The blog of author Dennis Cooper

Month: September 2022 (Page 7 of 13)

An Ergodic Day with T

Why this? I explain:

A few months ago, I went out to drink with a couple of friends. One of them, knowing my interests, showed me the start of a very long video by a French youtuber about Mark Z. Danielewski’s book House of Leaves. I had never heard of this before, but as we watched more of the video it became apparent that the book was written in a way that corresponded to many things that get me going, literarily speaking. Having looked on the internet, there seems to be a whole load of interesting stuff about this genre, named ergodic by some, that I thought might make for an interesting read, if nothing else.

What is this? Espen J. Aarseth explains:

A few words on the two neoteric terms, cybertext and ergodic, are in order. Cybertext is a neologism derived from Norbert Wiener’s book (and discipline) called Cybernetics, and subtitled Control and Communication in the Animal and the Machine (1948). Wiener laid an important foundation for the development of digital computers, but his scope is not limited to the mechanical world of transistors and, later, of microchips. As the subtitle indicates, Wiener’s perspective includes both organic and inorganic systems; that is, any system that contains an information feedback loop. Likewise, the concept of cybertext does not limit itself to the study of computer-driven (or “electronic”) textuality; that would be an arbitrary and unhistorical limitation, perhaps comparable to a study of literature that would only acknowledge texts in paper-printed form. While there might be sociological reasons for such a study, we would not be able to claim any understanding of how different forms of literature vary. The concept of cybertext focuses on the mechanical organization of the text, by positing the intricacies of the medium as an integral part of the literary exchange. However, it also centers attention ….A_ on the consumer, or user, of the text, as a more integrated figure ~ than even reader-response theorists would claim. The performance of their reader takes place all in his head, while the user of cybertext also performs in an extranoematic sense. During the cybertextual process, the user will have effectuated a semiotic sequence, and this selective movement is a work of physical construction that the various concepts of “reading” do not account for. This phenomenon I call ergodic, using a term appropriated from physics that derives from the Greek words ergon and hodos, meaning “work” and “path.” In ergodic literature, nontrivial effort is required to allow the reader to traverse the text. If ergodic literature is to make sense as a concept, there must also be nonergodic literature, where the effort to traverse the text is trivial, with no extranoematic responsibilities placed on the reader except (for example) eye movement and the periodic or arbitrary turning of pages.

Is this Ergodic? An excerpt from a ‘Choose Your Own Adventure Story’ I wrote for my English class when I was 10 years old.

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You approach the forest with your trusty sword in hand and shield slung on your back. It is a dense misty morning with the murk rising in great tendrils of vapour so thick that you cannot see anything further than a yard away…

The forest looks evil in the dim light, you can almost hear the trees whispering curses at you and suddenly, you hover on the thought of returning… But the vision of Perseus’ smiling face is conjured up in your mind and a gut wrenching pain of loss and misery grips your heart. You must not abandon him. Taking one last look south you leave the plain of grass and plunge into the gaping mouth of the forest.

You are now following a little-used track through the forest. You look around you and see gnarled trees smothering their arms above you. The very air is hot and heavy. The pungent smell of wet leaves clings to your nostrils. Nothing makes the slightest sound.

Suddenly, a rustle of leaves disturbs the silence. Petrified you nearly jump out of your skin. An ice-cold feeling of fear and dread clamps over your heart. Timidly you call out, “Who’s there?”Nothing replies…

Quick as lightning a rough, brown hand grabs your sword, with one intricate flicking gesture pulls it out of your sheath. You turn around to be met with the overpowering stench of wine and mud mixed together. Forcing yourself to open your eyes you see a short, fat little man with horrible grey watery eyes, a face so dirty that mould has actually grown on it, pointed ears and dressed in filthy rags. He says in a horrible rasping voice, “Well, Well, Well, Wot ‘ave we ‘ere”

TO SCREAM FOR HELP, GO TO PAGE 15…

TO STAND AND FIGHT, GO TO PAGE 7…

Okay, so this is pretty naïve and rudimentary, but let’s see how the masters do it –

 

Section 1: How the Ancients Did It

Wall inscriptions on tombs/temples in Ancient Egypt

There’s a throwaway reference to this in the Espen J. Aarspeth book, and I haven’t been able to find any more substantive stuff on this. At a guess, I imagine that the narratives portrayed are constructed depending on how you move through the space, kind of like a video game? Who knows though.

 

Section 2: Prose and Poetry

Guillaume Apollinaire, Calligrammes

From Wikipedia:

Calligrammes: Poems of Peace and War 1913-1916, is a collection of poems by Guillaume Apollinaire which was first published in 1918 (see 1918 in poetry). Calligrammes is noted for how the typeface and spatial arrangement of the words on a page plays just as much of a role in the meaning of each poem as the words themselves – a form called a calligram. In this sense, the collection can be seen as either concrete poetry or visual poetry. Apollinaire described his work as follows:

The Calligrammes are an idealisation of free verse poetry and typographical precision in an era when typography is reaching a brilliant end to its career, at the dawn of the new means of reproduction that are the cinema and the phonograph.

 

Mark Saporta, Composition No. 1

INTRODUCTION TO A REVIEW

“Dagmar steps back to consider the effect. The canvas is covered with a thick layer of black paint, on which brilliant patches explode like flowers or rockets, long striations that rush to meet each other. The whole forms a strange, difficult, overpowering composition. Nothing in the painting suggests the young woman’s measured movements, her exact and firm gentleness.”

These were the first words of Marc Saporta’s Composition No 1 that I read, and it’s not a bad opening paragraph at all: economical, lyrical, and intriguing. There’s a slight problem with it, all the same – because with this novel, there is no way of knowing if this is meant to be the opening paragraph or not.

In fact Saporta’s novel has 150 opening paragraphs, because it consists of 150 unbound pages, printed on one side only, which the reader is meant to shuffle and read in any order. It is an extreme example of aleatory or interactive literature, that tiny but fascinating sub-genre which numbers among its better-known examples Hopscotch by Julio Cortázar, Landscape Painted with Tea by the Serbian novelist Milorad Pavic and – perhaps most famously in this country – BS Johnson’s The Unfortunates.

**Allegedly the first ever ‘book in a box’

 

Raymond Queneau, One Hundred Thousand Billion Poems

http://www.growndodo.com/wordplay/oulipo/10%5E14sonnets.html

Raymond Queneau’s Hundred Thousand Billion Poems or One hundred million million poems (original French title: Cent mille milliards de poèmes), published in 1961, is a set of ten sonnets. They are printed on card with each line on a separated strip, like a heads-bodies-and-legs book. As all ten sonnets have not just the same rhyme scheme but the same rhyme sounds, any lines from a sonnet can be combined with any from the nine others, so that there are 1014 (= 100,000,000,000,000) different poems. It would take some 200,000,000 years to read them all, even reading twenty-four hours a day.

There is a virtual simulator available at http://www.growndodo.com/wordplay/oulipo/10%5E14sonnets.html

 

B. S. Johnson, The Unfortunates

“I did not think then, and do not think now, that this solved the problem completely… But I continue to believe that my solution was nearer; and even if it was only marginally nearer, then it was still a better solution to the problem of conveying the mind’s randomness than the imposed order of a bound book.”

A sports journalist, sent to a Midlands town on a weekly assignment, finds himself confronted by ghosts from the past when he disembarks at the railway station. Memories of one of his best, most trusted friends, a tragically young victim of cancer, begin to flood through his mind as he attempts to go about the routine business of reporting a football match.

B S Johnson’s famous ‘book in a box’, in which the chapters are presented unbound, to be read in any order the reader chooses, is one of the key works of a novelist now undergoing an enormous revival of interest. The Unfortunates is a book of passionate honesty and dark, courageous humour: a meditation on death and a celebration of friendship which also offers a remarkably frank self-portrait of its author.

