Month: May 2024 (Page 1 of 14)

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JosetheSpaceCat, 19
Acadentaly deleted previus main account

In Juarez Mexico a zero self-respect loser looking for very very very extreme master or meetups

Rekwire heavy abuse, exploitation, porn, filming, punching bag, intox, rape, mental destruction, torture, full toilet, heavy anal abuse, cbt, skullfuck, tpe, no safeword, bound, masked, choking/hanging, permanent damage, whip, gun, knife

If you want to talk in Spanish ask me anything I don’t want to do this “about me” again.

Comments

axxxxbxxxx – May 22, 2024
Loveless child
Burden of many
May they bury you deep​

JosetheSpaceCat (Owner) – May 20, 2024
I don’t care if you don’t like how I wrote my profile. I don’t care about story time. Who cares.

howrya – May 18, 2024
Very shy at first and then very emotional.

JosetheSpaceCat (Owner) – May 12, 2024
Can no longer endure 2 hands holding my head down while their pubes are filled with my tears

Vic1995 – May 10, 2024
This may sound counterintuitive but I recommend putting him in diapers then regressing him through hypnosis to the age of 2.

 

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beautiful_lips_for_rent, 24
Hey, I’m Thomas, an extremely angelic passive mouthfuck twink.
I finally live alone, so you can do it here.
I’m horny 24/7 and need it in my mouth and throat really hard even when I spew bile and vomit.
I live for lots of cum inside my stomach.
By popular request you can eat my cum too if you’re hungry.

Comments

beautiful_lips_for_rent (Owner) – May 16, 2024
So says HornyDude4Noww.

HornyDude4Noww – May 16, 2024
In addition to his profile name being overly literal it’s also not true.

beautiful_lips_for_rent (Owner) – May 13, 2024
I also have a huge macrophilia/vore fetish to anyone in the far corners of this app who MIGHT even know what that is 🤣. If u don’t, don’t worry about it 😜.

randomfrenchguy – May 13, 2024
Can deep throat literally anything but if you wanna fuck him you’ll have to put something in his drink.

beautiful_lips_for_rent (Owner) – May 10, 2024
If you can get me to cum while you’re throat fucking me, you have really hit the nail.

Dedeg – May 10, 2024
I don’t think I’ve ever met a boy who takes facefucking so well (not only the extreme and prolonged deep throats, but also the slaps, chokes and spitting that go with it), but who also encourages you to wreak havoc and asks for more with such enthusiasm. Guys, it’s heavy!!

 

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jamesjamesjames, 20
To put in a barrel position pipe this pussy daddy I wanna cum all on dat dick make me squirt I’m off a perk and my pussy hurts 🪝yummers

Comments

Wasandwasnt – May 21, 2024
What an absolute insane slutty pig…and a very kind and caring human being!

DisappearingHands – May 15, 2024
He can take a long and very hard stomach beating, you can plow your punches as deep into the pit of his stomach as you desire, and for as long as you want (you know, for those who REALLY get off on making a twink puke).

kinkgod – May 11, 2024
Horny as demon.

Southquality – May 9, 2024
He can be anything you want except intelligent.

Lexy – May 7, 2024
At first I was intimidated by his cuteness but later he showed that he is a trash, fucked him long and savagely until I heard the angels singing and he said stop but I continued and continued until I exploded like a Vulcano.

jamesjamesjames (Owner) – May 2, 2024
Damn it I’m way to the party again and you can’t never tell me now that Jesus died in the cross for our sins after doing this anyways

 

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fucklife, 22
An Austrian man severed this twink’s penis and testicles after discovering his secret affair with the man’s best friend and having enough of his drug abuse.

The 57-year-old man cut off the penis and testicles at their home after the twink took drugs and sleeping pills and fell asleep.

The man claimed to have thrown the severed penis and testicles into a river before handing himself in to the police.

A police officer said: “He has been taken into custody on charges of assault.”

The man is said to feel no regret for what he’s done to the twink, who is unemployed and has a history of narcotic abuse.

“He always had issues with accountability and responsibility and required humbling,” the man stated.

The man could face up to 12 years in prison if found guilty.

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UBOREME – May 9, 2024
Hello everyone. My name is Jane. I’m a 47 year old female. UBOREME is my Cali license plate. So I’ve made it my user name on everything. Other than that, the reason I wanted to be here is I believe we have some things in common. You all really like young male ass and I too love them. I seen a thread here about a guy has boys pose dead for him. I like that so much that I started posing my son (he’s 15) as a dead body in various places around town. Is this of any interest to anyone here? Other then the mentioned I am thrilled to be here and enjoy all that is offered.

Tacticaljoe – May 8, 2024
Hello I am Joe. I am looking for a tactical partner age 38+ who owns weapons and tactical wear to do kidnapping of young gays plus have a tactical relationship. My personal Gmail to contact me is [email protected].

 

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itsclosingtime, 20
I looked around at various profiles to get an understanding of what men like and don’t like, then I wrote my profile. If you have been on this site for decades and think I didn’t write this right, that isn’t my fault, so chill.

Here goes….

If you want me to visit you for ass whippings, belting, caning, etc. then a big ‘yes’. A great ass needs some welts, and I have one.

I am a real guy with real feelings and a big heart, I just like lots of ass beatings that leave marks.

Do I have an age limit? Hmmm. I would say ‘no’, just not into fatsos.

Name is Don, but my nickname is Done, because I always say I am done.

Comments

itsclosingtime (Owner) – May 9, 2024
I am very moved by your opinion and your words.

VictusS – May 9, 2024
Imagine the photos in his profile animated, real, natural. The lights down and just the flash light of your mobile turning your flat into a crime scene, a horror movie, his trussed body tensing and squirming on the bed as you whip his ass relentlessly and so forth. What else?

