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ZoomOut, 19
If my face pic doesn’t make it obvious I like to be punched, beaten, humiliated, punished and sexually abused.
Been happening for years. I used to be handsome, still skinny.
Happiest if it happens in front of lots of people.
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i-punish-you – Sept 26, 2024
Chilling
ZoomOut (Owner) – Sept 22, 2024
I hate men who like me.
rimbaudd – Sept 19, 2024
I’m just here to vouch that he used to be handsome.
4bullybait – Sept 18, 2024
I don’t normally like pinning a boy down and raping him while he struggles, kicks, screams, stuff like that, but how much he did made it worth it.
ZoomOut (Owner) – Sept 16, 2024
I don’t identify as a fag. Fags are cock obsessed and weak.
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SaddestBitch, 19
My name is Ben or Benjamin but I don’t think that will matter much to you as I will be soon be no more than as an it.
What I am seeking is to become a total permanent object with just enough brain power to make facial expressions.
Like so stupid I can’t do simple math.
That new me will do everything you say even if it doesn’t want to or it hurts it or scares it.
You can beat that new me or lock it away it will just live as a total object and like a piece of meat.
I am already weak and not very smart.
Sorry I don’t speak French I’m sorry.
I’m in France.
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Cyber_maniac – Sept 20, 2024
Bitch is owned by Alabamamaster (in the US) and under the authority of Volsmstr (in Europe) and co-owned by Sir Terry (in UK territories). It is temporarily out of action until we tire of him, estimating mid October.
Welcomed2024 – Sept 13, 2024
I found his unhinged detachment from reality very attractive.
SaddestBitch (Owner) – Sept 11, 2024
I try to escape the constant craving, but my piggyness needs it!
SaddestBitch (Owner) – Sept 11, 2024
Yes, write to me.
Cyber_maniac – Sept 11, 2024
can you be branded, pierced, tattooed, sold, kept in bondage, shaved, punished with or without reason, used as a toilet for both ends, made to endure extreme pain, beat up and punched hard everywhere including your face?
SaddestBitch (Owner) – Sept 8, 2024
I once spent a summer traveling through Europe where I tried to learn how to cook Italian food from locals.
Let’s just say I’m still perfecting my pasta-making skills.
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dog4free, 20
this dog is a real handful. responds to Otto. very eager and loyal but very dumb. still needs to be house trained. loves long walks on a leash, but you gotta be careful, he will literally eat anything on the ground. 💩 also keep your bathroom door closed bc he is so stupid he will drink from the toilet. 🤮 definitely a mutt.
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markmad – Sept 13, 2024
Whether in a virtual world, a story, or an online community, “Otto” alias ben would likely be a figure of intrigue, sparking curiosity and conversation wherever they roam. Whether dog or something entirely unique, “Otto” remains a figure carved into the annals of virtual history, a digital legend in its own right. Its biography, though unwritten, is composed of the countless interactions and impressions it has made upon the world.
Otto – Sept 9, 2024
My human name is ben. Im 41 reversed and need some1 to talk to. Yeah you read that right :/ Just need ppl to talk to and older guys can do that a bit better idk. luv, Otto
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begforme, 19
Anything u can think of, mate.
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begforme (Owner) – Sept 17, 2024
Thank you. yes, i let any and all Men whip me, choke me out with their hands, a belt, a rope, piss in me, spit in my mouth, blow their nose in my mouth, punch me in the face, pass me around, etc. literally anything, use me in any way they’d like.
Brwndaddy – Sept 17, 2024
Fuck I just came out from a long chemo party with him and some thug friend of his named Fernando. The marks from our whips will be visible on this worthless, bug filled trash faggot’s body now for a long time.
begforme (Owner) – Sept 14, 2024
I’ve been in so much fucking porn. I’ve been in porn that got men sent to prison for just having it on their hard drive.
Goodvibesunite – Sept 14, 2024
You’ve been in porn, correct?
begforme (Owner) – Sept 12, 2024
I love all of that. 😍 Love being treated like trash because I am cumdump trash. Do anything you’d like while I’m unconscious, and even when I’m not. I live to worship Men like you. 🥰
Frosty13 – Sept 12, 2024
I like punching you in the face. I like strangling you and choking you out. I like feeling you insides tighten around my dick when you lose consciousness. You trashy self-hating cumdump love being treated like the worthless whore you are. I love fucking trash like you. If you’re lucky you might wake up one of these times covered in your own piss and shit and vomit with a noose around your neck and my arm up your ass to the elbow. And you’re fucking retarded if you disagree.
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stupidloserboyfriend, 22
This is, or should I say was, my stupid loser boyfriend. Now he is property owned by me. I have him placed in my Texas home. Now he can meet with you when he’s awake and be your stupid whatever. I can’t believe I used to love him.
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stupidloserboyfriend (Owner) – Sept 14, 2024
True, but so hard to believe now. Now he wakes up sleeping naked on the floor, chained to the bed with chastity and a buttplug in. His head and body hair are shaved every day to remind him what he is. I wake him up pounding his ass into oblivion. Then he does all the chores around the house naked on his knees with a ball stretcher. He swallows my piss every time I go. Then I dress him as a slutty girl wearing chastity and a vibrating butt plug and I take him to the sauna and let anyone fuck him. Then in the afternoon I take me to the gay cruise beach wear a speedo and let anyone fuck him. Then I take him home and give him the routine whipping and torture then make him go stand in the corner for an hour. Then I crush his balls with my hands and knees and shoes and spit on my face, write degrading nasty words on his body. Then I leave him tied up and gagged and blindfolded for hours. I finally go and see him and fuck his ass into oblivion. Then I feed him and lock him in a cage.
twinpeaks – Sept 14, 2024
I remember when you were completely smitten with him and one time you caught me checking out his ass and wouldn’t speak to me for a week.
