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Szasz’s dark imagination – brutal scenes of cold sadism – is matched by her intimidatingly brilliant writing. Not only that, but Szasz possesses the skill to find the balance between a piece of dazzling experimental writing that is also completely readable in an addictive, page-turning way.
—Thomas Moore

Szasz’s writing reads like controlled frenzy, a limpid prose which – antithetically – contains all of the darkness and monsters we refuse to acknowledge. We might even have a genius on our grubby hands.
—Steve Finbow

 

 

A major novel of perversity and pleasure from a richly exciting new literary talent. Apparently orphaned in a foreign land engulfed by civil war, Tamara finds herself in an isolated and notoriously mismanaged home for abandoned children.

Initially unable to comprehend the local language, she attempts to communicate nonverbally, having seemingly lost the faculty of speech. Unaware of her parents’ true whereabouts – or whether in fact they are even alive – Tamara struggles to make herself understood and to survive in this alien environment where chaos reigns and brutality – or sheer indifference – unfortunately appears to be the norm.

A sinister cast of characters duly appears, including the glamorous but corrupt Director, her overbearingly sadistic partner the Doctor, not to mention the Father – a perverse cleric with a penchant for cruelty – amongst other unsavoury and remorseless individuals, all enforcing a strict hierarchy between the adults and the children (and thus the perpetrators and the victims of institutionalised violence).

Meanwhile, a number of different voices or alters jostle for psychic dominance over Tamara’s internal narrative; through various temporal shifts, rotations and leaps in chronological perspective our heroine’s journey – both geographical and psychological – is described in a disintegrating arc of obscure recollections, fragmented diary entries and increasingly obscene erotic fantasies.

Conversely, these kaleidoscopic projections, delirious daydreams and compulsive diatribes gradually accumulate to articulate a traumatised inner topography that mirrors the devasted and desolate external landscape of a perpetual war zone….

Release Date: 29/04/2022
Hardcover, 214 pages.

 

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They told me that my name is Tamara. But maybe it’s not my real name. I can’t remember anything anyway. I don’t even know where my parents are. The Director told me that my parents are dead. She told me that they were shot in the square. In the city. There was a big shooting there. The people were all lined up in the square, and the soldiers who were standing up on the balconies or lying on the roofs of the buildings fired their guns. They shot everyone in the square. Nobody could escape because the army put tanks at either end of the square so nobody could run away. They all got shot. The Director says my parents are dead but I don’t believe her. One day my parents will come and get me. The Director tells me not to worry. She says I am safe now. She says nobody will ever find me. (p.8)

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I’m basically ignorant and if possible I’d like to keep it that way — illumination is so overrated — and I heard a belt coming down, felt it instantaneously lashing my lower limbs, my thighs, my ass and I didn’t know exactly who was responsible because I was blindfolded and I’d taken too many of those tranquillisers and had too many cocktails and I was probably drooling like an imbecile — I’d been tied to a rocking horse — my tormentors often commented on the youthful innocence of my smile and contrasted it with the perversity of my behaviour — you can put a label on anything but ultimately it’s meaningless — because I am an incorrigible ant in insect time broken burning drowning in the mire of destiny — like all infamous creatures, I have done my share of questionable things — sometimes I feel something approaching shame or guilt — but in reality I have no remorse and after I’ve been particularly cruelly treated I like to examine myself using mirrors — so narcissistic right? — and then they take photographs of me — so we can all remember the contusions that blossom on my skin so brightly, like meadows of lavender in Provence or jacaranda petals inundating the streets of Bulawayo, like a storm of violet confetti — of course they’re precious to me these days, particularly the marks given to me by those whom I love or despise the most and I must like emotionally unavailable people because I scorn intimacy and I have certain needs that must be fulfilled, and I have to select my tormentors carefully just like a designer ponders over their fabrics — yes, I maintain strict criteria and I can’t allow myself to become enslaved to just anyone — not that it would even be possible to give myself away so easily because I have such contempt in my heart for most people — virgo fidelis, my dream childhood, conjuring up images of pink-kneed, dewy-eyed girls trampling wildflowers, across the emerald expanse of lush meadows free from landmines or camouflaged snipers — sinking into cement-grey quicksand — adolescent romance smothered in multiple layers of contaminated sediment — buried beneath various levels of so-called original sin — easing into self-recrimination, day after day — climaxing occasionally — groping soundlessly in the direction of a forgotten sun — and I tell myself that my life ought to have been a bed of roses — on the surface of things — that superficial layer of ice which obscures the depths beneath — I guess it could have been — and it could be yet, in theory — if I could just turn things around — I’m still young, reasonably intelligent, and if I could be bothered, I could probably make something of myself — but anxiety — inexplicably — seizes me, grips my little heart in a vice of trepidation and obscure longing, like a sadistic woman clutching my skinny wrists with her firm hands, clamping them behind my back, or twisting my arms painfully at the elbow, and putting me over her knee, as though I’m still a recalcitrant pupil, an infernal bad girl, who has committed some minor infraction — and naturally, she then goes on to lift my skirt, pull down my tiny black knickers, and having composed herself — I’m wriggling, probably, like a piglet — begins to spank me with unexpected zeal — and if it seems like she’s done this before, it’s because she has — and apparently she likes injured ballerinas, Eastern European waifs, and selective-mute know-it-all brats with black eyes — of course if they happen to look slightly young for their age, it’s a bonus…. (pp.57-59)

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You would love to tie me spreadeagled on the classroom floor and repeatedly stamp on me until you’ve broken my ribs. You call me ugly, hideous, paint freckles on my face, take me to the dentist and pay him to fix totally unnecessary and unsightly metal braces to my upper teeth that hurt my gums and make me look like I’m twelve years old. Barely literate teenagers, predictably outraged by the provocation that my altered appearance represents, mock me mercilessly and pelt me with KFC whilst subjecting me to a tirade of barely comprehensible verbal abuse. They drag me into the road and I am run over by a big yellow school bus. Then I lie in hospital with my jaw wired shut so I can’t speak and my limbs in plaster. Luckily someone has thoughtfully painted rainbows and butterflies on the walls in an attempt to cheer me up during my convalescence. (p.62)

