‘One of the presenting symptoms of my Shelley Duvall fandom is amateur numerology. The actress, among the most totemic and inimitable performers of the New American Cinema, was born on the seventh day of the seventh month of 1949. She made seven films with Robert Altman, the director with whom she remains the most closely affiliated. The greatest of their collaborations, 3 Women, was released in 1977.

‘I focus on the dominance of seven in Duvall’s life and profession only to confirm what I already believe about occult signifiers: They mean nothing. Despite the lucky number, a hazy sense of misfortune—of a career that ended too soon, or that never quite matched the incandescence evinced in its first years—has lingered over the actress, who has not appeared in a movie since 2002. (An infamous sit-down in 2016 with an ignoble TV host suggested that she has not been well for some time.) Maybe her setbacks were augured by Altman when he spoke to Cliff Jahr of the Village Voice for an April 1977 profile of Duvall tied to the release of 3 Women, her sixth movie with the director. In the piece, Jahr conjectures that the filmmaker “has unique and untransferable rapport with his actors,” and Altman seems to concur. “I have harmed a lot of them,” he says. “I don’t quite understand it. Ronee Blakley, who got an Oscar nomination for Nashville”—for her portrayal of an unstable country-music superstar in that brilliant ensemble film from 1975—“has not even been able to get an agent to this day.” Later in the article, Altman expresses his deep admiration for Duvall’s talents, but his praise is freighted with anxiety about her fate: “Somebody better pay attention to her now, or they’re all crazy.”

‘It is impossible not to take notice of Shelley Duvall. With her extremely ectomorphic figure, she calls to mind a walking exclamation point. Her long, Modigliani-like face appears taffy-pulled; the focal points of her amazing visage are her enormous, wide-set brown eyes and her two jutting top incisors. If her striking physicality makes the first impression on the viewer, then her demeanor creates the most lasting one. She is unmistakably fey, but her otherworldliness connotes a planet not too far away from our solar system. Duvall is a delight not just to watch but to listen to; her pellucid voice is filigreed by a Houston drawl that she never filed down.

‘She was discovered in that Texas city by Altman’s emissaries, scouting talent for Brewster McCloud (1970). They met Duvall at a party she was throwing with her boyfriend. Charmed by their hostess, the movie men arranged for her to audition for Altman, though she had no idea who the director was (he’d just had a big hit with MASH) or what “reading for a part” meant. Altman was convinced that Duvall’s naïveté was a ruse. “I decided to shoot a test, so I took her out in the park and put a camera on her and just asked her questions,” the filmmaker told David Thompson for the book-length interview Altman on Altman (2005). “I was really quite mean to her, as I thought she was an actress. But she wasn’t kidding; that was her.”

‘Duvall’s untutored wisdom makes her performance one of the few unmitigated pleasures of the antic, exhausting Brewster McCloud. Playing Suzanne, a garrulous tour guide at the Astrodome who deflowers and ultimately betrays the flight-obsessed title character (Bud Cort), Duvall, with her Raggedy Ann eyelashes, emerges as an unorthodox femme fatale. “Hi! Are you trying to steal my car?” Suzanne asks Brewster; the actress delivers the line with vivifying, daffy ingenuousness. In her screen debut, she evokes James Baldwin’s lapidary assessment of the movie legends who held him rapt as a child: “One does not go to see them act: One goes to watch them be.”

‘In pointing out Baldwin’s instructive ontological distinction, I don’t mean to imply that Duvall, especially in her films with Altman, simply presented her unvarnished self—that she took no care when preparing for her roles other than, say, to memorize her lines. Altman, who gave Duvall a small part as a mail-order bride in the western McCabe & Mrs. Miller (1971), Brewster’s immediate successor, insisted that she observe the entire production for “acting lessons.” She demonstrates a noticeable increase in discipline (particularly with regard to her timing and pauses) in her next project with Altman, the Depression-era-set Thieves like Us (1974), in which she plays Keechie, the sweetheart of Bowie, Keith Carradine’s on-the-lam bank robber. But even though her acting may be more polished, Duvall’s performance style isn’t entirely pruned of fascinating idiosyncrasies, such as her strange way of saying “yes”—a word she enunciates with what sounds like a brand-new diphthong—when Bowie asks Keechie if she likes him.

‘If Suzanne and Keechie are characters brought more vibrantly to life by Duvall’s undiluted “essence,” then Millie Lammoreaux—the prating, self-regarding employee of a geriatric rehab center she plays in 3 Women—endures as the apex of her assiduous preparation. Originating in a dream that Altman had, 3 Women traces the shifting dynamics between childlike Pinky (Sissy Spacek) and Millie, who trains the pigtailed recent arrival to Southern California in the basics of hydrotherapy for the elderly. The two coworkers soon become roommates, sharing Millie’s yellow-bathed one-bedroom apartment. Pinky, growing ever more besotted with her new friend, marvels at Millie’s professed sophisticated taste, largely shaped by McCall’s magazine, and at her refined palate, which favors such chemically saturated delicacies as banana pops and penthouse chicken.

‘“I played her like a Lubitsch comedy—people taking themselves very seriously,” Duvall said of Millie in that Voice profile. Blithely ignoring the fact that most people find her to be a nattering, desperate fool, Millie may have unshakable confidence in herself, but her certitude never fully masks her fragility, especially in the second half of 3 Women, when the power balance between Millie and Pinky is inverted. This indelible, richly textured character was largely the creation of Duvall. “Shelley wrote all of [Millie’s] letters, all of those recipes, all of her diary stuff. I don’t know any writer who could have done it better,” Altman told Thompson. (Duvall to Jahr: “Monologues just came out in fifteen minutes.”)

‘A few weeks after 3 Women was released, Duvall could be seen in a bit part in Woody Allen’s Annie Hall, her only non-Altman film from the ’70s (not counting a 1976 PBS adaptation of F. Scott Fitzgerald’s “Bernice Bobs Her Hair,” in which she starred in the title role). Playing Pam, a witless Rolling Stone reporter, Duvall, in the meager screen time allotted her, proves the sole source of buoyancy in a project overpopulated by smug, charmless neurotics, its director-cowriter-star chief among them.We are meant to laugh at Pam’s preferred adjective—“The only word for this is transplendent”—but Duvall locates the dignity in the dippy journalist’s enthusiasms.

‘At the end of the most storied decade of her career, Duvall was cast in the film for which she might be most widely remembered—and for which she endured tremendous distress. In Stanley Kubrick’s The Shining (1980), the actress, as Wendy Torrance, the initially sunny mom and helpmate of Jack Nicholson’s aspiring novelist, spends the latter half of the film in abject terror; Wendy continually weeps and shrieks as she tries to save herself and her young son from a psychotic paterfamilias. Duvall gives a shattering performance of ceaseless anguish—a traumatized state that mirrors the suffering she experienced in her clashes with Kubrick during The Shining’s months-long shoot, some of which are featured in the short making-of documentary by the director’s daughter Vivian. (More chilling than anything in The Shining is Vivian’s footage of Duvall, lying on the floor in between takes, saying, of an undisclosed ailment, “It comes and goes. . . . It just got so bad” as a matronly crew member tends to her.)

