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Spotlight on … Jean-Jacques Schuhl Ingrid Caven (2000) *

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‘”I have a very small cult reputation to protect,” Jean-Jacques Schuhl protested to me a few months ago in Paris when he learned that he’d been nominated for the Prix Goncourt (and the four other top French literary prizes) for his first book in twenty-three years. Now that he’s won the Goncourt, this avatar of Duchampian wit and encyclopedic misanthropy will just have to live with a much bigger cult. Ingrid Caven, his novel, is named for the celebrated singer he lives with, the former wife of Rainer Fassbinder and muse of Yves Saint Laurent; La Caven returned to the concert stage in November, at the Theatre de I’Odeon, in postmodern triumph, as a fictional character who sings. Ingrid Caven is not her biography, however, but a phantasmagorical riff on the social, political, and artistic history of our times, filtered through a meditation on stagecraft, the voice and attitude of the singer, the diva, the personae of history’s actors.’ — Gary Indiana

 

 

‘Jean-Jacques Schuhl was born in 1941 in Marseille. In 1972, he published Rose Poussière  mixing pop collages (extracts from newspapers, scores …) and descriptive fulgurances on real characters (Mao, Marlene Dietrich, the Stones …), elevated to the rank of myths unique and yet all interchangeable. Rose Poussière will become the fetish book of a whole generation. And the next one. His second text, Telex n ° 1 (1976), remains unavailable for a long time before his reissue this spring at L’Imaginaire. In 2000, Schuhl, after 24 years of absence, signed his great return to the literary scene: he received the Goncourt Prize for his novel Ingrid Caven, around the life of his companion, German singer and actress in the years 1960-70 . His latest book, Entry of the Ghosts, was released in 2010, again at Gallimard, in L’infini, the imprint of his friend Philippe Sollers.

‘Jean-Jacques Schuhl is an esthete who perceives the mutations of society with a deliciously feigned distance, at the periphery, that of the half-world. His taste for the observation of majestic decadences and his writing, elegiac or luminous, always chiseled, made him one of the most precious French authors (in the sense of sacred). And rare. So valuable. We are careful not to tell him, fearing to pass, like his alter-ego against Fred Hughes in the news of Vanity Fair, for “a complacent memorialist” (passage that will be cut in the course of the numerous discussions and corrections which will enlace the Elaboration of the text.) One evokes his readings of the moment: Reverdy therefore, and Proust, regularly. In the face of our avowed reluctance, he suggests that the best way to approach the work of the author of  Swann is to leave aside all the sociological and theoretical analyzes “rather boring, it must be said” To the benefit of descriptions of atmospheres, portraits and dazzling associations of ideas.’ — Jean Perrier

 

 

‘Jean-Jacques Schuhl was only 50 francs (about £5) better off yesterday after winning France’s top book award, the Prix Goncourt, for a difficult and experimental novel based on the life of his lover. But his back manager will not be worried: Schuhl can expect to sell up to 500,000 copies of his book, Ingrid Caven, such is the prestige of the award. And the real Ingrid Caven, a German singer and actor, will not do too badly as a result of the book’s success, either. She tells this morning’s Le Monde that she has received several film offers as a result of its publication earlier this month.

‘Schuhl, 59, is hardly a well-known writer in France, not least because Ingrid Caven is his first novel for nearly 25 years. “It’s been a long time since I’ve written, and it’s a dramatic turn of events,” he told France-2 television after winning the award. “I didn’t expect it.” Caven was married to the film director Rainer Werner Fassbinder, and starred in many of his pictures. She was later a lover of Yves Saint Laurent. Caven was last seen in Britain in Raoul Ruiz’s movie adaptation of Proust, Time Regained.

‘The choice of Schuhl’s novel is certainly a vote for French literary iconoclasm at a time when the country’s literary prizes in general, and the Goncourt in particular, have been widely criticised for not rewarding literary merit but bowing to the pressures of leading publishers. But Schuhl’s award was described as the “a vote for quality” by Michel Tournier, one of the judges and a previous winner of the prize. “Jean-Jacques Schuhl’s novel isn’t a commercial book and it won’t be displayed prominently in bookshop windows,” he said. That last point may well be an exaggeration, since the award of the Prix Goncourt usually guarantees huge sale, the winner’s book often bought as a Christmas gift in France.’ — Stuart Jeffries

 

 


au fond, jean-jacques schuhl, c’est moi

 

Interview
from Purple Magazine

 

OLIVIER ZAHM – Do you still belong to the underground?

JEAN-JACQUES SCHUHL – The underground, it does not exist any more since now everything is in the light. It’s horrible ! It’s no longer attractive … It’s like poetry. In France, a poet is someone who has not known how to make a novel … In Germany, it is different: poetry has another status. Kafka, for example, is considered a “dichter”, that is, a poet in a very strong and wider sense … In America, too, with the poets of the Beat Generation … Even Edgar Allan Poe is Curse, but with all that entails prestige. Here, it is still and always head in the moon! The underground, no longer exists because it was recovered by the mainstream. And it is no longer erotic to say underground in the current context of the unprecedented cult of money and power.

OLIVIER ZAHM – Is the term “novelist” better for you?

JEAN-JACQUES SCHUHL – I received the Goncourt prize with Ingrid Caven  … I have no problem with it. At the bottom I have almost written nothing … Three books in all and for all … That I am hardly classifiable, I want … Well!

OLIVIER ZAHM – You have written little, yet you play the figure of the novelist for a whole new generation.

JEAN-JACQUES SCHUHL – Maybe it’s because I’ve disappeared! After Rose Poussière came out in 1972, I did not write for very long. There was indeed Telex No. 1 . Then I left in the stratosphere: radio silence … But I returned with a literary brilliance and a price for Ingrid Caven.

OLIVIER ZAHM – Your trajectory is enigmatic, mysterious, very unusual today. It has an elliptical shape that enhances the “Schuhl myth”.

JEAN-JACQUES SCHUHL – In silence and absence are made fantasies … What has he done all this time? Where was he ? If I had definitely disappeared, we would no longer ask the question, but I came out of the silent desert to make a surprise mediaatic-literary hold-up! A beautiful booty indeed! Surveillance cameras have not spotted me! Stories of ghosts, it works
always…

OLIVIER ZAHM – But this mystery has been linked with your vision of writing and probably with the decline of literature which is now a machine to reveal everything from the author (memoirs, autobiography, autofiction …).

JEAN-JACQUES SCHUHL – For there to be an echo or a resonance, there must also be a little emptiness around. The music resonates with silences that count as notes, as in printing, the white has value in the typography of signs in its own right. We must never lose sight of silence. One always thinks of the full, it is the fault of the West. Without silence, without emptiness, things do not resonate or very badly.

OLIVIER ZAHM – This silence for more than twenty years has not been deliberate?

