight Rate 200€

 

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Pale-Like-A-Ghost, 20
Polatsk

Is there anyone willing to take full responsibility for me and raise me for the rest of my life?

Guestbook of Pale-Like-A-Ghost

RapBunny – April 4, 2026
I would be delighted to assist you.

Lucifer_zeus – April 4, 2026
I’m a billionaire who lives in Zurich, and I will.

Cuddly_Bear – April 4, 2026
Yes, absolutely.

Body Type Slim
Ethnicity Caucasian
Body Hair Smooth
Smoker Yes
Languages Russian, English
Position Versatile
Dick M – Uncut
Dirty No
Fisting No
S&M Ask
Kissing Yes
PNP Ask
Hourly Rate On request
Overnight Rate On request

 

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Opportunity4You, 19
Stari grad

If you know what “dirty” means and enjoy being fed, we’re on the same page. If you need explanations, this is not for you. Some may find this weird or shocking, but this profile wouldn’t exist if there wasn’t demand for it.

I arrive at your hotel room, provide the precious meal straight to your mouth, collect the payment, and leave you alone with your dark secret and satisfaction. If you can afford it, we schedule.

Guestbook of Opportunity4You

Opportunity4You (Owner) – April 8, 2026
Due to popular demand I’ll also piss on your normal food before you eat it.

Opportunity4You (Owner) – April 5, 2026
For me “dirty” is performed by one person to another person, and it works best if the person being fed shuts up and eats whatever the other person provides. That way the person delivering the meal is always fully into what he is doing and enthusiastic.

Opportunity4You (Owner) – April 3, 2026
Turn Off: Sex. Can’t stress enough that the answer will be ‘no’ regardless of how it’s phrased.

Body Type Slim
Ethnicity Mixed
Body Hair Shaved
Smoker Yes
Languages Serbian, English
Position Prefer not to say
Dick L – Uncut
Dirty Yes
Fisting No
S&M No
Kissing No
PNP Ask
Hourly Rate 100€
Overnight Rate 1000€

 

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Itsgonnaget_Deep, 18
Pili

Hi, I’m 18 years old, very slim, and a crazy boy.

I love money and big dicks. You can grab me, spit on me, fuck my mouth until I cry, drool, gag. And fuck my ass hard and sloppily until I can’t walk anymore.

I want to work for a pimp or in a brothel.

I’m into all men, which means anyone can contact me and feel comfortable with me, from 18 to 99 years old, from 60 to 300 kg. I’m into everyone.

I might not be the most handsome, but I’m the most depraved and horniest.

Guestbook of Itsgonnaget_Deep

Itsgonnaget_Deep (Owner) – April 11, 2026
Hey guys don’t be shy I won’t give you an STD … or maybe yes.

Itsgonnaget_Deep (Owner) – April 9, 2026
I neeeeed a Big Dick, if you know deep down in your heart you are small please don’t.

Allan_EviL – April 7, 2026
I hired this tiny little slut for a long session chems party I hosted with several other men when we did a sex tourism trip to the Philippines in February. I was clear that I wanted him to be the center of attention and used by us all but we were also wanted to have a great time as it was a party. He was truly amazing. He lasted all night long non-stop even though the air was so filled with popper fumes and meth clouds we could hardly breathe. The only time I was not fucking him was when he was getting fucked by one of the other men. It took hours and hours of bottoming for my and the other large cocks with a substantial chems assistance, but by what I thought was the end he could be DP’d so the hours stretched. My only regret was that we eventually ran out of sperm.

Body Type Slim
Ethnicity Asian
Body Hair Smooth
Smoker Socially
Languages English
Position Bottom only
Dick S – Uncut
Dirty Yes
Fisting Passive
S&M Yes
Kissing Yes
PNP Yes
Hourly Rate On request
Overnight Rate On request

 

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Thing3, 24
Brooklyn

I only like it really kinky. I need to be tied up before you use my hole for hours. Do whatever you want to me, for as long as you want. For an hour or two or night or weekend you’re the freewheeling master and I’m your immobilised little whore.

Guestbook of Thing3

Cutegaycouple – April 10, 2026
You just need a hobby.