‘Duvall’s final film with Altman—a live-action version of Popeye, in which she stars as Olive Oyl, opposite Robin Williams as the spinach-loving sailor—came out the same year as The Shining. “Shelley, I want to give you the role you were born to play!” Altman told the actress. But, paradoxically, in this outsize part, Duvall seems diminished, flattened, as does nearly everyone else in the shambolic funny-pages transfer. Yet the movie, aimed at kids, can be thought of as an oblique prologue to Duvall’s signal achievement of not only the ’80s (but all of her post-Altman work): Faerie Tale Theatre, a wonderfully outré anthology television series for children (but with multigenerational appeal) broadcast on Showtime between 1982 and 1987. In addition to creating the program, Duvall executive-produced, hosted, and occasionally starred in FTT, which featured a motley group of talents ranging from Mick Jagger to Gena Rowlands as various Brothers Grimm and Hans Christian Andersen principals.

‘Welcoming viewers to “Rumpelstiltskin,” the second episode of the first season, in which she plays the miller’s daughter, Duvall offers a quasi confession: “And, I must admit, as an actress, Faerie Tale Theatre also gave me an opportunity for some pretty great roles.” When considered more than three decades later, the statement seems to eerily anticipate the imminent attrition of those opportunities. During the fifteen years between the end of FTT and 2002, when she stopped performing altogether, Duvall’s output consisted primarily of small or supporting parts in minor, largely forgotten movies, and assorted TV work. There are some exceptions. Duvall thrills with the few Italian interjections—Mangia! Simpaticissimo!—she utters as Countess Gemini in Jane Campion’s adaptation of The Portrait of a Lady (1996). And she beguiles as Amelia Glahn, a spinster ostrich farmer hopelessly in love with a sadistic mesmerist, in Twilight of the Ice Nymphs (1997), a pastel-hued fantasia by cult Canadian auteur Guy Maddin. These late-period Duvall performances, just as much as 3 Women, return us to Altman’s command: Pay attention to her.’ — Melissa Anderson, ARTFORUM

 

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Further

Shelley Duvall @ IMDb
Shelley Duvall: The Shining’s saddest legacy
INTERVIEW WITH SHELLEY DUVALL
A THIN LINE
Stephen King damns Shelley Duvall’s character in film of The Shining
OBVIOUS HISTORY: SHELLEY DUVALL WAS PROPOSITIONED AT 17 TO BE IN A PORNO
Actress Shelley Duvall reveals struggle with mental illness
THE SAD AND HEARTBREAKING REALITY OF SHELLEY DUVALL’S MENTAL HEALTH
Shelley Duvall, An Unlikely Star
SHELLEY DUVALL GROWS UP
Head in the Clouds: Shelley Duvall in 3 Women
Missing From the Movies: Shelley Duvall
SHELLEY DUVALL WAS DRAGGED INTO FILMS

 

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HELLO, I’M SHELLEY DUVALL !

SHELLEY DUVALL INTERVIEW 1974

SHELLEY DUVALL INTERVIEW @ CANNES FILM FESTIVAL

 

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ANDY WARHOL: This is a whole new table. I’ve never sat on this side before. Are you staying out in East Hampton most of the time?

SHELLEY DUVALL: Yes, for most of the summer. I come back about two days a week usually.

WARHOL: Son of Sam was on his way out there.

DUVALL: I just heard!

[Son of Sam]

WARHOL: How could a Berkowitz kill a Moskowitz?

DUVALL: That’s the first thing I thought.

WARHOL: It’s too terrible.

BOB COLACELLO: What would you like to eat?

[orders]

WARHOL: Where did you learn French?

DUVALL: Not from my father.

WARHOL: Duvall is a French name.

DUVALL: My father’s half-French and I’m whatever’s left.

WARHOL: Where were you born?

DUVALL: I was born in Fort Worth but I never lived there. I was visiting my grandmother at the time.

WARHOL: I don’t understand.

DUVALL: My mother was visiting my grandmother when I was born. But I grew up in Houston. I lived there until ’73 and then I moved to Los Angeles.

WARHOL: When did we meet?

DUVALL: You met me in 1970 when I’d just finished Brewster McCloud and was about to do McCabe & Mrs. Miller. Bill Worth told me, “Come down to the Factory and meet Andy Warhol,” and we got there and you weren’t there but we looked at pictures. And I remember the time you told me, “I stayed home from Elaine’s birthday party to watch you on Dick Cavett.” I was so flattered!

COLACELLO: You’re such a charmer, Andy.

WARHOL: But it was true.

COLACELLO: So what’s this new movie you’re doing with Jack [Nicholson]?

DUVALL: It’s from a novel written by Stephen King, who wrote Carrie. It’s called The Shining and we start shooting somewhere between December 1 and February 1. Stanley Kubrick’s writing the script now. He’s directing and it’ll be shot in London and Switzerland for 15 to 25 weeks—a long shoot.

COLACELLO: Is it a big cast?

DUVALL: No, it’s Jack and myself and a five-year-old boy, basically. And there’s a psychiatrist and an ex-gardener at the place where we’re caretakers. It’s very frightening. When I first heard of it I was wondering why Stanley Kubrick would want to do this film and then I read the book and it turns out, I think, to be really primal about fears and about the fears that one has in a relationship with another person.

WARHOL: It sounds like it could be a Robert Altman film, too. Three Women was terrific.

DUVALL: Bob knows me very well and he knows my limitations.

WARHOL: That story was fascinating.

DUVALL: I loved that story. That was an actual dream that Bob had. He had the dream on a Saturday night and he called me up on Sunday morning and said, “Shelley. I just had this incredible dream. Part of the dream was that I woke up and told my wife and wrote it all down on a yellow legal pad and called my production assistant and said, ‘I want you to scout locations for me,’” and then he woke up and discovered he hadn’t told his wife and he hadn’t written it down. It’s amazing—within a week he had the money for the film and we started shooting a month later.

WARHOL: Janice Rule is one of my favorite actresses but her style of acting was so different from yours and Sissy Spacek‘s.

DUVALL: I was just going to tell you it was actually just two women in the dream—Sissy and I. But I think someone like Bergman or Antonioni had already done a film called Two Women.

WARHOL: No, it was Sophia Loren. That was the one where she came out of the ocean. She won an Academy Award for it.

COLACELLO: Did you ever think you wanted to be an actress?

DUVALL: Never.

COLACELLO: How did you get started?

DUVALL: It’s a long story but I’ll tell you. I was living with my artist boyfriend at his parents’ house in Houston and we had a lot of parties and people would come who we didn’t know and his parents’ friends would come—they were really good parents—and one day I was giving a party and these three gentlemen came in and I said, “Come in, fix yourself a drink, make yourself at home,” and I continued showing all my friends Bernard’s new paintings, telling them what the artist was thinking. And they said they had some friends who were patrons of the arts who’d like to see the paintings so I made an appointment, brought the paintings up and showed them one by one. I lugged 35 paintings up there. And instead of selling some paintings I wound up getting into a movie.

WARHOL: They were testing you out?

DUVALL: Yes, they said, “How would you like to be in a movie?” and I thought, “Oh, no, a porno film,” because I’d been approached for that when I was 17 in a drugstore.

WARHOL: What did you do?

DUVALL: The guy left me with the bill for the Coca-Cola. So this time I said, “No, thank you,” and they called my parents’ house and got hold of me and after a while we became such good friends that I had no fear. I said, “I’m not an actress.” They said, “Yes, you are.” Finally, I said, “All right, if you think I’m an actress I guess I am.”

WARHOL: But what were they doing there?

DUVALL: They were on location.

WARHOL: But what made them come to the house? Were they just looking for something to do?