Beefincharge – May 7, 2024
If he were a restaurant there wouldn’t be enough stars in the Michelin guide to qualify it!

 

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iwantmoremoremore, 21
Me and my boyfriend need a third I can lend him to. He is a straight male being punished by a female.

Comments

hmmmwoo – May 14, 2024
Warning: she doesn’t think he’s as inferior as she says she thinks she does.

iwantmoremoremore (Owner) – May 11, 2024
I’ve seen some pretty kinky guys on here that are into kidnapping and chloroforming boys, I mean I’m up for it, would be awesome. A girl’s gotta have fun.

iwantmoremoremore (Owner) – May 3, 2024
Why does my pussy get wet from him being destroyed? Anyone? Why do I crave his destruction? Especially as I’m straight and that a male can do this to him.

 

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BestSlaveEver, 19
All my life I’ve dreamed being a slave for life, I don’t know what to make of it 💦 It’s a surprise cuz I’m so pretty. I want nothing more than to be dehumanised, humiliated and destroyed to the max. 😊 In the words of Baudelaire: “To plunge to the depths of the abyss, Hell or Heaven, what does it matter?” Thank you for taking time to read that as it explains everything and will possibly save us from an awkward conversation.

* Stupid site suspended my account for bullshit reasons. Please answer to me if we were already discussing ownership, because I might be deleted for bullshit reasons.

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ArchitectOfSex – May 22, 2024
FYI BestSlaveEver has spent a month with me and he is now a castrated scatfag.

ArchitectOfSex – April 20, 2024
I am honored to announce that I have collared BestSlaveEver. He has earned my collar through his commitment and energetic response to a huge variety of kink. If interested in using BestSlaveEver, feel free to contact me.

BestSlaveEver (Owner) – Apr 13, 2024
No, I mean flashlight.

FlamingToast – Apr 13, 2024
You mean fleshlight

BestSlaveEver (Owner) – Apr 13, 2024
I would love to learn how to just be a walking flashlight.

 

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breathplaysnuff, 22
What do you want? Because I’ll give it to you. My only limit is minors.

I just turned 22 and I am looking for death by asphyxiation: being hanged or suffocated with a bag or strangled with a zip tie, will go anywhere on the planet, so you don’t need to ask.

I can be ready in two week or less. Passport will be ready in two weeks – yes I ordered that. I’m currently in the Glendale location (CA).

However, my only requirement is asphyxiation to death, perfect. That is beautiful. I don’t care about anything else.

Theres no porn to describe what I want to feel.

I know Russian and might scream things in Russian.

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Anonymous – May 6, 2024
I’ve got this.

breathplaysnuff (Owner) – May 6, 2024
Ideally someone who doesn’t mind that I sleep with a stuffed animal at night would be sound 👍🏻

breathplaysnuff (Owner) – May 6, 2024
I can make you the happiest man in the world.

RedBoss – May 6, 2024
I’d love to strangle you as I’m fucking you. Put my full 220lb weight on your throat while I pound your ass. Feeling your sphincter flex as you enter your death throes and filling you up with my essence right as the light leaves your eyes. I’d love wrapping you in a trash bag after.

breathplaysnuff (Owner) – May 6, 2024
I am a loner due to how I was raised.

I enjoyed the solitude of sitting by a camp fire drinking beer until I passed out.

I believe that the human race is domesticating itself and losing our survival instincts. Ask our ancestors, the shoulders we stand on while letting people fuck and kill us.

 

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Looking4SnuffMaster, 18
I was released from the juvenile psychiatric ward on Monday after 2 years. I am schizophrenic and suicidal, but I take medication.

Looking for a violent rapist and murderer to kill me. ONLY in Berlin, everywhere else is uninteresting.

Immediate contact

Eugene Richter
Bunkerstrasse 37
13187 Berlin

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SpookyDuhScary – May 15, 2024
This is where the real life starts.

Anonymous – May 13, 2024
You are bad.
It is not ethical to put this responsibility on someone.
Says a lot about who you are 🤮

Anonymous – May 13, 2024
Straight and have a gf happily but since I was young I’ve had urges and fantasies about snuffing another dude and they’re getting harder to resist and I’ve found myself wanking thinking about it more and more now I’ve ended up here.

 

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Explogre, 20
Hello everyone👍👍👋👋👋We are a sub queer from New York and we enjoy making porn videos every day.
Our videos are very horny, long, and very intense, sometimes the sex is brutal and nasty that is our fetish.

WE ARE LOOKING FOR GUEST STARS.
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WE ARE FOR SALE AS A WE/THEY OF COURSE.
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GREETINGS FROM MACK & SILVIA
😋😋😉😉💚❤️👋

Comments

Explogre (Owner) – May 8, 2024
We suffer from crohns disease so please let us know at least 24h notice to make sure we’re not sick.

lucasclever – May 4, 2024
What are you? What a wonderful life oh oh oh.

 

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cryforthedemon, 18
im a cocky little painwhore and want my ass to be fucked up and cigarettes put out on it and also would love to be beaten up and i have a very cute face that looks great when it moans and pain gets me high and gets me off and the worse you wanna do the better no questions asked im down

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cryforthedemon (Owner) – May 20, 2024
i make really good tacos. how about a fiesta on Cinco De Mayo? you supply the boy, ill bring the margaritas

johnnyriot – May 20, 2024
You are very handsome, my young friend!! I’d love to have you over to help me kill and eat a teenage white boy.

cryforthedemon (Owner) – May 18, 2024
i have been here before but things didn’t work out because i picked someone too old (yep health problems) i was only with him for maybe 3 months and he had kidney failure, so blah blah blah

Deep_dark_secrets – May 17, 2024
If you give him a Xanax, you don’t have to beat him up to get sex.

cryforthedemon (Owner) – May 14, 2024
scar on my back from a near snuff situation and i rather keep a shirt on when doing sex stuff – sorry if it’s a dealbreaker

 

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ulteriormotives, 19
I am a cute bottom boy in his late teens with plenty of experience but with a special fetish. I love to feed superior dom top men my shit. How come I am so into that? Simply men have been asking to eat my shit since my pre-teens, and I like when I do.

