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Month: March 2019 (Page 7 of 12)

Please welcome to the world … Raymond Roussel THE ALLEY OF FIREFLIES AND OTHER STORIES (Song Cave), guest-hosted by Jeff Jackson

 

Raymond Roussel (1877-1933) is one of the most distinctive and compelling French writers of the twentieth century, yet many aspects of Roussel’s life remain shrouded in mystery. An extremely wealthy and always exquisitely dressed homosexual dandy, Roussel was also a compulsive writer. Despite the strangeness of his work, he was convinced that it would make him as popular as Victor Hugo or Shakespeare. His suicide at the age of 56 was in part prompted by the continual disappointment of his hopes for fame.

The full extent of Roussel’s writing only became clear in 1989 when a trunk was unearthed in a furniture warehouse containing a vast trove of his manuscripts. The most exciting discoveries were the full draft of Locus Solus (over twice as long as the published version) and the typescript of what would have been his third novel, The Alley of Fireflies, which is translated here for the first time into English by the leading Roussel scholar, Mark Ford. Ford has also translated two haunting extracts from the drafts of Locus Solus, and versions of two of the young Roussel’s most intriguing short stories, “Chiquenaude” and “Among the Blacks.”

Roussel’s work was vociferously championed by Surrealist writers and painters such as André Breton, Marcel Duchamp and Salvador Dalì, and later proved a significant influence on Oulipians (particularly Georges Perec), on nouveaux romanciers like Alain Robbe-Grillet, as well as on John Ashbery and Harry Mathews, who named their pioneering magazine of the 1960s Locus Solus, after Roussel’s second novel.

 

Quotes about Roussel:

Genius in its pure state. – Jean Cocteau

The President of the Republic of Dreams. – Louis Aragon

He who pointed the way. – Marcel Duchamp

It is true that there is hidden in Roussel something so strong, so ominous, and so pregnant with the darkness of “infinite spaces”… that one feels the need for some sort of protective equipment when one reads him. – John Ashbery

Things, words, vision and death, the sun and language make a unique form… Roussel, in some way, has defined its geometry. – Michel Foucault

 

 

Introduction
By Mark Ford

The photograph of Raymond Roussel used as the frontispiece for this volume was taken in Milan in October of 1896. Roussel was nineteen, and some months earlier had begun writing a novel in verse called La Doublure (The Understudy – although it is worth remembering that doublure can also mean the lining of a garment). While he was writing La Doublure – whose main character, Gaspard, is initially employed as an understudy in a Parisian theatre – Roussel became convinced that he was destined for the most extraordinary literary greatness:

One understands by some peculiar means that one is creating a masterpiece, that one is a prodigy; there are child prodigies who have revealed their genius at the age of eight – I was revealing mine at the age of nineteen. I was the equal of Dante and Shakespeare.

Indeed, so powerful was Roussel’s experience of inspiration, or la gloire as he termed it, that he would compose only in a darkened room:

Whatever I wrote was surrounded by rays of light; I used to close the curtains, for I was afraid that the shining rays emanating from my pen might escape into the outside world through even the smallest chink; I wanted suddenly to throw back the screen and light up the world. To leave these papers lying about would have sent out rays of light as far as China, and the desperate crowd would have flung themselves upon my house. But it was in vain I took such precautions, for rays of light were streaming from me and through the walls, I was carrying the sun within myself and could do nothing to impede the tremendous light I was radiating. Each line was repeated in a thousand copies, and I wrote with a thousand flaming pen-nibs.

La Doublure consists mainly of relentlessly precise descriptions, in somewhat monotonous alexandrine couplets, of the floats and gigantic papier-mâché figures that feature in the annual carnival at Nice, and wouldn’t find an appreciative audience until the emergence of nouveaux romanciers such as Alain Robbe-Grillet and Michel Butor in the 1960s. Nevertheless, when the book was published (at Roussel’s own expense) and attracted only two short reviews, one of which called it “more or less unintelligible” while the other complained that it was “very boring,” Roussel felt as if he had “plummeted to earth from the prodigious heights of glory”:

The shock brought me out in a kind of skin disease, which took the form of a rash covering my entire body; my mother, who believed I had measles, had me examined by our doctor. The shock resulted, most crucially, in my developing a dreadful nervous illness, from which I suffered for many years.

