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THEGLOW, 19
Lisbon
I know I said I swore off dope and wouldn’t do this anymore but I relapsed and need money until I clean up again.
Guestbook of THEGLOW
Itsaboutmars – March 7, 2026
Hahahaha… Sex god… Wow. I fucked him a few months ago when I was on a bender in Lisbon. I’ve never stooped so low.
flogga – March 4, 2026
Be proud of your addiction and its escalation. Dope is guiding you and you will become more and more addicted not just to the drug but especially to the kinky men who pay for it.
THEGLOW (Owner) – March 4, 2026
Maybe but I’m just a fucked up junkie cum dump now, I don’t care about nothing, and I hate it so much.
timlovesyou – March 4, 2026
Call me crazy but I really have a good Knowledge of human nature. I think he has a big heart and I think he is well received by his fellow human beings. He must have been so beautiful once. This fact breaks my heart. I don’t know how I do explain but I think he is a very good young man, not just to me I think he is so to everyone.
i_love_art123 – March 3, 2026
Who else loves fucking a heroin junkie? Nothing else matters. 24/7 heroin, eyes rolled back, blanched, checked out, and non stop fucking! I never wanna stop paying for his fix. Junkies, my God, I love them more than anything in this world! I give fuck about family or friends.
Body Type Slim
Ethnicity Latino
Body Hair Little
Smoker Yes
Languages Spanish, English
Position Bottom only
Dick L – Uncut
Dirty WS only
Fisting Passive
S&M Soft
Kissing Yes
PNP Yes
Hourly Rate 150€
Overnight Rate On request
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Corduroy_Boy, 20
Dallas
As you can probably tell, I’m into corduroy pants. It’s a rather unusual fetish that you don’t see every day. I’m here looking for people who want to have sex with a boy wearing corduroy pants. I’m a rather shy person and tend to be a bit reserved at first, but I also go crazy when I have an erection. I have a sex addiction that’s been with me both physically and psychologically since I was little, hence only sex and no relationships—that’s not working for me. Feel free to message me if I’ve piqued your interest, but only if you understand or want to understand my fetish. The pants can be pulled down to my knees of course.
Guestbook of Corduroy_Boy
ClosetBiDL – March 11, 2026
He’s smart, but I was smarter.
Body Type Athletic
Ethnicity Latino
Body Hair Shaved
Smoker No
Languages English
Position Versatile
Dick XL – Uncut
Dirty No
Fisting Active/Passive
S&M No
Kissing Consent
PNP Weed
Hourly Rate On request
Overnight Rate On request
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Fairy, 21
Baku City
Horniest beautiful boy you ever met.
You can be old but not oldddd old.
Guestbook of Fairy
homesweethome – March 10, 2026
I can not stop wanking at your photos, i wank 3-4-5 times a day, so i need your help.
ray – March 6, 2026
May God or whatever exist give you brain.
BrawnyBroBK – March 1, 2026
I’ve rarely been with anyone who understands his limited purpose in life so quickly.
Body Type Slim
Ethnicity Azeri
Body Hair Smooth
Smoker Socially
Languages Azerbaijani, Turkish, English
Position Versatile
Dick L – Uncut
Dirty Ask
Fisting Ask
S&M Ask
Kissing Yes
PNP Ask
Hourly Rate On request
Overnight Rate On request
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imloud, 19
London
I’m very tall (6’8″). In London from 3rd of March till 2nd of April. At my home town in Veenendaal, Netherlands the escorting scene is terrible, so hoping to find some great experiences while in London.
I love being tickled to extreme limits. I can’t be tickled enough! Tickle me until I cry, plead, beg – and ignore it all. I WANT you to tickle me until I either pass out or come as close to death from tickling as you can bring me. I DARE you to try.
A guy once was tickling me and he suddenly stopped and said, “Oh, man! You’re bleeding!” Only, it wasn’t me. It was him! Good times!
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SLUTCookie – March 8, 2026
My fingers got tired and I ended up drag racing on him with my Hot Wheels.
