Month: March 2017 (Page 5 of 6)

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Cashstudent, 20
Köln

Student of $ here, for $ fun, the more $ the less fun it has to be for me, with gentlemen.
I’m not a proffesional.
I’m not cultured and intelligent.
I’m not for everyone.
I am 100,000,000% bottom.
(_._) (_o_) (_O_)

Dicksize L, Uncut
Position More bottom
Kissing No entry
Fucking Bottom only
Oral Versatile
Dirty WS only
Fisting No
S&M Soft SM only
Client age Users between 36 and 99
Rate hour ask
Rate night ask

 

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AirBednBoy, 22
Malate

I’m a sort of un usual full gay bottom escort some would say I like fucked and poppers and to please a good cock but behind the secret of me what no one knows yet is that I want something normal bottoms would not want and it is not to be fucked that is not what I want but if you want to know what that need is feel free to sent me a message and ask i will tell n pvt

Guestbook of AirBednBoy

Anonymous – March 9, 2017
Psssst, it involves chess pieces.

Dicksize No entry, Cut
Position More bottom
Kissing No entry
Fucking No entry
Oral No entry
Dirty No
Fisting No entry
S&M No
Client age No restrictions
Rate hour 100 Dollars
Rate night ask

 

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hetero2blow, 19
Mexico City

I’m straight, but I love getting blown by men while I’m driving my car. Do you want to suck my cock while I drive around, humor free, then get something from your wallet?

Dicksize No entry, Cut
Position No entry
Kissing No entry
Fucking No entry
Oral No entry
Dirty No entry
Fisting No entry
S&M No entry
Client age Users between 18 and 70
Rate hour ask
Rate night ask

 

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Disputive, 19
Warsaw

You know who I am.
I offer my tight and virgin ass (I’ve always been top).
You can taste it too if you pay well.
It has been tasted before.
You can also buy my underwear.

Guestbook of Disputive

societygay – March 1, 2017
I recommend the underwear.

Dicksize No entry, Uncut
Position No entry
Kissing No entry
Fucking No entry
Oral No entry
Dirty No
Fisting No
S&M No
Client age No restrictions
Rate hour ask
Rate night ask

 

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Lamb, 19
Katowice

I am witch.
I am 17 fucking years old.
I WILL MAKE YOU ADDICTED TO ME, I WILL WASHING YOUR BRAINS TOTALLY.
I do this at home. I do not want to meet anyone outside the house and I only do this in the house.
Do not confuse me with your lover, or with your husband or your boy friend, ,,,,,
I am not one of them.

Dicksize XL, Uncut
Position Versatile
Kissing Consent
Fucking Versatile
Oral Versatile
Dirty WS only
Fisting Active / passive
S&M Soft SM only
Client age No restrictions
Rate hour 30 Dollars
Rate night 75 Dollars

 

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park, 22
Vienna

Let’s walk down to the park!

Finding my perfect partner wherever I go!

CLIENT IS A KING, KING NEVER BARGAIN!

I am a Arab, everyone has fantasies about Arabs!

Remember I don’t kiss!

Everyone love my arms, I don’t know why!

Please no yung guys!

Guestbook of park

Anonymous – Mar 2nd, 2017
your arms are beyond Godly !!!

Anonymous – Feb 27th, 2017
i had peerfect time with your superior arms and other parts

Anonymous – Feb 24th, 2017
beautiful arms, your arms where incredible! keep up good work xo

sam190 – Feb 11th, 2017
he allowed me to first lick and sniff his arms, then he showed me different vids of him fucking girls, then i fucked him!

Dicksize No entry, Cut
Position Bottom only
Kissing No entry
Fucking No entry
Oral No entry
Dirty No entry
Fisting No entry
S&M No entry
Client age Users between 50 and 65
Rate hour ask
Rate night ask

 

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Pregnant Twink, 23
Chattanooga

Male Pregnancy or Mpreg is a fantasy role-play fetish, fantasizing that men can be impregnated, carry a child or multiple to tern, and give birth. It involves one partner wearing a fake pregnant belly outfit and actively role-playing being pregnant in any situation (For the purposes of escorting, I fill this role, I’m naturally submissive) and the other partner being the one that knocked him up. The possibilities of what we can do for our hour or more together vary widely, and the belly does not get in the way of having sex or foreplay. If I’ve sparked your interest, or made you stop & think “why do I think this is so fucking hot” then you should hire me

Dicksize L, Cut
Position Versatile
Kissing Yes
Fucking More bottom
Oral Bottom
Dirty Yes
Fisting Active
S&M Yes
Client age No restrictions
Rate hour 100 Dollars
Rate night 500 Dollars

 

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STYLIN_PLAYER, 19
Barcelona

I MAKE A GOOD DESCONTRACTURING. THE ONLY PERSON WHO DOES THIS IN BARCELONA. I HAVE BEEN TESTED FROM SPAIN, CATALONIA, FRANCE, GERMANY, SWITZERLAND, AUSTRIA, AUSTRALIA, DENMARK, SWEDEN, ITALY, PORTUGAL, USA. ALSO MY ASS IS PRETTY LOOSE IF YOU WANT TO PENETRATE IT. ALSO I’M A GIANT (6’7″). ALSO I WANT TO HAVE FUN FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE.

Dicksize L, Cut
Position No entry
Kissing Consent
Fucking Bottom only
Oral Versatile
Dirty No entry
Fisting No entry
S&M No entry
Client age No restrictions
Rate hour 100 Euros
Rate night 400 Euros

 

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Johnnie, 19
London

Well hello to you too!
Name’s Johnnie. Just as it says on my profile. Coincidence? Conspiracy? I shan’t tell you. Muahaha.

As you can see, my profile doesn’t have offers for free unicorns every appointment (though I do provide Phoenix’s hatchlings for only £24.99. Grab quick, they tend to set my pen ablaze a lot. Also, sounded like a sexual innuendo. Win-win?)

Instead, I’m relying on good ol’ charm to seduce you. And wit, so I don’t seem like a total twit. Rhyme, too, apparently. huh.

I don’t claim I can fondle you whilst juggling babies and dolphin-riding. Not saying I can’t, but babies aren’t for juggling.

If you’ve enjoyed what I’ve written so far, then huzzah! AND, if you also find the photos of me alluring, then hell, we are a match made in meeting and relationship heaven. (Get it? Hell and Heaven? Yin-Yang? I’ll stop.)

Sooo… See you soon?
Your *not-so* Secret Admirer,
Johnnie

Guestbook of Johnnie

Johnnie – March 4, 2017
Wow. I don’t remember ever feeling such a strong blush come over me as I do now, after reading your praise of me. I will try to restrain my giddiness and cordially say – Thank You. I hope to see more of you, Jack, and am tremendously happy I left you satisfied. Huzzah!

Jack – March 3, 2017
Johnnie doesn’t like to pretend that he is somebody else than himself. He is a cute, exuberant young boy with a hot ass who likes to party with people who don’t use their “feelings” during sex and to crack jokes while giving and taking a lot of sperm.

Dicksize L, Cut
Position Versatile
Kissing Yes
Fucking Versatile
Oral No entry
Dirty No entry
Fisting No entry
S&M Soft SM only
Client age No restrictions
Rate hour 200 Pounds
Rate night 1500 Pounds

 

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666SpecialCase666, 20
Rome

I’m looking for someone that’s generous with money and is seriously into praising Satan during evil, nasty minded sex OR someone who’ll pay to perv with me as we worship penis and butt for Satan. You must be able to verbally hail Satan as your lord and master. Do it.

SERIOUS WEALTHY SATANISTS ONLY – if you have no experience in praising our dark lord Satan, please do not hire.

IF YOU ARE VERY FAMOUS A CELEBRITY STATUS CONFIDENTIALITY AGREEMENT IS AVAILABLE.