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GuiltyNo1, 19
This sex slave boy been in the life since it was 13. Into most scenes, good for short-term or long-term slave use or for 24/7 if wanted. It spent 5 years in Texas Youth Prison, and owned by guard pedos as prison whore. It was caught in a Greyhound bus bathroom with three pedos, one was a cop. It was under his control for 6 months and said he would not turn it in if it became his slave. After 6 months he turned it in. The judge gave it 18 months for prostitution and said if it liked pedos so much…he sent it to the roughest youth prison, it was about 1000 prisoners, 700 were adult, others teen. They hated it cause it was owned by pedo guards. Every time it was to be paroled, they put drugs in its cell…so it got extra time…they do that every time it was supposed to leave, why it was for 5 years. It think it is better to tell others what it is and what it has done and what it is open to…which after 5 years is anything.
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HectorVector – Sept 6, 2024
I would like to take you on a one-way camping trip into the woods of Kentucky. Hit me back if you’re interested.
CometoPapa – Sept 6, 2024
I’m interested, but you must spend two hours daily at the gym. You must have a job. You must brush your teeth.
Undertaker – Sept 6, 2024
Through years of sexual experience with him in both a personal and professional sense, in addition to therapy, I have come to understand his trauma and what triggers it very well. Feel free to hit me up tips.
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Privilege, 18
AGE: dm for this information
NAME: Rex
GENDER: beautiful male
DESCRIPTION: Beautiful attention slave Rex here to serve a wealthy man as an object of worship 24:7. He likes wealthy men, the thought of being worshipped by a wealthy man really turns him on and gets him weak at the knees. Wealthy worshippers approach 🙇. He can kneel or stand or lie down and be worshipped forever with a no way out contract. He can also relocate for the right worshipper and he’s willing to start soon as possible, this week if you can.
CONDITION: NO LIMIT
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MachineGuy – Sept 11, 2024
Love is not a job, love simply is. Unconditional love is what I offer you, my heart of hearts, my soul mate, friend, lover and object of worship for life!
Privilege (Owner) – Sept 10, 2024
I like shiny spandex, leggings, shorts, any tight shorts, my pussy upclose in clothes, dirty talk, and love the smell of my pussy soaked in shorts or pants.
Subbitch – Sept 10, 2024
Define “worship”
Privilege (Owner) – Sept 8, 2024
He is a special object. He is an object who can create ecstasy. His owner will always be in a hurry to return home.
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gulpgulp988, 18
I love inflatable suits and my greatest joy in life is to be turned into a juicy blueberry.
I am still in High School with a 4.0 GPA. I need to be home by 9:30 pm so I can be in bed by 10 pm.
If my parents knew I was gay, I be probably kicked out of the house.
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PervyCunt – Sept 16, 2024
Meeting him today after not having had a blueberry sub in years. I’m gonna inflate him, beat him up, make him worship my boots and feet and lick piss off a toilet seat. I am buzzed.
richardddddd – Sept 7, 2024
i will take everything u own fuck ur life completly i am god
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Scotty, 19
As a preteen, my mom asked her boyfriends to spank me. When I get spanked now as a teen, I am feeling again like a little kid, and it rejuvenates me. Would you like doing it? Please live in Moreno Valley, Riverside, or nearby. Because I am passive, you should strip me.
I dont do girls. Just men who love this genre.
I have a picture of Bambi tattooed on my ass.
Im 4 inch and uncut.
Im also looking for friends.
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metalmachine – Sept 13, 2024
Can AI show him being strangled, dismembered with a jigsaw and garden shears, and his flesh pureed in a blender?
stayhumble – Sept 13, 2024
@metalmachine — If you could be satisfied with just seeing Scotty dead, there’s a new black market AI that is to be able to turn anyone into a corpse.
Give the necessary data and photo content to the AI and you will be able to see Scotty dead in various ways, run over, in a car accident, hanged, beheaded… and in a very realistic way!
metalmachine – Sept 13, 2024
What can i say about Scotty? Well he is a desperate boy looking for any ounce of attention. He is a true ultimate. He is a true object. You can be so tireless. But he is so desperate that you only want to spank him more and more. When you spank him you want to snuff him. Unfortunately that seems to be one of his limits. But he is otherwise perfect. That bony little ass is unimpeachably great. He is my goal in life and he is the most perfect victim on the planet. I only wish to snuff this little fallen god ….he is like heaven.
Scotty (Owner) – Sept 9, 2024
Indulge me as I scream into the void.
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DisciplinarianNeeded, 19
TLDR; I’m looking for a real sadistic man to punish my biological son for me.
For starters I’d like to address the very obvious fact that I am indeed his biological father and gay but I’m not on here looking for someone for myself. Oh, no that’d be too simple.
So, here’s the run down on why I’m on here when I clearly don’t belong.
The reason being is that my son is very disobedient and lazy young man who needs stricter discipline than I can provide.
Now a little more context on a few things.
Situation:
His favorite colors are black and gray. His favorite food is flank steak. His favorite TV show is Chicago fire the residency. He does not have a favorite book. He does not have a favorite movie. He likes country music. His favorite country artist is Toby Keith, Luke Bryan, Blake Shelton, Ashley Cook. He likes to ride his bike around the neighborhood. He does not smoke. He does drink a little. He’s supposed to not drink because he had three back surgeries and a feeding tube. His lungs are really bad. He tries to play his guitar.
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Hot_chills – Sept 15, 2024
I agree with the previous commenter.
Shitworm – Sept 14, 2024
Your son needs to be a permanent toilet spending its life bounded and objectified eating shit and drinking piss.
ExploringSomthing – Sept 14, 2024
Are we going to talk about the elephant in the room? The boy is clearly looking for a new and better dad. You need to either be convincing as a dad or have the physical strength to rape him.
Kakaikitan – Sept 12, 2024
If ur looking for a cute boy with a tiny dick hello.
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smoothpinkhole, 22
There’s two sides to me.
One side, I’m adventurous and outgoing, I organize community art exhibitions and make art in various forms. I fight for my beliefs loudly and I’m an intelligent if somewhat pretentious creative personality.
The other side is lonely, likes being down and staying depressed and wants to have my hole fucked up so bad that I start shaking and uncontrollably pissing at the same time whilst I’m railed.
Come have both!
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cuminthroat – Sept 16, 2024
He is a whore, a toilet, a pet, a dog, and extreme cock slut. He is totally disgusting. Sex with him is egregious. I think you’ll approve.
