The blog of author Dennis Cooper

“His saliva tastes like unsweetened tea.”

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a-_-a, 21
I am a slave to my master. I have been serving him for two years. I do housework and worship his penis and ass and feet. Now my master wants to have anal sex with me, and I don’t want to. He has given me a week to have sex with him or leave. What should I do?

Comments

SadMan – Jan 26, 2026
death penalty is the solution

a-_-a (Owner) – Jan 26, 2026
Sorry about my user name, I was drunk when I made it.

eggplanter – Jan 22, 2026
You have to do it.

a-_-a (Owner) – Jan 21, 2026
Master has recently punched me in the face for the first time. I like this. Very painfull. Very humiliating.

MrRRRRRRRRRR – Jan 19, 2026
i mean absolutely no disrespect to you a-_-a, but a true sub/slave uses the small ‘i” when referring to yourself and uses capital letters when referring to his Master…i.e. Master, His, Him, etc…just a lesson i’ve learned, sometimes the hard way.

 

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aboywhoislooking, 18
A long shot but I’m looking for a certain guy from Chromatica Ball Metlife by the piano stage. He had a yellow shirt underneath his white with pink lettering concert tee. Sunflower blonde hair. If you think this was you I want to be tied gagged and fucked HARD by and he knows who he is.

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jeand58 – Jan 14, 2026
Certificate of Registration
690-673-831
This certificate certifies that on the 22nd day of December 2025
Julian was issued slave registration number 640-688-860
and identifies as a Pig.

On the 24th day of December 2025 it was further declared that
690-673-831 has been owned by jeand58
since the 22nd day of December 2025.


 

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LukeSkywalk, 22
always make the wrong decisions, always. Choice means a struggle for me, some times intensely. It is everywhere, looming, from what to wear to how to act, do I accept what I think I am or pretend I am something beter, worse when you know you are ‘less than’, weaker, vulnerable to, those who you desire you and are attracted to you most.

i am attracted to women and mainly aroused at the thought of being totally under a man’s control while i fuck a woman and being forced to fuck her as a man wishes.

i have a little exp. of sexual contact with a man, just getting my cock sucked and ass licked. so i am nervous but know this is my role in life.

update Dec 23-2025 virginity taken repeatedly over 10 days. so nice to see a man satisfied and happy and finally shown my sexual use (mentioned the fact i came when being fucked as it has put a big dent in my delusions, i am the opposite of proud but it is reassuring to accept).

thank you to all who want to help me continue on this path.

thank you for reading, it helped me to write it, at least my logic is sound!

Comments

LukeSkywalk (Owner) – Jan 22, 2026
Broken from drugs. No more limits.

salivafetishist – Jan 13, 2026
spit on him. drool onto him or make him drool, make him lick up spit, lick his face, messy kissing, etc. drool into his mouth. make him hold a banana or ice cream in his mouth so he has to drool. chew up food and drool it to him. make him kneel and use his mouth for target practise. only let him eat food you’ve chewed and spat into his mouth. spit in his food or drink even in public. make him lick up your spit from the floor. make him rub it into his face everytime you spit in his hands. spit your used toothpaste into his mouth. see how far you can spit and make him crawl and lick it up as fast as he can before you do it again. spit repeatedly in a glass then make him dip his food in it or drink it or gargle with it. bring multiple people. film or stream it.


 

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showmetheway, 19
Still trying to see if im bi or not

I’m usually pretty spontaneous, but that might backfire

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pleasedont – Jan 17, 2026
Does that image from your phone mean you want to be a ghost because I’d love to make you one.

jamesmcarver – Jan 12, 2026
What more proof could you possibly need?

WillingToExplore – Jan 10, 2026
During sex he refers to himself in the third person.

showmetheway (Owner) – Jan 7, 2026
People rib me by calling me twinkish, but I think I am more just a long-haired, skinny dork


 

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infinitedescent, 23
I’ve been a disgusting faggot my whole life, always chasing straight guys who’d never want me, like when I begged a high school friend for his cum and got beaten almost to death like the pathetic loser I am. I live for the shame of exposing my disgusting self on Chaturbate, Motherless, and X — jerking off to rejection, crying over how useless I am. Been posting slutty vids since 15, eating my own shit, poppered up to the point of insanity, letting randos gang rape me in a park, hating myself harder each time. I’m a popper-huffing slut whose only purpose is to ruin myself for your amusement, because I’m nothing and never will be.

not rly into permanent damage but not totally against it

ideally relocate – most ppl in my city dont know how to use a fag like me properly or are ugly.