I am an easy going boy with no fucks to give and the will to have a good time. Fit smooth body, porcelain crack, big cock and balls, all available. But only get in touch if you’re also a dom secretly pathetic enough to become my toilet or even less than that.

If you think eating a submissive bottom’s shit is too weird and wrong, just do not message me in the first place. I have no interest in convincing you…😂 I am not a sub who wants to rehearse a Romeo & Juliet play. You should feel lucky to have found a bottom like me.

Comments

ulteriormotives (Owner) – May 16, 2024
It sounds weird but to me shitting in your mouth is a spiritual thing. It’s meditation for me to be a canvas for me.

James_the_stickman – May 13, 2024
On the one hand he’s a total sub to fuck hard, slap around, choke, and more, but all the time there’s his strange ability to make you want to do the thing which I am so ashamed to have done with him but which he clearly delighted in seducing me into being – his toilet.

idkwatmynamis – May 6, 2024
My first time ever eating the shit of a twink piggie bottom… i needed a big hit of poppers several times, and it was utterly disgusting but i came really hard. And I just wish i got past the mind block i had, and did it sooner.

TapDrinker989 – May 1, 2024
I have had the privilege of ingesting his waste by the kilos since early 2021. Don’t miss out on his logs.

 

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UnChienAndalou, 19
im looking for money. hi, my name is jakub. ive been looking for money for a long time, i don’t ask for too much

i prefer this than sitting around hanging with friends or family. yep don’t like them, or want them

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ManintheMoon – May 19, 2024
twin peaks enthusiast
popcorn addict
let him smell your books
sex work is work
your pig
lusty ghost
inattentive
social anxiety
slut
his name is skull🎸
ask him about his dildo collection

BakeWithMe – May 17, 2024
boy is wicked cool. boy gets horny and needs relief often. boy’s dick is yours to control. boy needs relief.

 

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DizzyPig, 19
I enjoy not knowing things, just a location and an agreed time.

Not understanding is my thing. Being drugged, forced to get drunk, confused, bound, hooded. Not being told what is going on, treated in an unpredictable way and having my brain messed with, just experiencing whatever you want me to experience.

The thing is, among my peers I need to keep a very masculine thug/hood appeal.

If you want to get really serious I can gather all my electronics that hold any evidence of our contact and bring them with me in a bag.

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FFdom4teensT – May 9, 2024
ATM

fuckmachine – May 4, 2024
I apologise for asking. I’m just a man who is very big into anything and everything ass.

DizzyPig (Owner) – May 4, 2024
I asked a friend and he said I don’t.

fuckmachine – May 4, 2024
I am a direct, honest and a quick-witted person, I do not like nonsense and waste of time. So I’ll be clear: The only thing I’m looking for is a muscular and sexy ass. If you don’t have a muscular ass, we can’t match, if you have a muscular ass, we can’t match without sending your ass photo. I like to commodify the male body, romance and love are not for me. If we match, I’ll come get you immediately.

 

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idk, 20
experiment on me?

idk anything about anything

Comments

Thewaterfire – May 8, 2024
Expect the unexpected.

idk (Owner) – May 5, 2024
grandpas have nice cocks

top_tourist – May 2, 2024
Nice conversation, nice in bed.
Five stars 🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩.
Save him God.

 

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thetorturedpoet, 21
I know I look like an adorable 13yo but I’m 21 and into way more than meets the eye.

I want to swallow your cum, your piss, your shit, suck your nose, eat your snot, everything.

I need a master that will fuck me until I’m nothing, that will make me brainless and idiotic by fucking my throat until I cannot breathe.

I want a master that will fucking punish me if I don’t comply with every fucking rule, the stupidest ones.

You can give me any substance you want to make me unconscious for as long as you want.

Whatever you want from me you can take, all I ask is that you house me.

Don’t message me unless you are really interested.

Comments

thetorturedpoet (Owner) – May 19, 2024
I am now the slave of an elderly retired gentleman and reside in the Poconos.

MrObstinate – May 3, 2024
Oh dear God please don’t be fem.

thetorturedpoet (Owner) – May 2, 2024
Ageists can fuck off. I’m unapologetic about being 21. I’d rather look younger than my age than lie and say I’m 13 … and have men say I look hagged.

Masterking – Apr 27, 2024
I was born to be a slave master king 🤴🏾 and this title was giving me by my late grandfather. He was a slave master for 61 years and he have trained slaves from Europe and America. I took over from him since I was 10years, when my grandfather use to leave my to watch over the slaves when he leave for some urgent, whiles in they are in chain and I use to abuse and humiliate them, torture and make them feel the same way I watch my Grandfather train them. If you like master, you will love me.

Assinmyfrontal – Apr 26, 2024
Does drooling count as a thought?

toxicmissle – Apr 26, 2024
He was thoroughly bred by my toxic missile late May upon his return from college class. His kunt was brushed before and after each toxic load given and as it was a long session a lot of loads were delivered one of which into a scrape on his knee also brushed before and after to soak the juice of my toxic missile. I also injected my blood into this fucking whore. Your thoughts please.

 

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Muzz, 21
It was 14 when it was turned into a true skinhead. The Boss who took it wanted to keep it as his thing and to make it his fuck slave. He shaved it, dressed it and used it.