Body Type Slim
Ethnicity Caucasian
Body Hair Little
Smoker No
Languages Dutch, English
Position Does not apply
Dick XXL – Uncut
Dirty No
Fisting No
S&M Soft
Kissing Consent
PNP No
Hourly Rate 60€
Overnight Rate On request
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KiethHernandez, 19
Portland
i am in an open relationship yes he is my boyfriend he wants me to earn money with my body i do have restrictions from him pertaining to this i will discuss this with you
he would prefer i experience a weekend long thing
i am planning in the future to become 24/7 completely become depended on money for sex but at the current moment i can not due to him
Guestbook of KiethHernandez
mitchelll – March 12, 2026
He’s not actually Kieth Hernandez.
urafund – March 9, 2026
I’m bi and wanted to explore myself a bit and he helped me conclude that I’m mostly straight.
KiethHernandez (Owner) – March 4, 2026
i am a pothead if weed’s not your thing i’ll deal but i’d like to have sex with other potheads
MakeMeRegretThis – March 2, 2026
I adored his little penis. For fans of that sort of thing.
Body Type Slim
Ethnicity Caucasian
Body Hair Not very hairy
Smoker Sometimes
Languages English
Position More bottom
Dick M – Cut
Dirty WS only
Fisting Ask
S&M Soft
Kissing Consent
PNP Weed, alcohol
Hourly Rate 150$
Overnight Rate 500$
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nicoolwzz, 19
Sao Paolo
Pump my two holes full uhhhhh
Guestbook of nicoolwzz
Dessert-is-served – March 10, 2026
Well, it’s true he’s not shy.
Nommy – March 8, 2026
There’s no one in Sao Paolo who hasn’t fucked this boy.
devil_doesnt_sleep – March 7, 2026
I spent an evening filming him at a BB gangbang where 7 guys came in him multiple times. Once it was over I slipped inside him and added 2 more. With my cock still deep in him I hugged him tight as I wanted to protect him and all that cum inside him. I proposed marriage to him and he said yes.
Hotcaucasian – March 2, 2026
I sucked his little nipples like a woman’s titties. I had him hold a fat white T cloud in his lungs. Hearing his heart beating harder and harder as the T reached his brain. I felt the orgasms that gave me in every molecule of my body.
Body Type Slim
Ethnicity Latino
Body Hair Shaved
Smoker Yes
Languages Portuguese, Spanish, English
Position More bottom
Dick L – Uncut
Dirty Yes
Fisting Passive
S&M Yes
Kissing Yes
PNP Yes
Hourly Rate On request
Overnight Rate On request
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stupidname, 18
Dusseldorf
anyone got 🚀?
Guestbook of stupidname
heyhowisu – March 10, 2026
Thank you for the butt you beautiful fag.
Mattthecat – March 3, 2026
Bit of an aside here. Before he started escorting, this boy was the sugarboy of an ex of mine. I spent a few weeks befriending him without my ex knowing. I teased him long enough with my good boy act and finally managed to chem him up and film it all as I fucked him and spunked his hole multiple times. Best thing is I did this on 13th February and sent the video to the ex his boyfriend. They split up and I felt proud as fuck!
CuriousOwl – March 3, 2026
He would not use meth, but he did use weed, alcohol, poppers and mushrooms.
Body Type Athletic
Ethnicity Caucasian
Body Hair Not very hairy
Smoker Socially
Languages German, Latvian, English
Position Versatile
Dick L – Uncut
Dirty WS only
Fisting Ask
S&M Ask
Kissing Consent
PNP Yes
Hourly Rate 200€
Overnight Rate 2000€
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YoureInLuck, 18
Dublin
Alright, I’m Jon, 18. Irish Traveller background but not in the community anymore. Life took me a different way and I’m doing my own thing now. I’m not big into school stuff, more into work and looking after myself. I’m not what people expect when they hear where I’m from — I’m just me.
I’ve had to grow up a bit quick so I value honesty and straight talking and seeing where life goes. I’m into generous older gents. I like a man who doesn’t mess about. You’ve got to want me and know what you want.
Guestbook of YoureInLuck
StandingOrder – March 13, 2026
Bring substance. White. Lots of it.
YoureInLuck (Owner) – March 7, 2026
In case anyone would like reading about my real life apart from my libido, the book you can see is available under that title on Amazon.
mayIfeelYOU – March 7, 2026
OMG OMG. I can’t believe this!!!!!! This is a fairy tale but a real fairy tale! The scary kind from Scandinavia not the Disney shit. This is the best thing I’ve ever experienced in my life. If you feel like you’ve already had the best sex in your life before you had him, you’re completely wrong. Do your worst, and make him regret trying to get rich off of us.
