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Spotlight on … Renee Gladman Ana Patova Crosses a Bridge (2014)

 

‘Over the course of Renee Gladman’s trilogy — Event Factory, The Ravickians, and Ana Patova Crosses a Bridge — the narrative focus draws increasingly inwards. The narrator of Event Factory is a foreigner, and the book describes her stay in the city, and her struggles with the language and culture around her. At times, she seems thoroughly fluent in it; at others, her interactions with Ravickans are more fraught, with gaps in understanding, moments of political tension, and brief scenes of existential dread. The Ravickians takes as its central character Luswage Amini, a Ravickan novelist alluded to in Event Factory. Here, too, a familiar literary device — following her progress across the city — is juxtaposed with thoughts on translation’s inaccuracy, the problems that plague Ravicka, and Amini’s long and complex relationship with another writer, Ana Patova.

‘Patova is at the center of the trilogy’s final novel, Ana Patova Crosses a Bridge — a title that seems quotidian until one reads Event Factory and discovers that “crossing a bridge” is a phrase abounding with resonances in Ravic. Here’s the narrator of Event Factory as she views and translates a warning sign beside a bridge.

‘Digla implied that to successfully cross the bridge (or not cross the bridge, depending on the meaning of the remaining words) we had to grasp the content of the message and integrate that content into an act or gesture made toward the bridge.

‘Here, more of the city’s history is revealed, and its place in the wider world is made more clear; still, it too exists at a distance, as much of what we’re reading is, ostensibly, a book by Ana Patova called Enclosures. The book’s cover design, in which white space frames artwork similar to the much larger art gracing the covers of the previous volumes, effectively mirrors this structure.

‘Gladman’s trilogy avoids hitting certain conventional narrative beats, even as the novels’ structures fit within larger guidelines — once again, an echo of Ravicka’s geographic and physical elusiveness. The narrator of Event Factory leaves certain details out of her story which would otherwise represent significant beats in the narrative; towards novel’s end, she notes:

‘Obviously, I cannot say what happened once I reached the street. That is, I cannot say whether or not I remembered something that I was to look for, as if it were an event that is now complete.

‘The second and third volumes in the trilogy, ostensibly translated from Ravic to English, achieve a greater stability in their narratives, but other things remain unsaid. Every once in a while, a Ravickian will make a statement that reminds us that their culture is not simply a known one with a few changes in dress or cuisine tacked on. “Everyone is leaking structure,” one character notes in The Ravickians, and throughout the trilogy, a comparison is made between the physical spaces in Ravicka and the characters who live there. In a larger sense, the way that the narrative of these three novels eludes expectations, sometimes frustratingly, mirrors how the use of space in Ravicka can defy logic.

‘As in Morris and Miéville, some aspects of Ravickian society feel fundamentally knowable. Many of the characters’ names have an Eastern European feel to them, and a reference to “buildings wandering and knocking into each other” in Ana Patova Crosses a Bridge recalls Prague’s Frank Gehry-designed Tančící dům (or “Dancing House.”) Later in the trilogy, Patova’s talk of being offered refuge in Finland during a past period of civil unrest further situates Ravicka in the real world, suggesting that, for all its eccentricities, it can still be pointed to on a map.

‘It’s also worth noting that Gladman cites Samuel R. Delany’s Dhalgren in the acknowledgements of Event Factory. That novel, and the city at its center, provide another lens through which to view Ravicka — one in which, unlike the novels of Miéville and Morris, a greater degree of surrealism in the landscape is expected. (One might also cite fellow Delany acolyte Jonathan Lethem’s Amnesia Moon.) For all that the anxieties and anguish of the Ravickians becomes increasingly more tangible over the course of the trilogy, Gladman also poses certain questions about their culture that delve into a glorious illogic.

‘The Ravic language involves gestures — but to say that undercuts the extent to which performance is ingrained in not just the language but in the very concept of Ravickian identity. At one point early in Event Factory, the narrator notes that a friend of hers, Simon, has vanished. She takes over his role at a hotel in the city; later, she notes that “I stood there and performed Simon brilliantly.” And late in Ana Patova Crosses a Bridge, the narrator shares postcards she has received, ostensibly from expatriate friends, with a gathering of people that includes those same figures. “No one believed Tómas was in Delaware, but no one believed that he was in Ravicka either, as long as I was carrying around that postcard.”

‘You don’t go to the trouble of constructing a metaphorically rich fictional city without having some larger point to impart on your readers. In Gladman’s case, that seems to be about fear and anxiety and the way each of us splinter ourselves. As her narrative defies expectations, her use of space occasionally defies logic — which is every bit as disorienting as you might expect. There are no maps that can take you to the places Gladman and her colleagues describe, but that might be the point: their geography is already etched into our minds, and we travel there whenever we are reminded of our ever-present anxieties.’ — Tobias Carroll

 

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Further

Renee Gladman and the New Narrative
READING RAVICKA: TWO NOVELS IN A TRILOGY BY RENEE GLADMAN
RENEE GLADMAN’S RAVICKA NOVELS
The Company That Never Comes
‘Five Things’, by Renee Gladman
‘Proportion Surviving’, by Renee Gladman
‘Calamity’, by Renee Gladman
‘I Began the Day’, by Renee Gladman
An interview with Renee Gladman by Joshua Marie Wilkinson
A Voice of Leaving: Renee Gladman’s The Ravickians
Beginning the Day with Renee Gladman’s Calamities
Renee Gladman @ PennSound
Renee Gladman @ goodreads
Buy ‘Ana Patova Crosses a Bridge’

 

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Drawings

‘When I first attempted to describe Gladman’s drawings, I thought of the paleographic terms for describing ancient and medieval writing: letterform, overline, cross-stroke, descender, curl, et cetera. I thought of the names of the Western letterforms no longer in use: ash, eth, thorn, yogh. But this seemed futilely retrospective. A dead end. I thought of a line from Event Factory: “There were no residents here. Old Ravicka, the ancient city, was a museum.”

‘In Gladman’s drawings, her lines gather into tangled structures that resemble cityscapes, individual buildings, skylines, structures covered in scaffolding; they are architectural plans composed of written lines. In the introduction to Prose Architectures she asks, “How could I inhabit thought as architecture, as a space that could be seen or experienced bodily?”’ — John Vincler

 

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Extras


Renee Gladman at Georgetown University


Renee Gladman reads at Small Press Traffic


Renee Gladman reads at Eastern Michigan University

 

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Interview
from BOMB

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Renee Gladman I want to begin by asking you about slowness. Very general, I know. But it’s something I think about when I read your narratives: the duration of a moment of perception. Or perhaps, the sense has more to do with a certain silence around perception, which I’m reading as speed, but which might have more to do with space. Where do words like “slowness” or “silence” land when you think about the nature of experience or subjectivity?