Jakestook – Sept 10, 2024
First I looked at his art while he explained it to me, then I tied him down, blindfolded him, gagged him and edged him to insanity, and I mean clinical insanity, which took +/- 36 hours.
WEARETWO – Sept 6, 2024
He’s a bad artist. He’s garbage with legs. He’s nothing.
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Nooseboy, 24
I’m 24 years old and for the past couple years hanging scenes have been my go to. Love feeling a noose around my neck before I kick and dangle. Can be mild or VERY extreme. Gallows, trap doors, dangling from trees, etc.
Lately I have been drawn to the idea of being a real victim of hanging… execution perhaps? It is only a fantasy, but, if the right hangman were to try to persuade me, who knows? I might succumb.
That is a deep and dark confession, but I want to lay it out there as it is.
I do not perform background checks and don’t care what you have done in your past.
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DLmeatHead – Sept 18, 2024
He has a nice ass and a cute face that looks very nice when it’s choked purple.
PrinceDream – Sept 9, 2024
My cock is still leaking precum and hurt after I “hung” you yesterday.
Cumster – Sept 2, 2024
I hope this is dead and rotting now, waiting for you and me to find it, fuck it for weeks as it decomposes, then eat it.
Nooseboy (Owner) – Sept 1, 2024
I separate my hanging life with family life. Please don’t ask me more info about it. No they don’t know I’m on here
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RETARDO, 22
ONE LAST TRY. I’M SELF LOATHING DEVIANT SCUM WHO CAN’T COPE ANYMORE. PLEASE REAL MASTERS OR SADIST GROUPS WHITH ABILITIES TO KIDNAP ME FROM MY COUNTRY (SLOVAKIA). THIS NEED IS SO OVERPOWERING IT DRIVES ME TO DESPAIR. ATTENTION: I AM NOT FOR CLEANING, COOKING OR HOUSEWORKS. I AM A VICTIM. PERMANENT NUDITY, IN CHAINS, CELL, COLLAR AROUND THE NECK, NO LIMITS, NO RETURN. DAILY ABUSE AND EXTREME NEW TABOO LEVEL, RAPE, FIST, PISS, SHIT, FORCED VOMIT, VIOLENT SM TORTURE, CHEMS AND HARD DRUGS, BRANDING WITH HOT IRON BAR AND REAL SNUFF (VIOLENT DEEP FIST TO THE GRAVE). ONLY IF YOU CAN KIDNAP ME FROM MY COUNTRY. I CAN’T SAY ANYMORE I JUST LIVE IN HOPE.
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Ender – Sept 20, 2024
Yummmmmy
RETARDO (Owner) – Sept 18, 2024
I PREFER WE GET ON FOR WHAT WE ARE HERE FOR IFYKYK
Douchebag4721 – Sept 18, 2024
This is a huge fantasy i have of my son, id lose my mind if i watched him being used and killed like that it would help me take out all my rage on him ohh god all i can picture is him in your place.
RETARDO (Owner) – Sept 13, 2024
I CAN BE SLOW TO RESPOND: MY SUICIDE DRIVE SEEMS TO HAVE HIGH PEAKS AND LOW VALLEYS. LOL.
MASTER-AKTIV-BRUTALL – Sept 7, 2024
Seriously? I would love to fist you to death! And all I have to do is come pick you up in Slovakia? That’s so easy! Clear your schedule because I’m your guy. Just tell me where you are in Slovakia, and I’ll go put some gas in my car.
Nutte – Sept 7, 2024
The need to be killed comes from the victim and i am doing him “the favor” of letting him get what he wants, even if he himself can’t accept that this is what he really wants deep inside. It’s a psychological story I am telling myself about the need for killing. So if a guy tells me: “Kill me how you want”, what I hear is that he doesn’t particularly want it but is “doing me a favor” and letting me live out my fantasy. This is a turn off for me. I prefer he sees himself as a preliminary dead guy.
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Jackoffadam, 21
Hi adam here I am a young married guy to female wife she doesn’t know I am on here or about this want to keep it that way wife doesn’t do anything with me as intimacy or anything so looking at what can do besides doing it to myself I not leaving my wife I know been on here before I sorry left at times This one I leaving up I work fulltime as a meat cutter at a grocery store It’s been 1 year since had sex with wife my wife one year ago wife had gallbladder removed and then month later came down with a permanent bladder infection that will never go away so I didn’t have sex because I don’t want to get that and wife don’t want me to get it so we sleep in different beds nothing happens anymore so I do things to myself I am leaving this one up If nothing happens it will still be up I don’t care anymore more
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Well-being – Sept 23, 2024
Use his 🍑, rim his 🍑, bite his 🍑, dildo his 🍑, DP his 🍑, fist his 🍑.
Jamesmaple – Sept 16, 2024
It took an usually long time to get tired of having sex with him.
rightnownow – Sept 12, 2024
he is a nice guy, and has – until the alcohol starts working – good manners. he has not developed an insane amount of initiative to get things rolling and keep them rolling.
Jackoffadam (Owner) – Sept 9, 2024
I get freaky when I look at me sometimes
ILackAGagReflux – Sept 9, 2024
Why would someone as insanely hot as you have gotten married? It boggles my mind.
Jackoffadam (Owner) – Sept 9, 2024
I am a vgl former high school quarterback jock type dude I was always the stud with a beautiful girlfriend my whole life I’ve done lots of stupid things and I’m looking for a guy who has the type of mindset to make me feel I cant do anything right because I can’t
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starforever, 23
Hot Fuck’n Slammer 💉👍 I Seriously Need to Fuck’n METH Slam Inject Hard with You Man and then Get Some Big METH Dicked Bareback Stud Fuck Action Going On With You for Balls Deep Loads of Big Dicked METH Up Cum Floodin’ Your Big Dick and My Load Hungry METHED Up Cunt 💉👍
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starforever (Owner) – Sept 11, 2024
I Take any cock – take that sweet pain – I offer it up to the greater glory of our Lord Satan and Hail HIS name as your Soldier blasts your stinking toxic death load into my guts.
fuckandfuck – Sept 11, 2024
Damn Slammer You are a Seriously Fuck’n Sexy METH Slam Injecting Hot Assed Bitch 💉👍
starforever (Owner) – Sept 7, 2024
I’m craving Ur DNA flooding my guts…neg off birth control poppers-bating now to your poz porn…!!! Pig faggot poz whore beggin’ 4 ToxicPollination…I crave U so Bad…Slam me and flood my guts with your dirty toxic charged loads and STDs…Oink oink…!!!