DUVALL: Somebody at the party had called them up and told them if they were bored in Houston we gave a lot of parties. When the film was over I thought it was just an interlude in my life. But three months later I started work on McCabe & Mrs. Miller. Actually during Brewster McCloud I’d already signed a five-year contract.

WARHOL: I guess things really do happen at parties.

[contracts]

COLACELLO: But you never studied acting?

DUVALL: I went to Lee Strasberg a few years ago because I’d heard such good things about him but I went to two lessons and it just wasn’t for me. That’s one piece of advice Robert Altman gave me at the very beginning—never take lessons and don’t take yourself seriously.

WARHOL: He’s right. It’s all magic. The problem is knowing how to keep it once you get it.

DUVALL: I make my own decisions. And I never turn down anything without reading it. Other than that… I’m sort of at a loss for words. It was hard to move here, actually.

WARHOL: You mean you’re living here for real?

DUVALL: I moved here in October.

WARHOL: To East Hampton?

DUVALL: No, to New York from L.A. East Hampton’s just a summer place.

WARHOL: Some people live there year-round now

DUVALL: I like that idea. I think it would be just as nice in the spring and fall as in the summer. Our place looks like Japan. It’s got those short needlepines, little pebbles and everything.

WARHOL: Montauk doesn’t have much of a beach but it’s very beautiful. It’s all rocks.

DUVALL: I want to see the lighthouse.

WARHOL: If you’d seen Peter Beard’s place you’d be so sad now. It just burned down last week with all his work inside.

DUVALL: How terrible. Was it lightning?

WARHOL: No, the boiler room.

DUVALL: God, the boiler room! You should read The Shining.

WARHOL: Does it happen in a boiler room?

DUVALL: You’ll see. It’s frightening.

WARHOL: Carrie was so good.

DUVALL: I still haven’t seen it. Scary movies frighten me. I still haven’t seen The Exorcist.

WARHOL: It’s really good. It isn’t even scary. It’s just intelligent.

DUVALL: I like to see just about every movie that comes out that strikes my fancy.

WARHOL: I’m always worrying about bombs in movie theaters, though. My favorite kind of movies are unsuccessful ones because there’s no one there. And then I like…

[TAPE CHANGE]

DUVALL: …The Omen.

COLACELLO: Why did you move to New York from L.A.?

DUVALL: For several reasons. I’d always wanted to move to New York, from the first time I came here. And then I guess Paul [Simon] was an extra added attraction—a New Yorker boyfriend.

COLACELLO: That’s a nice way of putting it. He’s working so much now.

DUVALL: He’s always working. There’s so much energy here. That’s why I like it, despite everything.

[Son of Sam]

WARHOL: How can people see something on TV and then they can’t wait to read about it in the newspaper? Why is that?

DUVALL: Maybe it’s more real.

WARHOL: Maybe.

DUVALL: New Yorkers have a fascination with the daily paper. I could never understand that when I came here. And I could never understand how people get up to see “The Today Show.”

WARHOL: It’s easy if you have a pushbutton. It’s great. And if you turn it on at seven you see the news three or four times which is even better—all the repeats.

DUVALL: I did an interview with Gene Shalit and I never saw it because I could never wake up early enough.

COLACELLO: Would you like some dessert?

DUVALL: I’m looking over at the chocolate mousse but…

WARHOL: I was supposed to go to the pimple doctor this morning and I never went.

[pimple doctors]

DUVALL: Well, everybody’s got something about them. But did you hear about the guy with no feet?

WARHOL: No, who?

DUVALL: I’m just kidding. But here we’re complaining about pimples and…

WARHOL: Oh, I know. We’re so lucky.

DUVALL: We really are.

WARHOL: So many people have so many problems. When you think that health is wealth, you’re so grateful just to be normal, more or less. Aren’t you?

 

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Robert Altman Brewster McCloud (1970)
‘One of the things about “MASH” was that people wanted to see it a second time. That’s typical of the recent Robert Altman style; “Brewster McCloud” is just as densely packed with words and action, and you keep thinking you’re missing things. You probably are. It’s that quality that’s so attractive about these two Altman films. We get the sense of a live intelligence, rushing things ahead on the screen, not worrying whether we’ll understand. If anything, “Brewster McCloud” is more complex and more difficult than “MASH.” For one thing, we don’t have the initial orientation we had in “MASH,” where we knew we were in the Army and we knew what the uniforms stood for and what was going on in the operating room. Those hooks helped us unsort the narrative. “Brewster” may not even have a narrative.’ — Roger Ebert

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Robert Altman McCabe & Mrs. Miller (1971)
‘Hailed by critc Pauline Kael as “a beautiful pipe dream of a movie,” Altman’s snowbound western sets its scene in the ramshackle, snowbound Washington State town of Presbyterian, where wandering gambler Warren Beatty decides to stick around after striking up a partnership with Julie Christie’s madam, a fraught but profitable teaming that’s threatened by encroaching corporate interests. A film of indelible atmosphere, thanks to the uniquely foggy photography of Vilmos Zsigmond—achieved by “flashing” the negative before exposure—and the droning vocals of Leonard Cohen on the soundtrack.’ — Metrograph

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Robert Altman Thieves Like Us (1974)
‘Tewkesbury’s adaptation of Edward Anderson’s novel (also the source material for Nicholas Ray’s They Live By Night) yielded one of Altman’s most slashingly sincere films. Keith Carradine and Shelley Duvall are lovers running from the law through the Depression-era South, their fateful romance played out against a backdrop of two-bit gangsterism, Coca-Cola, and (memorably) the near wall-to-wall buzz of vintage radio broadcasts.’ — Metrograph

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Robert Altman Nashville (1975)
‘This cornerstone of 1970s American moviemaking from Robert Altman is a panoramic view of the country’s political and cultural landscapes, set in the nation’s music capital. Nashville weaves the stories of twenty-four characters—from country star to wannabe to reporter to waitress—into a cinematic tapestry that is equal parts comedy, tragedy, and musical. Many members of the astonishing cast wrote their own songs and performed them live on location, which lends another layer to the film’s quirky authenticity. Altman’s ability to get to the heart of American life via its eccentric byways was never put to better use than in this grand, rollicking triumph, which barrels forward to an unforgettable conclusion.’ — The Criterion Collection

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Robert Altman Buffalo Bill and the Indians, or Sitting Bull’s History Lesson (1975)
‘Robert Altman turns his cutting gaze towards American myth-making in one of his most blistering satires. Paul Newman plays the booze-soaked William F. Cody (aka Buffalo Bill), the buffoonish, self-aggrandizing proprietor of a hokey Wild West show, who begins to fall apart both personally and professionally following the arrival of the show’s newest performer, Chief Sitting Bull (Frank Kaquitts). Altman’s contrasting of two legendary American figures proves not only to be rich comedic territory, but also stands as a vicious deconstruction of the romantic vision of the Wild West, showbiz, and history itself. Featuring a dizzyingly great ensemble cast (Harvey Keitel, Will Sampson, Burt Lancaster, Geraldine Chaplin, Shelley Duvall and more), and brimming with verve and wit, BUFFALO BILL AND THE INDIANS, OR, SITTING BULL’S HISTORY LESSON is essential Altman.’ — Drafthouse