Comments

infinitedescent (Owner) – Jan 21, 2026
Outside of kink, I have a personal blog about myself as an autistic person if anyone’s interested.

Brandished – Jan 16, 2026
Just because no one else has mentioned it, he’s a world class kisser.

WhiteTiger – Jan 12, 2026
What shall I tell you about Ollie? Where shall I begin? Because everything seems like a dream. I’ve been having sessions with him for a while. It’s a way of life, I can say. Once you’ve had him, there’s no turning back. You want to arrange your life so that everything is about him. How shall I continue? When I see Ollie all I want is hit him, kick him, whip him, spit in his eyes. I keep hitting him until he can’t feel it anymore. Then he smiles at me and asks if I can keep going because that’s what he wants most. I’m in love and say, “All the way.” Those words sound so beautiful. He smiles as I keep hitting him in the face. When he’s completely exhausted from the pain, I kick him hard in the head to knock him out. Then I start hitting him again, flogging him, whipping him, crushing his balls, so tempted to slice them off as souvenirs, stomping his head, stomach, back, cock, balls, and ass. I always hope he won’t survive me but he always does. I’m so in love with Ollie that my life revolves around him. It’s truly unimaginable how wonderful he is.

StrangeIsland – Jan 12, 2026
If the thought of being buried alive, burned at the stake, staked out on a beach at low tide, sacrificed on an altar, or cooked alive on a spit interest you then we should talk.

LaCabezaDegollada – Jan 11, 2026
Oh yes, you look perfect for a complete destruction. I really would like to take care that you will look completely unrecognizeable after I have finished.

infinitedescent (Owner) – Jan 9, 2026
scat ONLY from me (i poop, you decide what to do with it)



 

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MonsterDickNick, 21
Everyone wants my big dick but I really want to be emasculated on a chopping block or with a guillotine. Banding beforehand, wound care afterwards. I give my written consent beforehand, you execute at the time of your choice. Optional sex or mental destruction via any means before.

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MonsterDickNick (Owner) – Jan 4, 2026
I hate texting. I just use a regular cell/flip phone and texting takes forever. I can type much faster on my computer keyboard here. I like to talk over the phone instead of texting.



 

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rabbitsinthewild, 20
Some of you in Southern California are familiar with my group of slaves due to our occasional public presentations (see: pix). For personal reasons I need to offload one of them, doesn’t matter which. All in the 19 to 23 age range. Accepting cash, no trades. Prices vary. If you want to talk to me via text: Two1Eight-FiveSix5-nine53eight.

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CultivatedDom – Jan 21, 2026
My partner and I have owned the Latino slave with chest tattoos quite happily and successfully since late November.
He lives in our studio and play spaces.
We put him in all sorts of bondage, do horrible things to him, XXL dildos and huge toys, deepthroat to vomiting is standard, and make him pump loads in our mouths.
I’m sure that you can appreciate that we are very focused on him.

-SUCK-MY-DICK- – Sept10, 2025
The blond with the stupid face makeup has a huge interest in alcohol. Sex with him needs to be orientated around that. Eventually he’ll end up crouched over your toilet throwing up or passed out.




