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Paletwink, 18
Hello, I’ve developed this fear of men and that they could overpower and rape me, I don’t really know why but it is a rather recent development. Whilst I am afraid of it I can’t help but to be aroused by my own fear, receiving rape threats is a both incredibly exhilarating and terrifying experience for me for whatever reason. Even if it is very irrational to believe someone on the Internet when they say that they know where I live and that they will rape me I’m still scared and aroused by it nonetheless. So if you would be interested in talking about raping me I would be delighted and if you do reach out please do not show any restraint when writing. If you’ve read this and find what I write disturbing and you wish to reach out or try to talk to me about it rationally; do not, I will not reply.
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Paletwink (Owner) – Feb 22, 2024
No one has ever described me as “wild.”
jumpercable – Feb 22, 2024
Call me old school but the only rapey thing about fucking him was that he hadn’t douched. Rape victims don’t have rock hard little cocks and shoot so much cum in their rapist’s mouths that I practically choked.
charlieorcharles – Feb 18, 2024
Very nervous boy – but worth it.
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hypnoready, 24
I am very interested in being fully brainwashed and rewritten from scratch. I am ready to be taken away from Berlin without knowing where I am and go blank, robotic and servantile and give mindless obedience to you and learn what I will do while I am under. I hate anal sex, but I understand it’s not something a brainwashed me will refuse. Right now I feel really uncomfortable during it.
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hypnoready (Owner) – Feb 16, 2024
Ugh, I’m a headless torso now. I’ve become that which I hate the most. Sorry.
ItsMeWes – Feb 13, 2024
Vršac, Serbia 02/16/24 3:15AM
Tabimii – Feb 10, 2024
Young Sadistic Master changing the world, I’m here to make your dream come true, I take no bulshit because strictness is my way and humiliation is my water, torture is my walking path since abuse is my walking stick, that makes this Master’s life easier and not harder like that pathetic shrimp of yours probably is right now.
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RIPIslamUtsumiev, 24
He was forced to watch two of his gang member friends beheaded knowing in just a few minutes he would be joining them. He was given a high dose of a drug called Klonopin (Clonazepam). This lessened his anxiety and put him into a stupor which made the process easier to carry out. With the first two they cut the boys’ throats then kept sawing until their heads were free. When it was his turn they tilted his head forward and sawed his head off starting at the back of his neck.
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fireballpsycho – Feb 20, 2024
I honestly don’t know why these gangs persistently choose to use such inadequate knives for such a task. Talk about making it unnecessarily difficult for yourself – you can get battery-powered saws with long oscillating blades quite cheaply nowadays. For example, the EXL262 with battery and charger. £60 from B&Q.
TogetherWeCan – Feb 20, 2024
IN REMEMBRANCE OF MY BOY ISLAM, MURDERED AFTER HOMOPHOBE ATTITUDE OF HIS GANG, MISS YOU SO HARD – HE WAS AN OUTLAW, PARIA – always on my dick, my best fuck.
GetYourShitTogether – Feb 20, 2024
Islam was kind of a creepy kid, oh yeah and he was absolutely unhinged.
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femboyonabadtrip, 19
I am so weak. Look at me. My cock is weak. Viagra can not help. How can I satisfy my girlfriend. She deserves better than me. She deserves a big cock. All girls should have big cocks cum inside them. Betraying my gender is my destiny.
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UseU4Infinity – Feb 17, 2024
Update: My current goal (in addition to the below) is to get inside his head and permanently rewire his entire being, for the sole (and soul) purpose of molding his existence into an anything and everything I need it to be. That preferable boy is somewhere in there. The goal is to find him.
UseU4Infinity – Feb 2, 2024
At first I had my concerns about whether I could take advantage of such a sad, gentle boy, but I have made him my permanent sex slave. I torture and rape him daily. I starve him. He is always exhausted. I make him fear for his life. He wonders if each day will be his last. It’s very nice!
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NeedUHot, 19
I have NOTHING! Let’s state that upfront, so that there’s no misunderstandings. When I say nothing; I mean money, a car, a place to live! Nothing! My hope is to find someone or a couple even to teach me how to simply let go and embrace my dark and twisted side. I fight with it daily and it has won, but since I fought it for so long; I don’t think the dark side wants me anymore! I’ve digested that and need help to live the best of what’s left of me. Judge me, at this point, I no longer give af; this is who tf I am!