 

Arno Schmidt, Bottom’s Dream

Bottom’s Dream (German: Zettel’s Traum or ZETTEL’S TRAUM as the author wrote the title) is a novel published in 1970 by West German author Arno Schmidt. Schmidt began writing the novel in December 1963 while he and Hans Wollschläger began to translate the works of Edgar Allan Poe into German. The novel was inspired by James Joyce’s novel Finnegans Wake, particularly Schmidt’s use of columns (his “SpaltenTechnik”), which Schmidt claimed was borrowed from the Wake.

The story itself is based on the questions of translating Edgar Allan Poe, following a couple who visits the home of a Poe translator to discuss his work. It is written in an idiosyncratic style, one in which Schmidt attempts to apply a Freudian understanding of language to the text by using various typographic features which alter the usual flow of text.

The gargantuan novel was published in folio format with 1,334 pages. The story is told mostly in three shifting columns, presenting the text in the form of notes, collages, and typewritten pages.The 2016 English translation by John E. Woods has 1,496 pages and weighs over six kilograms.

*It also costs a cool 75 dollars!

 

Milorad Pavić, Dictionary of the Khazars and Landscape Painted With Tea

Dictionary of the Khazars: A Lexicon Novel (Serbian Cyrillic: Хазарски речник, Hazarski rečnik) is the first novel by Serbian writer Milorad Pavić, published in 1984. Originally written in Serbian, the novel has been translated into many languages. It was first published in English by Knopf, New York in 1988.

There is no easily discerned plot in the conventional sense, but the central question of the book (the mass religious conversion of the Khazar people) is based on a historical event generally dated to the last decades of the 8th century or the early 9th century when the Khazar royalty and nobility converted to Judaism, and part of the general population followed. There are more or less three different significant time-periods that take place in the novel. The first period takes place between the 7th and 11th centuries and is mainly composed of the stories of the polemic, its representatives and the Khazars themselves. The second period takes place during the 17th century, and includes stories about the lives of the compilers of the in-universe Khazar Dictionary and their contemporaries. The third briefly takes place in the 1960s and 70s, but mostly in the 1980s, and includes stories of academics of areas that are in some way to do with the Khazars. There are also mentions of things that happened outside of these periods, such as the talk of primordial beings like Adam Ruhani and Adam Cadmon.

Most of the characters and events described in the novel are entirely fictional, as is the culture ascribed to the Khazars in the book, which bears little resemblance to any literary or archeological evidence.

The novel takes the form of three cross-referenced mini-encyclopedias, sometimes contradicting each other, each compiled from the sources of one of the major Abrahamic religions (Christianity, Islam, and Judaism). In his introduction to the work, Pavić wrote:

No chronology will be observed here, nor is one necessary. Hence each reader will put together the book for himself, as in a game of dominoes or cards, and, as with a mirror, he will get out of this dictionary as much as he puts into it, for you […] cannot get more out of the truth than what you put into it.

The book comes in two different editions, one “male” and one “female”, which differ in only a critical passage in a single paragraph.

Pavić stated that the Khazars were a metaphor for a small people surviving in between great powers and great religions. In Yugoslavia, Serbs recognized their own fate; it was the same in Slovenia and elsewhere, a schoolbook on survival. The same in Hungary and Czechoslovakia, and on and on. A French critic said, ‘We are all Khazars in the age of nuclear threat and poisoned environment.

A ballet interpretation

 

Ibid., Landscape Painted with Tea

The present and the past, generation gaps, religion and faith, relationships of sexes: Landscape Painted with Tea consists of heterogeneous fragments and they don’t add up into the whole smoothly…

This novel can indeed be read in the same way that one does a crossword. Across here, down there, a name here, a surname there…

And like a crossword it doesn’t strive after having much sense… It is an effervescent play of mind… It resembles a sort of some talking tree…

I like the talking tree best; it alone bears a double fruit, and on it one can distinguish between quiet and silence. For a man with a heart full of silence and a man with a heart full of quiet cannot be alike…

“…any virtue is just a way station between two vices.” – Probably this is the quintessence of the story…

Or perhaps simply this: “He took along just one family icon John the Baptist Shaving His Chopped Off Head.”

This style of the Slavic magical realism rather resembles surrealism with a strong flavor of absurdist comedy…

But as the water in a cup is after all similar to the water in the sea so any tale, however surreal it may seem, is in some degree similar to reality.

 

House Of Leaves, Mark Z. Danielewski

The plot is centered on a fictional documentary about a family whose house contains a seemingly endless labyrinth. The format and structure of House of Leaves is unconventional, with unusual page layout and style, making it a prime example of ergodic literature. It contains copious footnotes, many of which contain footnotes themselves, including references to fictional books, films or articles. In contrast, some pages contain only a few words or lines of text, arranged in strange ways to mirror the events in the story, often creating both an agoraphobic and a claustrophobic effect. At points, the book must be rotated to be read. The novel is also distinctive for its multiple narrators, who interact with each other in elaborate and disorienting ways. (Wikipedia)

House of Leaves Changed My Life: The Cult Novel at 20

Danielewski’s House of Leaves Defies Literature

 

Vladimir Nabokov, Pale Fire

Pale Fire is a 1962 novel by Vladimir Nabokov. The novel is presented as a 999-line poem titled “Pale Fire”, written by the fictional poet John Shade, with a foreword, lengthy commentary and index written by Shade’s neighbor and academic colleague, Charles Kinbote. Together these elements form a narrative in which both fictional authors are central characters. Nabokov wrote Pale Fire in 1960–61, after the success of Lolita had made him financially independent, allowing him to retire from teaching and return to Europe. It was commenced in Nice and completed in Montreux, Switzerland.

Starting with the epigraph and table of contents, Pale Fire looks like the publication of a 999-line poem in four cantos (“Pale Fire”) by the fictional John Shade with a foreword, extensive commentary, and index by his self-appointed editor, Charles Kinbote. Kinbote’s commentary takes the form of notes to various numbered lines of the poem. Here and in the rest of his critical apparatus, Kinbote explicates the poem very little. Focusing instead on his own concerns, he divulges what proves to be the plot piece by piece, some of which can be connected by following the many cross-references. Espen Aarseth noted that Pale Fire “can be read either unicursally, straight through, or multicursally, jumping between the comments and the poem.” Thus, although the narration is non-linear and multidimensional, the reader can still choose to read the novel in a linear manner without risking misinterpretation.

The interaction between Kinbote and Shade takes place in the fictitious small college town of New Wye, Appalachia, where they live across a lane from each other, from February to July 1959. Kinbote writes his commentary from then to October 1959 in a tourist cabin in the equally fictitious western town of Cedarn, Utana. Both authors recount many earlier events, Shade mostly in New Wye and Kinbote in New Wye and in Europe, especially the “distant northern land” of Zembla.

Solving Nabokov’s Pale Fire

 

*A CODA ON HTML FICTION – DEFINITELY ERGODIC BUT TOO MUCH TO CHOOSE FROM AND THE POST IS LONG ALREADY, HERE ARE TWO EXAMPLES FOR YOU

afternoon, a story, Michael Joyce

… spelled with a lowercase ‘a’, is a work of electronic literature written in 1987 by American author Michael Joyce. It was published by Eastgate Systems in 1990 and is known as one of the first works of hypertext fiction.

afternoon was first offered to the public as a demonstration of the hypertext authoring system Storyspace, announced in 1987 at the first Association for Computing Machinery Hypertext conference in a paper by Michael Joyce and Jay David Bolter. In 1990, it was published on diskette and distributed in the same form by Eastgate Systems. It was followed by a series of other Storyspace hypertext fictions, including Stuart Moulthrop’s Victory Garden, Shelley Jackson’s Patchwork Girl and Deena Larsen’s Marble Springs. Eastgate continues to publish the work in the 2010s and distributes it on a USB flash drive.