Blasphemy is absolutely essential too.
Hail \m/

Guestbook of 666SpecialCase666

theBEAST – March 10, 2017
666SpecialCase666 now owned by its God the BEAST.
it is not allowed to talk with others.
I am it’s God.
it shall live in wanting.
God forces it prostrate under My booted feet:
God flays it’s soul.
Yea as it offers itself on My Alter of torment, it fears.
For I am before it.
My Rod and Staff bring torment to it.
God prepairest the table of agony, in excess of all of it’s limits.
Surely pain and torment will be inflicted on it all the days of it’s life.

AVE SATANIS

Dicksize XXL, Uncut
Position Versatile
Kissing Yes
Fucking Versatile
Oral Versatile
Dirty No entry
Fisting No entry
S&M Yes
Client age No restrictions
Rate hour 80 Euros
Rate night 400 Euros

 

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Simon, 21
Köln

Hi sell only private porn videos of me and my friend

I *
21
185
85
18×5
* i am an TV actor, worked in many shows

My friend *
19
180
71
16X4
* he had sex with many actors, some very famous

The following films are offered:

7min movie + 9 min movie = 15 € just kissing
10 min Movie 10 € – kissing &pissing
23min Movie 20 € – Sex with cumshot
23 min Movie 20 € – more sex with cumshot
27 min Movie 25 € – Sex with fuck &cumshot

All films together = 60 €

Guestbook of Simon

BOY20 – Feb 27, 2017
Willing to pay to smell your fart

Dicksize L, Cut
Position No entry
Kissing Yes
Fucking Versatile
Oral Versatile
Dirty No entry
Fisting No entry
S&M No entry
Client age No restrictions
Rate hour ask
Rate night ask

 

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mmmmmyummmm, 21
Brooklyn

I. gotta. famous. anus.

Mixing. it. with. business.

Dicksize M, Cut
Position More bottom
Kissing Yes
Fucking Versatile
Oral Versatile
Dirty No
Fisting No
S&M No
Fetish Leather, Jeans, Drag
Client age No restrictions
Rate hour 100 Dollars
Rate night 800 Dollars

 

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born_slippy, 19
Paderborn

I love prostituting as an escape for everything nonsexual in my head. My normal life is so conservative but the sex I’m into is so hot that I know I’d never get it if there weren’t horny, twink-craving guys like you.

If I could be naked all the time in real life I would be. I love being naked. I’m well hung with a cute ass and hopefully you’ll enjoy having me remain naked in your company too.

I love being craved and driving horny men bonkers. If we are going to do this you’ll need an ‘I don’t care, I just want young flesh’ kind of attitude. It doesn’t work for me when guys are being polite. If you are, I’ll revert to being boring and conservative. It’s automatic.

I am very good at acting like I love whatever you do, very realistically. I like to moan, beg, praise your technique, do that ‘no, no, yes, yes’ talk in a high, girl voice because it puts me in a role away from being my boring self.

Just remember I am straight laced and I need to leave our date the way the way I came in so don’t give me hickeys if you can help it.

Dicksize L, Uncut
Position More bottom
Kissing No
Fucking Bottom only
Oral Top
Dirty No
Fisting No
S&M No
Client age Users between 18 and 48
Rate hour ask
Rate night ask

 

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HOTlegs, 18
Pohjois-Karjala

I am teen slut.
I’m like a girl in bed. I wear sexy slutty outfits.
I prefer to don’t use dick in sex at all.
I prefer to be treaten like a girl.
I only fuck with handsome guys.
When I say handsome, it means handsome.
I’m also pretty proudly an intellectual.

Dicksize No entry, Uncut
Position Bottom only
Kissing No entry
Fucking Bottom only
Oral Top
Dirty No entry
Fisting No entry
S&M No entry
Client age No restrictions
Rate hour ask
Rate night ask

 

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MrMoon, 20
Berlin

even though i dont sexually enjoy old men i crave them for some reason.
i like an old man with a lot of plans. if no plans i am hung, i like to fuck your mouth. hopefully also piss.

ummm i have castration fantasies, not immediately but soon, a month possibly, plus i want big bucks to be translated, but only when my butt is finally pregnant.
pointing that out may seem strange, but i do not think it’s disgusting. i’m not here for a psychiatric appointment.

tell me what you want and i will tell you if you’re crazy.
nothing thats going to get me thrown in jail.

Guestbook of MrMoon

BenutzMichMal – March 4, 2017
Ohhh, what I read here??
…
…
hopefully also piss
…

Hopefully also piss??? Oh yea! I Need your Piss – on my boddy, in my face, in my mouth

Please come to Hamburg!!!!

fukiboysss – Feb 27, 2017
You are caind just one thing you wll bi a engel ????????????

Dicksize L, Uncut
Position Versatile
Kissing Consent
Fucking More bottom
Oral Versatile
Dirty WS only
Fisting No
S&M No entry
Client age No restrictions
Rate hour 120 Euros
Rate night 500 Euros

 

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KeepItBalanced, 22
Vienna

Hey guys. I am Student and I need money so I have decided to fuck guys!

I’m just looking for short fucks at your place or potentially in a car.

I’m new to this, so forgive me if I don’t know how to work certain of my features.

Guestbook of KeepIt Balanced

kwqyn – March 11, 2017
Dont hire this guy
Don’t know what he is doing
Fake pictures
Fat and ugly
Don’t shower

Dicksize L, Uncut
Position Top only
Kissing Yes
Fucking Top only
Oral Versatile
Dirty WS only
Fisting Active
S&M Yes
Client age Users between 18 and 35
Rate hour 50 Euros
Rate night 100 Euros

 

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BohemianFawn, 24
Abu Dhabi

No agenda.

I like sex where afterwards I think “Oh my God, what have I done?”

wrong:
hi fuck?
=> you WONT get an answer

good:
hi i want to book you from .. .. till .. .. how much is it?

Best if you start the night on your knees and crawl over to me. I want all the people make crazy with my nice body and face.

Write me. I have a car, so I can come everyway.

My business is my pleasure.

It’s my density!

Guestbook of BohemianFawn

BohemianFawn – March 5, 2017
*destiny not density

Dicksize XL, Cut
Position Versatile
Kissing Consent
Fucking More top
Oral Versatile
Dirty WS only
Fisting No entry
S&M Soft SM only
Client age No restrictions
Rate hour 250 Dollars
Rate night 800 Dollars

 

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broke&elite4richpig, 20
Paris

Bonsoir. If we’ve met before there is a good chance we don’t keep in touch for a reason.

I’m looking for something more permanent. Tired of short time fucks and people just experimenting with boys one fourth their age.

You would need to show me how. Seriousness has always interested me but I’ve only been a fuck toy so I’m not sure where to start.

Guestbook of broke&elite4richpig

broke&elite4richpig – March 1, 2017
Warmer.

vidmuk27 – March 1, 2017
ok you wur born a girl but you idintifie as a boy

broke&elite4richpig – March 1, 2017
Nope.

vidmuk27 – March 1, 2017
yeh you are

broke&elite4richpig – March 1, 2017
No, I’m not.

vidmuk27 – March 1, 2017
your a girl

Dicksize No entry, Uncut
Position Bottom only
Kissing Consent
Fucking Bottom only
Oral Versatile
Dirty No
Fisting No
S&M Soft SM only
Client age Users between 29 and 55
Rate hour 100 Euros
Rate night 800 Euros

 

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LordAlucard, 21
Antwerp

I am Lord Alucard, I serve on behalf of the Hellsing Organization under Sir Integra Fairbrook. I am 500+ yrs old and the last couple of clients who tried to stiff me wound up dead. One day I shall have my freedom and then nobody will be able to stop me from ruling the night. I’m a Fuck Mothering Vampire Whore and I have fucked a lot of people to get that title I deserve to be called such, so if you wish to hire me then please proceed and if not you have PISSED ME THE FUCK OFF, thank you and have a very unpleasant day. :[ HAHAHAHAHAHA #bitchslovecannons #fuckmotheringvampire #yourgoingtodie #longlivetheking #twilightsuckundeadcock #thecrimsonfucker

Dicksize M, Cut
Position Top only
Kissing Consent
Fucking Top only
Oral Top
Dirty No
Fisting Active
S&M Yes
Client age No restrictions
Rate hour 100 Euros
Rate night ask

 

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JeunePetiteMerde, 19
Villefranche-sur-Saône

Young novice American transplant teen looks to try to make me a little penny to side. I’m not taken of my head, I jack off ten times a day. I do not know what to do, and I do not know what to do with it.