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PyeTheAmazing – Feb 8, 2024
Thank you to your mother for providing us with you.
NeedUHot (Owner) – Feb 8, 2024
I am currently chastity caged since January 18, 2024, without end; constantly shackled in a dirty, oversized prison-issued jumpsuit and leg irons connected to waist handcuffs; 24/7 cameras surveillance everywhere in my apartment; tracked 24/7 by an ankle monitor. I’m told that sex with me is great.
FlyingFF91 – Jan 27, 2024
He’s making good progress, but he could use some help destroying his cunt and making it useless.
ZackTheGhost – Jan 22, 2024
My only time with him I slapped the fuck out of him, milked him until his balls were dust bowls, sent him home bruised up without his keys.
NeedUHot (Owner) – Jan 17, 2024
Every morning I lay down in the shower and piss on myself. Working on trying to get used to piss play. Always trying to improve myself.
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postmodernist, 23
I’ve always had a wish to have a limb removed. Preferably one of my legs. My fantasy is that I find a doctor who agrees to amputate my perfectly healthy leg. I want it either removed at the knee or ideally the hip.
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DYKFrankSinatra – Feb 9, 2024
He’s now a lower leg amputee on the left side, and I’m happy to offer fetishists access to his stump and, if you like, his right foot.
postmodernist (Owner) – Jan 21, 2024
That’s interesting, I’m an artist too. Here’s one of my paintings.
DYKFrankSinatra – Jan 21, 2024
I’m an artist looking for inspiration and I want your limb. I genuinely believe it also can be a great way to get to know you personally.
baddog – Jan 19, 2024
Just so you’re aware, in the UK you would probably be denied disability allowance on the grounds that it was elective rather than medically advised.
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NoMoreFreedom, 19
I REALLY HATE FREEDOM. I hate being able to do what I want when I want. It’s not nice to decide everything by myself. That does not feel right for me. I get so envious of the hundreds of photos and videos I see of boys in captivity, prisoners of men who decide everything they do, when they sleep, how they sleep, what they eat, when they eat it, and how they eat it.
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ktopper – Feb 20, 2024
This is sad. I am 71, I came of age sexually in the late ’60s, the height of the “sexual revolution.” Almost everyone was getting laid but we really liked each other and everyone was loyal and we all partied together. The cops were pricks but they weren’t just randomly shooting citizens. It is so different now. I hope things change.
Sharp-edge – Feb 20, 2024
I tried to date this boy for a while. He’s what I’d call a sex zombie. He’d want me to meet him right this instant. No matter if it’s snowing, if it’s 3am, if you tell them you’re sick in bed, no he didn’t care. I had to meet them. And as soon as I’d unloaded in him he was already searching for the next fuck on his phone. His Instagram is full of naked photos and his Twitter’s an assembly line of selfie porn and he has an onlyfans. All of which is to say, I don’t buy it.
MeatHead – Feb 20, 2024
The thought of you being at the mercy of someone like me who is a total stranger makes me as horny as a dog in heat.
fireman – Feb 17, 2024
I had him stick his tongue out then used that to clean my kitchen.
Ambrose7 – Feb 14, 2024
He’s obviously kinda overly into this so make sure you have a place where no one gets disturbed because he makes a hell of a lot of noise.
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Petitboyscout, 21
Love to beat the living shit out of my boyfriend for my pleasure! Love that he lets me fuck him up, wearing stuff I like.
Before he met me he was a lazy, unambitious local boy who couldn’t hold a job. His only friends were some older pervs who beat him up for cash that kept him at a doable poverty level.
I will post some video on watchfighters.com come and have a look! The first video with my BF is really great: him beaten up, bloody lips and nose, kicks, balls busted, his wails and my grunts! Everything’s that’ll make you cum!
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2tmx – Feb 9, 2024
You’re doing him a favor.
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Sn*ffMe0LimitBoyFood, 22
0 limits -> longpig boy dreaming of the day I serve my purpose, hoping to find the right hungry guy who will torture and sn*ff me irl and serve me for dinner, if that’s you tell me when and where and i should be really tasty🥩.
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Albert920 – Feb 11, 2024
Please mean all what you say.
CloudyEater – Feb 9, 2024
Cannibalism is just another form of art it’s like Painting or Drawing and cloudy buttocks are my favorite, is all in your mind Drama can rocket your sex life into another dimension I’m looking to get your buttocks high and eat them.