Each night its Boss would slap it and stomp it whenever He felt in the mood. Its body was marked and it was never allowed to cry. If it did, its Boss would tie it and hurt it.

It gave up its life and became a live in slave. Its body was taken to a meeting of Doms and Masters to be fucked, beaten and given to men for whatever they needed. It was put into fights and was totally fucked over again and again.

It is wanting to make its life this but permanently. Its Boss is dead. Its cunt is real loose now from hard fucking and fisting. Its mind has been fucked over with intense brainwashing and drugs. It wants more.

It was fucked over hard by my owner and by his mates. For seven years.

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Anonymous – May 14, 2024
STUPID MOTHERFUCKER ASSHOLE

m0nday – May 9, 2024
First I got him shitfaced. Then I carved his hole out with toys. The biggest one blew out his back. I medicated him for the pain then his hole took my forearm. And he never stopped gooning.

Muzz (Owner) – May 6, 2024
I’m not huge. I’m not all, “Hey, I’m 8+ in!” I’m a 6, probably average size. Want a pic? Ask. I’m not going to exaggerate my size. I’m a little above average.

 

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inanemptymall, 18
I am an 18 year old boy who feels aroused when people are mean to me, not sure if I am into guys but I am into meanness.

When people are mean to me I become a depraved sex addict. I say this so that people are aware that I have mental health problems. I am in therapy and medicated, but it’s still very much a part of my life.

After sufficient meanness you can choose:
– vanilla
– rape
– chocked tf out
– gangbang
– fisting

If that already doesn’t sound like what you want, sorry.

Comments

BrandonCollinsberg – May 15, 2024
Oh my god, you’re finally legal!

spiritgames – May 12, 2024
„Born to die“ but not now!
A heart like a doomsday clock.
Go your way Tony it’s far from over.

inanemptymall (Owner) – May 10, 2024
I can not help it.

Wasandwasnt – May 10, 2024
Very whiny

inanemptymall (Owner) – May 7, 2024
I would love to go abroad and be abused by the lower classes.

Rich8119 – May 3, 2024
if your fist is in need of a human size muppet

 

 