I try to become more than a boyfriend for other real males, but to be instead the garage to cock, even if that has to be by any way (even if I am against).

Whether it is for daddies, mature men, grandpa, bears, chubbies, other weirdos, or even guys severe, violent, without scruples. I want everyone to cum in my mouth. I want it filmed and I want a copy.

I have a very difficult character, rebel, angry, hate everything, thus not simple to manage. Men will need to have a gun or knife and flash it (if that does not frighten you).

I only play with big cocks so don’t contact me if you are below 16cm. In the evening I can receive in the cellar of my building if you are interested in that kind of trip.

Dicksize No entry, Uncut
Position Bottom only
Kissing Consent
Fucking Bottom only
Oral Versatile
Dirty Yes
Fisting Passive
S&M Passive
Client age No restrictions
Rate hour ask
Rate night ask

 

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DerBottom, 19
London

SELLING ***EXACTLY*** THE FOLLOWING (IN LONDON):

Anything To Do With Compressed Air Being Pumped Into Me Anally.

I’m at least 97% sane.

PLEASE MAKE SURE YOUR CREDIT CARDS ARE REASONABLY UP TO DATE.

Guestbook of DerBottom

Anonymous – March 4, 2017
U masculine bro?

Dicksize L, Uncut
Position No entry
Kissing Consent
Fucking No
Oral No
Dirty No
Fisting No
S&M No
Client age No restrictions
Rate hour 150 Pounds
Rate night 500 Pounds

 

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MAN-VERYSTRONG, 23
London

MAN VERY VERY STRONG. FOR ONE. WEEK IN LONDON.

So guess what… I need cash…. And I’m gay. So I know what I’m talking about.

Better looking and more chilled in person!

A little promiscuous but aye ?

Guestbook of MAN-VERYSTRONG

Anonymous – Feb 21, 2017
MAN-VERYSTRONG neglects to mention that she’s a bent wristed, gay faggot swish the likes of which I haven’t seen since the 1960s, so I’ll mention it.

Dicksize XL, Uncut
Position Versatile
Kissing Yes
Fucking Versatile
Oral Versatile
Dirty WS only
Fisting Active
S&M Yes
Client age No restrictions
Rate hour 200 Pounds
Rate night 1000 Pounds

 

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you’ve_seen_worse, 18
Phoenix

Hi I’m a Asian boy in Phoenix Arizona who has a big fetish and love for White men and always willing to give All White men My Body to use as there sexual pleasure. I Truly truly truly truly Love white Men. I would love to be able to someday find a Anglo man to have me as their voleenter Full time boyfriend. I’m currently always enjoy white men in the Phoenix area from ages 18 to 100+.

Guestbook of you’ve_seen_worse

rjaykim – March 3, 2017
You deserve the world, and he knows he can’t give that to you. So he gives you the next best thing: his ass.

Bearded-Lover – March 1, 2017
This boy would be very good for racists which I am not. In bed it felt like I was white meat on his plate and he was “yellow” meat on mine. Still he loves to suck a lot and take the sperm in his mouth and swallow mmm good times.

Loveyourass – Feb 28, 2017
MY REVIEW OF YOU’VE_SEEN_WORSE
Seems cute but he’s Asian so who knows

Seems to love the taste of cum in his mouth and the “taste” of cum in his ass

Seems his ass was mine to do whatever I wanted to it, eat it, fuck it, abuse it, hurt it, completely up to me

Doesn’t seem to care about age or looks (I’m ugly) as long as you’re white and give his ass a huge seeing too

Dicksize S, Cut
Position Bottom only
Kissing Yes
Fucking Bottom only
Oral Bottom
Dirty No
Fisting No entry
S&M Soft SM only
Client age No restrictions
Rate hour ask
Rate night ask

 

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Nils, 23
Padova

It is important to me that we get along during the sex.

Dicksize M, Cut
Position Bottom only
Kissing No entry
Fucking No entry
Oral No entry
Dirty No entry
Fisting Passive
S&M Yes
Client age No restrictions
Rate hour ask
Rate night ask

 

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ForeshadowerOfTruth, 20
Baltimore

I write darker poetry to express my feelings as I don’t like expressing them any other way so don’t expect me to express them during sex because I can’t.

I also like psychology because people who want to fuck me are interesting in the way that they are mentally.

I like darker things because they are all that I have ever known. “Chasing behind you the masked men will find you to drain you of all your colors.”

I won’t have sex with Nationalists, boring people, bigots, hunters, bullies, people who eat meat, people who use Windows Phone, people into subsitence farming, Bono, Chad Kroeger, and people who get super annoyed when you use your mobile at the theater.

Please no one older than 24 talk to me.

Dicksize L, Uncut
Position Versatile
Kissing Yes
Fucking More top
Oral Versatile
Dirty No entry
Fisting No entry
S&M Soft SM only
Client age No restrictions
Rate hour 80 Dollars
Rate night 350 Dollars

 

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Loverboy, 18
Linz

i am shy, passive, smiley, a type, considered stunning. willing to do anything as what satisfies you, even talking together afterwards which is not my favorite thing at all.

Dicksize M, Cut
Position Versatile
Kissing Consent
Fucking No entry
Oral Versatile
Dirty WS only
Fisting Active / passive
S&M Soft SM only
Client age No restrictions
Rate hour 1000 Dollars
Rate night 1500 Dollars

 

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YoungDutchStudent, 21
Antwerp

Hi,

I am a student in the Netherlands and i have to go to the university of Antwerpen to write a part of my thesis.

I will be in Antwerpen from friday 3 march until wednesday 8 march.

However i am still looking for a place 2 stay during my research in Antwerpen.

Therefore i am looking for a man or men in Antwerpen that can host me from vrijday 3 march until wednesday 8 march. In return i will be serving as your sex toy! I can’t afford the hotels and i don’t like student hostels with big sleeping dorms.

So my body in return for a place to sleep. You only must respect the fact that i’ll have to study, which means i cannot he fucked 24h. I’ll have to study from 10.00 until 19.00, after that i am fuckable.

Dicksize XL, Uncut
Position Versatile
Kissing No entry
Fucking Versatile
Oral Versatile
Dirty No
Fisting Active / passive
S&M No entry
Client age No restrictions
Rate hour ask
Rate night ask

 

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thenazzzzzz, 22
Zurich

I am a photographer.

I can photograph you in your evenings, days, vacations.

I CAN PUNCH YOU.

Other than that, I play piano.

Dicksize L, Uncut
Position Top only
Kissing No
Fucking Top only
Oral Top
Dirty Yes
Fisting Active
S&M Yes
Client age No restrictions
Rate hour 50 Euros
Rate night ask

 

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organizerboy4u, 18
Rotterdam

I offer limited service with discounted price which are only Making Love or being FF.
18-year-old pretty Russian with a gentle sensitive skin, lots of fun for a man held.
I access from Rotterdam.
I found out cheeper access to various cities as day trip or overnight trip.

