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Andddrew, 19
Houten

I’m very into myself. Assuming you are too, let’s explore me.

Each exploration lasts for the time it takes you to have two orgasms.

I also offer pictures and videos of all kinds of body parts for sale, if you wish.

I refuse to meet someone for the first time in their home. That’s how you end up in a ditch.

Guestbook of Andddrew

Andddrew (Owner) – Jan 7, 2022
Please don’t send me messages like this: “Is surely a moronic supply-haste ass hair smoked or what?”

SomethingStrange – Jan 4, 2022
I don’t know how such a thing is even possible, but he is extremely skilled at being rimmed. I know the credit shouldn’t go to me because I was merely dedicated as I always am.

Position Versatile
Body Type Athletic, smooth
Ethnicity White
Dick M – Cut
Languages German, English, Dutch
Kissing Consent
Smoker No
Tattoos No
Dirty No
FF Let’s talk
S&M Soft
Safer Sex Let’s talk
Hourly Rate On request
Overnight Rate On request

 

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Skullsfuck, 20
Wuppertal

Who help me to buy the Iphone 13 pro Fuck wife Fuck couple Fuck bottom Sell my piss in a jar 🍺

Guestbook of Skullsfuck

drivenguy1 – Jan 2, 2022
He lives in my house and he’s always meh

Position Top only
Body Type Slim, little hair
Ethnicity White
Dick M – Cut
Languages German
Kissing No
Smoker Yes
Tattoos Yes
Dirty Yes
FF Active
S&M Yes
Safer Sex Let’s talk
Hourly Rate 100€
Overnight Rate 700€

 

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Snwoflake, 18
Lens

I love the masculine-feminine contrast. You all hairy, me all smooth. You with your deep husky voice, me with my high pitched fem voice. You tall, me short. You with your strength, me delicate. You in your cozy comfy clothes and big manly underwear, me in my small uncomfy clothes and tiny thongs. You spreading your legs while sitting down, me with my knees touching. You eating what I cook, me eating what your body cooks. You walking forward holding me by my wrist as I walk behind. You standing to piss and being allowed to do so on any street while I sit to pee even though you have pissed all over the seat. You becoming smarter everyday while I become dumber.

If you’re not into dating I’m looking for now or later tonight so hmu and come prepared, I love random rape as long as you give me stuff.

Guestbook of Snwoflake

getting high-to-eggs – Jan 5, 2022
I always knew you were voluptuous.

JohnnyDeep – Jan 3, 2022
Did you realize that at night, clear tape isn’t very easy to notice if people look in through your windows? Hell, even during the day, it would be difficult to tell.

EggplantForPeach – Dec 29, 2021
I’ve hired him several times. His butt is amazing. I’ve even considered moving him in just so I can have his butt nearby but I worry that raping him would take up all my time and I have other things to do.

Snwoflake (Owner) – Dec 24, 2021
I cant drive and I’m scared of public transport so either you have to come pick me up or you have to get on the bus with me 🤣 sorry im just weird.

Position Bottom only
Body Type Slim, shaved
Ethnicity White
Dick M – Uncut
Languages French, English
Kissing Yes
Smoker Socially
Tattoos No
Dirty No
FF Let’s talk
S&M Soft
Safer Sex Let’s talk
Hourly Rate 25€
Overnight Rate 50€

 

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buttockBOY, 18
Frankfurt

Hey I am Marlon, a circus artist from a circus family. Man can buy videos from me, meet me. Unfortunately I am not mobile because I do not have a driver’s license 😅😅😅 and unfortunately I cannot be visited on the circus site because of the family.

Guestbook of buttockBOY

Pointed – Jan 10, 2022
He dont speak English so only 3way with his friend Zajicek97. He speaks English good and will watch you and narrate.

burningyou – Jan 1, 2022
This guy identifies as straight and initially requires force for his self esteem but after that his ass is hungry as a horse 💦💦💦🥰🥰🥰🥰

Position More top
Body Type Athletic, smooth
Ethnicity Mixed
Dick L – Uncut
Languages Spanish, English, Arabic
Kissing Consent
Smoker Yes
Tattoos Yes
Dirty No
FF No answer
S&M No
Safer Sex Sometimes
Hourly Rate 200€
Overnight Rate 500€

 

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BlackmailedTeen, 18
Minneapolis

Gentlemen, I present Marc, an 18 year fag, a bit girly and fem sounding so totally bottom. He is mine but, knowing how much he likes to be fucked, I have lead him into the world of prostitution to make me money.

For Marc, there is nothing better than a man who fucks him, then he is intensely happy. He grew up without a father. Maybe that’s why dads make him so horny and willing?

About me:
an Alpha (58 years) with pure masculine behavior, the kindly father figure to Marc for the outside world but in the meantime a possessive, self-centered, all-determining and controlling dominant Dad to Marc who, if necessary, does not shy away from domestic violence.

What is written in stone: penetration of your rectum by Marc has to be a strict taboo, fornication and intercourse with Marc has to be without birth control. For him it is important to carry the sperm of the Alpha in his body.

Would I let him go? Possibly. If you ever would propose marriage to him and are prepared to pay his dowery, my answer will be: yes, I want Marc to be your bride. Any prenuptial agreements would be determined by you. If you can’t or don’t want to be monogamous with Marc, that’s no problem for him.

If you want to see if his face is as cute as his ass — oh, it is! — I will send you a face pic via message. I need to be discreet here because Marc is the star of the theatre class at his high school and doesn’t want to soil his reputation amongst his teacher and ninny friends.

Guestbook of BlackmailedTeen

Anonymous – Jan 7, 2022
In person he looks to be about 24 yo and has a longhair glazed pothead hippie look.

Position Bottom only
Body Type Slim, smooth
Ethnicity Hispanic
Dick S – Cut
Languages English
Kissing Yes
Smoker No
Tattoos No
Dirty WS only
FF Passive
S&M Yes
Safer Sex Let’s talk
Hourly Rate 80$
Overnight Rate On request

 

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OscarMaleArt, 24
Paris

Hello escorts! I am Oscar, painter.
I am not proposing a “Q plan”. I am looking for young escorts (18 – 22 yrs) who will pose naked for me. With the greatest respect and total discretion. With a touch of friendship and fun too. The photos I take will be strictly private and will only serve to inspire my erotic or ass paintings and drawings. And why not a a hardcore sex one? I’m working on it 🙂
A painter/model relationship is fruitful when the model is happy to have posed and proud to have inspired a drawing or painting.

Guestbook of OscarMaleArt

DerNiceboy007 – Jan 9, 2022
I want a artist guy to draw me to the point i so weak i can’t do anything

OscarMaleArt (Owner) – Jan 9, 2022
Come again?

DerNiceboy007 – Jan 9, 2022
I want a artist guy to draw me to the point i cant be no more

Position Prefer not to say
Body Type Average, little hair
Ethnicity Mixed
Dick XXL – Uncut
Languages French, English
Kissing Consent
Smoker No
Tattoos Yes
Dirty No answer
FF No answer
S&M Soft
Safer Sex Sometimes
Hourly Rate 100€
Overnight Rate 350€

 

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Doctorstranger, 20
Brussels

I am straight, completely straight, wish me a warm welcome
I am cute maybe or maybe I’m not
I’m here because I wanted to earn something small
The only thing is I have no experience with men, no idea what men do in sex or if I can tolerate it
those who are still interested can contact me

Guestbook of Doctorstranger

bbeverett – Jan 2, 2022
Now taking dick. Still needs to watch porn, but now the porn is gay.