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p.s. Hey. ** _Black_Acrylic, I wonder if I can use draich in something without just sounding pretentious. I sure hope you will crack on with your writing, yes, yes! ** Jar a’ Ravioli, The Eagles is technically underneath me, but yes. Would greatly prefer a heron. I’ve got lots of pigeons around if you’re interested. I’ll go find that song if I can, thank you! And you do the caring thing re: yourself too. ** Dominik, Hi!!! Oh, great, score, about the post. That’s a beautiful phrase and idea. Gosh. I’ll try to illustrate it with Bohemian Betyars. Cool. Yesterday’s love reminds me of a whole lot of people I text with. When people are mean to love he becomes a depraved sex addict, (but who doesn’t), G. ** Bill, Thank you, sir. Right, nudge to me to get the Gastr del Sol, thanks for that too. The Flanagan event was last night, and it seemed to go quite well. I think the store sold out of his book, and it’s pricey, so that’s something. ** James Bennett, Hi. That title ‘At Swim Two Birds’ has always intrigued me, but maybe I should leave it at intrigue. It was kind of everything about ‘Psychocandy’ that struck me as a role model. Distortion/clarity. High/low volume. Economy/sprawl. Reticence/catharsis. Precision/secretiveness. Etc. It was kind of the whole package. I wanted to translate the album’s overall effect into fiction. It didn’t work, of course, but having that goal worked somehow. Are those juices you mention now erupting, one hopes? ** dwt, If you ever get to Paris and take the tour, apparently there are tons of yellowed photos of the sewermen somewhere in there. You know, hating heat as I do, even dry heat, though less in that instance, I think I’ll bear the negative aspects of the rain, but I appreciate the offer. Good, whew: dog. Ugh, job stuff. You’ll be okay though, exactly. Ha. Take it easy. ** Justin D, Hi, J., glad it sat well with you. The post, I mean, and that word especially. Hm, your description of ‘Ripley’ intrigues me, but I dare not break the no TV spell lest I end up doughy eyed in approximation to my TV. First I need to break my ‘no more video games for a while’ rule. That’s what I really want to break. ** Lucas, Hi, Lucas. I’ve heard that word ‘doch’. I have some German friends. I like the way they pronounce it. It sounds rich. I’ll look at the explanation thank you. There’s a Russian word that sounds very similar that I think maybe does the same thing? Something like ‘toch’. Excellent about the story! I’m cheerleading you onwards. Hear the inaudible chanting. I had a big argument yesterday with someone who acts like they’re my mom but definitely is not. So, yeah. Bleah. My yesterday was rather yuck due to the incident I just described, but the reading was fun, and friends and I went to Hard Rock Cafe afterwards and ate nachos, and that part was good. My 2024 has been a pretty mixed bag, like yours, I’m guessing, but it could be worse, right? And here comes the weekend. Does yours foretell the wondrous? Scrunch to Sally. ** Oscar 🌀, Yeah, I know, sorry, my imagination went haywire there for a second. The words ‘hi Oscar’ clearly visible in a bowl of alphabet soup. Publishing, okay, very interesting. Do you have a dream publishing enterprise that you would presumably sit atop? Interesting. Maybe English is especially well geared to anger. It seems like French is more geared to passive aggression maybe. Sewer’s still flooded, but oh well. Rain is forecast to continue. But it’s okay, really. I wonder if her trinkets would materialise in my hands or whether I’d have whip out my phone and try to take a quick snap of them before they vanished? Either way’s fine. I hope everyone treats you like you’re an Academy Award/Oscar 🌀 that they’ve been nominated for all day and evening too. ** Harper, Good about the no-show. The internet is one amazing place, that’s for sure. It makes Tokyo seem like a hovel. I’m obviously with you on the style housing substance front. Sounds like those critiquers just don’t know where to look. Wise thoughts there at the end. Especially the last sentence. You should use that in something if you haven’t. That really should be a question mark instead of a period because I hate the word ‘should’, ugh. ** Steve, I’m guessing/betting the dental visit will be easy. Was it, though? Mm, no, no other J-Pop show, although, wait, I did see some K-Pop band play at an anime convention I went to. It was nice-ish. Very Backstreet Boys but a lot less earnest and so a lot better. You? I literally can’t think of anything on earth I would less rather attend than a Fire Island circuit party. And I did suffer through part of one once, so I know of what I speak. ** Sarah, Cool, yeah, we’re likeminded. Cool again about the novel or, rather, multiple ones. That does sound useful. I sometimes writes novels while simultaneously working on other projects, but never more than one novel, I don’t think. Oh, wait, no, I worked on ‘The Sluts’ off and on for ten years, and I did write a few other novels while I did that. Never mind, yeah. The evil YouTuber idea actually sounds pretty exciting, and def. not stupid. Maybe it needs to be insanely long? It’s weird that there haven’t been more good novels set on/in the internet. There are novels that simulate or are, like, Livejournal writing. A fair number of those. But … anyway, what you wrote makes total sense. And I’m excited by your ambition. The reading was nice. It wasn’t long at all, thank goodness. It was surprisingly pleasant and well received. It was the editor of the book talking and then me and Bernard Welt, who appears on the comments occasionally, briefly talking about how we knew Bob and then reading a few poems. Pretty simple. ** Shirley, I’m assuming you jest. ** Nicholas., Nice: the grass and rivers. I have lots of grass and a river a few blocks away from me, but the former is too wet to sit upon and the river is borderline flooding its banks at the moment. I remember slow cookers from my childhood. I was always afraid they were going to explode. I prefer microwaves because they’re fast, and they catch on fire rather than explode, which is less intimidating somehow. ** Uday, Thanks, pal. Haha, I use the blog to differentiate days too. Someone will say let’s meet up on, oh, June 2nd, and I immediately go to the blog’s control center to find out what day of the week that is. It’s very handy, this blog. I’m glad you’re keeping your friends alive. *bow* Jeff Jackson wasn’t my roommate. That’s funny. Where did you get that idea? Um, as far as I can remember, writing ‘I Wished’ was the only novel that made me crying whilst writing. I think I have a copy of ‘Antoine Monnier’ in my LA pad, but, if I have my way, no one will ever, ever see or read it. My fiction was not ready to be published when that was published. Luckily, I think just a handful if copies have survived and sell for so much money that no one will ever buy one. My week was, I would say, about two-thirds not good, and a third quite pleasant. Did you manage to have fun, value, etc. apart from being saintly to your friends? ** telly, Hi, telly! Thanks for popping in. I like when people pop in and out. It’s peppy. Yes, my French remains piss poor and will always be piss poor, I strongly suspect. So I hear you. As I told Uday, I like to pretend ‘Antoine Monnier’ never existed, and so far it’s been doing a pretty good job of granting that request. Horny comic, cool. That drawing you linked to is totally ace! Awesome! Thank you. No, I don’t think I have any special thing about school uniforms. My school didn’t do uniforms. I don’t think US school do the uniform thing that much? I did just load up a profile for next month’s slaves post by a guy who wants to live 24/7 in a school uniform and be regressed mentally to 12 years old. So I guess it does interest me to some degree. And I get it. It seems to be quite a popular fetish in the UK? Excited for your comic! The level of enthusiasm in your comment was perfect, finely tuned, and had an uplifting yet riveting effect. And I appreciate it. Take care, t. ** Muffin Man, Muffin Man! You exist! Say hi to Cupcake Man for me. That camera’s a total beaut. Wow, what a great distinguisher re: routine vs. system. I feel crystal clear. And I weirdly seem to relate to it. Thank you, my friend. You made me percolate when I really need to. Enjoy the metal line up. Metal of a variety of types? ** Right. End of the month, slaves, what more needs to be said. See you tomorrow.

 

Few of us use all — or even most — of the 3,000 English-language words available to us for describing our emotions, but even if we did, most of us would still experience feelings for which there are, apparently, no words. In some cases, though, words do exist to describe those nameless emotions. These words shape the culture, the interaction between people on an every day basis. And they don’t exist in English.

Design student Pei-Ying Lin solicited the list of “unspeakable” words from colleagues at London’s Royal College of Art, and found that their definitions in English usually came down to something like, “it is a kind of (emotion A), close to (emotion B), and somehow between (emotion C) and (emotion D).”

Next, to visualize the relationship between the foreign emotion-words and English ones, Lin used a linguistics model to map out five basic emotions (large yellow circles), along with several descriptive words related to each (smaller green circles). Finally, she used her sources’ descriptions to place the new/foreign words on an English map.

 

The words:

1. Age-otori (Japanese): To look worse after a haircut

2. Arigata-meiwaku (Japanese): An act someone does for you that you didn’t want to have them do and tried to avoid having them do, but they went ahead anyway, determined to do you a favor, and then things went wrong and caused you a lot of trouble, yet in the end social conventions required you to express gratitude

3. Backpfeifengesicht (German): A face badly in need of a fist

4. Bakku-shan (Japanese): A beautiful girl… as long as she’s being viewed from behind

5. Desenrascanço (Portuguese): “to disentangle” yourself out of a bad situation (To MacGyver it)

6. Duende (Spanish): a climactic show of spirit in a performance or work of art, which might be fulfilled in flamenco dancing, or bull-fighting, etc.