-Transport-
Amsterdam 14euro~ (Daily 2-3 trips. At least 3hours before contract confirming required)
Antwerp 15euro~ (Daily 4-5 trips. At least 4hours before contract confirming required)
Brussels 20euro~ (Daily 4 trips. At least 5hours contract confirming required)
Dusseldolf 30euro~ (Daily 1 trip. Overnight request & Contract confirming till 13:30 required)
Ghent 18euro~ (Daily 1 trip. one day before contract confirming required)
Lille 25Euro~ (Daily 4 trips. At least 5hours before contract confirming required)
Copenhagen 78Euro~
(THU,FRI,SAT,SUN,MON.Few hours or overnight requests.one day before contract confirming required)
Paris 50Euro~
(Daily 1-3 trips.Few hours or overnight requests.one day before contract confirming required)

-CASH-
LEAVE EXACT AMOUNT ON TABLE WHICH I CAN LOOK.
SECURITY REASON,I DON’T COMMUNICATE ABOUT DONATION.

-BANK TRANSFER-
BOOKING WILL BE CONFIRMED WITH SCREEN SHOT OF BANK TRANSFER.
THERE’S POSSIBILITY MEETING POSTPONE IF SCREEN SHOT DOESN’T PROVIDE
ACCOUNT 【JN HOSPITALITY ENTERTAINMENT】
IBAN　　　【NL55 KNAB 0255 3407 45】

— Rules —
Share life with me.
Don’t hire me if you don’t eat ass.

Dicksize No entry, Cut
Position Versatile
Kissing No entry
Fucking No entry
Oral No entry
Dirty No entry
Fisting Passive
S&M No entry
Client age No restrictions
Rate hour ask
Rate night ask

 

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2blovedbyu, 18
Nijmegen

I may allow some men the honor of renting Me soon. If you wish to rent Me you may message Me. If you want to message Me, do so on your knees. Message and beg Me to let you pay Me for allowing you this honour.

I’ve had some requests to anally penetrate me. Yes is the answer so I don’t have to keep replying.

I dont like the angry sad and jealous people.

It seems a lot of losers want to eat their dinner from the floor after I’ve walked all over it in my shoes, then lick the remains from my shoe soles. Yes that is something I do.

I AM ALSO IN TO BOYFRIEND Experience or something like that, I don’t know.

Dicksize M, Cut
Position More bottom
Kissing Yes
Fucking More bottom
Oral Bottom
Dirty WS only
Fisting No
S&M Yes
Client age No restrictions
Rate hour 150 Euros
Rate night 500 Euros

 

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DirtyBirdy, 19
Basel

Hi.. Young sleazy bug chasing boy looking for raw bareback sexdates! It never, ever stops, no matter how full to bursting point my sloppy cunt is with night after night of anonymous raw juice. I LOVE smelling a bare cock after it has seeded my eager hole, catching the leftover drips with my tongue and licking the taste of my inner ass off it. I have chems – you can use my chems for free.

I may be NASTY but i’m NICE. I’m very proud of doing this work and my career evolution until now. It’s not that I can speak about a career in the real sense of the word, like professionals do, but I think I still have plenty of time for that. I’m young and right now I earn enough doing this to live decently.

BUT PLEASE – IM NOT INTO BISEXUAL GUYS. RESPECT THAT!

Guestbook of DirtyBirdy

DirtyBirdy – Feb 10, 2017
where is my Dad?

DirtyBirdy – Jan 17, 2017
I’m back sorry I was gone. I got very sick. Unfortunately I cannot do outcall at this time. Locked down in my own bed at the moment. But nothing is forever.

WolkenRose – Jul 3rd, 2016
I could say here may worlds but the most important is that such long time Im waiting to find somebody that make fell free without prejudice and see that our sexuell life dosent to have be exactly whats is write in the books or just repeat what this bunch of sex Filmes in this moment try to make influence and what should made or done, sex dosent rolle if Boths parts are able just to get this moment and be happy with the present that God just send to us in this moment, and that was, DirtyBirdy was a gift from God to my self and I have an amazing time fulling him of my seeds, I thank you very much for that. Advice didnt think twice when you stuck it in his hole, close your eyes and just dump.

Dicksize XL, Uncut
Position More bottom
Kissing Yes
Fucking More bottom
Oral Versatile
Dirty Yes
Fisting Active / passive
S&M Yes
Fetish Leather, Sneakers & Socks
Client age No restrictions
Rate hour 100 Euros
Rate night 300 Euros

 

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hey-hey-hey-hey, 20
Concord

House-boy for reduced room rent.

Any location.

Look at me.

More about me later.

I have to sign off for now.

Dicksize No entry, Cut
Position More top
Kissing Yes
Fucking Bottom only
Oral Bottom
Dirty No entry
Fisting No entry
S&M No
Fetish Leather
Client age No restrictions
Rate hour 200000 Dollars
Rate night ask

 

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Failure, 22
Goldsboro

Hopefully this would be the last time I open an account ..

Young fella here. Ideally I would find a full time sugar daddy from here who is charismatic , passionate , genuine and (of course) generous.

I am currently living with my divorced aunt right here in Goldsboro who owns a store of which I help to manage in her absence …My parents are deceased and the only family I have left is my aunt and an elder sister who is happily married.. That’s pretty much everything about me I don’t have a lot going on with my life.

Please Note: It is very important you know that I study people a lot and know what to expect so it’s better you do not message me if you have bad intentions …

I hereby do not give permission for anyone who becomes my sugar daddy to share me with his friends or whoever. If you do that, you better find a lawyer.

Dicksize No entry, Cut
Position No entry
Kissing No entry
Fucking No entry
Oral No entry
Dirty No entry
Fisting No entry
S&M No entry
Client age No restrictions
Rate hour ask
Rate night ask

 