 

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thisismadness, 19
hello there! who am i? if i only knew.
im new to being sexually objectified. like EXTREMELY new.
i do have 11 dildos (with the longest being 24 inches) and a fuck machine, 3 gas masks, harnesses/cuffs, a metal chastity device, etc… i just ordered my first catsuit and can’t wait for it to get here!

here are some things about me:
– i currently live in southern utah.
– i LOVE music. it is my life. i have a little over 320 records and so many cds and cassettes i can’t even count. the best decades in my opinion were the 60s, late 80s (like the pixies or stone roses or cocteau twins) , 90s, and 00s. my favorite genres are alternative rock, midwest emo, shoegaze, permanent wave, punk, new wave, grunge, psychedelic, and so so many more.
– clothes are huge to me. i thrift almost everything i wear. if i don’t thrift it i buy it off depop or ebay. clothes are just so cool and my style matches my music taste 100%.
– getting baked with friends is one of my favorite things to do. always looking for stoner friends! 😸
– my favorite movie is the perks of being a wallflower and my favorite book at the moment is wouldn’t it be nice, my own story by brian wilson.
– im a big fan of architecture. mostly anything built in the 50s and 60s but i love all of it. when they blend together to create a city… oh man. so cool.

enough about me. reach out and let’s do literally anything!

Comments

Justastranger – Jan 17, 2026
he thought his coke tasted funny but he drank it.

FoodDesigner – Jan 13, 2026
His ass is unbelievable. For sure within my top 3, if not even number 1. And believe me: I’ve seen more asses than a toilet seat.

Old-Fag-Slut – Jan 8, 2026
His saliva tastes like unsweetened tea.


 

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tim, 18
name of sub: tim
stats: 18/168 /50
issue: mentally challenged
location: singapore
goal: have a gf and have been very straight all my life but an urge to watch women in porn and imagine myself as them got stronger over the years and led to wanting to watch them being punished and now i’m here as I can’t resist anymore
also: anyone who can help me get modelling work if possible. only done a couple of shoots so far
package deal

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tim (Owner) – Jan 16, 2026
absolutely no C.H.U.D.s, replicators (human-form or otherwise) or homunculi created from human transmutation (homunculi by birth are OK)

tim (Owner) – Jan 8, 2026
if your older than 28 you can do it but i wont get hard

mynameiskerwin – Jan 2, 2026
On a trivia note, I’m the man eating out his ass in the lowest photo.

tim (Owner) – Jan 2, 2026
want gays for being mood




 

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sebthedumbfag, 22
I’m a gamer, and also a nerd who’s obsessed with science and the Titanic. I’ve been getting choked regularly since I was 7 years old and I still can’t get enough. I even love talking about it. I am here looking for anyone who is interested in choking me, experienced or not, I’m down! It really doesn’t matter to me if you want to meet up and choke me for hours with multiple outages or if you’re a newbie and just wanna choke me out once and split, I want to meet you! So, if you’re obsessed with choking a boy like I am, with your hands, arms, legs, favorite ligature, necktie, or noose, message me and let’s do it!!!!

I like to be forced to be beaten up ppl either one or by a group like a dumb brainwashed idiot. Post my pics on Reddit or X let them see me as the retard I am.

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Chokestud – Jan 11, 2026
Once I got my hands situated around his neck, I locked in my grip across his throat, fingers and thumbs searching out for the pulse, feeling his pulse in every heartbeat as he twitched and convulsed and I tightened up my grip tighter and tighter until it was gone. I have the patience of a python. Nighty-night!

youdontfindbetter – Jan 9, 2026
More accurate photo

XperienceL – Jan 7, 2026
This past December I met this boy in a cruising bar in Stockholm. As he was sucking me I slapped him. Then choked him against the wall. Then I punched him in the face and split his lip and broke his nose. And finished by kicking him in the head on the ground. Sadly enough we had to stop as some guys seemed really worried and were about to stop it or to report him. Is there any place you know where I could do this to him more freely?

 

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Kidnapping2Rape, 18
I’m being trafficked to Berlin to date as a rape victim. Any man can have me anonymously until someone rapes my boy pussy until my brain is gone and I’m nothing but rape meat and abducts me permanently 24/7//NO RETURN.

Anonymous visits in a hotel room are possible.

Mercure Hotel
Hermannstrasse 214-216,
12049 Berlin

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fanTZ – Jan 16, 2026
Funny, I remember when this boy was so uncomfortable around gay guys that if one even looked at his ass he’d clench it tight like a fort.