7. Forelsket (Norwegian): The euphoria you experience when you are first falling in love

8. Gigil (pronounced Gheegle; Filipino): The urge to pinch or squeeze something that is unbearably cute

9. Guanxi (Mandarin): in traditional Chinese society, you would build up good guanxi by giving gifts to people, taking them to dinner, or doing them a favor, but you can also use up your gianxi by asking for a favor to be repaid

10. Ilunga (Tshiluba, Congo): A person who is ready to forgive any abuse for the first time, to tolerate it a second time, but never a third time

11. L’esprit de l’escalier (French): usually translated as “staircase wit,” is the act of thinking of a clever comeback when it is too late to deliver it

12. Litost (Czech): a state of torment created by the sudden sight of one’s own misery

13. Mamihlapinatapai (Yaghan): A look between two people that suggests an unspoken, shared desire

14. Manja (Malay): “to pamper”, it describes gooey, childlike and coquettish behavior by women designed to elicit sympathy or pampering by men. “His girlfriend is a damn manja. Hearing her speak can cause diabetes.”

15. Meraki (pronounced may-rah-kee; Greek): Doing something with soul, creativity, or love. It’s when you put something of yourself into what you’re doing

16. Nunchi (Korean): the subtle art of listening and gauging another’s mood. In Western culture, nunchi could be described as the concept of emotional intelligence. Knowing what to say or do, or what not to say or do, in a given situation. A socially clumsy person can be described as ‘nunchi eoptta’, meaning “absent of nunchi”

17. Pena ajena (Mexican Spanish): The embarrassment you feel watching someone else’s humiliation

18. Pochemuchka (Russian): a person who asks a lot of questions

19. Schadenfreude (German): the pleasure derived from someone else’s pain

20. Sgriob (Gaelic): The itchiness that overcomes the upper lip just before taking a sip of whisky

21. Taarradhin (Arabic): implies a happy solution for everyone, or “I win. You win.” It’s a way of reconciling without anyone losing face. Arabic has no word for “compromise,” in the sense of reaching an arrangement via struggle and disagreement

22. Tatemae and Honne (Japanese): What you pretend to believe and what you actually believe, respectively

23. Tingo (Pascuense language of Easter Island): to borrow objects one by one from a neighbor’s house until there is nothing left

24. Waldeinsamkeit (German): The feeling of being alone in the woods

25. Yoko meshi (Japanese): literally ‘a meal eaten sideways,’ referring to the peculiar stress induced by speaking a foreign language.

 

The map:

Lin also mapped five emotions that are unique to the computer/internet age, and also — so far, at least — unnamed in English.

 

The emotions:

1. A vague and gnawing pang of anxiety centered around an IM window that has lulled: During this time an individual feels unsure whether they have offended the IM recipient, committed a breach of IM etiquette, or have otherwise spoilt the presentation of themselves carefully crafted thus far thanks to the miracles of the textual medium. The individual must be at least vaguely aware that they are being vaguely paranoid, and must tell themselves things like ‘he probably just stepped away from the keyboard’ or ‘I know she is at work right now so perhaps she has stopped replying because she is busy.’

This sentiment of anxiety must surface only after an extremely brief lapse in the pace of the conversation [range of ~30 seconds to 1 minute], and the individual must tell themselves things like ‘it has only been like a minute, don’t worry.’ The individual may mull a mental history of their prior IM conversations with the subject and with others in an attempt to gauge whether the lull is ‘normal’, or to extrapolate what the lull might indicate about the subject’s sentiment toward them. The individual may experience elevated heart rate and depersonalization, and while staring at the screen with an unfocused expression, have catastrophic thoughts about their romantic history, their ability to be liked by others in the future or their key flaws.

2. A sudden and irrational rage in response to reading an ‘@-reply’ on Twitter: The reply is not especially insulting and might be simply a little bit facile, or flippant, or even overly friendly. It is essential that the substance of the ‘trigger’ is not actually upsetting or offensive in any comprehensible way; for example, a total stranger with a particularly goofy Twitter ‘avatar’ might tweet at an individual ‘hope you are staying safe in the snow, [name!] ;)’ in a totally reasonable and friendly fashion and the recipient instead experiences a sudden flash of negative sentiment like ‘who is this person and what makes someone randomly wish for the safety of a stranger, they are probably a loser, I am offended by the attention of this obsequious weirdo.’

Or the individual might Tweet seeking recommendations for what to watch on Hulu and receive a reply that says ‘have you seen [x]’ where ‘x’ is something completely obvious that everyone has seen, and the individual experiences the strong urge to reply with something virulent or to tweet ‘WHY ARE IDIOTS FOLLOWING ME WHO ARE THESE PEOPLE.’ Throughout the immediate rush of irrational hair-trigger irritation the individual is vaguely aware that their reaction is completely inappropriate for the situation of being addressed in a less than desirable way by strangers on the internet. In advanced cases the person tweets something stark or vicious about the state of society or about the internet and deletes it ~15-30 seconds later after realizing it is exceptionally unwarranted.

3. The state of being ‘installed’ at a computer or laptop for an extended period of time without purpose, characterized by a blurry, formless anxiety undercut with something hard like desperation: During this time the individual will have several windows open, generally several browser ‘tabs,’ a Microsoft Word document in some state of incompletion, the individual’s own Facebook page as well as that of another randomly-selected individual who may or may not be on the ‘friends’ list, 2-5 Gchat conversations that are no longer immediately active, possibly iTunes and a ‘client’ for Twitter. The individual will switch between the open applications/tabs in a fashion that appears organized but is functionally aimless, will return to reading some kind of ‘blog post’ in one browser tab and become distracted at the third paragraph for the third time before switching to the Gmail inbox and refreshing it again.