JEAN-JACQUES SCHUHL – There is undoubtedly a share of powerlessness in that or the requirement of something I could not develop after Rose Poussière . This narrative was intended as a manifesto for a sort of impersonal writing, made up of a mosaic of genres, quotations, observations, press articles, poems made of AFP dispatches, telexes with horse names Or hotel listings … It was something very personal. And impersonality leads quite normally to withdrawal and silence. I wanted to capture the air of the time without being too present. It was about being a simple sensor-transmitter … It was three times nothing, hardly a book, and that wrote itself, without me … I should not have signed it!

OLIVIER ZAHM: But why have not we pursued other texts?

JEAN-JACQUES SCHUHL – As of 1975-76, for me things are a little extinct. I was no longer stimulated as I had been in the late 1960s and early 1970s. Perhaps I could no longer observe, seize, listen to or see all these frail indecisive indices, but it was That I had no more matter. It was perhaps an alibi to justify a personal state. Perhaps a laziness. Take fashion in 75-76 for example, it has already swung into what it has become now: a market, economic powers, a kind of globalization and standardization, the dictatorship of commercial demand. Already was foreshadowed the resumption in hand by new forces … All that there was of savage and which had interested me, a kind of spontaneous emergence, was diluted … Everything that had fascinated me also in the English musics , Or the stuff that came from the East – including the history of the Chinese Red Guards – all this happened without warning, strikingly and unpredictably … It was very clear in fashion. I remember one of the first parades of Claude Montana in 1976-77, room Wagram, an old boxing room. There was an effect of unpredictability, of sudden emergence. I do not want to be nostalgic, say it was better before! Not at all ! But today we see quickly where things happen: revival, cloning, return of the same, reinterpretation, mixing weakened … So in more and more stifling … We see where it comes from! Not that before, it did not come from somewhere, but there was a dazzling and subversive rise that blurred immediate comprehension. What inspired and fascinated me was the savagery of something remote or foreign. Maybe I can no longer see or hear him. I always ask myself the question. Is it me or the world?

OLIVIER ZAHM – This is the question that despairs everyone …

JEAN-JACQUES SCHUHL – Hence the persistent fascination for the 60s and 70s. It is this period of emergence that keeps coming back to the heads and phagocytating us. Retro fashion and disembodied technology. But I’m still alert. In Search of the Present Time!

OLIVIER ZAHM – During all these years of silence, I have the impression that you have never given up, nor stopped observing, refine your perceptions. One feels it in Ingrid Caven which finally covers the time of this prolonged silence. As well as in your next novel of which I have read a few pages.

JEAN-JACQUES SCHUHL – Rose Poussière was made in chance. It is an assemblage of things that were in the air: the newspaper, the English fashions, a few dialogues of films, short portraits, a personage that I had wanted a little futuristic, Frankenstein-le-Dandy. All that made scarcely a book, between the manifesto, the narrative, the newspaper. Rose Poussière was directly connected to what can be called “reality”. With Ingrid Caven , I told a biographical romanticized story. Now I write through the screen of artistic elements, with filters. I look at David Lynch. I dive into Edgar Poe. Whereas at the time I read very little, and almost not … except the press, France Soir and magazines … I went out at night in clubs, I watched the street, fashions, styles, clothes … The Red Guards wanted the books burnt … Today I keep looking around. I read fashion magazines, but I’m less interested. I return to literature and cinema … In the excerpts of my next novel you read, I placed a character of mannequin with a certain reluctance, because it interests me less than before. It’s just the idea of ​​the mannequin, this automatic, inhuman or say non-human and manipulated thing, that always fascinates me.

OLIVIER ZAHM – How do you explain the confidential and persistent success of Rose Poussière through the years?

JEAN-JACQUES SCHUHL – An extract from a newspaper can be as important as a book. I like what passes and leaves very little trace: an extract of article, fugitive tracks on newspapers or magazines, words on the sand … But precisely, Rose Poussière which was hardly a book, Crossed the time. Before it was published, I brought some fragments of texts to Gallimard, like that, without thinking of anything … It was made of bric-a-brac, a kind of ephemeral collage of telex, newspapers, film dialogues and a few Texts from me. I am glad that this thing has become a little cult book … A friable and light thing that first sold to a hundred copies and then a few thousand and more. You yourself asked me to use the title for an exhibition on French art at the Grand Palais, La Force de l’Art . One day I was at a parade of Christian Lacroix. I did not know him personally and he whispered in my ear: “Rose Poussière” … Like a password … I had wanted to put in

Featured accessories. Pink Dust was a shade of make-up I’d seen in London: Dusty Pink . My title is a makeup! Now, accessories have become the essential, 70% of the brands revenue. They clutter up everything, they see nothing but themselves. They too are in full light. I do not care. What I like, these are the stars in the shadows! Personally, I prefer Ingrid Caven , I think it is a novel more accomplished.

But what made it so that Ingrid Caven shot 350,000 copies and Rose Poussière became a cult book with so much resonance, the great echo of a little thing …

OLIVIER ZAHM – It’s the butterfly effect!

JEAN-JACQUES SCHUHL – Yes, it’s relatively hushed for years and it’s growing and spreading. In fact objects found came to fit in a book and I was medium of the times. The best of arts is a medium. People are barring this today with the cult of “Me I”. If one is a medium, as the fisherman tends the net, things come to it.

OLIVIER ZAHM – You still have to know how to throw the net, because you are a great stylist.

JEAN-JACQUES SCHUHL – Yes, of course, you have to open your ears and your eyes, be there without being there … Everyone can be a medium at times on his zone. Go for a walk in the night for example and let things pass through you … Intermittent medium, voila!

OLIVIER ZAHM – There are very few writers who, like you, go out at night, read fashion magazines, are interested in modern and contemporary art. In Paris, it is the self of the writer, self-fiction and psychology that predominate …

JEAN-JACQUES SCHUHL – I really like journalism. Mallarmé directed and wrote his own newspaper, La Dernière Mode , all the sections, including under feminine pseudonyms … I put my rare articles on the same level as my books. I do not make any difference. A writer should be at least a little journalist in the twist: openness to the world, capture of what is happening, precision of copyist, scribe …

 

 

Jean-Jacques Schuhl Ready-made & cut-up: on William S. Burroughs (1975)

The cut-up exists without Burroughs. It’s the newspaper. The agency dispatches were torn and then shown. It is enough then to read his daily life without bending to the references on the inside page (the suite, that is what it is next to), that is to say like a book, sweeping the whole page, and By connecting the various items. It’s a ready-made-cut-up. For my part, I work from the newspapers which are what best reflects the official discourse – especially France Soir. But rather than break the meaning, as Burroughs does, I prefer to mining it from inside, betraying it, pretending to play its game, and blurring it. I take a newspaper clipping that seduces me as a beautiful symptom, and puts it in relation with other cuts, or other cuts (all around), or with what is on the back of the page (I cut With the chisel the page and then looks at what is on the back, materially what is related to what I wanted to cut), or transparently in the light of a lamp, to obtain a spectral text (see-through ). We can say that it is a reorganization of the newspaper, a redistribution of its elements, with thin games, quotes hardly displaced, slight lags, slides, transparencies, telescoping, mine of Nothing, a “serious” (political) heading and a “frivolous” heading (turf, set of 7 errors). It would have to be seen almost as a fire, only this evening almost.

