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Spotlight on … Marguerite Duras The Malady of Death (1982) *

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‘In an article in Practicalities called ‘Men’, Marguerite Duras says “in heterosexual love there’s no solution. Man and woman are irreconcilable, and it’s the doomed attempt to do the impossible, repeated in each new affair, that lends heterosexual love its grandeur.” Earlier in the same article she believes “it’s between men and women that imagination is at its strongest. And it’s there that they’re separated by a frigidity which women increasingly invoke and which paralyses the men who desire them.” No man is perhaps more paralysed in Duras’s work than in The Malady of Death. Duras, born in 1914, brought up in Indochina, student of the Sorbonne, and one of the Nouveau Roman novelists along with Alain Robbe-Grillet, Claude Simon and Nathalie Sarraute, is a great writer of that mysterious area of existence that concerns the inexplicability of love in the face of incomprehension between the sexes. When the central female character refers to love as “a sudden lapse in the logic of the universe”, it is perhaps because for Duras love cannot find a rationale between the sexes: that it occupies the space of the irrational. Yet Duras notes in homosexual love things are not quite the same: “in homosexual love the passion is homosexuality itself. What a homosexual loves, as if it were his lover, his country, his art, his land, is homosexuality.”

‘Duras’s comments here coincide with that famous theorist of sexuality, Michel Foucault. What Duras calls the grandeur and the irreconcilable are perhaps the further reaches of Foucualt’s interest in courtship, mentioned in an interview called ‘Sexual Choice, Sexual Act’. Here he says “the experience of heterosexuality, at least since the middle-ages, has always consisted of two axes; on the one hand, the axis of courtship in which the man seduces the woman; and, on the other hand, the axis of the sexual act itself.” Foucault believes “in contrast, the modern homosexual experience has no relation at all to courtship.”

The Malady of Death explores a relationship as irreconcilable, as about the gap between men and women that is not romantically resolved, but inexplicably opened. “You realize it’s here, in her, that the malady of death is fomenting, that it’s this shape stretched out before you that decrees the malady of death.” This short, hypothetical book about two people meeting up for sex has the narrator saying early on, “You may have paid her. May have said: I want you to come every night for a few days. She’d have given you a long look and said in that case it’d be expensive. And then she says: What is it you want?”

‘Here, the woman is presented in the third person as she; the male character in the second as you. “You say you want to try, try it, try to know, to get used to that body, those breasts, that scent. To beauty, to the risk of having children implicit in that body.” Julia Kristeva in Black Sun has astutely referred to Duras’s “aesthetics of awkwardness”, the way Duras will create a truncated syntax to achieve a certain sense of fragmented melancholy. “Duras’s work does not analyze itself by seeking its sources in the music that lies under the words nor in the defeat of the narrative’s logic. If there be a formal search, it is subordinate to confrontation with the silence of horror in oneself and in the world.” Kristeva adds, “such a confrontation leads to an aesthetics of awkwardness on the one hand, to a noncathartic literature on the other.” In an interview, ‘Black Sun: Melancholia and Creation’, Kristeva mentions students saying to her of Duras’s work, “We cannot read Duras because it is so close to us that it plunges us back into the sickness.” Kristeva later adds, “catharsis supposes that we leave depression, while I have a sense that these books plunge us into depression and do not give us a way to get out of it.”

‘In The Malady of Death, the literary style seems to force upon us an inevitability that cannot be reversed; for these are characters caught in a metaphysical battle of sexual wills that goes far beyond their individual characteristics. This isn’t quite the same thing as saying they are archetypes; more that given the condition of a certain type of man, and a certain type of woman, the result is inevitable. The man wants to “try loving”, but he is also paying her, and the more intimacy he requires, the more money she will charge. When he says he wants to sleep “with your sex at rest, somewhere unknown,” and that he wants “to weep there, in that particular place”, “she says in that case it’ll be even more expensive. She tells you how much.” Is this why the malady of death takes over; because he is in love with a woman that he cannot possess except on economic terms? Duras’s genius is for balancing the singular and the general – the inexplicability between the sexes, but also the specific problem given the relationship she is looking at. Here is a man it would seem given to control, and perhaps he believes by paying for the woman he will retain that power; that he can go to the very deepest part of himself emotionally whilst holding on to his full identity.

‘Yet perhaps this identity is shattered before the encounter and can never recover from it, and Duras opens the book implying this: “You wouldn’t have known her, you’d have seen her everywhere at once, in a hotel, in a street, in a train, in a bar, in a book, in a film, in yourself, your inmost self, when your sex grew erect in the night, seeking somewhere to put itself, somewhere to shed its load of tears.” The man may be paying for the pleasure, but the woman is denying him some notion of the essence he wishes to understand. “She’d always be ready, willing or no. That’s just what you’ll never know. She’s more mysterious than any other external thing you’ve ever known.”

‘What Duras’s book captures is the further reaches of that unknowability, a grandeur of the inexplicable, we might call it, the inevitable gap between the sexes that will occasionally reveal the abyss. One reason why Kristeva feels such trepidation in the face of Duras’s work is that it traps the reader in a state of inevitable melancholy. In the interview, she sees Duras’s work as perhaps personal, but that touches upon “something general that joins a universal symptom of our generation, I think. That is why her books speak to so many people.” Kristeva reckons, though, that the work’s danger lies in that “it is not cathartic but, let’s say, an echo, a connivance with depression.” This connivance meets the gap between the sexes, and Duras talks interestingly of the idea that men in heterosexual relationships are biding their time. “The number of men in heterosexual couples (or in drawing rooms or on beaches or in the streets) who are just waiting,” she says in the essay ‘Men’, “all alone, with no language in common between them and their partners, and don’t know it.” Here we have the flipside of The Malady of Death and yet not at all contrary to this work. If we have the man searching out the unknown other in the novella, we also have in ‘Men’ man falling not into the abyss but into boredom. Is this partly where Duras’s non-cathartic melancholy lies, from the male perspective, and in turn perhaps for the woman also? If the woman is finally no more nor less than an obsessive revelation of nothingness, or someone with whom time stands too still, what hope is there for the couple?

‘This is not the place to address alternatives, for that would be to defy the point Kristeva sees in Duras’s work: that in the hopelessness resides the noncathartic. Now before meeting the woman in The Malady of Death, the man seems never to have loved. “Haven’t you ever loved a woman? You say no, never. She asks: Haven’t you ever desired a woman? No, never.” Yet near the end of the book the narrator says “even so you managed to live that love in the only way possible for you. Losing it before it happened.” What does the narrator mean by this? Perhaps a sidelong glance at that great male writer of love, Cesare Pavese, can help us here, and some comments he makes in his diaries This Business of Living. When Pavese says in an entry on October 13th, 1938 “it is stupid to grieve for the loss of a girl friend: you might never have met her, so you can do without her,” Duras might say that though one may never have met the person doesn’t mean you can do without her. This is surely what Duras means when saying the man lost her before it happened. It is a crack awaiting an opening, a space that the woman creates that reveals the nothingness within him. The final entry in Pavese’s diaries, before he killed himself partly over a failed love affair, opens with “the thing most feared in secret always happens”. Has the man in The Malady of Death met the thing most feared – not so much the woman of his dreams as the one who can open up the nightmare of non-being? In one moment near the end of the book “the tears wake her. She looks at you. She looks at the room. And again at you. She strokes your hand. Asks: Why are you crying? You say it’s for her to say, she’s the one who ought to know.” Is it because, she says, he has never loved, never known the wish to “keep him for yourself, yourself alone, to take him, steal him in defiance of every law, every moral authority – you don’t know what that is, you’ve never experienced it?” The man replies “never”, and the woman says “a dead man’s a strange thing”.