The behavior equates to mindlessly refreshing and ‘lozenging’ the same sources of information repeatedly. While performing this behavior the individual feels a sense of numb depersonalization, being calmly and pragmatically aware that they have no identifiable need to be at the computer nor are they gleaning any practical use from it at that moment, and the individual may feel vaguely uncomfortable or ashamed about this awareness in concert with the fact that they continue to perform the idle ‘refreshing’ behavior. They may feel increasingly anxious and needful, similar to the sensation of having an itch that needs scratching or a thirst that needs quenching, all while feeling as though they are calm or slightly bored.

4. The car collision of appetite and discomfort one feels simultaneously when using the internet to seek and consume images or information that may be considered unseemly or inappropriate: The individual might be viewing a YouTube video of an extremely uncool musical performance, an awkwardly poor ‘stand-up’ performance by a friend or something else they clicked on to be polite during an IM conversation to which the individual would have been unlikely to have navigated on his or her own. Despite the fact that the individual is alone, possibly wearing headphones, or otherwise in a state of adequate privacy, the individual still feels slightly self-conscious in a way that is only possible in the silent digital echo chamber of the internet, under the internet’s populist eye. The individual is unlikely to be able to make more than a cursory assessment of the offending media, and may experience the sensation of ‘suffering through’ it despite the fact that the individual chose, or believes they chose, to view it.

In advanced cases, however, the individual continues to seek out contact with the offending media and offshoots or evolutions thereupon, such as finding a group of Tumblr users who seem insane and flipping rapidly through the Tumblrs while thinking ‘who the fuck would make this kind of Tumblr, how can there be so many people doing this,’ or finding an exceptionally boring and obnoxious Formspring user and thinking ‘god what a terrible person’ while reading ~6 pages of questions they answered. It is analogous to smoking a cigarette while thinking ‘ugh, smoking is slowly causing cancer inside me’ and finishing the cigarette, except for being expanded to ‘emotional landscape’ level and being much more fraught, somehow. The individual may experience a burning sensation or redness in the face or ears.

5. The sense of fatigue and disconnect one experiences after emitting a massive stream of content only to hit some kind of ‘wall’ and forget and/or abandon the entire thing: Most commonly encountered when a person starts to type a comment on a website, such as a carefully-considered response to a news article, generally for the purpose of joining a discussion taking place in a comments section, although this might apply to a blog post or Facebook ‘note’ if the individual is in the habit of generating those on at least a semi-regular basis. The person starts out with a tangible urge to produce a written argument and writes with intensity and immediacy until they notice they have written some 2-4 paragraphs, at which point begin feeling self-conscious about what they have written and wonder whether the length of their comment is appropriate.

The individual begins editing it to feel more concise and effective, begins adding some details and removing others, until an unacceptable length of time passes and the individual feels increasingly ‘fuzzy’ about whatever it was they were writing. They may feel as though the thread of their idea has ‘gotten away from them’ or that each paragraph of the increasingly unruly block of text is weaker than the one that preceded it. The need to say something has lapsed and leaves a dim, fatigued sensation in its place. In advanced cases, a sensation approximating ‘headache’ but not as tangible nor identifiable as ‘headache’ sets in.

The individual leaves their unfinished content in the ‘box,’ and becomes hyper-aware of its transient nature while navigating aimlessly to other tabs. The individual returns to the in-progress content as if to assure it still exists. The individual reads the content through for perhaps the tenth time in total and then presses ‘ctrl-a’ and ‘backspace’ or ‘delete’ and feels a simultaneous rush of relief and impotence when the content disappears. The person feels decimated, depersonalized and powerless while sitting still for a handful of seconds and may feel depressed for several minutes thereafter.

 

The map:

The Untranslatable Words Database, another project by Lin, is a collection of videos which people were asked to explain the untranslatable words in their native language with that lanaguage to the imaginary audience who doesn’t understand the language. It is an attempt to capture the essense of the emotion-related words in different languages through voice, body language, and facial expressions.

The videos are filled with remarks like, “well, it’s sort of like…,” and “I can’t really describe it exactly, but…,” and “I’m not really sure how to put it in English, but…” – and these aren’t folk who have trouble with English. It becomes apparent that, although they have a clear impression of the emotion, and although they’re fluent in English, they can’t seem to bring those two together. They just can’t quite get the emotion in question to fit in the conceptual framework of English vocabulary.

Emotional concepts have a unique place in the pantheon of language, because they are ideas we attach to our inner – and amorphous – sensations of feeling. Our emotional words are the concepts we use to recognize and create distinctions within the sensational experience of being a person.

The words we have at our disposal literally shape how we think about our lives. The floating, fluid, fuzzy sensations we actually feel in our bodies – the warm and tickled tummies, the cold and sweaty hands, the hot and prickly faces – those can be anything. They’re always all over the place. But the emotional concepts we attach to them – excitement, nervousness, shame – those are defined by our languages.