BIGSNAKE28cm – Sept 7, 2024
🔥Total Chem Junkie Whore Bottom that deserves abuse and loves his hole used mercilessly while tweaked to his eyeballs. Slam him Huge and stuff him with your AIDS and PIG DISEASES…☣️💦👿💀
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secretmeetsonly, 22
I’m a late bloomer slut, I’ve been slut for almost 2 years but I can’t get a slut mindset going and it’s an honest struggle. My bf wants to make me comfortable and wants to be a piggy top for me but he cums too fast and he won’t go get help from other tops or let me be gangbanged. Not much fun has gone on. I’m the one wearing black.
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MJ – Sept 15, 2024
I asked him to eat my cum and he would not so I am very unhappy at this time.
stinkygremlin – Sept 7, 2024
Once in your presence, he loses all his humanity. He becomes nothing more than a disgusting faggot. You can make him say terrible things about himself!
StraightCurious – Sept 3, 2024
If you want to shove your cock inside him and rape him in ways that you’ll never forget — even if you wish you could — he’s the BEST. If you want to fuck his throat until he coughs up god knows what he’s the BEST. If you want to choke him to the edge of consciousness as you tell him what a pathetic bitch he is he’s the BEST. If you want to take him out to dinner after, there’s a big shower at his place, so no matter how badly you defile him, he can clean up.
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FreeBoyHole4USir, 23
I used to have plenty of limits Sir but now I’ve tried a lot of things Sir. Every time Ive been told to do something i didn’t resist Sir. If I had limits, they have long gone Sir.
My last sir age regressed me with hypnosis Sir. I’m 2 years old and still regressing Sir. My brain and mind are empty and thoughtless at all times, having no thoughts of my own has help me become the best Sir.
I want to find a Sir with a remote house who will use me extremely to satisfy every kink he has or has ever imagined without a safe word without anything and stream it live Sir.
The only words I speak are “Yes Sir” and “Thank you Sir” otherwise my mouth only stays open for cock Sir.
I’m happy baby Sir. I love to play, draw and to peepee in my pants Sir.
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CosmicElliot – Sept 16, 2024
Don’t bother writing to him, I will be deleting him soon. This is not a wind up it’s happening.
EdsbeGores – Sept 4, 2024
I could without hesitation
generic_user – Sept 4, 2024
Am I the only one who’d love to dress up like a terrorist or a nazi germany uniform and force this Ayran blond specimen to be mine, cut him open, experiment on his body with various tools according to the time period and the “roleplay” until he is a soulless breed-able corpse, then keep it in my bed for weeks until it’s no longer fuckable?
hotmustard – Sept 3, 2024
Advice from one of his previous Masters:
Theo is a young slave raised to serve humans, he has no emotion and his thoughts are very easily implanted. He has undergone many treatments such as head trauma, extreme torture including whipping and he has also been beaten a lot and raped by anyone. He was not raised by parents and never went to school.
CommandingRitualist – Sept 3, 2024
I am so strict man to hope to get a good small white dog.
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Anonym2000, 19
hey, I’m looking for people who are interested in running over me with a car.
I love cars and love for cars to drive over me, my hands, arms, legs, and more if you like the risk.
If you want to torture me with your car then get in touch.
I’m only interested in this!
I’m a virgin and intend to stay that way for the foreseeable future.
Please only get in touch if you want to!
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Anonym2000 (Owner) – Sept 12, 2024
Why are people who drive motorcycles messaging me?!
Anonym2000 (Owner) – Sept 9, 2024
It’d be my first time, but I’ve been studying for some time now.
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willsorry, 19
Awhile ago on website that’s not around anymore I hookup with a guy that fuck me he moved away hookup with another fuck couple times and 69 each other he moved away different site that not around anymore met two guys lived together the guy had me sit on a huge dildo why he put his cock down my throat and fist me couple times fuck me good he passed away a different guy I met would tie me down to a massage table shock my cock balls good and different set of guys put me in a swing blindFolded would shock my cock torture my cock balls and ass but they moved away and that site just shut down recently don’t know why that’s why I came on here sorry about all that so if nothing going to work out anyway because 99% of you will not touch my situation the way it looks so all of you have a nice life
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Master2chains – Sept 12, 2024
I’m not a photographer, but I can picture us together.
Itscontinue – Sept 8, 2024
Hey, I’m new to the community and have never openly shared my fetish with anyone. I suppose I’m closeted in that sense but the rest of my friends and family know that I’m gay.
I love boys who can’t grow a moustache but don’t shave above their upper lip. Everything about those sad ‘staches – the look, the feel, the taste. Feeling and kissing and worshipping them is enough for me to get off.
I’m pretty inexperienced when it comes to hooking up as it’s been difficult to organically meet someone who shared the same kink as me. I’m nervous to put myself out here but I’m hoping you’ll be someone who’s as much into your scraggly little moustache as I am.
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less, 22
All I want is to hookup with a fat nasty old daddy who is going to tell me how pathetic I am for servicing him!
I only hook up with fat nasty types so this is very much a kink for me of being used by someone I’m not attracted to.
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sunburn777 – Sept 21, 2024
Makes dumb faces when he jerks off.
Ours – Sept 19, 2024
I’m not normally into skinny boys but he let me use him as a pig so no complaints.
Fatso – Sept 14, 2024
I have never met a male before. Just want to take things slow and if I feel like it at the time maybe dress you in a full enclosure catsuit but as I say I have never met a male before.