Venus – Dec 28, 2021
Here’s how to get a straight guy excited for the main event:

The skin is his biggest erogenous zone. You don’t have to touch his genitals to send sexy electrical currents shooting through his mind.

OK, now it’s time to move to the bedroom. Remember: No talking necessary!

Make direct eye contact, smile, raise your eyebrows, and just nod your head in the direction of the bedroom. Start walking toward your destination, look back over your shoulder, and wiggle your pointer finger, seductively gesturing him to follow.

(For some reason this method doesn’t work in Germany.)

btmo – Dec 28, 2021
My guess is he’s mostly bottom, but until then he likes to smoke pot then get eaten from anus to nuts and back again while watching some hard core porn.

Sparklingwater – Dec 23, 2021
He’s cute and has a great body and perpetual money problems. The blueprint is there, I think he just needs some sense talked into to him to make his sex object status a reality and help him accept what’s coming. Right now he is tense about everything and that doesent help him in the situation of transitioning into the escort he so logically should be.

Position Versatile
Body Type Slim, smooth
Ethnicity White
Dick L – Uncut
Languages Dutch, English
Kissing Consent
Smoker No
Tattoos No
Dirty No answer
FF No answer
S&M No answer
Safer Sex Unknown
Hourly Rate On request
Overnight Rate On request

 

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cutefacedboy, 19
Berlin

If you got 🎁💰 I’m willing to spread my pussy for you.
Slim smooth cute bottom and kinda girly.
Manly tops of all ages that love to breed a hungry ass for 🎁💰 can dm me.
Obese unhygienic romantic fools and guys that prefer condoms my pussy ain’t for ya.

Guestbook of cutefacedboy

LatinoBeef – Jan 9, 2022
Greetings, I am a Tall Hairy Masculine Latino Daddy next door. I am a rugged bearded plaid shirt, size 12 hiking boots in khaki shorts to show off my hairy legs.
Speaking of hairy, I have hairy arms, hairy chest, hairy feet, hairy back and hairy untrimmed bush and balls and thick meaty hairy ass.
Wanna run your hands through my thick bush?

forever-nice – Jan 8, 2022
SEX SEX SEX SEX SEX SEX SEX SEX SEX SEX SEX
OKAY OKAY OKAY OKAY OKAY OKAY OKAY OKAY
WHIT HIM WHTI HIM WHIT HIM WHIT HIM WHIT HIM
BUT BUT BUT BUT BUT BUT BUT BUT BUT BUT BUT
WHIT WHIT WHIT WHIT WHIT WHIT WHIT WHIT WHIT
MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY

DuisS – Jan 4, 2022
The “scum” are the embarrassing users who, under the guise of anonymity, insult young boys for no reason, these boys who are doing the worst from a personal situation – namely, selling their body and thus their soul. The embarrassing users should be ashamed!

Anonymous – Jan 4, 2022
in Germany the scum of mankind is gathering

Position Bottom only
Body Type Slim, smooth
Ethnicity Arab
Dick S – Cut
Languages Arabic, English
Kissing Yes
Smoker Yes
Tattoos No
Dirty Yes
FF Passive
S&M Soft
Safer Sex Never
Hourly Rate 100€
Overnight Rate 700€

 

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iwillforgetthis, 21
Corpus Christi

Hi everyone I’m Ted. I need money. Welcome to anything.

Guestbook of iwillforgetthis

iwillforgetthis (Owner) – Jan 6, 2022
Teach me wealth.

Slaylor13 – Jan 5, 2022
a really nice and trust worthy guy, he is kinda shy and honestly, he’s like my little brother, i’m family-less kinda, and his family made me feel like i have a family, a sweet but hot sister, a xxl hung dad who is still so flawless and young, a versatile brother one year younger who is kinda more hot than him, they all do it for money because they’re nice.

Position Versatile
Body Type Slim, little hair
Ethnicity Hispanic
Dick M – Cut
Languages English
Kissing Consent
Smoker Yes
Tattoos No
Dirty No
FF No
S&M Soft
Safer Sex Let’s talk
Hourly Rate 250$
Overnight Rate On request

 

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cuminsidemeplease, 24
Phoenix

You can savour my flavours any ways you like as long as you cum inside me hehe

Guestbook of cuminsidemeplease

str8collegeguy – Jan 4, 2022
Hey, straight 22 year old here. I made a bet with a guy I hadn’t seen in a while. Loser had to come on here and the other person get to choose a homo prostitute for him. He chose you because you look like an ex-girlfriend of mine. I’ve never slept with an homo before. I like your tits but your dick scares the fuck out of me. But only one way to know.

Aarron – Jan 2, 2022
I has a fansty wanna be tie yu down and gaged huge thick toys use on u , don’t release u keep shove toys all the way in u deep i want this so bad please help me with this I’m begging u

SkyTheGemini – Jan 1, 2022
Warning: nitro! I could barely keep up with the voracity with which she throws herself on your cock as soon as you present it to her.

Position Bottom only
Body Type Slim, shaved
Ethnicity White
Dick L – Uncut
Languages English, Albanian
Kissing Yes
Smoker Yes
Tattoos Yes
Dirty WS only
FF Passive
S&M Yes
Safer Sex Never
Hourly Rate 180$
Overnight Rate 1000$

 

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Cat-Femboy, 18
Tampa

An open throated kitty for paid use by anyone looking. Especially rough guys with huge cocks that want to choke my kitty face into a beet red vomit fountain. But I’m always happy to $help$ anybody out 😉

If you’re feeling really $generous$ I’m also into being handcuffed and thrown violently around a room and throat fucked if you manage to get it in my mouth while I’m screaming and crying.

Guestbook of Cat-Femboy

Sumb0dy – Jan 11, 2022
For months I’ve always seen porn with you on OnlyFans and thought that was the hottest thing you just turning control of your mouth over to someone else is not only a huge thing as you have to trust implicitly but did I mention it’s so hot.

I have always wanted to fuck your mouth and never have obviously, I may absolutely love it and want to go crazy but I may not like it either, I honestly have no idea and probably won’t know until I try.

Would you be willing to go slow with me and let me see if I enjoy it as much as those men who are in the porns do?

Position Prefer not to say
Body Type Slim, shaved
Ethnicity White
Dick S – Cut
Languages English
Kissing Yes
Smoker Yes
Tattoos No
Dirty No answer
FF No answer
S&M Yes
Safer Sex Never
Hourly Rate 100$
Overnight Rate On request

 

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mikemikemikemike, 24
Denver

I don’t judge and although I love everyone I don’t want everyone in my bed.

I’m 24 and I am one part of a couple my bf is 76.

I haven’t had an orgasm since since I turned 18.

I am a bit loco.

Guestbook of mikemikemikemike

Teal842 – Jan 6, 2022
Gamer, loyal, manly, not too spoiled, can read.

Meatgobbler – Jan 2, 2022
He’s very good at fucking while not giving a shit at the same time.

Quest4Sublimity – Dec 29, 2021
Your cock is sacred. I’ll write more later.