‘Has the man always been like Pavese when he says in the diary entry on 30th September, “the best defence against a love affair is to tell yourself over and over again till you are dizzy: ‘this passion is simply stupid; the game is not worth the candle’”? Would Duras reply that the man isn’t avoiding love but confronting his own basic absence of feeling? When the woman says love takes place “perhaps through a sudden lapse in the logic of the universe”, “never through an act of will”, can a man quite countenance this acceptance? In another essay in Practicalities, ‘The Man Who Was a Lie’, Duras says of a man she knew, “he thought men and women were as fundamentally different in their flesh, their desire and their shape as if they belonged to two different orders of creation.”

‘Yet again we have Duras talking of the grandeur of inexplicability, and of course there is nothing more grandiose about the inexplicability of The Malady of Death than the premise upon which it is based: the man hires the woman to stay with him for a couple of weeks hoping that by the end of this relationship he will be able to experience love with a woman. It is a premise containing its own inevitable failure: as we’ve noted the woman saying, love is not an act of will, nor an act of purchase.

‘At the end of the book, Duras muses over ways in which it could be presented as a play or as a film. “He ought to disappear from view, to be lost in the theatre just as he is lost in time, and then to return into the light, to us.” Another suggestion is that he walks around the young woman; a third is that the “man the story is about would never appear.” This would be the mise-en-scene of the inexplicable, finding a way of staging the piece that brings out at every moment the tragic grandiosity of the gap. This is a gap Duras has often been accused of hyperbolizing, saying in an essay ‘House and Home’, “people tell me I exaggerate”, as Duras again and again points up the differences. “Men and woman are different, after all.” In the essay ‘The Chimneys of India Song’, she says “most people stay together because together they’re not frightened. Or because it’s easier to live on two salaries than on one.” There is in so much of Duras’s work in various permutations (in The Lover, in The Ravishing of Lol Stein, The Sailor from Gibraltar) this consistent pessimism towards the possibility of the heterosexual couple. Yet is it not the simultaneous attempt and the awareness of its impossibility that makes for the grandeur Duras so often also speaks about? In The Sailor from Gibraltar the narrator says he was “one of those whose tragedy it was never to have encountered a pessimism equal to their own”. Duras’s work can often feel like an alleviation of that tragedy but only to replace it with something equally devastating: an inevitable collusion, as Kristeva notes, with depression and melancholy.’ — Tony McKibben

 

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Extras


Marguerite Duras – Worn Out With Desire To Write (1985)
Watch it here


Marguerite Duras MARGUERITE TELLE QU’EN ELLE-MÊME


Marguerite Duras (1/4) : Vivre et écrire


Marguerite Duras – “Écrire” (ARTE)

 

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Further

Margerite Duras/Wikipedia
‘In Love with Duras’, by Edmund White
‘Intense Vocalization: Marguerite Duras’, by David Ehrenstein
The timeless Marguerite Duras
La petite cuisine de Marguerite
Serge Daney in conversation with Marguerite Duras
A Sublime Passion
Short Cuts
THE STOLEN PIGEONS, by Marguerite Duras
THE BIBLE, by Marguerite Duras
The obsessions of Marguerite Duras
In the electric light the traveler is writing
Mort de Yann Andréa, dernier compagnon de Marguerite Duras
Le Château de Duras, lieu d’inspiration pour l’écrivain Marguerite Duras
Narrative Features of Marguerite Duras’s Fiction, Drama, and Cinema
Buy “Malady of Death’

 

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Adaptations


Trailer: ‘La Maladie de la Mort’, a film by Asa Mader


Haegue Yang ‘The Malady of Death’ (excerpt)


‘The Malady of Death’ (group F)


Trailer: ‘La maladie de la mort’ / Théâtre des Bouffes du Nord


Excerpt: (KUOLEMANTAUTI) Marguerite Duras: La maladie de la mort, 1982.


‘La Maladie de la mort’ et Aurélia Steiner (d’après l’œuvre de Marguerite Duras) (Extraits)

 

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Interview
from the New York Times

 

IN THE DARK, CRAMPED HALLWAY OF THEIR apartment stand a tiny woman bent with age and a handsome, middle-aged man — Marguerite Duras and her companion of 11 years, Yann Andrea. She wears a plaid skirt and green stockings, he wears leather pants and has a mustache; together they evince images of whimsy, intellect and danger.

We walk into a small, dusty room filled with strange objects: a broken candleholder that is a model of the Eiffel Tower, a box of old postcards, little tins of tea next to a piece of curled red ribbon. There are piles and piles of paperback books and a round table in the middle of the room where Duras seats herself in front of some blank pages and three pens.

Her head is so large that her cheeks spread out toward her narrow shoulders. She must be less than five feet tall. She wears many rings and bracelets.

“Let me tell you something,” she says. Her voice is gruff, energetic and frank. “I am finishing a book. I am going to pick up the story of ‘The Lover’ without any literature in it. The fault I have found with ‘The Lover’ was its literariness, which comes very easily to me because it’s my style. But you won’t understand that.”

“Even I am struggling to understand,” says Yann, smiling. “Another version of ‘The Lover’ without the style of ‘The Lover’? It’s the same story.”

“Not exactly. Another novel. It is between the little girl and the Chinese.”

“Why go over the material again?” I ask.

“Because there is a film maker who is one of the greatest in the world, whose name is Jean-Jacques Annaud, who took on ‘The Lover.’ He told a story that I didn’t recognize, so I said: ‘Now you’re going home, it’s finished. I don’t want to work with you anymore.’ I was a little nasty.”

The film is being made in English with two unknowns playing the leads: an English girl and a man from Hong Kong. Duras waves her hand in dismissal when I ask her if she will watch the shooting. “It doesn’t interest me,” she says. But, of course, she has her new book, which more or less throws down the gauntlet to Annaud.

As Yann plays with a piece of ribbon like the one on the table, twisting it through his fingers, she looks at me expectantly, and I begin by asking about early literary influences. She denies having any. “My mother was a farmer,” she says bluntly. “She had no idea what literature was all about.”

“Did you know you were a writer when you were young?”

“I never doubted. I wrote when I was 10. Very bad poems. Many children start out writing like that, with the most difficult form.”

The form of a typical Duras novel is minimal, with no character description, and much dialogue, often unattributed and without quotation marks. The novel is not driven by narrative, but by a detached psychological probing, which, with its complexity and contradictory emotions, has its own urgency.

I ask her why she has said in interviews she feels suffocated by the classical novel, especially Balzac.

“Balzac describes everything, everything. It’s exhaustive. It’s an inventory. His books are indigestible. There’s no place for the reader.”

Yann says gently: “There is pleasure too, in reading Balzac. You’re very reassured.”

“If you read it at 14,” Duras barks back. “Balzac was my earliest nourishment. But I am a part of my own time, you have to be a part of your own time. One can no longer write as Balzac does. And Balzac could never have written ‘Lol Stein.’ ”

I ask her what sort of state she was in when she wrote “Lol Stein,” and she tells me a curious story.