NoDramaX – April 9, 2026
If you’ve never used the phrase STFU, you will.

Thing3 (Owner) – April 6, 2026
FISTTTTTTTTTTT MEEEEEE MAAAAN!!!! I’m soooooo fuuuuuuucking druuuuunk that I want a giant arm shoved straight up into my butt!!!!!! Take advantage of me in my drunken state and bring my ass into the fucking morgue like I need it deep inside my soul!!!!! Dead ass is hot as fuck. Fucking kill my retarded ass!

StealthCondomBreak – April 1, 2026
This bottom I have stealthed so many times and he is so clueless so dumb always condom paranoid safe nazi and so fucking stupid I have fucked other guys cum from condoms into his faggot pussy and he’s blindfolded none the wiser fuck so hot

Body Type Athletic
Ethnicity Mixed
Body Hair Shaved
Smoker No
Languages Italian, English
Position More bottom
Dick XL – Uncut
Dirty Yes
Fisting Passive/Active
S&M Yes
Kissing Yes
PNP Yes
Hourly Rate 100$
Overnight Rate 500$

 

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INeedtoMeet, 19
Hilton Head

Hello everyone, I’m a bit scared to use this app.

Guestbook of INeedtoMeet

Search4my2ndhalf – April 12, 2026
I don’t usually fist escorts but he was bent over throwing up five tequila shots and whatever he ate for dinner and my fingers slipped right in like it was NOTHING.

Macho_macho – April 9, 2026
Don’t ask him why he needs to meet.

nexris – April 8, 2026
Some boys are a revelation. I enjoy this wonderful boy with every cell of my body. He showed me what I need and what I like. Never before has a boy been able to understand and satisfy me like this. He’s the reason I am who I am.

Body Type Slim
Ethnicity Caucasian
Body Hair Little
Smoker Socially
Languages English
Position Versatile
Dick M – Cut
Dirty No answer
Fisting No
S&M No
Kissing Consent
PNP Ask
Hourly Rate On request
Overnight Rate On request

 

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Joeyy, 19
Wiesbaden

Hello everyone, I’m renting out my hot boyfriend on an hourly basis. I can be involved as a sidekick too, up to you. If you’re interested, feel free to contact me; if not, that’s okay too. Best regards, he also speaks German.

Guestbook of Joeyy

Joeyy (Owner) – April 10, 2026
I would never whore out a butt I haven’t personally tried out and bred. It’s a basic code of honor thing among my top bros. I won’t recommend a product I haven’t used. I have to be able to personally vouch for the quality of the cunt.

RUSSIAN_LOVER – April 8, 2026
There is a great contradiction within me: on one hand, one wonders why such hot-bodied young men feel the need to sleep with someone like me—someone in my age bracket—just to support themselves financially; yet on the other hand, I am infinitely grateful that this is the case.

Slutyou0ut – April 4, 2026
I fucked him like I have never fucked anyone before and like I doubt he will ever be fucked again.

Body Type Athletic
Ethnicity Mixed
Body Hair Shaved
Smoker No
Languages German, English
Position More bottom
Dick L – Uncut
Dirty No
Fisting Passive
S&M Yes
Kissing No
PNP Yes
Hourly Rate 400€
Overnight Rate 1000€

 

 