Orion123 – Dec 25, 2021
So sexy!!!!!! Love to see your juicy feet here!

mikemikemikemike (Owner) – Dec 24, 2021
2nd pic was taken at a Davinci exhibit at the Denver Museum of Natural History before all this covid shit.

Whatamitodo – Dec 17, 2021
very appreciative caressing recipient!

Position More top
Body Type Slim, average hair
Ethnicity Mixed
Dick L – Cut
Languages English, Spanish
Kissing Consent
Smoker Yes
Tattoos No
Dirty No
FF No
S&M No
Safer Sex Let’s talk
Hourly Rate 100$
Overnight Rate 500$

 

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Lookmeintheeyes, 19
Paris

Hello! Are you fine?
I’m 19 years old Model, publicist and escort.

⭐️⭐️⭐️HING CLASS⭐️⭐️⭐️

I’m on my first European tour and my FIRST TIME IN PARIS.

Yes, I am an extremely beautiful, smooth, smooth, smooth shrimp with always fragrant skin and at the moment my hair is not too long.
Full, soft lips and always flooded mouth that will give you saliva drinkers a lot of pleasure.
I have a 19 real centimeter sugarcane loaded with milk that can pour as often as you want, and a gulping irreproachably hygienic ass so top guys can go all out on me.
On our date I will give myself in full!

Sex with me is more than sex it is a complete incredible experience of renewal.

Guestbook of Lookmeintheeyes

Lookmeintheeyes (Owner) – Jan 8, 2022
I’m sexually attracted to George Clooney types but as master4twink has just indicated I also have the unique ability to converse and have sex with anyone.

masterfr4twink – Jan 8, 2022
masterfr4twink says its very delicious

Position Versatile
Body Type Slim, shaved
Ethnicity Mixed
Dick XL – Uncut
Languages German, Polish, English, French, Croatian
Kissing Yes
Smoker Socially
Tattoos No
Dirty WS only
FF No answer
S&M Soft
Safer Sex Sometimes
Hourly Rate 300€
Overnight Rate 1500€

 

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yungandkind, 18
Vienna

Unfortunately, I’m completely inexperienced with sex and not out, but very curious and unfortunately I can’t think of anything other than sex all the time.
For now I am interested in getting oral sex only from men 50 years and older. Only oral, front and behind, to break your tongue, to pour white stuff in your mouth and stomach.
Maybe meet me in a dim or dark setting the first time and work up to more lit settings as I get comfortable.
You can just message me and say, “hey! Wanna get high lol”.
I’ll come over, you pay me, then we can get high and then I’ll ask to use your bathroom, end up hopping in the shower. Then you come in, turn the lights off and hop in, kneel and take advantage of the dick and butt of the crazy virgin horny guy in your shower lol.
Just keep the bathroom dark with music playing and we can shower all night!

Maybe ask for my real age first. Not looking to put an innocent man in a bad spot. Please don’t report me and just say if you don’t want me to tell you.

Guestbook of yungandkind

yungandkind (Owner) – Jan 10, 2022
Boyfriend ok too if I can ride my bike and see friends.

yungandkind (Owner) – Jan 7, 2022
I hate sex without kissing so please don’t ask me not to.

Peyton_Turner – Jan 7, 2022
Don’t kiss him. He gloms his open mouth onto your mouth and won’t take it off.

yungandkind (Owner) – Jan 3, 2022
I want to talk about love.

lucifercord – Jan 3, 2022
18 – 3 = ? Haha, dm him if you want to give a bj to a beginner guy, you also can try tongue f@cking him haha. You can finger f@ck him too hehe.

Position Prefer not to say
Body Type Slim, smooth
Ethnicity White
Dick M – Uncut
Languages German, English, French
Kissing Yes
Smoker Yes
Tattoos No
Dirty No
FF eo
S&M Soft
Safer Sex Always
Hourly Rate 200€
Overnight Rate On request

 

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MasterrOwen, 18
London

Your nothing more then my ATM. You’ll pay as I say and when I say it. ANYTHING I SAY. If you aren’t rich enough 4 give me the gift I wish then stop boring me. I do NOT fall 4 poor mans!

Guestbook of MasterrOwen

Anonymous – Dec 30, 2021
He’s dating a girl, can’t satisfy her, she cheats on him openly. She and her new BF fuck in their bed and laugh at him.

Anonymous – Dec 29, 2021
I know this guy. He’s very self-conscious about how skinny he is. A friend of his convinced him if people wanted to pay him for sex it would help him get over that.

MasterrOwen (Owner) – Dec 28, 2022
One time, nothing romantic, quick meet, one off, not meaningful shit BACK OFF 🚫

Position More top
Body Type Slim, little hair
Ethnicity Arab
Dick L – Cut
Languages English, Turkish
Kissing No
Smoker Socially
Tattoos Yes
Dirty Yes
FF Active
S&M Yes
Safer Sex Let’s talk
Hourly Rate 100€
Overnight Rate On request

 

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Human_ScatEater, 22
Berlin

You SHIT – I EAT. I’ve had a lot of eating experience and can consume a variety of ass foods.

I provide full ingestion. I eat right out of your ass. You should just know how to force everything down my mouth from your guts.

I’m not here to kiss or have sex with you; I’m here to get your shit in my mouth.

I’m out as gay but closet as a shit eating slut.

Guestbook of Human_ScatEater

Goldrausch40 – Jan 8, 2022
Hello please, can you distribute my number +4917888742367 to gay men, please distribute it very brutally. Please distribute my number to over 1,000,000 gay men.

feeder1 – Jan 6, 2022
he seemed genuinely ok with tasting, swallowing, chewing 💩 while rimming me. and he’s conceited too!

Human_ScatEater (Owner) – Jan 2, 2022
@James 5 pm today, that place in Schöneberg, take it or leave it.

puppetstrings – Jan 2, 2022
Hahahaha hi Rolf, it’s James. Boy oh boy i hope our mutual friends dont find out about this. You would be horribly embarrassed. We cant have that now can we? Maybe we can have a discussion about what its gonna take to make sure i keep your private quirks just that: completely secret. Writing that makes me kinda hot already, just thinking about it. wild!

Position Bottom only
Body Type Athletic, shaved
Ethnicity White
Dick S – Uncut
Languages German, English
Kissing Consent
Smoker Yes
Tattoos No
Dirty Yes
FF No answer
S&M Yes
Safer Sex Never
Hourly Rate 100€
Overnight Rate On request

 

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stupiduselesskid, 20
Warsaw

nothing special. i do art but other than that, i’m useless. but i’m somewhat empathetic and supportive so that’s cool i guess. i don’t really care others’ about looks that much tbh. i guess that’s because i’m pretty as you can tell. but i’m honest and truthful. i think. idk what others think of me though.

i’m about to commit suicide so if you’re looking for long term relationship… yeah… sorry that that’s not what you’re looking for. but if you just wanna fuck and help me get by for a few more days, that’s okay 🙂 i have no money or job obviously.

anyway, hope you’re having a good day. bye!

Guestbook of Take_me_home

evandr04 – Jan 13, 2022
Don’t expect too much from him because he never t…

Take_me_home (Owner) – Jan 12, 2022
Skulls, stars, and music notes.

xXghost07Xx – Jan 12, 2022
Hi Take_me_home, this is kind of random but I’m planning to get a tattoo for the first time. Money is tight, so I’m thinking in 2 or 3 years.