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I hate you. I hate you. Why don’t you love me? You think I can’t give you what you want? You think I can’t turn anyone on? I could go out into the street and get torn to shreds by eighty soldiers in one afternoon. I could have them booting my lifeless little corpse around a crater that used to be a supermarket car park, hoofing me into the trash like a deflated beach ball. I could have them crucifying me with a nail-gun in the gutted remains of the National Museum. All I know is suffering — hate and death. That’s all I understand now. It’s my heritage. My birthright. Our collective legacy. Distilled brutality. I enjoy my punishment. I am a filthy little cunt. I don’t know any better. Look at me you filthy whore. Looking at my crushed and crippled hand? You think that’s fucking funny? Maybe a tank should flatten your car when you’re in it, attempting to traverse a junction. Maybe you get shot right through the skull as your engine idles at an army checkpoint. Maybe you get cut down in a terrorist attack and your body and head are shredded by white-hot shrapnel but you survive it all. I really don’t care. (pp.113-14)

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My name is Minnie Mouse. I squeak incessantly like a little rodent. God told me to gas you then skin your corpse. Your skin so soft, so luxurious. I’d look good as a lampshade. Light of my life. Fire in my groin. Put it inside me. I want to feel it. I need to lose gracefully, like a good sport. I need to step aside. I need a pump-action shotgun and a shopping mall full of unwilling victims. I need a shot of rhythm and blues. Just give me some of that rock and roll music, any old way you choose it. If you wanna dance with me. Takes two to tango. Takes one to know one. One of a kind. One in a million. A million mouths sucking your tits. A thousand fingers flicking my switch. Milk it. Buy it. Love it. Own it. Bought and sold. Used and abused. First hand, second hand, handouts, left hanging, hung out to dry, lay it on the line, somewhere along the line, line them up, knock them down, knock them dead, knock it off, knock some sense into them, a senseless killing, mindless violence, an act of cowardice, a sickening stunt, creaming your pants, egg on your face, scream like a baby, throw your toys out of the pram, eight days a week, in roller-skates, like a pretentious piece of shit. I am stupid and I know it. I am an irredeemably tedious cunt. I am a brat. Just beat me to death with a baseball bat. I would enjoy it. It’s what I want. That would be paradise. I masturbate thinking about it. But I can’t even get close to coming. Nothing will take me all the way anymore. I go to the old people’s home. It stinks of ammonia and excrement. I roll around in their unwashed beds and sniff their linen. It makes me gag and retch and I masturbate hopelessly for hours in futile search of an ever- elusive climax whilst manipulative power-hungry nurses pull on rubber gloves and massage my slender limbs and pour castor oil down my throat until I heave and vomit. It is revolting, idiotic, disgusting, depraved yet utterly banal. I begin to drown in my own sick. I indulge each of my otiose fantasies. I wish the nurse would tie me up so tightly my blood circulation is cut off and then smash a vase over my head and suffocate me with duct tape and a pillow filled with Canadian goose feathers. I wish a mortar shell would land on this building. I wish for air force drones to bomb this town repeatedly for days on end until there is nothing left except a vast lifeless wasteland. A cratered moonscape. I wish for walls of fire to consume this yokel country. I wish a phalanx of marauding cyborgs would stroll through the towns and villages executing any living creature their sensors detect. I hate everyone but I hate myself most of all. I vouch for no one. (pp.131-32)

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Audrey Szasz (aka Zutka) is a London-based writer. She is the author of two novels; Zealous Immaculate (2022) and Tears of a Komsomol Girl (2020) plus two novellas, Invisibility: A Manifesto (2020) and A-Z of Robomasochism (2022) published by Amphetamine Sulphate and Infinity Land Press respectively.

 

LINKS:

Instagram: @szasz_audrey
https://audreyszasz.com/

Audrey Szasz performing at Prague Microfestival 2021

Audrey Szasz ‘Agent Erdely’ on Nearest Truth
https://nearesttruth.com/episodes/ep-199-audrey-szasz-agent-erdely/

Audrey Szasz on Anechoic Chamber:
https://soundcloud.com/thomas_bey_william_bailey/anechoic-chamber-episode-17-audrey-szasz

Interview with Adam Lehrer, Safety Propaganda
https://safetypropaganda.substack.com/p/safety-propagandist-10-audrey-szasz?s=r

Audrey Szasz on Wake Island:
https://anchor.fm/wake-island/episodes/Audrey-Szasz—Tears-of-a-Komsomol-Girl-erk1n6

Tears of a Komsomol Girl review by KDbooks:

 

 