Body Type Slim
Ethnicity Caucasian
Body Hair Little
Smoker Yes
Languages English
Position Versatile
Dick XL – Uncut
Dirty WS only
Fisting No
S&M Soft
Kissing Yes
PNP Yes
Hourly Rate On request
Overnight Rate On request
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twink_snob, 19
Bristol
I will say right out the bat, I am OBSESSED with being rimmed. I want my entire existence to revolve around my ass hole being on men’s mouths. Constantly licked, kissed and sucked; from sunrise… till the next sunrise. If you are looking for an ass that fits this level of eagerness and dedication to be worshipped please let me know.
Guestbook of twink_snob
KingSpin – March 13, 2026
All I want is to fuck your ass! Why are you making it so hard!!!
trovraiash – March 10, 2026
i normally wouldn’t pay to eat a boy’s hole but ramadhan got me horny af (it’s savoury)
AssEaterBeto – March 8, 2026
Innovative escort
twink_snob (Owner) – March 5, 2026
Okay, so just to be clear: Other than getting rimmed I am asexual. I have no interest in sex nor do I feel sexual attraction towards people. I just wanted to express this to you guys. I think sex and pornography is gross, and I have no desire for either.
Body Type Slim
Ethnicity Caucasian
Body Hair None
Smoker Socially
Languages English
Position Does not apply
Dick S – Uncut
Dirty Ask
Fisting No
S&M No
Kissing No
PNP No
Hourly Rate On request
Overnight Rate On request
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Honza, 21
Prague
I want men I can lean on who will accept me for what I am.
Guestbook of Honza
lilbabydontcry – March 4, 2026
A whore is not your cute friend. A whore is a piece of temporary property that exists to be used by his purchaser and for no other purpose. Renting whore is about you feeling the short term joy of slamming your dick into his bare arse and knowing that you you have so much control over him that he dare not move a muscle until you have finished in his hole and tell him to leave.
thickdickrick – March 4, 2026
Here’s how you get your 250€ worth. He put his warm lips on the head of my cock and let the sperm flow into his mouth and down his throat! Then I had him shit on my cock and lick it clean. Then I got on my knees and took care of his cock. Last I pissed in his mouth and he fed it back to me! 51 minutes on the dot.
I_am_George – March 4, 2026
Is it worth 250 Euros to spend an hour fucking this Czech peripheral porn actor who won’t kiss and doesn’t get hard? Unfortunately it is.
Body Type Slim
Ethnicity Caucasian
Body Hair Shaved
Smoker Socially
Languages Czech, Russian, English
Position More bottom
Dick L – Uncut
Dirty WS only
Fisting Active/Passive
S&M Soft
Kissing Yes
PNP Yes
Hourly Rate 250€
Overnight Rate 850€
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iNTRIGUEDYETSCARED, 19
Boise
pretty open straight guy, single, swim captain of my high school’s swim team, editor-in-chief of my school’s literary magazine, wild for girls but interested in gay men, want a part time job
Guestbook of iNTRIGUEDYETSCARED
SnakeOcelot – March 12, 2026
Before my very eyes, this nonchalant looking straight boy claimed my girlfriend with crazed, animalistic lust, seizing her, splitting her open, and fucking her with his long, thin unrelenting cock until she sobbed and shuddered in helpless surrender. I remained transfixed, pulse hammering, my own arousal laced with exquisite jealousy as I watched my cherished girl reduced to a dripping, quivering wreck impaled, stretched, and thoroughly used like the most depraved whore. When at last he had pumped her swollen cunt full to overflowing with hot, copious seed, I fell to my knees to lick every viscous strand from her ruined, gaping slit, tongue delving deep, swallowing the mingled flood of their debauchery while the taste of his triumphant cum coated my throat.
Nickjames – March 8, 2026
If there’s a magic word that turns him gay4pay I couldn’t find it.
iNTRIGUEDYETSCARED (Owner) – March 6, 2026
i like the feeling of being handled by a gay man because its like a huge contrast from my normal daily life
leoryder – March 6, 2026
He is a single and most beautiful flash of light between two unbelievably enormous periods of nonentity and darkness. It is fleetingly brief, totally amazing and an absolute privilege so make the most of it!