Amina Cain I do often see “duration” within perception as a kind of spaciousness (something I am always trying to find, both in my stories and in my life), but, interestingly, I just finished an essay on my relationship to writing and it’s called Slowness. In it, I talk about how drawn I am to films (like Chantal Akerman’s Jeanne Dielman) and books (like Clarice Lispector’s The Apple in the Dark) that seem to move slowly, or that when they do build up to something with some kind of energy, do so without the promise of “real” drama, not unlike what it is to prepare to meditate. In the Soto Zen tradition, which is the only one I really know, you go through a fairly momentous ceremony to simply stare at a blank wall, to arrive at something like spaciousness or slowness. On that blank wall is projected everything (after all, you can see your mind there) and also nothing. I like that relationship between drama and quiet, between moving towards something and then just sitting down upon arrival to experience what it’s like to be there. I like it in life and in writing.

I wrote another essay that thinks about the similarities between fiction and landscape painting (as well as character and landscape) because I’ve been realizing more and more how important image and setting are to me as a writer—in a way, even more so than language, and certainly more than plot or story. The question I am now asking myself, that I think I have always asked myself, perhaps without knowing it at first, is: can a story be like a painting, or a video or film, or can it allow for lapses into the space of one of these things for a little while? What happens when a narrative allows us to spend time with an image longer than we are “supposed” to, when it is just as arresting as the story being told?

But, in that second essay, I also talk a bit about Ana Patova Crosses a Bridge, about how the narrator “softens” (and what I mean by this word is that some kind of boundary breaks down) with not only the “architectured” landscape, but also with sentences, and with the physical act of writing. It feels to me as though everything in the book is passing through the narrator’s body or that the narrator’s body passes through everything. I wonder if these impressions mean anything in terms of the way you yourself see the book, if you thought at all about porousness or exchange.

RG Sometimes it’s difficult to separate a narrator from language or the idea of the body and text. I often think they are inextricable, but lately I think it’s more that the narrator (of most of my fictions) and the body (which people ask me about a lot) are sublimated figures. They belong to language; they are problems of language. The only reason there is a body is because there is a text, in this case a “bridge,” to make its form possible. I like when people talk about membranes in regard to writing, because it allows you to visualize a layer that potentially sits on top of language. Because, you see, I think the language of the book is passing through something as well, and it’s not the narrator’s body, rather some abstraction of itself. Language has a dream of itself and the book passes through the dream. The first part of the sentence forms the membrane and the second part of the sentence moves through it. In my mind, it looks like ribboning, but is colorless. Someone writes about language as a skin, which perhaps corresponds with your thoughts on porosity. I am interested in the idea that the skin is an organ, because skin is flat like landscape, like language. If we allow language to be skin in our imaginings then we can move immediately to all the processes happening below that level—so many systems at work with the skin (language) acting as protection, as boundary and container. I think about things entering that membrane and moving through the body beneath and try to imagine what that looks like, sounds like at the reading level. I want the language you see, particularly in Ana Patova, to be alive and in process.

Earlier, in talking about meditation, you mentioned going through “a fairly momentous ceremony to simply stare at a blank wall,” as a way to describe your relationship to narrative. This is really exciting to me, a series of elaborate acts to prepare for one prolonged gesture. (Though I have a problem with the word “one” there. I’m not sure it’s countable.) How does this translate in writing? You talked about the wall, but I’m interested in the ceremony. Where does it take place? Is it outside of the frame of the narrative?

AC I like so much of what you say here, especially about language—what belongs to it (not possessively); what’s just underneath, moving; its dream of itself; the second part of a sentence moving through the first. I often want to ignore language, but of course I owe it everything because I don’t ignore it when I write and, thought about in the ways you describe, how could I? Here (and in Ana Patova) it’s as alive as a character (is character alive?), but it’s not character. It doesn’t want or need to be alive like that. It makes me think of language as a stage, the thing we all show up to see. A character may walk across it, but that is not the important part. Not that I think the two are pitted against each other, or ranked. It’s more about possibility (and I think there’s possibility everywhere in fiction). And the language in Ana Patova is always in process, yes. If a house has burned down in the first part of a sentence it is not necessarily so in the second part, and yet it’s not as if the first part doesn’t still exist. Nothing is reversed. This is something I love about the book. Sometimes an event that seems final happens again. The ribboning, colorless, makes sense to me. I also think of the sentence here as a kind of animal, drawn lightly. Maybe it’s my image-driven mind, but I sometimes felt in reading Ana Patova as if I were seeing drawings that flickered in and out of visibility.

The ceremony takes place in the narrative. Maybe the narrative is the ceremony, there to usher in a setting or moment that can then be stayed with for a while. Sometimes I feel as if I am a selfish writer (though I also think it might be okay), and that I write stories to get to something else, not the actual story. I don’t think that I “use” narrative or story in a negative sense, just that it’s a medium that allows me to get to these places, these moments. I don’t think I could get to them through poetry, for instance (or even through another kind of story with its other concerns). I’ll probably fumble a bit in expressing this, because maybe I won’t quite get to it, but it’s interesting to me looking here at how we both talk about our books, our writing. I have already brought into the conversation words like “character,” “setting,” and “story,” these classic elements of fiction. You and I both do and don’t seem to come to narrative in very different ways, and these differences in how writers arrive at and to their texts is endlessly fascinating to me.

RG I’m drawn to this idea of language as a stage that we all show up to see. First of all, it’s exciting to think there are objects in the field of language, that there are actually things to see, because often I find we leave the object world behind when we speak or write. Language is so abstract and goes on about its business of deducing, connecting, naming, expressing, etc. with nothing tangibly in play. You know what I mean? Language uses our memory of objects and our desire for meaning to world-build. So, if I’m inside your metaphor, and I’ve arrived at this stage upon which I will see language, I’m giddy, because I think I’m looking at nothing. Nothing is happening in my eyes. Though, somewhere else (perhaps through some other kind of seeing) shapes emerge. Signals go off and meaning parades through our brains. How fantastic is that? When I teach poetry, I like to ask my students where does the poem exist? Is it that thing on the page? Is it the words lingering in our brain, some feeling in the body? Where is it? The nothing that happens when one writes “Danielle is sitting in that chair” is incredibly compelling to me. And I think this is something you’ve mastered beautifully in your work—a surface that acts as if it’s devoid of objects, so that it’s less what the words say than how they behave. In “Attached to a Self” you write, “Sometimes there is a great emptiness, like shaking a box nothing is inside of; sometimes the box becomes warm.” I get caught up in the mystery; it’s a sort of displacement of consequence. Things take on surprising qualities in your work. And even though it’s the language that relays these effects, I find it’s more what is absent, what is pulled into an invisible but no-less-felt tautness that I’m waiting to see.

I wonder if you can talk about recent evolutions in your thinking about narrative—what you want it to do, what it actually does—and how the narratives you create correspond to those you experience in the world.