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Joan Micklin Silver Bernice Bobs Her Hair (1976)
‘It’s the hot summer of 1919. Visiting her cousin Marjorie (Veronica Cartwright), sweet-but-dull Bernice (Shelley Duvall) is transformed into a smooth-talking man-trap by her vampish kin. However, the “make-over” works too well, Bernice becomes the belle of the ball, captivating every boy’s interest…even Marjorie’s boyfriend Warren (Bud Cort). The now worldly Bernice has the last laugh…a clever and ironic twist. One of the best screen translations of F. Scott Fitzgerald’s literary work, Bernice also includes the delightful supporting role performances of Dennis Christopher (“Breaking Away”) and Polly Holliday (“Alice”).’ — Kanopy

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Woody Allen Annie Hall (1977)
‘In Annie Hall, Shelley Duvall played Pam, a Rolling Stone reporter set up with Alvy by their mutual friend, Rob. By 1977, Duvall’s star was on a meteoric rise after she appeared in McCabe & Mrs. Miller and Nashville. A favorite of director Robert Altman’s, Duvall’s unique look and ability to portray women who were at once superficially girly yet full of psychological depth made her an in-demand actor in the ’70s and ’80s. After Annie Hall, Duvall went on to star in The Shining and Time Bandits, and she even appeared in an episode of the hit ’90s show Wishbone.’ — She Knows

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Robert Altman 3 Women (1977)
‘By the time 3 Women came out, Duvall was already well known for her unorthodox looks and behavior. In a 1976 interview with Altman for Film Heritage, F. Anthony Macklin asked, “Can the general audience relate to Shelley Duvall externally? Won’t the general audience back in Dayton, Ohio, think she’s kind of freaky and kind of spacey and kind of weirdo?” It’s to Altman’s credit that he can make a potentially off-putting figure like Millie, played by an actor who often seemed (fascinatingly) disconnected from reality, into someone we can empathize with. But it’s Duvall who arouses our compassion. At times, you want to slap her to wake her up from her self-mythologizing (she imagines herself something of a debutante, and often speaks of men throwing themselves at her—contrary to what we see onscreen), but Duvall, with her Breck-girl curl and sunshine-colored dresses, cuts such a likably wacky figure that we can’t help but accept Millie in all her unreality. Her most poignant moments come directly after she’s discovered that a group of dinner-party guests have canceled on her, and thus foiled her plans to serve them her impeccably prepared pigs in a blanket and “chocolate puddin’ tarts.” Here, briefly, Duvall and Altman let us peek behind the flowery curtain and see the plain soul hidden there.’ — The Criterion Collection

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Stanley Kubrick The Shining (1980)
‘Back in the 1980s, Duvall was a movie star in the rise, with a prosperous future ahead of her. However, after her role in The Shining, she almost considered leaving acting for good. The reason? The young actress went through trauma during the filming of Kubrick’s film, facing tremendously difficult requests by the director, such as the legendary 127-takes of the baseball bat scene, ending up dehydrated with raw, wounded hands and a hoarse throat from crying. The director’s “special” requirements went so far that Duvall started losing her hair. According to Horror Media, Duvall’s role was mostly criticized by Stephen King who declared that he hated The Shining very much mainly because of the misogynistic portrait of Wendy Torrance who, in King’s words “was basically there just to scream and be stupid and that’s not the woman I wrote about”.’ — The Vintage News

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Shelley Duvall on Stanley Kubrick

Stanley Kubrick: Behind The Scenes on the Set of ‘The Shining’

 

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Robert Altman Popeye (1980)
‘As a gawky youngster growing up in Texas, Shelley Duvall used to cringe when kids taunted her with “Nahhh, Olive Oyl! Olive Oyl!” Plus ça change. After playing the bean-pole bombshell in director Robert Altman’s Popeye, the 5’8″ and 106-pound Shelley now reports, “Children grab me around the legs in the grocery store and say, ‘You’re Olive Oyl!’ That’s really, really good. It makes that movie one of the best things I’ve ever done.” Such katzenjammer praise is welcome solace after some snooty adults predicted that she and Robin Williams, who co-stars as Popeye, would take a Bluto-size beating at the box office. Most critics, while praising Duvall, said the movie was spinach and the hell with it. “They treated it like it was War and Peace instead of a cartoon,” Shelley scowls. She’s also miffed that neither she nor the movie got a single Oscar nomination. “They never nominated me for anything before, so I guess I shouldn’t expect it now,” says Shelley, who escaped Jack Nicholson’s ax in Stanley Kubrick’s The Shining last summer and whose memorable waifishness has been a staple of Altman films since 1970’s Brewster McCloud. “Of course I was disappointed,” she adds. “I had hoped.”’ — People

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Terry Gilliam Time Bandits (1981)
‘Director Gilliam’s second feature is a lavish concoction of wild and wicked fancy. One fateful night Kevin, an 11-year-old with a passion for history, discovers a time-and-space portal in his bedroom wall and a gaggle of dwarves who teach him how to use it, paying visits to Ian Holm’s Napoleon, John Cleese’s Robin Hood, Sean Connery’s King Agamemnon, and the land of unbounded imagination that is the Time of Legend. A fractured fairy tale that thrilled and delighted every kid who saw it.’ — Metrograph

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Tim Burton Frankenweenie (1984)
‘In this black-and-white short, novice director Tim Burton tells the story of Frankenstein’s monster in suburbia as a children’s fable about tolerance. Loving parents Ben (Daniel Stern) and Susan Frankenstein (Shelley Duvall) encourage their son Victor’s (Barret Oliver) home movies, starring their energetic bull terrier, Sparky. Following a terrible car accident, Sparky is dead and Victor is inconsolable. After an experiment with a frog in his science class, Victor gets the idea to make an electrical experiment of his own. After building a fantastic laboratory with only household items, he reanimates his beloved dog. Unfortunately, the family’s nosy neighbors become fearful of the monster, even though he has done no wrong. The climactic ending acts as an homage to James Whale’s original 1931 film and its sequel, The Bride of Frankenstein.’ — Andrea LeVasseur

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Fred Schepisi Roxanne (1987)
‘Though Duvall’s screen time is short, her part is pivotal to the updated Cyrano de Bergerac plot. She plays Dixie Smith, the coffee-shop owner and confidante-at-large who facilitates the match between Roxanne (Daryl Hannah), a stunning astronomer, and C.D. Bales (Martin), a small-town fire chief with a nose the size of Pinocchio’s in mid-lie. While Duvall allows that her character “is close to my heart,” it isn’t a role she had to fight and scrape for. “It was just offered to me,” she says. “I didn’t even have to audition for it. I know Steve socially, and he suggested it to me. I did it just to work with him—and just to see if I could still act.”’ — People

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Steven Soderbergh The Underneath (1995)
‘Rarely does a director go into much detail about what he thinks doesn’t work about one of his own films, but Steven Soderbergh got candid in an interview about his disappointment with his 1995 film The Underneath—which he calls “dead on arrival.” The Underneath is a neonoir Soderbergh made between 1993’s King and 1996’s more personal experiment Schizopolis. Soderbergh says that The Underneath came at a difficult point in his career and that his “heart wasn’t in it.”’ — The Criterion Collection

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Jane Campion The Portrait Of A Lady (1996)
‘Kidman, who was so feisty and wild-eyed in “To Die For,” seems quite repressed here from the get-go, and instead of her character simply lacking depth, she plays out as pretty dumb. (Maybe it should have been called “Portrait of a Stupid Lady.”) Malkovich has played this slimy character too many times before, and Parker is overbearing and obnoxious. Better are Donovan, who at least has some cleverness about him, and especially Hershey, who tries very hard to liven up the proceedings. Winters, unusually subdued, is also notable, and it’s nice to see Shelley Duvall, here playing a flibbertigibit who turns out to be smarter than she lets on.’ — Chris Hicks