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p.s. Hey. ** John Christopher, Hey. I’m so sorry for getting too swamped yesterday. I hope you had a great time, and let’s do a rain check, I hope. ** Adem Berbic, Well, the US has a major hierarchy with multi-billionaires at the top, but they’re pretty much hated as opposed to being considered automatically superior and ‘classy’ due to their wealth. He’s a bit in the D’Amato camp but a little odder. I somehow knew your cat would find its way back, but phew anyway, and I hope it’s re-ensconced. ** Ghostofcock, February 1957. I’d have to look up the exact date. ** ⋆˚꩜。darbbzz⋆˚꩜。, Hey, pal. I can imagine how that gets. And I feel it in my other way. Thank you for thinking of me as that person. I’m super touched. Oh, you’re in or near Charlotte, aren’t you? That screening of RT there that I mentioned is happening on April 29 at Davidson College. I’ll give you the specifics as soon as they’re figured out. I’ll listen to that track in a bit. Thanks. I don’t think I know it/them, no. I really liked ‘Neuromancer’ when I read it way back when. I wonder how it holds up. Are you liking it? I wouldn’t have thought you were born in Florida, but Florida is so mysterious to me. Not in a good way necessarily. Yes, RIP Shozin Fukui. I just saw that a couple of days ago. Hang tough. ** julian, We do agree, I think, yes. Happy birthday late. It sounds like it was sufficiently festive. And obviously that’s great news that your muse is fully on board again. Getting positive feedback on my poems back when I was in college was really impactful. It’s important to believe in that praise, and it sounds like you are. And obviously again your new music project sounds very charismatic. They’re much more ‘pop’, but it also made me think of the great 60s band The Left Banke. ** Dominik, Hi!!! Yeah, it’s crazy good news even outside of Hungary. The far right here and elsewhere are feeling all doomy. I just read that he’s going to dismantle the government owned Hungarian media system, and that would be pretty huge in itself. My jet lag seems dead and my eye is borderline normal, thanks. The physical exam ended up taking all day, but they signed me off, so now I just supposedly wait until the Prefecture calls me in to hand me my residency card. We’ll see. I’ve never even looked at Temu. Weird. Should I? Due to popular demand love will also piss on your normal food before you eat it, G. ** _Black_Acrylic, His films can scratch a minor but hungry itch. Yay about your team. Wow! Could this be its year? Enjoy the bliss. You deserve it, pal. ** Brendan, I live in the 8th arr. which is kind of like UES of Paris, and I am similarly in a very non-swank apartment as I have to keep reminding people who hear I live here and suspect I have some secret elitism or something. xo. ** Laura, Hi. I think all the LSD I took as a teen made me decide that real exaltation excludes my dick. I’m fine, the physical exam was a lengthy breeze. Yeah, Filmin, that’s it. I hope they’ll take RT. Seems like they would. Intertext is a positive adjective to me. Without exception, I’m not sure? It does sound fun, but I’m also an intricast. Which isn’t a real word apparently. Thanks re: ‘God Jr.’, buddy. Aronofsky and Lanthimos are the pits. I join Steve in asking what film? ** Bill, I wish his films were consistently as good as that gif, but they are not. Exactly, re: Bul. I always feel guilty thinking that. Thanks, I’ll check out the thing on John’s b’day! ** rewritedept, I was okay, but only ever okay, with weed until I freaked out on LSD, and then it just brought back the freak out, so I swore off the stuff. Cheap Trick plays everywhere all the time but not over here, the fuckers. ** fish, Hi, fish! Great to see you! The escort and slave post accumulate over time. Usually I go look for prospects when I’m waking up and drinking my first coffee of the day because the kind of attention have to pay gets my brain back in gear. Um, I pay attention to how written porn works when I’m writing scenes or things involving sex, but I’m always trying to subvert and complicate that effect at the same time. I don’t get aroused when I’m writing about sex, no. I think about what would arouse me, but I’m too preoccupied with the calculations to get actually horny. Do you write about sex? What’s that like for you, if so? ** Carsten, The saline seems to be doing the trick luckily. I think when I think about or overhear ‘The Rhythm of the Night’ I think about an old SNL sketch that used it heavily. I don’t mind Reed’s grumpiness. I hosted a reading by him at Beyond Baroque once, and he was quite unfriendly and grumpy, but I knew enough about him not to take it personally. ** Gustavo, Thank you! I wrote down your suggestions. I’m actually not very versed at all when it comes comix, which is partly why I asked. I’m one of the rare people who never read them even as a kid, so they’re a kind of foreign species to me, and I keep wanting to get to know them. And thanks for the games. I only know Bloodborne among those. Hotline Miami: repetitive and addictive sounds good at the moment. Maybe I’ll test that one first. Visa related exam went pretty okay, as far as I can tell. They don’t like that I smoke cigarettes, but they didn’t cancel me for that. What’s new on your end? ** Steve, The physical went okay. They took some tests, but they got the results on the spot, and I seem to be healthy enough. Yves Tumor acting? Huh. Could work, I guess. Yeah, I mean, you know Rotterdam is not a buzzy festival these days, so it feels pretty low-key unlike, I’m imagining, Locarno does, but their programming is quite adventurous, and we had a great time and saw quite a number of very good films that seemed to die on the vine sadly because I never saw anything about them again. ** Hugo, This book on Rammellzee is very good. It conveys his crazy genius pretty well. I’ve had Rammellzee’s work in theme posts, but I haven’t done a full post about him, yet at least. ** HaRpEr //, Thanks, my eye is much improved, and the exam was endless but I passed. ‘Tilt’ does seem like an excellent weapon, yes. Your approach to sex in your novel interests me of course. Zac’s and my first film was about sex that only pays off in the mind if even there. That is really interesting about the Stones/Beatles and Blur/Oasis background underlay. Hm. Was that understood by the people who constructed the class thing about them? Something to really think about, if so. Thanks, pal! ** Right. And here are your monthly escorts just a wee bit belatedly. See you tomorrow.