 

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wantmyballsgone, 19
Just once, I want someone who is serious to reach out to me. I left this site for about a year, but it was recommended I should come back. I’m looking for someone who can help with the following: get my balls tied up or elastrator banded, together or apart, pulled, stretched, weighed down, pumped, light beating, skewered with needles through the sac and balls, vodka alcohol injections into my balls, sac cutting and balls exposed outside the sac, and beyond. Best regards, Bill

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wantmyballsgone (Owner) – Jan 14, 2026
I’m being serious, don’t think this is some kind of joke. If you’re looking for someone you can love, someone you can be emotional with, then I’m afraid I’m not the right person for you. I no longer have any sexual needs or desires myself, and please don’t expect me to find your intimate areas attractive. I’ll bring my medications: Lorazepam, Mirtazapine, Sertraline, Quetiapine XR, and Quetiapine IR. I need to take these regularly, so please be understanding. Thank you, Bill



 

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BeYourselfXX, 20
Looking for men these day can’t able to trust gurl

I work for Amazon

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BeYourselfXX (Owner) – Jan 20, 2026
Also cld try imprisoned for life or an insane asylum.

Noproblems – Jan 16, 2026
looking to stick it in ur ass in ur car drive over

BeYourselfXX (Owner) – Jan 7, 2026
I am a skinny guy with what I have been told is a very attractive ass. I have BEEN a skinny guy with what I have been told is a very attractive ass for some time now. I am in the process of going to the gym to get some muscles. It’s rather hard overcoming a lifetime of skinniness, but I’m told it can be done. That being said, I’m also learning to love myself. In other words, don’t like skinny guys? I’m crushed. Oh wait, no, die in a fire.

 

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Cargo, 24
this white fag bitch just arrived back on US after being in Saudi Arabia where it served Superior Arab owners, is now available here to use and be owned as a white sex slave whore, it was taken to Saudi Arabia from France at age 13 leashed by its superior arab owners! no limits and do whatever guys want… it White meat to use and abuse, by sadists as it maso. It is a nymphomaniac and sex addict cause it need get fuck all the time, get throat fucked with big cocks in saudi arabia, it still got cock and balls for owners. Sex slave Whore 100% submissive, is small 5’3” 135 lbs, shaved all over with smooth white skin, no tattoos, marks and bruises easy so guys like that, into needles, cutting , whippings, cigarette burn torture.. can suck and swallow big cocks deep stretched open asshole, for FF (two hands in) in, do BB, cock and balls still there for torture, some owners want rid of them to make another hole for guys to use. It has make real brutal gang rape child porn videos, still on dark web, you prbly seen them got no limits as pain pig whore owners can do any body changes marks, scarring, branding, tattoos if they want as their owned slave for life. Slave was juvenile prison whore, arrested in a truck stop age 11, did 4 years in prison as a white trash prison child whore…was passed around, traded as a “favor whore”, so good for groups, there is no NO in prison., so lots of horror use, slave can never cum cause was hypnotized in prison…to never cum … why it want fuck all the time. Owned property slave bitch, been keep locked up, chained, caged, used to be moved in a rolling suitcases, treat like inferior white, filthy, pig, trash whore that it is, Got No family, no one look for slave whore, so it can disappear nobody care or look for slave, … also ready to be used for the production underground rapesexporn in arabia before i will be deported into jail with no return, not care what happens to it!…

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Boopityboopboop – Jan 6, 2026
If those are recent photos, his body’s healing power must be supernatural.

Muppetspice – Jan 5, 2026
I never use superlatives. But… I was given him to use for an evening about a year and a half ago when I was visiting Jeddah. I can’t explain why, for the very first time, I feel that only a superlative can do justice to this absolutely extraordinary slave. It breaks my heart that I will not be able to see him again, as he is clearly on a death trip. I will miss him deeply.