Sn*ffMe0LimitBoyFood (Owner) – Feb 5, 2024
I look like 16.
MrGDP – Feb 5, 2024
When you’re over 21, don’t be pathetic and still call yourself a boy, the boy in you died a long time ago, be a man, or get surgery to have it taken off.
Sn*ffMe0LimitBoyFood (Owner) – Feb 3, 2024
Look close that cum in my ass is from an 90 year old man.
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TheSensitivePatient, 24
I’m a TS Dom whose hot obedient boyfriend has mild autism and intense anxiety. I’m not that superficial, but right now I’m just looking to have him used hard without much hassle or much trouble 😇😈
We don’t have a place❌️, unless you live very close and it’s very late at night✅️
You or I or we can do any type of madness❄️🌬️🧪, without limits 😏 as long as there’s no fucking drama🥷
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TheSensitivePatient (Owner) – Feb 18, 2024
I consider myself a very nasty TS, but after a few weeks of doing this, I have to say you cis gay guys have the most evil ideas and best weaponry and the most sick twisted ways to fuck a boy up. My boyfriend is literally falling apart.
Afterparty – Feb 12, 2024
Came with his transsexual girlfriend. seemed totally ashamed to be there and didn’t say a word but did everything his gf made him do. You could really tell that he isn’t into guys, but when I sat my ass on his face and made him eat it while she strangled him his cock got so hard it could’ve cracked a peanut… just FYI 👀
R1cky – Feb 6, 2024
His gf and I put vice grips on his nips and sent strong electric jolts through them and she hates safe words so there ya go.
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CockCavern, 18
I got drugged and raped at a mall and no one helped.
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darkroomsuck – Feb 9, 2024
You are the ragdoll of my dreams.
CockCavern (Owner) – Feb 2, 2024
I am still not sure if I’m straight or not.
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9thtry, 18
Closeted about my obsession with going to a barbershop late night after hours to get my hair cut then to be tied to the chair, blind folded and gagged and milked until I’m screaming and shooting blanks.
Life’s not going amazing so want to escape reality a bit, just disappear for a little.
Feel free to make a mistake or two.
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DatMouthDo – Feb 13, 2024
Before this boy specified his thing to barber chairs I got caught with him once in an apartment I lived in, and I had to move out. No kidding. I tied him spread eagle to the bed. I was using a longer piece of rope for his wrists so that I could wrap the rope around his neck to prevent him from raising his head or reaching his wrist to untie the rope. It didn’t go well. I left him there to run a quick errand and he started strangling and he couldn’t get out and had to beat on the wall to get my neighbor to come over there and cut the rope loose. If I had moved the bed any further from the wall, I would have come home to a corpse. True story.
9thtry (Owner) – Feb 10, 2024
I humbly request that you kiss and cuddle me afterwards if you were satisfied.
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Packed4Shipping, 19
At a point in my life where I want to experience one or more extreme scenarios described below. I have nothing to lose and can walk away from my current life.
* Being packed into a crate and shipped as freight.
* Having my fingerprints, photos, etc swapped into a prison database and serving another man’s time. I know a prison official who can arrange this.
* Getting fucked in a FedEx or UPS van by the driver— preferably after I’m taped up with a shipping label slapped on my face.
* Submitting to a slave broker and being sold to an overseas owner to spend the remainder of my brief (I assume) life.
* Being conscripted into a foreign military.
* Spending a night bound and gagged inside a trash bin at the curb, then either hauled out just as the trash truck is nearing my bin or not.
* Being buried alive in dirt or in a coffin.
* Being encased in plaster then submerged fully in mud.
* Being forced to live out my life in a cage in an abandoned warehouse.
* Being used snuffed on video and then having that video posted online.
* Having my left arm surgically amputated below the elbow.
* Having my cock and balls completely removed.
* Having my mouth permanently sealed shut with only grommets at each end of my mouth, providing enough of a gap for breathing and sucking liquids through a straw.
I currently live in Raleigh, NC, but my parents are talking about moving the family to southern Illinois, outside of St Louis.
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Packed4Shipping (Owner) – Feb 8, 2024
All the things that matter don’t.
masterfoxq – Feb 8, 2024
Would need to trust you and not feel like I’m going to get arrested for dumping your corpse down a back road.
Packed4Shipping (Owner) – Feb 7, 2024
I’m highly responsive to hypnotism and mind control due to Childhood-onset Stockholm Syndrome. I did a lot in my life 😭!