I want to know what kinds of tattoos were popular for Emo people in the years 2004, 2006, and 2007. For the latter 2, however… only if the tattoo patterns first appeared during/after 2006 or before 2005.

I know this is particular, and that 2005 was another good year for Emohood, but I have trauma from the year that makes me hate it on a personal basis.

Ykinkster – Jan 12, 2022
I’m 19 years old and really into chemsex. I love getting guys high. I love the process of other guys taking stuff when I tell them to and how much to take. It truns me on a lot to beeing in control over how much someone sniffs or injects and later to see him getting all crazy and obeying my commands like a filthy pig. it’s been really impossible to find someone in this area who isn’t too scared hes going to overdose and die, but i thought since youre suicidal you might not worry about that, so what do you say?

Position More bottom
Body Type Average, Little hair
Ethnicity Mixed
Dick L – Uncut
Languages Polish, English, Ukrainian
Kissing Consent
Smoker Yes
Tattoos Yes
Dirty No answer
FF Active/Passive
S&M Yes
Safer Sex Let’s talk
Hourly Rate 200€
Overnight Rate 1000€

 

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an_ass_you_cant_get, 18
Gasteiz – Vitoria

The boy with the bubble butt you always want more of😉

Guestbook of an_ass_you_cant_get

jsepa – Jan 11, 2022
He’s hardly the only boy whose bubble butt has turned into a blubber butt after lockdown, but other boys don’t charge to kill your boner.

Anonymous – Jan 9, 2022
Bubble butt? More like dirigible butt!

nicolas665 – Jan 2, 2022
Pay attention to his name.

Position Bottom only
Body Type Average, smooth
Ethnicity Mixed
Dick M – Uncut
Languages Spanish, English
Kissing Yes
Smoker Yes
Tattoos Yes
Dirty No answer
FF Passive
S&M Yes
Safer Sex Sometimes
Hourly Rate 180€
Overnight Rate 600€

 

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badthingsyo, 21
Montpellier

I am offering my Dropbox with over 80 videos of me, which is always updated. Among them are

– Wild sex videos (indoor, outdoor, hard, very hard, etc.)
– Blowjob videos (outdoor, indoor, getting, giving, 3-person etc.)
– Cum videos (in the face, mouth, hole, regurgitate, against the mirror, etc.)
– Inebriated videos (Shit faced, cloudy, coked up, date raped, “sleeping”)

Guestbook of badthingsyo

raptor – Jan 6, 2022
and now i masturbate knowing that you masturbate while thinking about him while he died masturbating!!!

metalmachine – Jan 6, 2022
And now I masturbate looking at his pix and imagining that.

proton – Jan 6, 2022
The irony of it all… this escort was found hanged to death using a black leather belt nailed to the top of the door, with his penis out of jeans, wearing a woman’s red sports jacket, with women’s red lingerie string panties stuffed in his mouth and evidence of ejaculation in the form of dried sperm on the paper towel below him. Near below and in front of him was an open Macbook, that was at the time of discovery in the “hibernate/sleep mode”. When awaken, a loop slideshow had resumed that the man must have been watching as he was masturbating, while also hanging himself, to further enhance his fantasies. The slideshow had a big collection of post suicide photos of hanged dead women in their 20’s and 30’s. The death had occurred as the result of him passing out from the lack of the blood flow to the brain and by still remaining in the noose, unintentionally hanging himself for real.

Position Versatile
Body Type Athletic, some hair
Ethnicity Mixed
Dick XL – Uncut
Languages French, English
Kissing Consent
Smoker Yes
Tattoos Yes
Dirty Yes
FF Active/Passive
S&M Yes
Safer Sex Never
Hourly Rate 150€
Overnight Rate On request

 

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eight7, 18
Singapore

This escort/dog number: 7128958453142
Short name: 7-1-2 : « Seven one two »
Description of the object: Teen aged dog escort.
Price tag: 99 cents.
Sign: Heavily short-sighted (Glasses)
Body hair: fully shaved (including arms)
Tattoos: none

Weight: 53kg (116lbs)
Bmi: 16,7=Underweight
Neck size (around): 33cm (tight: 30cm)
Wrist size (around):16cm (tight: 15cm)
Waist size (around):76cm
Dick size (around):12cm (tight:8cm)
Cock ring size (around): 23cm (tight:15cm)
Ankle size (around):19cm (tight 17cm)
Mouth opening: 4cm

Availability…
1. Time: Full daylight
2. Place: Usually a busy street. But no one here.
3. Fully naked wearing only a chain around the neck, glasses
4. A 20cm thick dog bone in the mouth
5. A full can of wet dog food in the stomach. The empty can on the ground.
6. Drooling.
7. The code bar on the forehead.
8. Time day, month, year, hour on the left arm in big
9. Gps location on right arm
10. Written in the left chick: « RE ». Nose: « T » and right chick « ARD ».
11. A photograph taken for permanent record.
12. You take over here.

***This item is also available to buy.***

Guestbook of eight7

eight7 (Owner) – Jan 10, 2022
Update: I’ve been paralyzed since June and I am quadriplegic in a wheelchair and I haven’t had sex since then. In the mainstream men don’t see me as sexual anymore so I’m back on here to see if I can find someone more adventurous and willing to work with me in rediscovering my body. I’m still a dog and cum dump. But my body is different now.

Position Bottom only
Body Type Slim, shaved
Ethnicity Asian
Dick S – Uncut
Languages Chinese, English
Kissing Yes
Smoker Socially
Tattoos Yes
Dirty Yes
FF Passive
S&M Yes
Safer Sex Never
Hourly Rate On request
Overnight Rate On request

 

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needsomegoodstuff, 18
Stuttgart

Only English 🇬🇧

I’m a bodybuilding freak 💪 Heavy and slowly 😍

I am American 🇺🇸 (Canyon Country, Santa Clarita, California 🐻)

We have moved to Germany for an indefinite period of time 🇩🇪

I’m still in the process of discovering myself 🤔

Right now I’m just trying to get to know the wealthy Germans in the city where I’m going to live for a while 🤔

It can be nice to meet new and reliable (this is important) people in the city 📍 Example: gym big bro 👍

My style: asexuals with money 🤫

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needsomegoodstuff (Owner) – Jan 11, 2022
I’ve recently been taken on by a sugarbigbro who is keen to turn me gay. I’m still naturally straight but I am trying to enjoy forced gay to start with. If you would like to help, please contact my big bro at [email protected]. I still live with my girlfriend who is tolerating this so far due to the extra income but meets would need to happen somewhere other than my apartment.

Hornyflavoured – Jan 3, 2022
I want to think for you.

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Body Type Athletic, shaved
Ethnicity White
Dick L – Cut
Languages English
Kissing Consent
Smoker No
Tattoos No
Dirty No
FF No
S&M Soft
Safer Sex Sometimes
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shyweirdkiddd, 18
Kortrijk

Hello everyone. I’m just 18 yesterday and hope to get a lot of legal boyfriends finally at last. I’m looking for men over 37 years old. I love a little more. Older people they are very intelligent. They can love with all their hearts and fuck with all their brains and share many experiences. The fact that you are twice or three or four times as old is nothing like that. As one writer put it, “all ages are submissive to love,” and I totally agree with this opinion.