AC That’s really nice—waiting to see what won’t show up alongside of what does, and then, through that absence, being able to see a shape. A seeing without eyes. This might be true for many writers, but the way I’m able to tell if a text is finished is when I’ve cleared out enough space. If it’s too cluttered, certain relationships won’t be able to exist or make themselves known. It’s like a table with too many things on it. In a situation like that even the table is unable to be seen. Something about abstraction is hard for me, at least within a text, partly because it seems there is very little space in it. My feeling is that it gathers too many things around itself without clearing any of it out. Maybe that’s why I am always trying to use this thing that can be so abstract—language—to get to something else.

I don’t know if my thinking about narrative has changed necessarily, but definitely my understanding of what I do through narrative has evolved and become more visible. Mostly I feel I operate in the dark (while actually in the act of writing) and that my subconscious mind knows much more than the conscious one. But I do know that I want narrative to reveal, to let certain things sit next to each other; to catch abjectness and transcendence; and closeness and distance. In many ways, the narratives I write reflect what my experience has been in the world, or what I have been drawn toward, or repelled from, or what I find funny or sad. And, self-indulgently perhaps, as a writer I tend to plunk myself down in a narrative or setting or situation I want to spend time in, either because there’s something in it I want to imagine my way through or recreate. In my life, place has always been really important. This might sound bratty, but there are certain towns or cities that can crush me even if I’m just passing through for a couple of days, and these are not necessarily unliked towns/cities I’m talking about. Los Angeles is a place many people dislike (of course there are people who love it too), and yet for me it is almost therapeutic to be here. In the same way, place (and I might extend this to atmosphere, which brings in psychic as well as physical qualities) often drives my narratives. I take a long time to set things next to each other in a way that will hopefully make them alive and reveal something about their relationships to each other and create the space of the narrative.

What about you? Earlier you talked about language (and sentences) in a way that turned my head around and I really appreciated that. How does narrative fit in? What is the relationship between language and narrative?

And before I forget, I want to set this passage from Ana Patova here, because I want it to be in the space of our conversation and because it struck me so much when I read it:

“I wrote sentences about space so that I could stand up and walk down that hill. I wrote them, because the hill was too steep to descend gracefully with your body upright and steady. Spaces moaned when you crossed them; they didn’t know how to hold you.”

It makes me think more about what language can do, in a text and otherwise.

RG In Ana Patova the city becomes a three-dimensional embodiment of writing, a world propelled by sentences. Sentences, thus, become both propellants and consequences of the events of Ravicka. Ana Patova writes so that she can act in the world. The writing is the site of that action. What happens in between, where she’s actually walking down the hill, is unmappable. I don’t believe that there is any language without narrative, but there seems to be (in Ravicka and in Providence, RI) plenty of language without events. In Ana Patova, I’m trying to follow the line of thinking, letting it pass through these sentence-corridors that are bridges, and I’m doing this because something is being produced through this particular shape. A crossing reverberates, something being crossed. One consciousness crossing another. One’s books crossing others’ books. One’s walking with another’s walking. One attempt to see the crisis with every other attempt, and not only by the one person but also every other person in the city. I think of narrative as the story of our thinking and of language as that material.

So, I’m in the process of writing a long statement on my poetics called The Eleven Calamities. This will be a series of eleven mini-essays on my eleven favorite words or compounds that organize my thinking about writing. The first six on that list are world-building, novel space, sentence, architecture, line, and time.

 

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Book

ana-patova-cover-front-nostroke-234x299 Renee Gladman Ana Patova Crosses a Bridge
Dorothy, a Publishing Project

Ana Patova Crosses a Bridge is the third volume of Renee Gladman’s magnificent, melancholy series about the city-state of Ravicka, or about the architectures of its absence. It is tempting to read the Ravickian books as an extended allegory—of architecture itself, perhaps, except that architecture is already half-allegorical, its every element raised to prefigure whatever meanings can make their way to them. If any can. In Ravicka, meanings—indeed most contact of any kind—remain in abeyance, building, in absentia, the constitutive negative spaces of the narrative. There is a plot; it lays out zones of sheer ambience. Experiences, of which there are many, unfold as a redolent lingering in the structures of immateriality, the radical realities of the insubstantial. Gladman is a philosopher of architecture, though not that of buildings. Rather, she thinks (and writes) the drifts, partitions, and immobilities of identity, affect, communication, the very possibility of being human. Profound, compelling—haunting, even—the story of Ravicka is astonishingly ours.’ — Lyn Hejinian

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Excerpts
from The Brooklyn Rail & FCA

The object world bowed and slept and
grew enormous as something completely
without space, as a container without
volume, lightless, soundless, and did
this inside a world even larger and more
obscure than itself, a world we were
walking through, which no one knew
what to call (other than “old”) and no
one understood the dimensions of but which
was ours, this grid that had been touched
by a circle, these noisy, impenetrable
doors. We had been walking for hours,
looking for a happening, a boundary
event that would put an end to the crisis,
not an extraordinary occurrence—some
magical intervention—but a small act out
of a cabinet of everyday acts that we’d
witnessed numerous times and never
noticed and never saw the way through.
We thought it would be a speech act, so
began to look for instances where we
might chance upon bodies in unconscious
speech: we looked through people’s
windows. But windows looked into houses
whose structures were no longer reliable.
It had become impossible to say that you
were contained, to say “hello, the house,”
as you once had. The object world, we
noted, was drawn on by shadows.

* *

People kept saying other people were
fleeing the city and pointed to themselves.
We became third persons, but not arrogantly
so. I referred to myself as “Ana Patova,”
and said, “Ana Patova must have left.” For
a moment I thought I would sell my home
and wrote in our newspaper, “Ana Patova
wishes to sell her home; she is leaving.” I
read what I wrote and couldn’t believe
my words and couldn’t respond to inquiries.
“I am not leaving,” I said to friends who’d
read my ad. At the same time that they
were convincing me to stay they themselves
began to pronounce strange lines. “Hi, from
Delaware,” Duder Bello said on occasion. “I
am still in France” (Luswage Amini). We
were making chaos with our goodbye notes,
and it wasn’t as though leaving wasn’t
happening but that it just wasn’t ourselves
who were doing it. No one could name names.
We all knew that Hausen wanted to go, and
when he finally vanished, many of us felt
relief. We missed him, though we didn’t
know him (we knew his confinement), but
we celebrated his departure as a threshold
crossing. “Hausen finally made it,” we’d say
and clink our glasses. So, we knew that leaving
was possible and that in many corners of
our neighborhoods people were preparing
to depart, and did depart. But, we couldn’t
call out to them, even when the time came
and the deserter was someone we loved or
someone with whom we worked and drank.
Our mouths would empty, for a long time,
would be dry, and when saliva came back
to us, it was only to ourselves that we could
point. “I’m leaving,” I would misspeak
without knowing. “I’ve left too,” would say
Luswage.