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DeadMeat, 19
Dirty fuck slam pig twink. Message me if you are interested in owning this chunk of meat. I won’t cost you a dime and you can use my body non stop until I’m busted up. Or you can stuff me in a trunk and drive me out to your cabin in the woods and 𓍯 or 🔪 or 🎻 or 😵 but that comes with a price tag.
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Hangers13 – Feb 21, 2024
Honest truth, I killed him about three weeks ago. I just got curious about what I might’ve done differently.
billyj44 – Feb 21, 2024
Wow – big question. So many things to do. Where to start? Probably a few days of rape to begin with. Then … hm … castration, penectomy… and probably beheading to finish it off. But the real question is what’re you gonna do with it.
PunkFuckSlamPig (Owner) – Feb 21, 2024
He is 25 years old (not 19). He’s from Ireland. He is separated from his older husband with zero intention on going back. The only reason he is still married to him is because the husband pays for his health insurance. He does have family, but they do not know that he is a part of the BDSM community. He is currently unemployed, was an assistant an at Acute psychiatric unit. Given a choice, he likes music and you’d find him listening to anything from Rammstein Lacuna Coil Eden Bridge to Elton John, all the way to dark Gothic instrumentals. He identifies as asexual. That enough?
Gayyyyyyyy2025 – Feb 21, 2024
I think I’d need to know more about him before deciding.
Hangers13 – Feb 21, 2024
OK, I’ve got him isolated and disappeared over here. What would you do with him?
DeadMeat (Owner) – Jan 24, 2024
The universe is full of stars, nothing out there, it all looks the same.
GallowsHemp – Jan 20, 2024
It will be so beautiful when he dies. Let’s all enjoy it instead of trying to stop it.
Hangers13 – Jan 17, 2024
I like you too much to lose the opportunity to be the one to finish you off. Seriously, you’re the best one. I’ve seen a lot of wannabe dead boys, but there’s no other as amazing as you.
WonderfulDeaths – Jan 11, 2024
I love you so much. You are right. No need to be careful. This is your happiness. Enjoy it to the max. It will be perfect.
DeadMeat (Owner) – Jan 11, 2024
Don’t tell me to be careful, because I won’t be.
WonderfulDeaths – Jan 11, 2024
Put a big mirror in front of you so you can watch yourself die. I hope your body isn’t found for a few weeks.
NoName0401 – Jan 11, 2024
Your comment is magical. If this is really how you play then you will definitely die on the noose😍. It will be so sexy. Cannot even begin to imagine your cute body becoming food for maggots.
DeadMeat – Jan 11, 2024
I’m getting impatient. I like to hang myself and I might just go all the way. I could go at any time. I am starting to bind my hands as well as my legs when I hang, it’s extremely deadly. I also have been drinking and drugs before hanging. Next time I’m gonna hang myself while on acid, coke and mdma. That should do it.
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makemehurt, 19
I’m really into seriously lowering my sperm count through ball punching, kicking, stomping, etc
Alcohol and a few pills
I’m mostly here to get bruised up but you can rape me when I’m wiped
I also take requests
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CRUX – Feb 15, 2024
I’d love to know how you clean your nose? Are you a snot Shooter, a hankey blower or a nose picker? The reason I ask is because I have a snot fetish, I know it’s weird but there are worse things. I like having it on my face then shift gears up a notch and get it in my mouth. If your snot isn’t available, I’ll think of something else.
makemehurt (Owner) – Feb 7, 2024
Keep your dick 10″ or under please.
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Elliot&Kev, 18
We are 2 young gays, very in love but very slutty, submissive and both addicted to pain. We are unable to cum without being in excruciating pain.
We dream of giving ourselves completely, together, as definitive slaves with no return to a sadistic master willing to give us the level of pain that we need, which is proving harder than we thought.
We were trained to become darker and darker and serve evil by MasterKEVIN and we are in the last process of this. We recommend Him.
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Elliot&Kev (Owner) – Feb 23, 2024
Already owned but still looking for abusers. Master said it’s OK.
Elliot&Kev (Owner) – Feb 21, 2024
Men who do not want to make us suffer have no chance and we are NOT tempted towards vanilla by any financial incentive, you can be fucking Jeff Bezos and we will still decline.
MasterKEVIN – Feb 16, 2024
Impossible not to bone when they’re suffering in pain.
