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Spotlight on … Thomas Bernhard Prose (1967)

 

‘I prefer to know everything. And I always try to rob people and get everything that is in them out of them. As long as you can do so without the others recognizing it. When people discover that you want to rob them they shut their doors. Like the doors are shut when someone suspect comes near. But if nothing else is possible you can also break in. Everyone has some cellar window open. That also can be quite appealing.’ — Thomas Bernhard

‘The neuroticism and cruelty on display in these seven newly translated short stories leave you short of breath but entirely absorbed – or, more accurately, entrapped. The theme of imprisonment runs through the collection, and Thomas Bernhard forces us to confront his characters’ sense of confinement with dizzying, claustrophobic whirls of syntax. We too feel the craze-inducing “sleeplessness” (the word hypnotically repeated throughout the narrative) of the new tutor in “Two Tutors”, and grasp the pain of Georg’s deformity in “The Crime of an Innsbruck Shopkeeper’s Son”: “Every morning he woke up in the firmly locked cell of a new age-old day.” What translator Martin Chalmers describes as Bernhard’s “verbal logjam” evokes madness and suffering to the extent that we experience them ourselves.

‘The stories are preoccupied with mental illness and a sense of disappointment at the world. Bernhard’s loathing of the everyday is palpable. Vienna is viciously referred to as a “cemetery” with “silent megalomania”. The city is busier but no less isolating than jail, physically imprisoning its inhabitants and mirroring their mental states. Rural Austria doesn’t fare any better; the narrator in “Jauregg” spits blood about a small mining community: “general exhaustion prevails and a general will to nothing.” And while one tale, “Is it a comedy? Is it a tragedy?”, is specifically about the theatre, thespian imagery is used throughout the collection to convey the crudeness of modern life, “a repulsive operetta”.

‘In theme and style, Prose, which was originally published in 1967, closely echoes Bernard novels such as Old Masters and Concrete. It provides an excellent introduction to his work, or a satisfying reading experience in itself for those who like angst in small doses.’ — Mina Holland

‘The collection of Thomas Bernhard’s prose, aptly titled Prose (Seagull Books), should be anticipated as a major literary event (or at least as a book to celebrate). Whenever readers of the future want to recommend a Bernhard to start with, I hope that it will be this one. It’s possibly the most deranged, compact and dangerous performance I’ve seen Bernhard give, a performance somehow polyphonic within Bernhard’s singular voice that’s always, to often brutal and hilarious effect, dashing behind itself only to expose its weaknesses again and again. Here Bernhard is a tightrope-walker like no other.’ — Alec Niedenthal

 

Further

* Buy Thomas Bernhard’s ‘Prose’
* Thomas Bernhard Website (in English)
* The Thomas Bernhard Foundation (in German)
* Thomas Bernhard Website (in Spanish)
* Thomas Bernhard interviewed by Asta Scheib
* ‘Heidegger, That Ridiculous Nazi Philistine’ by Thomas Bernhard
* ‘My Thomas Bernhard Obsession’ @ More Intelligent Life
* ‘Reading Thomas Bernhard’ @ Context
* Thomas Bernhard’s poetry reviewed @ The New York Sun
* Robert Kelly’s ‘Letter to Thomas Bernhard
* Dumbledore’s death in the style of Thomas Bernhard

 

Media


Thomas Bernhard: Three Days (1970) – ‘You talk to people, you are alone.’


Thomas Bernhard – 1988


Thomas Bernhard in Mallorca in 1981


Thomas Bernhard’s house


Thomas Bernhard grinding

 

Gallery

 

Interview
(from signandsight.com)

 

Thomas Bernhard: So, I’ll just keep reading the paper, you don’t mind, do you?

Werner Wögerbauer: Well, no, by all means.

TB: You’ll have to ask something and then you’ll get an answer.

WW: Does the fate of your books interest you?

TB: No, not really.

WW: What about translations for example?

TB: I’m hardly interested in my own fate, and certainly not in that of my books. Translations? What do you mean?

WW: What happens to your books in other countries.

TB: Doesn’t interest me at all, because a translation is a different book. It has nothing to do with the original at all. It’s a book by the person who translated it. I write in the German language. You get sent a copy of these books and either you like them or you don’t. If they have awful covers then they’re just annoying. And you flip through and that’s it. It has nothing in common with your own work, apart from the weirdly different title. Right? Because translation is impossible. A piece of music is played the same the world over, using the written notes, but a book would always have to be played in German, in my case. With my orchestra!

WW: Reading your books, one gets the impression that you see no hope whatsoever in (eroticism).

TB: That’s a stupid question because nothing can live without eroticism, not even insects, they need it too. Only if you have a totally primitive notion of the erotic, of course, that’s no good, because I’m always at pains to go beyond the primitive.

WW: What kind of intellectual aims do you…

TB: These are all questions that can’t be answered because no one asks themselves that sort of thing. People don’t have aims. Young people, up to 23, they still fall for that. A person who has lived five decades has no aims, because there’s no goal.

WW: Many of your readers, including so-called highbrow critics, have repeatedly subjected your books to negative readings.

TB: I really couldn’t give a damn how people read my work…

WW: When people ring you up and say they’d like to commit suicide with you?

TB: People hardly ever ring up anymore, thank God.

 

Book

Thomas Bernhard Prose
(Seagull Books/University of Chicago Press)

‘The Austrian playwright, novelist, and poet Thomas Bernhard (1931–89) is acknowledged as among the major writers of our time. The seven stories in this collection capture Bernhard’s distinct darkly comic voice and vision—often compared to Kafka and Musil—commenting on a corrupted world.