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p.s. Hey. This weekend the blog adorns its red carpet costume on behalf of the brand new novel by master of wordage’s ceremony Audrey Szasz as inserted into the world by new lit’s powerhouse influencer Amphetamine Sulphate. Please spend your local weekend portion checking out the book and its inculpatory evidence. Thanks, and thank you to Audrey for putting together this aperitif! ** _Black_Acrylic, That is a nice phrase. And you’ve come to the rescue of my weekend yet again! Everyone, It’s Xmas in April for your ears courtesy of maestro _Black_Acrylic a la … ‘The new episode of Play Therapy is online here via Tak Tent Radio! Ben ‘Jack Your Body’ Robinson delivers Italo melancholia, Belgian Post-Punk and some new Dancehall experimentalism.’ Whoop whoop! ** David Ehrenstein, I need to read that Adler/Kael piece. This weekend somehow. I wonder if having been wedded to Broughton, one of the worst American experimental filmmakers IMO, had to do with her back turning on the field? ** Misanthrope, Hey! I wondered why I didn’t see on your ‘big’ day. Thanks from the future, buddy. Flit used to be on Facebook, I remember, but, yeah, no sign of him in a very long time. I don’t think I ever knew what his real name was, though, so maybe he’s still around there? The Mexican restaurant portion of your weekend is the highpoint from afar. I hope the whole thing is a blast, man. ** T. J., Oh, now that’s interesting. Rosselini scuttering Duras’s award is somehow hilarious. No, I mean, Kael was very interesting, for sure, and a very good writer. I was an Andrew Sarris guy back in the day when film criticism reading people divided up into those who were Sarris people vs. the Kael contingent. Thanks a lot! ** Dominik, Hi!!! The commenters seemed kind entertainingly coked up this month. Yeah, one more bookstore event on Tuesday. No, it’s at Cahier de Colette, which is a very literary and legendary store. Kind of an honor for me to be welcomed there. Eating a cheese quesadilla is what sex should always be like. Thank you for the perfect Love. I mean, it was kind of perfect, right? Love translating the big review that ‘I Wished’ got in the French newspaper Liberation today into flawless English so I can celebrate or droop, G. ** ryanryan, Hi! No problem, man. Time is relative, ideally at least. Big and good busy on your end, nice. I’m pretty sure that with our little budget we’ll need to stick to hiring actors for our film who live a short drive from the set, but thank you! I’m the tallest in my family. People say the tallest and shortest ones are the ones fated for the most glory. Or maybe they don’t say that. I think they do. Everything is fine with me, just lots and lots of uninteresting to hear about work and worry and forward inching on the film project and seeing friends and all that stuff. I hope your guessed at a chill weekend panned out. Champagne glass style *clink”. ** Steve Erickson, It’s not impossible that the lyricist of a death metal band read that post and realised he should steal that verbiage. Let’s keep our ears peeled. I haven’t seen any Zelensky fantasising yet, which is quite odd now that you mention it. I, of course, don’t know those TV shows. ‘Vortex’ just opened here, and I’ll see it soon, possibly this weekend. I thought ‘Lux Aeterna’ was pretty much total crap. ** Brandon, Hi, Brandon. Nice to see you! Sorry about the funk. I hear you. I’m not in a funk, but I’m in one of those states where I have hair-trigger stress that’s always boiling under the surface, when it isn’t erupting, I mean. Less shitty job! Yay! So your tattoo session is also a first date? That could cut through some ice, seemingly. Should you want it to once the ‘date’ commences, of course. I hope he’s an excellent tattooist if nothing else. Happy that you got to draw and write. That’s where a funk is probably better than a stressfest. Nothing hugely new with me, just lots of film stuff inching forward. Trying to get the point where Zc and I can come to LA and start the groundwork. Mm, I’ve hardly seen anything, although this weekend I’ll see some art and probably at least one movie. If I see anything that should be passed along, I’ll let you know. I hope the inking goes as hoped and the general weekend is the perfect temperature. ** G, Hi! Oh, I’ll try to find that photo. The reading went pretty well, I think. Thanks. You had one too, no? How was yours? No events for me outside of Paris coming up that I know of. I think when I get to LA, I’ll probably do something there. Have a splendiferous weekend, pal! ** Adrian, Hi, Adrian. Good to meet you, and thanks for coming inside. Yes, very true, about the harrowing. Having been making those posts for years now and spending a lot of time on those sites looking for things, I feel pretty confident in saying that about 90% or so of what they write is pure fantasising aloud. Which doesn’t taking the harrowing out of it, but feeling relatively safe in assuming those guys are doing a big, very dark circle jerk changes how it feels to be there at least. Thanks a lot. Please feel more than free to come back anytime for any reason. ** Right. You know what you have in front of you this weekend already, so I’ll leave you to it. See you on Monday.

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Sn*ffmeout, 18
Book me for a rape and execution.

Who pays can determine the process.

There is one place where you can rape and kill me at your whim.

Take detached genitals as a gift.

Snuff me, come on!

Comments

lukethenomad – Apr 27, 2022
I hate this “civilized world”. There is nothing holy to me except blood and death. That caused some problems in my life: When other people talk about genocides, they would say, “That so horrible”, then keep enjoying their dinner. Me? I would only say, “THAT’S NOT ENOUGH!!!”.

Let the hypocritical kind words to the hell! My heart longs for rivers of blood, extreme anger, pain, and despair. Only remove the skin of humans, back to origin. Realize and accept that humans just are a kind of animal, then we can accept any atrocities, and view it as a kind of art. IT’S SO GREAT!!!

Sn*ffmeout (Owner) – Apr 25, 2022
Thanks but you freaks are like shooting fish in a barrel.

wealthymaster – Apr 25, 2022
I would like to commend you for launching the most successful ever test of the force field surrounding my fantasies.

Sn*ffmeout (Owner) – Apr 25, 2022
Sure, why not.

HAPPYFUNGAMES – Apr 25, 2022
i would love to take you to the woods and i would love to bury you alive in the ground with only your dead ass sticking out to be fucked in

Sn*ffmeout (Owner) – Apr 18, 2022
Sure, why not.

fetaMier – Apr 18, 2022
Hi, I am 29, mostly straight, however, when it goes to snuff and necro and autopsies, I am bisexual! <3 I am also into dark cardiophilia, if you have a thing for having your heart stopped and started again many times before the snuff, necro and autopsy, it will be huge turn on!

 

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MAKEITFFIT, 18
Hi, my name is Beck. Mom liked some singer. I was involved in a car accident in 2018 causing alot of issues from my involuntary nervous system playing up to incontinence to mobility issues and I have always been worried that people would never accept that, especially when it comes to “behind closed doors” as I didn’t know if anyone out there would freak out about that fact I have a catheter and need to use a bed pan. Please cover my face in spit, piss, cum, snot, shit, food, blood, vomit.

Comments

MAKEITFFIT (Owner) – Apr 9, 2022
YOU’LL NEVER GET TIRED OF ME!