There followed a period of what Roussel later called ‘prospecting’, which eventually led to the development of his procédé, the bizarre compositional method that underlies his two novels, Impressions d’Afrique (1910) and Locus Solus (1914), and his two plays, L’Étoile au front (1925) and La Poussière de soleils (1927). Roussel only revealed his special method in a posthumously published autobiographical text entitled Comment j’ai écrit certains de mes livres (How I wrote certain of my books). In this short memoir Roussel ventured to hope that his compositional discovery might prove useful to succeeding authors, and outlined the various phases of its evolution.

The most elementary of these phases is on display in the two short stories that open this volume, Chiquenaude (literally, a flick of the finger) and Parmi les noirs (Among the Blacks). They belong to a series of stories that Roussel wrote, in the wake of the failure of La Doublure, in his early twenties, and which he punningly labelled “Textes de grande jeunesse ou Textes-genèse.”

The pun or homonym is at the heart of Roussel’s procédé, which is based on the fact that words can have more than one meaning. All of the Textes-genèse begin and end with the same set of words, with the exception of one or, in the case of Chiquenaude, two letters, but the meaning of each of the main words in these opening and closing phrases is different. Chiquenaude, for instance, begins with the sentence: “Les vers de la doublure dans la pièce du Forban Talon Rouge [avaient été composés par moi].” (The verses of the understudy in the play The Red-Heeled Buccaneer [had been composed by me.]) It concludes: “Les vers de la doublure dans la pièce du fort pantalon rouge! …” But here vers means worms, not verses, doublure means lining, not understudy, pièce means piece, not play, and Forban Talon Rouge has become fort pantalon rouge – making this final phrase mean: “The worms in the lining of the piece of strong red trouser! …” “Les lettres du blanc sur les bandes du vieux billard” opens Among the Blacks – “The letters (ie alphabetical letters) in white chalk on the cushions of the old billiard table.” In its concluding clause, billard has been changed to pillard: “Les lettres du blanc sur les bandes du vieux pillard,” meaning “The letters (ie. missives) from the white man about the hordes of the old pillager.” “The two phrases found,” Roussel comments in How I Wrote Certain of my Books “it was a question of writing a story that could begin with the first and end with the second.”

Roussel composed about twenty stories that make use of this primary phase of the procédé, but Chiquenaude was the only one that he allowed to see the light of day in his lifetime. It was issued by Alphonse Lemerre (a not entirely reputable firm who charged Roussel exorbitant sums to print, advertise and distribute his works) as a 24-page plaquette in the autumn of 1900. Alas, like the weighty La Doublure (which runs to over 5,600 lines), it failed to find the adoring readership that Roussel craved; as late as the 1930s Lemerre was still trying to dispose of unsold stock.

Roussel’s fascination with linguistic doubleness is explicit in the Textes-genèse, which may have been one reason why he chose not to publish while he was alive any of those that he composed after Chiquenaude. In my critical biography Raymond Roussel and the Republic of Dreams (2000), I connected his obsession with the cryptic, with language’s doubleness or homophonic linings, with his secret life as an inordinately wealthy belle époque homosexual. Roussel was furnished by his mother with a maîtresse de convenance to preserve appearances, but he was also subject to blackmail by sailors and stable boys and chauffeurs. The procédé, in other words, might be seen as analogous to Oscar Wilde’s use of puns in The Importance of Being Earnest, as a form of linguistic bunburying. Like Wilde, Roussel discovered in the duplicity of language a means of transposing into his writing his own double life.