The original CD cover >>>>

The hypertext fiction tells the story of Peter, a recently divorced man who witnessed a car crash. Hours later, he suspects that the wrecked car may have involved his ex-wife and their son.

The plot may change each time it is read if the reader chooses different paths. (Wikipedia)

 

Patchwork Girl, or A Modern Monster, Shelley Jackson
by Shelley Jackson

Jackson’s Patchwork Girl tells the story through illustrations of parts of a female body that are stitched together through text and image. The narrative of the story is divided into five segments, titled: “a Graveyard”, “a Journal”, “a Quilt”, “a Story”, and “& broken accents.” The goal of the piece is to not only make the reader realize the structure of the Patchwork Girl as a whole but also realize all the pieces that must be “patched” together in order to create one unified structure. Each segment leads down a trail that takes the story in multiple directions through various linking words and images. Jackson uses recurring graveyard imagery in order to continually invite the reader to resurrect Mary Shelley’s monster.

In Mary Shelley’s original, Victor Frankenstein begins the creation of a female companion for his monster, but destroys the second effort prior to completion. In Jackson’s version, the female monster is completed by Mary Shelley herself. The woman and her creation become lovers; the creature then travels to America, where she pursues a variety of adventures before disintegrating after a 175-year lifetime. Individual sections also explore the lives of some of the women whose corpses contributed body parts to the creature. The work is an oft-cited example of cyberfeminism—”If you want to see the whole,” one passage reads, “you will have to piece me together yourself.” Furthermore, Jackson’s use of hypertext “enables us to recognize the degree to which the qualities of collage—particularly those of appropriation, assemblage, concatenation, and the blurring of limits, edges, and borders—characterize a good deal of the way we conceive of gender and identity.”

In reflecting on the structural impact of hypertext on Patchwork Girl, Jackson wrote:

In hypertext, everything is there at once and equally weighted. It is a body whose brain is dispersed throughout the cells, fraught with potential, fragile with indecision, or rather strong in foregoing decisions, the way a vine will bend but a tree can fall down. (Wikipedia)

Excerpts from a talk SJ made in

It has come to my attention that a young woman claiming to be the author of my being has been making appearances under the name of Shelley Jackson. It seems you have even invited her to speak tonight, under the misapprehension that she exists, that she is something besides a parasite, a sort of engorged and loathsome tick hanging off my side. May I say that I find this an extraordinary impertinence, and that if she would like to come forward, we shall soon see who is the author of whom.

We’re not who we say we are.

The body is not one, though it seems so from up here, from this privileged viewpoint up top. When we look down that assemblage of lobes and stalks seems to be one thing, even if it looks nothing like our ID photo, but it routinely survives dissolution, from hair loss to loss of limb. The body is a patchwork, though the stitches might not show. It’s run by committee, a loose aggregate of entities we can’t really call human, but which have what look like lives of a sort; though they lack the brains to nominate themselves part of the animal kingdom, yet they are certainly not what we think of as objects, nor are they simple appendages, directly responsible to the conscious brain. Watch white blood cells surround an invader, watch a cell divide. What we see is not thinking exactly, but it is “intelligent,” or at least ordered, responsive, purposeful.

The body is not even experienced as whole. We never see it all, we can’t feel our liver working or messages shuttling through our spine. We patch a phantom body together out of a cacophony of sense impressions, bright and partial views. We borrow notions from our friends and the blaring organs of commerce, and graft them on to a supple, undifferentiated mist of smart particles. It’s like a column of dust motes standing in a ray of light, patted and tatted into a familiar shape. Our work is never very successful, there are always scraps floating loose, bits we can’t control or don’t want to perceive that intrude like outsiders on the effigy we’ve constructed in our place. The original body is dissociated, porous and unbiased, a generous catch-all. The mind, on the other hand, or rather discursive thought, what zen calls monkey-mind and Bataille calls project, has an almost catatonic obsession with stasis, centrality, and unity. Project would like the body to be its commemorative statue or its golem, sober testiment to the minds’ values and an uncomplaining servant. But the statue doesn’t exist except in the mind, a hard kernel like a tumor, set up in the portal to the body, blocking the light. The project of writing, the project of life, even, is to dissolve that tumor. To dismantle the project is the project. That is, to interrupt, unhinge, disable the processes by which the mind, glorying in its own firm grip on what it wishes to include in reality, gradually shuts out more and more of it, and substitutes an effigy for that complicated machine for inclusion and effusion that is the self.

EVERYTHING AT ONCE

You’re not where you think you are. In hypertext, everything is there at once and equally weighted. It is a body whose brain is dispersed throughout the cells, fraught with potential, fragile with indecision, or rather strong in foregoing decisions, the way a vine will bend but a tree can fall down. It is always at its end and always at its beginning, the birth and the death are simultaneous and reflect each other harmoniously, it is like living in the cemetary and the hospital at once, it is easy to see the white rectangles of hospital beds and the white rectangles of gravestones and the white rectangles of pages as being essentially synonymous. Every page-moment is both expectant and memorializing, which is certainly one reason why I have buried the patchwork girl’s body parts in separate plots in a zone called the cemetary, while in the story zone they are bumptious and ambulatory.

Hypertext doesn’t know where it’s going. “Those things which occur to me, occur to me not from the root up but rather only from somewhere about their middle. Let someone then attempt to seize them, let someone attempt to seize a blade of grass and hold fast to it when it begins to grow only from the middle,” said Kafka. It’s got no through-line. Like the body, it has no point to make, only clusters of intensities, and one cluster is as central as another, which is to say, not at all. What sometimes substitutes for a center is just a switchpoint, a place from which everything diverges, a Cheshire aftercat. A hypertext never seems quite finished, it isn’t clear just where it ends, it’s fuzzy at the edges, you can’t figure out what matters and what doesn’t, what’s matter and what’s void, what’s the bone and what’s the flesh, it’s all decoration or it’s all substance. Normally when you read you can orient yourself by a few important facts and let the details fall where they may. The noun trumps the adjective, person trumps place, idea trumps example. In hypertext, you can’t find out what’s important so you have to pay attention to everything, which is exhausting like being in a foreign country, you are not native.

Hypertext is schizophrenic: you can’t tell what’s the original and what’s the reference. Hierarchies break down into chains of likenesses, the thing is not more present than what the thing reminds you of; in this way you can slip out of one text into a footnoted text and find yourself reading another text entirely, a text to which your original text is a footnote. This is unnerving, even to me. The self may have no clear boundaries, but do we want to lose track of it altogether? I don’t want to lose the self, only to strip it of its claim to naturalness, its compulsion to protect its boundaries, its obsession with wholeness and its fear of infection. I would like to invent a new kind of self which doesn’t fetishize so much, grounding itself in the dearly-loved signs and stuff of personhood, but has poise and a sense of humor, changes directions easily, sheds parts and assimilates new ones. Desire rather than identity is its compositional principle. Instead of this morbid obsession with the fixed, fixable, everyone composing their tombstone over and over. Is it that we want to live up to the dignity of our dead bodies? Do keep in mind the dead disperse, and even books, which live longer, come apart into different signatures.

NO-PLACE

I’m not where you say I am.