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shyweirdkiddd (Owner) – Dec 22, 2022
I’m hiv positive (12/20)
Positive for syphilis (12/21)
Positive for HCV (12/21)

jamesjack – Dec 17, 2022
Bred this teeny cumpig before heading to family xmas morning shenanigans. Put more loads in him when I got home mid afternoon. Bred 9 loads in him the next day, bred him 10 more times that night, and bred 7 loads in him next morning. He’s en route for more breeding today, then probably 7 – 9 more loads starting 8pm. I love being a virile, hung uncut breeder. No more paying boys. They can pay me!

shyweirdkiddd (Owner) – Dec 16, 2021
Back from the grave looking for sex again thank you

shyweirdkiddd (Owner) – Dec 8, 2021
No longer own my own body so I can’t do this anymore, sorry.

AdamKS – Dec 7, 2021
The answer is yes.

shyweirdkiddd (Owner) – Dec 7, 2021
Adam, I know I am somewhat new to this and only have a little experience. However I know what I love and think I was made for you. I would like to move in with you as what I have experienced already at your house has been great and I felt like I belong there. I guess this is a marriage proposal.

shyweirdkiddd (Owner) – Dec 6, 2021
Looking for someone on this app by the name of Adam.

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Body Type Slim, smooth
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heyyouyeahyou, 24
Jersey City

A lot to say
1 we can talk politics, exchange arguments, it’s a sex site ok so that too (lol)
2 yes I like the violence, its expression, the anger it generates and the anger it calms, if I want sweetness, I would go see a girl
3 you come to talk to me, I’m talking cash, I’m not beating around the bush, it’s for hard, political dialogue and maybe some physical shit during
4 i’m far right, you’re antifa, come and convince me in peace
5 if sex with you earns me less than $100 fuck right off

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CowboysignedBW – Dec 29, 2021
I let him spout his MAGA crap then got him shitfaced drunk and naked, put him down with a sleeper hold, put a chastity device on his cock, locked it and I’m keeping the key forever! He’s down in my basement rattling the bars of his cage, but if he couldn’t handle alcohol then he should’ve said so.

tarzan – Dec 26, 2021
Fuck the fucking fucker before the fucking fucker

heyyouyeahyou (Owner) – Dec 22, 2021
I am not your friend and you are not my equal. I am a man and you are a stupid faggot liberal. You will live your whole life weak.

Joinksz – Dec 22, 2021
Seems mentally not well. However I was horny and fucked him.

heyyouyeahyou (Owner) – Dec 19, 2021
TRUMP 2024. Cry faggots

JamSalter – Dec 19, 2021
He’s great for anyone who wants to put their meat in his holes. He has two holes for a reason so bring a friend like I did and fill them both at the same time.

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Body Type Athletic, little hair
Ethnicity White
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Languages English
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6walki66ngfx, 18
Tbilisi

To be honest, I only have one small wish. I want to buy something on the internet and only credit card payments are possible and I don’t have one. So I wanted to see if someone could help me. That would be super nice, thank you <3. ($ 300)

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6walki66ngfx (Owner) – Jan 8, 2022
It’s unbelievable to me that everyone expects me to “get to know” them in return for such a small favor.

Position Prefer not to say
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Ethnicity Mixed
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Languages Georgian, Russian, English
Kissing Consent
Smoker Yes
Tattoos Yes
Dirty No
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S&M No
Safer Sex Always
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p.s. Hey. ** Dominik, Hi!!! Hopefully it’ll get to the point where I can actually share the haunt game or at least a demo of it, and then you’ll see what I mean. Hm, good question about yesterday’s goal with the noisiest butthole guy. I stole that from an escort review I was putting into place pre-yesterday’s p.s., and I hadn’t really thought it through, but … maybe love could figure out how to play it like a musical instrument? Like an inverted theremin or something? Oh, man, did love get you a super-swift boost, and is your neck peaceful? I sure hope so. Love feeling very charitable and agreeing to pay Cat-Femboy handsomely to choke his kitty face into a beet red vomit fountain, G. ** Gabriella Kapsaski, Hi, welcome to here. It was of course my blog’s honour to spotlight her, and thank you very much! ** David Ehrenstein, Yes, and the screenplay was written by Elfriede Jelinek. Superstar central. ** Cal, Hi, Cal. I saw your email in my box upon awakening, and I’ll open it shortly and write back to you so we can set it up. Good time to sell vinyl. You were just over the medium? Happy Friday. ** Misanthrope, Seems to me that Judas Priest could use a little controversy this late in their dimmed but storied career. Enjoy the three loose days. So sorry about your friends’ losses. Christ, that’s a lot. Mm, I doubt you have to go. I assume your friend will be pretty preoccupied by the situation. So I don’t know. Jeez. ** brendan, Great, great! Yeah, you can put everything in an email. The set up on my end is slightly different with WordPress, but nothing’s different on the guest-posters’ end. Thanks! Excited! Yip! ** _Black_Acrylic, I forget, have you read her novel ‘Malina’? If not, it’s easier to get, and it’s great. ** Jamie, Hey, J! Wow, what a fucking day you had! It does sound kind of exciting in a sci-fi style, but it also induced slight stress and sympathy exhaustion. But your words signalled a fit fella, so I won’t worry. My day pales. Work, emails, setting up some stuff, an event that I thought was going to be a lecture/presentation but was instead a book launch reception, a delicious sandwich at a Syrian take out place, and … just that, I guess. I don’t know Claudine Eizykman unless I’m spacing, but of course I’ll investigate. Thanks! I’m hoping this weekend to see this very late, never seen Chris Marker film that some enterprising dudes have managed to assemble from hard drives found in Marker’s archive, so that could be exciting. I always watched films whilst paying a lot of attention to their style, structure, rhythm, and so on, but it’s true that after making films, I think I do pay even more attention to the technical stuff. Or I know how that stuff works, which can be a boon in some cases or, as in the ‘I Was At Home, But…’ example, good to know but not pleasurable. I’ll take that disaster movie oppositional weekend, thank you very much. I’ll wish you a weekend that’s the exact opposite of a non-animated movie, whatever that would be. Highly animated, I guess? Love, Dennis. ** David, I like your joke. Never heard it before, no. Have you seen that meme that’s going around with the stand-up dinosaur comedian and his bored dinosaur audience? It always makes me laugh, whatever the joke, and your joke would work wonderfully there. Eek, possibly, re: the poor dead gull. I didn’t see anything dead yesterday or even anything I wished was dead, which is kind of remarkable. Enjoy refreshed London, man! ** Steve Erickson, Thanks! I almost went to a screening last night where Grandrieux was going to be in attendance. Thanks for the link! I’m there. Have simultaneously very fun and productive weekend. ** Okay. If you’re here reading this then you already know from scrolling down to this point that it’s the 15th of the month and the escorts have arrived on schedule to, in this case, make your weekend a less lonely place. See you on Monday.