“With ‘Lol Stein,’ I screamed. I was by the sea, in a house in Trouville. I was in the living room, and at a little distance was my lover. I heard a cry. I leaped up. I went to see the young man. I said, ‘What’s the matter?’ He said: ‘What are you talking about? I’m the one who should ask why you screamed.’ I’d cried out, without even . . . it’s funny.”

“Have you ever known someone like Lol Stein?”

She picks up the papers before her, stands them upright and taps the edges to align them. She is so small that her face disappears behind the pages. I hear a deep sigh.

“One day I took care of a madwoman. I went to a psychiatric hospital and asked for a young woman who had attracted me. She was very beautiful, very elegant. I took her out in the car. She didn’t say anything. We simply went to a cafe. She ate and ate and ate — like a clochard , crudely, with her hands. At her core she was very sick. I wanted to see it physically. I saw it in her. The gaze. That’s Lol Stein.

“I’ve been thinking about this character for 10 years. I have an image. Not another book. Maybe a film. She is on the beach at Trouville. She is in a rickshaw. There’s no roof, she’s exposed. She is very made up, like a whore. She’s wearing dirty dresses, and it’s as if she grew old in an asylum. And you know where she’s going? She’s going to the dance.”

“Terrific!” says Yann. “You have to do it! Write it!” She turns to him with a distant look in her eyes and a faint smile. Silence prevails.

In a 1974 booklength interview with Xaviere Gauthier, Duras said: “I have a bedazzled memory . . . of the night in the forest when we’d walk barefoot, barefoot while everywhere it was teeming with snakes! . . . I wasn’t afraid at 12, and then, as an adult, I’ve said to myself, ‘But how did we get out alive?’ We would go to see the monkeys, and there were black panthers too. I saw a black panther fly by a hundred meters away. Nothing in the world is more ferocious than that.”

Thinking about that panther, I ask her: “There seems to be a chronic underlying panic in your books. Did that come from your childhood?”

“Who can say? It’s true that it exists. Endemic, as they say.”

During another long silence I gaze at a strange tableau on a table. A mirror with dried flowers drooping from the top is propped against the wall. In its reflection is a poster of “Destroy She Said,” her first independent movie. Leaning against the mirror is another, smaller mirror.

“There was a sexual fear, fear of men, because I didn’t have a father. I wasn’t raped, but I sensed rape, like all little girls. And then afterwards I had a Chinese lover. That was love.”

Yann serves us grenadine. I remember French friends telling me, with eyebrows raised, that between them is un vrai amour , even though he is a homosexual.

“Do you think most people live with continual fear?”

“Only the stupid are not afraid.”

Of course, a writer who concerns herself with disjunction and alienation is difficult to pin down in conversation. She used to say that as a film maker she wanted to “murder the writer,” and recently she said she wants to “kill the image.” I wonder how it is possible to make a film without image.

She answers: “With words. To kill the writer that I was.”

All right. Suddenly she picks up the pen that has been in front of her for two days and begins to write on the paper. “I’m thinking of something.” She looks up. “Sensitivity depends on intelligence. It’s completely connected. There’s an innocence also. Luckily.” She puts down the pen. I record it as it happened. I do not fully understand.

“Are you still a Communist?”

“I’m a Communist. There’s something in me that’s incurable.”

“But you left the Party.”

“The Party is not Communism.” Her mouth hardens into a straight line across her wide face.

“Has there been any true Communist government over the years?”

“Not one. There was one Communist year: 1917.”

“Do you hope to see that sort of Communism return to the world?”

“I don’t know. I don’t want to know. I am a Communist within myself. I no longer have hope in the world.”

Yann begins to laugh. “And the other?” he asks. “Do you have hope for the next world?”

She is not amused by his question. “Zero. Zero.”

 

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Book

Marguerite Duras The Malady of Death
Grove Press

‘A man hires a woman to spend several weeks with him by the sea. The woman is no one in particular, a “she,” a warm, moist body with a beating heart—the enigma of Other. Skilled in the mechanics of sex, he desires through her to penetrate a different mystery: he wants to learn to love. It isn’t a matter of will, she tells him. Still, he wants to try . . .

‘This beautifully wrought erotic novel is an extended haiku on the meaning of love, “perhaps a sudden lapse in the logic of the universe,” and its absence, “the malady of death.”‘ — Grove Press

‘The whole tragedy of the inability to love is in this work, thanks to Duras’ unparalleled art of reinventing the most familiar words, of weighing their meaning.’ — Le Monde

 

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p.s. Hey. ** Tea, Hi. Gotcha. Me as well. Obviously I’m happy and potentially proud if the blog has a part in springing your writing. Rock this day. ** Tosh Berman, Hi, Tosh. Thanks for your concern. I’m pretty sure it’s just a cold. I have a few friends here who just had or have them. I’m already feeling better today. But if starts acting big or lingers, I’ll get a test. Feel much better on your end. ** _Black_Acrylic, Thanks, Ben. I’m already improved, but I’ll go for a test if I start feeling untoward. ** Jack Skelley, Hi, J. I seem to be on the mend already, thank you, pal. So I need newz! Newz, I tell you! Or the opposite. xo, me. ** malcolm, Hi. Oh, okay, I was just overreaching in my haze. Yeah, it really does sound you guys re-becoming friends is just a matter of some future, probably random mood meld. My guess, for whatever it’s worth, is that he welcomes your check ins. I don’t know, we’re all so complicated. Follow your heart. I always do that, and I’m squared away with almost all the people in my life and past. I mean, I think I am. No, I almost never get sick, it’s weird. My immune system likes me apparently. And when I do get sick on rare occasions, like this cold, it tends to zip through me, as this cold seems to be doing (thus far). Thanks for caring. I think I saw the email with the new draft in my email box when I was gazing at it pre-cognizance this morning. Thank you! ** Dominik, Hi!! Thanks, I think it’s dying. It feels like it is. It could even be argued that BeeHive is even more beautiful for not putting guys at risk of impregnating her. I’ve already crossed ‘My Policeman’ off my list, but I will go back and make the cross even darker with a Magic Marker. I’m afraid I’m one of those people on whom Harry Styles’ appeal does not work. It’s true your love of yesterday made an important correction to the dictionary definition of sexy. Love making the Foo Fighters go away, G. ** Steve Erickson, Ah ha! Everyone, Mr. Erickson requests the presence of your ears thusly: ‘I released my new song “Stochastic Terror” today. I don’t know if its intent as a protest song comes across, or if it’s just a bunch of atonal samples looped over each other.’ I’m feeling somewhat better today, thanks. Yeah, colds are rather rampant among my local social set du jour. ** Gick, Hi. Yeah, it’s annoying, but it could be worse. Thank you. Mm, you know, I hate honey. I always have. I can’t stand it. I don’t know why. I think I’d need to be pretty sick to allow it in my mouth. And any slave that tried to put it in my mouth would be in big, big trouble, ha ha. I’m sorry covid got you, but I’m happy you’re far afield from it. Love, me. ** Bill, I’m upswinging, thanks. I too found the poke choice odd and thus amusing enough to include. I’m glad you’re liking the Lambert book. Yeah, he’s a prose wiz, I think. How’s the prep going for your gig? ** Okay. I decided to restore the spotlight on my favorite Marguerite Duras novel for your possible delectation. See you tomorrow.

“I’m scubadiver. I love scubadiving. I love to be underwater. I love to fight underwater. I love drowning. Fight or drown.”