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p.s. Hey. ** Steevee, Hey. I envied your blizzard, unsurprisingly. How did you like the Serra film? I liked it a lot. I was surprised by how much I liked it. Cool coincidence on the post’s timing re: your reading. I don’t really care about Rohmer’s politics. ‘The Green Ray’ is one of my top favorite Rohmers. I quite like ‘The Lady and the Duke’. I guess I didn’t find looking for its behind-the-scenes politics interesting enough? ** David Ehrenstein, Hi, David. Great thoughts about Rohmer, thank you! I love ‘La Collectionneuse’. That film doesn’t get noted and discussed so much these days, but, yeah, it’s gorgeous. ** Dóra Grőber, Hi! Yeah, leaving this area or losing it as home base and walking realm is a lot of the problem for me. But stiff upper lip and and all of that. I’ll make my mind create persuasive vibes to ride along with your submission today just in case. Let me know what happens, and, of course, don’t let yourself become easily discouraged if the place is short-sighted. We created the character (Tim) wanting it/him to have a particular kind of gravity and presence and calmness and and an odd slyness and stuff. Like I said, we wrote it for a particular guy who can’t do it. The actor we’re considering doesn’t inherently have all of those qualities, so when we try him again, probably tomorrow, this time along with the guy playing the main character with whom Tim has a special bond in the film, the question is whether we can get him to find the qualities we want or whether we can alter Tim’s character slightly in a way that suits the actor and will work. With all of the other performers we’ve cast, they were just naturally like the characters we chose them for, and with them it’s just a matter of fine-tuning who they are already. Our goal was to find the whole cast that way, but, in Tim’s case, it looks like we will need to construct the character in a more artificial way, and that’s a problem. But we may have no choice. I know the name Jason Mraz, but I don’t think I’ve ever heard his stuff. I’ll go investigate. Was the show awesome? The preparations for the move started okay. It gets serious today. The fun part of yesterday was we went to this piñata store/factory where we’ll be having custom pinatas made for the film. One of the characters — Tim, in fact — collects pinatas, and that plays a important part in the film. We need about 6 custom-designed pinatas and then about 20 regular (but interesting) ones. So we started that process. That was cool. Have a most splendid day, and please let me know about its splendors or non-splendors. ** Jamie, Hi, Jamie. I’m good, a little crazed and stressed until the apartment move is over, but good. How great that you like Rohmer so much! He’s in my small group of very favorite directors, for sure. When John Waters picked ‘LCTG’ for his top ten films of 2016 and said it was ‘Rohmer-like’, you can imagine how my chest puffed up. ‘A Tale of Autumn’ is wonderful, yeah. My faves … are probably ‘The Green Ray’, ‘Claire’s Knee’, ‘Marquise of O’, ‘Pauline at the Beach’, and ‘Perceval le Galois’. Most Rohmer-ites I know don’t like ‘Perceval’, but I think it’s singular and amazing. Oh, right, I liked ‘Starship Troopers’. ‘Total Recall’, yeah. I think the problem for me is there’s this contingent of people/critics who think he’s a genius and a great artist with this mastery of semiotics and so on, and they talk about ‘Starship Troopers’, say, like it’s Godard or Tati or something, and I just absolutely do not buy it. Moving prep totally sucks, no surprise, but, you know, that’s just me being whiny. Over money, right, yeah, no contract (?!) although I work without contracts all the time too, but I’m happy to hear the tunnel’s end might be flooded with light. Fingers strangled. Other than packing, it was just film stuff and a fun trip to a piñata store (see: my walk to Dora). Today is a long film meeting and a ton of packing. Should be … not great. Have an awesome 24! Burnt but well-meant love, Dennis. ** Frank Jaffe, Hi, Frank! Yeah, Local Films has been awesome to work with so far. It’s cool, we’re happy. I don’t know the Bayonetta games, but I will correct that post-haste. I don’t know ‘My Life as a Zucchini’ either. Huh. Ditto. Later, gator. ** Bernard, Hi, B. Lovely thoughts on Rohmer and his surroundings. I do remember your ‘Robocop’ love. And your non-love of ‘Blade Runner’. Thank you so kindly about my stairs thing. Wow, cool. And for the response. I’m down. ** S., Fashion Week in the Marais is when it’s at one if its funnest. Pepe le Pew, ha ha, awesome. Man, the French really, really don’t like Pepe le Pew. Even my smart friends get angry and defensive when I mention him/it. Thanks, buddy boy! ** _Black_Acrylic, Hi, Ben. I would say either ‘The Green Ray’ or maybe ‘Claire’s Knee’ would be a good starter? ** Misanthrope, Hi. The second ‘LCTG’ scene is tough for the best of ears. Deliberately so. Although I do think people in other countries who watch the film with subtitles probably hve a better and clearer time with that scene. Thank you, George. ** Chris dankland, Hi, Chris! Oh, cool, I’m glad you watched and liked ‘Pauline’. Yeah, I like that film a lot. ‘Perceval’ is a big fave film of mine. It’s defnitely not perfect, and things about it don’t work so well, but it’s such an amazing thing, with the indoors/ constructed world and the slowness wth which it’s used, and I do highly recommend watching it. My living place tends to be a combo, kind of minimalist but pretty messy. My only writing right now is film script revision and stuff on the opera and TV series. I haven’t touched my part-finished novel in ages. I am beginning to feel like I really want to go back to it. I haven’t been so interested in finishing it in a long time. So that’s good. And your writing, sir? Love, me. ** Okay. Escorts, middle of the month, the usual driill. See you tomorrow.

 

‘Bernadette Mayer is “just like / A person with a device” because she doesn’t have one—not a smartphone, not a computer. At seventy-one years old, she writes on a blue Smith-Corona typewriter, tapping at the keys with a single finger. Yet “Beware of the Killer Dog” embodies the catchall genome of the Internet: it’s slapdash, perceptive, sardonic, confessional, deceptive. The same goes for the collection it comes from, “Works & Days,” published this summer by New Directions. The book, Mayer’s twenty-eighth, jumps between sonnets and springtime journals and lists of plants. Lines as casual as text messages (“OK there’s a dark cloud”) follow lines that read like Continental philosophy (“when we began and ended / So did the world we see”). Some sentences make sense: “I’m reading a book by Margaret Atwood.” Others do not: “snomal slebs socru deeibs sbieed mayrac caryem”—from notes that Mayer took while trying to solve a newspaper word game.

‘Mayer was cross-wired from the start. In 1970, when she was twenty-four, she was the only woman included in “An Anthology of New York Poets,” the volume that popularized the plainspoken New York School of Frank O’Hara and John Ashbery. Back then, she was interested less in the rhythms of everyday life than in failures of everyday logic: “Corn from Delft / Is good for elves,” she wrote in one of the anthologized poems. Soon, though, Mayer turned to her own experience, filtering it through conceptual constraints—she composed an epic on motherhood in a single day, a series of lyrics while half-asleep, a dialogue with a house. Her “thing” was not having a “thing,” apart from a roving curiosity.

‘Mayer’s wide sweep, unsentimental and uneven, helps explain both her contemporary appeal and, perhaps, her relative obscurity. Eileen Myles, who in the mid-eighties succeeded Mayer as director of the St. Mark’s Poetry Project, in the East Village, has criticized Mayer’s work as chilly. (“She’s probably godless like Voltaire if you know what I mean,” Myles wrote on the Poetry Foundation Web site. “Probably not even that passionate.”) But other poetry can seem artificial by comparison. “What a clear, insistent health there is here,” Robert Creeley, the late master of the minimalist lyric, wrote of Mayer’s poems. “As if the so-called world were seriously the point, which it is, and we could actually live in it, which we do.” …

‘Various contemporaries of Mayer’s, such as Louise Glück and Frank Bidart, are sometimes characterized as “post-confessional” for extending the line of candid psychic inquiry that began with Sylvia Plath and Robert Lowell. Mayer favors an imaginative kind of repression. Her parents, whom she called “jerk Eisenhower Republicans,” died by the time she was in high school—her father of a stroke, her mother of breast cancer. Among the items listed in her early poem “Failures in Infinitives” are the failures “to forget mother and father enough” and “to remember them some other way / to remember their bigotry accurately.” I asked Mayer why she had not been writing about them lately. “They got phased out, thank goodness!” she said. “I was very happy to see them go.”

‘In the late sixties, Mayer’s penchant for wordplay led Bill Berkson, one of her teachers at the New School, to warn that she was starting to sound too much like Gertrude Stein. “I had never read Stein,” Mayer told me. “So then I did.” Other Stein attributes—logorrhea, and an interest in boredom—soon appeared in Mayer’s work, especially in her breakthrough project, “Memory.” Every day for the month of July, 1971, Mayer took a roll of thirty-six color photographs, which she paired, at a gallery exhibition the next year, with an eight-hour recording of her meditations on them, later condensed into a book (“47THST waiting: I look up eagles soar at signs cars sun on half of modern which half & I was & still am always bored”).’ — Daniel Wenger

 

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Further

Bernadette Mauer @ The Poetry Foundation
HOW TO LOOK IN THE MIRROR WITHOUT SAYING “I”
Thirteen poems by Bernadette Mayer
Bernadette Mayer @ Electronic Poetry Center
Bernadette Mayer’s List of Journal Ideas
Audio: Bernadette Mayer reads @ PennSound
Dream of the («Extra»)Ordinary
Bernadette Mayer’s “Memory” as an “Everyday-Life Project”
The Drama in the Everyday: Bernadette Mayer’s Early Poems
Bernadette Mayer and the Capitalization of Everyday Life
« In Which We Know Bernadette Mayer In The Most Astonishing Bourgeois Way »
Podcast: Commonplace: Conversations with Poets: Bernadette Mayer
Bernadette Mayer @ goodreads
I Didn’t Realize I had Written These: Bernadette Mayer’s Sonnets
Bernadette Mayer Papers
ELIZA SWANN ON BERNADETTE MAYER
Why Memory Matters. Notes on Bernadette Mayer’s Work
82 Writing Experiments by Bernadette Mayer
“Love Scattered, Not Concentrated Love”: Bernadette Mayer’s Sonnets
THERE ARE SOME WHO DID ANYWAY
Read “Studying Hunger’ for free here

 

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Extras

Bernadette Mayer “Eve of Easter” on Public Access Poetry #50 4/26/1978

Mayer Bernadette and Warsh Lewis Public Access Poetry 4 26 78

Installation of Memory by Bernadette Mayer

Bernadette Mayer & Monk Books Trailer

Bernadette Mayer – Midwinter Day – Book Review

 

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Interview
by Adam Fitzgerald

Adam Fitzgerald: When did you leave Catholic college?