Is the point, both Roussel’s and Wilde’s puns prompt us to inquire, to reveal or to conceal the secret buried in the word’s lining? Or merely to signal its existence? Among the Blacks is accorded a special status by Roussel in How I Wrote Certain of my Books as the text that enabled him to move beyond the agonies of prospecting – agonies that became so acute that he would often roll around on the floor in fits of rage. Anticipating in subject matter Impressions of Africa, Among the Blacks initiated the binary between black and white that would become such a dominant feature of his imagination. Further, the story itself concerns the solving of a puzzle, and operates through a series of antitheses and parallels that look forward to the hall-of-mirrors effects achieved by Roussel in his later novels and plays. It is striking that he gives the story’s main characters names that are almost allegorical: Among the Blacks is the name of the novel written by the story’s character Balancier (which can mean pendulum or scale-maker), and on either side of his scales, or the swings of his pendulum, are the white captured sea captain Compas (a compass), who sends letters home by carrier pigeon to his wife (les lettres du blanc), and the old pillaging black chieftain Tombola, the triumphant feats of whose voracious hordes (les bandes du vieux pillard) are described in these letters. Balancier, it appears, depicts Tombola in his novel as a stereotypical cannibal out of a routine adventure story set in darkest Africa, yet his name connects him with Roussel’s conviction while writing La Doublure that he had won le grand lot, first prize in the great literary tombola. Cannibalism, in this instance, can be construed as a metaphor for the unleashed powers of the unchecked imagination, which need a compass and scales – or a procédé – to be turned into the all-conquering black words printed on the white pages of books that would, Roussel fervently believed, make him as famous as Dante or Shakespeare.

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1 On 30 May 1933, some six weeks before his death, Roussel wrote beneath this photograph: “En tête de tous mes livres sur les tirages posthumes” (To be used as a frontispiece on all posthumous editions of my books).
2 These quotations are drawn from the psychologist Pierre Janet’s diagnosis of Roussel in his study of nervous disorders of 1926, De l’angoisse à l’extase. Roussel chose to reprint Janet’s account of his case in the Citations Documentaires section of Comment j’ai écrit certains de mes livres.

 

 

Excerpt

Bertha the Child-Flower
An Episode from the Newly Discovered Drafts of Locus Solus

At that moment there advanced towards us a woman who looked like a well-built rustic. She carried in front of her, in both hands, a sort of rack painted pink, on which was stretched a body which was the same bright pink, and which greatly intrigued us, for it seemed half-human and half-vegetal.

‘This is Catherine Seyeux and her daughter Bertha,’ said Boudet, as he hailed the woman, who joined us at once. Stretched flat on the rack, Bertha was sleeping naked in the sun, and her mother was making no effort to shelter her from its burning rays. About six weeks old, the child had a perplexing and distressing appearance. Her skin, of an unheard-of delicacy and transparency, exactly resembled the petal of a flower, and was an entirely even rose colour all over. Within this incredible epidermis ran an equally strange network of veins, whose greenish hue contained hints of a tincture similar to that found in certain flowers. This skin was so completely diaphanous that it was possible to see through it the various organs of the body

Responding to the look of mute inquiry on our faces, Boudet explained to us how Catherine Seyeux came to give birth to such a strange creature.

For a long time Boudet had been haunted by the idea of artificially fertilizing a woman with the pollen of a flower. He had made several attempts at this, using peasant women he had carefully selected for their strength and fertility. But he found that whatever sort of pollen he used, these attempts always failed.

One day he was glancing through an illustrated newspaper and saw the portrait of a rural woman from Texas; she was thirty-eight years old and had no fewer than forty-five boys and girls, having given birth to twins or triplets every year since she was eighteen. The picture showed the smiling mother standing next to her husband and surrounded by their forty-five offspring, all in perfect health. The newspaper gave the woman’s name and that of her village.