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BubblingRiver, 22
Hi everyone, I just need to get something off my chest. I’ve become completely obsessed with the fantasy of getting my slave (see: photos) pregnant, giving him a big pregnant belly and swollen breasts full of milk, etc. To the point where I’ve stopped beating and torturing him which I loved doing but mean nothing to me now. I even had my fertility tested and discovered that I have a sperm count on the very high end of the normal scale, plus I tend to shoot big loads. The other day I popped a Cialis and came in him six times over the course of a night, once more the next morning and three more times in the course of the next day. 10 loads in 24 hours. I’m absolutely desperate to fill him with my DNA and watch his belly grow and body change with my baby inside him. Just the thought of dressing my pregnant slave up in maternity woman’s clothes makes my cock instantly hard. To nurse the milk from his swollen breasts and sink the cock that got him pregnant back inside him and knock him up again. The worst part is my slave is into it too. We talk all the time how the babies would all be gay boys who let me fuck them. We even decided we’d name the first boy Scotty Jr. because Scott was my slave’s name back when he was a free floating slut. God, I love that pig. Shit, I have to go fuck him now. Thanks for listening.
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Kyle – Feb 19, 2024
why he look like he need a punch in the face
Riotboi81 – Feb 16, 2024
I used to know your slave and if he was a girl, he’d have had 80 abortions by now and no clue who any of the daddies were.
ineedtightassespls – Feb 8, 2024
This is similar to my thing for infecting twinks’ cunts with poz babies that never come out – they just grow up corrupting the host’s body and mind from inside until the twink’s dead.
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Leon0000, 20
Hello, I’m Leon, I’m 1.75 m tall Dutch guy, I have brown hair, my eye color is gray.
Last year I met a very wasted old guy. Extremely gaunt face, not attractive at all, like a skeleton wearing clothes. He looked so sick he should have been in a hospice ward. I was so turned on!!! He rimmed my ass and wanted to breed me. I really wanted him to. After that, I was at his place all the time taking loads from him until he died.
Since then I love getting bred by aids wasting old men. But they are very hard to find. I’m very turned on by ugly old dying trolls. I’m always looking for ugly, gross, disgusting wasted trolls who’re bad at sex and let them use my ass as they like. And after I cum, because I’m so turned by letting these disgusting walking dead take advantage of me, I let them continue to use me even though I’ve cum and am not in the mood anymore.
Otherwise I love sushi and raw meat. I play tennis, sail, was in the Boy Scouts, and volunteer at church. I like to gamble and I get cold very quickly. I also have very good self-control and I rarely have any emotions. I have university classes from 8 a.m. to 5 p.m
I can also just suck you off or something.
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dirtyfucker – Feb 19, 2024
Has anyone in the universe ever fucked this guy when he wasn’t tweaked out on the phone looking for more meth?
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Take_my_breath_away😝, 22
Looking for a Bully to extreme wedgie me and wrap my underpants tight around my neck until I’m unconscious and then sit on my senseless face for hours taking photos. If you want to tie my underpants around the moon, send me a message.
I like to have experiences I severely regret in the moment, having the life drained out of me in service of yours. What gets me off comes afterwards, looking at the photos and thinking back on what I endured.
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Take_my_breath_away😝 (Owner) – Feb 13, 2024
Idrk
SBL123 – Feb 13, 2024
Holy shit, I enjoyed doing that! Thank you. I hope you did too.
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Yourdreamcometrue, 19
my possibilities are endless
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peteranderson – Feb 9, 2024
If like me you don’t want to cut his throat he is the last real slutty slut, body and soul made by pure truth, fairness, equality, pee and semen and he can put his legs behind his neck.
MushroomHead – Feb 7, 2024
Please let him decide when he wants his throat cut and who he wants to cut it. I just wrote to him and asked and he responded with a maybe quickly and politely.
Yourdreamcometrue (Owner) – Feb 7, 2024
so first of all ask me nicely then we’ll see before you talk any shit here secondly I won’t let myself be called a fake because i don’t want you to cut my throat you obnoxious guy don’t talk like that
StoicOtterjock – Feb 7, 2024
Shows a foto with his throat cut and immediately becomes unfriendly and insulting when you say you want to cut his throat…..don’t fuck with us!
Yourdreamcometrue (Owner) – Feb 7, 2024
fake HAHAHHAHAH why am I fake you have no sense of humor your father is fake don’t fuck with me
Dostoyevsky – Feb 7, 2024
Endless my ass. False advertising. Fake!