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JeremytheSecretSlut, 24
Straight, getting married in Dec, but before then I want, crave, to be fucked so much and violently that I’ll never want to cheat on my wife.

Comments

Facetattooguy1966 – Nov 21, 2022
Can I suggest that I castrate you and really solve your problem big time? Only currently looking to have your balls removed but I am more than open to having your penis done, too. I’m not looking for a fantasy thing, I am 100% genuine and serious about this. I’ve researched this extensively and know the risks, side effects, and can imagine what the difficulties will be for a straight guy like you after removal, and I still want to do it.

Daisymegan4 – Nov 15, 2022
If you don’t mind your picture could be my inspiring muse for an amazing mural i’m working on for a client. You will totally get paid for it as well as a bonus also get credits.. if you are interested say hi.

treeofwisdom – Nov 13, 2022
I will put 1 or more * (1 means I didn’t like it that much; 2 or more will show how much I liked it).
1 or more + to show how much the slut liked it.
Nipple torture *********
CBT +++**
Choking him ******
Paddling him *****
Bullying him ++++++
FF him ********++
Flogging him *****
Filming him *******
Pissing on/in him **********
His smells *****
Him sucking on my unwashed filthy feet *******
Him swallowing my spit *********
Him swallowing my nasal discharge ********++++++++
Fucking him *******+++++++++
Threatening to send the film to his fiancee *************

 

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TwinkOuchbuns, 19
My limits are no scat. Everything else is on the table. I seek a Master or Dom to violently rape and beat me. No mercy, no way out, no safe words, thoroughly, internally.

I’m into blood, bruises, brute force, weapons, fisting, piss, being spit on. Need a mean Master with no mercy for a crying fag. Stretch my ass open and tear up my hole, rectum and further. Guns and knives during sex is hot. Any Master would own the right to control my entire life and, as such, snuff is on the table.

Comments

Kill&Chill – Nov 9, 2022
I’ve always wanted to attend a cocktail party, all black themed with black dress shirts required. It’s in an elegant historical home, with security and privacy. Maybe even make it a masquerade requirement. Beautiful naked dead boys, displayed in death such as chained up over the dinner table. Sitting in chairs covered in blood. Maybe the cutest boys even displayed in bedrooms for the greratest of pleasures. All the meanwhile guests are interacting with conversations, sipping drinks, tasteful hor’devours. It would be like Salo meets Faces of Death meets Eyes Wide Shut

SpiderCunt – Nov 8, 2022
Man I wish I had dreams like that. It’d be a perfect way to snuff this boy (which I rly wanna do lol). One time I did have a dream where I was a child and a witch caught me and my friend sneaking into her house, hung us upsidedown from a monkeybar and took out all our organs one by one.

theirishman – Nov 8, 2022
It doesn’t happen a lot but i did have a dream about snuffing Kill&Chill last night, it was very vivid too. I could feel the weight of the knife as i sunk it in him, the feeling of it hitting bone when i sliced his head off, the smell and heat of his blood, the weight and sound as i sawed off his leg…

probaby-joseph – Nov 8, 2022
Does anyone else who wants to snuff guys but has a moral block against doing it ever have vivid dreams about it? I had a nap earlier where I brutally beat this profile boy up and cut him in my dreams and I felt the pain in my hands as I broke his jaw and felt the splashes of blood gushing out of him and had the high pulse and adrenaline if I were awake and actually doing it. I have a LOT of snuff dreams, and I was wondering if any of you had any as well.


 

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scarecrow, 18
Scarecrow new to this high as kite shit split from gf wana suck a dick a get bummed

Comments

LoboAlpha – Nov 24, 2022
His twin brother went missing a long time ago… now he’s on the search for his twin brother with the help of LoboAlpha.





 

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laughatwhataloseriam, 18
i dance sing put on comedy shows n love to be laughed at
im invited to a paryt on saturday
one of my firends (not a close friend though)
and all his mates usually get so drunk
and drink tons
it seems like a luagh
and ive always wanted to go to their parties
but he said if its too late i can crash round there
and my best friend (whos also obsessed w me)
is gonna crash there
so ill prberly get absolutely out of my head n gangraped loL
i am a complete and total loser!

Comments

laughatwhataloseriam (Owner) – Nov 16, 2022
you cant do better than going to a hard core party!!!!
im either pissed or sky high on summat though!!!
taking vodka in school, lmao, done it loadsa times
ma teacher well cought on but he dint say awt kik ass teacher!!!
another good 1 is spiking the punch bowl at a respectable family dinner
and then give your 90yr old grandad the best bj of his life
at the same time though i never have my head outta books
:S strange i know

So.Blurry – Nov 16, 2022
i fucking hate sluts that go to partys

laughatwhataloseriam (Owner) – Nov 16, 2022
im known to shoot some pretty big loads. have hit walls before.


 

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Paraplegicwannabe, 19
For me life will start at the moment when a Master will take away from me the control of my lower body (the ability to walk or stand up) by sentencing me to a life in a wheelchair and permanently staying there inferior to him and to the world forever.

Not yet disabled

Comments

Oldercumslut – Nov 22, 2022
Does your therapist know about your behavior?



 

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IHateLove, 25
I’m dissolute and masochistic to the point of fanaticism.

I enjoy a life encompassed by debauchery and don’t see myself ever giving it up for anyone.

– Bareback Only
– Fisting
– Watersports & Scat
– Sensory Deprivation
– Force fed liquor or drugs
– Kicked/punched/kneed in genitals, stomach
– Charlie horse
– Heavily punched on face
– Yelled at
– Taser to balls
– Forced gangbang
– Unconsciousness

Ideally, I would like to find an older Master that would enjoy doing these things to me, but isnt the jealous type.

I’d encourage my Master to indulge in whatever brutalities he wants with me, but it is not my nature to be monogamous so I would not even entertain the idea of involving myself in a relationship like that.

In the meantime, my body is always down to host large orgies, and does so frequently.

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Mike803 – Nov 20, 2022
I think I’m kind a pervert. Because, on the one hand, I’d like to suck his sexy dead corpse (is dead corpse redundant?) dick then cut his arm off and shove the arm up his ass. But on the other hand, I’d love to go back in time to his twink days and marry him. Human are so complicated.

SupremeDickedDarius – Nov 20, 2022
It would be very cool to take Kyros’s head off. I agree it would be so cool to make love to his head and fuck it and talk to it. I can imagine decapitating him and having his bare feet on the pillow next to me to kiss while I’m skull fucking and talking to his head. Do you think you would take his head with you… like on a date? To sit on the table and talk to while you enjoyed yourself? I would.

Kill&Chill – Nov 20, 2022
35 gay man looking for other guys to message about severing Kyros’s head and dismembering him. Are you jerking to it? So am I.

MasterStephen – Nov 19, 2022
Older timers will recognise him as former twink porn superstar Kyros (Christian). He’s in his early 30s if not older but he has barely seemed to age if a gentle drooping of his facial skin and baggy eyes doesn’t count. He enjoys having his hole and prostate worked on and milked by fingers, toys, thick rubbed gloved hands, electricity and if you work on him hard enough his assgasms will knock your head off.






 

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juunk, 20
Wanna try some new shit.. XXXL? Cumover m breed me, maybe drink a 6 pack of beer first.. My type is guys that r hairy m havent showered for days but any guy XXXL will do.. just make sure I get a good tip$

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juunk (Owner) – Nov 17, 2022
Bein so shitfaced I got fucked by a wasted-away old homeless guy on the “beach” next to the Illinois River

FosterChems – Nov 17, 2022
What is raunchiest thing you have ever done when you were drunk?