MAKEITFFIT (Owner) – Apr 8, 2022
Master thank YOU Sir! Master YOUR slave seeks to marry you Master Sir! Ready for a life of happiness with YOU Sir. Master thank YOU Sir!

SleazyCock – Apr 8, 2022
If you’re interested in impact play (paddling, crops/canes, whips, bats), breath control (strangling, smothering, bagging, suffocation), and don’t mind a bottom that has more tubes coming out of him that a guitar has strings then just picture yourself looking down at him, his head shoved underwater in a full bathtub, your strong hands gripping his throat while you drown him out like the erratum he is. If this is the kind of scene that gets you hot, don’t be shy.

MAKEITFFIT (Owner) – Apr 2, 2022
Please, if I’m not for you just move on there’s no need to be vile!

 

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TrashJunk, 24
Drug addict / Toxicomane
Dirty / Filthy / Slam / Chemsex / FF
Homeless / Junkie
Looking for some ass up no loads refused type of deal
Home base: Bahnhofsviertel Frankfurt

Comments

nyguy56 – Apr 16, 2022
Chef here.

thatoneshithead – Apr 16, 2022
Looking for a Chef

thatoneshithead – Apr 10, 2022
Despite his many hardships and their visible toll he has skin with the softness of a feather and a very beautiful jewel between his legs to have fun in your hands or something else… and if you dare to go back to his secret garden you will discover new flavors in the beautiful curvature that can cause a volcanic explosion both in the soul and in the physical despite everything.

 

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toiletboy, 18
i realized a few years ago that i was a human toilet and put on this planet to consume the shit of older men. i like to gag and vomit and once i am fed my hole wants to be used as a cum dumpster as well. i also love the taste of my shit. if you want to eat it i take anti diarrheals and eat dark chocolate so my shit sticks to your teeth.

Comments

freakydeaky – Apr 16, 2022
He is living proof that God exists and is merciful.

dafuq – Apr 12, 2022
His ass turned me into Indiana Jones.

easycomeeasygo – Apr 7, 2022
I liked shitting in his mouth so, so much!

Eatnowyou – Apr 4, 2022
If you love eating shit his shit will make you lose your motherfucking mind.

 

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Billy,  21
I make old account but people misunderstand so I try again new account so yu know I NOT want date or relation.

I have fetishisms for competition swimsuits. I like to be show off in public places and make mans horny see me like that!

Most I like do boihanto! In Japan it mean parks where gay man plays with other gay man or boy in woods :). Just be feeled up and sniffed and licked through swimsuit not more.

I not go to bed with yu ever!

I shy do boihanto but do sometime at Pratumnak Park and it excites!

 

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Felixthenaughtycat, 20
I don’t know if this is the right place for this… But I’m poz, very poz and very catchy poz, which is why I went on medication. Lately I’ve missed the medication one or two days in a row… Then I take it again but after two days I’ll fail again… I’ve read that it takes two weeks for the virus to wake up again, but in my head, the fact of failing to take the medication makes me very, very horny… At issue is a cute little sugar twink I live with. He’s not my slave, but I demand a lot of sex for my support, so the line is fine. He’s neg and very precious about that status and doesn’t know I’m poz because I’m a bad person. Now I’m thinking to return to being super poz and being resistant to medication and knocking him up, and I’m talking over and over, and never telling him and turning him into a pozzed up slut without him ever knowing. What do you think?

Comments

Felixthenaughtycat (Owner) – Apr 15, 2022
If it affects your opinion I have a dad bod that I’m trying to frame in muscle. I’ll always have a little round gut but it’s gonna be small with tons of muscle.

 

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meandmommy4daddy, 18
Looking for mature men for me and mommy

Please don’t bring mommy up until we have met and I know that you can fuck and that you meet the size requirements for her 9++ me 7+ and that you’re not a psycho….. seriously no psychos

Comments

meandmommy4daddy (Owner) – Apr 4, 2022
Wtf is it about me and psychos???!!!!!!

DecadentCake (again) – Apr 3, 2022
Yes, I like it because I know with certainty it must be pure beauty and perfection. But I also like it because is would make the perfect meat. As you say, I have superb taste.

Jimbo2557 – Apr 3, 2022
This pic has become something of a legend here ever since he first shared it. I see it passed around and shared on a regular basis. You like it because it does not take a psychic to know it is pure beauty and perfection and as we know you have a superb taste in male meat.

DecadentCake – Apr 3, 2022
Why am I obsessed with meandmommy4daddy’s ass even though I haven’t even seen it yet? God knows I’ve seen so many. Caressed, sucked, bitten, and fucked many. But this one which I can only project just stays in my mind. I look at the photo and go insane.

This morning it was needles. I imagined shoving needles into his ass. Many needles. I wondered if it would be a turn-on and his dick would grow hard. Or would he hate it and punch me out? Anyway, I dreamed of ramming needle after needle after needle into his ass. Then pulling them out and licking up his blood.

That fucking unknown ass is in my brain. I see it in my mind’s eye and dream of tearing into his naked ass and destroying it. Cutting. Slicing. Pounding. Stomping. Devouring. Yes, most of all, eating meandmommy4daddy’s ass. I’m obsessed. Every time I log on into this site, I have to take a peek.

 

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AndyWhore, 18
Hey guys! Just your average cute twink here who’s mission in life is to demolish my asshole. Nothing I want more than to be left with a loose gaping cunt between my ass cheeks. Fuck, fist, punch fuck and then jack your dick off inside me!

Looking for hook-ups starting on easter Friday in Los Angeles. I arrive Friday afternoon or evening, and can stay till Saturday early morning the following weekend.

Comments

SuitCigarCum – Apr 17, 2022
Auto date with him. Picked up at a Starbucks… totally flawless cute masterpiece from forehead to toenails. He was already horny and hot in the car. Hooded, cuffed, poppered, choked, before deep kissing, his saliva pouring down my throat. He also briefly blew him, licked his hot, wet hole – think pickled. Then power slammed his super horny cunt …. that’s true with cum spitting out of both of us over everything …. what more could any man ever want.