* *

I sat in one of the galleries of the Museum
of Science and Anatomy, recovering from
a story someone had told me, a story I
would never write, but which would
dictate my behavior for the next several
years, everything from how I dressed and
what I read to whom I saluted in the
street and what scared me. The story
wasn’t given to me as most are, as some
kind of choreography beaten against
the body rather it was laid on top of my
voice. I told the story, over the course
of many days, to hundreds of people, or
perhaps to only one person, again and
again. It didn’t seem to matter who heard
it, only that I went on telling it. It was a
story of moments, the moments of
bewilderment that had begun to visit
all of us, of which my time in this museum
now was. You were bewildered by a
certain sharp awareness that made you
stop and sit down, usually to write a book,
but the book that was this story could not
be written. It had become an intruder in
my mouth, when I wanted to be silent, and
sent me running out my door and, for
many days, sitting in that gallery, staring
at walls that had not yet been dressed but
observing lines that were beautiful and
could not be authenticated and were
drawn by no one.

* *

Winds shook the walls of the city, they
did not. Waters from unknown valves
flooded the streets, our streets were dry.
My neighbors leaped from buildings,
slammed their loneliness into the ground,
no one leaped. I set my house on fire: I
burned my first house down; I burned my
second house. Luswage Amini burned her
house. Zàoter Limici burned his house.
Duder Bello destroyed his neighborhood
with fire. Bresia burned the maps in her
house, then burned her house down. My
mother burned her house, even Vlati
burned his—the Governor’s palace. For
weeks, dark smoke bruised the sky, yet
the sky was clear; the sky was always
clear. Someone flew over Ravicka and
drew it and failed. Houses burned. They
did not burn. The phone rang as I wrote
that. I answered five years ago. “The city
is on fire,” the caller shouted. “We are
destroyed.” Luswage went to her summer
home and put fire to it. She called someone,
me, someone else. We all had to let others
know what we were doing. “I burned it,
Luswage,” I told her. “Why is it still
here?” She arched her back climbing out
of the tub, then burned her building down:
“I stood in the ashes. I swear to you.”
“Goddamn,” she said, looking up at the
plane. We knew he was dropping matches
to the earth, though they didn’t land near
us. The plane was supposed to crash.
“Our houses were supposed to burn,” I
said about the crisis destroying our city.

* *

Hausen wrote a book that everyone
was reading. It went that way with men,
and yet this was a book that meant a lot
to me and led to a book of my own.
Hausen wrote a book in the time before
the crisis and people carried it around
in their back pockets; it was mass
produced. In the book, a man walked
over a bridge and entered a building,
where he jumped into a pool with a
mineral-green bottom. He swam back
and forth. He did a breast stroke, he
worked from his back, he banged his
body against the water, he sang, he
shouted. He climbed out and exited
the building, leaving a trail of water. The
book described the water as text; the
drops were signs. They doubled the story
of Hausen’s character. He was a man
who swam at night in empty buildings.
The man went home to someone who
did not seem quite like a woman, but who
also was not identified as a “man.” The
man coming home lay on top of this
person and swam and told a story, which
was a confession, and the body gasped,
but we did not know if the man’s story
was causing this gasping or whether the
cause was his writhing. The reader couldn’t
hear the story, but Hausen had the language
around the story crack and drop heat on us.
And the body writhed on top of the other
body and whispered to it about something
done and undone in the city, something
sitting under water, something terrible.

* *

The city that existed ran like a film
playing in a small movie house on a
forgotten street in the blown out part
of the city we swore never to enter,
never to grace, because of some tragedy
no one remembered but which haunted
our movements in the “safe” parts of
the city, which counted for most of
Ravicka. It was too imbalanced: that
there was this block of streets, off limits
to our living, and within this block
breathed the real body of our city, the
one that existed rather than painted itself
to exist, the living one, at least as I came
to think of it, though I had never seen
that film. I tried to arrive at the movie
house, but got turned away each time.
It was the film of the decade and would
tell me how to live and would open into
new streets, where bodies were possible,
where architecture exceeded itself and
took care of the environment, brought
the park into itself, danced around the
canal, where water ran next to and
summer bodies floated by. It wasn’t a
utopia playing there but the real built
environment, the one that went with the
language you spoke, that could handle
the verbs of your language. It was the city,
but was unreachable, was violent, without
victims and without perpetrators, and
violent, though there were no crimes.

* *

Every time I wrote a sentence something
disappeared, and after many thousands
of sentences, some of which I didn’t keep
or didn’t like, I began to look for those
vanished things. I also wondered whether
it was more that they were invisible than
vanished. I thought writing had something
to do with invisibility and the world tried
to show you this as often as it could, but
disappearances seemed to have more to
do with not writing, from the way things
looked in the city, among my friends and
acquaintances. You were losing hope if
you weren’t writing, which isn’t the same
as things going invisible. You were losing
hope, too, if you were writing, but it was
a different kind of loss, because there was
always something you had more of when
you were done writing, even if it was
sentences that you hated. I wrote
sentences about how men sleep and my
wooden spoons vanished, or perhaps
were no longer visible to the eye. Most
of the sentences I wrote I did so without
thinking of the consequences of objects
going missing. I was often trying to write
about the crisis, which was hard and
took everything you had, which was
almost all your language for that day.
One day I stopped writing and asked
after the vanished things; I wanted to
know where they were. It was strange to
have had them go away so silently. I
asked into the room where they were
and wondered about the thing and all
the things that replaced it. Would they
all come back at once?

 

 