‘First published in German in 1967, these stories were written at the same time as Bernhard’s early novels Frost, Gargoyles, and The Lime Works, and they display the same obsessions, restlessness, and disarming mastery of language. Martin Chalmer’s outstanding translation, which renders the work in English for the first time, captures the essential personality of the work. The narrators of these stories lack the strength to do anything but listen and then write, the reader in turn becoming a captive listener, deciphering the traps laid by memory—and the mere words, the neverending words with which we try to pin it down. Words that are always close to driving the narrator crazy, but yet, as Bernhard writes “not completely crazy.”’ — University of Chicago Press

Excerpt

Two Tutors

While the new tutor has until now remained silent during our lunchtime walk, which to me has already become a habit, today from the start he had a need to talk to me. Like people who for a long time have said nothing and suddenly feel it to be a terrible lack, as something alarming to themselves and the whole of society linked to them, he explained to me all at once, agitatedly, that, really, he always wanted to speak, but could not speak, talk. I was no doubt familiar with the circumstance, that there are people, in whose presence it is impossible to speak . . . In my presence, it was so difficult for him to say anything that he was afraid of every word, he did not know why, he could investigate it, but such an effort would probably vex him over far too long a period of time. Especially now, at the beginning of term, under the pressure of hundreds of pupils, all of them hostile to discipline, under the pressure of the ever coarsening season, he could not afford the least vexation. “I permit myself absolutely nothing now,” he said, “I consist one hundred per cent only of my personal difficulties.” Although or precisely because I was a person who, so it appeared to him, had the greatest understanding for him, at my side he was always condemned, at best, as he put it, to make “ridiculous, indeed embarrassing remarks,” yes, or condemned to absolute silence, which caused him continuous torment. For weeks now we have been going for walks side by side and haven’t conducted a single conversation. It is true that we, the new tutor and myself, the old one, have been able, until this moment, to manage a single conversation; the remarks on the unusual weather conditions, on colours, the egoism of nature, abrupt excesses on the surface of the Alpine foothills, on books, read and unread, intentions, lack of intentions, on the catastrophic lack of interest of all pupils in their studies, on our own lack of interest, on eating and sleeping, truth and lies, chiefly, however, on the most shabby neglect, on the part of those responsible, of the forest paths on which we walk, are not conversations; our remarks destroy our will to converse, our remarks, like remarks altogether, the “attempts at capturing the moment,” as he calls them, have nothing to do with the idea of conversation. Here on the Mönchsberg we make, as we walk, walking and thinking, each for himself and completely isolated, hundreds of remarks, but we have not yet succeeded in having a conversation, we do not tolerate a conversation. Because we are who we are, there is no lack of topics of conversation, but we do not permit ourselves to deploy them for purposes of pure entertainment. Since the beginning of term we walk with each other, beside each other, as if above the dreadful school accumulations, and have not conducted a single conversation. We prevent conversation as if we loathe it. Conversation as the expression of the most absurd human miseries is not possible for us. As far as conversation is concerned we are both such characters who must avoid it in order to save ourselves in a totalitarian madness from being frightened to death. Today, too, no conversation came about. We walk well outside the town and above it and in the middle of it through a grotesque alpine limestone flora, constantly at the mercy of critical observation and constantly making critical observations. The soothing effect of a conversation—we do not permit ourselves such a thing. In fact what the new tutor during our walk today had initially taken the liberty of judging a “confession,” he already described, after only a couple of sentences, as if he wanted from the outset to prevent any intervention on my part in this “confession,” to make it impossible, as merely a remark. Today’s remark, however, is of the greatest importance. With respect to his person, and with respect above all to the relationship between him and myself, today’s remark by the new tutor proves to be the most revealing.

The new tutor joined me under the windows of the great dormitory after morning lessons. He was pale from overexertion, but did not complain. His undemanding nature occupied my thoughts in the most painful way as we rapidly made progress, finally coming almost to the walls of the brewery, where he suddenly began to talk of his earliest childhood and then immediately of the sleeplessness, which is very closely related to his earliest childhood. This inconsiderately inborn sleeplessness was worsening indeed with time and there was no remedy for it. It was absurd to suddenly say now, that he suffered from sleeplessness, everything was absurd, and that his sleeplessness was that absolute brain- and body- destroying sleeplessness, the cause of death for him, for his confession, however, “for what follows,” it was, he could no longer remain silent about it, indispensable.