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Guy Maddin Twilight of the Ice Nymphs (1997)
‘Twilight of the Ice Nymphs is the dream-struck fantasia of Peter Glahn, a political prisoner returning after several hard years of incarceration, to his homeland of Mandragora where the sun never sets. While traveling by boat, he spends a few precious minutes in the enticing and rarefied company of Juliana (Pascale Bussières), a beauteous young woman with whom he falls desperately and immediately in love. He disembarks to find a veritable ronde of romance brewing in the smouldering passions of sun addled Mandragora: his ostrich-farming sister Amelia (Shelley Duvall) is sick with heartache for the mesmerist Dr. Solti (R.H. Thomson), who with a greedy and voluminous passion, seeks the favours of both Zephyr (Alice Krige), a fisherman’s widow now married to the forest, and the statue of Venus recently uncovered and mounted imperiously on a hilltop. Zephyr gives herself to Peter upon his arrival, but he can think of no other than Juliana and her strange connection to the haughty Dr. Solti. Amelia, driven to distraction by her unrequited passion for the Doctor as well as by the unwelcome attentions and misguided vengeance of her handyman, Cain Ball (Frank Gorshin), loses her reason and spirals into homicidal madness, gravely injuring Cain. Peter is also maddened by his unrequited love for Juliana and the way in which it is constantly thwarted by the wily Doctor, and so the story goes.’ — WFG

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Russell Mulcahy Tale of the Mummy (1998)
‘Unless you find the idea of killer mummy wraps particularly frightening, chances are you’ll find this direct-to-vid thriller as ridiculous as I did.’ — The Movie Report

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p.s. Hey. ** Corey Heiferman, Ah, so you like them linguistically charismatic and extremely needy. Interesting. That sounds fun: the gender experiment and its performance birthplace. I think I’ll stick with erring on the side of caution since ‘overblown media hype’ is too much of a blanket interpretation of everything scary these days. After acing like everything was cool for so long, France just cancelled all largish gatherings, etc. this weekend. Cool about the palindrome guy. I’m assuming his puzzles wouldn’t translate well? I like YMO but, no, I’ve never done a Haruomi Hosono post, and I should, and I will look into the possibilities, thanks, man. ** David Ehrenstein, Hi. Okay, I’ll try again. Everyone, Do please read what Mr. Ehrenstein is about to write here and get in touch with him if you possibly want and can. David: ‘My Emergency Sale is more of an Emergency than ever. Write me at cllrdr@ehrensteinlad.com and I’ll send you lists of items for sale.’ Also, Mr. E’s FaBlog tackles Mayor Pete’s exit from the US Presidential race here. ** Bill, I know, right? My almost thoughts exactly. I hope the medical stuff is blippy. Ooh, more aggressive. I like the sound of that, duh. Bill goes scary … the mind boggles! ** Misanthrope, Hi. Like I told Corey, it’s been like nothing unusual here until Saturday night when the government told everyone to cancel every event and gathering that isn’t a teeny cult kind of thing, so here we go. Damn, so sorry about your pain. Obviously, keep hitting up the doctors or experts until they’ve nailed and killed that off. ** Steve Erickson, Hi. The controversy over the Polanksi film is huge here. I don’t know if you read about what happened with and at the Cesars. The film itself was a huge success, one of the biggest films of the year. That English language media bullshit about the situation makes me want to strangle all those know-nothing know-it-alls. #metoo is a very big thing and area of discussion here, with my friend/collaborator Adele Haenel at the front of it, which is very intense for her, obviously. I’ll see if I can see that Francoise Romand documentary. Very interesting. Speaking of documentaries, Patric Chiha’s new documentary film ‘If It Were Love’ about the making of Gisele’s (and my) newest piece ‘Crowd’ won Best Documentary at the Berlin Film Festival, which is pretty crazy. Everyone, Mr. Erickson reviews the new Ken Loach film SORRY WE MISSED YOU here. ** _Black_Acrylic, Yes, indeed, and you should have seen it before I edited about 2/3 of it out! ** Okay. I realised recently to my astonishment that I’ve never done a blog Day about the sublime god of the performative arts Shelley Duvall for reasons that I can not imagine and which mystify me. But now she’s squared away. Please celebrate her today. Thanks. See you tomorrow.

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Anat, 18
Young inmate seeking prison

I won’t leave you ever

 

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StompMyBalls, 18
Who’d want to kick and stomp my balls and crush them under your shoes? 👞 Want to bust and break a boy’s manhood? Any guys here who delights in the thought of ruining a guy’s family lineage?

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KINGHampton – Feb 11, 2020
I am KING HAMPTON
👊KING👊 for short
I am a true #1 balls destroying monster from Southampton 🏴󠁧󠁢󠁥󠁮󠁧󠁿 UK,
I am who I am a real balls killing king
I love so much murdering boys’ balls I get an absolute BUZZ
kiss the royal 👊 ring 👊

Giant90 – Feb 7, 2020
Recently discovered his girlfriend has been adulterous for a very long time and is in an alcohol induced self hate spiral.

Anonymous – Feb 6, 2020
He wants to tell you about himself, his life, his problems and all the reasons why why he wants his balls wrecked, and it takes a long time before he spreads those legs.

 

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NoRestForWicked, 24
I’m married to an older woman. I love her completely. She wants to see me fucked by a guy. Fucked in front of her. I’m straight in terms of sexual attraction, but the thought of being raped by a guy while she watches makes me extremely excited.

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dxnxo – Feb 18, 2020
I cannot belive my eyes 😅🤫

 

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LegStock, 23
Hiya! I’m Colin. I am a high school senior who is recently 18 (as of 1/21/2020). I am looking for someone who can torture my legs. Someone that will be happy to hurt and ultimately destroy my legs in anyway that I want and you want.

 

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PISSINGISMYLIFE, 19
Adolescence is a developmental period where young people are maturing physically, emotionally and socially as they transition into adulthood. One of the most critical developmental tasks during adolescence is the development of a unique and personal identity.

Adolescent development is influenced by different levels of social interaction within multiple environmental systems, thus a range of individuals, peers and communities can play a significant role in an adolescent’s developing sense of identity. When these influences are negative, psychological distress among adolescents may result, especially for those youth who identify as slave.

 

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funboyslave, 21
If you wanna kidnap me just do it

I am in Latvia

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Anonymous – Feb 18, 2020
He had eyes like a horse.

Anonymous – Feb 17, 2020
RIP 01/26/20

 

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losercuckservant, 22
Okay I’m just gonna be honest about what I want even though most will turn away.

I genuinely want to make your life easier.

Here’s the caveat.

I’m only into gorgeous muscular men who are way out of my league.

I recognize my worth to these men is zero.

I am a thin, nerdy Norwegian wuss and nobody really wants me.

As a consequence, I’ve never had a boyfriend.

Instead of moping about it, I thought a little harder about what else I could offer these men besides sex and companionship.

The answer: my time, sacrifice, and service.

It’s a long-shot but have me come over and shovel the snow off your driveway. Tell me to wash and wax your car. Errand boy, pedicurist, chauffeur, etc.

I also massively worship intelligence.