The cut-up of Burroughs breaks the circuits of thought. I prefer to try to pervert them gently, in a non-repairable way.

The reservation I make about the cut-up is that it’s a little too cut, I prefer a more sneaky disassembling where one mimes the traditional narrative and the mine. Slips, short circuits, shifts, whites, small squeaks inside the academic discourse, rather than breaks (it must not break anything). Example to follow: Lautreamont. I would like us to say: that’s it, that’s right, it’s only nice news, and yet! And yet! But we do not know what is going on, where the trouble comes from. Something like the voice or gesture of a transvestite, a synthetic robot, or W. Burroughs in a fake Anglican clergyman. I would like to write a book with a single journal, a story that does not look like anything, that comes from the recomposed headings of the newspaper: there is something wrong, but what? Obviously, the ideal would be to enter the marble of France Soir at night, and to operate swiftly a recomposition which, in the morning, would make the city say a little embarrassed: “There is something wrong, but what ?”

But there are other betrayals …

 

 

 

Jean-Jacques Schuhl Ingrid Caven (City Lights Books, 2004)
(Buy it)

‘A novel about the life of German cabaret singer and film actress Ingrid Caven, who was once director Rainer Werner Fassbinder’s star, and his wife, muse to Yves Saint Laurent, and a protege of Pierre Berge. Consisting of memories, mixing real and invented people and events, Ingrid Caven reveals the cold heart of the European counterculture of the 1970s, an era of celebrity glitz, cocaine-fueled excess, gay bathhouses, and young idealists-turned-terrorists. Ingrid Caven was an immediate bestseller in France, where it sold over 235,000 copies in its first year of publication. It has been translated into 18 languages.Jean-Jacques Schuhl is a Parisian dandy who lives with Ingrid Caven and who had not published a book for twenty years until this one.’ — City Lights

‘Singing for the Führer’s troops at age five makes material for Ingrid Caven’s lifelong running gag—and the definitive event novelist Schuhl returns to again and again in recounting her life. Ingrid is a plucky girl from Saarland with a terrible skin problem and a wondrous voice, which propels her through classical training and on to accolades on the Munich stage (that’s when she meets a lonely boy in black leather who wants to make films—the Wunderkind of German film). Over the years, Ingrid will mingle with the likes of Andy Warhol and Yves Saint Laurent, and even become embroiled with the Baader Meinhof Gang. A sensational Paris debut and suddenly the “little hurting girl in borrowed clothes” becomes really famous, meeting Bette Davis and Satie, flying about the world as the wife of Fassbinder, who turns out to be a drug-using homosexual. In telling Ingrid’s story, Charles is a kind of misanthropic alter ego: he follows the singer around, has affairs of his own, reports a lot of hearsay and snatched dialogue, but provides little sense of interior life. The climax comes at Fassbinder’s untimely funeral (he was 38), when, with all his actresses linked up front as if at a premiere, a posthumous piece of paper is discovered detailing Fassbinder’s outline for a script about the life of Ingrid Caven, “the woman he loved.”’ — Kirkus

‘Adolf Hitler, Rainer Werner Fassbinder, Yves Saint Laurent — German-born cabaret singer Ingrid Caven’s life flowed around these icons of 20th century European counterculture. Caven was married to Fassbinder and starred in many of his movies; she was Saint Laurent’s model and muse. At 4 1/2, she sang “Silent Night” in the barracks for the German troops. This novel, by her current lover and based on her life, is a collage of that strange postwar period in Europe of high artifice, drugs, terrorism, leather jackets and cinema. Behind the glamorous backdrop of hotel rooms, the Brasserie Lipp, the Rue de Bac, the clothing by Saint Laurent, Issey Miyake and others, you can still smell cities burning, lives decaying. Artists drape themselves over rich American producers and patrons. The “era of Potsdam and Sans-Souci … matching plates and Meissen dancers” is over. But so is the era of cabaret, and Caven finds herself a relic: “The time of stars and divas was long gone, and haute couture was disappearing, too…. Why go on singing when all the voices have been flattened, standardized, synthesized?”‘ — Los Angeles Times

 

 

Excerpt #1

The sheet of paper was 8 ×11, crumpled, spotted with splashes of coffee, wine, maybe nicotine; they found it on the ground by the side of the dead man’s bed, lying there to be picked up by anybody, the cop, the maid, the doctor. The writing that covered it was like a speech given in a single breath, no punctuation, only one real erasure, two words now illegible at the end of a correction and a little arrow for cross reference. Eighteen paragraphs in the sequence, as though he had the whole text already written in his mind, all he had to do was write it out, the words had been etched in him forever and he had only to read and copy them; but the writing was just phrases, telegraphic, not exactly literary stuff. He had jabbed the paper, gashed it, raised welts and sores, made hard signs as though with a stiletto and not a ballpoint: it was something raw and brutal. The writing was firm, but still it shook like the needle of a seismograph, shaken up, rickety, words on the slant: like a child’s writing, like an old man’s writing, each letter formed with force and great attention, as though writing was slipping away just as life was and he tried to trace the letters, especially the capitals. The words blew about, had their own life, and none of the phrases lined up neatly; these were words thrown onto paper, as you write a note when you’re in danger, page torn from a notebook, no time to punctuate or take a breath, someone is after you… Numbered 1 to 18, the paragraphs were the stages, the chapters, images, scenes, synopsis, who knows—there was no title—of the life of Ingrid Caven. What follows is a literal translation, with the punctuation and the syntax of the original:

1 Birth + hatred of mother + start of allergy (Germany needs canon fodder)

2 First song, silent night holy night

3 Allergy much loved

4 University + worsening of allergy, decision for psychiatry you need courage to live

5 End of allergy, love with psychiatrist, high-class woman in rosewood, end of love

6 Flight skilful very disheartened for the terrible chic Revolution [sic]

7 Short life alone with many stories of men

8 Plays theatre, lives in commune, electronic love (GVH)

9 Marriage, fear of marriage, divorce

10 Africa

11 Second strategy

12 First appearance at Pigall’s

13 Jean-Jacques Schuhl + some bad films

14 Catastrophe with Musical, end with Jean-Jacques

15 Time of loneliness, appeal of suicide, drugs, schnapps and boys and cockroaches in the Chelsea H

16 Attack in waiting room, knowledge of great love

17 Sex and crime and black eyes

18 Dispute fight love hate happiness tears pills death +a smile

Just a wretched scrap of paper, found and kept by sheer chance, someone might have thrown it out despite the lines scrawled on the back. On the other side of page, the ‘right’ side, there is dialogue in neat electronic typing from the script of some movie Rainer had already made—big budget, six, seven, eight million dollars, big historical reconstruction, period sets and costumes, the Second World War—he must have used this particular piece of paper because he had nothing else available in a sudden emergency, he didn’t have the strength to get up and he lived very much alone at the end. On the reverse of this big historical movie, Rainer wrote his last words: the story of his wife, real, imagined.