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p.s. Hey. ** Nick Hudson, Well, well, Nick! Howdy, man! I’m alright, just, you know, film finishing pretty much full time. Happy birthday a little late. Probably too taxing a question, but how did you end up in Tbilisi? I’m following your travails and triumphs on Facebook. Ace about the new album. Oh, sure, my email is [email protected]. Thanks! Keep being you, not that you need my encouragement. xoxo. ** ellie, Hi, ellie! I’m good, pretty good. How’s everything with you? Thanks a lot for reading ‘Zac’s Drug Binge’. You know, I’ve never looked at my gif fictions with music on. It might a weird new way to think about them. Huh. No, not whole books to music. Bits and pieces. There was an album years ago of songs inspired by my work, and there were songs/tracks on there that used things of mine as lyrics or voiceover kinds of things. Oh, wow, a Eliane Radigue Cooper opera. I would literally ascend straight from my desk chair into heaven in that case. We’ve finished the edit of the film, and now we’re desperately trying to raise the funds to do the technical stuff it needs (VFX, sound design, better color grading). And we’re waiting to find out if any upcoming film festivals will take it. Definitely jacket-requiring here. Drizzly and cold. I like cold, but the drizzle is getting very old. Do you like winter? We please and inspire each other, what could possibly be better. You take care, stay toasty, and I hope I’ll get to see you again soon. ** Dominik, Hi!!! Yeah, the bank card worries are getting very boring. ‘Prayers’ for a full mailbox today. If your landlord is really nice, he’ll have a heating technician over there today. Did … he? Strange how a hustler with smoker’s lungs is an attractive option. I learn so much about myself making those posts, ha ha. For instance that I think I’m ‘in love’ with kennywantsnachos. There’s no Love without losing [but] don’t worry, I play soccer ⚽️, G. ** Charalampos, I can’t believe I’m saying enjoy the sun, but I am. ‘The Has-Been’ is the name of the audio novel Zac and I are going to make/record soon. I think a piece of the text was published somewhere, I forget. ‘Effi Briest’ is a goodie. Yes, we progress on the film. There’s still a lot of technical stuff to be done before it’s actually finished/seeable. I’m not involved in the new Gisele work. Or, well, actually, I wrote it but then she threw out my text, so I’m not involved anymore. After8 can bankrupt one if one isn’t careful. Clear Paris sky vibes from beneath its very unclear sky. ** Misanthrope, Oh, jeez, about Young Elio. What the fuck is wrong with people? Time for him to realise that when you’re queer your friends are your real family, I guess. I don’t need to ask you to give him all the support he needs. He’ll be fine, but Jesus. ** _Black_Acrylic, Resnais made a lot of topnotch films. Dude, your birthday finally arrived! Teeniest bit late and happiest wishes! The 40s were pretty good. I liked my 40s. Welcome to their near middle! ** Darby 👨‍🎤🎥🌛, Howdy! Yay, about the DMV. What do you need to do to get ready? I remember studying for the written part a little and making sure my eyes were clear for the eye test part. The first place I moved to away from home/Los Angeles was NYC. The finding an apartment part was pretty stressful, but I found one. Otherwise, nah, it was just happy-making newness galore. I think when you’re in a situation that you don’t want to be in, the feelings that you’re feeling are not only normal but key to making yourself get out of the situation. Artist residencies: basically they’re these kind of retreats where you apply with examples of your art and the plans you have re: what you want to make or work on while there, and the residencies go through the entries and pick people to come. So you get to go somewhere where you basically have nothing else to do but work on your art for however long, a week or two or a month or longer. If you search around, you’ll find some. They usually focus on afferent kinds of art, so there are ones for writers, for visual artists, for researchers, etc. So close!!!! Excellent! Us too with the film. Race you. ** Jack Skelley, Scholasticky! Right, Arthur Bremmer, there’s a book of his diaries, or there was. I think I did a cut up thing with them for some fiction piece or something. Yes, I thought my Greenwell answer was potently discrete. But maybe not. Jacques, I loved your submarine. ** Steve Erickson, Great, so there’s more on Vecchiali in English now. Everyone, Steve has reviewed Paul Vecchiali’s little known until recently and apparently very good film ‘The Strangler’. Check it. I’m hoping the selection and mixing of the tracks has the same great pleasure as mixing/selecting a film’s final layout. Make that SoundCloud rap song! You could get rich, viral, something. ** Cap’m, Cap’m, my old, dear pal! How in the world are you? So very lovely to see you! Trust your instincts on clicking. Well, you know that. Wow, late Happy Halloween and early Merry Xmas to you! How are you? xoxoxo. ** Audrey, Hi, Audrey. Ha ha, see, I romanticise your way of talking. Oh, thank you for filling me in and correcting me. I didn’t know that about his earlier fiction films. I must seek them out. Him doing fiction is very intriguing. Since he’s here, they show his films fairly often because he can be there to talk about them. I’ll scour to see if the fiction ones get shown. I know the name Bern Porter, but I can’t remember how. I’m going to investigate Radu Jude, and, as is my wont, try to do a post him about while I search, hoping there’s enough of him available to make one. Sadly there are so many amazing filmmakers whose work has very little direct presence online. I’ll try. Exciting. Obviously I hope that roller coaster flattens out and that the exit station is in your sights. (Sorry for pressing the roller coaster metaphor, my theme park fetish arises). My plan for the waning week is to go look at some art and make sure the French subtitles we need on our film for a grant are okay and watch ‘Taylor Swift: The Eras Tour’ of all ungodly things because some writer friends and I perversely decided to discuss the Taylor Swift phenomenon on our bi-weekly Zoom gathering on Saturday. I hope your remaining week is at least as oddball as mine. Love, Dennis. ** Okay. Renee Gladman is one of my favorite American fiction writers, and the novel spotlit up above, which is from her Ravicka novel series, is maybe her most beautiful. Highly recommended, in other words. See you tomorrow.

“I study medicine. I plan to specialise as psychiatrist or neurologist. Anti-aging technology is my personal interest. I read a lot of research about mental and libido enhancing agents. In free time I write screenplays for movies, TV series and porn. In future I hope to make money either by making my own technological invention or starring in the best porn movie of the last decade.”

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le_volume, 23
Paris

I’m a writing student working on my first novel. I’ve been fucked less than 10 times so I’m very tight. Every now and then I’m forced by financial woes to let go for a bit.

Guestbook of le_volume

Latinfuckhole4U – Nov 12, 2023
Yeah Bro, I know exactly what you’re talking about.

le_volume (Owner) – Nov 12, 2023
This may be totally a personal peev but I wonder if other escorts sees a client using “kisses” in messages as a red flag? This is a business, I don’t ever try to hide this, I give no indication of romance or even friendship to my clients, but in my experience when guys start ending messages with “See you tonight xxx” or “I’ll be there in 5 xx” it makes me think they’re gonna be the clingy type who breed me and then tell me their life story, or worse, don’t breed me and just tell me all their life problems and about what medication they’re on. Is it just me who separates business from love so cleanly?

Whatever4 – Nov 8, 2023
I treated myself to Luca today. He doesn’t charge based on the hourly rate, but rather in practical minute-by-minute rates. Since I only had a budget of 100 euros, I had twelve valuable minutes of time that I wanted to get to know Luca intensively. His only condition was that I allow at least 3 minutes to get dressed and say goodbye so that it doesn’t end up too hectic. A little tip from me: visit him with as little clothing on your body as possible so that you don’t waste time. I thought there was still enough time, but the stopwatch started warning me to leave as soon as I got started. What a pity. So unfortunately I can’t say too much about Luca’s body and performance.

Body Type Slim
Ethnicity White
Body Hair Not very hairy
Tattoos No
Piercings No
Languages French, English
Position Versatile
Dick L – Uncut
Kissing Consent
Fisting No
S&M No
Dirty No
PNP 420 only
Hourly Rate On request
Overnight Rate On request

 

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Miguel, 18
Mexico City

Pay 300 use my butt

Make money not friends

I’m a hottie

Guestbook of Miguel

jerseycares – Nov 7, 2023
I have a dog, and I’ve fucked a lot of boys with him in the room, but right after I loaded up Miguel my dog immediately leapt on the bed and licked the creampie out of him. I’m not sure what that means, but I thought it was interesting.

suckmydickbabe – Nov 1, 2023
It’s time I found a real hottie to fuck. I’m tired of these fly by night random app whores who may fuck with abandon but don’t peer into my soul and make me worship their being.

the00 – Nov 1, 2023
Before you take the leap request a pic of his anus. It’s very, how to say, mature.