Body Type Slim
Ethnicity Caucasian
Body Hair Average
Smoker Socially
Languages English
Position More top
Dick XL – Cut
Dirty Ask
Fisting Active
S&M Yes
Kissing Consent
PNP Sometimes
Hourly Rate 50$
Overnight Rate 500$
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HighestInTheRoom, 18
Budapest
My availability is from 6:45 PM to sunrise. I work during the day, cleaning offices from 8:30 AM to 6:00 PM. I get home at 6:45 PM. You can come starting then and leave whenever you want.
Guestbook of HighestInTheRoom
HighestInTheRoom (Owner) – March 8, 2026
If you want me full time I’ve got a contract drafted.
bigintheback – March 7, 2026
A twink that can take me to the next which I never seen since they give birth to me.
TheFantasyArchitect – March 1, 2026
We were at a high-end gallery opening. The air was thick with the scent of expensive perfume and aged wine. I was standing there, effortlessly charming a major donor, articulating my vision with a calm, practiced smile. You were standing exactly two steps behind me in your inappropriately casual clothes. To the rest of the room, you were my son. No one knew that ten minutes before, in the darkened leather interior of the car, you were gulping down my sperm with desperate hunger. They had no clue that you were a cheap slut prostitute. I could see the slight, rhythmic tension in your jaw and the way your knuckles were white as you clasped your hands behind your back. I loved that I was the only one in that crowded room who knew you would spend that night suffering for my money.
Body Type Slim
Ethnicity Mixed
Body Hair Shaved
Smoker Yes
Languages Hungarian, German, English
Position Bottom only
Dick M – Uncut
Dirty Yes
Fisting Passive
S&M Yes
Kissing Yes
PNP Yes
Hourly Rate 125€
Overnight Rate 800€
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p.s. Hey. ** kenley, Cool, happy to have potentially pleased your band. Not going to dissuade you from targeting France, obviously. France’s national foot/soccer team’s nickname is ‘Les Bleus’ if that helps. I think Dunaway can be pretty funny in movies, but I’m not a giant fan of ‘acting’ in general, although she certainly goes for it, that’s for sure. I totally get why you’re into her/it. Hm, I don’t know why I’m nice. Why wouldn’t I be? I’m not a person who’s ever been prone to competitiveness or resentfulness in general, and maybe that’s why. Those seem like the sources of non-niceness maybe? ** _Black_Acrylic, I’m certainly not an Oasis fan by any stretch of the imagination, but Noel can be pretty funny. And, actually, Liam too. Maybe they should have become a stand-up comedy duo instead? ** Adem Berbic, The Grauerholz/Burroughs years will probably be studied longer Burroughs’ actual work will be. Thanks, haha, re: ‘Jerk’. The ‘Jerk’ film Gisele directed is pretty terrific, if you haven’t seen it. Amazing that you can type and think on Day 2 sans nicotine. My hands would be like octopuses. ** Carsten, I like drums too, as long as they’re not in drum circles. Drum circles are very high on my cringe barometer. My dad was sort of like that too, except he didn’t aspire to acting, more to all-powerful business tycoon. Unless you can find Peck’s contact somewhere or know someone who knows him enough to lead you directly to him, I don’t know what other choice you have? No, I haven’t seen that series. I’ll see if I can find it. Thanks. ** Hugo, They can also pat your head like you’re a puppy dog. The Corll/snuff connection sounds very fantasy-based to me. Good of you to help your friend. I hope you can also have whatever fun entails while you’re there. ** Steve, Finding a way to use humpback whale samples without just creating a retro reminder is a noble goal. Weekend: go over the new film script with Zac, meet up with d.l. James Bennett, get interviewed for the Michael Silverblatt oral history book that someone’s editing, get ready for the Stockholm trip next week, film screening usual organising stuff, … Your laptop seems very finicky. But then I assume you use it a whole lot. ** Charalampos, ‘Mag Earwhig’ is terrific, go for it. The 33 1/3 book is pretty good. Jim Greer’s ‘Guided by Voices: A Brief History: Twenty-One Years of Hunting Accidents in the Forests of Rock and Roll’ is very good. Matthew Cutter’s ‘Closer You Are: The Story of Robert Pollard and Guided By Voices’ is also good. I finished ‘Guide’ long before ‘Mag Earwhig’ came out, so no. Hi from a nearly empty coffee cup. ** horatio, That should get that crush fully returned if anything ever will. No, sadly, we can’t go to Athens. We’d have to pay our way, and the finances won’t allow it. I wish. The festival seems super cool and fun. TITE: I’ll look it up. Splendidness throughout your weekend! ** Malik, Hi, Malik! Great to see you! Playing drums seems like it would be so cathartic. I