SFEnemaGuy – Apr 12, 2022
I have a huge enema fetish LIKE VERY HOT AND VERY SOAPY PUNISHMENT ENEMAS GIVEN DOGGY STYLE AND PUSHED IN HARD TO GIVE SERIOUS HIGH VOLUME ENEMA TRAINING HAVE A FOUR QUART BLACK ENEMA BAG AND A FIVE QUART RED ENEMA BAG FEW GUYS CAN TAKE THESE HUGE ENEMAS BUT I BET YOU CAN

Descreet – Apr 11, 2022
I brought along a a beautiful extra thick large monster dildo that opened up his second sphincter so well that he could have taken a whole arm after.

FFRubbrPIG – Apr 8, 2022
If a guy is on his back, then the fist is going in following the colon as it would do if you can imagine it as a diagram. However to speak about fisting this twink in particular, I found that on all fours, I could go deeper into him than on his back. Partly it is that nature will take it deeper where you want it to be, and you have gravity on your side. The other issue is where the backbone tail is located in his arse, it’s easier to get below it by him being on all fours.

I started with him in a sling, but was having trouble getting as deep as I wanted, to the elbow, so I got him out of the sling onto a futon on the floor and easily got where I intended to go!

But the best way to fist him was when I had him lying on his right side and put his left leg over his body and that really opened his hole up. I got in almost to the shoulder. But he was passed out by that point, if that’s an issue.

GivingItDeep – Apr 8, 2022
Why is fisting doggy style so difficult??? I was in absolute heaven fisting this twink on his back with his legs up, it was sloppy and fun and then I flipped him over and it felt like there was a wall that stopped me. What gives?!

HuntingDog – Apr 2, 2022
A total win-win situation. Such a young fresh vegetable! Came to my hotel tonight. Got to the point – boyfriend sex at its most delirious with starving, drooling kisses, then he took my cock (18cm) deepthroat (tears pouring down his face, how sweet) and then his hole was butter, was allowed to blast it full of cum twice. It’ll leave you in awe.

 

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RainorShine, 23
I am 23 years old but I look younger. I am the property of the most inattentive master in Puebla, Mexico. He is a high ranking member of a Cartel but I can tell you how to kidnap me without him tracking you down and killing us both.

Comments

filth&fury – Apr 20, 2022
I have lock him away for no one to find.

RainorShine (Owner) – Apr 12, 2022
Since many of you ask me, the worst things I have done or witnessed:
– tricked friends who were virgins and gave them to my master who slammed and then fucked them
– been raped by men in dire financial and addiction circumstances for master’s amusement
– as punishment was blood slammed by a man who was poz
– helped master castrate a young guy in a park
– made the houseboy of an associate of my master who was underage and mentally retarded eat my shit
– watched master rape a young straight teen and kill him
– was gang raped by 8 builders who were working on master’s house for four days while he was out of town
– talked one of master’s bodyguards into killing a young straight drug dealer i was jealous of and lied to master about it
– helped master dismember the corpse of a boy he’d been having an affair with
– taken to a local river by my angry master to be executed and were caught by the police but master paid them off to go away

 

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GREATDESIRE, 22
personal profile:
– cocky, entitled straight man with a chip on my shoulder due to feelings of inadequacy below the belt.
– seeking one or more men willing to give me a full, all over body whipping using anything you want, full back and front, shoulders to ankles, followed by an assortment of physical tortures to my entire body, using anything of your own choice administered professionally and thoroughly to cause me the maximum pain.
– Hood me if you want to stop me seeing what you are going to do to me next or get sick of my screaming face.
– for longer sessions lasting days or weeks, I can contribute with just over 2000 euros, it is not much but it is what I can give.
– for conventional sex I prefer women.

Comments

GREATDESIRE (Owner) – Apr 20, 2022
I have been rescued from this lifestyle, a man and his boyfriend are fostering and rehabilitating me.

I thought I knew what i wanted. But I also thought I was straight 🤣.

I’ve learned more in the last month than in the proceeding 3 years. I have yet to see any girl I want to fuck or fuck again.

I’m looking to meet other normal gay guys to form bonds and friendships with.

Justmeherenow – Apr 1, 2022
I am who looks forward to admitting slave who are ready to give up all they have in life and face the reality of amputation of their limbs and stumps.

 

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takemeaway, 18
16yo needing a place to stay and get away from family and possibly start a new one. plz don’t report me I’m very desperate to get away and will do anything

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takemeaway (Owner) – Apr 12, 2022
I am open to marry a man and change my gender.

checker – Apr 11, 2022
He’s my son and I can’t keep your hands off him and I make love to him and I have to hide it from his mother and everyone else obviously.

takemeaway (Owner) – Apr 8, 2022
I am into literature and art, into coffee and walking in parks. I love profound talks, contemplating in sun light. I write. I read. My life is all about thoughts, words and feelings. I am mostly introverted. I am a thinker, who strives for being freer and more light some. I’m dreaming and looking for the beauty in the world. And there is so much of it. Please don’t scare me.

 

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DanielGood, 23
“The Dark Side of the Force is a pathway to many abilities some consider to be unnatural.” – Sidious

I had dreams of being an artist with a creative life but found that I must be a slave.

I am your typical chauvinist. To me women are whores for use. I see tits, I see ass, and I see pussy. All for fucking. Nothing more.

This is me asking you to flip the script on me. Forced sex with you or with others of your choice, once or repeatedly. Who, when, how many, what form, all of that.

Please Note: Moving to San Francisco this upcoming summer with my stupid girlfriend.

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DanielGood (Owner) – Apr 17, 2022
Requests to snuff me make me freak out, please respect this.