Struck by her procreative abilities, Boudet decided she would be the ideal candidate for his experiment, and would present a better chance than any other of success. He wrote to her, explaining in detail what he expected of her, and offering her the most magnificent rewards if she would agree to come over to France and participate in his plans. Catherine showed the letter to her husband, who, although a well-to-do farmer, could not remain indifferent in the face of such a significant sum of money, given the costs of raising such a large family. He gave his consent to his wife, who took the first steamer available, and one fine morning arrived on Boudet’s doorstep.

The first attempt was made with the pollen of , and was successful. Overjoyed, Boudet followed the phases of Catherine’s pregnancy with great anxiety.

Six weeks before our visit, Catherine, after the usual gestation period, gave birth to the frail little girl before our eyes, who was half way between a flower and a child. It was impossible to dress her in clothing, for her skin was so fragile that the gentlest contact might tear it.

So that her vulnerable body might be touched as little as possible, Boudet had ordered constructed a sort of rack on which she could lie, and he had it painted a bright pink that was exactly the colour of the skin of the little girl, who had been named Bertha.

Stretched out on her rack that was, on account of her incredible lightness, not at all uncomfortable or sharp, Bertha had flourished. Her mother breast-fed her like a normal infant, but with much smaller quantities of milk than would usually be given.

During the day she was kept continually out of doors and as much as possible in the sun. The vegetal side of her nature meant that there was no danger of sunburn, and she adapted wonderfully to this regime. The least shadow falling on her head or body threw her into a state of discontent, but as soon as she was back in the rays of the sun the little creature recovered her equanimity and bloomed.

While Boudet was speaking, Bertha had been gently stirring, as if she were about to wake up. Finally she opened her eyes, whose strange glints resembled a little the tincture of her veins.

Consulting his watch, Boudet saw that it was time for her to be fed, and asked Catherine to breast-feed her in front of us, so that we could see how alert and animated she was.

Catherine opened her blouse and, holding the rack in one hand, carefully turned Bertha, who seized the proffered breast in her two little hands and directed it eagerly to her lips.

Thanks to the transparent nature of the tissues of this strange creature, we were able to see the milk, in a jet of pure white, pass gently down the oesophagus and eventually into the stomach.

After several seconds, Boudet, judging that we had seen sufficient evidence of the healthy appetite of the child-flower, made a sign to Catherine to continue her walk, and we set off again behind him.

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1 Boudet was the name given in the drafts of Locus Solus to the character Roussel eventually called Martial Canterel.

 


Raymond Roussel with his mother, Marguerite Roussel, c. 1910.

 

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Bios

Raymond Roussel was born in Paris in 1877 and died in Palermo in 1933. He is best known for his novels Impressions of Africa (1910) and Locus Solus (1914), and for his posthumously published account of his peculiar compositional techniques, How I Wrote Certain of My Books (1935).

Mark Ford is the author of Raymond Roussel and the Republic of Dreams (2000), and of four collections of poetry: Landlocked (1992), Soft Sift (2001), Six Children (2011), and Enter, Fleeing (2018). His translation of Roussel’s final long poem, New Impressions of Africa (1932), was published in 2011. He teaches in the English Department at University College London.

 

 

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Rapemelikeaslut19, 19
Krefeld

Hello, I am an educated recent high school graduate seeking to be a sexy hot bimbo cock slut. For most of my life I have not felt like most guys. I have been smart and masculine yet have not felt like a real boy. I’ve been secretly feminine and insatiable. I’ve had to make my own paths but I’m lost now and very broke. I need money and a man to get into my head. I almost want to be brainwashed in some sense, willingly, and be your slaggy female. Play games with me trick me leave me so confused that my secret inner female bimbo bursts out and takes control of me is what I need. I am well spoken smart but also broken inside. I need your money.

Guestbook of Rapemelikeaslut19

yogo – Feb 26, 2019
He worries aloud at length that there’s something wrong with him. SHE SCREAMS WITH PLEASURE!