Body Type Slim
Ethnicity Latin
Body Hair Smooth
Tattoos No
Piercings Yes
Languages Spanish, English
Position Bottom only
Dick M – Uncut
Kissing Consent
Fisting Passive
S&M Soft
Dirty No
PNP Yes
Hourly Rate 75$
Overnight Rate 130$

 

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MonsterCockStud, 19
Bristol

I am masculine sporty hetero 30cm 11.5inch size 🍆 and massive stamina you will not be able to take my cock.

Real size i can show you with scale for measurement before you meet.

Guestbook of MonsterCockStud

Tim53 – Nov 10, 2023
Your photo has bad vibes.

MonsterCockStud (Owner) – Nov 9, 2023
Currently I can only top only to a very limited extent. Sorry ☺️ Don’t be angry.

PillowBBiter – Nov 3, 2023
Wanna turn a straight top boy into your little Bitch?
Easy… Ask me how!

Wonder how to get him to dump his girlfriend for you in just a couple of weeks?
Way easier than you think… ask me how!

Body Type Athletic
Ethnicity Latin
Body Hair Shaved
Tattoos No
Piercings No
Languages English, Portuguese, Spanish
Position Top only
Dick XL – Uncut
Kissing No
Fisting FF Active
S&M No
Dirty No
PNP No answer
Hourly Rate 200£
Overnight Rate 1000£

 

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PLEASE_HIRE_ME_FOR_MEDICAL_EXPENSES_OF_MY_FATHER, 18
Buenos Aires

I NEED YOUR HELP. MY FATHER IS CONFINED IN THE HOSPITAL. I REALLY NEED MONEY FOR MEDICAL EXPENSES 😭😭😭

STILL IN THE HOSPITAL. CAN’T WALK ANYMORE AND IS ON A FEEDING TUBE 😭😭😭

THERE IS TB AND MILD STROKE AND OTHER HEALTH ISSUES THAT ARE STILL MONITORED 😭😭😭

ANY WAY TO MAKE MONEY. MAYBE YOU HAVE FRIENDS THAT YOU CAN REFER ME TO OR ANY GROUP EVENTS THAT CAN MAKE MONEY 😭😭😭

Guestbook of PLEASE_HIRE_ME_FOR_MEDICAL_EXPENSES_OF_MY_FATHER

Echochamber – Nov 5, 2023
You can’t fist him.

BlueWasp – Nov 4, 2023
Really hot boy with delicious sneakers.

Body Type Slim
Ethnicity Latin
Body Hair Little
Tattoos No
Piercings No
Languages Spanish, English
Position Versatile
Dick L – Uncut
Kissing Depends
Fisting No answer
S&M Soft
Dirty No
PNP No answer
Hourly Rate 10$
Overnight Rate 100$

 

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Helladeep, 24
Berlin

hustler boy with smoker’s lungs👖

You can bring a friend if you ask nicely 😈

Guestbook of Helladeep

Business70 – Nov 11, 2023
Total pig junkie with a hot ass 😀 I obviously have no tendency talk to the escorts too much, however this time I wanted to know what happened in this boy’s head while I pounded him. Bad news, he doesn’t give a shit. I hate capitalism.

Hungwoodkink – Nov 9, 2023
I’ve done him at various Berlin underground parties and always found his stupor to be very relaxing.

Body Type Athletic
Ethnicity Mixed
Body Hair Not very hairy
Tattoos Yes
Piercings Yes
Languages English, German, Turkish, Swiss-German
Position More bottom
Dick L – Uncut
Kissing Yes
Fisting Passive
S&M Yes
Dirty Yes
PNP Yes
Hourly Rate 100€
Overnight Rate 1800€

 

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obedient🔒femslut🍑😈⛓️, 20
Kent

I’m a very kinky, high-energy and small smoking hot girl/boy toy or whatever you want to call me who will give you a huge increase on the level of orgasm(s).

Over an hour, night, weekend or week; morning, afternoon, evening, I am always ready and it is never too much or too late to let me know my help is needed and I’ll happily make everybody horny out of their minds.

I only bottom, I won’t remove my chastity cage, no FF, no drinking urine, I don’t fuck anyone.

Guestbook of obedient🔒femslut🍑😈⛓️

MyLifeMyRules81 – Oct 29, 2023
He lives in Kent but he was born in the midlands so his accent is a bit bleh.

Bear – Oct 26, 2023
Bears crush twinks.

Body Type Slim
Body Hair Shaved
Ethnicity White
Smoker Yes
Tattoos No
Piercings No
Languages English
Position Bottom only
Dick S – Uncut
Dirty No
Fisting No
S&M Soft
Kissing Yes
PNP Yes
Hourly Rate On request
Overnight Rate On request

 

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Fameboy, 20
San Diego

i like getting corporal punishment on my ass. no fooling around with it until its trashed. sorry, them’s the rules.

i got castrated by some sick bastard during a dark night of my soul about a year ago, i’m sure some are into that 😉 really just looking for NSA $$$ fun. i have a kinky side (obviously).

go to University of San Diego so if you see me around campus make an offer.

Guestbook of Fameboy

davematthews – Nov 6, 2023
A young man with an experienced ass that I’ve had the opportunity to take down on several occasions, he cashed in, and so did I.

loveisaround – Nov 2, 2023
My boyfriend and I restricted him by wrist and ankle cuffs attached to a metal pole. He was blindfolded, wearing a ball gag and nipple clamps. As he was restrained we spanked and whipped and fucked for a few hours. If we hadn’t run out of cash on hand we would have continued doing that for days with no end in sight.

KinkyCountryBoy – Oct 30, 2023
I just left my meeting with this young man, I am DELIGHTED! I was looking for a nice young ass, and that’s the case, not to mention that he takes it… terrible!

SoulEater – Oct 23, 2023
Censors his groin with a jockstrap so it wasn’t the eyesore I feared. Doesn’t flinch at the blows of a belt, flogger or even an English cane. Nice ass. It’s particularly good to whip him on drugs.

Body Type Average
Body Hair Some
Ethnicity White
Smoker No
Tattoos No
Piercings No
Languages English
Position Prefer not to say
Dick No answer
Dirty Ask
Fisting No
S&M Yes
Kissing Consent
PNP Yes
Hourly Rate 1$
Overnight Rate 1$

 

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kennywantsnachos, 18
Dusseldorf

Well I’m going to be 100% transparent in this bio starting with how I got here. Long story short I was in a job I loved – got sacked – the reasons were made up and were painting me to be a lazy non motivated person. That’s not me (test me out!) I’m not only very attractive, I’m intelligent. Not only will your cock get hard for me your brain will too.

Guestbook of kennywantsnachos

highcountry – Nov 8, 2023
I wish I could be .035 tall and live inside your rectum. I’d live on the edge and play a two string banjo.