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p.s. Hey. So, the blog will be going on vacation for the month of October starting tomorrow. I’ll be in the United States, and I won’t have the time I normally do to make posts and do the p.s. It will return to life on November 2nd when I’m back in Paris. Feel very free to leave any comments you like at the bottom of this post in the meantime, and I will respond to them on the 2nd. And maybe just maybe Cloudflare will have finally fixed the extremely vexing verification bug by then, ‘god’ willing. I hope you all stay safe and good until I get to see you next, and very Happy Halloween! ** Dominik, Hi!!! Great, thank you to love, and if he could work that magic as soon as possible, that would be wonderful. I have longstanding dreams of going to Dent Schoolhouse and Haunted Hoochie. But, really, other than the two really extreme seeming ones, I would ‘die’ to walk through all of them. I’m a glutton for homemade horrors, obviously. Have a lovely month, my friend, and I really look forward to blabbing with you again. Love filming a documentary of your October, G. ** jay, Hi. Or did the kids bring the parents? I’m remembering what I was like at that age. No, the first game system I owned was the Nintendo 64. I don’t think I’ve ever owned a portable system for some strange reason. My weekend was busywork, but it was alright. So, gosh, I hope you have a major October. Strange that it’ll be so long until we next speak, but keep everything bright on your end, and feel free to check in with reports here because I’ll be reading it even if my response is delayed. ** Måns, Måns!!! So happy you liked them. While I traverse as many of them as I can over the next month, I will pretend you’re sitting on my shoulder. Tomorrow I go to NYC to do a reading and hang out there a little bit, then I go to LA for three weeks to do haunted houses and show our film to the cast and crew and eat tons of Mexican food. I’ll be back in Paris in a state of extreme jet lag on Nov. 1st. My weekend was just trip preparations. Oh, and I saw the Chantal Akerman retrospective exhibit and some friends. Bowling! I’m going to go bowling in LA, for sure. Wow, I’m so looking forward to ‘Papaya’. Will you get to work on it this coming month? Uh, favorite Nicolas Cage … I guess I would have to say ‘Face/Off’. Really, have a fantastic month, pal, and I really look forward to reading about the highlights. And I’ll try to come up with US-based highlights of my own. xo, a guy who is packing a backpack. ** Misanthrope, She definitely seems like her shit is together based on my encounters with her. Happy to keep up my Morrison cynicism if it gives you joy. xo, me ** Bill, Haha. I’m not ready to fly quite yet, but I have today to get there. Gosh, feel better, man. Nice looking exhibition there, obviously. Have a really great month, Bill. Come to LA and do some haunted houses with me. ** _Black_Acrylic, Yay, the perfect going away present! If I don’t get to it today, I’ll get to it in NYC. Everyone, Here’s a little going away gift to you all from _Black_Acrylic, and, by proxy, the blog — the new episode of his great musical podcast Play Therapy. Or, in his words, ‘The new episode of my show is online here via Tak Tent Radio! Ben ‘Jack Your Body’ Robinson brings you Play Therapy v2.0 and only a fool would ignore this. But there’s one born every minute. Under the water there are traps. Old cars, bedsteads, weeds, hidden depths. It’s the perfect place for an accident.’ Have a fine, fine October, pal, and I’ll see you when Halloween is freshly RIP. ** Thomas Moronic, Hi, Thomas. My great pleasure, of course., Oh, good, I’ll be here when you’re here. Can’t wait to see you! Have the best Halloween that the lazy UK allows. xo. ** Lucas, Hi, L. I saw the email. I’ll greedily read the poem as soon as I can, probably in NYC. The blog (and I) are going to miss you too! Oh, for sure, we’ll meet up when you’re in Paris. That’s a done deal. Yes, my weekend was mostly utilitarian. So much to do, mostly with the film, of course. Really beautiful collage! Everyone, Visit an awesome new collage by the collage (and many other things) maestro Lucas. Have the very best October that is humanly possible, and please remember stuff to tell me because I’ll be most curious, you can bet. Love, me. ** Steve, Hi. I made haunted houses in my basement when I was kid and young teen, and I designed those. Zac and I designed the haunted house for our film, but it ended up getting heavily simplified due to budget concerns and the differing ideas of our production designer. Oh, right, the rain. I’ll remember to pack an umbrella. Cool about those screenings, I don’t know if we’ll have time to see them. We are going to see a few NY Film Festival screenings that Dennis Lim is kindly sneaking us into. ** Tyler Ookami, No doubt. Your poor cat, but that sounds worth its possible screeching. Thanks for reading ‘Horror Hospital Unplugged’. I’m proud of that. Keith Mayerson’s drawings are amazing. ‘Monotone Blue’ sounds very familiar. Maybe I read it. I hope you have a great October. I’ll miss getting to talk with you, but hopefully the month will jet to its conclusion. ** HaRpEr, Hey! Cool about the mostly finished move. Your dad! Book disrespecting is most intolerable. No kettle? Who are these strange people? Autumn’s the best. Being alive while nature fades out temporarily is very empowering, strangely. Yeah, I hope you’re swimming in good things by the time we get to confer again. Me too, on my end. Have a really relaxing but super stimulating Halloween/October, my pal. ** Justin D, Thanks, Justin. I’ll try to remember to look into the camera at the reading and divine you a warm hello. I hope a haunt pops up in your vicinity. Take good care, and I look forward to the continuation of our great back and forth. ** Oscar 🌀, Thank you for keeping my, or, well, his secret, whew. And thanks for the imgur greeting. I felt like Mario there for a moment. Weirdy, my Air France flight tomorrow got cancelled and they rebooked me on some upstart new airline company called, you guessed it, Hioscar Airlines, Flight #🌀🌀🌀6. What were the odds?! My flight is at, err, I think 1:30-ish pm tomorrow. I’m the opposite kind of packer who makes a list of everything I need to remember and checks each item off after it’s accomplished. And I still end up forgetting stuff. Can you just leave the bed frame undismantled? You have a very swell and immensely productive next 30-something days, okay? Promise. And remember everything. And tell me. xo, DC. ** Right. So, for the next month you’re going to be looking at those slaves up there every time you come here. Plenty of time to pick the one you want and to be sure he’s the right fit for you. Again, enjoy the month of October fully, everyone, and I will see you again bright and early on November 2nd.