Dick M, Uncut
Orientation Bi
Body Athletic
Piercings No entry
Tattoos No entry
Smoking No entry
Speaks German, English, French
Position More bottom
Kissing Yes
FF No entry
S&M Yes
Dirty WS only
Oral Versatile
Safer sex Needs discussion
Rate per hour 250 €
Overnight 1000 €

 

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myboyfriend18, 18
Madrid

I have pre programmed my boyfriend to be a hypno escort.
In real life he’s a fem bottom but … money talks.
Ask me about his trigger word.
In calls only and I reserve the right to watch and take selfies.
Come on, life is far shorty than most will ever realize.

Yes, I know he’s skinny … if it’s not your thing you don’t need to tell me!

Guestbook of myboyfriend18

myboyfriend18 (Owner) – March 3, 2019
P.S our private life and kinks include a wide variety of large toys, fists ect. Please don’t hire him expecting a “virgin” ass. He’ll be a good escort due to hypnosis. Not because of his tightness x

Dick L, Uncut
Orientation Gay
Body Slim
Piercings A few
Tattoos No
Smoking Yes
Speaks Spanish, English
Position More bottom
Kissing Yes
FF No entry
S&M Soft SM
Dirty No
Oral Versatile
Safer sex Needs discussion
Rate per hour 60 €
Overnight 100 €

 

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EvilGoatBlood, 23
Brussels

The one and only 👑

Am not here for idiots am here to look sexy and get naughty so don’t even bother
messaging me or tapping me unless your good looking and have a lot of money

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Guestbook of EvilGoatBlood

EvilGoatBlood (Owner) – Feb 26, 2019
I loved frustrating the fuck out of you.

spookydrew – Feb 26, 2019
Shy as fuck. Scared to do the REAL STUFF.

Dick L, Uncut
Orientation Gay
Body Slim
Piercings Some
Tattoos Some
Smoking Yes
Speaks French, German, English
Position Versatile
Kissing Consent
FF Active/Passive
S&M Yes
Dirty No
Oral Versatile
Safer sex Needs discussion
Rate per hour 400 €
Overnight 1500 €

 

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thatsjulian, 22
Pittsburgh

PLEASE READ THE PROFILE CAREFULLY.
No experience with guys, virgin. I’m mostly a baseball player and fan.

Everything needs to be done while I’m wearing my uniform. Bring me to the bar, to restaurent or downtown while I’m wearing my uniform, then drive me to my game and in the evening I can offer you sex for the night but you must offer me something. All the time in gear.

I prefer that you are fat.

Guestbook of thatsjulian

zak47 – March 7, 2019
i’m very interested but uh please don’t agree to meet me if you’ve had sex or done anything sexual cause it makes me really uncomfortable being with someone that’s done stuff before.

Dick M, Cut
Orientation Straight
Body Athletic
Piercings No
Tattoos No
Smoking No
Speaks English
Position More top
Kissing Consent
FF No
S&M No
Dirty No
Oral Bottom
Safer sex Condom
Rate per hour On request
Overnight On request

 

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Gayoutlaw, 18
London

I’m into whatever you’ll pay to give me.
Text me what you got.

Guestbook of Gayoutlaw

Gayoutlaw (Owner) – March 9, 2019
Correction offer open to anyone except those who like the 80s and Tina Turner.

Yeahboi – March 5, 2019
For me, there is no truer or more authentic sexual pleasure than for a boy to willingly reduce himself down to the status of a Man’s loyal and eager pet …my dog to use as I see fit. I thought of Gayoutlaw not as a human role player, but truly as my dog. He was referred to as such, and treated as realistically as I would have treated any other dog. That’s where the deep sense of gratification came for me, when the play was sexual and not, he was my dog in every sense of the word.

spanker – March 1, 2019
I would describe his nipples as being impossibly sensitive.