 

This post was an amalgamation of texts and images taken from these websites: Waistcoat and Watch, Popsci, So Bad So Good, Thought Catalog, peilingyyin.net

 

 

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p.s. Hey. ** Bernard Welt, Oh, boon! Boy, do I hate it when people ask me what I write ‘about’. Actually, a good way to find out if a reader themself is dumb is to bring up the ‘inadequacy of language’ aspect and watch to see if the looks in their eyes plummet. Btw, see you tonight! ** _Black_Acrylic, Cool. Superb new PTv2, sir. And I thought your description of the episode was the most accurate yet. You have a true genius for flow, my friend. And to take it apart: My soon-to-be publisher was in there with bells on. I forgot that Laurel Halo’s music used to sound like that. I loved what I think was the JD Swift track. Really nice Carla dal Forno track. Nailed episode ending. Etc. Thank you for the brilliant escape. Oh, I like Kafka. Have I made it seem like I don’t? I do. I guess I just don’t mention him much. And no doubt he had a helluva life. Noted. ** Dominik, Hi!!! The film itself is going to be just fine, but the nightmare around it will seemingly never end. You make an excellent point about the value of earbuds as an accessory. But giant headphones might help even more? I don’t know. Ooh, love is so kinky! Interesting. Love making fecal material taste like wedding cake, G. ** Jar a’ Ravioli, Hi there. I think pre-prepared pasta in a jar can work, but pre-prepared pasta in a can is guaranteed nasty. That’s an interesting methodology you’ve invented there. I would test it out but my neighbour listens to The Eagles incessantly. Haha, your poor mama. Mine’s dead, otherwise I would give your strategy a shot. And cheers about the post. And my wishes and you are besties. ** Shirley, Me too! And thank you, Shirley. I’m chuffed. ** Misanthrope, You should probably drink more caffeine. I would love to learn how to thoughtlessly fuck about. I don’t even know what that means. I just spent a minute trying to figure out if I have any fluff in my life, and I don’t think I do. I’m learning a lot from you today. ** Lucas, Hey. Oh, okay, cool, then hit me up when the time arrives or is about to or whatever. Glad your mom’s mood flew by. As long as you’re creatively on the right track, it was worth it. That’s my policy. Same with France about holidays. It’s like France is a car and holidays are gas stations. It rained and rained here yesterday too. I really do like rain, but it gets very, very old when your ‘waterproof’ jacket isn’t actually waterproof. Dry skies for us both today, I say, although, realistically, looking out the window, it’s already too late for me over here. ** Harper, Hi, H. Yeah, I don’t need to tell you that you don’t want to sign up a pestering roommate. It’s so unfortunate that ghosting insane people just makes them go more insane. Good luck. I’m way not a big confronter type either. Warhol’s your big overall dude? Makes sense. I guess mine is Bresson. ** Steve, It was amazing. Hard to consolidate. The tech was top notch. She changed outfits and hair color a billion times in a blink. Live onstage band. The music/songs were fine-tuned, catchy as fuck vapidity. See ‘her’ if ‘she’ hits your area, for sure. I don’t think there’s any doubt in the world that you are correct. ** Sarah, My great pleasure entirely! I don’t think I’ve ever deliberately written a short story. My short things are always just experiments I was doing when thinking about a possible novel or pieces of novels that I didn’t end up using and just reworked into stand alone things. The ones in the little book coming out are things I just described. Anyway, you made a beautiful short fiction that works entirely to say the least. Are you working on a novel now? Good to know, I’ll take eating a dagwood off my bucket list. No, I’ve never broken the vegetarian thing. I’ve accidentally taken bites of things I didn’t know had meat in them. I literally can’t digest meat anymore. My stomach unlearned how to do that. I got really nauseous and sick to my stomach when I even just inadvertently swallowed a small bite of meat. My day is at its dawning, but I think it’ll be okay. I have to do a reading tonight, and I don’t really like doing readings, but it’ll be fine until then at least. And then again when that’s over. What did your day do with/to you? ** `nm.’,b/Darby, That was an interesting code-like new name. I don’t know why, but you plus photography does sound kind of fruitful or appropriate or whatever. Nice camera. I remember when people I knew who were photographers almost always seemed to use cameras that looked like that. The film’s not expensive? It’s handsome. I never thought your writing was bad. I actually don’t think it was. So, I wouldn’t worry. Um, I feel like my writing is nothing but systems, but I don’t think I could define them in such a tight space as the p.s. They’re pretty complicated even though they’re second nature to me now. I don’t do routines. Or not with writing. I think when I wake up or go to sleep I have routines. Hm. Who’s the muffin man? I’d like to see someone with that moniker. ** dwt, Hi! I didn’t end up doing the sewer tour because it’s been raining almost non-stop in Paris for weeks, and they close the sewer museum when it’s rainy because, I guess, the little pathways you walk on are under water? But I will. What are your possible and realistic routes out of brokeness? Ugh. Hugs about and for your dog. The hologram equipment we would have had to work with was impossible to disguise. It was kind of gigantic. We would have had to revise the piece so it was set in some transparent version of ancient Egypt. ** Bill, Cool. Me too. I hate wearing those fucking headsets. I’m going to wait until it’s just like putting in temporary contact lens. ** Oscar 🌀, Ooh, nice, pretty. Uh, (your arm/my branding iron) OSCAR (sizzling sound). The crowd at the Hatsune Miku concert was really mixed. A lot of French/Japanese people, many in cosplay, but also lots of just normal looking French people of every age imaginable from kids to geriatrics. And it was a big venue, and it was totally packed. And most of the people were waving the glow stick-y things, yes. And the vast majority knew every single lyric from every single song and sang along at the tops of their lungs. It was nuts! No, as I just told dwt, the sewer museum was closed because of so much rain. I think it was flooded. Sad. Did you already say what the masters degree you applied for is in, subject-wise? If I forgot, my apologies. And congrats!!! That’s the main thing. What are your chances? Do you know? The building I live in is very old, and the floor of my apartment is very gradually sinking, so the floor is increasingly sort of shaped like an empty lake bed, and I think I would like that process to stop, as curious as it is. I hope when you go outside today, something magical happens that causes everyone to mistake you for Hatsune Miku, and you get mobbed by adoring Asian tourists, and you can pass through walls and steal things and so on and so forth. ** Right. Kind of an interesting little post today, no? Am I wrong? See you tomorrow.