16 Comments

  1. Dominik

    Hi!!

    Yes, one of the first projects seems to be the dismantling of the government-owned media, which is hugely important and still almost unbelievable after so many years. Things are very busy at the moment, and there’s huge pressure on Magyar to keep up the momentum because people have great expectations.

    I’m really glad to hear that both the jet lag and the eye infection are as good as dead – or almost! And though a day-long series of physical exams doesn’t sound too good, I hope it really was the last step of the process and you’ll have your residency card in your hands ASAP.

    Honestly, no. Temu is full of hard-to-resist but utterly useless stuff.

    That’s so generous of love – thank you! Like many others, love is always horny, but you can also have a normal conversation with him — though not for long, Od.

    • Laura

      that was one of my fab bits ‘but not for long’, like who even says that…? only someone v great says that lol

  2. _Black_Acrylic

    Funny that SeaShell is a London-based Bieber fan. Never imagined there could be a market for JB in this country. Oh wait, so that’s London, Ontario in Canada. Makes more sense haha.

  3. Laura

    hi Dennis!

    you know what a soft spot i’ve got for these guys. <3 i’m shagged out just picturing the one trying to make hay while on a biking quest, and such a nice touch too for the bloke w his roster of chopped kids to be droning on about smut but still spare a sweet thought to the goodness of our arab skin lmao. ‘don’t offer me love, i’m begging’ guy seems like a p real one.

    idk these posters and the commenters who interact w them (‘best and worst sex ever’) make me happy bc they carve this space in the imagination and maybe the world too, lol, where emotions & expectations are always shooting off in all directions so it’s easier to both breathe and associate new thoughts and stuff. long life!

    yay, so yr physical bit the dust, yea? congrats mate & i’m v selfishly happy. ^_^

    what’s an intracast? 😀 anyway i told you, Dennis, you’re a muse. ^_^

    v sorry in advance but couldn’t help overhearing George was either an Aquarius or a Pisces— as a Pisces myself, and Pisces have Aquarius-esque social tendencies i hear, he sometimes makes me think of the Mahdi a bunch. he started giving that super hard, back when you shared his v interesting, v layered letter on here…? tbh i wish i could read everything he wrote, if that weren’t like a breach of privacy or distasteful to you. anyway, impressive guy in spite of and bc of, might have really saved the world, who knows. or he might yet in a diff way, or he might have done that already like for your sake. if not, whomever it’ll eventually fall to could really remember him. anyway and metaphysics aside, it’s so good that he lived. and sorry again you