 

‘Reading Ingeborg Bachmann’s short story collection The Thirtieth Year, we might hear in Bachmann, who was part of the Group 47 post-war writers, another Austrian, one who would go on to attack the group at a talk in the mid-sixties: Peter Handke. The attack at Princeton University in 1966 helped make Handke famous as he insisted that writers like Heinrich Boll, Gunter Grass and Martin Walser offered “descriptive literature”, and he was there to offer something new. Handke was in his mid-twenties and making a name for himself as he created a new space against others, but we might feel that he would have had more sympathy for Bachmann, whose work, written in the post-war years until her death in 1973, has the lacerating force on her fellow, younger Austrian. (Indeed, days after her death, Handke dedicated a speech to Bachmann after winning the Buchner prize.) We might describe this quality as the prose of righteous disregard: a feeling towards the self that isn’t at all sanctimonious as it refuses to find dignity in one’s actions, nor caricature as it acknowledges the absurd but never funny inadequacies of the human. Unlike fellow Austrian writer Elfriede Jelinek (who adapted Bachmann’s novel Malina for the screen) she doesn’t push the prose into the sustained hysteria Jelinek often offers as she tears into Austrian conformism and sexism with great syntactical energy. What both Handke and Bachmann share is an acuity of observation that suggests the autobiographical as reflective lucidity. It does not seem to be about creating characters (which is why it can appear so autobiographical) but it is not at all about detailing the experiences of their lives either. It is instead about exploring a character from the inside of their chaos and the interior nature of that search excavates the fictional, refuses to give the work a novelistic breadth and instead finds in it a particular type of breath. Irmela von der Luhe quotes Christa Wolf saying of Bachmann’s work: “while reading this prose one should not expect stories or the descriptions of actions…one will hear a single voice, bold and complaining.”

‘A particular passage in the long story ‘Three Paths to the Lake’ helps explain this breath. Here the central character Elisabeth realises that when she would tell Viennese friends about her glamorous life working as a photographer in Paris and New York, people would be fascinated, but she would wonder about the substance of her tales. “Anyone who happened to be listening could easily have had the impression that they were catching a glimpse of that different world, a shimmering and fascinating place, for Elisabeth’s accounts were told well and with a sense of humour, but at home, with her father, the stories crumbled into nothing; not only because Herr Matrei wasn’t in in the least interested but also because she noticed that, although she had actually experienced it all, then again she hadn’t, there was something bleak and empty in all these stories…” It is as though Elisabeth is trying to find her breath; a way of speaking that can speak for her and not about her. The anecdotal tales furnishes a social occasion without elaborating a personal need: “she never spoke about her own life.” The anecdote served a purpose but it hardly expressed a self, and its limitations were met not by her father’s indifference, but how she could see in her father’s company how impoverished these anecdotes were. Earlier in the story, Elisabeth thinks about a man who has been tortured and somehow managed to write about his experiences. How did he achieve it, she wondered, thinking “this man had attempted to discover what had happened to him when his soul was destroyed and to learn how a human being could change and continue to live, defeated, with that knowledge.” The contrast between the anecdote offered and the personal catastrophe illuminated might be where the difficulty of literature often resides. Though many will talk of the problem of literature as an historical one, that literature becomes ever harder to write, its existence harder to justify, and schools forming to try and maintain literature’s significance, Bachmann would seem suspicious of this, saying, “when we look back on the past half-century, on its literature with its chapter-headings of Naturalism and Symbolism, Expressionism, Surrealism, Imagism, Futurism, Dadaism, and a great deal that refuses to fit under any chapter-heading, it seems to us as though literature has been developing in a completely miraculous albeit somewhat inconsistent manner, exactly as it always has done, as it did in earlier ages—first there was Sturm und Drang, then Classicism, then Romanticism, and so forth.” Bachmann adds, “it is not especially difficult to acquire a working knowledge of these periods; but the present leaves a fair amount to be desired; we cannot properly see how it is developing, where it is headed; nothing is getting any clearer, not even the sense of a direction or directions.” This was during one of a series of Frankfurt lectures in 1959, with Bachmann determined to escape from ready-made, overly theoretical or historical approaches to the literary. It is not that the silence comes because of a historical set of circumstances (like the Holocaust), or a literary development, like the Absurd; it stems more from a personal necessity that could strike any writer, at any time, and that it is perhaps this silence which allows literature to manifest itself. …

‘It is this point we were addressing when we noticed similarities between Bachmann and Handke: an autobiographical tone that isn’t the same as autobiography; the sense of an immediate consciousness rather than a series of events viewed through character and situation. “We are indeed sleeping, are sleepers, out of the fear of being obliged to perceive our world as what it is” Bachmann proposed in her Frankfurt Lectures, but Bachmann wants a literature that will wake us up. This is perhaps the contemporary version of catharsis and must be found not through a chain of events that will lead to tragedy and emotional release, but must be called something else and manifests itself through a chain of non-events shaped by a radical interior consciousness. In the Frankfurt Lectures, Bachmann also says “our existence today lies at the intersection point of so many mutually unconnected realities that are chockful of the most mutually contradictory values.” She adds, “within the confines of your own four walls you can cultivate a domestic idyll in the patriarchal vein or libertinage or whatever else you like—outside you’re whirled about in a functional world of utility that has its own ideas about your existence.” Perhaps one needs to integrate the disintegration, to find a means by which to acknowledge the disparity between the anecdotal details that we say to others are our experiences, and the chaos inside that cannot so easily be narrativised.’ — Tony McKibben

 

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Further

Ingeborg Bachmann @ Wikipedia
Feminize Your Canon: Ingeborg Bachmann
Ingeborg Bachmann’s “Malina” Is the Truest Portrait of Female Consciousness Since Sappho
Book: ‘The Critical Writings of Ingeborg Bachmann’
Ingeborg Bachmann @ goodreads
“The outrageous has become the everyday”: Remembering Ingeborg Bachmann
Life? Or Theater?
Ingeborg Bachmann: Her Part, Let It Survive
Book: ‘Correspondence: Ingeborg Bachmann and Paul Celan’
A singular woman adrift
THE LIMITS OF LANGUAGE
The Architecture of Fascism in Ingeborg Bachmann’s ‘Malina’
“The end, we failed it. Both of us.”
Ingeborg Bachmann’s Rome
The Meticulous One
Life-in-death: an agonizing in-between
Society Is the Biggest Murder Scene of All: Adrian Nathan West on Ingeborg Bachmann’s “Malina”
Ingeborg Bachmann and Peter Handke: The Austrian Mitteleuropa
The plague novel you need to read is by Bachmann, not Camus
Buy ‘The Thirtieth Year’

 

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Extras

Ingeborg Bachmann reads ‘Alle Tage’ / Every Day 1961

Ingeborg Bachmann reads ‘An die Sonne’ / (A Paean) To the Sun 1961

INGEBORG BACHMANN | EXIL

Interview with Elfriede Jelinek (on Ingeborg Bachmann)

 

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The Horror Is in You
by Reed McConnell

 

‘I refuse to begin this essay with Ingeborg Bachmann’s death—the cigarette that set fire to her apartment in Rome while she was sleeping, the three weeks she spent lingering in a hospital burn unit, the ultimately fatal medical complications that resulted from her addiction to benzodiazepines—because to do so would be to reduce the rich life of one of the most important writers of twentieth-century German literature to its salacious end. But the impulse is common. Bachmann’s death is regularly treated as a synecdoche for her life, and it’s true that a great deal of her work deals centrally with death, depression and murder; that at the time of her death, in 1973, she was working on a cycle of novels called Ways of Dying; and that the final pages of its first and only volume, Malina, seem to prefigure a death by burning. But it’s also true that Bachmann saw violence and horror as integral to everyday life. A student of Ludwig Wittgenstein—who famously wrote, “whereof one cannot speak, thereof one must be silent”—Bachmann’s preoccupation with the unspeakable, from the horrors of the war to the everyday lives of women, is the only clear thread that runs throughout her oeuvre.