“If you can imagine,” he said, “that already as a child I had to lie in bed awake for ten, twelve nights in a row, dead tired, without being able to sleep. An adult,” he said, “can, thanks to his intelligence, control his sleeplessness, make it ridiculous. Not a child. A child is at the mercy of sleeplessness.” Above the New Gate, without as usual looking down vertically on the town, we turned, as every day, to the right, not to the left: he wants to turn right, turns right, so I also turn right, because at this point above the New Gate he has always turned right, he now no longer dares turn left, I think . . . It is up to me, one day to turn left, then he too will turn left, follow me, because he is the weaker of the two of us. . . For the same reason I have now for weeks been following him to the right . . . Why? The next time I’ll simply turn left, then he too will turn left . . . The time when I can be useful to him when as usual I allow him to turn right, follow him to the right, is over, I think, now I only harm him, when I let him turn right and follow him . . . He no longer has the strength all at once to turn left . . . Shortly after the fork he said: “What I said to you regarding my sleeplessness is related to my discharge from the Innsbruck establishment, in which, as you know, I was employed until the beginning of the holidays.” He said, “All my life I have led only an awful life, and it is my right to lead an awful life, and this awful life is my sleeplessness . . . But now, the story which led to my discharge from the Innsbruck establishment. Like all my stories it begins with my inability to sleep. I was unable to fall asleep. I take many drugs, but no drug helps me any more. I had,” he said, “walked for hours along the north bank with my students. We were all tired. My eyes open, incapable of distracting myself by reading, at the mercy of my lifelong sleeplessness, I was gripped by the most despicable thoughts and said to myself again and again: they sleep, I don’t sleep, they sleep, I don’t sleep, I don’t sleep, they sleep, I don’t sleep . . . This boarding school silence, this dreadful silence emanating from the dormitories . . . When everyone is asleep, only I am not sleeping, I am not . . . This tremendous capital in the young people’s dormitories, I thought . . . The Föhn conditions which stuff sleep into people and suck sleep out of people . . . The pupils sleep, I don’t sleep . . . These endless nights when heart and spirit die . . . Profoundly aware that there is no remedy for my sleeplessness, I was unable to fall asleep . . . Just imagine, I haven’t been able to sleep for weeks . . . There are people who maintain they don’t sleep, but they do. There are some who maintain they haven’t slept for weeks, and have always slept excellently . . . But I really haven’t slept for weeks! For weeks, for months! As my scribblings, my notes, show, I haven’t slept for months. I have a thick notebook in which I keep a record of my sleeplessness. Every hour of the night in which I don’t sleep is marked by a black stroke, every hour of the night in which I do is marked by a black dot. This notebook,” said the new tutor, “contains thousands of black strokes and only five or six dots. You will not doubt, I assume, now that you know me, the accuracy with which I keep a record of my sleeplessness. And that night, on account of which I am now once again incensed to such a degree that I fear it could give offence, indeed give you offence, that night after a day full of annoyances, as far as my pupils are concerned, incessant, juvenile nonsense, insufferableness, the unyieldingly perverse rock face of Hafelekar in front of me, I was unable to sleep, unable to fall asleep, not even by enlisting quite the most embarrassing pretexts in my already catastrophic choice of reading . . . I leafed,” he said, “quite randomly through Fear and Trembling and through Either/Or and through the Pascalian thought particles, as if these were popular masochistic pharmacology books for cases of quite minor imbecility . . . Then suddenly, at about two in the morning, at the moment at which my tiredness could overcome my sleeplessness, I suddenly felt it: the tiredness began to get the better of the sleeplessness, I fell asleep, really, I fell asleep, although for a long time, as you know, I had no longer thought of being able to sleep, had no longer dared think . . . But hardly had I fallen asleep, than I woke up again—and was woken by an animal, by an animal that had come out of the forest . . . This course of events had already repeated itself for weeks by then . . . I wake up and I hear the animal, for weeks I hear the animal under my window . . . in the snow . . . every night at the same time I hear under my window the animal in the snow . . . I don’t know what kind of an animal it is, I don’t have the strength to get up and go to the window and look out and down . . . Even now I don’t know what kind of an animal it was . . . The course of events, that I was unable to fall asleep, but then fell asleep nevertheless and after that was immediately woken up by the animal, was repeated, as is shown by my sleeplessness notes, for exactly thirty-six nights. On the thirty-seventh night, the same course of events: I was unable to sleep, unable to fall asleep, and, while I am still humiliated in the most terrible way by the thought of being unable to sleep, of not having fallen asleep, I must, as in the previous thirty-six nights have fallen asleep nevertheless, because I suddenly woke up, awoken by the animal which has stepped onto the snow beneath my window which, as you know, is always open, even in the most severe winter . . . Looking for food . . . Then,” said the new tutor, “I got up and released the safety catch on the revolver which, throughout my career as a tutor I always have under my pillow, and shot the animal in the head.”

We were now both looking down on the square in front of the brewery. “Naturally, everyone woke up,” said the new tutor, “the pupils first, then the tutors, the professors, the headmaster. I observed, I listened, as they pulled the shot animal away from the draw-well, along the wall. The tutors dragged it into the building. I heard my name called. A good shot. Naturally, I instantly handed in my resignation. A good shot. I detest Innsbruck. Here, in Salzburg, I already observe now, however, after only the shortest time, the signs of a new calamity. I expressly ask you, dear colleague,” said the new tutor, “for forgiveness.”
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p.s. Hey. ** David, Hi. I’ve never watched ‘Dr. Who’, not even an excerpt as far as I can remember. So Tom Baker is a total blank. I’ve only been arrested twice, unless I’m spacing out, both for boring reasons a million years ago. Once for not paying my parking tickets, once for growing pot in my backyard. Every time I ever did something actually arrest worthy, I got lucky. How boring. Good thing the Dream Police are just a song though. ** Bill, Hey. From what I can tell from following his feed and exchanging the odd message, Steve is doing quite well. Lives out in nature, I cannot remember where. Maybe Oregon? Naturally my mind is instantly imagining how I can make a Hell Banquet ASAP. Thanks, buddy. Onodera’s work is pretty all over the place, which I like about it. I guess her early films were more narrative and film-like. One of them, I think ‘Ten Cents’, apparently caused some kind of riot at the SF Gay and Lesbian Film Festival, as it was known then. ** _Black_Acrylic, I think your flash fiction association makes sense. Wow, your comment the other day was by dictaphone? I wonder if that’s a first ever for this blog. If so, imagine a trophy and me handing it to you. ** Dominik, Hi!!! Oh, you only just saw ‘Irreversible’? Yeah, it’s intense, no? I loved it, but it did really shake me up the first time I saw it. That head crushing scene at the beginning has to be among the most shocking filmic moments ever. I saw it in a theater when it first came out with some friends, one of whom had to run to the bathroom and vomit. But she came back and watched the rest of the film. I knew your love would put his Nobel Prize to good use. Gust is a little weak, true. Maybe a tempest? Dare I draw the conclusion that your love of yesterday strangely resembled you? If so, I hope sanity is both of yours now. Love pulling a hat out of a rabbit, G. ** T, Hi, T. I’m very happy that Onodera charmed you. I suspect a charm offensive is part of her deal. No, I’ve never been to Fontainebleau. It’s one of those nearby places I always want to go but never have. For the forest and the castle. I like castles. If you like castles, I recommend the Loire Valley. There’s a shitload of them there, and a couple of them are wack. How did you know that my today will be spent in a daze? I can tell it will be already. And I …think it’ll be pleasant. I hope your today is really non-dazed just to give your life some variety. xo. ** Steve Erickson, Hi. I agree about the hurricane sex. That might also give the watered down Gaspar Noe ‘endless’ tracking shot that proceeds it a bit more oomph. Mm … I don’t think I’ve devoted a full Day to anarcho-punk, no. I should, shouldn’t I? Huh. Okay, I’ll look into that. Thanks! I’ve eaten vegan fake ‘turkey’. It doesn’t even remotely taste like turkey, although I haven’t eaten turkey since I was 14 years old, but I’m pretty sure. Was it the kind where faux-turkey meat is sculpted around a plastic turkey skeleton such that it tries to look like a real cooked turkey but doesn’t at all? I had one of those once. Cute but yuck.  ** Brian, Hi, Brian. So true about overblown hype. ‘Annette’ is up there for me too. I don’t know if it’s my fave. I have to make my list for the blog. I don’t know if it qualifies as full-on experimental, but one of my favorite films of recent years is ‘The Rest I Make Up’,a documentary about the theater maker Maria Irene Fornes. It’s great. As far as great older experimental docs, let me think about that. There are quite a lot, I think. To state the most obvious, Herzog’s early documentaries are really great. And Errol Morris’s too. ‘Fast, Cheap an Out of Control’ is one of my favorite films. As is Herzog’s ‘The Great Ecstasy of Woodcarver Steiner’. I agree with you about ‘VU’. I don’t know ‘Son of the White Mare’ or ‘The Apple’. I’ll investigate. I didn’t end up seeing the Rainier films for boring reasons. Oh well. Enjoy your family in every way possible. You guys doing the whole classic Thanksgiving shebang tomorrow? ** Right. I thought I’d train the spotlight on good old Thomas Bernhard, and, this blog being this blog, I chose a book of his that people don’t write or talk about so much. See you tomorrow.