    • Laura

      (ugh my message got messed up halfway thru…. i’m taking it from that last paragraph again)

      v sorry in advance but couldn’t help overhearing George was either an Aquarius or a Pisces— as a Pisces myself, and Pisces have Aquarius-esque social tendencies i hear, he sometimes makes me think of the Mahdi a bunch. he started giving that super hard, back when you shared his v interesting, v layered letter on here…? tbh i wish i could read everything he wrote, if that weren’t like a breach of privacy or distasteful to you. anyway, impressive guy in spite of and bc of, might have really saved the world, who knows. or he might yet in a diff way, or he might have done that already like for your sake. if not, whomever it’ll eventually fall to could really remember him. anyway and metaphysics aside, it’s so good that he lived. and sorry again <3

      mood whiplash if you’re still w me:

      you got v lucky w yr drugs… sort of glad that every time i tried to trip as a teenager was so mid. i believe desire can be what drugs couldn’t. that and a bunch of random weird shit but whatever. still want to talk this to death =)

      what’s it like for you when you write? idk, not just straight up sex but also less explicit stuff in the same conceptual family? it’s weird for me, like, part of me is into it but the rest is thinking v fast about structure and subversions and i’m basically talking shop to myself the whole time. the pleasure at the end is v hybrid obvi, part sex part you can stop climbing now part oh there’s the mirror or the window, i made it myself. can’t say it’s a spontaneous way of writing but it’s also not contrived, its… ??? performance…? not in a Judith Butler-ish way lol, more authentic. but idk lol.

      gosh! Aronofsky and Lanthimos really are the pits aren’t they. imo Aronofsky’s got an edge tho, and it’s how unwittingly superfunny he gets at his darkest and edgiest. double dildo of despair…? amazing. excu-i mean- excuse-me, uh, mayb-maybe… don’t… mangle, i mean, like, my… baby…? pls…? guys…? *incompetent sobbing* rotflmao (guy doesn’t think it’s worth knowing what a woman is, and his homophilia is so galaxy brained it slightly dulls the pain of all the wasted money)

      but for smth completely different, the short i meant, Dennis and @Steven, is this, i find it punk and super charming ^_^

      https://youtu.be/QMwbax8FbVI

      imo **spoilers! save for after lol** the best part is the tragicomedy re: power (v subterranean in that world) and how its antidote (freedom, the individual, love) must be arrived at by chance and necessity, then represented as way more subterraneous (two addicts w mixed motives & limited choices basically make each other angels by choosing)

      anyway, in today’s writing i’m dealing w a conversation running the risk of becoming a monologue, gotta see how i feel about my options here bc it’s not like an actual monologue would fuck it all up completely… might, tho. huh. wish me luck lol

      ♥ you

  4. kenley

    hi dennis!

    “my penis area is completely inflammatory” is my fave line from this batch. Oliver_Thompson looks like a boy i had a crush on in hs. Pale-Like-A-Ghost has the right idea…sign me up for a billionaire in zurich

    glad your eye is feeling somewhat better and your exam went well!! gah…im dealing with my own medical humiliation ritual so…solidarity. and ughhhh i flew back from newfoundland over the weekend. i miss it already……..

    this is so random. have you ever seen akerland’s spun? i watched it at my nail tech’s place yesterday, followed by a few glorious episodes of uk skins (i get crazy acrylics so yes my nail appts take that long haha). aaaaaanyway…i sort of got the sense that you wouldnt be into it but still have something interesting to say abt it? or maybe you do like it for equally interesting reasons. or maybe you havent seen it. idk, im curious any which way!

  5. Carsten

    So they waved you through & you’re getting your visa? Excellent! They don’t like that you smoke? In France, the (to my eyes) smoker’s capital of Europe? What did they scold you or something? What ever happened to live & let live…

    You mean the SNL sketch with the head-bobbing guys who go clubbing? That one, weirdly, exists with different soundtracks. “What is Love” was the original says Wikipedia. I’ve seen that one set to “Rhythm of the Night” too, though Lavant’s manic solo-dance at the close of “Beau Travail” cleaned the slate for me.

    One more thing on Reed: Vice did a video on his anti-“Hamilton” play. They’re trying to trip him up along the lines of “millions of people love this & you’re saying it’s bad?” That’s right, he says. Stone-faced, sticks to his principles, tells people point blank they’re falling for bullshit, even compares having black & Hispanic actors playing the founding fathers is like having Jews play Hitler & Goebbels. I love the man.

  6. ⋆˚꩜。darbbzz⋆˚꩜。

    Hello good friend. Remember yesterday when I was a bit overwhelmed and was saying “I just need one day to recharge alone to myself?” Well guess what, the universe heard me this morning because my manager called me out of work, which wouldve been a 10am-5pm shift So I have free time yeah!