‘Bachmann was born in 1926 in Klagenfurt, Austria, the daughter of a homemaker mother and a schoolteacher father who was an early member of the Nazi Party. She was an avid reader, extremely nearsighted, and by all accounts spent most of her youth with her nose in a book. Once the war ended, she spent a year studying at the universities of Innsbruck and Graz, then moved to Vienna in 1946, where she began a degree in philosophy with minors in German literature and psychology. At 21, she met Paul Celan at a party thrown by the Surrealist painter Edgar Jené. The as-yet unknown Romanian Jewish poet and Holocaust survivor was awaiting a visa to move to Paris. Within days of their first meeting, he was showering her with reading recommendations and filling her apartment with poppies. Their relationship would become one of the most storied in German letters before ending in 1952, when Bachmann proposed marriage to Celan, only to learn that he was already engaged to another woman. (She’d known nothing about their relationship.)

‘In 1951, soon after completing a doctoral degree in philosophy—closer to a master’s degree by today’s standards—Bachmann took a job at Rot-Weiß-Rot,1 the radio station of the American forces occupying Vienna. The job served as her entrée into the wider German-language literary world, as it was there that Bachmann met Hans Werner Richter, leader of the famous Gruppe 47 literary meetings, to which she secured an invitation in 1952. A year later, Bachmann won the Gruppe 47 Prize, the organization’s highest honor, for reading four poems from what would soon become her first collection, Die gestundete Zeit, or Borrowed Time. Featuring vermin, machines and a natural world at once hauntingly beautiful and horrifyingly violent, the poems evoked the terrors of a war still reverberating through Europe.

‘It was the beginning of a meteoric rise. At 28, merely five years after graduating from university, Bachmann appeared on the cover of Der Spiegel sporting boyish cropped hair and bold lipstick, the very image of a young iconoclast. In the following years, Bachmann lived in Rome, Naples, Munich and Paris; wrote libretti for the composer Hans Werner Henze, a close friend; advocated for nuclear disarmament; and published more poetry and fiction, releasing her first book of short stories in 1961. In 1958, she began dating Max Frisch, a Swiss writer fifteen years her senior. Their tumultuous four-year relationship ended when Frisch, then 52, left Bachmann for a 23-year-old college student, Marianne Oellers. (A fan of both writers, Oellers first met Frisch when Bachmann invited her to their apartment in Rome for dinner.)

‘Bachmann never seems to have recovered the happiness, imperfect though it may have been, that she had experienced living with Frisch. After their break in late 1962, she moved to Berlin, where she spent a year living on a fellowship from the Ford Foundation. She hated the city and became deeply depressed, and it was around this time that she began drinking and taking benzodiazepines. It would be years until she finally published her only novel, Malina, in 1971. A second book of short stories, Three Paths to the Lake, appeared in 1972, just before Bachmann’s untimely death in 1973. …

‘The glorification of the deaths of depressed woman writers has seen a renaissance over the last decade. In 2013, Vice took down from its website a fashion shoot from the pages of its “Women in Fiction” issue, depicting, among others, Virginia Woolf, Sylvia Plath and Iris Chang in the act of killing themselves, their clothing carefully detailed next to each image, so that you, too, could buy a pair of stockings like the ones that Taiwanese writer Sanmao used to hang herself. The editorial was swiftly condemned, but a certain set of conditions of possibility are necessary for such an editorial to be conceivable in the first place. Women writers are often given a tragic cast—and as tragic figures, they are rendered powerless, not necessarily as individuals who do not fight but as individuals who are kept from ever winning by an oppressive society.

‘Bachmann is clear: the tragedy went far beyond her role as a woman or as a feminist artist, even though these themes were central to her writing. The gendered suffering and violence endured by women on an everyday basis was merely one manifestation of a threat much more general in its scope, for patriarchal domination was itself fascist. Bachmann commented explicitly on this in an interview shortly before her death, saying, “I’ve thought about where fascism begins. It doesn’t begin with the first bombs dropped, it doesn’t begin with political violence, which one can write about in any newspaper. It begins in relationships between people. Fascism is the first thing in the relationship between a man and a woman.”

‘If there is a limit to what language can express, Wittgenstein gives us no reason to think that everything beyond this limit must be dark. If the inexpressible is understood to include the horrors of the Holocaust, then it should, too, hold room for the impenetrable mysteries and everyday wonders of nature, time, compassion and God. But for Bachmann, the inexpressible was necessarily horrible, and her task as a writer thus both urgent and ultimately futile: to bend language over backwards in an attempt to traverse its own limits and awaken her readers to the true conditions of a world that was merely biding its time before realizing its deepest—and darkest—potential.’

 

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Book

Ingeborg Bachmann The Thirtieth Year
Holmes & Meier Publishers

‘This is collection of the stories written by a distinguished Austrian author who died in 1973. Reading these stories entails abandoning the terms of one’s own comfort. The author’s relentless vision demands that readers allows themselves to be hypnotised, taken over by her repetitive cadences and burning images of grief and loss. And yet, in the beauty of her images there is a tremendous affirmation of the world.’ — Holmes & Meier

‘The Thirtieth Year, a collection of seven short stories published in 1961, was Bachmann’s prose debut following the poetry collections with which she rose to fame in the 1950s. The majority of the short stories in the collection focus on turning points in the protagonists’ lives, which briefly allow the central protagonists to glimpse another world, or attain insight that was previously denied to them. Bachmann’s The Thirtieth Year collection is primarily concerned with language (in particular, the utopian hope of refashioning the world through a new language), the persisting legacy of the Second World War, transgression (of boundaries and social norms), and issues of memory and identity.’ — Katya Krylova

Excerpt

from Youth in an Austrian Town

On fine October days, as you come out of the Radetzkystrasse, you can see by the Municipal Theatre a group of trees in the sunshine. The first tree, which stands in front of those dark-red cherry trees that bear no fruit, is so ablaze with autumn, such an immense patch of gold, that it looks like a torch dropped by an angel. And now it is burning, and the autumn wind and frost cannot put it out.

Who, faced with this tree, is going to talk to me about falling leaves and the white death? Who will prevent me from holding it with my eyes and believing that it will always glow before me as it does at this moment and that it is not subject to the laws of the world?

In its light the town too is recognizable again, with pale convalescent houses under the dark hair of their tiles, and the canal that every now and then brings in a boat from the sea which ties up in its heart. The docks are undoubtedly dead now that freight is brought to the town quicker by train and lorry; but flowers and fruit still fall from the high quay onto the pondlike water, the snow drops off the boughs, the melted snow comes rushing noisily down, then washes back and raises a wave and with the wave a ship whose bright-coloured, sail was set on our arrival.

People rarely moved to this town from another town, because its attractions were too few; they came from the villages, because the farms had grown too small, and they looked for accommodation on die outskirts where it was cheapest. Here there were still fields and gravel pits, big market gardens and allotments on which year after year the owners grew turnips, cabbages and beans, the bread of the poorest settlers. These settlers dug their own cellars, standing in the seepage. They nailed up their own rafters during the brief evenings between spring and autumn, and heaven knows whether they ever in their lives saw the ceremony that takes place when the roof is put on.