Dick S, Uncut
Orientation No entry
Body Average
Piercings No
Tattoos No
Smoking No
Speaks English
Position Versatile
Kissing Consent
FF No entry
S&M Yes
Dirty No
Oral Versatile
Safer sex Sometimes
Rate per hour 200 £
Overnight 750 £

 

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skepticalbutoptimistic, 19
Kaltenkirchen

Interested in meeting a doctor. Experience with a lawyer. Bored by the dentist. Afraid of physicians. Soul mates with a juicy financial advisor. Invested in being an architect, poet, and light sleeper. Bitter about mathematics. Need a place, maybe across the street from our clothing pool in a nice field on a hot day, or with the aerosol cans in the fridge. Like to keep a nice breeze in the room. If you’ve come this far, I am a young person who dreams of one day emigrating to the US🇺🇸 You can fuck me only on cloudy days.

Guestbook of skepticalbutoptimistic

ATX5BIMM – March 10, 2019
Force It In Him

Dick L, Uncut
Orientation Gay
Body Slim
Piercings No
Tattoos No
Smoking Yes
Speaks German, Hungarian, English
Position More bottom
Kissing Yes
FF No entry
S&M No entry
Dirty No
Oral Versatile
Safer sex Needs discussion
Rate per hour 500 €
Overnight On request

 

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Metalboy20XXX, 20
Essen

So I offer a lot. However, I do not charge for time, but for acts. If an act is on the horizon, it’s over 🙂

No sex? No hay problema chico. Without pillaging, it costs only half. Much fun, bitches.

Also low key looking for a sugar daddy sooo 😛😛😛

Guestbook of Metalboy20XXX

Metalboy20XXX (Owner) – Feb 21, 2019
I’ve agreed to be rented for 48 hours by a kinky man. I will travel barefoot to him with my ass plugged. Then I’ve got two whole days of being fucked. He particularly wants me to like fisting. And I don’t but you know what I mean. Its gonna be hell. Let’s not kid ourselves.

Dick L, Uncut
Orientation Bi
Body Average
Piercings No
Tattoos A lot
Smoking Yes
Speaks German, English
Position More top
Kissing Consent
FF No entry
S&M Soft SM
Dirty WS only
Oral Versatile
Safer sex Never
Rate per hour 400 €
Overnight 1500 €

 

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cmlvr_, 19
Cainta

I am looking for a friend that can pay for my college dormitory fees. Please help a boo be able to continue his dream to become a dermatologist. My university is far from where I live that’s why.

Guestbook of cmlvr_

giver53 – March 8, 2019
“The best things in life are free. The second best are very expensive.”

Dick S, Uncut
Orientation Bi
Body Slim
Piercings Yes
Tattoos A lot
Smoking Yes
Speaks English, Filipino, Spanish
Position No entry
Kissing No entry
FF No
S&M No
Dirty No
Oral No entry
Safer sex Condom
Rate per hour On request
Overnight On request

 

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baresex, 20
Szolnok

Who’s out there that wants to eat me out, fuck me bare, breed and felch me for €500?

I will only respond to whose who want exactly what I want. Otherwise no reaction.

Guestbook of baresex

baresex (Owner) – March 8, 2019
I love my life🙂👍👍👍

Everyone-loves-milk – March 7, 2019
Super shy, he was raped into who he is today. Hhu

Peanut91 – March 2, 2019
hey thanks it was awesome xD rawr xoxo

Dick S, Uncut
Orientation Gay
Body Slim
Piercings Some
Tattoos No
Smoking Yes
Speaks German, English, Hungarian
Position Bottom only
Kissing Yes
FF Passive
S&M Yes
Dirty No
Oral Passive
Safer sex Never
Rate per hour 500 €
Overnight On request

 

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MyAssIsYour___, 22
Demmin

So the usual questions I answer hereby

How are you? Good, like you.

What are you looking for? A real rape in Demmin with payment, otherwise I would not have written.