 

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Chriswood, 20
into a motherfucking lot, want to be beaten up, like being stupefied with dr*nk and dr*gged half-dead and savagely raped, want to be kidnapped and chloro’d and suffocated and strangled using bare hands or muscle arms or man handkerchief or pillow by someone unhinged, things that give other people nightmares 😈😈😈

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Chriswood (Owner) – Apr 17, 2022
btw understand there’s a video of me dr*gged unconscious and being gangraped while i snore loudly, does anyone have it

shyguy49 – Apr 13, 2022
Everyones talking like hes a insane sex pig and he is 4 sure but i would like to add that hes a very nice person.

TheExplorer – Apr 9, 2022
Enjoyed: Hardstyle artificial intoxication then anal, anal hook, anal sex, ass play. ass to mouth, ass worship (everything to do with it), bathroom use, gagged, fucked biting blindfolds, breath play, burlesque, butt plug, caning, carving, corporal punishment, crawling, cross-dressing, cuddlescum, cum slut, daddy daughter roleplay, dark alley covered in graffiti (everything to do with it), deep throat fucking (everything to do with it), plastic pants, rubber sheets, whipping, dildos, doctor/patient play (everything to do with it), douching (everything to do with it), enemas (everything to do with it), injected drugs (everything to do with it), extreme photography (everything to do with it), estim, smothering by his ass (everything to do with it)

SadisticMaster334 – Apr 6, 2022
Twacked Tweeker Himbo who loves the drugs n loves himbo hypno baTor Goongasmic objecTificaTion! He all abouT sweat, clouds, Himbo Hypno Sexxx, poppers, meThsTurbaTion, hella gooned, spun twacked, popper- hypnoed **parTySexxxxxxx*

 

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Stealmylife, 22
Steal my identity
Destroy my life yo

My social security number is 568292706
My birth date is 07231999
My phone number is 5123909751

My family part Jewish and very homophobic and would hurt me if find out

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Stealmylife (Owner) – Apr 19, 2022
DO NOT message me if youre only looking for transgressive material to jerk your micropenis to

 

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chinkfags4white, 19
We are a very submissive chink fag couple with severe addiction to raceplay worshipping white men no matter how strong, weak, handsome, ugly, smart, or dumb they are.

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HeardTheCall – Apr 20, 2022
For a long time, I have been craving a desire to take two young Chinks, tie them tight, bind them helplessly, imprison them in my basement, lock the door, and let fate take its course. There’s nothing else that fills me with purpose quite like that.

 

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decor, 18
Hi! So glad I finally found this site. I realise I’m not aline with my desires. I’m a crossdressing bookish straight boy who since early on has had a fetish to have my bouncy bubble ass slaughtered. I have been exercising and using moisturisers for a few years to make my ass look soooo pretty, hoping some man would take one look and want to annihilate it. Douse it with gasoline and strike a match, swing an axe at it, grate it with a cheese grater, hang me by my feet like in a butcher shop then saw my ass off and roast it, or another way and film the whole thing like a documentary. I dream of this being as brutal as possible, together with an element of surprise!

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snakecycle – Apr 8, 2022
I am very interested it’s just that I’m still recovering from being ran over by a car and I’m very busy with work so I don’t know how much help I can be 🙁

FriendlyYouth – Apr 8, 2022
A warm welcome you will find what you are looking for.

AnthonyGarrisson – Apr 8, 2022
Welcome. You are not alone. We are a community with a wide variety of interests and cravings, including killing and eating fem boys.

 

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Anonym_Ass_And_Cock, 21
I do classical ballet professionally so I don’t want to be recognized but I am very submissive though my sadistic characteristics have grown out of me aggressively in the last year so I will explore them and exactly how I will say when I want to.

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HungRoman – Apr 22, 2022
I have seen just about every mainstream movie rape scene there is, time to re-enact some.

clifford__edwin – Apr 18, 2022
He likes guys who can lift him up in the air and shit like that.

Anonym_Ass_And_Cock (Owner) – Apr 14, 2022
I’m not out and if anyone from my company or fan base or circle of friends or family sees this and recognises me, please don’t talk to me about it, I want to decide for myself when and who I tell.

 

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buythatstudent18, 18
His name is Viktar….student from Belarus.

Don’t believe all you hear about eastern european people…they are not all bad people like Putin and Lukashenko!

Anyway, I have facilitated his escape and he is now in NYC…and I am auctioning him for $50,000 min bid.

No limits, and yes he is ok with it…long story.

AUCTIONER OF SLAVES FOR 7 YEARS.

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TheCannibalConnoisseurs – Apr 26, 2022
The Cannibal Connoisseurs slayed this young man and ate his flesh 11/04/22 and these are his rankings.

Keelan:

Torso: Pecs were tasty, could have maybe been a bit thicker but taste was good and flavorful. Abs crisped a little too quick but meaty parts did hold flavor. Ribs held a fair amount of meat, tasted good both plain and BBQ’d.
Arms: Were ok, would have liked a little more meat. Biceps supplied the most. Could taste the flavor but disappointed with the amount.
Legs: Thighs were a strong point, smooth and supplied plenty of meat that was cut into steaks. Meat was rich and flavorful giving a good amount of juice. Some of the best cuts from this specimen.
Rump: Rump meat was of good quality. Used in burgers which were juicy and moist. Minced meat dishes which gave the meals some flavor, and sausages which were of a decent quality.
Best Meat: From the thigh area.

Ellis:
Torso: Pecs were tasty and juicy with plenty of flavor. Abs yielded some solid meat, edges crisped but meat remained tasty. Ribs shared a large portion of meat that melted away from the bone when cooked. Taste was very good plain but added sauce to them to another level.
Arms; For the physique on show the arms gave some solid meat and a decent quantity that tasted good. Bicep steaks were juicy and tender.
Legs: Thighs were excellent, very smooth and muscles supplied plenty of meat that was cut into juicy flavorful steaks. Meat was rich and flavorful giving a good amount of juice when cut. Most definitely some of the best cuts.
Rump: Rump was of a very good quality. Used in burgers which were juicy and tasty. The Sausages yielded from this specimen were top quality.
Best Meat: As you can see from the pictures it had to be the quality thigh meat.