Hypertext blurs the distinction between subject and object, matter and the absence of matter. We no longer know where it does its thinking, or what it is driving at. (It’s no one and no-place, but it’s not nothing. ) Instead, there is a communicating fabric spread out over a space without absolute extent, a place without placement (a place without placemats, I almost wrote, which is good too). In the no-place of hypertext, there’s finally room to move around, like an orifice I can fit my whole body into, instead of just my finger or my p-p-p-pen. I adore the book, but I don’t fit into it very well, as a writer or a reader, there’s always some of me hanging untidily outside, looking like a mess, an excrescence, something the editor should have lopped off and for which I feel a bit apologetic. To make something orderly and consecutive out of the divergent fragments that come naturally feels like forcing myself through a Klein bottle. My hypertext novel Patchwork Girl grew in clumps and strands like everything I write, but unlike everything else it had permission to stay that way, to grow denser and more articulated but not to reshape itself. (It made me slightly nervous. Maybe I puritanically half-believed I ought to button down, zip up.) I can’t help seeing an analogy between the editorial advice I have often received to weed out the inessentials and lop off the divergent story lines, and the life advice I’ve received just as often to focus, choose, specialize. You don’t show up for tennis in a tutu and a catcher’s mask, it’s silly. But in this place without coordinates I cautiously began to imagine that I could invent a new game, make a novel, if we still want to call it that, shaped a little more like my own thoughts. It is as though somebody chewed a hole in a solid and irrefutable wall, and revealed an expanse of no-space as extensive as the space we live in, or as though the interstices between things could be pried apart without disturbing the things themselves, to make room for what hasn’t been voted into the club of stuff.

GAPS, LEAPS

You won’t get where you think you’re going.

A conventional novel is a safe ride. It is designed to catch you up, propell you down its track, and pop you out at the other end with possibly a few new catchphrases in your pocket and a pleasant though vague sense of the scenery rushing by. The mechanism of the chute is so effective, in fact, that it undoes the most worthy experiments; sentences that ought to stop you in your tracks are like spider webs across the chute. You rip through, they’re gone.

Hypertext likes give and take, snares and grottos, nets and knots. It lacks thrust. It will always lack thrust; thrust is what linear narrative is good at. As far as I’m concerned, we can trust thrust to it. It means we’ll need other reasons to keep readers reading–assuming that’s what we want–than a compulsion to find out what happens next. There’s no question that hypertext will lose or never acquire those readers for whom a fated slalom toward the finish line is the defining literary experience; hypertext’s not built for that. Probably it is because linear text’s so well-built for it that it has become the dominant narrative style in the novel. But there are other reasons to read. I can be caught in that slalom myself, but I emerge feeling damp, winded and slightly disgusted. It is a not entirely pleasant compulsion disguised as entertainment, like being forced to dance by a magic fiddle. It becomes harder and harder to imagine going anywhere but just where you’re going, and words increasingly mean just what they say. (Common sense reality does the same thing: there is little opportunity for poetic ambiguity in the dealings of everyday life.) Plot chaperones understanding, cuts off errant interpretations. Reading a well-plotted novel I start by knowing less than I know about my own life, and being open to far more interpretations, which makes me feel inquisitive and alive. I finish by knowing more than I want to know, stuck on one meaning like a bug on a pin.

In a text like this, gaps are problematic. The mind becomes self-conscious, falters, forgets its way, might choose another way, might opt out of this text into another, might “lose the thread of the argument,” might be unconvinced. Transitional phrases smooth over gaps, even huge logical gaps, suppress contradiction, whisk you past options. I noticed in school that I could argue anything. I might find myself delivering conclusions I disagreed with because I had built such an irresistable machine for persuasion. The trick was to allow the reader only one way to read it, and to make the going smooth. To seal the machine, keep out grit. Such a machine can only do two things: convince or break down. Thought is made of leaps, but rhetoric conducts you across the gaps by a cute cobbled path, full of grey phrases like “therefore,” “extrapolating from,” “as we have seen,” giving you something to look at so you don’t look at the nothing on the side of the path. Hypertext leaves you naked with yourself in every leap, it shows you the gamble thought is, and it invites criticism, refusal even. Books are designed to keep you reading the next thing until the end, but hypertext invites choice. Writing hypertext, you’ve got to accept the possibility your reader will just stop reading. Why not? The choice to go do something else might be the best outcome of a text. Who wants a numb reader/reader-by-numbers anyway? Go write your own text. Go paint a mural. You must change your life. I want piratical readers, plagiarists and opportunists, who take what they want from my ideas and knot it into their own arguments. Or even their own novels. From which, possibly, I’ll steal it back.

BANISHED BODY

It’s not what we wish it were.

The real body, which we have denied representation, is completely inimical to our wishful thinking about the self. We would like to be unitary, controlled from on top, visible, self-contained. We represent ourselves that way, and define our failures to be so, if we cannot ignore them, as disease, hysteria, anomaly. However:

The banished body is unhierarchical.

It registers local intensities, not arguments. It is a field of sensations juxtaposed in space.

It is vague about size and location, unclear on measurements of all kinds, bad at telling time (though good at keeping it).

It is capacious, doesn’t object to paradox, includes opposites–doesn’t know what opposites are.

It is simultaneous.

It is unstable. It changes from moment to moment, in its experience both of itself and of the world.

It has no center, but a roving focus. (It “reads” itself.)

It is neither clearly an object nor simply a thought, meaning or spirit; it is a hybrid of thing and thought, the monkey in the middle.

It is easily influenced; it is largely for being influenced, since its largest organs are sensing devices.

It is permeable; it is entered by the world, via the senses, and can only roughly define its boundaries.

It reports to us in stories, intensities, hallucinatory jolts of uninterpreted perceptions: smells, sights, pleasure, pain.

Its public image, its face is a collage of stories, borrowed images, superstitions, fantasies. We have no idea what it “really” looks like.

Because we have banished the body, but cannot get rid of it entirely, we can use it to hold what we don’t want to keep but can’t destroy. The real body, madcap patchwork acrobat, gets what the mind doesn’t want, the bad news, the dirty stories. The forbidden stories get written down off-center, in the flesh. In hysteria, the body starts to tell those stories back to us–our kidneys become our accusers, our spine whines, our knees gossip about overheard words, our fingers invent a sign language of blame and pain. Of course, the more garbage we pack into that magical body the more we fear it, and the more chance there is that it will turn on us, begin to speak, accuse us. But that body-bag is also a treasure-trove, like any junkyard. It knows stories we’ve never told.

BOUNDARY PLAY

We don’t think what we think we think.

It’s straightforward enough to oppose the self to the not-self and reason to madness. It’s even possible to make the leap from here to there, though coming back presents some problems. But the borders between are frayed and permeable. It’s possible to wander that uneven terrain, to practice slipping, skidding in the interzone. It’s possible, and maybe preferable for the self to think of itself as a sort of practice rather than a thing, a proposition with variable terms, a mesh of relationships. It’s possible for a text to think of itself that way. ANY text. But hypertext in particular is a kind of amphibious vehicle, good for negotiating unsteady ground, poised on its multiple limbs where the book clogs up and stops; it keeps in motion. Conventional texts, on the other hand are in search of a place of rest; when they have found it, they stop.

Similarly, the mind, reading, wants to make sense, and once it has done so it considers its work done, so if you want to keep the mind from stopping there, you must always provide slightly more indicators than the mind can make use of. There must be an excess, a remainder. Or an undecideable oscillation between possibilities. I am interested in writing that verges on nonsense, where nonsense is not the absence of sense, but the superfluity of it. I would like to sneak as close to that limit as possible without reaching it. This is the old kind of interactive writing: writing so dense or so slippery that the mind must do a dance to keep a grip on it. I am interested in writing this way for two reasons. One, because language must be teased into displaying its entire madcap lavish beauty. If you let it be serviceable then it will only serve you, never master you, and you will only write what you already know, which is not much. Two, because the careful guarding of sense in language is not just analogous to but entirely complicit in the careful guarding of sense in life, and that possibly well-intentioned activity systematically squelches curiosity, change, variety, & finally, all delight in life. It promotes common sense at the expense of all the others.

REALITY FICTION

It’s not what it says it is.