took piano lessons as a child but bailed. I played guitar as a teen, and I also played recorder of all things as a teen and well enough to be in this recorder consort group that used to play at the Renaissance Pleasure Faire of all things. Yikes. I’m good, still busy getting our film shown for a while yet. Great luck re: Variations Project if you need it. And a full-length piece! That’s very exciting. Can you say anything about it? So nice to get to talk with you. ** HaRpEr //, I don’t think I have a favorite drummer. Huh. Well, there are visual artists whose form is the book, although I can’t think of any names off the top of my head. I guess the ideal is to write in a kind of state of mania and then feel exhausted and relaxed when you pull out? I think I just get extremely intent. I don’t know what being on meds is like, but I guess they need to time to adjust to being your helper and not your invader? ** Steeqhen, Yeah, it sounds like biding your time until the therapy is there to help organise you is likely the way to go? When I played guitar, bar chords on electric guitar weren’t so hard but they were painful on acoustic. ** Thom, Thanks. Boredoms, yeah. I’m surprised I didn’t think to include EYE at least somehow. I was kind of obsessed with Incredible String Band at the time. I saw them a ton. I even did a scary Scientologist IQ/personality test because I read they were Scientologists. Nice about the recording. I want that EP. Have a totally impeccably inspiring weekend. ** Okay. By virtue of the calendar this month, the escorts will be spending the weekend with you. See you on Monday.
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Wow, TheFantasyArchitect is awesome haha, I’m definitely trying to cut down on that sort of behaviour, but I imagine someone like that could be the Matilda/Rosario to my Fabrizio. Super awesome. Yeah, I have kind of become a jet-setter, my job is amazing. I think, like, 95% of my masochism can be vented by just having a really intense job with long shifts, although that feels pretty dystopian. It’s really fun though, I’m very pleased with myself. Cool day today, adios!
P.S. Steve, how was the new Ducournau? I love her other films, but this one got pretty bad reviews. Worth seeing?
Agreed about Oasis being great interview subjects. I remember seeing an online talk with Steve Albini where he described being so excited upon hearing about their self-proclaimed hype, only to be let down by the product itself. Back in their 90s Britpop heyday, there’s this audio document of the brothers having one of their legendary fights with each other. Way more entertaining than any of their music, has to be said.
Yeah TheFantasyArchitect wins the prize for greatest comment. Surprising what a way with words some of these guys have.
Drumming is VERY cathartic. I liked learning guitar, still like playing it, but found it a bit too technical for me. Drums are just pure energy for me personally. Even striking the wrong part of the kit can still bring something out.
Man, Ren Faires have always fascinated me as much as intimidated me. Just big open-air conventions all around that niche is admirable, but could drive me mad with the theme and how it’s all arranged. But it is the perfect place for a recorder group, lol.
I can share a bit, sure! It’s going to be a play set at one of the Disney parks. Haven’t decided between Disneyland or Disney World, but it could just be a weird combination of the two. It’s kind of this small funny but dramatic ensemble about how people substitute some things for building a connection. Doing a lot of work to make it not come off as “theme parks are lame” because they’re obviously fun.
This EP will probably be in the works for awhile, my friend is moving quite far away very soon, so it will probably be awhile before they get me overdubs… glad we could lay some bones down and discuss the vision tho! It will be a strange little thing, but I think each track will be highly distinct although they are all in the same key and share some sounds.
Went into town and bought a signed copy of Godlike from Powells, doesnt entirely make up for missing the reading, but I’m sure I’m gonna love it… will be a bit tho, as I need to finish my queue. Gonna read this 3-in-1 Pinget collection (if I really like them I wanna set aside some book money to get Fable eventually, it better be good!) and The Golden Fruits is on my bedside table too, and uhhhhh need to finish East Of Eden finally, (I get the feeling Steinbeck isn’t your thing haha)
Weekend should be relaxed and cozy, wanna try and wrap up this ‘above the trees’ story, i like what i have but i really need to stick a landing here…
anyway, enjoy the weekend
This seems like a lighter and more humorous group of escorts than average. Or maybe I’m just jetlagged.