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xieyuteng, 18
Slave is now in New York (from 3 days), visit familly (father), slave is from China, but slave is legaly in US now and can stay (ilegaly) for life.
Slave is 100% gay never slept or kiss with women. Slave has had 19 mens, 2 of them was Masters, one long term with living (released due to Master sicknes).
Slave looking for Master who is:
– much older Master (min +55)
– very very sadistics
– looking for 24/7 (TPE)
– im 15yo (hope that’s your bag)
– with a dungeon with lot of bdsm equipment
– can hide ilegall slave from police
– who like share his slave
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wetdolphin – Feb 21, 2024
Short, bossy, pissed off and loose.
Mmmmchef – Feb 18, 2024
I’m looking for an Asian boy that wants to marry, have kids & family.
if you do not want kids, we are not a match.
If you come off straight at all, we are not a match.
If you are a day over 18, we are not a match.
if you won’t have tons of sex, we are not a match.
Yield – Feb 16, 2024
Ok scrapped my original long ass comment. I won’t write a novel. Here’s the basics. He will do WHATEVER you want.
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p.s. Hey. ** Dominik, Hi!!! They’re definitely better in the mind. Thanks, yeah, the ghost, harmless as he is, is being a total brat. We start giving him a personality tomorrow. Or trying. Even just a giant sized toothpaste tube would be fine. I know those power naps. Sweet/yuck. If like me you don’t want to cut love’s throat he is the last real slutty slut, body and soul made by pure truth, fairness, equality, pee and semen and he can put his legs behind his neck, G. ** Misanthrope, Wise choice. I’m sure I’ve told you I told you that when I was an extremely little kid I walked into our living room one time and Pat and Nixon were sitting on our couch having cocktails with my parents. A house without secret tunnels is like a tree without roots. ** _Black_Acrylic, MUBI’s great, but their stated archive is often not available. They have ‘Permanent Green Light’, but it hasn’t been watchable there for years now. ‘The cinematic world is a complicated place!’ Dude, that is so extremely true! ** PL, Hi. I just restored an upcoming old post about Janie Geiser, an experimental filmmaker who does animation. Do you know her stuff? It’s pretty great, I think. I love old American B-Horror movies, yeah. I grew up on a steady diet of them. I don’t know ‘The Leopard Man’, but I love the others you mentioned. I’ve done a number of posts about B-movie horror directors, but I’m rushing out the door, so I’ll have to hunt them down later. Laika wanted to make a film of one of my novels, ‘God Jr.’, and they owned the rights for about five years, but it was intended to be their first live action + animated film, and they couldn’t figure out how to do that right, so they gave up sadly. No, I don’t know ‘Demonlover’. I’ve only seen, I think, three Assayas films, and the only one I liked was ‘Irma Vep’, but I’ll try to find that one. Cool, thank you, sir! ** Otto, Hi. I’ll watch/listen to that Gregory & The Hawk video when I get home later ‘cos I’m about to zoom out the door. I like folky stuff, but I guess the more weird things? I like some of the 60s era folkies like Buffy Sainte Marie, Loudon Wainwright, Tim Buckley, etc. I like Sebadoh/Sentridoh’s folky stuff. I loved the first Iron and Wine album, ‘The Creek Drank the Cradle’, but I didn’t like his stuff after that so much. I like some instrumental acoustic music like John Fahey. So I guess I do. Other recommendations? Thanks a bunch. I hope all’s swell with you. ** Bill, Right, I remember you’re a Clipson fan. When Zac and I were inn SF to show ‘Like Cattle Towards Glow’ at the Cinematheque, he gave us a private behind the scenes tour of SF MoMA. He was super nice. Is the Link holding up? ** Steve Erickson, Wow, thank you for the link! I’ll jump in there tonight if I’m not too burnt out from the editing. Okay, yeah, that makes total sense about the allure of the Santos bio, of course. ** 🧸Guy, Hey. Zac and I were last in Japan about, gosh, six years ago maybe? September is a target date for our next trip there too. I haven’t checked the flight prices yet. Probably not bargains. I would guess that passage would be in ‘The Sluts’. I haven’t revisited that tome in years. I would be a terrible Master. I’m way too much of an empath. That’s one of the reasons I’ve never wanted to be a teacher or professor. I’d end up getting too involved in wanting to help the students. Objectification fascinates me, obviously, but I have a really hard time objectifying people in the real. So I’d be running away from your slave in