The big budget project was pushed to the shadow side of the page, hidden away, the kind of production that he complained at the end was keeping him prisoner: and on the new ‘right’ side, these words he had scrawled, almost cut into the paper with such force and application, the life of the woman he loved. It was almost nothing, but only almost: a simple sheet of paper… just like fifteen years earlier and the cut of the Yves Saint Laurent dress, Ingrid Caven claimed the ‘wrong’ side, the second side, the reverse of the black satin cloth and now the paper, its secret side turned round, the dark, forgotten, secondary, shadow side of things turned to the front. That was where he wrote her ‘life’ and where she too had ‘written’ her life, not on the grand, fixed side of things but rather on the rootless side which she made grand with her songs.

Once again it was like the cloth you turn over because it’s the back side that counts, and you don’t know any more which is front and which is back, the Moebius strip, everything changes and comes back, what’s noble becomes vulgar and comes back, cloth that shows its lining, flags that beat in the wind. On what was once, and is no longer the ‘right’ side of the page, this scrap of dialogue: But, tonight, in front of the men, it will work, I am sure, and then I will realize something you desire. Something that you desire…

It was a troubling page because episodes 1 to 13 referred to facts and events, but 14 to 18 were entirely from his imagination. He saw her life as tragedy, a melodrama from an airport novel, and he had finished it. He did it as if she, too, were finished, deciding even her violent, scandalous, ignominious ending,; but Rainer was the one dying that way, sometimes he was found alone, outside, stark naked in front of his door on the landing, asleep in his shit, full of alcohol, drugs, sleeping pills, and at the height of his fame. In 14 to 18, was he taking revenge or playing tricks or just assembling the threads like a skilled writer for the screen? Or like a fate that he was trying to ward off with his words? She had got away, and on his deathbed he invoked her, he evoked her, took her back with words, with this skeleton story of her life. It was extraordinary: he wrote the life of the woman he loved, part real, part imagined, part elliptical, and on the way he made a picture of himself, and then he died.

Fascinating, worrisome, even very worrisome: you think about it, it couldn’t possibly be a film project. How could he shoot Ingrid’s disastrous end, her terrible fall and ignominious death while she was still living, and more alive than many others? He could have filmed 1 to 13, but not 14 to 18. Never. So what was this thing? A malevolent prediction, tempting fate like the voodoo priest pricks the doll with needles; but Rainer’s needle was a ballpoint pen.

 

 

Excerpt #2

It wasn’t the sight of the saucepans, it was the noise they made that seemed so unholy, such a vulgar noise for a singer and such a seedy noise, too, as though her whole past was dragging behind her, and above all the sound was so entirely out of place, nothing at all to do with the luxurious and old-style setting – carpets, wall hangings, such well trained staff: the hotel was like a ventriloquist’s dummy, letting out a cry that didn’t belong to it, something irritating, agonising, making the brain falter. Maybe Ingrid also remembered Sundays at home, her mother cooking in the kitchen with a clatter of pans that mixed with the Liszt, ‘Hungarian Rhapsody,’ that her father used to play over and over in the next-door drawing room. That, too was in her mind, making it tilt like a pinball machine. A saucepan bumped up against one of the metal bars on the stairs, and came to rest, dumb.

There’s a photograph of Marlene Dietrich, which she once gave to Hemingway (1): She’s all legs, sitting, like in those famous shots for the Blackglama furs, her head is down, so all you can see is the line of nose, mouth, chin: enough to identify her at once like a logo, a Chinese pictogram, a coat of arms, and, alongside those long, bare famous legs that were insured for $5 million at Lloyds, she’s written: ‘I cook, too.’ Were they lovers, friends, loving friends? The old story keeps the crowds agog: the writer and the actress, or the singer, D’Annunzio and la Duse, Miller and Monroe, Romain Gary and Jean Seberg, Sam Shepard and Jessica Lange, Phillip ‘Portnoy’ Roth and Claire ‘Limelight’ Bloom, the marriage of word and flesh, intriguing, puzzling, riotous.

Hemingway? Maybe, if it comes down to it, the picture wasn’t dedicated to him at all but to one of her other men – Erich Maria Remarque, or Alexander Fleming who discovered penicillin? Jean Gabin, perhaps? Or to Mercedes d’Acosta, that exotic lesbian? Or just to some nameless fan? Doesn’t matter, it’s all ancient history, the young woman with the saucepan is also a chain smoker, but she uses a common black plastic cigarette holder, Denicotea, only twenty-five francs from your neighbourhood tobacconist.

She’s still laughing in the elevator and when, with the manager going ahead, she enters her suite, she’s amazed by what she sees: white lilies, on the night table, on the desk, the vanity, in the bathroom, in the entrance hall, everywhere white lilies. Yves paid tribute to his queen with a suite in white. After saucepans, lilies, after the hausfrau, the vamp. Pans and lilies – a good title if one day she wrote her memoirs; Eva Gabor, sister of the more famous Zsa Zsa, called her book Orchids and Salami.

From the ridiculous to the sublime, could be one of those surprising productions of her friend Werner Schröter whose nickname – but why on earth? – was ‘The Baron’: Oscar Wilde’s Salomé, The Death of Maria Malibran … she was bound to arrive in Paris under this particular sign, because, truth to tell, her real range of mind is more from lilies to saucepans, if you see what I mean, just as at the end of some exquisitely turned sentence – like this one – you need a break, but even the break is still too exquisite, those lovely rhetorical cadences I never quite escape. On stage with a flourish of her hand followed by a broken wrist, a back kick in the air that was a wink at flamenco, she knew just how to break up all that virtuosity, that panache, to do it neatly and dryly, to cut things short, never to make them too rich, yes, that was it, heading for the world of lilies and orchids, then turning back abruptly to saucepans and salami. Lupe Velez was engaged to Johnny Weismuller, but she fell out with Tarzan, wanted to kill herself, but looking lovely, image before everything, even when dying, hours and hours of fixing her makeup and her hair. She had no luck at all, pills and booze upset her guts and so it was that they found her, in her loveliest frock, immaculately styled, powdered, bejewelled, virtually embalmed, but stifled on her own vomit with her head down the toilet. That’s the art of breaking a mood, a right-angle turn of mood, art upside down, the leftovers restored, and anyway a kitchen utensil is always handy: John Cage wrote a concerto for mincer and beater.