 

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Skipper_Quentin, 20
Hi we are Skipper and Quentin.
We are gamers, and we are chefs 👨‍🍳.
Having sex is not a must for us, but we like to have sex once a while.
We are a polyamouris couple who is looking for a Master.
How we spend our days are regular, sometimes we like to go out spontaneous.
We also like animals and also have sex with our two dogs.
Our favorite cuisine is the Asian one, we can make a good poke bowl.
We ain’t difficult, but we have our rules with the relationship so keep that in mind.
Yes we be strict about our rules but if u want to break us up it’s not like there’s anything can we do about it.

Comments

userfreakingname – Nov 25, 2022
They are perversion incarnate. I suggest you spend a moment with them. But be prepared for extreme perversions, otherwise you will be shocked.



 

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Hang_me, 20
Young and ready to be finished
Id prefer it be a Black guy or woman
Im non-binary so I dont give a fuck
Looking to finally make this happen

Comments

Hang_me (Owner) – Nov 11, 2022
Anyone interested come between now and midnight. I am off I84 exit 374. Two homes down from the Ontario Oregon State Park. Look for the Nissan Armada. You will see a red bucket on the sidewalk. Follow the string til you find the red light. I am in the small shed.

Hang_me (Owner) – Nov 4, 2022
I know Im a loser
I know Im not good at anything
But if my death makes you cum
I can feel useful for a moment


 

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Index, 19
My name is Hugo, I am a high school senior with a defective personality.
Currently I am looking for a master who can easily move to my hometown.
I really want this master to go to my high school every day and be ruthless with me, not hesitating to humiliate me in front of everyone, whether it’s attaching me to a wall for hours as a vulgar decoration, charging people to hit or spit on me, putting me naked in a cage in front of everyone at school assemblies, mummifying me and laying me on the football field during a game, etc etc.
I don’t want a phone. I don’t want another orgasm.
Nothing should stand in the way of you making me the high school student you want.

Comments

DPack – Nov 18, 2022
Stuff this Turkey 🦃

wantitalltakeitall – Nov 14, 2022
I have a confession. I fucked you when we were fourteen. You were asleep and I got you on your side and managed to get my tongue in your ass then my cock. You didn’t feel it enter but woke after the second thrust. You panicked and so did I and I punched you in the head until you passed out. Then I continued. Afterword you acted like you didn’t remember anything. I just wonder now if my doing that is why you’re defective. I’m sorry.




 

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your_prettiest_problem, 24
So my boyfriend turned out to be a cuck. That’s cool. You know what’s even cooler? He gets off on me wanting some pretty awful things to happen to him too and it turns out that it excites me just the same. I remember how hard he came when our last hookup punched him full force and repeatedly in the face and broke his nose in the middle of creampieing his sloppy asshole? Well maybe he (and I) would love it even more if the next thing broken was his neck. Why don’t we find out? Maybe!

Comments

your_prettiest_problem (Owner) – Nov 2, 2022
Ok, that’s enough.

gm1967 – Nov 2, 2022
Then suck out the blood and cum and whatever else is in his succulent ass.

SatansDeathPerv – Nov 2, 2022
Then knife fuck the dead thing.

level 1 – Nov 2, 2022
Until his head is completely off.

Boophone78 – Nov 2, 2022
And see his tiny nips twitch from pain and stained of red blood…

litany – Nov 2, 2022
I would love to hear the gurgle sound as the knife goes deep in his neck.





 

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Nolimitunderwater, 19
I live in Russia. I’m just looking for a way to get out of this fucking evil country. I’m scubadiver. I love scubadiving. I love to be underwater. I love to fight underwater. I love drowning. Fight or drown.

Comments

Nolimitunderwater (Owner) – Nov 11, 2022
I am now in Budva, Montenegro.

 

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krisBAREboy, 18
an extremely horny virus eating + spreading cunt

ready for anything together with Enes1964HHtoxic (my dad). who wants?

ask us – and spare us the boring stuff, we only do him + you -> me bare + unsafe + stds
#poz
#stds
#hep
#syph
#plagues
#groupdiseases
#shiteater
#fisteater
#themoretoxicthebetter
#incest
#family
#daddy
#dogs
#horses
#zoosex

are there XXXL toxic types here who want to help dad rip open my young German ass? get in touch!

my cock is small but poisonous!

Comments

krisBAREboy (Owner) – Nov 24, 2022
Just to add I could handle being slapped around, beaten, given bruises and cuts and maybe even a broken nose but would like to keep all my teeth.

Do0m3d – Nov 19, 2022
Is very TOXIC…
Wants more….
AIDS
STDS
AIDS-BUG
he love AIDS

krisBAREboy (Owner) – Nov 16, 2022
Life isn’t perfect, but you are.

Enes1964HHtoxic – Nov 16, 2022
Just to add as his Dad that if anyone else would get off on taking kris to a party bound and hooded, make him take any and all loads then beat, degrade, torture and rape him for being a whore that’s an option.

TheSadisticArabMan – Nov 12, 2022
HIS HOLE CAN BE PUSHED. I fisted it a bunch. I rimmed it for hours. I explored it with all types of intensities for days and days.


 

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relativeperformer, 18
Talking about nasty fantasies, mine is to stealth breed my very homophobic and serophobic teenager son. I adopted him with my ex-husband and he has worked so hard ever since to be the straightest jock possible just to spite me. Going camping with him then giving him some substances to make him sleep then having someone filming me while son is senseless but his face is clearly visible on video. Brush his tight unused hole with twigs and rocks till he bleeds copiously then slide in with a single thrust, someone encouraging me to fill my own son up and after breeding him I write on his back “worthless slut”. Lock him in permanent bondage and he becomes a slave for me, for my helper and whoever comes out in the woods that I decide he has to be fucked by. Always on videos spreading around his straight friends while we all beat him everywhere so hard his screaming put *wtf* looks on the faces of deers for miles around.

Comments

Lespoir5000 – Nov 17, 2022
I would pay $5000 for his dead feet.

KuriousJoq – Nov 15, 2022
i don’t know if you’re the right person to approach because this might be weird but my gf and i challenge each other. i want to make my gf do lesbian stuff and beat and torture her while she’s doing that. she flipped it on me and said she’d do it IF i do the same to another guy. in fact i’ve asked her so many times, now she’s cut me off unless i do this to a guy.

can you help me out? i’m still a little freaked out about this but the idea of beating and torturing a young guy while his dad rapes him and the whole incest aspect there is kind of motivating me. and it would be helpful if you’re willing to make some private videos as proof to my gf that i did what she demanded. fwiw i’m vaxed.

relativeperformer (Owner) – Nov 9, 2022
Scammers beware, I know you’re here. Get a job.


 

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Longpig18, 18
To be honest I am looking for a man much older (+50y) than me with whom I will be fattened and slaughtered, I have had this wish for years and am now of legal age and am looking for men to do it.

Comments

Longpig18 (Owner) – Nov 13, 2022
I appreciate that so much 😩 goals.

gaymalesnuff – Nov 13, 2022
you have perfect body for that

Longpig18 (Owner) – Nov 10, 2022
I absolutely LOVE the idea of being dismembered while alive while on Crystal Meth.

gaymalesnuff – Nov 10, 2022
under the use of Crystal Meth?