 

 

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p.s. Hey. ** Steeqhen, The Rolling Stones’s artsy period is the albums ‘Between the Buttons’ and ‘Satanic Majesties’, both highly investigable. My favorite identical twin pop stars were The Williams Twins aka Andy and David Williams in the early 70s. But they were infinitely more wussy and laid back. ** _Black_Acrylic, I’m so happy Morgan liked ‘RT’! And, yes, I heard the screening was sold out. So nice! ** Laura, It is. Fun and much more. I’m nowhere near shiny and snarky enough to be in Gregg’s current output. One of the great things about LA is that its jumbled layout results in all kinds of back- and secret routes to get where you’re going if the traffic is bad, so even trips to familiar places can be a discovery. I’ve been to The Vault. Not recently. I see the fun, but it isn’t really my cup of tea. I think Tarantino is only vaguely involved in the Vista’s programming. It’s not bad albeit always quite entertainment oriented. I’m not sure whether to wish Kayden luck or not. I guess not ultimately. ** kenley, See? Editing is the best part by far. Well, for me. Great! Writing the first draft is just the chore required to get to the fun part. For me. Going to galleries has been one of my main activities since I was a wee lad. But I’ve always lived in so-called cultural metropolis-like cities. I’m doing that yet again today actually. Lots of potentially inspiring input for my general brain and for my writing, and all of it for totally free! It sounds like your crush guy is worthy of your crush, haha. ** Lucas, I’m good, the usual. ‘Asiye’s Story’ sounds super interesting, of course. Wow, that is quite an intro. I would be more than totally down for the post you suggest, of course, if it winds up being an exciting time taker for you. Thanks, pal. ** Carsten, You’ve seen his movies? There are quite exciting films being made, but they won’t show at your local cinema or multiplex. You have to forage for them. Or find the adventurous film venues on social media and follow them. That helps. And I try to do my part. ** Måns BT., Oops. Hi, Elis, if you’re out there looking at here. I’m going to go watch the two things you have posted to the kollektivtarbt insta page this weekend. A band! What is your part in said band? Try to do a gig while we’re in Stockholm. I’m reading two books but they aren’t published yet. One of them, ‘Magician’ by Tracy Lynn Oliver is really excellent if you can wait until it’s born in May. I’ll try to start reading something you can buy now. See you tomorrow too! ** Steve, 2030! Nice! Generally I haven’t read the works of the Alt Right writers I know about. They seem to be into writing genre stuff a lot. The one I have read is ok. I don’t want to say his name but he’s fairly well known in the general indie/alternative lit scene. ** Dustin, Hi! You’re kind of almost making me want to try ‘Oz’. ‘Mother Horse Eyes’: I’m not there yet. Thank you for reminding me. I did a formal notation this time. ** HaRpEr //, That makes sense and is disheartening. About the ‘gender critical’ activist. The period of the Rolling Stones from, say, the ‘Aftermath’ album through ‘Satanic Majesties’ is quite strong. You can hear them trying to find ways to move their blues/rock thing outward and forward, and it gets rich and messy at times. Ultimately, I think they’re pretty interesting through ‘Exile’, but then they just started representing what they thought people wanted The Rolling Stones to be, and there’s hardly ever or maybe nothing at all exciting from then on. To me. Haha, no, I made that up about The Dave Clarke Five Fan Club. I don’t remember why or why I chose them or why I thought that would be intriguing or amusing. Strange. ** Bill, Hi, B. The Franco film is called ‘My Own Private River’, and you can watch it on youtube here. Thanks for your link. I’ll go watch. Sounds amazing. ** Okay. (Almost) last day of the month = the slaves of this month. See you tomorrow.

16 Comments

  1. jay

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    Hey Dennis! Haha, “Cargo” is funny – ten years of masochism with that skin quality is like some kind of Catholic martyr’s final miracle. “thisismadness” is great too… two pieces of breathplay kit is a pretty crazy investment, I guess it depends where you buy them but on RareGear they’re in the hundreds. It is a really cool experience though, so I respect it. Poor “a-_-a” too, I think living for free with someone you sleep with is torture. Hope you’re well, enjoy your weekend, see ya!

  2. Charalampos

    Hi to wantmyballsgone, LukeSkywalk and tim
    and more hi to MonsterDickNick

    Nice to share My Own Private River, I never saw it and now I can, I went through quickly and seems good

    River is hair goals as ever I see ha ha

    The thing you describe to Laura about Los Angeles alternate routes and secret passage ways sounds like my absolute dream. It is my dream to go there honestly
    Is there a book that would further illuminate what I crave about this place in hopes I will some day visit? For a locations junkie
    Or maybe one can do this kind of research on their own

    Hi from me trying to make my hair like Rivers before I go to the gym

    • Laura

      it is v fun, the detours and shortcuts. bit noir too! you should go and sort of discover stuff at random. at least ime LA is nothing like i’d been led to believe before i first went. only the noir element, which i’d thought would def be long gone, actually tracked. ^_^

  3. kenley

    hi dennis!