Bernadette Mayer: I had to wait until my uncle died to leave Catholic college. I was at the College of New Rochelle. I got to study Greek. I was assaulted by nuns; previously I had been assaulted by priests, but not nuns until I got there. That was my father’s idea. My uncle’s idea of being my guardian was to keep me in safe places, so he figured Catholic college. There was a concept in the Church at the time of in loco parentis, so the priests and nuns were acting in the place of your parents, so he figured that was the safest place to be. Little did he know. So after he died I was able to go to non-Catholic school. I went for two weeks to Barnard College, and I hated it intensely. For one thing, it took me two hours to get there from my part of Brooklyn-Queens. But then when I got there, there were these girls—I guess I should call them “women”—they would say, “Oh, our favorite person is here: she’s had five abortions!” Even though I didn’t disapprove of abortion, I thought this was weird that it would be something that could be bragged about. So after two weeks I applied to the New School for Social Research. I didn’t know anyone, but I thought it would be fun. I liked that neighborhood, Fifth Avenue and 12th Street.

AF: How long were you there before you met Bill Berkson?

BM: The first year I went there, they didn’t let me take a lot of the classes I wanted to take because they said my schedule was too “eclectic.” But I was able to take a poetry writing class, and I remember having to choose between Kenneth Koch’s and Bill Berkson’s, and I knew of Kenneth—I mean I knew of his writing—but I didn’t know Bill, so I read his. At the time his only book was Saturday Night Poems, and I had no idea what he was talking about, so I thought, Well, I’m gonna take his course.

AF: So by this time you were already writing poetry?

BM: Yeah, but not constantly.

AF: When do you remember getting started?

AF: Well, in high school, when my godparents’ son’s family moved in downstairs and started arguing, that encouraged me to write poetry to drown out the noise. I couldn’t stand listening to them.

AF: Do you have any of your early poems?

BM: Yeah, they’re all published in a book called Red Book in Three Parts.

AF: You were working with Bill Berkson and hit it off? Clearly, you guys developed a friendship and would collaborate on so many different levels. What was he like as a teacher? He was five years older than you.

BM: I liked his age, too, because he wasn’t like that much older that he could lord it over me, male to female. No, I had fun with Bill. I remember once he brought in the complete works of T.S. Eliot and the complete works of Ezra Pound. And I remember he said, “Look how large this pile is and how small this pile is.”

AF: Were you exposed to these poets for the first time?

BM: Pretty much, yeah.

AF: What did you think?

BM: Well, I don’t know. I took a year off when I became pregnant with my friend Ed Bowes. I got an apartment on 11th Street and Third Avenue. I took a year off to read all the long books. The Cantos. The Waste Land. Paradise Lost. Ulysses. Better than school, I’ll just read all these books. I’m sure I was inspired by Bill to read the books by their size.

Milton kind of left me cold. I felt like reading him was like an achievement that you wanted to get to the end.

AF: “No man ever wished it longer.”

BM: Right!

AF: What about Joyce?

BM: Well, of all of those books, I really enjoyed Ulysses the most. To read it just like that—I don’t think many other people have done, where you just read it from beginning to end—is pretty astonishing. You’re all of a sudden living in a different world. So I like that book. I remember I had gotten in trouble in Catholic school for reading A Portrait of the Artist as a Young Man. And they said, “If you didn’t have such good marks, we’d throw you out.”

AF: Did you identify with Joyce’s rebellion against Catholicism?

BM: No, I never got into that. I mean I could’ve, I’m sure.

AF: I’m thinking of the preacher, and the fire-and-brimstone sermon used to threaten their young, immortal souls. Was that something you felt like you were up against?

BM: I just thought, well, what else was new?

AF: So you didn’t need Joyce to tell you that the religious-minded could be rotten?

BM: Right.

AF: So you took this year off to read the greats and the classics. Did you start writing more during this year?

BM: I don’t think I wrote too much that year, except the following year I was going out with Peter Schjeldahl, and he encouraged me to take amphetamines, and I started writing these really complex poems that you would get lost inside. They were poems about the building of cathedrals, poems that only you would know how to get lost inside. But I hated amphetamines. So I never went there again too many times.

AF: Was there a lot of drug use or abuse around you?

BM: Not that I knew of.

AF: You weren’t interested in that? It was in the air, you had always been interested in “altered states of consciousness” …

BM: No, I guess I wasn’t. I guess I just didn’t have the right connections. If I could have met someone that could have turned me on to heroin at the time, I probably would have done it. But it was really downers that I would have been into.

AF: So you started writing more, and when did it start to “click”? Like: “I think I’m going to do this from now on”?

BM: [Laughs] Well, it never really clicked in that way. I knew Vito Acconci had married my sister. Vito went to Regis High School, so they met on the Catholic scene. I think they actually met at a dance. Whatever happened with them, I couldn’t say. Rosemary doesn’t like to even talk about it anymore because she’s so angry. I don’t blame her. Vito always acted like a superior person to her.

AF: How did 0 to 9 come about?

BM: Vito and I started talking and we realized we wanted to create an environment for our own writing and that none of the magazines that we knew of had it properly down—because we were interested in conceptual art, or whatever they called it at the time, and we wanted Native American art, primitive art, to be meshed with upside-down trees. That’s how 0 to 9 finally happened. We talked about it a long time before it actually happened. If we didn’t know writers, we could dig them up from the past that nobody knew about anymore, like Kleist. There were a lot of writers. Mostly libraries and other people’s book collections, our own book collections—I was already into Native American mythology. I got to know, then, Jerome Rothenberg, and we found a lot of Seneca stuff—stuff that doesn’t get really read or known about.

AF: Was this in the spirit of the modernist magazines, like The Little Review etc.? Were you conscious of trying to create a new coterie, a new sensibility, through these underground, avant-garde publications?

BM: Yes, but at this point in time there were other ways of thinking about art that were allied to the writing of poetry. Poetry didn’t have to be a thing in the middle of a page with a lot of white space around it. It could be anything: over the page, off the page, anything. You know, the idea of perfection in a poem is pretty stupid.

AF: Why’s that?

BM: Because if nothing else is perfect, why should a poem be perfect?

AF: So that ’50s formalism that was in the air didn’t interest you? Lowell, Berryman, and others?

BM: Well, it’s still in the air. No, it didn’t interest me at all.

AF: But you were interested in writers who were formal masters. You memorized Shakespeare sonnets; you read Catullus, who, for all his raw subject matter, was brazenly accomplished in his technique. How do you reconcile the fact that you were interested in these formalist conventions but not repeating [them] in your own work? As you say, being imperfect. There’s the Bernadette Mayer who loves Latin poetry, but there’s also Bernadette Mayer the writer who knows that imperfection is a prerequisite to writing something worthwhile.