Sheepherder – Nov 10, 2022
You pretty much are me apart from the hairstyle lol. I came here for cheap fantasy kicks and now I realize what kind of person I am because I relate to a fucking longpig wtf. I suddenly feel the slightest of feelings which is something that’s normally long gone wtf.

KazehayaSasuke – Nov 9, 2022
i want to take your skin off

Fag2roast – Nov 9, 2022
Fuck the fattening, I want to eat you now, kid! Message me!

needu2grow – Nov 9, 2022
Oh god to stuff you with food, you burping, your tight clothes, popping buttons, ripping from the seams, chugging, inflating you, your weight rising on the scale, your fat jiggling, stretch marks forming… Its all so erotic, a love letter that never ends.



 

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VerySkinnyBoy, 22
Message Me If You Want To Torture Punch My Very Skinny Belly Hard !

The Skinnier My Belly, The Harder You Punch, Punch My belly till you reach my spine, The louder I scream, The Harder You Punch My Skinny Weak Belly Harder !

I just really skinny, even I might look anorexic I’m not, I been this skinny since Young, My Real name is Andre, I had a skinny belly torture fetish since age 11, and had many belly torture sessions as I screamed in pain and love !

My worst belly torture was about over four hours of hard belly punching, I was tied down, gagged and starved for three days before so my belly became more concave before pounding it !

Destroy My Very Skinny Concave Belly laying down with a pillow under my bum to arch my belly to make it more concave, so it will hurt more when torturing it !

Comments

Anonymous – Nov 23, 2022
WARNING AND WANTED FROM INTERPOL THIS PERSON WITH NAME :KOSTANDINOS BEGO WITH NUMBER OF TELEPHONE:00436601927047 .IF YOU SEE HIM OR YOU KNOW SOMETHING FOR HIM CALL POLICE OF WIEN OR POLICE DEPARTMNENT OF KASTORIA CITY COUNTRY GREECE.CALL AND SPEAK WITH OFFICER MISTER FOTOPOYLOS:00302467021543
THANK YOU



 

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Inactive, 19
This might be a completely pointless exercise XD. But i don’t care. Has any other subs or slaves had near death experiences during sex scenes?

I ask because I overdosed on some drug last week. I had really really weird things happen to me like an out of body experience where my mind felt detached from my body and was floating up to the ceiling. And I was staring at the ceiling the whole time and looking down at my body watching this sadist guy rape and choke me. I don’t want to talk about that in greater detail, as it can bring back horrible flashbacks and even bring on a panic attack.

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Whimperingcloud – Nov 19, 2022
My Master choked me out then dumped me in a full Bathtub with weights on top keep me under water. I woke up with my face underwater and didn’t realize I was drowning until 20 seconds after I woke.
My Master tried to suffocate me with my face in a pillow and when I woke up I couldn’t move. The only thing that saved me was he thought I was dead and flipped my body over.
I nearly bled out when I got so mad at my Master I slit my wrist.
I OD’ed on Fentanyl.
Cuncussion, got thrown violently around a room by my Master and hit my head on the corner of a dresser and nearly bled out.
Um… yeah… I’m surprised I’m still with Him…

Peace – Nov 19, 2022
i had one
i tricked with this guy who was a total psycho
that’s for sure
i was getting undressed for the action, and he swung a metal baseball bat full force at my head
i had to throw myself to the ground not to get hit
i would have been killed, i’m sure off that :s
well startin to wonder if this counts as near death
but meh

StabMeInTheHead – Nov 18, 2022
i was almost drowned on purpose by an alpha top guy in his hot tub when we were fucking, he wouldnt let me up but his boyfriend came home, and he had to stop.

asianducktape – Nov 18, 2022
my first near death experience was when
i was involded in a car crash i was givin a man head the car fliped
i was about 10
thye other one was when this man took me to just of the top of
c block – a 3 story building and said he was gonna throw me off if told any1
i was 14
the other 1 was when i OD but that was by
accesden i did that last month in the middle of gettin fisted


 

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barefootslimtied, 19
Hi Everyone,
For about a year I’ve gotten into the bad/good habit of drugging my straight pothead roommate and tying him up for hours at a time and I’m searching for a new friend who would enjoy tying him up with me and hanging out with on a regular basis.

I have a love for the process of tying him up. The longer and more elaborate, repeatable, untied and retied the better. More specifically I love materials that contour and hug his body such a wraps, tape, rope, straps, etc. Mummification is cool too.

I also have a fascination with binding and gagging him thoroughly and with multiple layers to a chair and storing him in a closet. Maybe while I eat lunch, run local errands, or just do house chores.

I’m straight too and ideally hoping to find a gay friend who’d like this kind of fun with bonus extras because I think I’d love to watch that. Maybe needless to say my roommate knows about me doing this to him and has no trauma about it as far as I can tell.

If you’re a golfer, even better and we can tie him up and then take off and get to know each other at the range or on the course. That would be my happy place.

Comments

Napoleon – Nov 7, 2022
Porn is the most complicated subject in all of humanity. So many psychological issues both good and bad spring up from it if not taken cautiously.

barefootslimtied (Owner) – Nov 7, 2022
I could use some advice. My pothead roommate watches straight porn all the time. I used to watch a lot of straight porn but I stopped watching it as soon as he and I got into our bondage thing because I would get a feeling like I was almost cheating on him. Now, me and him aren’t emotionally involved at all, but I just hate the fact he watches it. Would it be really wrong if I told him to stop? I probably sound like a really insecure roommate, but it’s just for this and I hate it.

barefootslimtied (Owner) – Nov 1, 2022
At some really rare moments, I think I might be gay, but it’s something so rare that it’s almost a myth.


 

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MassiveBrute, 24
I am looking for anyone who can connect me up with twink ex-porn star Tanner Stark and ideally help facilitate a very violent scene. All I know is he’s currently living either in Phoenix Arizona or somewhere in Canada. I want to severely beat up the little faggot into a complete bloody mess & flog him until every fucking inch of his body is covered in blood & see blood pour out of his holes. Also want to do severe fucking, nipple torture & severe ball torture. I want to break his bones, cut him, stab him, shoot bullets into non-fatal spots on him. For me there would be nothing better then to severely injury him & hearing him scream in the most horrible pain ever would turn me on so fucking much.

Comments

texboy – Nov 22, 2022
Tanner Stark doesn’t look like that anymore but I know where he works. Drop me a line on wickr at e20117.

Discrete_Terminator – Nov 19, 2022
You have excellent taste.

voretentacleguy – Nov 18, 2022
Hello! I make images where monsters rape and torture twink porn stars, then kill them and devour them. Would you be interested in creating stories for me?

pozbbsmoke – Nov 16, 2022
I dropped the best $500 of my life on Tanner Stark about six years ago. I spent all night fucking and filling him up. Then in the morning we went out – had breakfast, went on a hike, a long excursion – the whole time knowing my sperm was swimming inside him. It was like a short French art movie.




 

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letsplaydeadinsocks, 19
19 year old male college student really into necro play and having my white socks worshipped. I’ve always liked playing dead and roleplaying it ever since I was little. If u need someone to play dead for u like a ragdoll and to worship his socks, hit me up!

Comments

Marq58 – Nov 9, 2022
Once he’s “dead” he likes having his ass fingered till he shits.

toodrunktofunk – Nov 4, 2022
Seems really laconic and not into it at first but you will get him hard in a fucking instant if you are good with verbal and call him a corpse and then pile on the adjectives hehe.