Midi Onodera Day

 

‘Midi Onodera is an award-winning filmmaker and media artist who has been making films and videos for more than 35 years. She has produced over 25 independent shorts, ranging from 16mm film to digital video to toy camera formats. In 2018 she received the Governor General’s Award in Visual and Media Arts. Skin Deep (1995), her theatrical feature, screened internationally at festivals including the Rotterdam International Film Festival and the Toronto International Film Festival. Her film The Displaced View (1988) was nominated for Best Documentary at the Gemini Awards.

‘Her experimental narrative project ALPHAGIRLS (2002) was the first Canadian interactive performance art DVD, and since 2006 she has made over 500 vidoodles (defined as bite-sized 30-second to 2-minute video doodles). From 2006–07 she published one a day for 365 days and has since released a video project each year, addressing themes of language, media, politics and everyday life. In 2017 she published an interactive narrative developed from her experience in Afghanistan as a Canadian Forces Artist in 2010.

‘Onodera’s work is held in collections around the world, and she has given lectures and workshops at galleries and institutions across North America and Japan. She currently teaches and continues to work on experimental media projects in Toronto.’ — Mo.Com

 

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Further

Midi Onodera Site
MO @ VUCAVU
Midi Onodera: TOO MUCH TIME ON MY HANDS
DVD: ‘ Midi Onodera: Collected Works, Vol. 1‑3’
MO @ EXC-19
midi onodera @ Twitter
midi_onodera @ instagram
Camera Obscura for Dreams: an interview with Midi Onodera
MO @ Canadian Women Film Directors Database
MO @ MUBI
MO @ Letterboxd
Dialoguing on Miniature Cinema as New Art: Sheena Wilson with Midi Onodera
Out of Place: Midi Onodera
Recuperating oblivion in The Displaced View (1988). Midi Onodera’s intercultural feminist cinematic experiment
Moving Image Artist Midi Onodera’s Vidoodles

 

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Extras


Portrait of Midi Onodera, 2018


Art Intersections Meetup: Midi Onodera


Home Movie 5

 

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Interview

 

Mike Hoolboom: Midi, I wonder if you could tell me about your beginnings in film. Were they an important part of your growing up? Did you enter the fray in order to change the kind of pictures which surrounded you, or to enter into that starlight? Perhaps all art begins with emulation, and variations on received wisdoms become one’s practice. But did you feel yourself in the early days of your witnessing to be outside the mainstream flow, or was the seduction intact?

Midi Onodera: I started making films in high school through a film studies class. The class mainly consisted of criticism and film theory but at the end of the semester we had a choice of making a film or writing an essay. Naturally I chose to make a film. With super-8 cameras courtesy of the Toronto Board of Education I embarked on my first film, Reality-Illusion. Although I knew very little about the technical aspects of filmmaking, I remember reading various how-to books and bugging my teacher for tips. The seven minute film was “experimental.” Although I had a vague premise of the “teenage outsider,” destruction, violence, etc. there was no clear storyline. I recall that the main character wore a long black cape and a gas mask and carried a scythe. The costume came in particularly handy since I just asked various friends to fill the role (counting on those who were skipping classes or on a smoke break). Highlights of the film included a few scenes in a Jewish cemetery, a single frame animation scene with styrofoam wig head and pyrotechnics (using the family barbecue). Unfortunately the Board of Education did not have any splicers and since I of course needed to edit my film, I set-up a system using a razor blade to cut the film after measuring off the footage with a hand-made 24fps ruler. I joined the film using scotch tape and then punched the sprocket holes out using a straight pin.

Immediately I loved the hands-on aspect of filmmaking, holding the footage up to the light and selecting my shots. It was all very primitive but fun and incredibly rewarding. My second film was a kind of homage to Robert Wiene’s The Cabinet of Dr. Caligari (1919). I loved the hyperdramatic expressionistic look of the film, the exaggerated acting and otherworldliness of it all. My version, Contemplation, was a short abstract study in teenage suicide. The “actors” wore black tights and white bathing caps with white paintstick face makeup. By the time I graduated from high school I had made three films. After that there was no looking back.