Reality thinks it “includes” fiction, that fictional works are embedded in reality. It’s the boast of a bully. But just because reality’s bigger doesn’t make it boss. Every work of art is an alternate “world” with other rules, which threatens the alibi of naturalness our ordinary reality usually flaunts. Every fictional world competes with the real one to some extent, but hypertext gives us the chance to sneak up on reality from inside fiction. It may be framed as a novel, yet link to and include texts meant to be completely non-fictional. Thus the pedigreed facts of the world can be swayed, framed, made persuaders of fiction, without losing their seats in the parliament of the real, as facts tend to do when they’re stuck in a novel. Hypertext fiction thus begins to turn around and look back on reality as a text embedded in a fictional universe.

Ironically, that might make us like reality better: it’s reality’s hegemony that strips it of charm. Reality is based on country cottage principles: what’s homey must be true. It is a tolerable place to live. What’s dreadful is the homey on a grand scale, Raggedy Ann and Andy turned Adam and Eve, cross-stitch scenes of the Grand Canyon, the sun cast as the flame snapping behind the grate, the ocean our little kettle. Those goofy grins turn frightening on a cosmic scale; the simplicity that makes it easy to pick up a coffeecup is not suitable for managing a country, or even a conscience. The closure of the normal is suffocating at the very least. By writing we test the seams, pick out the stitches, trying to stretch the gaps between things to slip out through them into some uncharted space, or to let something spring up in the real that we don’t already know, something unfamiliar, not part of the family, a changeling.

THE FEMININE

She’s not what he says she is. The banished body is not female, necessarily, but it is feminine. That is, it’s amorphous, indirect, impure, diffuse, multiple, evasive. So is what we learned to call bad writing. Good writing is direct, effective, clean as a bleached bone. Bad writing is all flesh, and dirty flesh at that: clogged with a build-up of clutter and crud, knick-knacks and fripperies encrusted on every surface, a kind of gluey scum gathering in the chinks. Hypertext is everything that for centuries has been damned by its association with the feminine (which has also, by the way, been damned by its association with it, in a bizarre mutual proof without any fixed term). It’s dispersed, languorous, flaunting its charms all over the courtyard. Like flaccid beauties in a harem, you might say, if you wanted to inspire a rigorous distaste for it. Hypertext then, is what literature has edited out: the feminine. (That is not to say that only women can produce it. Women have no more natural gift for the feminine than men do.)

CONSTELLATION

I’m not what you think I am. I am a loose aggregate, a sort of old fashioned cabinet of curiosities, interesting in pieces but much better as a composite. It’s the lines of traffic between the pieces that are worth attention, but this has been, until now, a shapeless sort of beauty, a beauty without a body, and therefore with few lovers. But hypertext provides a body, a vaporous sort of insufficiently tactile body but a body, for our experience of the beauty of relationships. It is like an astronomy of constellations rather than stars. It is old-fashioned, in that sense. It is a sort of return, to a leisurely old form, the sprawling, quizzical portmanteau book like the Anatomy of Melancholy ( “a rhapsody of rags gathered together from several dung-hills, excrements of authors, toys and fopperies confusedly tumbled out,” as Burton himself described it) to the sort of broad cross-fertilization of disciplines that once was commonplace, only hypertext does not provide so much courtly guidance across the intellectual terrain, but catapults you from spot to spot. (The wind whistles in your ears. It aerates the brain. You begin to feel like a circus performer, describing impeccable parabolas in the air, vacating every gesture before it can be fixed, wherever anyone thinks you are is where you’ve just been, sloughing off afterimages. You feel pared down, athletic, perfectly efficient.) The athletic leap across divides has its own aesthetic, and so does the pattern those leaps form in the air, or, to be more exact, in the mind. People spend their lives forging such patterns for themselves, but only the cranks and the encyclopedic generalists with vague job descriptions, the Bill Moyerses, have the nerve to invite others to try out their own hobby-horseride through the World of Ideas. More often these are private pathways, possible to make out sometimes in a novelist’s ouevre (rare butterflies turn up in Nabokov’s fiction enough to make you guess that he was a lepidopterist, if you didn’t know already) as a system of back alleys heading off from the work at hand, but not for public transit. Until recently, that is, since the internet seems to be making possible a gorgeous excess of personal syntactical or neural maps, like travel brochures for the brain. What results isn’t necessarily worth the trip, but some of it will be: art forms take shape around our ability to perceive beauty, but our ability to perceive beauty also takes shape around what forms become possible. Hypertext is making possible a new kind of beauty, and creating the senses to perceive it with.

COLLAGE

We don’t say what we mean to say. The sentence is not one, but a cluster of contrary tendencies. It is a thread of DNA–a staff of staphylococcus–a germ of contagion and possibility. It may be looped into a snare or a garotte. It is also, and as readily, a chastening rod, a crutch, an IDJbracelet. It is available for use. But nobody can domesticate the sentence completely. Some questionable material always clings to its members. Diligent readers can glean filth from a squeaky-clean one. Sentences always say more than they mean, so writers always write more than they know, even the laziest of them. Utility pretends to peg words firmly to things, but it is easy to work them loose. “Sometimes the words are unfaithful to the things,” says Bachelard. Indeed they are, and as writers, we are the agents of misrule, infidelity, broken marriages. It was not difficult, for example, to pry quotes from their sources, and mate them with other quotes in the “quilt” section of Patchwork Girl, where they take on a meaning that is not native to the originals. We set up rendezvous between words never before seen in company, we provide deliciously private places for them to couple. Like the body, language is a desiring machine. The possibility of pollution is its only life. Having invented an infinitely recombinant language, we can’t prevent it from forming improper alliances, any more than we can seal all our orifices without dying.

In collage, writing is stripped of the pretense of originality, and appears as a practise of mediation, of selection and contextualization, a practise, almost, of reading. In which one can be surprised by what one has to say, in the forced intercourse between texts or the recombinant potential in one text, by the other words that mutter anagrammatically inside the proper names. Writers court the sideways glances of sentences mostly bent on other things. They solicit bad behavior, collusion, conspiracies. Hypertext just makes explicit what everyone does already. After all, we are all collage artists. You might make up a new word in your lifetime–I nominate “outdulge”: to lavish fond attention on the world, to generously broadcast care–but your real work will be in the way you arrange all the stuff you borrow, the buttons and coins, springs and screws of language, the frames and machinery of culture. We might think of Lawrence Sterne, who, when accused of plagiarism, answered the charge with an argument that was itself a plagiarism.

WE LIKE TO MAKE STATUES

We are not who we wish we were.

We like to make statues of ourselves. The Greeks marched ever more perfect bodies out of antiquity, slim vertical columns, like a line of capital I’s, a stutter of self-assertion. But works of words are self-portraits too, substitute bodies we put together, then look to for encouragement. Boundaries of texts are like boundaries of bodies, and both stand in for the confusing and invisible boundary of the self. The wholeness of an artwork helps firm us up; in its presence we believe a little more in the unity we uneasily suspect we lack. As a result we have an almost visceral reaction to disorderly texts. Good writing is clear and orderly; bad writing inspires the same kind of distaste that bad grooming does, while experimental novels are not just hard to read, they’re anti-social. Proper novels are duplicate bodies to the idealized ones we have in our heads, the infamous “thin person struggling to get out.” They’re good citizens, polite dinner guests.

Books, of course, like other bodies, fall apart. Literally, and also in the invisible body of the text, because language is libidinous, and the most strait-laced sentence hides a little hanky-panky under the dust ruffle. But monkey brain doesn’t want to think about that, project can’t hear, and so the novel, over the course of time, has become, despite the most flagrant tendecies toward polymorphous perversity and transgender play, a very stalwart announcement of nothing much. A sturdy who cares. One writes, one produces literature, and as Bataille says, “one day one dies an idiot.” A project without any particular purpose that I can see, besides the announcement that project exists, that there is purpose and order, a sort of recitation of what we already know. The novel has become the golem, the monster that acts like everyone else, only better, because the narrative line is wrapped like a leash around its thick neck. I would like to introduce a different kind of novel, the patchwork girl, a creature who’s entirely content to be the turn of a kaleidoscope, an exquisite corpse, a field on which copulas copulate, the chance encounter of an umbrella and a sewing machine on an operating table. The hypertext.