Do you have xxx photos? No have none but you can shoot hundreds

Seeking rape, inseminations, no fun !!!! Otherwise Im kinda into everything except few things that Ill let you know afterwards heheh. Is someone a medic? Doctor. Urologist?

Positions: Doggy and Mission and the like
Poppers and the like are musts

Danger!!!!

SEX ONLY WITHOUT RUBBER
SAFER SEX NEVER

I need your money but dont lord it over me ! If you do t have any money we can probably do a trade of something so let’s talk at least

Guestbook of MyAssIsYour___

MyAssIsYour___ (Owner) – Feb 22, 2019
My client tonite said I’m one of the most beautiful people on the planet!

Dick M, Uncut
Orientation Gay
Body Slim
Piercings No
Tattoos No
Smoking Yes
Speaks German, English
Position Bottom only
Kissing Yes
FF passive
S&M Yes
Dirty Yes
Oral More top
Safer sex Never
Rate per hour 200 €
Overnight 800 €

 

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DunkinBronuts, 18
Baden-Baden

Hi to all.
I Laura (18) and my daddy (36) are looking for tops or daddies or sexual sadist types for short term (1hr – overnight) triangle relationships.

My daddy is a strict dom, perpetually horny and crazy for his girl (me) and in his spare time he is a hobby photographer and likes to build things out of wood.

I am his little ts girl and sexual supplicant. I was born in 2000. Go to school in my free time I write erotic faces and like to go swimming. In addition I am slightly slow in my brain because of a physical accident.

Guestbook of DunkinBronuts

alwayshere4you – March 7, 2019
Nice place you’ve got there.

Dick S, Uncut
Orientation Gay
Body Slim
Piercings No
Tattoos A lot
Smoking Yes
Speaks German, English
Position Bottom only
Kissing Yes
FF Passive
S&M Yes
Dirty WS only
Oral Versatile
Safer sex Needs discussion
Rate per hour 400 €
Overnight On request

 

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withorwithoutyou, 19
Las Vegas

I used to have this app about a year ago but was secretly a virgin… way too inexperienced.

And I messed a few people around and chickened out of meeting up with them.

BUT I’ve had a lot of sex now and realise the value of peoples time.

Guestbook of withorwithoutyou

wetsex12 – March 2, 2019
I am a very angry virtual guy who wants to give you an enema make it wet and nasty I am from Pittsburgh Pennsylvania but staying at the Bellagio you must be shaved hairless and skinny but it looks like you already are

vasi301 – Feb 26, 2019
IF YOU HAVE YOUR BRAIN IN YOUR PANTS STAY AWAY FROM HIM

DanielWebster – Feb 25, 2019
The last time this “boy” showed up here I and others decided “he” was some kind of Russian bot targeting the escorting community.

Dick XL, Cut
Orientation Bi
Body Slim
Piercings Some
Tattoos No
Smoking Yes
Speaks English
Position Versatile
Kissing No
FF Active
S&M Yes
Dirty No
Oral More bottom
Safer sex Needs discussion
Rate per hour 400 $
Overnight 1200 $

 

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cockychavlad, 19
Southampton

19 year old chav lad not far from Southampton. Into decent make nylon jackets, trackies, trainers and socks. Nothing more humiliating than having my best gear fucked up, want to find someone who’s enough into this to pay. Someone who’s into paying to wreck nylon jackets would be perfect!

I love my jackets, like to keep them in perfect condition so it really is like torture when they’re stained, ripped or just damaged in any way, but it’s also a major turn on! You can’t rim me, finger me or fuck me, but if after ripping you’re so turned on you want to kiss me or something that’s probably okay.

Guestbook of cockychavlad

Anonymous – March 4, 2019
You have a pussy

Dick XL, Uncut
Orientation Straight
Body Average
Piercings No
Tattoos A few
Smoking Yes
Speaks English
Position No entry
Kissing Consent
FF No
S&M Yes
Dirty No
Oral No
Safer sex Condom
Rate per hour 70 £
Overnight On request

 

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Shared_18_ass, 18
Elsene

I share my 18yo boyfriend’s slut ass for a cost this evening, between 7 pm and 10 pm. Come breed him 🍑💦 No less than XL please.