Naturally I gravitated towards an arts education and although it broke my parent’s hearts (they had dreams of their daughter as a successful doctor or lawyer), I decided to go to the Ontario College of Art. At that time, in the late 70s, there were very few Asian students at OCA, let alone of Japanese descent. I recall two other Asian students in my class, both determined to pursue a career in graphic design. I too was influenced by the commercial tide and had aspirations to become a fashion designer. I knew nothing of contemporary experimental film and never imagined I could actually survive as an independent filmmaker.

Gradually through my film studies classes at the college, my knowledge of cinema increased as did my filmography. The main stumbling block that I faced in those days was the technology. It was a challenge to successfully create what I saw in my mind and realize it in film. Feminism was the buzz word of the day, but somehow most of the male film and video (technical) instructors hadn’t heard it. Luckily my parents gave me a super-8 camera for my seventeenth birthday and this gave me tremendous freedom. Gradually I purchased my own super-8 editor and splicer, and guided by my dog-eared copy of Independent Filmmaking by Lenny Lipton I eventually worked through the mechanics of super-8 filmmaking. Throughout OCA I continued to make films, alongside painting and photography. By the time I graduated I had made eleven more films. All of the work was shot in super-8 and with the exception of one film, remained in the super-8 format. I learned how to optically print film because I wanted to include subtitles in a piece I was working on and eventually I started to use the optical printer to manipulate super-8 original and blow it up to 16mm.

There is no question that in the 1980s the worlds of film and video were universes apart and from the beginning I fell into the film camp. Although I was exposed to many video artists’ work, I always felt visual explorations in video were limiting and the technology overly complicated. I love the romance of sitting in a dark theatre and falling into the world of film—the flickering of the projector light, the mechanical hum coming from the back of the room, the magic unfolding on screen. Even the technical language of film seems to be more lyrical than video—the legend of MOS—”mit out sound” or “without sound” spoken in a German accent; answer prints, reversal film stock, etc. Compared with the clinical and sometimes sexualized language of video: female to male connectors, “lesbian” connectors, BNC, etc.

As far as the mainstream aspects of cinema, I never felt that I wanted to make a Hollywood-type drama. I was so drawn to the work of avant-garde filmmakers such as Joyce Wieland, Maya Deren, Man Ray, Dali and especially Kenneth Anger that I actually didn’t even go to the regular movie theatre very much while I was at school. Perhaps it was my punk, feminist, Japanese background that made me feel like I could have a voice in experimental film. I could express myself on my terms rather than conform to mainstream expectations of cinematic representation. But even within the haven of experimental film there were remnants of the 1970s presence of structuralism—the endless viewings of work by Stan Brakhage, Michael Snow, Hollis Frampton. I tried to like the work, really I did. It just never touched me.

Mike: When I met you in the early 1980s you had been hired to be the equipment guide and technical director (what was the exact title again?) at the Funnel, a now defunct fringe movie showcase that aspired to vertical integration. There were twice weekly screenings, equipment for hire on the cheap (for members at least), and a modest distribution program. What drew you to the Funnel and why did you stay there?

Midi: Although I graduated from art school in 1983, my exposure to the Funnel began around 1980. At the time, experimental filmmaker Ross McLaren was one of my teachers. Besides showing various classic and current experimental film works, he tried to expose us to the world beyond school. This of course included a field trip to the Funnel. Located in the industrial edge of King Street East, the Funnel was THE centre for exhibition, distribution and production of experimental/artist-based films. I believe filmmaker Anna Gronau was the director around that time. To me, the Funnel was the centre of the universe. It was the coolest place in the city and somewhere you could go and immerse yourself in experimental film. I recall thinking that it would be amazing to show my films there, never mind that it was a small theatre (one hundred seats?), away from the rest of the Queen Street art scene, and freezing in the winter and boiling in the summer. I recall seeing Kenneth Anger and Ondine as a student, which was on par with meeting the Sex Pistols.

I got my wish and did indeed show many of my early works at the Funnel, first through student shows and later as a practicing artist. My first non-student screening took place in 1982 in a series called “Formal Film by Women” curated by Anna Gronau. That particular evening included a film by Joyce Wieland, another one of my role models. I couldn’t have been more thrilled. I recall speaking with Joyce after the screening and was touched by her warmth and generosity. Later, I got to know Joyce a bit better as I worked on restoring some of her old film prints.

When I look back on the early 80s now, I realize that many of the screenings I had took place within a feminist context. Some of my early exhibitions (photography and text pieces) and screenings were part of the International Women’s Day Conferences, and benefits for various lesbian and feminist publications. There seemed to be so much going on within the feminist community and in the world of experimental film.

Being an artist-run centre, the Funnel was on a tight budget and couldn’t afford to hire new staff unless it was through a government sponsored program. But as a recent grad, I knew I wanted to work there and start my life as an artist. Through a program called “Futures” I was hired as the equipment coordinator and paid the grand sum of $150 per week. Needless to say I was barely able to survive, living mostly on Jamaican beef patties, popcorn and soup. My job consisted of checking all the equipment, keeping it in running order, orienting members on all the equipment at the Funnel, organizing workshops and assisting with the biweekly screenings. It was one of the best jobs I’ve ever had. I worked first under the leadership of filmmaker and Funnel Director Michaelle McLean and with the great help and patience of Villem Teder, a fellow filmmaker, Funnel member and techno-whiz, learnt how to solder, make seamless reel changes and load the ancient 16mm Frezzolini camera. I worked during the day at my job and then would stay on late into the night working on my own films, using the equipment free of charge. During my years at the Funnel from 1984-1986 I met and hopefully assisted probably every artist who was working in film in Toronto at that time.