Samuel53 – Nov 6, 2023
My smile fascinates.
Sometimes I write poetry, most often about love.
I dream to have sex with you in the forest by a fire.

bank91 – Nov 3, 2023
I spent three dream hours yesterday with this superb little trash ephebe. I gobbled and sucked his very stiff and hard cock until he watered my mouth with his golden piss before flooding it with his sperm which is of a very good vintage. His little ass delivered without hesitation and tremendous ardor and I had an orgasm in it for what felt like an infinite time.

johnnysawyer – Oct 31, 2023
Your brain won’t get hard but just wait until you sniff his arse, oh my God!

Master10 – Oct 30 12, 2023
He’s a little too on the trashy, fem, airhead side but after a few drinks and some meth in his lungs with slitty eyes and a slack jaw he was really breathtaking.

Body Type Slim
Body Hair Smooth
Ethnicity White
Smoker Yes
Tattoos Yes
Piercings Yes
Languages English
Position More bottom
Dick L – Uncut
Dirty Ask
Fisting Ask
S&M Yes
Kissing Yes
PNP Yes
Hourly Rate 150€
Overnight Rate 700€

 

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backdoorjimmy, 19
San Diego

I know this is probably weird, but I’ve been wanting to rent out my ass for eating. I’d want to exclusively devote myself to the eating of my ass.

Since I’m not experienced with escorting and don’t know anyone who is, I figured I’d ask if this is something tops and bottoms would be interested in. If I advertised my ass exclusively for men to feast on, would it be appealing? Or is it a dumb idea that I should forget about?

Guestbook of backdoorjimmy

DarkBone – Nov 6, 2023
I’d rim your ass any time any where and the money would flow but always followed up with a hard bareback fuck. Followed by more rimming. Etc. In that case, yes.

Guest – Nov 6, 2023
Just for rimjob? No. Rimjob before the fuck, Sure, absolutely. But just for a rimjob, no. Not for me.

TheManByYourSide – Nov 6, 2023
I used to hook up with a teenager who wanted his ass eaten. He would let me in, pull my pants down. I’d eat him out through the seat of his underwear, then he’d pull them off and let me eat him out bare. I always asked to fuck him but he never did would. He never even took his dick out. It was a little frustrating, but the rimming was so good I put up with it until he got married and ghosted me.

backdoorjimmy (Owner) – Nov 5, 2023
I should probably ask a friend of mine to eat my ass and find out what it’s like. I’ve never had it done in real life so the idea I have in my head is all based on the porn I’ve watched. I’ve had a fantasy for years about slicing a hole in the back of my pants and walking around and letting any guys eat it, but it’s all in my head and it doesn’t seem practical. Especially since I still live with my mom.

boriswantstoknowyou – Nov 5, 2023
I would definitely part with some bucks to eat your ass. I haven’t eaten a teen’s ass in so many years. I can’t find anyone who wants to do it.

shinelover – Nov 5, 2023
I get ravenous just looking at that pic of your ass so if that was a thing I would totally use it.

Body Type Average
Body Hair Shaved
Ethnicity White
Smoker No
Tattoos No
Piercings No
Languages English
Position More bottom
Dick L – Cut
Dirty Ask
Fisting No
S&M No
Kissing No
PNP 420 only
Hourly Rate 130$
Overnight Rate On request

 

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DominikBuchmayer, 18
Berlin

Exploiting fat and ugly rich guys. If you’re one of the lucky ones that gets a respond from me, you better make it worth it and offer me a lot of money.

Only looking for wealthy fags who are ready to support my lifestyle. You can’t afford my body, you idiots.

Guestbook of DominikBuchmayer

Lifelover – Nov 10, 2023
Fuck him if you can. But I don’t think you can.

Ineeddirection – Nov 9, 2023
Look, I need a heavy handed manager. I can make it worth your time. Come over and make sure I clean my depression nest and am doing shit right. If I don’t, beat me… if I do, beat me. Other than that you’re so fucking cute.

rxynasty – Nov 8, 2023
face stunning, it’s top tier, sickening body, it’s unfair

Body Type Slim
Body Hair Smooth
Ethnicity White
Smoker Socially
Tattoos No
Piercings No
Languages German, English
Position Top only
Dick XL – Uncut
Dirty Yes
Fisting Active
S&M Yes
Kissing No
PNP No answer
Hourly Rate On request
Overnight Rate 1200€

 

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Stupidcocksucker, 18
Stockholm

I am real, made my desision to give up my life to suck cocks for the rest of my life when I turned 18 which I just did. I will suck any cocks anyone wants. Just turned 18 no experience than cock sucking members of my family and my freinds.

Guestbook of Stupidcocksucker

Stupidcocksucker (Owner) – Nov 13, 2023
Currently preparing to relocate to Australia and suck the cock of a man who’s been stalking me on TikTok for years.

Bushhh – Nov 7, 2023
See ya later alligator.

Stupidcocksucker (Owner) – Nov 4, 2023
Well, if you want to come in my mouth, say it.

rydog615 – Nov 4, 2023
Hiya! You are hot as hell. I am recently separated and going through a divorce. I have left the Mormon church about 2 years or so ago. I’m finally coming out of the closet and want to be my true self. Though I have fucked my ex wife, I have never fucked a guy before and can’t wait!

Body Type Slim
Body Hair Smooth
Ethnicity Mixed
Smoker No
Tattoos No
Piercings No
Languages Swedish, Italian, English
Position No answer
Dick M – Uncut
Dirty WS only
Fisting No
S&M Soft
Kissing Yes
PNP Yes
Hourly Rate 80€
Overnight Rate On request

 

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meforyou, 19
Lyon

I’m L(o)u, a FTM trans boy available for sex across the spectrum, both within ‘normal’ bounds and taboo frontiers.

I have a slim, smooth masc body that can pass in the most transphobic settings. But, as you might have guessed, an extra 🕳️ to explore and fill.

If you are more of a ‘vanilla’ gay guy I am happy to admit that my ass is obsessed with 🍆 .

Guestbook of meforyou

me-Tarzan-you-Jane – Nov 7, 2023
I liked his food 🍔

mypackage – Nov 1, 2023
They are such a perfect fusion of boy and girl that you will LOSE your MIND and at the end of the fuck you won’t know what reality or imagination is.
Also, they have a shapely head and that’s something that matters to me because I’m sapiosexual.

Ricecat – Oct 27, 2023
A trans boy with an Adams Apple, now I’ve seen everything.

Thiermagic – Oct 27, 2023
Gets fucked like a woman and screams like a boy.

Body Type Slim
Body Hair Shaved
Ethnicity White
Smoker Yes
Tattoos No
Piercings Yes
Languages French, English
Position Bottom only
Dick No answer
Dirty Ask
Fisting Passive
S&M Soft
Kissing Yes
PNP Yes
Hourly Rate 300€
Overnight Rate 700€

 

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Perhaps, 20
Berlin

Hey guys, Don’t be trashing me about my price! I am just trying to live okay? Be nice! I am also someone’s kid. There’s no Love without losing. Don’t worry, I play soccer ⚽️

Guestbook of Perhaps

Perhaps (Owner) – Nov 10, 2023
I want to become a professional singer.