Hypertext is the banished body. Its compositional principle is desire. It gives a loudspeaker to the knee, a hearing trumpet to the elbow. It has the stopped stories to tell, it mentions unmentionables, speaks unspeakables; it unspeaks. I don’t mean to say it has different, better opinions than novels can muster up, that it’s plugged with better content. Hypertext won’t make a bland sentence wild or make a dead duck run quacking for the finish line. Fill a disjunctive structure with pablum and you will only cement the world’s parts more solidly together, clog the works with glue. It’s not opinions I’m interested in, but relationships, juxtapositions, apparitions and interpolations. Hypertext is the body languorously extending itself to its own limits, hemmed in only by its own lack of extent. And like the body, it no longer has just one story to tell.

CONSTRAINTS & THE BOOK

It’s not all you think it is.

I have no desire to demolish linear thought, but to make it one option among many. Likewise, I’d like to point out that the book is not the Natural Form it has become disguised as by its publicists. It is an odd machine for installing text in the reader’s mind and it too was once an object of wonder. Turning the page, for example, has become an invisible action, because it has no meaning in most texts, the little pause it provides is as unreflective as breathing, but if we expected something different, or sought to interpret the gap, we might find ourselves as perplexed by that miniature black-out as by any intrusive authorial device we get exercised about in experimental literature or hypertext. Similarly, the linear form of the novel is not a natural evolutionary end, but a formal device, an oulipian constraint, albeit one with lots of elbow-room. Like all constraints, it generates its own kinds of beauty, from graceful accession to linearity to the most prickly resistance. My favorite texts loiter, dawdle, tease, pass notes, they resist the linear, they pervert it. It’s the strain between the literal and the implied form that’s so seductive, a swoon in strait laces that’s possibly sexier than a free-for-all sprawl. Constraints do engender beauty, Oulipo and evolution prove that, but maybe we’ve shown well enough how gracefully we can heel-toe in a straight line. We can invent new constraints, multiple ones. I think we will: just because I advocate dispersal doesn’t mean I’m as impressed by a pile of sawdust as I am by a tree, a ship, a book. But let us have books that squirm and change under our gaze, or tilt like a fun-house floor and spill us into other books, whose tangents and asides follow strict rules of transformation, like a crystal forming in a solution, or which consist entirely of links, like spider-webs with no corpses hanging in them. Language is the Great Unruly, and alphabetical order is a contradiction in terms.

AGAINST HISTORY

It was not how they said it was.

I see no reason why hypertext can’t serve up an experience of satisfying closure not drastically different from that of reading a long and complicated novel, though it will do it differently. But I’m not sure closure is what we should be working toward, any more than a life well lived is one that hurtles without interruption toward a resounding death. A life that hurls itself ahead of itself seeking a satisfaction that must always remove itself into the future will be nothing but over in the end, and the same with those greased-lightning luge-novels. Don Delillo said in a reading in San Francisco a week ago that the writer sets her pleasure (his pleasure, is what he actually said), her eros, against the great, megalithic death that is history’s most enduring work. I take that death to be not just the literal extinction of life after life, but the extinguishing of the narrative pulse of all those lives under the granite gravity of history recorded. History is a cold, congealed thing, but if it is not too far past, there are strands of DNA, molecules of story imbedded in it, which can be rejoined and reanimated by a sufficiently irreverent Frankensteinbeck. It’s not the same as life, fiction has a funeral flavor to it, no question, a stony monumentality life luckily lacks, it has the thudding iambic footsteps of the undead, but this is all to the good, because everyone listens to a monster. Writers can’t make facts react backwards, redo what’s done, but what we have left of what’s done is stories, and writers tell those better than most people. The incredible thing is that desire suffices against history, against death, against the hup-two lock-step of binary logic and the clockwork of common sense. What we imagine is all that animates us, not just texts, but also people. A beaker of imaginal secretions makes us all desire’s monsters, which is what we ought to be.

 

 

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had this real cock -and -cum hungry piece of nasty assed sex machine for 24hr non stop hard fucking and cumdumping, the more cocks drilling his wet pussy and sexy mouth the better, taking all fresh warming cum inside his bitchin holes, gangbanged him madly, wildly, animal style , spitroasting him from both sides, flooding whole his slutty body inside and out with avalanche of semen shower, his stretched gaping anal vagina ready taking two and even three cocks at one time, so does his sweet sexy mouth plus golden rain, deep anal fisting, dildos, rimming, the most kinky, perverted, dirty and hard sodomic fucking, drilled madly in extreme positions, hard cocks constant in his anus to fill in emptyness of his exist.

Body Type Slim
Body Hair Shaved
Ethnicity Caucasian
Position Bottom only
Dick S – Uncut
Dirty Yes
Fisting Passive
S&M Yes
Kissing Yes
Smoker Yes
Language Czech, English
Safer Sex Never
Hourly Rate On request
Overnight Rate On request

 

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badorphantwink, 18
Milan

If you’re a Heterosexual billionaire who who just want a son to discreetly work out my Dad’s dead so the bod’s all yours.

Guestbook of badorphantwink

badorphantwink (Owner) – Sept 8, 2022
Owe a guy some money so selling my clothes. Make me a offer and buy anything I’ve got on.

DadsAreHot – Sept 2, 2022
This boy is a money grubbing prick tease who promises everything then doesn’t do shit. He needs to be made to regret he was ever born. Kidnap him and rape him repeatedly until you are tired of him. Then pass him off to someone else who still thinks he’s hot. Don’t warn him you are going to kidnap him. Make it a surprise. Just pretend like you want to meet up, then do whatever you need me to do. Knock him unconscious, drug him, whatever.

badorphantwink (Owner) – Aug 28, 2022
I am still questioning my sexuality and while I’m certain that I am homo-romantic I do not know whether I’m asexual, demisexual, or full blown homosexual. That being said, I’ve been fucked by 14 guys.

inferiorPOSLoser – Aug 28, 2022
How much to squash you like a bug?

badorphantwink (Owner) – Aug 23, 2022
I didn’t come out of Jupiter’s thighs. I’m from working environment. You don’t choose your family. I’m looking for a Daddy who corrects me to be a good guy and fucks me too. It’s NOT very chic but I’m a lot bitch. I’m NOT an Apollo but I’m not a tuna either. My Daddy, I dream of him as a guy who has it if you see what I want to say.

big_eggs – Aug 21, 2022
I love his feet but I haven’t did anything with them yet.

badorphantwink (Owner) – Aug 17, 2022
You will put me first and above all others in your life and I mean everyone. You’ll be cash drained once a week with minimum $5k/month cash drain to start.

Body Type Athletic
Body Hair Smooth
Ethnicity Mixed
Position Versatile
Dick L – Uncut
Dirty No answer
Fisting Active
S&M Soft
Kissing Yes
Smoker Yes
Language Italian, English
Safer Sex Let’s talk
Hourly Rate 200€
Overnight Rate 500€

 

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rapebait, 18
Janesville

I am willing to be raped. I will give you every assurance you need – written, verbal, or video explaining I am sanctioning this relieving you of any legal responsibility.

I don’t consider myself “gay” in the sense that I have no desire for vanilla sex with a man. I am not turned on by sex with a man under normal circumstances.

There are countless number of ways to set it up and I will do my best to make possible, but I want it to be real, and once it starts I want it to keep going until it is finished.

I’m NOT a bottom. I hate the whole idea of getting fucked. I don’t want you to rape me. When you rape me it will be horrible for me.

I know most rapists are only interested in “one-offs,” but I would like it if we found we meshed well enough for this to be an ongoing thing.