Mike: In an essay called Centre the Margins, Richard Fung talks about the absence of gay Asians on movie screens, and cites your The Displaced View (52 minutes 1988) as a notable exception. He goes on to write: “In my own video work in the area, I have seen the most important task as the representation of gay and lesbian Asians as subjects, both on the screen and especially as the viewer. I believe that it is imperative to start with a clear idea about audience. This in turn shapes the content of the piece.” Do you feel the same, do you begin your work with a clear idea of the audience, and the political arena your work is entering into? Do you feel the responsibility which is implied in Richard’s remarks about his own work, and does it similarly shape the form and content of your work?

Midi: Ideas for The Displaced View developed while I was in art school. One of my teachers was Morris Wolfe, who taught a number of classes in film criticism and theory. He was extremely encouraging and through his screenings and commentary I saw films from around the globe that embraced a kind of cultural specificity and delicacy that I wanted to convey in my own work. Morris encouraged me to look into my history, my cultural and familial relationship with the Japanese-Canadian community. I wrote a personal history piece narrating the conflicting views of three generations of Japanese-Canadians based mostly on my family history. This piece was later published in Fuse magazine and was the beginning of The Displaced View.

When I began work on the film, I decided immediately that my primary audience would be the Japanese-Canadian communities. Within that community my priority viewer would be the Issei, first generation JC. I felt that this generation, my grandmother’s, was dying out and it was important for me to convey their story in their language. I felt that the gay and lesbian audience would not be interested in the work since it did not deal directly with issues of sexuality.

In Richard’s paper he talks about the importance and scarcity of films and videos which represent lesbian and gay Asians. With The Displaced View I never saw my audience as lesbian and gay Asians. Perhaps this was due to the fact that back in the 1980s I had only met one other Japanese-Canadian lesbian. I was not active within the JC community, which was predominantly heterosexual while the lesbian communities in Toronto that I had come across were predominantly white.

Politically I did not realize the terrain I would be traveling would be so charged. Naïvely I believed that my work was more culturally charged than politically. Although I realized that my film would be the third film made in Canada by a JC about the internment, I honestly thought that I was storytelling, not making a political statement. (The first film was made by Jesse Nishihata Watari Dori: A Bird of Passage back in 1972, the second film, Clouds (1985) by Fumiko Kiyooka and Scott Haynes).

My motivations have never been solely politically driven. I am not a documentary filmmaker, I am interested in stories, the construction of identity, memory, personal history. I am not a political activist though I do inject my personal political views into the work. But just because I don’t personally impose a political framework does not mean that others (audiences, funders, etc) follow suit.

Like the San Francisco Lesbian and Gay Film Festival audience reaction, audiences in marginalized communities have enormous expectations about work produced by artists who they believe represent their communities. In 1988, when The Displaced View was launched, it was invited to a few lesbian and gay film festivals, based on my reputation with Ten Cents A Dance. For the most part, I think that lesbian and gay audiences were disappointed. It was not the sexually charged follow-up to Ten Cents that people expected. In fact the lesbian content is minor, some would argue non-existent. Most lesbian and gay audiences didn’t even consider it to be a “lesbian film” nor one that was suitable for that specific audience. On the other hand, within the mainstream festival world the film got substantial play at international film festivals to mixed audiences-straight, gay, mixed races, etc. As far as Asian-specific festivals, there were far fewer back in those days, but overall I recall a positive reaction although for the most part it was classified as a documentary—but that’s another issue.

I think that if I were naturally a more socially-driven person, I might feel more political responsibility for my work. Perhaps if I had to rely more on my subjects to tell a story, as in documentary practice, I would feel the community pressure more intensely. But my favourite way of working is in solitude. I want to shape the work according to the material, the shot, the sound, the rhythm of the sequence, not around political motivations.

 

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Spam Baam (2021)
‘Spam has been around since May 3, 1978 when Gary Tuerk sent out the first spam email. Tuerk worked for the Digital Equipment Corp (DEC) and sent out 400 emails inviting people to a product demo of the DECSYSTEM-2020, 2020T, 2060 and 2060T computers. It received such negative reaction that it wasn’t attempted again until about 10 years later.

‘Here we are in 2021 and we continue to get those unwanted emails. Last year I received a strange spam message that actually told a short story. Yes, there was a fake YouTube link to click on and a bit of Russian, but it wasn’t the usual shill for erectile dysfunction or free money from a stranger. I was intrigued. In December, my inbox was suddenly overwhelmed with spam, pestering me to DO SOMETHING! So, this year’s series is on just that, Spam.’ — MO


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Gently Down the Stream (2020)
‘On one of my recent strolls around the internet garden, I found myself staring at a video feed from Amarillo Texas. Specifically, the Big Texan 72 oz Live Stream. The camera was positioned close to the ceiling pointing down on an empty table set with five brightly coloured plastic boot glasses resting on paper placemats. As the occasional restaurant patron or waitstaff ambled past the table, the background displayed a busy kitchen complete with a cowboy hat wearing chef at the open grill. I was mesmerized. This was not TV, measured entertainment. As I watched another hunk of steak flop down on the fiery grill, I felt I was intruding. This is the world of live steaming video.’ — MO


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Senseless and Random (2019)
‘2019. This is the year the phenomenally breath-taking anime, “Akira” is set. Fictitiously the future is here and in that spirit this year’s video project is a faint reflection in a mirror we have yet look at. Speculative and science fiction have become the go-to genres we use to contextualize our reality and find a way to reflect on our global anxieties.