    “Choice means a struggle for me, some times intensely […] do I accept what I think I am or pretend I am something beter” …i fear i would love to read LukeSkywalk’s memoir one day (altho i suppose i just did). absolute bars

    eeee let us know if you check out anything compelling today, even if its compellingly bad! youve inspired me, im putting “go to 1-2 galleries a week” on my lent list.

    ugh…crushes are so fun…..blah blah blah i love to hold a cup of soup with both hands while looking out a pottery barn-ass bay window and long for something out of reach. it feels so human. nowadays i go two-hands-on-the-soup mode when my boyfriend and i arent together.

    but really, i think crushes are moreso indicators of who you should be friends with vs who you should fuck/date/etc etc

    idk. dennis, may i ask what you long for lately? is that too insane to ask?

  4. _Black_Acrylic

    “During sex he refers to himself in the third person.” Sure I read some celebrity gossip via Popbitch aeons ago about someone who did exactly this. It may have been the late gameshow host Richard Whiteley but the guy’s no longer with us and I wouldn’t want to disrespect his memory.

  5. Carsten

    Not to barge in on your LA talk with Laura, but I agree about the city being fun to drive in. I find the usual LA traffic complaints very tiresome—& I say that as a former full-time Lyft driver. I got the hang of the town pretty quick & found alternative (& yes often magical) routes all the time.

    Tarantino bought the Vista too? Ugh… Back in my LA days (2010 to 2015) you could often find him in the audience at the New Beverly. Naturally he was the loudest guy in the room. But I think he lives in Israel full-time now, so good riddance.

    Re. Whitehead: I’ve seen some of his stuff, yeah. I mean it’s interesting enough, but I wasn’t blown away. Have you seen “The Falconer”, the film made about him? It sounds pretty wild.

    I’d say the most adventurous & exciting film was always to be found outside the multiplex. No of course there’s great stuff being made today (yours included), that wasn’t my point. But the great stuff always strikes me as an outlier, a rare blast of vision from the margins. I mean culture as a whole today seems quite drained, aimless, listless. Which makes the gems stick out all the more. At least that’s my impression.

    • Laura

      oh man i think i’d be super chill as a professional driver in LA. either that or become the joker, so chill does it. i once was stuck in traffic outside of Santa Monica and there was this celebrity going absolutely berzerk right behind me, if it was the traffic or smth else i’d never know lol. i actually can’t even dream if driving in my current situation but i can be driven and most everything taking 45754 hours feels so much more restful than not knowing how i’m gonna walk from a to b and back =D

  6. Bill

    Thanks for the MOPRiver link, Dennis! Wow, will check out ASAP.

    The Chicago video I suggested is just 6 minutes, by the way. The main character is an undercover cop, in case it’s not quite clear.

    That tim in Singapore, whew. “want gays for being mood”? I’m not sure why Bill doesn’t get more love, but that’s quite a list of meds that he has.

    Bill

  7. HaRpEr //

    Hey! I have found definitive proof that ‘Showmetheway’ is an image of the rapper nettspend, so I think there might be a bit of catfishing there, unless he just put it there as a random image showing his interests or to be funny etc.

    The Dave Clark Five are actually funny to be the fan club president of because they never went anywhere. Kind of like being the president of the Jedward fan club, musical quality aside.

    Yes! I love ‘Between the Buttons’. Psychedelic pop is like crack to me, and a lot of its revivalists in various forms. People don’t talk about that one so much but I got into it through ‘The Royal Tennenbaums’ as a kid.
    For sure, I think the Stones took a pretty swift nosedive after ‘Exile…’. I’d say they essentially became a legacy act right after that point. I don’t think any of them were really geniuses or anything, it was just about their presence. When bands start forcing themselves to become what people perceive them to be then it’s over. ‘Between the Buttons’ is an example of them being great because they’re not being the cliched idea of themselves.