Being a biblio-obsessive, I had to look up that book. It has a goodreads entry! And a character named Dr. Ganapathy. Hmm.
Art Basel soon. Not going unless I score a free ticket.
Bill
woops I keep accidentally commenting in reply to specific comments instead of the post, anyway love to read about what everyone is up to 🙂
Hi!!
Do you know the book in YoureInLuck’s comments (The Flower from a Poisoned Seed by Jonathan C. David)?
Maybe. Hopefully – about the revolution. I mean, if it comes to that. I’d love to be more optimistic than I actually am.
Is there any news about the visa situation?
Annnd here’s the new issue of SCAB!!
https://scabmag.wordpress.com/wp-content/uploads/2026/03/scab_issue-18.pdf
God, yes, please and thank you, love.
Love is a single and most beautiful flash of light between two unbelievably enormous periods of nonentity and darkness, Od.
Hi Dennis!
I agree with Bill, these escorts don’t seem to be as graphic as some of the other ones haha!
I haven’t been able to think to much about recommendations on what to do in Stockholm lately, but I saw you were trying to convince Zac to say yes to the ABBA museum. How’s that going? Any other plans? I’m bad at food places but Nem Nem Quan (the one at Hötorget is the only one I’ve tried, but there’s a fancier one) is a good, very unpretentious Vietnamese spot.
You reading anything of value? I’m currently reading the last book in John Ajvide Lindqvist’s ’Platserna’-Trilogy, which has been great so far. You reading anything by him?
Oh and you told me to remind you about bringing a copy of ’The Weaklings (XL)’! That would be more than lovely.
Seeing you and Zac very soon!
Xo, Måns
Oh yeah, drum circles, especially the hacky sack hippie variety, are quite an abomination, I agree.
Update on my French toast recipe: a small addition turned this thing into a knockout & that’s peanut butter. Just a nice smear on top after frying. Sounds decadent, but actually makes it healthier. Highly recommended.
Watched “Miles Ahead” last night, directed by & starring Don Cheadle as Miles Davis. It’s a lot of fun & surprisingly free-floating & experimental. Certainly not a conventional biopic but rather a playful riff on Miles’ style & attitude. Makes me like Cheadle even more, which I thought was impossible. I worked as an extra once on his show “House of Lies”. Throughout the day he’d hang out & eat with us & the crew, which is far from common with “stars”. Then I was one of the extras in a basketball scene, & he’d shoot hoops with us between takes. I also fondly remember him standing behind me in the lunch line & telling the girl in front of me to not be shy & take more potatoes. All around great guy.
In your inbox you’ll find my long overdue guest post on dreams & divination. I finally managed to finish it & hope you dig it.
Spring is here in full blast so I’ll be fueling up on some sun. Hopefully you’re having a good weekend too.
Interesting, maybe there’ll be a late-Burroughs exposé documentary à la the Tyra Banks one everyone keeps talking about at the moment. I caught the ‘Jerk’ movie in Paris (pretty hungry to re-watch it, actually) — I was sat next to Gisèle’s partner the whole time but only clocked who she was after we’d had a little chat, despite having seen one of her movies like the previous week.
I had a cigarette whoopsie last night so back on the gum now, but oh well. If I can somehow attain the mythical status of ‘social smoker,’ I guess I can live with that, but for certain obvious reasons I doubt my capacity for self-restraint.
Tadhg is in the new SCAB, what the fuck? I knew he’d landed a submission lately, but not that it was there. Surprising (or actually really not that surprising) melding of worlds. Permit me to reach across the comment section to thank Dominik for continuing to be One of the Good Ones. I hope your weekend was one of the good ones too. James encounters always help, I feel.
Hi Dennis!
ugggghh man, hear me out, this multi-day migraine i’m dealing w would be hot were i more of a maso but alas it’s flattening me hardcore, like hard. core. can’t believe i’ll actually have to save The Escorts for later! *pouts ashenly*
anyway just wanted to pop over to say ouch and ‘Under The Bushes. Under The Stars’ is elite and has one of the coolest openings ever and i wish i were vibing to that rn instead of letting this silent Arrhythmic Noise sort of thing pound the fuck out of me. =)
at least the other symptoms are quite tolerable but wish me well anyway or whatever, i’m all sensitive and mewl-y. wishing you the opposite of pain!