This didn’t worry their children, for they had already grown familiar with the ever-changing smells that came from far away, when the bonfires were burning and the gypsies speaking strange languages settled fleetingly in the no-man’ land between cemetery and airfield.

In the tenement in the Durchlasstrasse the children have to take off their shoes and play in stockinged feet, because they live above the landlord. They are only allowed to whisper and for the rest of their lives they will never lose the habit of whispering. At school the teachers say to them: ‘You should be beaten till you open your mouths. Beaten. . . .’ Between the reproach for talking too loud and the reproach for talking too softly, they settle down in silence.

The Durchlasstrasse, Tunnel Street, did not get its name from the game in which the robbers march through a tunnel, but for a long time the children thought it did. It wasn’t until later, when their legs carried them farther, that they saw the tunnel, the little underpass, over which the train passed on its way to Vienna. Inquisitive people who wanted to go to the airfield had to walk through this tunnel, across the fields and right through all the embroideries of autumn. Someone had the idea of putting the airfield next to the cemetery, and the people in K always said it was convenient for burying the pilots who for a time made training flights here. The pilots never did anyone the favour of crashing. The children always yelled: ‘An airman! An airman!’ They raised their arms towards them as though to catch them, and stared into the cloud zoo in which the airmen moved among animals’ heads and masks.

The children take the silver paper off the bars of chocolate and whistle the Maria Saaler Geldut on it. At school the children’s heads are examined for lice by a woman doctor. The children don’t know what the time is, because the clock on the parish church has stopped. They always come home late from school. The children! They know their names when put to it, but they prick up their ears only when someone calls out ‘Children’.

Homework: down strokes and up strokes in neat writing, exercises in profit and loss, the profit of new horizons against the loss of dreams, learning things off by heart with the help of memory aids. Their task: to learn an alphabet and the multiplication tables, an orthography and the ten commandments, among the fumes of oiled floors, of a few hundred children’s lives, dwarfs’ overcoats, burnt India-rubbers, among tears and scoldings, standing in the corner, kneeling and unsilenceable chatter.

The children take off old words and put on new ones. They heard about Mount Sinai and they see the Ulrichsberg with its turnip fields, larches and firs, mixed up with chars and thorn bushes, and they eat sorrel and gnaw the corn cobs before they grow hard and ripe, or bring them home and roast them on the glowing embers. The stripped cobs disappear into the wooden box and are used as tinder, and cedar and olive wood is laid on top, smoulders, warms from far away and casts shadows on the wall.

The time of trophies, the time of Christmases, without looking forward, without looking back, the time of the pumpkin nights, of ghosts and terrors without end. In good, in evil — without hope.

The children have no future. They are afraid of the whole world. They don’t picture the world; they picture only the geography of a hopscotch square, because its frontiers can be drawn in chalk. On one or two legs they hop the frontiers from one region to another.

One day the children move into the Henselstrasse. Into a house without a landlord, into an estate that has crawled out tame and hidebound from under mortgages. They live two streets away from the Beethovenstrasse, in which all the houses are spacious and centrally heated, and one street away from the Radetzkystrasse, through which the trams run, electric-red and with huge muzzles. They have become the possessors of a garden, in which roses are planted in the front and little apple trees and blackcurrant bushes at the back. The trees are no taller than the children, and they grow up together. On the left they have neighbours with a boxer dog, and on the right children who eat bananas and spend the day swinging on a horizontal bar and rings which they have put up in the garden. They make friends with the dog Ali and compete with the children next door, who always know better and can do things better.

They prefer to be by themselves; they make themselves a deu in the attic and often shout out loud in their hiding place, trying out their crippled voices. They utter little low cries of rebellion in front of spiders’ webs.

 

 

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p.s. Hey. ** David Ehrenstein, Ah, the classics. I think I did a scratch-and-sniff post here where they were lauded. Yes, RIP Ronnie Spector. ** Dominik, Hi!!! The meeting was a good start. We have to draft up a proposal for what we want and want to do and submit it, but it looks likely that we’ll get funded. I hope. Mm, it’s hard to describe what we want to do when one hasn’t seen the version we showed, but we want to make it more complicated and interactive, and there were things that were too expensive and time consuming for the designers to do with the limited funds/time we had that we would like to add/implement, and we would like to make the piece/game playable by people. Right now it can only be demonstrated via guided walkthroughs. Yeah, I just had a moment yesterday where I saw a bunch of mermaid memes and questioned the human populace’s imaginative powers. But there are worse things. Your love of yesterday is far more inspiring to the imagination. Well, IMHO. Love devoting the rest of his life to finding the boy with the noisiest butthole on the internet, G. ** _Black_Acrylic, Slurp, curry. I can’t do fiery chilies, though. After a bad bout of acid reflux in my 20s, my stomach laid down the law. But yum notwithstanding  them. I’ve heard of ‘Succession’, and I like Brian Cox, so I’ll list it. Thanks, bud. ** Jamie, Hey! Ha ha, interesting about your super nasal powers. I can imagine that gift coming in not handy at all. Ooh, that experimental film club does sound totally dreamy. Experimental film is one of my most giant life crushes, as you can probably tell. Nice line-up. Non-stop goodies. I thought I’d done an Eddie Gehr post, but I just checked and I haven’t. Head + lit lightbulb = me. My day was alright. Might’ve possibly started the process of getting funding to finish the Home Haunt videogame-like project. Saw a film, Angela Schanelec’s ‘I Was at Home, But …’. It was very interesting like she usually is, but its decision making was too forefronted. All I could see was the editing, filming, framing, etc. decisions, and it made the film too dry and exercise-y. But I’m glad I saw it. Did some emailing and texting. ‘A Short Film About Killing’, wow, interesting. I hardly remember the film, or rather its doings. Vegan pâté … that’ll be hard to top, but I’ll, you know, try. Gonna look at some art and attend a lecture thing today, so maybe. I hope your Friday is better than the sky. Tall order, but … ** David, Hi. I don’t think my nose is very high powered or something. People are always saying ‘What’s that smell’, and I sniff the air like a dog and can’t smell anything. I’ve only done VR on those old roller coasters they fit with VR to make them seem exciting, and I’ve only ever gotten really nauseous. ** Brian, Hey, Brian. As often is the case, I think I got some offshoot whim and decided to see what smell tech options there are, and lo and behold the batch seemed like a watchable post. There’s the Bachmann post up above. Personally, I would start with her great novel ‘Malina’. That’s kind of her ultimate thing. I’ll try to find my way into ‘Euphoria’, probably for the very reasons you found it of interest. I give up on books all the time. Sometimes because they don’t interest me, and sometimes because I feel like I’ve read enough to get what they’re doing and what their pleasure source is and how they work, and I don’t feel like I need any more of them. But I don’t read very many books where the plot and narrative are paramount, mind you. So, I don’t think bailing is a problem at all. No, I can’t say the ‘Wizard of Oz’ had any competition from my yesterday, but that would be asking lot. Yours sounds like it gave ‘TWoZ’ a bit of a run, though. Hope your Friday doesn’t stand outside your bedroom window at 3 am with an acoustic guitar serenading you with James Taylor’s greatest hits. ** Okay. Today I spotlight a fine book by the very fine scribe Ingeborg Bachmann. Please give it a shot. See you tomorrow.