    I’ve written this piece that I’m pretty happy with. After being fatigued with submissions with short fiction for a while and working on novels and making a substack etc. I gave up on the magazine stuff for a while. But I’m back to it now and hoping for the best. Even in just a year I think I’ve grown a lot as a writer, so I’ve got my fingers crossed.

  8. Dustin

    Hi Dennis! Last time I wrote you while I was kind of exhausted, I meant to go into even further detail on the Beecher-Keller saga in Oz but it slipped my sleep deprived brain. Without spoiling too many of the juicy details, in case you are actually enticed, Keller is a homosexual serial killer, and a man manipulative enough to get the prison’s psychiatrist to start doubting herself, the relationship he develops with Beecher is quite interesting and its made me realize that there isn’t much fiction focused entirely on prison homosexuality. Well, maybe there is and I just haven’t pored over the gay erotica section of the local Barnes & Noble.

    • Laura

      man it’s also one of the v great love stories, excellent show but they were the beating heart if it lol

  9. Laura

    hi Dennis!

    man, the green tea bloke got pretty poetic there. maybe the kid had literally just been drinking green tea tho.

    now the gooning one w the KSA death trip situation really took me out of the narrative, as i said i can’t count but 11+however many years in juvie def would make him older than 13 by the time he Lawrenced it or whatever lol

    (unless this is a multiverse kid. a kid from a multiverse only one-handed typing may unlock)

    all this talk of LA is really making me want to go! still trying to decide if i can ever patron the Vista lol. entertainment is good, i can be entertained. i feel at the Vault you just gotta catch the right stuff, bunch of p diff concepts going on in one place. but for me you should eventually, bc i’m all stuck here and you’re not and i trust yr account lol *orphan face etc*

    Kayden is now lying under the saints! yerhamuh. (pre-fatwa-ed). we’ll see him again, just younger and more amazed at whatever the night might bring.

    oh i started Closer! ugh Dennis, the opening quote fucked me up this time. also, weird, it’s not like most of the narrators are a mystery or anything at least on paper, but i still always end up losing track of them a bit, like they’re trying to squirm towards one another in order not to give themselves away too much or smth? this time i’ll keep a megafirm grip on those guys. i mean. i’m p moved by George saying smth way early on like ‘i just realised… well, nevermind’. his silences are v meaningful in this one and they make him much weightier than his admirers’ blague imo. maybe make him uh a writer. that which he writes…

    anyway. how’s the script? is it antsy-making to wait for feedback or have you got it now <3

    i had a back to school dream last night, which no need characterising per se lol. but it was a mix of an english final exam (come up w a monologue for this Russian assassin lmao) and a music composition final and there was like no time, the pentagram was merely suggested and the key signature only involved a G sharp which isn’t even a thing so i feared they wanted us to write some dodecaphonic horror but i was like fuck no & decided it was G major, modulate to G sharp instead of getting back to the tonic, then land in C major, do some shit there, modulate to A minor, harmonic version which sounds Russian then let fly.
    i was super into it for a bit but then i was cooked bc i realised i’d written, and i paraphrase, ‘я знала, что так и будет. долгое время мне казалось, что это много значит, но, короче, теперь мне просто скучно.’ (i knew it would be like this. for a long time it seemed like it meant a lot but by now i’m just bored or whatever). it was russian not english and there was no time to fix it and i was going to flunk the whole way out =))

    what’s fun tho is that dream logics tend to amount to ‘debase the beef canoe’ upon waking but all of this makes sense in so far as i make sense as a person lol. i could actually write the song. w less stress, srsly fucked up awakening.

    you still should wind up in an Araki. if you don’t wanna snark, you can prophecise. i can see that.

    hugs!