the opposite direction, if I was lucky. I’m still toasted but I’m kind of a refreshed toasted guy for the moment. Thank you! ** seb🦠, Hi. Oh, you didn’t miss it. Blog posts are eternal. So sorry about the migraines. I don’t get them, but I have close friends who do, and it’s a horror even to hear about. I haven’t checked out Ezra Blake’s stuff yet because almost literally nothing but the film is occupying me at the moment, but I plan to. It’s still in the cards. How about some godspeed your way via a nice Reiki healing session. ** Justin, Agreed, for sure. Heck, I even miss CDs. Hm, see, I wouldn’t say an approach to the past that rewrites it qualifies as nostalgia in my sense of the term. I mean that phenomenon that happens to so, so many people as they get older where start delegating their passion and interest towards things in the past that made them excited or moved or whatever when young — familiar things, in other words — while ceasing to seek out things in the present to make them feel that powerfully in a new and unforeseen way. Something like that. The ‘good old days’, the ‘they don’t make them like they used to’ nonsense, etc. That kind of mindset. Still a ‘Poor Things’ virgin over here, but not for too much longer. Thanks about the ghost. We need it. ** Darby 🏋️♂️💉, Now that’s a curious couple right there. So … that’s good about the exiting of the mom’s place, no? Isn’t it? Cool about the testosterone. I bet it’ll induce happiness, or help to, ere long. 151 pages is very good! I’ve written at least two novels that aren’t even that long. The undone things will get done, don’t worry, or else they didn’t need to get done. Time feels comfortable by your side, I think. After a while crocodile. ** Uday, Me too. I mean I don’t understand them either. The survivalist mindset set. Fuck, about your hand. And your phone. Yikes. Maybe tiptoe until further notice? Hugs. ** Okay. I can’t believe it’s last day of the month, but apparently it is. The slaves will see you now. But I will see you tomorrow.
Good morning Dennis! Thanks for your reply. Of course you blurbed the US edition for Babyfucker. I should have known. Re: Pasolini, I also read his poetry above anything else. I went to see the monument for him, erected on the site where he was murdered here in Ostia near Rome. Went there twice, to just spend some time there and be all sappy and read his poetry near the place where he died. Still can’t believe he came to such a violent end, to the point where he was barely recognizable and limbs were nearly severed. Such a shame. Do you have a favorite PPP poem?
It’s my last day in Rome, flying home to Belgium tomorrow, back to Reality or whatever approximates it. I’m not very happy about the volume of my writing here. It took most of the residency just to figure out that what I had written in the first week was nothing more than “getting started” on the ideas that I detailed in a previous comment. But when you say it took you twenty years to figure out how to do the GM-cycle, then I still have long ways to go. I spent 5 years on my first book of poetry, then another 5 on the second. I need to find a way, a method, that allows me to enormously up my productivity without compromising on ideas or constructs. Is that silly? Is that just a Young Writer Thing that eventually settles into something resembling confidence?
I re-read your “Try” here in Rome, finished it yesterday on a bench near the house where Pasolini first lived in Rome. And this morning I looked at what I could read next, and suddenly everything that I dragged all the way to Rome seems to boring and unoriginal. I started reading some Carlton Mellick III (“The Ultra Fuckers” & “Haunted vagina”) but I just … can’t get into it. I think I’ll just dive back into reading Petrolio & De Sade’s 120 Days in tandem. I have this beautiful Dutch copy of 120 Days, translated by one of my all time favorite Flemish authors called C.C. Krijgelmans (unfortunately passed away last year). Krijgelmans together with Ivo Michiels & Bert Schierbeek were at the forefront of avantgarde writing in the 50’s and 60’s in the Dutch language. I did most of my undergraduate and other Uni work on their novels and art criticisms. So of course I wasn’t surprised to see when I opened up the De Sade book (found it on a flea market) that Krijgelmans was the one to have translated it. Krijgelmans worked forever on what he called his “Joeplala alfabet of Het (klein)burgerlijk woordenboek der pornografie.”, a sort of super salacious listing of all possible names and nicknames and terms for all kinds of pornographic, sexual, bodily functions. So he needed to be the one to tackle De Sade for us, that’s for sure!