 

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namelessbitch, 19
I am an attractive, early-twenties woman deserving of a real man but somehow hooked up with a pathetic, small-dicked teenaged faggot.

I don’t see my boyfriend as a man; it is an object, a thing, a low-life slave that can’t satisfy me. To be honest, I love and admire someone else – a real man – and I look at my worthless boyfriend with disdain. Sometimes I fuck my bitch with a strap-on, but that’s not enough for either of us; I know it is really a disgusting little faggot that craves hard, ruthless cocks in its holes and loads of cum down its throat. And I love to see that.

I love to watch it get raped extremely rough. I love extreme fucked up threats (more fucked up the hotter!!!). This scrawny little fag needs the Worst of the Worst!!!

I don’t mind if I watch in person or if it’s filmed for Me to watch later, but it needs to be raped properly.

It will be delivered to you hooded, cuffed and in chastity, to be used and abused for a predetermined amount of time. You are encouraged to use it roughly – fuck its holes hard and deep, slap it around, call it names, spit on it, make it swallow your piss and cum, and just generally treat it like the worthless piece of shit that it is – but please please hose it down when you are finished so I don’t get a messy car boot transporting it home afterwards.

Safewords:

* Mercy = “Amber”
How to respond: Assess the situation dynamically (no need to stop what you are doing). Continue activity if desired. Apply a gag if you don’t want to hear it keep bitching.

* Sanctuary = “Red”
How to respond: Stop everything. If it notes danger (difficulty breathing, circulation at bondage points, etc), make adjustments, then continue. If it used the safeword to try to weasel out of being used as the degraded fuckmeat that it is, then punish the slave as deserved and continue to use it even harder.

Comments

theruler – Nov 26, 2022
“namelessbitch” has been purchased and retitled with the number 505087 under the following legal framework:
– Employment contract (the remuneration to be paid to theruler so that no money flows)
– General power of attorney as in the case of a guardianship directive
– Written consent to physical and mental abuse and deprivation of liberty of all kinds
– Slave contract with additional content (“Slave Protocol”)
– 100% demolition of previous life (hard cut = social death†)
– Absence of normal bourgeois clothing in any form as a basic condition
– No more contact to previous caregiver (hidden)
– Wallet, keys, ID cards and documents have been handed over to theruler
– All personal belongings including clothing and library have been sold or disposed of
– Current clothing: open crotch, scratchy, thick woolen catsuit with a hood and a down jacket (signal colour) in a shiny look with a hood that covers the buttocks. In addition moon boots without socks, mittens.
– Contracts and accounts (bank, credit cards) are terminated, data deleted, credit transferred to the authorities
– The tax advisor of theruler has taken over the income tax returns
– Email accounts and vanilla social media profiles are deleted, as well as all cloud data

bcozwhynot – Nov 19, 2022
it is a worthless, pathetic fag, lowlife scum, the lowest creature I have seen on Earth 🖤 (I was George Michael’s dealer back in the day.)

namelessbitch (Owner) – Nov 12, 2022
So apparently I’ve been taking too much advantage of living walking distance from a hardcore, with the ability to host, that the traffic in and out of my place of scary looking guys raping the faggot made the neighbors think I was doing something illegal. Cops watched house. They questioned me yesterday with my older brother who’s a well known attorney. And without time to even think about it I had to tell my brother all about it and even show him this account. He thought for a while then explained it to the cops and they closed it out. I ended up have to tell my other brother also. Yeah, that was a lot to reveal.



 

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BeeHive, 19
I’m a trans boy-to-girl (19) I have had a womb implantation in my ass this year and so cumming in my ass could leave me pregnant. I’m not going on the pill so I can be raped. I’m clean with no stds. I’m in the uk and if you want actual location send me a message I’m up for anything even if your poz.

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Blackie – Nov 13, 2022
There have been a very small number of uterus transplantations done worldwide ever, and none implanted in a trans woman. Even then the transplant doesn’t put in any ovaries so you don’t ovulate, so you cannot get pregnant without implantation of already fertalised eggs.

If you’re going to write fiction at least try and make it good.



 

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TreadOnMe, 22
Flatten me. Erase my future.

I’m lookin for a no limits sadist trucker or heavy equipment operator who’d like to find out what it’s like to crush a guy to death by running over him with yer rig. The heavier the equipment, and the bigger its tires, the better. I very seriously want to be run over by a massive truck (see the CAT 797F haul trucks used in mines for my ideal) driven by a brutal twisted drug-fueled beastdemon, and feel as my life is slowly crushed out of me under its huge tires. I want to flatten myself under yer truck and I want to die.

I’ve seen photos of guys who’ve been crushed under military tanks, smashed under 50,000 or so pounds of rolling iron, and what was left of them resembled nothing more than a long streak of flattened hamburger. On the morning of July 8, 2008, Kevin Grocutt, a 19-year old diesel mechanic working in Alberta, Canada, died, and in so doing became my greatest hero. Kevin Grocutt was crushed under three-to-five times that weight. I’ve never managed to find any pictures of his corpse, but I imagine that when the tire rolled off of him, he was not much more than a streak of wet crimson pulp mashed against the hard dirt road. The weight wouldn’t have just flattened Kevin, it would’ve fucking obliterated him. It would’ve reduced him to a grease stain, and there was likely just as much of Kevin smeared onto the surface of the tire that had killed him as there was of him splashed across the ground like thick glistening marinara. The deep tread of the tire would’ve been packed with Kevin mush. They’d have had to scrape him from the dirt and shovel him one sloppy scoop at a time into his body bag (imagine a giant ziplock bag full of tomato soup). They’d have had to spray the pulped remains of Kevin clottting the tire’s tread with high pressure hoses to avoid the stink of him rotting in the summer heat. Whatever he looked like, he was very, very dead, his life mashed from him forever.

I want to die like Kevin Grocutt. With every fiber of my being, I want to experience what Kevin felt as he died. I am very serious. I want to be crushed to death under a truck so massive and heavy it literally pancakes me against the road in a single pass.

I want to die filled with joy and bottomless love for you and yer truck for giving me what I’ve craved since I was five years old: I want to be flat and dead; I can’t wait to be flat and dead. I’m gonna be flat and dead forever, and I’m going to love every fucking second of being dead.




 

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krypple, 18
Hey I’m William or Will (what ever you prefer) I’m am a foot fag I will worship any man’s feet tots. Scape dead skin off ur foot cut ur nails with my teeth and eat it etc any toe fluff I will clean ur feet completely if u can drive since due to my medical conditions I can’t.

Comments

krypple (Owner) – Nov 11, 2022
I’m from Blackburn, hope you don’t mind my accent (the worst lol).

krypple (Owner) – Nov 9, 2022
Sometimes when I’m depressed I draw myself committing suicide, figured some of you sick fucks will like it.

krypple (Owner) – Nov 6, 2022
I have nerve damage in my spine. My head still works it’s just my body from the chest down and my breathing that are fucked!

 

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idontknowdude, 19
I’m just outta prison. Two guys in prison have put a hit on me. I need a place to hide longterm. I’m straight but the guys in prison sure liked me so I think you will.

I don’t smoke. I never completed my high school, my GPA was 1.5. I have not taken college class. I grew up with my grandma. I’ll accept anything that entails rape.