 


4 Ingrid Caven songs in one video


Ingrid Caven ‘Alabama Song’


Ingrid Caven ‘Polaroid Cocaine’


Ingrid Caven ‘The Wonderful Widow of 18 Springs’

 

 

Further

Jean-Jacques Schuhl Website
Buy J-J Schulh’s ‘Ingrid Caven’
‘Jean-Jacques Schuhl, mythe majestueux’
‘Telex n°1, come-back du mythe signé Jean Jacques Schuhl’
‘Profonde superficialité’
J-J Schuhl ‘Apparition de Werner Schroeter’
J-J Schuhl ‘JLG, rapports secrets’
Video: ‘Jean-Jacques Schuhl – “Entrée des Fantômes”‘
‘Laure Adler reçoit Jean-Jacques Schuhl, écrivain’
Jean-Jacques Schuhl Facebook page

 

 

 

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p.s. Hey. ** Lucas, Thanks, pal. Yay to my subconscious. Interesting about your dreams. As I’m sure I’ve said, I almost never remember my dreams, but, when I do, they always involve me trying to escape from someone or something that’s trying to kill me. Odd since I’m very non-paranoid in real life. My thrill at igniting a love in you for Halloween must be very obvious. With haunted houses, just stick to the ‘home haunt’ type. They tend to be fun and admirable without being actually scary or invasive. I want to be in Japan for Halloween too. Badly. But it’s hard not to gravitate to Halloween attraction central aka LA every year. Tuesday wasn’t so hot, but I’m finally seeing ‘Twisters’ tomorrow, so I’ll just hang in there until then. How’s everything going? Are you working on your art and writing and stuff? ** David Ehrenstein, Hi. Thanks, my health is okay apart from my fucked up right ear, but it’ll clear, I suppose. Ah, I’ll pass your piece along. Everyone, Speaking still today re: yesterday’s Black Panther shebang, the honorable David Ehrenstein wrote a piece about, in his words, ‘Leonard Bernstein, the black panthers and the racist scumbag Tom Wolfe’ That should be of considerable interest. It’s here. I did a River Day. It’s not old enough to restore/repost quite yet, but one of these years. ** Jack Skelley, Hi, J. I’m feeling better health wise, it’s just the entire rest of my existence that’s fucked up, haha. Excited to hear about the Myth Lab Goes to NYC goings on. More soon from moi too. Love, me. ** _Black_Acrylic, Very indeed. Today is my PTv2 enhanced day at long last. ** Malik, Hey, Malick! That is so incredibly cool about your maternal grandparents. They must have amazing tales. A friend of mine in high school joined the LA chapter of the Panthers, and he showed up at school in full Panther garb one day and was expelled within 5 minutes of his arrival on campus, the fascists. The coloring book is totally nuts, right? I saw your email! Im going to open it today. Yesterday was kind of swamped. Thank you so much! I’m excited for it! I hope you have an amazing Wednesday. Is everything going well? ** Steve, I’ll go re-listen to ‘Small Talk’. I haven’t in ages. That’s great to know. What a genius. Urgh, well, keep that laptop firmly plugged in and pray for no power blackouts. Everyone, Entree from Steve: ‘Here’s my review of Caden Mark Gardner and Willow Catelyn Maclay’s trans film history CORPSES, FOOLS AND MONSTERS.’ No, no breakthroughs with the film whatsoever. Quite the opposite. We heard back from the fall festivals. They all rejected the film, albeit always with high praise for its uniqueness and originality. It’s clearly not a big festival film. It’s just too offbeat. So we’re re-strategising about how to give it a proper birth. Thank you for asking. ** Dominik, Hi!!! Cool, glad you were intrigued by it/them. Minor but effective joy is the most I feel like I can hope for at the moment. I’m seeing ‘Twisters’ tomorrow. Maybe love has a cameo in it. Love curing the entire human race of underarm B.O., with apologies to musk fetishists, G. ** Darbyy (●’◡’●), Is that right? I don’t know what I meant in that ‘death’ vs ‘God’ comment either. I was just tripping. I have seen Mayhem but in the post-Dead era with Attila Csihar as singer. I like Bathory too, yes. I’m definitely strangely stoic. I guess I do bob my head a little and maybe rock from side to side. I think the only time I actually ever let loose and went physically wild was at a Gang of Four gig in 1979. Been a while. I like Pockies, but I don’t think I’ve tried strawberry. Will do. Maybe even today if I can sneak through the Olympics barriers. Bon day! ** Joseph, Hi. My health’s basically okay except for my clogged, painful right ear. It’s just life stuff that sucks. Wow, I remember when fallen trees hitting power lines, etc. would turn your house into dangerous, lightless obstacle course. Sweet. Sorry, though. I love the fixing and revising part most of all by kind of a million miles. I just read a quote by Lydia Davis yesterday where she said she liked translating more than writng because everything was already there and she just had finesse. I relate to that. Anyway, just keep in mind how worth it it is. Okay, I’ll move ‘Longlegs’ back up into the maybe/probably category. Thank you. I haven’t seen the Olympics uniforms yet, but I was reading something yesterday by some fashion expert who said they wouldn’t look out of place on a Chanel runway, so I’m curious. ** Prze, Hi. Film stuff. And one of my ears. Um, no, my writing isn’t wish fulfilment, or not for me. The things I write about fascinate and scare and confuse me, and I’m trying to explore that and figure it out. But there’s no interest in realising or enacting what I write in a real space. The real and the imagined are very clearly separate and defined for me. I don’t see the area I work in as narrow, I see it as focused. The area I write about seems very vast to me, like outer space vast. There are lots of people who think my work is weird to put it mildly, trust me. I hear and read about that all the time. Uh, I’m not a rich guy and I certainly don’t live like one. Not sure where that’s coming from. I’ve read the dystopian Ballard (Crash, High Rise, The Atrocity Exhibition, Concrete Island) but not the sci-fi stuff. Thanks. Very interesting to talk with you too. ** Charlie, Yes, I know popper training videos. I had a brief period of really kind of studying them. They seem totally ridiculous but formally interesting for sure. Yeah, going that route formally seems like a really interesting idea. Cool, yeah, that seems fruitful. How’s it going? I used to think I could make the Citizen Kane of porn, but then I realised I couldn’t whatsoever, but the Citizen Kane of popper videos … that seems much more achievable somehow. Pray tell. ** Harper, Welcome back to the homestead. Good news about the warm welcome from your writing. Two times when I was young I got sunburned so badly I had to go the hospital. I’m scared of that stuff ever since. Same here: you can only buy cigarettes in Tabac stores or sometimes in cafes that have mini-Tabac shops inside them. Me either re: seeing a hero on a stamp. But, gosh, I can hardly remember the last time I even saw a stamp. That oblique strategy actually makes a lot of sense, and I don’t even know why. I’ll meditate on its mysterious wisdom, thank you! ** Poecilia, Hi! 700 pages without a writing style … uh, no thank you, haha. 700 pages with an amazing style is still a book-shaped warning light to me. Interesting to know. Okay, I am kind of curious to try that neutered adaptation. I’m always interested to see how filmmakers decide to visualise things that are only made to be effective in passive neutral wordage. Hm. Maybe I’ll google a query re: it. Thanks a lot. I hope all’s extremely good on your end. ** A, Hi. Oh, Paris is okay, not too stressful. Everyone’s left town until the Olympics are over, so it’s quiet. The stress is all inside me. Fun: the event on Friday. Is Lily Lady involved in that? If so, give them my love. It’s nice to write to you too. Enjoy LA, man. I know you can. ** Dev, I definitely will. But it’ll be a while. I’ll probably try to come whence on my way to or from LA. That’s the logical way. Trumper parents … scary. Trumpers are so loud and so proud. Oh, to feel so confident and knowledgeable. Only in fairytales. Ugh. Very best of luck steering clear of the onslaught. Thanks, I’ll be fine, there’s always a way. Hang tough. ** Jeff J, Hi, J. I did see that doc, and I too liked it a lot. Okay, I’ll watch for your email. Crazy that the trilogy is almost finished! Wow, man, that’s nuts. That’s awesome. Zac’s away on a summer thing with family, so the script is frozen until I get his feedback. I like it. We’ll see what he thinks. No, I want to think about the horror novel idea, but everything is so chaotic with our film right now that’s really difficult to think about anything else. ** Bill, Hi. The coloring book, I know, wow. You’re home! Welcome back to the friendly climes and the differently mountainous landscapes! I want to get that new edition of Eugene Lim’s first book too. Apart from almost everything in my neighborhood having impassable barriers surrounding it and eagle-eyed groups of police stationed on every corner, things are still mellower than you would think. ** Ника Мавроди, I can ask him that question, yes, and I will. ** Okay. I decided to restore the spotlight that fell years ago on this wonderful novel you see up above there. See if you can figure out why. And see you tomorrow.