‘This year’s series title, “Senseless and Random” is in homage to Jack Womack’s exquisitely imagined novel, “Random Acts of Senseless Violence”. Published in 1993, the story is set in a near-future Manhattan and told from the perspective of a 12 year old girl. Written 25+ years ago, the pre-apocalyptic landscape of Manhattan feels more like a future visible on the horizon of today. The videos for this year are not necessarily about the present-future, they are more about random thoughts, unreal realities, and senseless current events. Welcome to the future!’ — MO


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Lonely Videos (2017)
‘If one looks specifically at YouTube, 300 hours of video are uploaded every minute, yet according to TubeMogul, 53% of these videos have fewer than 500 views and about 30% have less than 100 views. That means that there are a lot of lonely videos out there, desperately waiting to be seen. For this year’s project, I decided to try and find friends for these lonely videos, so each month I will find and re-make a video with less than 20 views and then post them back to YouTube to see if I can increase the number of views (friends) for these lonely videos.’ — MO

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Annual Report (2015)
‘Identity politics hasn’t disappeared, its just taken a 21st century digital twist. Who would have imagined that the once thought-provoking, quietly reflective term, “self portrait” would morph into the narcissistic, self-aggrandizing, word: “selfie”. It’s all about me…and you should be interested in my Tweets, my Instagram pics, my Facebook posts and Vines. Social media and public posts have become the cracked mirror before us, demanding insight into the constructed self. How we choose to be seen, which filters we apply over our personal skins do not reveal the genuine self, but rather a projection of our publicly consumable identity. This is our personal brand. So in 2015, I have decided to attempt to define my brand and clarify my key message statements. Over the next year I will be releasing monthly video reports along this theme and at the close of the project I will have complied my Annual Report on me.’ — MO

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Kicking Around (2014)
‘While sourcing found footage for this year’s project I came across the 16mm “music video” for Strawberry Tuesday by the late 1960’s group, Sidewalk Skipper Band. I am posting the first video of the year as a ready-made. I have not altered or manipulated the footage. Though the band never made it as the cultural icons they could have been the music and the style perfectly capture the era.

‘“Strawberry Tuesday” released in 1968 was the title track on one of only three 45s released by the Sidewalk Skipper Band. Hailing from Milwaukee, Wisconsin, the band was signed by capitol records, recording two 45s in Chicago. They are well regarded among fans of psychedelic music of this era. Second Life DJ, Susan Mowadeng, speculates about their short-lived success, why didn’t they take off? Was it the “British Invasion” or poor marketing?’ — MO

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The Classifieds (2013)
‘For 2013, my new project focuses on classified ads and the usual items that people post. Inspired by various sources I will choose a category and create a vidoodle based on one of the ads. I will also be posting my own classifieds online, all over North America, so if you happen to be hunting for a bargain you just might stumble upon one of my ads. For this project we’re launching a new mobile site, www.vidoodles.com that is designed for watching videos on your mobile device, the ideal viewing situation.’ — MO


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The Grand Design (2012)
‘Filmed in scrumptious outdated super 8, The Grand Design is a glimpse into the reflections of a dying burlesque performer. Vintage black and white clips from stag films of the 1950s are juxtaposed against a muted Tuscan landscape, the home and final resting place of the unnamed woman. The Grand Design is an unapologetic look back at an unconventional life, lived to its fullest, in an almost forgotten moment of pop culture.’ — MO

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Grief Without Fantasy (2012)
‘In February during a special screening of Cinenova: All Hands on the Archive, featuring The Displaced View and Ronna Bloom’s video, I Feel Hopeful about the Future, I had the opportunity to chat with Ronna about her work and her current poetry. I was struck by the power of her video and her understated yet effective performance on camera. I encouraged her to consider a redux version of the video, 26 years after the original. Although this hasn’t yet happened we did manage to come up with something else.’ — MO


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Baker’s Dozen (2010)
‘2010. According to the Japanese calendar, this is Heisei 22, the Chinese name it the Year of the Tiger and the United Nations has proclaimed it the International Year of Biodiversity. But what is my interpretation of 2010? Originally I had thought of doing a project called Year of MIDI. This was not meant to be some shallow, egotistical, self-aggrandizing project, (well maybe a tiny bit) but was supposed to be a year-long project inspired by Twitter.

‘For those who tweet, you’ll know that sometimes it’s difficult to find people with similar interests unless you know their @name. A common search seems to involve “@” one’s interest/hobby. This is how I happen to amass a small MIDI music following. MIDI, stands for Musical Instrument Digital Interface. But Midi is also my name. So in tribute to this industry-standard protocol, I thought I would put out a call to all MIDI musicians to submit soundtracks for this year’s weekly movies.’ — MO


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Movie of the Week (2009)
‘As a V.2 television baby, (version 2: Colour TV) I was deeply influenced by the pop culture living room entertainment of my youth. Way back in the early 1970s, ABC took the concept of big screen entertainment and repackaged it for the prime time TV audience. These made-for-TV movies ran the gamut from science fiction to cop dramas to historical fictions. Some of my all-time favorite movies of the week were the pilot episodes for “Marcus Welby, M.D.”, “The Six Million Dollar Man” and “Get Christie Love!” By far the best movie of the bunch was “The Girl Most Likely to…” starring Stockard Channing as an “unattractive women” who survives a horrible car accident and undergoes radical plastic surgery, becoming “gorgeous” in the process. After her transformation she takes revenge on all the men who tormented her in her past.