If you’re a jacked, intelligent, stunning looking hunk and just need more time to do important shit, get in touch.

I have stared reality in the face and am here to make the best of it.

I know I don’t make the cut as your lover but I might stand a chance as your butler!

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Nipplebuddy – Feb 22, 2020
I’m really turned on by the idea of inviting you to my place, then making your shoes vanish. You’d then be hopelessly stuck in your bare feet and you’d have to do as you’re told if you wanted any hope of getting your shoes back and freedom from that terrible ordeal. It would give me a cock like a baby’s arm.

 

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noshitsherlock, 20
I NEED TO BE PUNCHED HARD, BEATEN, TORTURED AND NEED TO FIND PEOPLE WHO ARE INSANE.
I also like to beat and torture younger guys so if you’re a teen and want a beating let me know.
Now living in PLYMOUTH & PAIGNTON but I visit my parents’ villa in Spain regularly.
There are somethings I don’t like like being shitted in my mouth but if you want I will do it!

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noshitsherlock (Owner) – Feb 20, 2020
It goes without saying that every beating or torture hurts but the question is how much.
I personally have a deep pain threshold so no matter what it was its never even annoyed me.
One man really cut me up with a knife and that was a totally different story.
He made his first incision which was a bit of a sting like getting a tattoo but after he put this numbing agent on it, forget about it!
It went totally numb and I didn’t feel ANYTHING at all and just watched him slice me up, it was crazy to say the least.

badluckguy – Feb 20, 2020
You’re into pain, I take it?

noshitsherlock (Owner) – Feb 20, 2020
The pix are older yeah but I look kinda the same but my body is kinda like a halloween costume now I guess.

badluckguy – Feb 20, 2020
You look pretty for a guy who’s into what you’re into.

 

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baammbaamm, 21
No, I am NOT looking for sex. I’m NOT looking to be beaten up or tortured or any of that stupid shit. I’m looking for something solid. Someone with whom I can laugh and cry (I cry A LOT), someone who will keep trying to fix the relationship instead of throwing everything away with every argument (I argue A LOT). I want to have thousands of happy memories with the person and be able to tell the person how much I love him in 50 years (although I like much older men so he’ll probably be dead by then, oops sorry).

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baammbaamm (Owner) – Jan 15, 2020
OK if anyone cares I eventually gave up my search because everyone wanted tons of sex. SO I now work in customer service 🙂 call center work, most of which is solving people’s problems that they generally caused themselves. I can’t say much as it’s a government dept but it’s relatively good money and being casual I can usually afford an overseas trip every year or so so can’t complain…..actually yes, yes I can, people are stupid.

 

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Tiered-of-living, 20
I want someone to bind, gag me and do absolutely anything to me, without restrictions, without taboos except excessive blood (and even that’s not a hard no), without concern for my health or life, without stopping, without words, and as hard and hellishly painful as possible

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Anonymous – Jan 29, 2020
Possible to grab a night with you before DrWhite stabs you or gdawg82 cuts your genitals off?

gdawg82 – Jan 29, 2020
I like to perform exams that include a thorough genital inspection with a variety of tests and experiments such as cock mangling, tourniquet bondage, use of clothes pins, needles, pinwheel, extreme temperature adjustments via urethra, electro, sounding, and, with your permission, circumcision, castration, and finally penectomy.

DrWhite – Jan 23, 2020
I can stab you ???? and also fuck you as many as i. my phone number is 20109660973. call me and i can come to fuck you and stab you

 

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Cavern0u5, 18
Hey there, I’m Fonzie. I’m a freshman at UW-Milwaukee studying to become a clinical lab scientist. Essentially I would be one of the behind the scenes people at clinics who do the testing on patients. Outside of school though, I’ve decided that I want to really get myself out there and binge on huge amounts of rough sex both in and out of the bedroom. As far as what I already know, I’ve been into eating poop since about 6th grade. I also recently got into being brutally flagellated and am really loving it so far. I’ve also got a smooth ass and I’m just dying to get it matured and stretched way the hell out.

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PIGPUNK66 – Feb 21, 2020
I WANT ORGANICE SESSION

—- ME

POWER PAIN PIG SADIST TOP

—- YOU

YOUR AGE YOUR HAIR YOUR BODY TYPE

ATTITUDE

EYES IN A PIC

—- RULES

FIRST TIME WE MEET IN A CLUB

—- CONTACT ME

YOUR FIRST WORD SHOULD BE “APA”

ThomBart – Feb 11, 2020
He’s an artist and musician. Actually, he does not paint pictures with oil — he just does photos, videos, movies, music — all of it is some kind of strange. But that’s not what we care about, I guess? So yes — who cares, I just thought it was interesting. That’s the point.

 

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usememister, 18
wanna play while mom is at work?

I’m looking for an obsessed adult neighbor molester/innocent little boy home alone rp scenario. The more realist the better. Big fan of being tied up and pantsed and deflowered at weapon point.

I also get really horny thinking about getting in an “Uber” that’s supposed to take me to school but it ends up being the car of a neighbor that’s obsessed with me who parks it somewhere secluded and then ties me to a headrest or something and rapes my ass.

Ideally I would become a brainwashed part of a private family all of who are obsessed with molesting me, wanna adopt me as your son? I’m really, really attractive.

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iwannafuckuhard – Feb 10, 2020
Meet my new adopted son, anyone want to babysit?

VinceR – Jan 3, 2020
Accident prone and a bad judge of character

 

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Onenighttakeitall, 20
into pnp and getting fucked and love monster dildos thrust in me while on poppers and getting a monster cock in my ass and mouth at once and fisted while my body’s punched until i’m covered with bruises but must be now untill 6 am cuz i have a girlfriend who i am going to marry in the near future so i need to get some stuff out of the way.

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BaseVoyeur – Feb 13, 2020
I have a simple kink: watching a guy freebase. I am looking to find a guy who would let me watch him freebasing or even to share pics/vids of himself freebasing, and I will try to satisfy your kink in return.

Anonymous – Feb 7, 2020
Don’t waste your money on him. On the one hand he visible diseased (seropositive, others), on the other hand he is burned by drugs and has no erection. He starts ok but drops immediately to a listless dazed lump and while that means you can go crazy on him you will still cry because it is not going to make you feel anything.

 

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cravingattention, 18
I used to be spanked as a kid. I hated it then, but for some reason I feel like I need it now. I don’t enjoy being spanked, so I need someone that doesn’t want me to like it.

I can’t take a lot of pain, but I wont stop him if he is punishing enough. I want to go bad kid vs. dad and give up all control, and be completely spanked.

I’m still a bit shy about this, and nervous about being naked around another man. After talking and making sure you’re sane, I want to give up my ass to whatever you dish out. I couldn’t say stop when I was younger so why now?

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cravingattention (Owner) – Feb 21, 2020
Update: I also hate/like to get slapped, spanked, spit on, punched in the face.

cravingattention (Owner) – Feb 2, 2020
Priority to spankers wearing white socks and Nike TN or Nike VM.

 

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Sperm_eating_sheep, 19
Who has a fat load of sperm for me? Perverted, old, sick fetishist, closet serial killer, under 18, whoever, I don’t care.