<3
When do you leave for Stockholm?
As I was walking down St. Mark’s Place last night, two men were fighting in the middle of the street. One threw a beer bottle. I don’t think he was aiming for me, but it hit me in the arm. I wasn’t seriously hurt, although the arm’s a little sore today.
I quite liked ALPHA. It’s a lot warmer and more heartfelt than RAW and TITANE, while sticking to body horror. It’s an odd film that sometimes feels like an after school special mixed with a fairy tale, so I can see how divisive it is, but it got a raw deal at Cannes.
hi dennis!
“ramadhan got me horny af (it’s savoury)” and “I ended up drag racing on him with my Hot Wheels.” are my fave lines (is hot wheels a euphemism? am i dumb?)
that’s fair re: dunaway. she is very…effortful in a way that i connect to? hmm. do you have, like, any fave actors?
and you’re right. i aspire to your disposition! im trying to let go of all the jealousy and resentment that wrecked my life in my teens/early 20s. idk, its kinda amazing how much cool shit gets done when youre not wallowing in self-pity all day, lol.
anyway! hope your weekend was oodles of fun! i await its recounting eagerly
Hello. God, I’ve been horribly sick this weekend, sleeping mostly, or trying to. I think what I took for writerly passion the other day might have been an actual fever coming on. I’m just totally wiped out, aching all over. My body is doing weird things. I also have all of this finicky, sickly energy. I got through a good chunk of Vollmann’s ‘The Rainbow Stories’ which I’m really liking. I’ve never read him before. I think the form is really playful and well constructed.
I’m also just watching terrible movies that I don’t worry about if I’m not focusing on them. I watched ‘Sentimental Value’ and hated it so so much. I’m sure it made me sicker. IMO it’s fodder to make the cultured middle class feel oh so smart and artsy. I doubt I’ll see another Trier film ever again.
Yes, the new SCAB! It’s truly a sight to behold. My piece is a part of something I hope to make into a novel some day. It’s sort of based on a real person called Randy Stair who became obsessed with becoming a ghost girl in this cartoon ‘Danny Phantom’ and ended up murdering three of his co-workers at the supermarket he worked at. He was a YouTuber with a fairly large following. It’s interesting because he admitted to being trans but was disgusted by trans people and thought since his soul was female, when he died he would become a female ghost. (I’m calling him ‘he’ because he was so repulsed by trans people that he would not want to be identified with anything other than that). I haven’t written anything like this before but I felt there was only one way I could write it. I even read his diary as research which was kind of just him mimicking the Columbine kids and saying the most offensive stuff he could think of. But there were these interesting moments where you could see it was all an act and that he wasn’t a psycho but just needed help.
Hey dude , been busy busy. How about you?
Been working in the kitchen at lil Cesears. Very fun I like working in a kitchen so far and the co-workers are much more down to Earth
Hmmm what else. First day I was kneading the pizza and it was surprisingly very pretty and the fun kind of stress made for people with ADHD.
I love my manager. Fun laid back dude. The guy with the spider tattoo on his neck and a satanic eye on his hands. One time my 2nd day a customer was really bitchy with me, granted I was a bit slow at taking his order and he knew more about the menu than me, and I felt somewhat bad about that but im good at hiding things and being cheerful, but as soon as he left my manager was like “god that guy was an asshole wasnt he?!” and I loved that, like I cant imagine the female manager at somewhat more professional and somewhat snobby (in my eyes snobby is a low entry word, to be fair everyone was nice except that one bitchy manager) Old Navy would most definitly side with the customer just cuz they a customer.
Even when he “admlonishes” me or I can sense the undertones of frustration in their voice when I fuck something up.
Even when he “admonishes” me or I can sense the undertones of frustration in his voice when I fuck up its kindle nice because Idk maybe the punishment factor is somewhat arousing (My very slight crush on my boss that I’m trying to detach from)
and like yes, please scold me! God, hope this is not the death of me.
Granted, everyone refers to me as “she” although I havent yet told anyone and am a bit fearful of the reaction of my boss and coworkers
Sometimes its somewhat nice to play the female on the stage theater of life…I think Genet mentioned that a bit in his book and it really interested me, although sometimes it can result in intense dysphoria and self doubt…But I know my friends closest call me the right thing and they know how feminine I can be sometimes
Anyways, hope you enjoy your morning coffee.