24 Comments

  1. jay

    Oh, this has been on my reading list for ages, I remember the author of Biography of X saying they were hugely inspired by this novel.

    Re: Longlegs, I’d be curious to get your opinion. I wasn’t really blown away by it weirdly, there are some images that really freaked me out (e.g. going back to your childhood spaces to save a version of you that hasn’t aged), but overall it felt pretty normal detectivey stuff.

    And yeah, normcore boyfriends are maybe something that can be nice, even if I get raised eyebrows when I talk about how much your work resonates with me.

  2. Dominik

    Hi!!

    Yet another chapter of the film-related nightmare? (I might be wrong. The fact that you said minor but effective joy is the most you feel like you can hope for at the moment made me guess.)

    Oh, good! Please let me know how “Twisters” is when you get there – hopefully tomorrow then! Anita and I found a pretty lame but addictive docuseries called “In the Eye of the Storm.” Predictably, it’s about natural disasters.

    This is strange; I wanted to send a B.O.-related love yesterday because the smell some people leave behind in the elevator is pretty heavy, but then storm chaser love beat that idea for some reason. I know it’s really hot, I’m really not blaming anyone, but fuck… I so want love to succeed! Love staging his own abduction, Od.

  3. Lucas

    hi! this book looks really interesting but I can only find it in german or french here. hm. I actually barely read in german, which would be good for me to start doing, probably. interesting about your dreams too! obviously I’m not a very aggressive person in real life so it must be some kind of psychological opposite thing with nightmares, I don’t know. thank you for telling me that about the ‘home haunt’ types. actually, what are your favorite halloween attractions? like the ones you’ve been to. yay, I hope ‘twisters’ is fun tomorrow, then. things are good for me, personally; I came out to a few more family members some weeks back and they were really nice about it, and today I’m hanging out with one of them for the first time since that. so I’m excited and I hope it goes okay. art and mainly writing stuff is not going as amazingly as I wish it’d go. I’ve inadvertently gotten really hung up thinking about what I want it to be, like what things are important for me to write about, in what way, etc. and while, I guess, I do have a clearer picture of that, I think maybe I’ve intellectualized it too much because everything I write sounds so hacky and unnatural to me now. I don’t know, maybe I’m just having a bad moment, but I was having a really few good weeks where everything felt way easier and it feels a bit like I’m back to square one and it’s disappointing.

  4. _Black_Acrylic

    Think I already have this book from the 1st time it was spotlit, whenever that was. Must be about time I dug it out for when I’m finished with House of Mirth.

    Leeds United news: the new season is not starting for another couple of weeks, but the new away kit was announced here today and I must say it looks really cool. Changing the Red Bull logo to blue is a nice touch.

  5. Dom Lyne

    Hey Dennis,

    The MOT was less full service, more me being nagged because I didn’t book a follow-up blood test and stuff, so they needed to entice me into the surgery under false pretences. LOL. But all sorted. I was like “but I know the results, just access my specialist and you’ll see it’s been the same for the past two years, but they don’t send you those ones.” and they guy just looked at me like “mmhmm, we know you’re crazy.”

    Ahh, I get you. So he kinda re-visualises the vision. I find when you write a script you have a base vision (film) of it in your head, and you have to not be too precious about that. When I was doing the episodic audio play, I had it pictured in my head as a visual thing, so when we were editing it, and weeding out what wouldn’t come across in audio format, I was like “urgh”, but then the changes, and the shortening of long scenes created new nuggets that added and let me strengthen the story overall, but also made be batten down on key things that identified key characters (like the high heels of one of them) which are the kind of details you might only mention once or twice in a novel.

    Love and hugs
    Dom
    xx

  6. Uday

    Hanya Yanagihara isn’t necessarily a bad writer, but one always gets the sense in her works that she feels like she’s being very out there with her material and so leans on it, which is a turn-off. It’s also so pyschological. Not in the sense of the tradition of the psychological novel but moreso the way the way psychology itself does it, which is to say worse. I do like the Hujar photograph on the cover. Thanks for the book recommendation! I’ll add it to my autumn list. Just had the randomest memory of having a massive crush on Maxim Baldry when I was a kid. I think I saw him in the Mr. Bean movie and used to obsess over the scenes in which he was present. I have two American friends over this week and am showing them around (and protecting them from glib vendors) so it’s a bit busy here, but it’s always nice to get to display the best and the worst of your hometown. I think they would rather do without all the sociological analysis, but I can only contain myself so far. Sorry that the meeting did not help. My friend who wants to make movies sometimes tells me that he wishes a rich guy 3 decades older would leave him a bunch of money out of love. I hope that happens for you. There’s still some guys 3 decades older than you and they’ve probably had more time to become rich.

  7. David Ehrenstein

    Great stuff today. Schuhl is quite a character and Ingrid Caven is a goddess. Did you know that Fassbinder spent their wedding night fucking Gunthur Kaufman ? Fassbinder adored him, especially beause his father was a black American G.I.

  8. David Ehrenstein

    Have you had a Donald Cammell day? If not you should

    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0Jlx57w20bw

  9. Cletus

    These excerpts are fantastic, especially the first one. Excited to add this to my reading list. Thanks for posting it.