Guestbook of rapebait

rapebait (Owner) – Sept 9, 2022
You should have a reasonably soundproof space because I am not a silent, stoic rape victim. The pain will flow through me, unedited, and come out in whatever noises come out. Gags will muffle my screams of agony but not eliminate these sounds.

rnsnoop321 – Sept 7, 2022
Before I raped him I marked my territory anywhere I wanted all over his apartment. I whipped it out and used him and his stuff like a urinal. Brought some beer, drank it and found things to mark and spread my dom alpha piss. Then I gave him a rim job and raped him. It was definitely rape.

rapebait (Owner) – Sept 7, 2022
No fisting, I don’t have space.

daddywithteenissues – Sept 5, 2022
Tasty wonderfully succulent body that can be bent, hung up and folded in anyway you desire. More you rape his body, the more you moan.
The more you moan, the more he begs you to stop.
The more he begs you to stop, the more you moan.

rapebait (Owner) – Sept 3, 2022
I’m “straight acting” and not internalising any homophobia – basically, if you’re looking to rape a fem, that’s not me (I’ve tried, I just wasn’t into it).

Body Type Slim
Body Hair Little
Ethnicity Caucasian
Position Botom only
Dick M – Cut
Dirty Yes
Fisting No answer
S&M Yes
Kissing Yes
Smoker Yes
Language English
Safer Sex Never
Hourly Rate 200$
Overnight Rate On request

 

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Satansbabymuscleboy, 19
Braunau

About me
Hello Hello <3
Call me Elli ^-^

My favorite series are mainly anime like Elfenlied, One Piece or Higurashi.

My favorite music artists are lil peep, mother mother, Nirvana and Rammstein :>

I’m obsessed with movies and can talk for hours about them, especially Scream.

I have existential “crises”. “Who am I”, “Why am I”, “Where am I”, “Who do I want to be”.

My biggest fears are insects and what comes after death.

I speak a little Spanish 🇪🇸 and a very tiny tiny amount of French 🇫🇷

My dream type of date is older and taller than me.

Guestbook of Satansbabyfemboy

DustWithIn – Sept 11, 2022
He is into basketball. His height is 5’7. Recently, he has picked to visit to the gym room and exercise. Best of all he doesn’t ask questions about your mentality.

spinthebottle – Sept 9, 2022
He wants to talk and have fuck <3 secrets are better for him, thanks…

Footnote: Good for good-hearted fuckers who know how to speak.

He’s just have a talking and fuck <3

say_something – Sept 8, 2022
Happy and always laughing. Loves memes and camels.

moneygiver – Sept 8, 2022
it’s a shame he has such a microscopic penis. otherwise my favourite twink 🫶🏻

Body Type Athletic
Body Hair Shaved
Ethnicity Caucasian
Position More bottom
Dick M – Uncut
Dirty No answer
Fisting No
S&M Soft
Kissing Yes
Smoker No
Language Swedish, German, English
Safer Sex Sometimes
Hourly Rate 120€
Overnight Rate 350€

 

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aimlessadventure, 18
San Diego

I offer here together with 2 of my 3 buddies our joint videos for sale. In total we made 100 videos of ourselves.
our prices
30 videos for 15 euros
60 videos for 25 euros
80 videos for 30 euros
100 videos for 35 euros
We jerk off blow eat ass fuck piss selfsuck and squirt a lot of sperm on and in each other.
My highlight is my video where I blow myself and squirt in my mouth while my buddies fuck me.
Our videos are between 3 and 6 minutes long. With sound and face.
We don’t do meetings because there simply isn’t enough time in the day and we’re all taken by girlfriends.

Guestbook of aimlessadventure

aimlessadventure (Owner) – Sept 6, 2022
Fuck Art. I hate Art. Don’t talk to me about Art.

Body Type Athletic
Body Hair Some
Ethnicity Caucasian
Position Versatile
Dick XL – Cut
Dirty Yes
Fisting No answer
S&M Yes
Kissing No
Smoker Yes
Language English
Safer Sex Sometimes
Hourly Rate On request
Overnight Rate On request

 

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aliensuperslut, 20
Cambridge

I’m just a horny, nihilist, weirdo with a pleasant disposition and an unending thirst for sexual debauchery, looking for money (and dicks) in this bizarre world. I spent most of my teens doing one-off hook ups and slutting it up–if you blew the best load of your life up the ass of a cross dresser in the somerville/cambridge area in the last ten years it was probably me.

I play masculine sometimes, I play feminine sometimes. When I’m in the mood to get dressed up and be a dirty sissy, it’s delightful and I usually go by she (but don’t worry, i’m not at all sensitive about it) and like being a dirty slut. When I’m masculine, I tend to be more into piggy stuff, but it’s flexible. Ideally I’d like a guy who is into me either way, because frankly shaving my legs is a real pain and something I don’t want to do every day.

Guestbook of aliensuperslut

DominantAnimal – Sept 8, 2022
He’s a calamity.

aliensuperslut (Owner) – Sept 7, 2022
I want my Pusssy eats now I’m high.

-Butt-Pirate- – Sept 7, 2022
He is serious & complex fucking for those who need it.

aliensuperslut (Owner) – Sept 4, 2022
I want you to eat my Tina party pusssy hole after I slam.

Ghostface69 – Sept 4, 2022
very good equipment, both the A and B side.

aliensuperslut (Owner) – Sept 2, 2022
Eat my Pusssy pls.

perryplatypus – Sept 2, 2022
He’s a Scorpio/Sagittarius cusp. You’ve been warned.

aliensuperslut (Owner) – Sept 1, 2022
Hint eat my Pusssy.

Body Type Athletic
Body Hair Shaved
Ethnicity Mixed
Position Bottom only
Dick L – Uncut
Dirty Yes
Fisting Passive
S&M Yes
Kissing Yes
Smoker No
Language Slovakian, English
Safer Sex Never
Hourly Rate 70$
Overnight Rate 300$

 

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LuckyYou_, 18
Bratislava

I am a typical chauvinist at heart. Current relationship aside, to me women are whores for use. I see tits, I see ass, and I see pussy. All for fucking. Nothing more.

I am looking for dudes willing to bankroll treating me like that. Light bondage is called for, that gives me an excuse that I didn’t “deserve” it – it was out of my control.

Regret is hot. So is “be careful what you wish for.” Enjoy breaking a misogynist asshole who’s a bit too cocky for his own good, and giving him the cunting of his life.

I´m talking only young dudes = 30+ NO CHANCE even for 1000 euro/hour

Guestbook of LuckyYou_

LuckyYou_ (Owner) – Sept 5, 2022
PLEASE READ: After a couple of experiences I have realised I am huge into having my ass repacked with my shit. Our goal would be to get it back in my ass by any means necessary. As long as I don’t see my blood, continue on guys.

hornyeverytime – Aug 27, 2022
Quite tight, for “now”.

LuckyYou_ (Owner) – Aug 27, 2022
Ok I lied. I come from a redneck racist family with religious roots, which is why I am still a virgin. But I cant deny my urges any longer. My family will not accept me serving you I know that for a fact. But I want it so bad, I was straight my whole life, and have been attracted to girls for my whole life, but this desire has cucked me out of any real shot of having a girlfriend my whole life. I am a coward, weak, helpless, a little boy trapped in a boy’s body. I have a 6’5 inch penis and I’m a virgin, I am scared of women. I’m a fag.