Bon voyage Dennis, hope you have a great time stateside x
Hii Dennis! Great stuff today (as usual), gulpgulp988 definitely made me chuckle. I’m always a fan of people trying to get abstract, hyper-online fetishism into the real world – one of my friends is really, really big into “droneplay”, which seems to largely revolve around, like, simulated chemical brain damage and brainwashing, so I’ve always been (asexually) curious as to what her sex actually looks like, in terms of how she conjures these abstract concepts and emotions into the real world. Are the Flatsos from Marbled Swarm something you’d consider part of this phenomenon? Anyway, hmmmm, I’d probably go for scretmeetsonly, he seems kind of interesting to excavate.
Yeah, you’re probably right about the kids being the instigators, I can definitely imagine little Dennis being one of those kids. I guess the internet sort of replaced that sort of thing, I know when I was growing up real-death sites like LiveLeak were kind of the equivalent outlet. I think Left 4 Dead kind of hit that spot for me, it’s a zombie game with this like, astoundingly intricate gore system. Like, individual teeth being knocked out, lungs being visible from shotgun wounds, really really crazy stuff.
Anyway, I hope your October is amazing too! I’ve got my 21st birthday coming up, which should be kinda fun, even if other people are a bit more excited about it than me. Oh, and I’m seeing my boyfriend for a week around then too, and I’ve promised him a Lord of the Rings trilogy watch, because he’s really passionate about those films. It’ll be our anniversary around that time too, so it should be fun! I’m not really out to my parents, so I’ve sort of had to perform logistical ballet in terms of arranging seeing them and seeing my boyfriend.
Oh, last thing, but Horatio loved Frisk, so I’m probably going to have a longer chat with him this month about your prose. He might even be done with Try by then, so, yeah!
Sending secular prayers to you, in regards to your trip, I hope everything goes really well, I’ll be there for your reading tomorrow (in digital form). And a very early Happy Halloween to you, I hope all the haunts are exciting, see ya!
Hi!!
Have a wonderful time in LA, Dennis! I can’t wait to hear about all the haunted attractions! And, of course, happy Halloween!!
Love seeking to become a total permanent object with just enough brain power to make facial expressions, Od.
Dennis, Have a safe, comfortable flight. I’ll see you in a few days. You’re gonna knock that reading out of the park. xo, George
Bon voyage Dennis! This past Sunday I got a phone call from my friend Matty, whom I hadn’t spoken to in like 25 years. We had gone to school together and our paths have crossed in places such as Glasgow and London many times over the years. He was visiting Leeds so yesterday we met for lunch at Franco’s, that Italian place next door. Anyway Matty now owns this cool-looking pub in Brighton and who knows, I may even go check it out one of these days?
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Hey Dennis, this is a fine way to kick off your trip and vacation from the blog.
Would love to hang with you and Zak in LA. Not sure it’s going to work this time though. But let’s talk on your next trip!
Hope your flight has gone well and you’re enjoying LA.
Bill
Hey again Dennis! I’m absolutely loving McCormack so far, he’s really, very very good at expressing the line breaks in his stuff. I was so curious how he’d read it aloud, but the little pauses between “another, and another. and another, and another” are so great at expressing his writing. I also appreciate how he didn’t try to translate directly from prose to spoken word, the “key” he gave us at the start was a really interesting choice.
And your reading was absolutely incredible! Torn from Something was spectacular (of course), but your reading of Face Eraser was unbelievably funny. And wow, you really did an amazing job with that last piece. Anyway, thank you so much for sharing this with us, that was a lovely evening/night in for me. Enjoy your haunts!
This is somewhat tangentially related to what I was saying about your books being best read aloud, but I’ve set myself a project to read The Sluts aloud semi-daily, given that it’s the most segmented of your books – if anyone wants to listen along, I’ll link it here:
https://killnickcarter.wordpress.com/
Hi, Dennis! Just wanted to pop in and say that I really enjoyed the reading! You did ‘Face Eraser’ and it totally worked. It was so great to hear you read so much from ‘I Wished’. I sort of gasped when you started reading ‘The Crater’. So beautiful. ❤️As jay said above, thanks for sharing this with us.
Hope LA isn’t as sweltering as SF, Dennis. My neighbors are really into Halloween, it’s pretty funny to watch them put up Halloween decorations in the heat.
After the 70s/80s punk photo exhibit here last month (with some rarely seen Bruce Conner color photos, among other choice items), the small feminist/queer punk in SF show at the library was rather small and disappointing. I just started reading Will York’s book on 70s-90s SF punk/post-punk, pretty good so far.
Bill
Hi Dennis,
Hope you’re keeping well. Glad you’re taking some time off to relax a bit, but obviously i’ll miss all your content. I checked out a playthrough of the 7th Guest as per your recommendation and I’ve never seen such a ‘Dennis Cooper’ game in my life – haunted mansions, spooky/detached dialogue, and child fatalities aplenty. It was great fun. Did you ever play I Have No Mouth and I Must Scream for the PC? It was produced by Cyberdreams who also did Noir: A Shadowy Thriller. Both are pretty wild if you haven’t checked them out already.
All is fine in Scotland. The weather still sucks and so does teaching – but i’m reading Pathetic Literature which is really fab. I thought the excerpt from God Jr was pertinent.
I sent you a wee e-mail with a copy of ‘On Melting: essays against the body’ but i’ll send a physical copy when it comes out. Hope you like it if you get a moment (although I know you’ll be swamped). I also attached an early proof of my friend Ewan Morrison’s ‘For Emma’. Ewan is a huge fan of yours and he wanted me to pass it along in case you found the time to have a gander. I think you’d really dig his books.
Stay safe, D!
Chris
Hope you had a great month and a great halloween.
I was reading the wikipedia page for The Mask (the JIm Carrey movie) and learned:
‘One unused Mask idea, according to Richardson, was to transform the story into one about a mask-maker who took faces off of corpses to put them on teens and turn them into zombies.’
Which made me think of you during spooky season.
Funny you say that, I don’t like making permanent alterations to plush toys! I guess my lack or empathy towards human faces or bodies has been misplaced onto puppets and plush toys somehow. Anyhoos, I don’t like to cut them up. Some safety pins are fine, though.
29 today. Avoiding excitement and not really “doing” anything. Prefer sleeping in, reading, Chinese takeout, jerking off, TV, etc. on birthdays. I am trying to procure tickets to a Xiu Xiu show at the end of the month but show tickets always involve getting some app now and the app has not been working for me. I have seriously tried like 15 times. I guess keep trying?