  10. Malik

    Yeah, that sounds about right in regards toy our friend. California was shivering at them.

    My grandma can recall the time my granddad’s brother got in a fight with some cops at a motel that my granddad and other Panthers intervened in. After they all got run in, the judge dismissed the charges at the hearing because everyone involved was lying, especially the cops lol.

    My granddad was an interesting guy. Book salesman for the BPP, and when he went home, he’d relax and turn on Gunsmoke or Benny Hill/Monty Python. Always found that a funny contrast.

    As for me, things are going decently. Living room is kinda empty for the day while waiting to replace the busted-up couch we had, but that means I can actually get some writing done in the library without distraction.

  11. Steve

    I’m recording the Charli XCX podcast this afternoon. When we came up with this idea a few weeks ago, who would’ve foreseen a presidential candidate using Charli to make herself look cool? BRAT took her to a new level of fame, and even in the last week, she’s hit an even bigger one.

    What attracted you about TWISTERS, especially for viewing in the theater rather than a plane?

    “Too offbeat to be a big festival film” is high praise, but as you pointed out in a recent interview, festivals are the gatekeepers of arthouse cinema. What are your options if you keep getting rejected? Do you plan to approach a theater like Spectacle directly?

  12. Misanthrope

    Dennis, Yes, Big Country was. I’m not a fan of Celtic rock either, but I guess there’s probably a song or two out there I wouldn’t absolutely hate.

    I was just looking at a list of Celtic rock artists and they list The Cranberries. Really? Hmm.

    Oh, and The Proclaimers. I couldn’t stand them.

    Hope the one ear is better.

    I’m a be an outlier (maybe) and say I can’t wait until these Olympics are over.

    Btw, seeing the new Deadpool this weekend with Alex and some others. In IMAX. That should be fun. His birthday is next week. The 30th. Big 21 for him. And then mine is 10 days later. Big 53. :'(

  13. Deisel Clementine

    I was late for an editing meeting earlier today reading today’s blog post on the bus. And there was a section, i cant find nor recall which, that reminded me of that Calvino short story the tretcherous house or something – about the insurance guy trying to decipher whether the house fire was arson or not. And he’s got a list of tennants (like five?) and a list of indiscretions (seduction, theft, battery, rape, ect) and the computer sorts out the number of combinations of victim and perpetrator between the five tennants. Which, I can’t remember how, reminded me of a bit you said in an interview about writing a 120 days of Sodom* fanfiction starring your friends (apologies if I’ve remembered this wrong). But it made me think of an algorythm combining the discrete acts detailed by De Sade with a list of someone’s friends. And that, dragging the train of thought into the meeting, had me imagine: arriving late to a party for all of my friends – and the door’s unlocked – and i walk in – and the walls – the ceiling – the floor – is all covered in a thin layer of paste – like the texture of a strawberry fruit roll up – or quince ? – but with little crumbs of hard matter – under the feet its like cinema floor sticky – smells like the off-collagen smell from grey skin-on chicken thighs – and i don’t know whose flat it is – i think im imagining a flat i helped someone move out of – but all the furniture is gone – there’s a computer on the floor in the living-room – white box computer – like a family computer – idk what trousers I’m wearing cause i can’t imagine kneeling down in the paste wearing any pair i’d wear to a party – i got a pair of japanese indigo denim at a clothes swap last month – im not imagining any specific dell screen saver – im imaging a word document with pages of lists of acts – second person wishful-tense – I wish I could do x to you – I wish you would do y to me – i cant imagine who was at the party before the pages and pages of acts devolved into the mutual grinding (juicing?) of one another till the paste was thin enough to wallpaper – i can imagine spending my life reading an algorithym that speculated victims and perpetrators in however many combinations – anyway –

    Meeting went well! I’m told I’ve found an appropriate level of ooze for my ‘castrato opera’ book ! I think its just finished now ! Which means… yeah.. i think that just means i send it places outside my close group of friends – could i email you a copy ? – also my email’s [email protected] if anyone wants to email for a copy – i’m still working on the summary but its about loneliness, sex-ruining IBS, accelerationist futures, poultry shears and – i’ve just got back to the flat and my boyfriends are fucking so I’ll leave it at that

  14. Prze

    Dennis- No, that’s not what i was asking- not abt realizing things in actuality but abt yr writing as yr fantasies (etymology from ‘imagination’) realized on the page Ive heard the other answer in interviews b4 and m not interested in fleshing that judge-y business out. I guess bc u write abt maybe -1% of people (what % of the world is white, what % western culture , what% male, what% gay, what % under 18, , etc- it boils down fast n hard) so yea, Im calling it narrow- u seem 2have abt 5-6 characters that u use, like guignol puppets, round and round (names change but they’re types, right? names r even re-used like shipping stamps, yr name included, etc) Yea, its a very small sliver of people, right? And as for it/u being weird I just dont get it- thats just not weird its practically Chaucerian
    and yes, yr (Im gonna whisper it) rich:0 Im not gonna laundry-list u bc it would be rude but u also are a gate-keeper 2alot of fringe culture and yr important and kids ask u 4advice but (per u) youve never worked a day in yr life/ can live where u want/ own property n stuff/ world travel etc which kinda negates so, so many people who fight like animals just 2survive (the rep% shrinks even more) It matters, DC, it really does It shapes the things people think they can talk abt narrows the convo to, say, sex-violence-drugs-etc (men men men- girls n boys like me get to materialize only if we’re letting/using ourselves badly) So yes yr focused, right, but im not wrong in what im sussing out either? Something feels fake like I wonder whos gaining from it all (but isnt it stupid 2even ask)
    I dont want 2pile on yr bad week but just sayin We get manipulated at every turn, it hides in plain site like vaseline on glass we cant see through so sometimes u have 2ask abt it lay it open hard w/the people we admire
    hope the days go better 4u –
    PS Baudelaire, Baudrillard, Blake, Bataille, DeSade, Robbe-Grillet, etc etc money money money
    U kno who wasn’t from money? Rimbaud The actual, pure one

    • Poecilia

      Prze, I promise that I am curious what your ultimate goal is, of laying it all out in an author blog comment section? Every author or artist lived one life in one way because that’s one thing we all get. If you don’t like how narrow it is…then you can read plenty of other books by a bunch of other people, can’t you? But I think I am not jumping to such an unbelievable conclusion if I say that Chimamanda Adichie or Rebecca F. Kuang or Ruthanna Emrys or whoever else you think doesn’t not have narrow writing…each of those people also live one life.

      For you and me to have heard about them at all, or read them—fiction! for leisure!—and discussed them, in the English language, on the internet, is a fast n hard boiled-down privilege on our part too.

      So if you want “the conversation” to be less narrow, can’t you…simply have a less narrow conversation…?