BM: What I’m thinking is if you’ve read all that, and studied all that, then onward. Why do it again? Except for fun.

AF: So you had an apartment, you took a year off, you were pregnant. What came along next? When did you meet Anne Waldman and Lewis Warsh?

BM: The next year or two, I came out of my apartment and started hanging out with people in the real world. And I was kind of appalled. I just thought everybody was kind of stupid. But here I was at this age being approached by someone I admired, like Ed Sanders, and he would come up to me, and I was a cute chick, and he would be like, You wanna be the next Slum Goddess of the Lower East Side? And I thought, Where am I? I was horrified. I didn’t want to be in that world of blatant sexism, where sexism was so acceptable among people you would respect. So I moved to the country. That was the solution. I moved to Great Barrington. I rented somebody’s summer house for the winter, so it was cheap, and I lived there for one winter. It was amazing. It was totally great. I lived there by myself, and I had a car. It was just wonderful. I walked every day, following the footsteps of this guy and his dog who would walk down this path in the Beartown State Forest, and as soon as he would turn around, I would turn around. I didn’t see him except once. That’s what I did; that’s how I took my walk every day. I had some money at the time, so I had just enough to stay there for eight months because of my parents’ death. I had inherited, I think, $10,000—a big amount, right? [Laughs] I tried to get a job and stay there, but I had no success because I didn’t have enough connections. I had a boyfriend who kept coming up to Great Barrington in the middle of these huge snowstorms and trying to convince me to come back to New York City, and I would say, “No, no, I’m staying here.” No one could believe [that] at twentysomething years old, I wanted to live there by myself. If I had the money and the stamina, I would have stayed there and become a recluse. That’s all I wanted to do. I was so happy. So eventually I came back to New York City and lived in a loft on Grand and Wooster Streets, which is in the SoHo neighborhood before it was called SoHo. It was kind of depressing, but I did Memory there. So that was fun. I wrote it in 1971.

AF: By that time you had already been put in An Anthology of New York Poets, edited by Ron Padgett and David Shapiro?

BM: Right. The only woman. I thought that was weirdly stupid. I mean, where was Barbara Guest? There weren’t too many other women at the time. Where was she? Why wasn’t she in that anthology?

AF: Did you know her?

BM: I knew of her and read her work. I loved it.

AF: Did you know Ashbery and O’Hara?

BM: I met them at a party that Bill Berkson gave for what he called his “best students.” He had an apartment on 57th Street; he had invited us, and all those other guys had come over. The people I remember most from that party were Lee Harwood and Jim Carroll.

AF: What do you remember most about them?

BM: I remember Jim had a really huge cock, and I remember having great conversations with Lee Harwood. Frank O’Hara and John Ashbery would go out to dinner and joke hilariously about New York City. I was interested, but I never thought I would be in that. I liked their poetry, and I was happy about that aspect of things. Here I was in a room full of poets. I have to tell you about my funny John Ashbery story. I was at a buffet table in New York City, and somebody pinched my ass and it was John. He said: “Oh, I’m sorry, I thought you were a guy.”

AF: What did you say?!

BM: I just laughed. I thought it was great.

AF: Did people feel they already had to follow in their tracks?

BM: I think people felt that way about O’Hara, but I don’t know about Ashbery yet. Unfortunately, Frank died right around the time I met him, so I never really got to talk to him.

AF: How did you find out you were going to be in an anthology with all of these guys?

BM: A letter.

AF: You were only 22, 23. It must have been pretty astounding.

BM: Well, I recently found—this is even more astounding—I found a manuscript I had put together for the Frank O’Hara Award. This must have been right after he died. It’s a great manuscript, where the word for every chapter forms a sentence, and I lost to Joe Ceravolo, who was also a good friend of mine. Isn’t that an honor?

AF: Did you ever print that book?

BM: No. I’ve been trying to, but it hasn’t been figured out yet. Maybe it will happen.

AF: Did being in that anthology change the attention that was brought to your work?

BM: Gee, I don’t know. I mean, my world wasn’t really altered in any way, but it was already very interesting to me because I would hang out with Joe Ceravolo and Rosemary Ceravolo and go over to visit them in New Jersey, and talk with them. I really had fun. You know what would happen? I thought I would go to more great dinner parties, because at the time I had gone to a dinner party at Holly Solomon’s house where she had all gold-plated silverware. And also, then, the same year, I went to a dinner party at Lita Hornick’s house and she said, “Oh, I love to watch the poets eat—they’re always so hungry.” I remember talking to Hannah Weiner at the time, and I remember the ideal way to live was to sleep until it’s time to get up and go to dinner. For a while I could write all night, sleep all day, and get up in time to go to dinner.

AF: Was that the ideal life?

BM: Yeah, I think so.

AF: Were you ever tempted to write a memoir?

BM: No. I mean I have: 0 to 19, 20 to 40, 40 to 60. That’s a memoir. 60 to 80 would be fun.

AF: Do you read memoirs?

BM: No, I don’t.

AF: But you are interested in certain writers’ lives. Whose lives?

BM: Emma Goldman. She wrote her autobiography, two volumes, called Living My Life. Pretty great. I was reading all of the anarchist writers and I thought, Wow, Emma Goldman!

AF: Are you interested in dead poets’ biographies?

BM: Yeah, if they’re well written. Do you have some to recommend?

AF: My favorites are Walter Jackson Bate’s books on Keats, Dr. Johnson, and Coleridge. Speaking of which, Keats was surrounded by death from an early age, like you. You’re obsessed with memory and how you can store consciousness and package it and channel it and distort it. At the same time, you’re not interested in autobiography, even though your subject matter will very often absorb daily life. (I’m thinking of your poem Eve of Easter, when you end up transgendering the great dead male white authors and before the poem’s over, they end up children at your feet.)

So that seems to me interesting; in a way, you’re trying to put your mind down on the page, but you’re not necessarily committed to anyone knowing your life. I wonder how importantly those events shaped your life as a writer.

BM: Well, I don’t think they’re that interesting. They’re interesting to know about once.

AF: So the correlation between suffering and art, that’s a myth?

BM: [Laugh] I laugh at those ideas. It seems trivial to make that comparison. It trivializes both the art and the suffering. I mean, really, you have to suffer to make art? Give me a break.

AF: How did you meet Lewis Warsh?

BM: At one of Anne’s parties at St. Mark’s Place after the readings. I just knew Lewis because he was part of that scene; it was a great scene in the East Village. You could stand on the corner and decide to start a magazine and collect all the poems, and someone would have a mimeograph machine, and you could have a magazine that night. It was great to have all the poets within walking distance, I mean so many of them. Mimeograph is print on paper, you put ink on the machine. We bought them. They were easy to get a hold of. They were $200. You could immediately make a magazine anytime you wanted.

AF: You’ve always been interested in making your own magazines.

BM: It’s always fun because there are poems written in the moment that you want to publish immediately.

AF: So you met Lewis at this party; you already knew about him because he was on the scene. When did you guys get close?

BM: Oh, not until much later. I was looking around for a guy who wanted to have babies, which at that point in time was pretty difficult, because no guys wanted to have babies. If they did, they already had them or they just didn’t want any part of them. And I agreed, I understood that. It made absolutely no sense to bring any more people into the world. It made little sense then, even much more now.

AF: When did you know for certain that you wanted to have a family and children?

BM: I was about 25.

AF: Did your female peers want that too, considering that the ’60s were this time of sexual liberation?

BM: Not as many as now. Now it’s very fashionable.

AF: So you and Lewis didn’t become intimate until much later? That was in the ’70s.

BM: Yeah.

AF: Were you in love?