 

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easilycoerced, 24
I have accepted the dominance of the genie of the lustful limitless slave within me. I have finally coming to grips with my long-hidden cravings and can express my “submissive” side WITHOUT FEAR OR SHAME. I have found my Master-God, a leather wearing beast in a mask with animal HORNS. The knowledge of being collared and leashed to this masked Master thrills me in ways I never imagined. Serving the Master-God and his cock and lusts are the cravings of my soul. My HORNED Master-God has churned the darkness within me. He has confirmed the power of his Horns on me and invited me into the dark realm with him. We are exploring all of our lusts as we explode together in passion and the wildness of the animal within.

 

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Idontmind, 19
Not quite the kind of furry you’re thinking of. I’m the type that, like, dresses up in animal costumes and whatnot. Otherwise I’m a geeky, non-stop anxious nerd into math, physics, neuroscience, and computational biology. Sorry, not sorry? I can drive!

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Idontmind (Owner) – Jan 21, 2020
Haha I forgot to write what I want! I’m looking for students 18-21 for needle play to give me injections of whatever you want in my feet, arms, ass, and maybe nipples.

Idontmind (Owner) – Jan 19, 2020
Also I’m a former athlete back in my high school years and now I’m living a sedentary lifestyle, a real complete opposite back then.

 

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rubberducky, 18
Sup I go by Joel. I’m not here to mess around. I’m strictly here to get completely fucked and remade. I worship cock. I worship in the Church of Testosterone. I’m completely ready to give up everything else and get hypnotised and brainwashed and only live to satisfy cock. My feelings don’t matter when it comes to this unless you give me very weird vibes. I’m also down to talk about whatever from Herman Mellville to snuff films.

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fillyoutillyouleak – Jan 21, 2020
He is currently in my care undergoing intensive three week brainwashing and reprogramming. The following personal attributes are among those I am in the process of invalidating.
He was in undergrad
He went clubbing every night
He played soccer
He could barely be pried away from playing video games
He ran track in boarding school
He was a published movie critic
He considered himself “arty” (but wasn’t)
He was(?) hoping to attend Harvard Law after undergrad
He liked to please, but not to an extreme
He had a minor recurring role on a Disney Channel series at 14 (hence the mask)
He had a long distance boyfriend in Newport, RI
He was a nazi about safe sex

rubberducky (Owner) – Dec 22, 2020
I hate my freedom.

 

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DrAmidMstBitch, 18
Hello to all of me 18 years old. My name is DrAmidMstBitch. I am looking for relationships like many on this site. I am looking for an adult and experienced man. With whom you can build not just a family but also create good relationships. You probably ask why an adult. Yes, do not roar everything is simple. I want to find someone who I can be not just loved but also family.
One I can be taken care of and loved and appreciated. I am a simple guy from Afghanistan. I live in a small farm in the south of the country. I’m looking for someone who will help and take to myself. I want to be loved and to be appreciated as a sex toy but also as a person …….
YES, I ARE READY FOR RELATIONS AND I AGREE TO MOVE TO ANY OTHER COUNTRY.

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tyson – Feb 12, 2020
I want to force you to do poppers til you’re a mindless bitch and fuck and fuck and fuck you, but don’t we all?

DomBlendto – Feb 8, 2020
You look perfect and I want you! You will double as my art model. You can not be afraid of controversy. I do not do porn art. Enuf porn artists that it has been wanked to death. My experience with boys has been kidnapping them, flogging them, fucking them, keeping them in cages etc. I am the real thing. I can take you places you’ve never thought were possible. And yes, I can do hypnosis.

4violence – Feb 6, 2020
Interested in punching Arab boys in the face while raping them. Been a fetish of mine since I was a child. Like it to be reality now.

 

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UndertheKnife, 18
cut me? please? if you are interested open me.

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UndertheKnife (Owner) – Jan 8, 2020
just cut me and don’t you dare fall in love with me.

 

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snuffseek, 21
IF YOU ARE UNDER 21 YOU DO NOT HAVE MY PERMISSION TO VIEW THIS PROFILE. LEAVE NOW.

Hello, I want to explain what I’m looking for at the outset so there is no misunderstanding. I’ve been looking for this for a long time without success but I’ll keep this profile open on the off-chance that a person looking for someone exactly like me may contact me. I wish to be enslaved, to live a very short life, permanent and total. Complete dehumanisation, initially through corporal punishment to numb me and make me indifferent to any usage. Body modifications may be extreme since I will never return to any ordinary life. You decide if I eat, where I sleep if I live that long (outside on the ground in the dead of winter?), as long as I’ll never lie on a bed again ever. You should welcome me and immediately incarcerate me in the cell in your basement never to see the light of day again, ever. Once I sign my agreement of service, you will within 24 hours have me snuffed out, either with the help of your friends or yourself. I have no idea, but if there are any naturally genuine Masters who could give me a brief place in your life and then dispose of me instantly and violently please contact me.

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Anonymous – Feb 26, 2020
ive taken ownership of him. im torturing him by keeping him alive without exercising and making him play a lot of videogames, paint, draw, and have random stupid sex with me and my friends (usually while being drunk) and he does not like it one little bit.

snuffseek (Owner) – Feb 17, 2020
Are you fucking retard or what!

Manly279 – Feb 17, 2020
Hi I’m Jon, 27 and never raped or tortured a guy before and really want to try with you because in your photos you look like god walking on the earth to my taste. I think deep down I’ve always been a sadist and want you to bring me out of my shell and let me find out.

 

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pleaserapeme1, 19
new to new york from the midwest and I want a group of guys as many from 10 to 50 all with big fat dicks to gang rape me

i wait tables for a living in cold weather and during summers I mow yards and clean pools

 

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Just_An_Effigy, 22
Dear Master,

Everything chould have been so perfect, but life ain’t a fairytale

I feel the wellknown feeling of my blood dripping down my arms. cooling it down with its bittersweet smell, I close my eyes and drift away in the well known pain, flying away from my troubled life into a bittersweet dream of my unshowen pain.

I feelt the pain, anger and hate growing steady up inside of me for years, filling up getting ready to burst out. oh how I fear that day that I will snap and all my feeling break free and control me.

There is something inside of me that doen’st mix. Something I can not fix, something thats not right. messing up my mind, cutting open my scars makeing me bleed.

Why am I so good at hidding my feelings, Why did no one see my despreat cry of help until it was to late and I was far gone. into the world of darkness where all you meet is your own pain following you as a shadow, that torments you with your lonelyness and despair

why am I doomed to sit here in my dark sorrow, planning my revenge while you are out there living free of worries and pain, while I sit here torn into pices dreaming and seeking of salavation and happynes, all I wish to be is saved from this living nightmare.

I Scream for help but no one hears it I reach out for help but no one catchs me. I lie in a pool of my blood bleeding in my room where the door is gone the windows shut and the walls comeing closer. I cant breath I cant think I lay to slowly sufficate.

Love is a slow killer. reaching in thoucing your heart and mind closing it down to mistakes torturing you until you are on the edge of insanity for then to leave you for a while to come back and scar you even deeper down until you are only one big wound waiting to heal.

I wanna see you lie down in the corner bleeding and bleeding until you are so drie that you cant breath. I wanna enjoy every moment of pain you get for every single time you hurted me I will get you back a million times worse ! you did this to me you made me sick you made me dark you made me !I will never forget and I will never forgive !

You sicken me. how chould you do it ! how could you stab the knife in my back so deep when I trusted you the most of all. how can you life with the fact that I got tortured right in front of you and all you did was watch me crying inside for help ! how chould you say I where yours and the betray me with out even blinking with your eye. all for you own benifit not thinking on the pain you may make and the hatred you may wake.