      The intention of the author is not the same thing as like the idea a literature scholar has while reading a book to (for example) evaluate the post-colonialism material in the story, or the unintentional portrayal of an economic class in the story, or trying to apply psychoanalysis to a fictional character in the story, or what the presence of an Archetype can do to reader psychology and cultural attitudes. So are you sure that what you are truly asking is something an author is meant to answer? Or is this your interpretation of a book? I ask because I think those are such different things…

  15. Thomas H

    Hi Dennis!

    Replying to this blog and yesterday’s because I managed to comment too late on the previous one. My bodyclock is a disaster lately.

    Thank you for yesterday’s Black Panthers showcase. It’s an enormous and important part of American history, and had influences rippling worldwide…I read Assata Shakur’s autobiography earlier this year, and it was really intensely good. The awful things that police were (and are) allowed to do to people that governments consider as “threats”…

    Cool to hear Araki’s working on a new film – Gen Z’s attitudes toward sex and sexuality (and sexual content in general) are interesting and troubling in different ways, so I wonder what his angle will be. I have a lot of thoughts on the subject myself.
    ‘My Own Private River’ sounds interesting – my tolerance for James Franco is pretty slim but I’ll check it out on your recommendation. For another ‘Idaho’ coincidence, I just picked up a copy of Keanu Reeves’s new novel that he made with China Miéville – ‘The Book of Elsewhere’, based on Keanu’s action-adventure comic BRZRKR (which I’ve not read). So I’m curious to see how both men’s voices intertwine in a novel setting…

    And for today, thank you for again bringing a previously-unknown author to my attention! I think my to-read list right now is bigger than the sum total of books I’ve read in my life. Perhaps that’s what being a bibliomaniac is.

    I hope the Olympics pass as smoothly as possible – I read somewhere that LAPD officers had been allowed by French authorities to bring their firearms??? That’s just awful – I suppose they need their security-blanket weapons in case they get scared of a plastic bag on the breeze. As always, everything apart from the actual events seems to be a nightmare.

    Okay, that’s enough from me! I hope your week turns around and sees good things coming your way. <3

  16. David Ehrenstein

    The late and infinitely missed George Kuchar was obsessed with twisters. He would follow and film them constantly.

  17. Harper

    Hi! I love Ingrid Caven! Such a shame this book is out of print in English. I was listening to Caven’s album ‘Chambre 1050’ a lot earlier this year. It’s really great, very startling cigarette stained renditions of compositions by Erik Satie, Brecht, Peer Raben and others. I was turned onto it through Ian Penman’s book ‘Fassbinder: Thousands of Mirrors’ which I thought was really great.

    Today wasn’t so great, very stress inducing. My landlord deduced a ton of money from our deposits, a little for cleaning costs but mostly their own desires, and for some reason (that is apparently common practice) gave all of the money to one of my old flatmates who was supposed to split it between all of us. This flatmate I lived with is in a couple with another flatmate, and the two of them have decided that it is not their responsibility to pay any of the cleaning costs since according to them they did all of the cleaning for the entire of their tenancy, which is not true. The landlords deductions are to be split between me and the other flatmate. They are refusing me money because they don’t like me and because they can. And they pretend to be politically righteous and all of these things but the truth is that they want desperately to be the landlords they supposedly despise. I remained sympathetic in my exchanges with them but the truth is that I was losing my shit. They will not budge a penny. There’s a thousand things I could say about them but it’s futile to pay it any mind. They are not very pleasant people, and are not interesting enough for me to actually think about them for very long, so I’ll leave it at that.

    Luckily, I’ve calmed down considerably quicker than it would normally take. The truth is that I’ve kind of been through it this year and so I’m letting things go a lot quicker. What more harm can another inconvenience do? I’ve already made it through the worst of it all. Also today I accidentally had a thick book shipped to my old address so had to send a letter to my old neighbours to tell them that I’ll be there to pick it up or do whatever I need to do. Ugh.

  18. nat

    hi dennis! sorry for missing out on the bp day — great artwork, i feel a bit bad that my pov is mostly basic aesthetic appreciation, so it goes –,

    i was too busy daydreaming for 24 hours, and or debating with my readers on a detail i’m considering cutting out. — specifically that the serial killer cutie in my story was wearing an american flag bikini. it seems superfloxous to me but my reader thinks not.

    i’m gonna read this next, it seems up my alley. very good excerpts.

    had a goofy day today, i think i got followed by tourists becuse apparently my town is labyrinthe, so they have no clue on how to get around. i mostly led them astray lol. saw nowhere by araki today due to the discussion on him, flipped me upside down becuse how many elements in the movie as in sync with what i want to do with my current story — the soap opera form, the episodic, the camp queerness, the real sadness, etc — i wonder how much it will effect my wip from now.

    hope you have a great day. hope to see you soon again.

    • nat

      tiny add-on: one of my readers noted that my stories never take place in anywhere, there’s never any mention of names, landmarks, or anything that gives people an idea of the actual city it takes place. i’m not sure what to do with this fact, though i guess the answer is nothing and keep on truckin’

      wow there’s a lot of comments today, you’re a stronger person than me for reading all them — dennis, commenters and lurkers alike.

  19. Charlie

    It’s going okay. Got a few little experiments under my belt that I was happy enough with to share with a friend. I’m lucky, he’s as supportive and generous as they come. I’m gonna keep playing around with it, see what happens. Dennis if creating the Citizen Kane of porn isn’t within your power then it must be an impossible task. My vote for runner up is ‘Way Down’ a Cazzo film from 2005. So weird, I love it.

  20. Justin D

    Hey, Dennis! Fuck, sorry about the film festivals passing on ‘RT’. It feels like there’s zero interest in anything non-conventional as of late. I wonder if Lanthimos’ latest films would do as well as they have without the star-studded casts. How different has this experience been compared to the festival acceptances of ‘PGL’? How was your day? Mine was alright. I re-watched ‘Au revoir les enfants’. 😭Kind of wishing I could fast forward to October.

  21. Oscar 🌀

    Aw, dude. Aw, Dennis. Aw, man. Spearmint is the way to go; it’s just got a little bit more kick, y’know? Although, have you ever had Wrigley’s Doublemint? Don’t know if they sell it anymore, but that was peppermint-flavoured, I think, and that was the business/bee’s knees/etc. Weird coincidence with your acid-tripping Parisian homeless man, but we have a whole lot of street preachers up here for some reason, and pretty consistently there’s this one stoned homeless guy who heckles at them with whatever he’s finding funny at the moment, which, recently, was just a constant alternation between ‘HEY!’ and ‘DENNIS!’ and also ‘BRAT SUMMER!’ — if you’re ever in Glasgow I’ll show you, but he might’ve moved on to other words by then.

    Loved this post and yesterday’s Black Panthers post, catching up has been a real good morning coffee read. Also! I’ll be sending an email in your general direction very soon-ish :3 Crossing my fingers for its safe arrival!

    • Deisel Clementine

      Oh hey – another glaswegian 👋

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