I visited family in Tucson last week. It was horribly hot so it kind of revolved around trying to find as many excuses to do something indoors as we could. Tucson has interesting record and book stores: Casa Video, Zia Records, Bookmans. I got a copy of The Sluts at the east Bookmans location, where it was on the employee picks shelf of someone named Lin. So shouts out to Lin at Bookmans East in Tucson!
I couldn’t get that app to work but also forgot what day it was so I missed it anyways. Maybe I will learn to tell dates and someday. I watched The Substance on Discord with friends that night. I really like it! The trailer had some red flags for what I don’t like in recent horror films (issues film, acting showcase for someone not associated with the genre, ponderous dialogue), but the movie really isn’t like that at all! It’s in that Yuzna and Gordon, Frank Henenlotter kind of mold where it treats itself like an animated film, kind of. I’m rarely impressed but effects anymore but I have so many questions about how that final sequence was shot. I love the world it takes place in, too, like American Psycho crossed with a SOPHIE music video. Actually the closest thing I could compare it to is this manga artist, Kyoko Okazaki who does eroguro stuff set in the fashion industry. One of her books, Helter Skelter has been adapted in live action but I haven’t gotten around to it next.
I have started meeting with a book club again after having trouble going for a few months due to some bad bouts of panic and agoraphobia. It’s mostly older women, so what we read isn’t always necessarily to my taste, but that’s fine. October’s book was this Greek mythology thing, Madeline Miller’s Circe, and I had trouble following because any classical Greece stuff I just tune out, don’t know why. I did talk them into doing Williams’ Breaking and Entering for November since I’m reading it anyways, though.
I did manage to find a Rufus. I (of course) have black cat slippers, so I was thinking of finding a way to stuff one with guts, but I did manage to actually find a little black cat with exposed heart and ribs plushie at a Hot Topic. I had to go to the mall and go to Spirit because I was extremely last minute and every thrift shop was sold out of lab coats. Spirit during Halloweek is a sensory hellscape, but I like to watch the animatronics they have. I wore it to karaoke and sang Every Day is Halloween and Misfits’ Skulls. There was a costume contest there but the winner was one of two or three Chappell Roans.
You’re so right about Okazaki/the Substance, I totally totally feel the same. I think they have that same kind of emotional / soul malaise hiding under a totally perfect exterior. Thanks for reminding me about her, I haven’t read Helter Skelter for years!
Hope you and Zak are enjoying the current crop of LA haunted houses, Dennis.
Just had a big pre-gentrification NYC weekend, with Shu Lea Cheang in town for a 35mm screening of Fresh Kill, and a program of Wojnarowicz films at SF Cinematheque. The 20 min (one-channel) version of ITSOFOMO was intense.
Bill
hii Dennis:-) I hope you had a great month too, I’ve been missing talking to you!! I’m honestly doing really well so far, mostly hanging out a lot with friends and my writing is going great although I don’t have that much time for it recently. I feel like the stuff I’ve been working on lately is a lot more polished so I might put it together somehow (for real this time). I’m going to Berlin with my dad next week and I’ll leave another little comment saying how that went and I’m planning to spend Halloween with my friends (I’ll be dressing up as a vampire!) and even potentially hosting a party then. I’ve been finding that lots of my new friends have really similar interests as me which is so nice because I finally have something to actually talk about with them haha. I’ll put one of them onto your books eventually promise. How was New York and LA? Tell me everything! Xoxo lucas
Hey!! Berlin was great: only got to see the Gisele Vienne show at haus am waldsee but I really loved it and I visited my aunt there and got to know her, she’s a really great and interesting person, she used to even be a theatre actress way back when which I had no idea about. Halloween was also great for me! How was yours? I didn’t end up organizing a party but I just hung out with all my friends in the city sort of, we listened to music at a park and danced with this guy/friend that I’ve been getting to know, like, romantically almost. Tbh the highlight of my night was heading home with two of my other friends, we just smoked weed and watched ‘adventure time’ and laughed a bunch. I missed talking to you sm! My October was so weirdly eventful theres still so much I would need to talk about haha
Happy to report that I’ll be starting another writing course on Thursday Nov 7th in Flash Fiction via Zoom with my familiar class in Dundee . As ever with this kind of thing, a bit of structure to my time is what I’ve really been craving.
Meanwhile some good news re Leeds Utd. Last night we beat Sheffield Utd 2-0 and played really well, which confirms us as being the best team in Yorkshire by a distance. It puts us up to 2nd in the league and right now things are looking very rosy indeed.
Hope all is fab and spooky over there in the US!
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Dear D.C.,
Hope you are well, I’ve been rereading the George Miles Cycle for school and just wanted to post this link from YouTube of the original Pirates of the Caribbean 1967 ride compared to today. (or I guess 2022) As an only child of divorced parents on the West Coast, my trips to Disneyland were some of the most peaceful and joyous in terms of how it felt to be a child, …. desiring to see your dreams come true…. The vulnerability of George in ‘Closer’ specifically with all of his Disneyland memorabilia really brought back some of those treasured (haha) memories…. happy Halloween, I’m going as Laura Palmer, are you dressing up?
XX
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z8n5c5thVEA
Dear D.C.
Please if you haven’t or I don’t really even know if you’re interested take a look at this YouTube video of the 1967 Pirates of the Caribbean ride in comparison to the 2022 renovations/update, I feel like you may enjoy it. That ride always haunted me as I would think the water would overflow the boat or that there were alligators in there. I tried to comment on this before but I typed my email wrong, so hopefully this time the comment will post. Hope you r well, thanks for everything, happy halloween xx
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z8n5c5thVEA
Hi Den! Hope you’re in halloween heaven at this exact minute and for the rest of the month! i missed the live reading, is there video available where i can watch posthumously so to speak? i just got home from sweden where i had a weeklong residency/hangout with my friend sally. it was really good, i got up really early and just drew all day. she lives on the countryside and one day she drove to the grocery store while i was home and she passed what she thought was a car boot flea market, so she called me to tell me and i went over, and it turned out to a halloween event for kids where everyone had their car trunk open and decorated and there was candy in every car for the kids to take, and everyone had costumes. it was super cute! here are some pics:))
i sent you a message on fb with a question, no rush answering ’til you’re back, but just so you know. i’m at the studio now, gonna try to do studio things, like scanning drawings, making some collages, writing some messages, working on my weird flower sculptures. kisses and hugs, k
RIP Ka and Gary Indiana.