Colby:

Torso: Pecs were large tasty and juicy with plenty of flavor. Large lateral muscles provided large fillet steaks cuts to various sizes. Abs yielded some solid meat including Flank and plate steak, Abs bacon edges crisped but meat remained tasty,. Ribs shared a large portion of meat that melted away from the bone when cooked. Either plain or BBQ’d they were finger licking good. Rump was cut into various juicy and thick rump steaks along with a few joints.
Arms; Thick arms, provided great juicy bicep steaks. Dealt a fair amount of meat
Legs: Thick Thighs were excellent, very smooth and muscles supplied plenty of meat that were cut into juicy flavorful steaks including sirloins and top and silverside joints. Meat was rich and flavorful giving a good amount of juice when cut. Calves were thick and juicier then the biceps. .
Rump: Rump was cut into various juicy and thick rump steaks along with a few burgers. Even rump steak tartare took my breath away.
Best Meat: The meat cut from his amazing thighs.

GdeMarivalLtd – Apr 11, 2022
I am G de Marival, Viktar’s new owner. I run an art gallery on Portobello Road London W11, where I represent six artists for private commissions & personal portraits.

One artist represented is the incredibly talented Robert Blair, who has a unique skill in taking extreme sexual activities and actualising them into works of art for private clients. Here is an example of a recent sitting done with Viktar and the artist. The “Viktar” series will be on show during summer 2022. DM me for a private viewing, by appointment only.

zav0listic – Apr 3, 2022
we need more guys who want to die by flamethrower. thats all, someone’s gonna say my opinion sucks, but i’m right.

 

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BRAINLESSTROPHYBOY, 22
I’m not looking for an owner but rather someone who wants to disappear me from the world forever and destroy me but also has the patience for a long period of destruction and damage before my end.

You can rent me as a rape hole to others while destroying me to gain money.

I am currently travelling indefinitely with no fixed address and I mostly live out of cheap motels and the back seats of unlocked cars.

Heavy drinker, obnoxious and loud. This often gets me into trouble.

I have badly damaged teeth.

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PSNiceButt – Apr 10, 2022
Young guy with an old butt that requires at lot of attention.

Ghost27 – Apr 7, 2022
A gang bang session will take place on April 9th, 2022!

Beginning at 5 p.m
Location: Zurich
(Exact address will be given when booking)
Price: 220

Procedure:
– You come in fuck him as many times as wanted
– You may watch as he’s fucked
– You may use his mouth and the rest of him as wanted
– Injecting, choking etc. is permitted

At 5 am after he has been fucked as much as possible by as many guys as possible he will be auctioned to interested owners

 

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isthisokay, 18
Looking to talk and meet someone to rip my butt apart

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TruffleHunter – Apr 8, 2022
I can not begin to describe how astounding it is to rape him.

isthisokay (Owner) – Apr 5, 2022
It can take 5 minutes or days it’s up to you.

isthisokay (Owner) – Apr 5, 2022
I don’t dare to go home with men, I’m too scared, I wish that I would just be raped by someone on the street, then I can’t do anything about it and I don’t have to be scared to go anywhere.

isthisokay (Owner) – Apr 5, 2022
I was raped last Christmas but I came while I was doing it.

 

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Bemusementfrommycock, 22
And all for your own bemusement without a thought for me, as an example say you want wanking my cock and sead to your self I wana give it a good hard slapping as he cuts don’t ask but as I start to cum start to hit my urm your play toy cock as hard as fast as much as you want to do not ask just do. As 1 guy dun with it, he had it tied to a black and decker work mate tied down. I was blindfolded after tying it down, and he nailed it down, but a few weeks before at first meeting, he had asked how far I was willing to let him go I find say nail my cock down but with out me knowing your going to do it. He did just that, but with 5 or 6 nails through my cock shaft. Simply if there is anything that you have ever wanted to try and or do with a guys cock but never found anyone or been to scard to ask ask me and if you want my cock inside you no probs tie it off at its base wile hard and ride it as much as you want to.

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Bemusementfrommycock (Owner) – Apr 7, 2022
I’m boring and I don’t know anyone.

Bemusementfrommycock (Owner) – Apr 5, 2022
I also love math. Although in mathematics I like solving problems more than large examples. I easily mastered triganometry, higher mathematics, it seems I have a mathematical mindset.

Bemusementfrommycock (Owner) – Apr 4, 2022
I love nature and that’s something I feel deep inside just like being gay and selfdestructive.

 

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petertheboy, 19
Are you a money master looking for a slave to lay your money at his feet? So get in touch with me!

You don’t become my money master by bullshitting around online. No matter what tribute you give me as my money master, you will have to improve, it will never be enough.

If you serve as my money master, at least you have some use in life. Being a money master must be touching for a man!

Your thoughts and your whole life will only revolve around your job as my money master. As my money master, you have no time for anything else!

Many men dream of being my money master, it’s just a small step to make it happen! I can assure my money master how much I enjoy using him and take as much tribute from him as possible!

How intolerant that society ignores what a wonderful fetish money is!

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anundeadmonkey – Apr 15, 2022
If you like bossy bottoms with a shit ton of legos who’ll bankrupt you after sucking your soul out, pounce.

Curioustwink01 – Apr 9, 2022
Everything about you seems so amazing so i wanna try things out with you. Im literally a virgin so dont expect me to be amazing at all.

 

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dicklessboy, 19
I have a job and not much of a life outside of that except for some women I see once in a while. my owner will be replacing them, so it’s important to me I find someone who is willing to really put in some time.

I’ve hooked up with guys less than 5 times (v exp w women tho!), but I always think about it when I touch myself, tho when I orgasm I feel shame about it and think I did a bad thing. but it’s too late – I watched too much hypno porn, now I can barely get it up without thinking about being abused by a man. I have to take viagra to have sex with women, but i get hard just accidentally thinking about being messed up by a man.