BM: Yeah, how else could I have had babies with somebody? Shit. [Laughs]

AF: Well, that’s reassuring to hear someone say! What was he like as a person?

BM: The thing that impressed me the most about Lewis when I first met him [was that] he could type up a sample, do a mimeograph really fast and efficiently. [Laughs] He was cute; he was a good lover. And he really wanted to have children.

AF: How did you guys decide to get married?

BM: We didn’t. And I want to make this clear: I have never been married. I don’t believe in marriage, and I refuse to get married. Stupid Lewis said to me when I was about eight months pregnant with Marie, who was our first baby, he said, Both my parents are going to have heart attacks if we don’t get married. He knew how to push my buttons. I didn’t want to be responsible for anyone’s death. So I succumbed to a marriage ceremony … knowing all the while he was still married, but he did too, but he didn’t think it mattered. So that was okay with me; I didn’t think it mattered either.

AF: So you were never legally married?

BM: No, thankfully.

AF: Marriage is something you’ve been against your whole life?

BM: I just think it’s a stupid tradition. I mean, if you want to declare your love for someone in public, there are many ways to do it besides getting married.

AF: You weren’t interested in any financial or legal advantages of getting married?

BM: Shockingly, there are no advantages to being married. The taxes are in fact higher. The only advantage is to get your mate health insurance or to become a citizen.

AF: How long were you two together?

BM: We stayed together for 10 years. We managed to have all our kids in the country, which is nice. I think of those years as very happy. I could have gone on having babies forever, if anyone had let me. Once I started, I just couldn’t stop.

 

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Book

Bernadette Mayer Studying Hunger
Station Hill Press

‘In 1972 Bernadette Mayer began this project as an aid to psychological counseling, writing in parallel journals so that, as she wrote in one (in bed, on subways, at parties, etc.), her psychiatrist read the other. Using colored pens to color-code emotions, she recorded dreams, events, memories, and reflections in a language at once free-ranging and precise-a work that creates its own poetics. She sought a workable code, or shorthand, for the transcription of every event, every motion, every transition of her own mind and to perform this process of translation on herself in the interest of evolving an innovative, inquiring language. Studying Hunger Journals registers this intention within a body of poetry John Ashbery has called magnificent.’ — Station Hill Press

 

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p.s. Hey. ** H, Hi. Yes, it looks like I have a new apartment, but, based on my past bad luck, I am saving my relief until after I go in and sign the contract tomorrow morning. If it’s real, I’ll have to start the hell of packing up pretty quick and then probably move sometime next week. Markopoulos would be an interesting choice for your thesis, I agree. Suggestions … I’ll think. The problem is that there are so many very interesting filmmakers, I guess. Where to stop? ** Ferdinand, Hi, Ferdinand! I hope you’re doing okay. That snapshot sounds like great art almost. Oh, shit, about losing your hand luggage. You mean forever? ‘Bye bye Blondie’: I’ll find and watch that. Thanks a lot! Oh, god, yes, about losing things in transit. The worst, and it’s still panful to remember, was that I was in NYC catching a bus to JFK airport with Eileen Myles in the early-ish 80s because we were going to Detroit to do a reading together, and I accidentally left one of my travel bags on the curb at the bus stop, and it contained the only extant version of a novel that I had been working on for a year and a half. That just about killed me at the time, although, hopefully, it was a shitty novel, or so I dream. Nice to see you, sir. ** S., S! I’m still in excited astonishment to see/talk with you again. So, are you living in Berlin? Did I correctly catch that inference? How’s stuff? ** Tosh Berman, Hi, Tosh. I just moments ago saw that thing you posted on FB about Lion Cafe and remembered that when Zac and I were last in Tokyo, we wanted to go there and hunted the streets for it for a long time but never found it for some reason. Sharits us wonderful, I agree. Interesting your dad was into 22. I’d never heard about the thing for that number until I did the post, but then a number of people I know turned out to be 22 people. ** Steevee, Hi. Yeah, Rich was fun and interesting and valuable, but she definitely built thick walls around the areas and films she liked. That attack on Nestor Almendros’ documentary as you characterize it is literally kind of insane. Excellent about finding the probable cinematographer. Does she have a particular look/style to her work, or is she more a skilled, flexible sort of DP? I’ve read about ‘Raw’. I fear it’s already been through the theaters here. I’ll try to see it, for sure. Thanks a bunch for the thoughts and the alert. ** David Ehrenstein, I’m with you on the Nestor Almendros film. Well, I only know what’s been put out there about Sharits’ life, so I’ll take your word for the veracity of the pimp story given that you were there. Certainly an interesting wrinkle. ** Kyler, Hi, Kyler. Oh, yeah, it does make sense that you would like the post. Interesting, thanks for the 22 adds. I should do a sequel. There’s a really terrific book called ‘The Age of Oil’ by Duncan Smith that’s a numerology-based series of essays on all sorts of things from Levi jeans to movies, rock songs, etc. It’s way, way out of print and very expensive now, but, if you ever come across it for cheap, I recommend picking it up. Rebel/genius? Me? Well, if you and the numbers say so, ha ha. Cool. ** Dom Lyne, Hi, Dom! Lovely to see you, my friend! My friend/LA roommate Joel is very into the number 23. That’s interesting. I’m kind of a believer in fate and destiny, and I’m always really interested, when I feel/know something is happening that feels pre-destined, to look for clear signs of why, for the hidden design that made that fateful moment happen. So, yeah. I’m good. Things are getting kind of crazy busy preparing for the shooting of Zac’s and my new film, but obviously it’s an exciting busyness for all the necessary related stress. I think the reading went well. It felt like it did. And I definitely don’t often feel that way about my readings. I read poem, mostly poems I wrote in the 70s and 80s. Strange choice, and it was emotionally interesting to reenter the person I was when I wrote them, but it seemed like a good choice. The crowd was good. It was packed, that was nice. I’m happy things still go really well with Seb. He seemed really great. I hear you about the break from writing. Makes sense. I’m on a bit of a break from writing fiction right now. I want to go away from it and then find my way back in and see what that does. Oh, shit, about your publisher going belly up, but, yeah, it sounds like that’ll ultimately work out for the best. I’m glad you’re writing and happy with your work, obviously. That’s very good news. Right, my stuff does get mentioned in ‘Totally Fucked Up’. That’s a cool thing. And that’s one of my favorite Araki films to boot. Hugs and love back to you, Dom. ** _Black_Acrylic, Hi, Ben. I come across 23 people a fair amount. I read up on the whys and hows of that number’s importance at one point, but I can’t reember the details. ** Jeff J, Hi, Jeff. I don’t think I have a special number. I do like 5. The George Miles Cycle is 5 books. And I have this thing about writing 5 post-Cycle text novels — meaning 1 more to go — and then stopping. So maybe 5. Well, very interesting and thank you for the talk about Tsieh. I definutely want to go back to his work now and get into it in a fresh and thorough way. When I do, I will remember to share whatever that does to me. My pleasure about the email. And, yeah, by tomorrow afternoon I should be able to confidently say I have a new apartment, or I sure hope so. Looks like it. Thanks a lot! ** Jeff Coleman, Jeff! Hi, man! Awesome what you stumbled on. That was beautiful. That feeling of portentousness is a great one. Well, except when it involves dread. The popularity of 23 is interesting. Is it really the big kahuna or numbers? Or is it just numerology’s version of Beyonce or something. I wonder. Great to see you, buddy! ** Right. Today I’m focusing on Bernadette Mayer’s ‘Studying Hunger’, which I obviously like a lot. And I want to mention, if you didn’t see it up there, that while the book can bought as a physical object, it can also be found/read for free at the great experimental writing/book archve site Eclipse. You can straight to it using the bottom link in the ‘Further’ section. Enjoy your days. See you tomorrow.