    Oh, today im also very excited that I was given time this morning and afternoon to recover because literally an 8 minute walk at uncw campus at 6pm there is going to be a free film viewing labelled “Transgender Underground Cinema Cultural Event” with a horror movie “Of The Flesh” and “bleeders” and I definitly wouldve had a hard time recovering and likely would not want to go if I worked all day.
    An actor’s name is “Allison Chains” fun. I met them once and rambled about my ereaserhead doll that I sewed. She was very sweet, would love to see her more. I’ll send you the pic on instagram so u see it’s cool.
    The movie likely very legit, I rember when they were posting very interesting erotic photos on her story with SALO 120 days book propped on the desk next to her.

    Yeterday I did a special ocassion as I havent done any blow for a good minute. I get bored of mirrors, cards, etc, and i want to do this thing where I cut a line on a different CD/cassette/book. I remember last October I cut a line on Anne Rice’s LASHER book, recently I used my Neuromancer book, and then this morning,around 6am, ( 5 hrs ago so dont worry totally not blown out rn) I used Bjork’s telegram CD and I made a white mustache on Bjork’s blue illuminated face. I take a picture, as I take a picture of anything in life that looks like “art” even if a boring uninspired person doesnt see it. I take pictures of food, mundane wildflowers, my cat. Gosh! yesterday I took a photo of my triangle tofu which I gave a desserty flavor by cooking it with lavender honey, Texas Roadhouse’s special honey cinnamon butter that someone obscurely gave me, and of course a sprinkle of sea salt because recently my friend moved me with this inspiring tangent about how crucial and revitalizing salt is as a body experience. I can send you a pic of the tofu aswell if your curious. Oh, also if your interested in the bjork photo too, but I would understand why you wouldnt want to see it.
    One of these day’s I want to collage all my random photo’s both posted on instagram stories +more private stuff and just upload the mon my website. Obviously not the “illicit stuff” or no, well it depends.

    Re: the “line” CD art, I do it because it makes it more inventful and characterises the high with these different textures of sound and personalities.
    Also I dont leave scratches on the things I use, but even if I do it doesnt bother me.
    Not sure if this is a weird thing to mention, but I definitly have not yet had the space to share this ritual with anyone else, (like not share the chemical, but tell the story to someone)
    Thats so very cool about Charlotte!! EEek I would totally definitly want to try to make that! Maybe i’ll force my sister to take me since she’s the only actual weird person who I introduced to your books and actually cared. THats why I need to make actual “weird” friends who arent so morally driven and their only weirdness is they are alternative presenting and have pericings and are into local music, yet also arent slipping into bigotry from alcohol-induced rants, and also arent trying to be haughty. Its a very hard line to decipher.

    Edit: I fear Ive rambled too much on this one, but when I start to think about deleteing/ editing it, I get overwhelmed, and want to delete everything so never hard feeling if you skip the fluff.

  7. ⋆˚꩜。darbbzz⋆˚꩜。

    LAURA: RE yesterdays reply. I love your taste! The other day I got a chemical brother CD at goodwill. I love them!!!

  8. Ghostofcock

    That’s interesting. The most important person in my life was also born in February, on the 19th. Can I ask if you use outlines in your writing, or do you prefer an intuitive approach? And also: when was last time you took drugs? Thanks

  9. Steve

    Do you have a link for Soap2Day which still works? The one you posted in your best of 2025 list has gone dead.

    @Laura-Seeing that this is a Connor Storrie short explains things. HEATED RIVALRY fans get extremely weird about him and Hudson Williams.

    “he was hypnotized in prison to never cum”- an interesting fantasy twist

    Rotterdam’s catalog makes everything sound like a masterpiece, but it sounds like a festival where I could see films that are never gonna play New York, and their retrospective sidebars are always intriguing.