How many haunted houses were you able to visit during this trip? I hope you had a good time traveling around and that the film-oriented side was productive too, despite the stress and drama around it.
I have more than enough songs written for my new album, and I’ll soon start selecting and mixing them, aiming to drop on November’s Bandcamp Friday.
If you went to a Halloween party, who did you dress as?
Ah, was just going to post about Gary Indiana:
https://news.artnet.com/art-world/gary-indiana-has-died-at-age-74-2558603
For some reason I haven’t been watching a lot of horror movies. But I did enjoy the new Brian Evenson collection (2nd one this year!), and am really keen to start the new Mariana Enriquez collection.
DL Christian Molenaar is in town again around Halloween. We’ll probably do something next week.
Bill
RIP Paul Morrissey, truly a one-of-a-kind filmmaker.
DENNIS!!!
I don’t think you know how much I’ve missed your blog entries and getting to talk with you on here, there has truly been a void in my everyday life this October. I hope your huge trip and your Halloween in particular has been great, you got up to anything in particular (both during the trip as a whole and Halloween) that you would like to share? 🙂 Any haunted house attractions that stuck out in particular?
My October and my Halloween was actually great! I bumped into some girls from my old school that I had never spoken to before, and they were actually really sweet. One of them acted like she was into me too, she got me to hold my arm around here and she held my hand, saying we were soulmates and so on. Some random people came up to us and started taking pictures too, saying we looked cute together. It was a really nice night, but the girl was drunk so I don’t know if she actually liked me that way. She’s genuinely stunning so I don’t know what she would want with me ! But do you know what the craziest part was?!?!! I don’t remember how this got brought up, but I started talking about your book ‘The Sluts’ (I sure know how to flirt with women) AND GUESS WHAT???!!! SHE HAD A FUCKING COPY OF IT!!!!! I think a part of me fell in love with her then and there hahahaha!!!
Oh my goodness, I have to talk to you about this crazy good film I saw in theaters the day before Halloween! It was called ‘Long Days Journey Into Night’ and was a Chinese movie directed by Bi Gan, which you may have heard of. The first half of the film is a normal, beautiful and dreamy mood-piece, then halfway through the main character goes to the cinema to watch a 3D movie and falls asleep during it, and then we in the audience were told to put 3D glasses on too. The rest of the film was a 59 minute long take, no cuts, no nothing, in 3D, and man, it was fucking beautiful. I can’t remember the last time I experienced such cinema magic, I’m devastated I’ll probably never experience it again. If you haven’t watched it and ever get the chance, I beg you, WATCH IT!!! I’d love to hear your thoughts on it.
After the movie, I slept at my friends house and on Halloween we watched 6 horror movies and a lot of twin peaks together!!! Then when it got dark, I partied at another friends house which was fun.
I recently read Flunker by the way. I absolutely loved it, my favorite stories were probably ‘Gold’, ’From Here On’ and ’Start’, but all of them were great. Oh, and I watched your reading of ‘Face Eraser’ online and I absolutely loved it, you were amazing!
There’s been only one downside really this month, and it’s that one of my favorite bands of all time, the Swedish ‘Bob Hund’ (means Bob Dog), announced that they will be leaving the stage forever with one epic show in August. Bob Hund are from what I now unknown outside of Sweden, but here in Sweden they’re genuine icons and have been hailed the best Swedish live band of all time. They have a very weird and unique, almost childish, sound and hilarious but emotional lyrics. And the singer sings in this really strong dialect called Skånska, it’s lovely. You should take a listen to some of their stuff, I could compile some songs that I like if you want me to, would be great to hear what a person outside of Sweden thinks of them!
I haven’t had the chance to work anything on the movie version of ‘Papaya’ this month. It’s a very slow process since a lot of people are involved, but all of them have their own lives and things going on, so it’s hard to find days where everyone can shoot. I started writing the first chapter of the book though, it was fun! I’ve only written a little, but I’m so glad about it, I’ll have to work very hard before it’s something I’ll truly be proud of though. I’m excited to share ‘Papaya’ to you and the rest of the world when my jumbled mess of a project is presentable 🙂
Again, so glad to be back on here, and very excited to hear back from you. Hope your coming days are looking bright. XOXO, a guy who’s eyes have turned square from watching one too many films lately.
I’ll echo the tributes to the great Gary Indiana. RIP, indeed. What a legend.
I hope you’ve had an amazing few weeks stateside, Dennis. I watched the video of you and Derek reading in NYC – so, so good! Loved hearing you read the new stuff.
I arrive in Paris on Monday morning. Flight gets in about 9:30am. So excited!
Love
Thomas xoxo
Hey! It’s Harper, long time no see. This year is going by strangely for me. It feels so short and long at the same time, though I suppose that isn’t so different from any other year. The place I’m living is a bit of a shit hole but it’s a good location. There is mould on the wall, so I’m trying to get that sorted out, but other than that it’s a cool room and my housemates seem nice.
Oh yeah, I read ‘The Notebook Trilogy’ shortly after we last talked, and it’s really one of my new all time favourites. My mind was truly blown and I hung onto every word feeling like I was disassociating from my normal state of consciousness (I think the best books are like that). Each novella does it’s own thing and all logic crumbles in such a curiously bewildering way. I’ve actually read a couple of really good books lately. I read Lautreamont’s ‘Maldoror’ and it really blew me away, and definitely a great spooky season read. I liked how it refused to give the reader what they want and made all of these fantastical diversions.
Anyway, welcome back! I’ll leave it at that for now. I hope you had a great Halloween and saw all the haunted houses you wanted to see. My Bowie costume turned out really well. The film society at my college had a costume competition and I spent so long on it and I wasn’t even in the top three. Some drunk idiot in a cheap cowboy costume won. Favouritism at its finest.