I am very homosexual inside but only until I orgasm, so I need my orgasms taken away, denying me all access to my own penis until I am fully, undeniably homosexual.

My fantasy is I go some guy’s house for a cup of tea when I’m drugged and out for twenty minutes – I start to come round to discover you’ve beaten my ass and legs black and blue and you’re pissing in my mouth. I plead with you not to kill me for the sake of my family telling you to do whatever you want and by the next day I’ve been reduced from getting pussy to fucking myself with a vibrator while thinking about you.

This what I need to give being gay a chance, not because I’m straight but because I’m a coward.

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dicklessboy (Owner) – Apr 17, 2022
Final observations.
(1) I am now a slave suffering unimaginable tortures wishing I’d be put out of my misery.
(2) I expect absolutely nothing out of life other than more pain fear and suffering.

dicklessboy (Owner) – Apr 6, 2022
Updated observations.
(1) I now have moderate experience in most everything.
(2) I hope to disappear taking only the clothes on my back, drivers license, birth certificate, and social security card.
(3) A few texts explaining that I am moving cross country for work will keep anyone from looking.
(4) I can also bring 3000$ cash as tribute.

dicklessboy (Owner) – March 29, 2022
Here are my observations after trying this a few times.
(1) I found myself craving affection and attention.
(2) I hate being ignored and feeling like someone is mad at me or that I disappointed someone.
(3) I’ve enjoyed bottoming but hate douching so in the future you’ll just have take to me and use me as is.
(4) I’ve enjoyed face fucking and deep throat…not to the point that I puke, but I might not mind it.

 

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Extremeforcedstarvation, 18
Public forehead tattooing.
No food.
Beaten bloody.
Bricked up in a wall.

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Hang_me (Owner) – Apr 7, 2022
I would be willing to try having sex

Unrefillable – Apr 6, 2022
Usually I would want to stick a knife in your neck and start sucking that heaven juice, but bricking you up would be awesome too!

 

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DumbLilCow, 19
Looking for a someone to extract every single drop of cum I can give. By mouth or hand or machine, tie me down and force out all my milk and don’t stop until I’ve been dry for hours or days. Feel free to keep milking as I cry and have seizures from the post-cum torture until you fry my brain and I become your stupid little cow. Given a new name, if any at all. I get so horny so often. Please, won’t you make me a pathetic cow?

Fuck Putin.

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DumbLilCow (Owner) – Apr 19, 2022
i want to find a grown man, it just so happens that I’m only attracted to grown men.

KiltedFireNinja – Apr 19, 2022
Uh I don’t know if I’m allowed here or not I’m 12 yrs old but I enjoy looking at bondage stuff and I want to grow up to be a firefighter I hope you don’t mind me being here I usually stay to myself and give compliments here and there like to you DumbLilCow you’re so hot!!!!!

 

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youwillsee, 18
I am a high school student who gets straight A’s and has been accepted to Yale University but I am also a pain sponge who exists for you to purge yourself of everything that you don’t want to let out on a more deserving society and inflict as much pain, suffering, humiliation, use, and abuse as you want upon me nightly.

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FFWSPIG – Apr 1, 2022
he gets really pale

SacredGaySexCoach – March 23, 2022
While you have most of your life in order, some of you have a consistent and perhaps even nagging desire to experience more of the potential that sadism has to offer. You want more spiritually meaningful contact with someone you find sexually destructible. You might be wondering what you look for in those encounters on a deeper level of your soul.

You particularly like youths like this boy here, their beauty and the somewhat dark and mysterious aspects of their masochism. You feel there’s something Sacred to it. You’re also noticing that it takes quite an effort to find a spiritual connection with such submissives.

As a sex coach, I may be of service to you. In my own experience, such encounters with submissives can indeed be experienced as Sacred. In ancient times, masochists were often priests and priestesses. Violent sex with them was regarded as a healing experience. The epic of Gilgamesh (from Mesopotamian times) describes how a wild man, who ate and drank like a beast, became humanized through sex with a masochist.

I offer intimate sessions to sadists and masochists. Together we explore what gifts the masochists have to provide Sacred Sex to their sadists. Over the years I have noticed many times that I have a gift to kiss awake or enhance their capacity for Sacred Paintaking. On my twitter page you’ll find more about the type of trained masochists I personally could offer in service to sadists wishing or me. I charge for providing such guys for these sessions – but you’re welcome to bring your favorite masochist to me for training. I look forward to hearing from you.

youwillsee (Owner) – March 21, 2022
I have a pregnant girlfriend so dl she has no idea.

 

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gardengnome, 24
I’m Léo, settled in Paris not very long ago to become a top model, influencer or famous actor (if you work in these sectors, I’m interested).

Here to indulge my slutty bottom side while waiting to break through.

And if you are a sugar daddy looking for a promising young man to invest in don’t hesitate lol!

Or if you are a hacker, let me know because I would like you to do me a favor.

Please do Meth!!!

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Str8ish – Apr 13, 2022
He likes having the soles of his feet roasted with cigarette lighters.

 

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sadboysub, 20
Hi everyone, I’m Daniel and I’m Sad Goth a boy who just came to work in Germany recently. I left my parents two weeks ago because they were always arguing, my father is totally addicted to drinking and I have often seen my father beat my mother every day. That’s why I left my parents and found a job in Ingolstadt at a factory. It’s very difficult for me, especially because I still don’t know German very well and my english is not perfect. I want to ask for some help to people who would be willing to help me financially or with food or anything in exchange of my services as a slave. I still don’t speak German. Thanks in advance to the people that will help me. P.S I can prove that I came to work in Germany.

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WillToPower – Apr 11, 2022
I’m looking for something beautiful to own. If you think you’re worthless, please seek professional help.

 

 

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