  10. Gustavo

    Hey.
    Ow, you know, the usual stuff. Just studying, hanging out with some friends, going to the gym and watching movies, there’s nothing too big happening in my life right now. I have been indulging in William E. Jones work recently, not sure if you heard about him, I particularlly liked Tearoom, he also wrote books but I still need to check them out, it seems interesting. I also have been listening to more music, I am not a very musical person except for some video game soundtrack and a brazillian musician called Belchior, so I checked somethings cited on this blog like Sparks, 7038634357 and Guided By Voices, I enjoyed all of them, thanks by the way.
    On the post today, I was actually surprised to learn that the written text is actually real, that’s not you writing it. “Belieber”, haha, didn’t know about this term.
    Anyway, glad your physical went ok. And how are you doing? Any news besides the visa thing?

  11. Hugo

    Hi Dennis

    Thanks for the rec, it’s a bit out of my price range right now but I will be keeping an eye on it. I was listening to an old compilation and came across his track “Beat bop” and became enamoured by it, so I want to indulge my obsession a little bit. I will be going to an exhibition of his if I get the chance.
    I was going through the old blog on the internet archive. It’s very funny to see people discussing Polanski and you disliking the movie “The ghost writer” (which I have never seen) – Weird how some discussions have shifted and how consistent the slaves are…I wonder where they are now sometimes. Also the replies were all really long back then.
    I will be working on an Arto Lindsey post when I find the time. Also, I found a post where you called Oingo Boingo fans “Jocks” which I find funny…every Oingo Boingo fan I know now is a gay mentally ill teenager.
    Take care!

  12. HaRpEr //

    Great to hear about your eye! And I know it was about your visa, but I have to say, every time I go to a doctor for a cough or something fairly asinine, they spend a good amount of time trying to convince me to quit smoking like I’m a kid being punished by the headmaster.

    One important facet that I didn’t mention was that the class thing was constructed around north vs south with both the Beatles vs Stones as well as Blur vs Oasis, but more extreme in the latter. I think the Britpop wars were an opening of old wounds. A lot of people in England really resent London and how big of a thing it is. The north is typically perceived as friendlier and more representative ‘of the people’. Whereas London is perceived as cold, arty, bohemian, and lonely. Weird considering the north gave birth to Joy Division, the Bunnymen, Autechre, Cabaret Voltaire, and a lot of industrial music. So it’s all just marketing that plays with people’s sympathies and biases, but very successfully.

    Yeah, ‘Like Cattle…’ really nails that blank space. In my case the buildup is really important because you feel that you’re on the brink of realizing something incredibly profound and try to tie every loose thread together quickly in your mind, but you suddenly climax and then it all comes to nothing. But I guess I’m interested in having the loose threads instead of something imaginable, like having the feeling that the access to pleasure is out of your own hands. And I guess a big thing for me is the gendered performance with what the body does as well as how someone envisions themself in their head, but it’s really difficult for me to explain, but helpful to try and verbalize. I know when I’m writing it when it feels right, and that’s probably all that matters. I suppose having a lot of sexual encounters where my needs or interests were never taken into account has probably shaped my writing approach. That kind of dissociative state has definitely affected how I write/want to write. Like, I sort of want the whole book to be someone leaving their body and disappearing into the text, looking at a part of their life but never interjecting or given the privilege of a narrative voice.

  13. Bill

    Quite the German presence today, Dennis. And half of them go for that Harris Dickinson look, ha.

    I second Gustavo’s recommendation for Tsutomu Nihei’s Blame! It’s all about the architecture, packed with twisted towering structures and vertiginous drops. Very Pirandello-esque. The anime adaptation is pretty boring though.

    Bill

  14. Nicholas.

    Haha! I am serene actually thanks for noticing as a direct manifestation of myself finally it’s been rather easy to remain steady. Directly piloting my ship now lets say and I get to use the pen you know how lucky that is! Do you write your goals down!? If you do/have have you found it work? Octavia Butlers manifestation style is scientific and legendary to me and a direct model of the power of the literal written word. Also whats your favorite tense? I write all my goals down like im just greatful ite my life and the results are stellar! Life so small it’s actually manageable! Joey thinks its great idea I wanna work at a gym haha he told me to shoot for equinox which was already my idea too! Hdbsbsnsns anyways ill be back so you can wait up for me ttylxoxo.

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