Comments

idontknowdude (Owner) – Nov 20, 2022
I’m not trusting anyone anywhere anymore.
Please ********** and ***** don’t kill me 🙏🏼

I’m
I’m
I’m

😓

 

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Meatbeast, 23
I’m selling this high quality meat for $75,000.
I’ve kept it as my beast for over a year and made it into the animal it now is. But it needs more and I have other fish to fry.
It needs no other life except one of total enslavement, obedience, objectification and pain.
It’s able to withstand intense punishments for long periods. Gut punches, flogging, beaten and degraded fully.
As your slave, it will bring you intense pleasure as you use its body in all ways. As your sex slave, it needs to understand it is just a piece of meat to be enjoyed.
It has been used and brutalised in large groups sessions and has been handled roughly by more than 100 men.
It has become a truly mindless animal.
I would recommend castration, limb shortening, and vocal chord modifications to give it full animal status.
USA relocation only as it has a bad heart so it can’t fly.

Comments

Meatbeast (Owner) – Nov 17, 2022
Naturally. He’s also had three heart attacks, and medical records for them can be provided as well.

YourGayestNightmare – Nov 17, 2022
I assume you can provide medical records establishing his “bad heart”.



 

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damnedsoul, 19
I have a cute friend that’s super drug addicted and his brain is fried. He takes really strong drugs like meth, crack, heroin, …… He…….. he doesn’t have a hold on reality anymore. His brain is already fried and he’s only nineteen. He gets raped all the time. I really care about him, and it KILLS me to see him like this. I’m worried he’s going to die and I just can’t go through another death right now…… Watching all your friends die is painful…. well to me at least….. PLEASE HELP!!!!

Comments

damnedsoul (Owner) – Nov 15, 2022
I doubt it will work, he is like a small child now his brain is so fried. I’m not sure if that’s bad or not…… *bites nails*

BuildDifferent – Nov 15, 2022
i’m sorry. sit him down and tell him how you feel about it and that what he’s doing is hurting him.

damnedsoul (Owner) – Nov 15, 2022
His brain is ALREADY fried.

Zappy! – Nov 15, 2022
You could try an intervention with his family get him on methadone or something.

damnedsoul (Owner) – Nov 15, 2022
A few days ago he was smoking meth with his “friend” and when they were really high, his friend raped him and stabbed him. Turns out he had collapsed a lung, and the doctors literally said that if it wasn’t for the drugs he was on his heart would have stopped. It was so hard seeing him in the hospital, looking dead already.



 

 

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p.s. Hey. Alert: I seem to have come down with an ugh head cold so vagueness and lack of volume may ensue. ** _Black_Acrylic, Wow, edgy, man. Very nice. ** Dominik, Hi!!! Cool about the good timing. ‘A pain in the ass’ is one of those saying where it’s, like, … and that’s a bad thing? Since I think you’re into serial killer stuff, you might be interested in this new doc about the Freeway Killer William Bonin. It’s hardly a great doc, but it’s very watchable. It’s called ‘The Freeway Killer: The Lost Murder Tapes’, and you can watch it for free on soap2day if you use that site. I think you’d need to have a pretty fancy car to afford that first edition? Love scape dead skin off ur foot cut ur nails with his teeth and eat it etc any toe fluff he will clean ur feet completely if u can drive since due to his medical conditions he can’t, G. ** AUTUMN GLINT, Hi. Irene Cara meant a lot more to people than I ever imagined she did. I will take your recommendation of ‘Assault’ under advisement. ** David Ehrenstein, Is that Fassbinder script readable anywhere? ** malcolm, Oh, man, from what I remember of them, those dreams are really not fun. And, oh, to have dreams like you do would be unimaginably sweet. Sorry about the b’day mixup. Happy b’day belatedly to mysterious Jack then. So, maybe a stupid question but … why not send out a feeler to this Jack and see if you guys can reconnect? I think it’s only my head cold that makes me think that’s a feasible idea. I’ve thought about trying to write down my dreams in that moment when I wake up and still remember a bit of them, but I’m one of those people who can’t think basically at all upon awakening until I’ve had a cup of coffee. I remember waking up and then just lying in bed all day writing up a storm, but, again, that was before I got addicted to coffee. Enjoy, or I guess I mean enjoy retroactively by now, in other words, pal. ** Gick, Did I? Cool. I really and truly can tell you that there will never be enough people reading my books for them to go mainstream. Happily. Um, here are two copies of ‘ToW’ for $125 and $150. And here are two copies for $150 and $203.99. The cover is a photo by Jack Shear of me in my bedroom standing beside photos of my three heroes of the time: Bresson, Rimbaud, and Robert Piest. I think you have to just get used to the fact that you can’t control how your work is categorised. I used to get pissed off at the ‘gay writer’ or ‘transgressive writer’ tags, but then I realised I have zero control over such things and that it doesn’t matter ultimately. I don’t think people hear those tags as solidly as we writers who’ve been tagged feel them. Or something. It’ll pass. The more work you have in the world, and the more known it becomes, the more your work and you will be treated as individuals. I say that as someone who suffered through years the beginning of being ‘the new Burroughs’ and ‘the gay bad boy’ and shit like that. I used like coke a fair amount. I knew was a dumb drug, but I did really enjoy it back in the 80s. I don’t drugs drugs anymore, but my drug of choice by a mile was hallucinogens, LSD and so on. MDMA was lovely. ** Ian, Right? Even though I don’t do drugs anymore, coke is the only drug where I think if someone offered me a toot, I’d probably take it. Thank you so much for your great words about ‘MLT’. What you say is really wise, and I’m very honored. It was written in response mostly to the media coverage of that wave of high school shootings which I found infuriatingly generalising and disrespectful of teens in general. It was specifically inspired by the confession of one of the shooters, Kip Kinkel. There’s a recording of his confession that I thought was one of the most beautiful and emotionally powerful things I’d heard, and his voice and way of speaking and his inability to speak coherently about what he’d done was a massive influence on the voice I used in the novel. Anyway, thank you so much. How are you today? Are you working on writing? ** Robert, Hi. Enjoy the clarity. My brain is full of haze and phlegm at the moment, so I envy you. A restaurant in LA used to offer this vegan turkey at Thanksgiving time that was false meat packed around a plastic turkey skeleton, and it freaked me out, but it tasted very good. No, I don’t know anything really about Benjamin F. Perkins. I just found that thing in the post in my searching and the accompany caption, and that’s it. But, yes, curious indeed. ** Tea, True, it doesn’t sound like coke would be your metier. All for the best: it’s a dumbass money gobbling thing. ** Christian, Hi, Christian. Welcome! Yes, I have read ‘Novel with Cocaine’. It’s been ages since I did, but I liked it a lot. People used to think Ageyev was a pseudonym for Nabokov, but I think that got disproven. I personally am very intrigued by your idea for a story based on that online support group. It seems packed with potentiality. Are you writing it? I’m generally not interested in bullying and things like that in my stuff. I like creating worlds where everyone has all kinds of problems with each other but they’re pretty repressed and mostly kind of self-indicting more than aggressive. Or filtered through sexual acts that are technically aggressive but are intended as a kind of excessive studiousness. Or something. I have a bad head cold, and my cogency is suffering. Except for in my novel ‘My Loose Thread’. That has considerable bullying in it, now that I think about it. Anyway, what’s going on with you and yours? ** Okay. The slaves are back to remind you that it’s time to pay your rent. See you tomorrow.

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