‘But no matter what the movie of the week was, it was opening title sequence with the stunning soundtrack by Burt Bacharach that set the tone for this popcorn-eating television extravaganza. For 2009 I’ve decided to pay tribute to this golden age of TV and make my own movies of the week. In contrast to the larger than life entertainment moments, my versions are designed for today’s ipod audiences, quick, easy to consume and hopefully a tiny distraction from our everyday routines and obligations.’ — MO


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I have no memory of my direction (2005)
‘“I have no memory of my direction” is a feature length experimental narrative. The story unfolds through a Canadian-born Japanese woman’s voice-over as she dreams her way though Japan. Ostensibly searching for an emotional connection with her aging father, the woman contemplates her own inherited culture and familial touchstones. Her North American pop culture sensibility fuses with a distorted Japanese perspective to create a surreal interpretation of a “Japan of the imagination.” This fictional landscape is peppered with invented Japanese myths, ruminations on memory loss, the temporal space of digital photography and the ghosts of inherited imagination.’ — MO

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SLIGHTSEER (2001)
‘Some people say that cinema in its present state is on the verge of dying. But cinema is much more than just the magical chemistry concealed within this format. It is imagination, faith, and suspension of belief. It is our collective past, a reflection of ourselves. Without this history we are doomed to repeat the past. Without our continued thirst to quench our vision we are simply sightseers in a “global image economy”.’ — MO

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Skin Deep (1995)
Skin Deep leads us into worlds where people are never what they appear to be. It is a riveting psychological drama about obsession, relationship and sexuality. As Alex Koyama prepares to shoot an exploitation film about tattooing and the culture of pleasure and pain, the world around her exists only to serve her film. She initiates a dangerous and threatening game when Chris Black responds to her ad in a tattoo magazine. For Alex, this is living research, and she ignores the fact that Chris is deeply disturbed and gender-disoriented. This denial escalates into a psychological battle between Alex and Chris which alters their lives forever – because in a world of illusion, reality is the biggest lie.’ — Variety

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THE DEAD ZONE (1985)
‘Blinded by the desire for security and self-worth the main character becomes trapped by redundancy – a series of relationships which mean even less than the last, numbness, the dead zone.’ — MO

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Home Movies (1981)
‘A three projector film installation which consisted of three 50 foot film loops hung through a room. Memories of childhood constantly shift as time progresses.’ — MO

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FILTER QUEEN (1980)
‘Named after my mother’s beloved vacuum cleaner, this short film explores various ordinary household chores as seen through the eyes of a bored teenager.’ — MO

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p.s. Hey. ** David, You’re welcome, Dave. Steve Kilbey, Rimbaud, okay, I will. I visited his grave as well back in, mm, 1976. I have a vial of dirt from his grave in my LA pad. I was a super fan. I think it was only one leg? At first I was, like, those photos reminded you of the first time you deep throated?! But then I looked at them again, and I was, like, oh right. In Zac’s and my first film there’s a scene of a guy jerking offand crying at the same time. It’s harder than you think. ** Dominik, Hi!!! Glad you liked it. Oh, no, that was a real scene? I think my skin just crawled. Aw, now yesterday’s love is a very good love. That love deserves the … oh, what the heck … Nobel Prize! I guess in Science? Love accidentally having sex with a hurricane and getting pregnant and giving birth to a gust, G. ** Misanthrope, Hi. Mm, Mexican food. Count your lucky stars. Yeah, me too, about secret stuff. If I was an architect and could design my own house, 3/4 of the house would be secret areas. Like in ‘The Marbled Swarm’, I guess. I need to do another secret passage/room post. I haven’t done one in ages. I know, nb, wild. Who’s next? The Dreadful Flying Glove, Inthemostpeculiarway, … ? ** Sypha, CGI costs, man. Having just made that Home Haunt video game thing, I can tell you, that shit costs. Well, you’re the master of period detail. I’d like to see a public Zoom conversation you and Bret Ellis talking about period detail employment in literature. ** Bill, Hi. Oh, over on Facebook, Steve Lafreniere saw my link to your post, and we had a fond little exchange about you, and then Larry Roberts posted a link to your piece on the first SPEW, which I’m going to (re)read shortly. d’Agata did some kind of show that was his stuff and Bacon’s stuff together or … something like that. Making sense. Everyone, Mr. Bill Hsu wonders if any of you commenters aka DLs are on goodreads or letterboxd? Are you? If so, say so, or hook up with him over there. ** _Black_Acrylic, Bill’s muse-like relationship to yesterday’s post deserves your credit’s lion share. Oh, that’s cool, about the diction software. So, is it relatively easy for you write by talking/dictation? That would be gift. I don’t think I could do that. Well, I’ve never tried, but … Have you written using the software yet? No sweat? ** T, Hi, T. He does seem awfully committed, doesn’t he? Ha ha, well, being a vegan these days, what I eat could very well be gussied up fertiliser. It looks like that anyway. I hope Tuesday turns Paris into a tunnel and you into a light. xo. ** David Ehrenstein, Ah, yes. I’m sure you’ve seen Fassbinder’s section in ‘Germany in Autumn’ of him abusing his poor lover. ** Brian, Hey Brian. Totally gotcha about why you liked ‘Titane’. I can see that approach to it being perhaps the most or only fruitful way into it. If it hadn’t won Cannes, and if certain people weren’t talking about it like it’s some of stroke edgy auteur brilliance, I would have just shrugged at it. You know how it is. The experimental documentary is maybe my favorite genre these days. I seem to want to seek them out whenever possible. And, yes, it’s a rare one that blows one’s mind. Contemporaneously, I mean. There are many astounding ones from the past. I did mostly really like Haynes’ ‘VU’ though, with a few quibbles. Oh, okay, highly selective eating. I have a few friends who are like you. I have a friend who won’t eat anything that’s green, no matter what it is. And he doesn’t know why. Curious. And a hassle to deal with, I’m sure. But it’s interesting from a distance. You know how I love originality. I hope your last day of classes pre-the big T go well or quickly or masterfully or whatever is best. Today I have to text Zac’s and my producer, and I’m going to look at some art, and I think Zac and I are going to see a bunch of Yvonne Rainer films tonight. Like that there. I hope NYC sees you out today with a somehow non-embarrassing ticker tape parade. ** Okay. My guess is that the films and videos of Midi Onodera will be new to a lot of you, and I hope you’ll end your day feeling pleased to have made their acquaintance. Possible? See you tomorrow.

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