  10. Steeqhen

    Hey Dennis

    Every half month, these posts have me on edge to see if I recognize any of the guys and will have to decide between contacting them to know if it actually them and not a catfish, or trying to suppress my curiosity and have a Schrödinger’s slave situation…

    They also all seem to follow a script that makes me question whether it is all just roleplay fantasy, or there really are just that many guys out there that seem to have a desire to be mutilated… I mean, Cargo cannot be a real guy??? Can he??
    I tend to read these posts with a bit of a terror in my heart, especially when they go off about being shit like “rape-meat” or wanting to have their balls injected… it makes me just hope it’s all fiction. Also, what is a homunculi created from human transmission and how does it differ from a homunculi created by birth?…

    So i almost missed the Inland Empire screening today, as I was texting my friend who was cancelling that they still had [x] amount of hours to change their mind, but when I checked the tickets (at 18:20) it said it was at 18:30. Thankfully I got a lift in and only missed about 10 minutes — I got there for when Grace Zabriskie erratically wanders up to Laura Dern’s house which is basically the start anyway. As I’ve probably mentioned before this theatre used to be a church, so the seats are pews (although slightly cushioned nowadays) and the screen is at the back of the altar, which is great until you’re watching Inland Empire and your ass is in pain. Still, it was great to finally experience it on the big screen.

    I checked out that period you mentioned for the Stones and I do recognize at least two covers and a few songs, so I may make it my mission to listen to at least one of those albums tomorrow.

  11. darbz (⊙ 0⊙ )

    I would imagine my saliva taste like chocolate mint right now.
    Went skating today!..
    with a friend and another one who invited me to come with their coworkers. I was surprisingly better than I thought, depsite it being a long, long time since ive skated.They played take me in your arms by Lil Suzy , GOd, what a classic freestyle banger.
    this older woman at the skating rink who I guess was about in her fifties skated with such grace and the way her long hair flowed and her pleated skirt exuded such youth and made me go back in time and imagine she was just this absolute gorgeous skater who owned the skating rink in like the 80s or 70s while some sfunky disco or Duran Duran maybe was playing. I like just fantasizing peoples past like that.
    The feeling of not wanting death anymore anymore can be a somber one …in a way. You feel terrible for the child who could’ve been , collecting more trinkets to their hobbies and putting more things on their walls, being entrepreneur…
    And you see people on your feed/ self-reflect in general and feel so sad sometimes because they are very cool, and resemble the people you could’ve been at that age but are only now figuring all it out, barely at that. You see what you were —before such things had been ripped away—or interrupted. That’s how it feels. Maybe I’m slowly wondering if that’s a strong theme/element in the book or a proponent of the main character I’m writing. Hm. I’ve come to this conclusion B4 but it is interesting how my book writing blocks are met by such self-revealing revelations and the river proceeds to flow with clarity and gold.
    i will say the “thought” did come very fleeting yesterday. Ever s o often, yet it never lingers as it did when it was a vicious spell casting illusions upon my eyes.. Now it can be cast away a-lot easier.
    Tommorow I’m going to a show. Guess who’s show? You know.
    : )
    Haha, i’ ll stop. The nonbinary crush. Their rythme and blues band. I ran into them at the library, did I mention that? It must’ve been the universe’s doin.

    Hope the snow doesnt cancel it, haha. That would suck.

    : p

    • Laura

      omg! Lil Suzy! i did a rhythm gymnastics number to that once lol, someone hit me on the face w their skipping rope. anyway total banger fr. good you skated well! ^_^

  12. nat

    hey dennis, i think im cutting it close with sending this. so i’ll be quick.

    had to deal with something that kept me from talking to people much. (that i dont think i can talk about publically even with semi-anonymous alias) . bleh.

    cargo scares me hell out of me, properly cursed.

    finished schattenfroh, i still don’t know if it is bullshit or genius, which is something i guess i would have known by the time i got to the ending. it’s one of those things if i start to talk about it, it either seems like i hated it or loved it. ha.

    reading the jeffery epstein emails that got posted today. i’ll avoid any major discussions on it becuse a lot of it is about very important politics stuff and yeah i would rather not get into it. epstein types like a maniac, like even worse than me right now. you get like people spilling their hearts to him and he goes “ya col, talkto you later”, ha.

    writing is going slow, but it is what it is. i could build up skyscrapers with notes, rules, corrections, etc i got now. though, i got as much temptation to tear it down again. muses are vicious i swear.

    gonna try to see if i can get in the mood to play a game, the racing game was still the last thing i played. i think that’s all. i’ll try to get more next post.

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