Dick M, Uncut
Orientation Gay
Body Slim
Piercings No
Tattoos No
Smoking Yes
Speaks French, English, Croatian, Slovenian, Serbian
Position Bottom only
Kissing Yes
FF Passive
S&M Yes
Dirty Yes
Oral Top
Safer sex Never
Rate per hour 100 €
Overnight On request

 

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EnjoymentBoy, 21
Nantes

I am looking for a very rich and cultured man who has a good career.
A man with an irreproachable education …

Only in Sweden.📌

Luxury 🛍 champagne 🍾 Sweden 🇸🇪

Bring me to Sweden or take me traveling to Sweden, pay the costs, dazzle me, and I am yours lock, stock, and barrel.

I’m bubbly 😌

Guestbook of EnjoymentBoy

hotsportSwed – March 8, 2019
It wasn’t bad.

EnjoymentBoy (Owner) – March 8, 2019
I don’t know if my opinion counts, but it was great with hotsportParis!

Maseratihot – March 8, 2019
@hotsportSwed That doesn’t tell us anything.

hotsportSwed – March 8, 2019
I rented him in Stockholm for 4 days.

Dick M, Uncut
Orientation Gay
Body Average
Piercings No
Tattoos No
Smoking No
Speaks French, English, Spanish
Position Versatile
Kissing Yes
FF No
S&M Yes
Dirty No
Oral Versatile
Safer sex Needs discussion
Rate per hour 300 €
Overnight On request

 

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Harry, 18
London

Hi there. I’m Harry.
I’m a very open-minded Goth lad ready to please you or destroy you. Or both!

I’ve recently turned 18 and I can finally have a try at a profession I have long craved for.

As long as we respectfully agree on terms beforehand, then I’m ready to be treated like the filthy teen whore that I am!

I love to feel cock hit the back of my throat and I love to be fucked rough.
I can be slapped, choked, deep throated or even use me as a toilet if you’d like.

Or maybe, it’s just my cute gothie arseole that you’re after. If you’d like to fuck the living daylights out of me then it can certainly be arranged. Seriously, my arse is delicious as fuck!

Guestbook of Harry

sabbath – March 9, 2019
FUCK im GAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Harry (Owner) – March 9, 2019
SCREAMS

sabbath – March 9, 2019
i’m boutta murder that ASS bet🕳

Harry (Owner) – March 9, 2019
sabbath murder me baby 🤤🔪⛓💊💉🏥⚰

sabbath – March 9, 2019
wow im omw

Harry (Owner) – March 9, 2019
sabbath wow like bro… I love you🌋😳

sabbath – March 9, 2019
WOW im totally straight but im gay for u bro

Dick XL, Uncut
Orientation Bi
Body Average
Piercings A lot
Tattoos A lot
Smoking Yes
Speaks German, English, Spanish
Position More top
Kissing Yes
FF Active
S&M SM
Dirty No dirty
Oral Versatile
Safer sex Condom
Rate per hour 100 €
Overnight On request

 

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Hibiscus, 22
Warsaw

I am looking a top rich guy for whole life as my husband.

Guestbook of Hibiscus

Farukh231 – March 1, 2019
Gay love is Awesome!

Hibiscus (Owner) – Feb 27, 2019
better have uglyliest husband than handsome. because the good looking one just wanna playing your heart . noted

Dick L, Uncut
Orientation Gay
Body Slim
Piercings Some
Tattoos No
Smoking Socially
Speaks Polish, English, Dutch
Position More bottom
Kissing Yes
FF No entry
S&M Soft SM
Dirty No
Oral Versatile
Safer sex Needs discussion
Rate per hour On request
Overnight On request

 

 

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