Thanks a lot for Clipson! Again a new discovery for me. I have L. English’ “Cruel Optimism” at home, cool to see that there was a collaboration between him and Clipson! I’ll forward the post to some friends who will be totally into his work. And possibly also into the slaves you posted today. That was refreshing! Good way to start my last day here in rainy Rome.
Hope all is well!
I greatly enjoyed watching Leeds United in the FA Cup last night. We might’ve got knocked out 3-2 by Chelsea, whose team literally cost £1 billion, but we were far superior. Our 17-year-old midfielder Archie Gray was awarded man of the match and as you might see from this post-match interview, the boy does exude a certain amount of star quality.
I could imagine Archie Gray in a Bresson film, is what I’m saying.
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How did the ghost personality building go? Or maybe it’s more accurate to ask how it is going, still, as it’s hard to imagine he’d be satisfied to become fully realized in a single day.
I think I can refrain from cutting love’s neck, so what more could I ask for? Strictness is love’s way and humiliation is his water, torture is his walking path since abuse is his walking stick, Od.
Dennis, Yes, I believe you did. I remember that. I do remember my friend telling me that she thought Pat was lovely but that their daughter Tricia was a real bitch, hahaha. Her word, not mine.
Omg, I’d love to have secret tunnels here. If I win the lottery, my new house will have tons of them. I’ve often had dreams of secret tunnels here in this little duplex I’ve lived in for 47 years. Always end up going through tunnels to sneak away from people in those dreams. 😛
There are some intense scenarios today, even for this monthly post!
The Link novel is ultimately frustrating. There are definitely chunks of what she does so well, but also a fair amount of YA mechanics. I’m sticking with it, but also gritting my teeth here and there.
Bill
Hey Dennis. Saw another post about the Willy Wonka event in Glasgow I saw on the news lol. Thought Id share incase you missed it. Parents called the cops becauce it was a scam which made kids cry. Incase you didnt see it heres a short news segment.
https://youtu.be/B6XHW0J3Yo0?si=E33L9oh-Kk2AnHlh
Even by this day’s usual standards, these are grim. I hope they’re all just fantasies.
I finished the Santos bio, and it wasn’t really that interesting – too much detail about local New York politics, little sense of a larger context. Someone like Gary Indiana should’ve written it.
The new Kim Gordon album is excellent. At 70, she’s making music that looks back to No Wave and old school hip-hop, but with a very contemporary use of programmed drums as a lead instrument and sampling as a tool to extend her vocals and guitar beyond their normal capacities. She’s the only Sonic Youth member who still seems to be looking forward after their breakup. (I took Thurston’s memoir out of the library today.)
Try holding a seance for inspiration on giving the ghost a personality! Or at least an EVP session.
I’m not a slave, but even among the escorts I am a massive sell-out compared to all these guys. Amongst all these wild texts in the service of art and horniness and whatever else, my profile is so boring and pedestrian, out of a desire to attract men who (a) meet in real life, (b) pay me what I tell them to and (c) don’t annoy me too much in the process. Btw, one of the photos is of a guy I knew back in the UK, but you just assign them randomly, right? Even if it is, fair play to him though if that’s what he’s after. Oh, I’m booked in for Présences eléctronique on Sunday 31st, so will definitely see you in a month or so! Will you be through with all the post-prod work by then? Hope your Friday’s possibilities are endless – and in no part falsely advertised! xT
Hey Dennis! Now I see what you mean re: nostalgia. Yeah, I agree. I have known/know some people with that mindset. Sort of tragic, really. I vow to never get that way as I get older. I can’t even fathom being perpetually stuck in a specific era/time. Yuck. The slaves are definitely slaving today! Can you believe it’s almost the weekend all over again. Where does the time go?
Hey, Dennis! I had never heard of Janie Geiser before so I checked her ‘Red Book’ as soon as I finished reading your text. It’s pretty cool! Reminded me of some cartoons I used to watch when I was a kid, but creepier. Actually, I’m a wannabe-animator myself, and I’m currently looking for some ‘eerie’ folk story with (maybe) erotic subtones to adapt as my first short, do you know anything that could be worth watching?
Also, while I was searching for Jenie’s work, Sabin Balasa came into my mind. Have you ever heard of him? I think he’s great.
And I’m really sorry about Laika giving up on ‘God Jr.’ . It’s a real shame when movies can’t get off the ground, like Breillat’s Bad Love or Kubrick’s Napoleon. I would’ve loved to watch it.