Body Type Slim
Body Hair Little
Ethnicity Caucasian
Position More bottom
Dick M – Uncut
Dirty No answer
Fisting Passive
S&M Yes
Kissing Consent
Smoker Socially
Language English
Safer Sex Let’s talk
Hourly Rate 140€
Overnight Rate 800€

 

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tinyfrog, 19
Bedford

I love my bf we have great life, 2 yrs together. Sex doesn’t happen alot, he jo every night when i sleep. ( porn addicted) . I have these older daddies that want me, they said they live to tag me& fuck me like i need too be. They offer me lot of money. Think 🤔 i should, it just be sex, ( wild nasty sex) my bf i never tell, but think i need this, to be treated like a paid sex thing

Guestbook of tinyfrog

over8nycbk – Sept 4, 2022
better he don’t know. just come home with semen leaking out of you.

tinyfrog (Owner) – Sept 4, 2022
Thanks for great feedback, its awesome. I chatted with both of hese dads, one married& on divorce. They agree to tage me & they both pay . I understand i should not cheat,and i want stay married. When you find your person , you want share LIFE, i want to grow old with someone

CardocPOZ – Sept 4, 2022
yes I totally agree: please allow yourself to us, allow yourself to be treate like you really do care for: A sex thing.

atlfukbud – Sept 4, 2022
I’d say GO FOR IT! I absolutely love my bf and will remain committed to him with my heart and souls but my my cock crave young boy ass, and sport sex can be so hot without being love, name your price!

Body Type Athletic
Body Hair Little
Ethnicity Latino
Position More bottom
Dick L – Uncut
Dirty No answer
Fisting No answer
S&M Soft
Kissing Yes
Smoker Yes
Language English
Safer Sex Sometimes
Hourly Rate On request
Overnight Rate On request

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OpenHole, 23
Boise

What am I supposed to say?
I smoke weed, watch my dog play with the neighbor’s dogs and enjoy growing plants that give food or smokable products.
I do something with theater and also somehow art.
Sometimes I tend to write what could be called poetry.
And when I’m really confident, I have the audacity to smack paint on canvas.
I earn my living doing legal bottled drugs and getting fisted and destroyed badly. You can also diaper me.
I am such a strange stranger.
I discovered fisting a while back by accident and since then every time I get fisted, it feels fantastic.
Who am I?
A boy in his twenties wanting arms inside him, and, oh my God, you so want me daddy.

Guestbook of OpenHole

OpenHole (Owner) – Sept 1, 2022
My greatest moment ever was in a field, strapped to a St. Andrew’s cross being gang fisted during a lightning and thunderstorm. Help me recreate that moment?

Body Type Slim
Body Hair Some
Ethnicity Caucasian
Position Bottom only
Dick XL – Uncut
Dirty Yes
Fisting Passive
S&M Yes
Kissing No
Smoker Yes
Language English
Safer Sex Rarely
Hourly Rate 100$
Overnight Rate 600$

 

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anotherricky, 21
Valencia

As a tourism business student, I’m eager to learn how a specific body like mine can maximize its potential in attracting more tourists in order to improve my economic. Damn! Sorry I’m not interested in guys, I only work for ladies or lesbians.

Guestbook of anotherricky

FireFighter_bln – Sept 8, 2022
He understands how to take advantage, to the extreme, of the sexual misery of others.

Body Type Athletic
Body Hair Shaved
Ethnicity Mixed
Position Top only
Dick XL – Cut
Dirty No
Fisting Active
S&M Yes
Kissing No
Smoker No
Language Spanish, English
Safer Sex Let’s talk
Hourly Rate 100€
Overnight Rate 500€

 

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nobodyownsmehere, 19
Bucharest

Product Description:↓↓↓

I am not a positive/happy person.
I am exhausting due to my negative nature and my mental illness.

I’m not looking for compliments, and I don’t send any intimate pictures of myself either. I will also not respond to sexual requests.

If you have a problem with my looks, congratulations, i have a problem with that too.

I’m not looking for guys who think they’re gods or something imaginary. I’m not interested in your appearance or the size of your Pinocchio nose, because i only pay attention to whether your level of patience is enough.

I also don’t want to be a filler for your miserable life, either you’re seriously interested in my miserable life or you aren’t.

[ – no body positivity
– depressed
– hate myself ]

Guestbook of nobodyownsmehere

nobodyownsmehere (Owner) – Sept 7, 2022
My fetish is holding hands with a handsome man.

nickontherun – Sept 7, 2022
So if I were to hire you, what would I be paying for?

nobodyownsmehere (Owner) – Sept 7, 2022
I tend to critique everything everyone says to me, but if you get to know me I’m even worse.

Body Type Athletic
Body Hair Some
Ethnicity Caucasian
Position Prefer not to say
Dick M – Uncut
Dirty No
Fisting No
S&M Soft
Kissing Consent
Smoker Yes
Language Romanian, English
Safer Sex Prefer not to say
Hourly Rate 40€
Overnight Rate 40€

 

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ImForSaleDaddies, 20
Birmingham

I’m very small and skinny (5′ and 80lbs).
I’m looking for a sugar daddy who will pay me 1£.
I also sell nudes for 50p.

Guestbook of ImForSaleDaddies

shadowpriest208 – Sept 9, 2022
Am I the youngest person who’s fucked this guy? I’m 11, and I fucked him like hell.

MercysAvatar – Sept 8, 2022
If Austin Powers and Spongebob had a baby.

ImForSaleDaddies (Owner) – Sept 5, 2022
Love me, not yourself!

Ihavemoneys – Sept 5, 2022
he displays his unfathomable stupidity without restraint.

ImForSaleDaddies (Owner) – Sept 4, 2022
I’m mostly bottom but that’s because the guys that want me to top have a flat ass.

Body Type Slim
Body Hair Little
Ethnicity Caucasian
Position Bottom only
Dick M – Uncut
Dirty Yes
Fisting Passive
S&M Yes
Kissing Yes
Smoker Yes
Language English
Safer Sex Never
Hourly Rate 160£
Overnight Rate 1000£

 

 

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p.s. Hey. ** Travis (fka Cal), Hi. ‘Janky robots’, nice. Three projects at once is definitely my upper limit, but it’s doable. As long as one of them isn’t too exciting. Thank you for having read all my stuff. That’s very cool and, you know, humbling. I look forward to reading/seeing all of yours. ** T, Hi. Ah, I wish you could be in LA around Halloween because I could help you be a haunted house slut. For some reason, I’ve been finding Reddit subgroups of various sorts very useful lately, but none of them have politics remotely on their minds. Oh, sure, I actually tried to republish ‘The Consumer’ through my old imprint Little House on the Bowery, but, at that time, Michael was very wary of having it back in print for some reason and wanted too much money, but I see he changed his tune. It’s a terrific book. I assume you’ve read it? ** Dominik, Hi!!! Maybe you could take a little table and chair to the wedding and set up in a corner somewhere pretending to read people’s tarot cards or analysing their handwriting as your wedding gift to them? I don’t know why that makes it seem easier to be there in concept, but it does in my head. Zac was feeling somewhat improved as of yesterday, so hopefully he’s rocketing back to health by today. Oh, thank you, love. I maybe not surprisingly at all would like the full size animated Victorian Haunted Mansion attraction as well as somewhere to store it, if love would be so kind. Love making Austin Powers and Spongebob have a baby for real, G. ** _Black_Acrylic, I felt a fondness for little Kenny as well. I think for sure it must be a generational thing. Like how the utterly mediocre, long forgotten (I thought) 90s pop-grunge band Sum 41 just sold out their headlining concert at a huge concert venue here in Paris. The French can be so insanely nostalgic. It boggles my mind. ** Sypha, I’m going to start calling you Grandpa James. And I’ll tell people, ‘You’re never going to believe me, but I knew Grandpa James when he used to collect Peter Sotos books. No, seriously! It’s true! Swear to God!’ B&N dropping their Halloween soundtrack makes no sense whatsoever and is surely one of the reasons they’re a dying chain. ** Billy, The fact that other countries, France included, don’t go whole hog on Halloween is one of the greatest wtf mysteries of all time. The movie is inching forward with great difficulties, but it is inching, yes, thank you. Oh, and what in the world is your media so otherwise preoccupied with, ha ha? ** Right, Middle of the month, escorts + you, go nuts or the opposite. See you tomorrow.

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