I despise you I hate you you sickness me ! all I wannna do is feed you my year long restend anger and unleash it upon you with so a fearsonme strenght that you will tremble to you kness and beg for mercy for all the things you did. but I will never show you mercy I will suck up every bit of joy and happnies in you life until you are just and empty shell a slave to my mind and command until you are so emptyheaded that you are like dead then I will be satisfed then I will have my revenge !

I have feelt the hate rising in up in me I have feelt the anger grow along with it. and its an anger and hate that will keep burning and growing under my skin as long as I rember you. so long I havnt feelt your blood dripping down my skin knowing your dead then my hate and anger dies along with you

This world is going to be a scary place for you now you have woken the demon in me. a demon that will give no mercy no plea can calm it down before your blood is spilled over its face and you bones broken and your heart have stopped beating, you bones ripped free from flesh and boiled an feeded to the crows of death follwing.

Dear friend reach out your hand a catch me I’m falling. help me up and hold me tight dont let me fall into the blackness save me from this hell and lead me to the light. help me get out from my solitude in my shell and heal my wounds with your laughter.

Heaven wont have me hell wont take me i wonder alone in the dark abyss waiting for company. walking a.round in darkness seeking listing to the sounds sournding me hopeing it to be a friendly face.

I sit here in the cold dark, only with the company of my inner demons trying to break free. I try to hold them back, but they wont stay inside they wanna be free and control me in a stream of emotions I bleed inside Wanting to die hopeing to life. seeking a way out of the pain in my head all the memories all the scars keeping ripping open. take me away from this hell, take me to heaven let me see the light at the end of the tunnel as long as I get away from theise demons thats buring my soul from the inside.

My love for you is like a flame that wont die. it keeps burning me. when I see you my heart breaks at the sight at what I long so much to hold but cant have. to see your face is like being in heaven and being tortured at the same time. the memories of you still haunts me. your yells your smell your fists your whip ohh I miss it. come back to me dont leave me in fury dont hate me dont close your heart. I love you until my last breath until my eyes close and my heart stops.

I cant stand the pain. its in my head. its in my bones. its in my veins. its in my very soul. I cant fight it, cant cure it, I need help, it burns. help me. bring me a cure. make it go away, stop it. it bleeds inside it rips me open. I fell sick cant escape the pain!

I dont cut my self because I’m sad. cutting my self is a pleasure to me. I cut my self to fell the pain of the wound. to fell the blood dripping down my arms until I’m allmost unconsius. to smell the sweet smell of my fresh blood as it runs over my arms. to hear the silent drops fall to the floor into a big pool until my cloth is all covered and bloodspilled.

I have digged my fellings away buried them 6 feet deep. cant fell a thing so just say what you want about hate me ditch me try to break me. you will never get succes I have turned into an empty shell. but beware if you try to break me. I will take you down with me. down into the darkness where I’m used to be but where you will be scared and alone listing for noices unknown. voices of pain wich I have brought with me on my part of emptyness.

The sun goes down the moon goes up. the leaves fall of the winter comes. the winter rain pours down. the circle of life goes on even tho you are not here anymore. you have become a part of nature. a part of me. your the spring flowers popping up every where. I miss you. I miss you like the birds miss the sun. like the tress miss the spring rain. like a caged bird misses freedom I miss you.

Staring at myself through the mirror. I can barely regonise this beast I have become. I cant fell my self under this prison of flesh and bones. I got something inside my brain. I can regonise myself I’m fading I cant find myself where am I. is this beast of a refelction really me. ?

Why do I fail all the time. why cant I do everything good enough like I used to. why am this thing with no life not breath no life nothing to life for. where is the light the strenght to pull me back up. the spirit to guide me. the angel to save me from this hell why can I only see darkness no matter where I turn. why do I only hear the ghosts of my haunted past that plays on my fears until I go insane from the fire of the inner pain breed by my demon.

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Anonymous – Feb 25, 2020
If you are allergic to shit, then you can go to another beach.

 

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StraightPainBoy, 21
Hi guys. I’m a straight dude looking for friends that is interested in me being tied up in many different ways and other things. Here’s a list of things that get me excited.

Tied, gagged, blindfolded and whipped on a: Cross, Bench, St Andrews cross
Raped by 2 identical twin brothers
Tied outside naked and escaping public eye
Kidnap my real dad and force him to rape me (potentially)
Force fed vast amount of drugs and raped by huge groups of men
The list goes on

I am sad and disease free.

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Harryxxx – Feb 11, 2020
The dark side is strong with this one

 

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CumWhatMay, 22
I will have been with my husband for 7 months in March. I use these apps to find other like minded individuals who agree that monogamy equals “what you don’t know won’t hurt you”. My turn on‘s include guys who are obsessed with my used underwear and the biggest turn on‘s are getting the enema of my hole with the tongues by sexy jocks who wear little bit of leather. My husband does not share these traits and my used underwear is a turn off for him. New to this app but will expect just as much from this app as I do all the others, which is basically nothing.

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Anonymous – Feb 15, 2020
I know you and your husband irl peripherally and I have a fantasy that I need to take off my bucket list and it involves blackmailing you.

 

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serendipitykim, 22
I am a sweet, cute, cuddly, slender young man, full of tenderness during the preliminaries but then fiery and bestial when sodomized, tho I can be softer when sodomized too. If you like to really work my prostate I can have multiple orgasms in a short time.

Since sex with my friends and lovers has gone so well for the moment, and they have given me pleasure and vice versa if I can be so bold, I want to continue on this path with strangers who, I’m guessing, might be even hungrier for me.

I am free during the week or the weekend, in the afternoon (depending on my schedule) but also in the early evening (last encounter at 8:00 p.m.) If you really know how to work an ass, I am also free for a night with you.

So in summary, God, I just really love sex.

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lovepanda – Feb 10, 2020
loyal freak.

livingthelife – Feb 2, 2020
his name is L (yes, just the letter) 🙄

Sparky – Jan 28, 2020
wanted to take his ass home with me in a doggy bag. unfortunately it was attached to him.

vctho – Jan 22, 2920
Narcissistic retard

 

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Jawbreaker, 22
Boots, motorcycles, fishing, trucks, guns, muddin’ and bein’ a young gentleman. Hold the door for ya and treat you like family and accept you for who you are. Bit redneck, more than bit unedumacated, whole lotta’ worth your time. Texas drawl.

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Jawbreaker (Owner) – Jan 23, 2020
I’m owned now but my boss wants to brand my ass, does anyone know of somewhere I can get this done. He isn’t happy with a tattoo, it has to be branded. Findin’ it tough to find someone. I ain’t no softy but this needs sortin’.

physicalneeded – Jan 5, 2020
Looking for a doctor or nurse in or near Macon to give this boy a physical. I need everything checked: heart, ears, reflexes—everything.

 

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mightymighty, 23
This worthless thing in the fotos is looking for total slavery and captivity for life. this stupid thing looking for to completely disappear and become a true subhuman animal. it lives in brooklyn but is ready to relocate anywhere in the world. it has no family just me and i hate it and can disappear easily. i personally wouldn’t mind it being locked away somewhere and left to die of starvation but obviously that has to be planned for and we will have spoken about this beforehand. This idiotic thing can surrender to you within couple days. Thank You!

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mightymighty (Owner) – Feb 15, 2020
Will this site stop kicking me off I am doing nothing wrong.

 

 

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