Oliverhuber – Nov 8, 2023
If dating a Thai boy wouldn’t immediately expose me as a sleazy pedo, I would marry him.

BritTop – Nov 8, 2023
I lost my anal virginity to a 16yr old Thai exchange student. My experience then, and since, is that Thais don’t just get fucked, they make it sensuous and a celebration.

TheHappyGay – Nov 6, 2023
Hi, you’re crazy.

man_for_asian_boys – Nov 2, 2023
In my almost 20 years of fucking Asian boys, he is among the best 2 anal artists I’ve ever had. I booked him for one hour tonight which turned into seven.

Mike63hot – Nov 2, 2023
I hired him a year and a half ago before he left Thailand. At the time he blended in with the other rent boys I fucked there. But fucking him again here in Berlin blew my mind. It’s true it might just have been the soccer uniform he arrived wearing, but I literally wanted to eat his face.

Body Type Slim
Body Hair Smooth
Ethnicity Asian
Smoker Yes
Tattoos No
Piercings No
Languages Thai, English
Position More bottom
Dick S – Uncut
Dirty Ask
Fisting No
S&M Soft
Kissing Yes
PNP No answer
Hourly Rate 200€
Overnight Rate 1000€

 

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CallmeJohnny, 18
Berlin

Hi daddy! I am a very slutty young boy from canada. I have always enjoyed being explored naked. I LOVE receiving assplay and rimming. I enjoy opening my legs and watching u make porn with my cock and balls and hole. Lets get u nasty daddy 😈⭐️👨‍👦😛

Guestbook of CallmeJohnny

CallmeJohnny (Owner) – Nov 8, 2023
I’m also into shitting on ur dick.

CallmeJohnny (Owner) – Nov 8, 2023
I’m open to a romantic connection within the stated dynamic.

Straightd – Nov 7, 2023
Would becoming a rent boy be the best way for me to meet older men?

CallmeJohnny (Owner) – Nov 3, 2023
Got a dog? Message me.

rustbelt – Nov 1, 2023
He has an ass to damn the good Lord himself.

Body Type Slim
Body Hair Some
Ethnicity Mixed
Smoker Yes
Tattoos Yes
Piercings Yes
Languages English
Position Bottom only
Dick L – Uncut
Dirty Yes
Fisting Passive
S&M Yes
Kissing Yes
PNP Yes
Hourly Rate 140€
Overnight Rate 600€

 

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sweetboyfromnamur, 22
Namur

I’m a good person in life, but I go to a different place in bed.

Guestbook of sweetboyfromnamur

5alarmfire – Nov 11, 2023
biggest low key freak btm blabla whatever

sweetboyfromnamur (Owner) – Nov 8, 2023
Anything I say or promise while in bed expires when the hour is up. I just get carried away when my cock’s hard, but I don’t mean it.

TheEmperor – Nov 8, 2023
From what I could gather his thing is wanting to get raped without the bad part.

Body Type Slim
Body Hair Smooth
Ethnicity Mixed
Smoker Yes
Tattoos Yes
Piercings Yes
Languages French, English
Position Versatile
Dick L – Uncut
Dirty WS only
Fisting Passive
S&M Soft
Kissing Yes
PMP Yes
Hourly Rate 80€
Overnight Rate 130€

 

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MrVeryPretty, 21
Istanbul

I’ll only show my face when we meet, I am not open gay, don’t insist on it.

My friends say I’m very pretty 😉

You’re here because someone broke your heart. Let me fix that for you.

Guestbook of MrVeryPretty

dad4realson – Oct 29, 2023
Looking for a son. Not just in bed, I want you to be my son in the realest sense possible.

sadgaytears – Oct 27, 2023
I’m desperate to dress you in very very expensive silk lingerie then rip it off you!

MrVeryPretty (Owner) – Oct 24, 2023
It would be more accurate to say that I didn’t mind it.

Size13socks – Oct 24, 2023
He did everything I asked, but he didn’t like it.

MrVeryPretty (Owner) – Oct 19, 2023
I would love for a man to just come out and say “you are the ultimate pretty boy, you are mine for life”.

Reliability – Oct 18, 2023
When I saw his face without the blur I almost exploded and freaked out with lust.

Body Type Athletic
Body Hair Shaved
Ethnicity Arab
Smoker No
Tattoos No
Piercings No
Languages Arabic, English
Position Versatile
Dick L – Uncut
Dirty Ask
Fisting Active
S&M Yes
Kissing Consent
PNP No
Hourly Rate 80€
Overnight Rate 150€

 

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cantfindbetter, 22
Gronau

I study medicine. I plan to specialise as psychiatrist or neurologist. Anti-aging technology is my personal interest. I read a lot of research about mental and libido enhancing agents. I play and compose guitar music from time to time, and I play the piano. In free time I write screenplays for movies, TV series and porn. In future I hope to make money either by making my own technological invention or starring in the best porn movie of the last decade.

Guestbook of cantfindbetter

cantfindbetter (Owner) – Nov 9, 2023
Thank you, that was certainly a pleasant change of pace.

Manofthesea – Nov 9, 2023
I had all kinds of wild fantasies about him going in, but I got distracted by his juicy cock and spent the whole time sucking it. When it ran out of cum, I drank his piss.

Body Type Slim
Body Hair Shaved
Ethnicity White
Smoker Yes
Tattoos Yes
Piercings Yes
Languages Dutch, English, Spanish
Position More bottom
Dick M – Uncut
Dirty Yes
Fisting Active/Passive
S&M Yes
Kissing Yes
PNP Yes
Hourly Rate 150€
Overnight Rate 800€

 

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Chems&moreChems, 18
Toulouse

I LOVE CHEMSSEX! TAKE ME IN YOUR FAIRYTALE WITH!

Unemployable. Don’t ask my name.

Guestbook of Chems&moreChems

Mike666 – Nov 13, 2023
Maybe if you’re into fucked up pigs

Andrewpeterson – Nov 10, 2023
i saw a video where he gets fucked badly by a guy with a fat 10″ dick that made me want to fuck him with my 12″ even fatter dick and today i made him come to me and jack hammered him for 2 hours and i must say that after he struggled to walk hahaha

Body Type Average
Body Hair Smooth
Ethnicity Arab
Smoker Yes
Tattoos No
Piercings No
Languages Arabic, French, English
Position Bottom only
Dick XL – Uncut
Dirty Yes
Fisting Passive
S&M Yes
Kissing Yes
PNP Yes
Hourly Rate 180€
Overnight Rate On request

 

 

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p.s. Hey. Here’s yet another interview with me, not about the UK ‘Closer’ reprint this time, where I talk with Elizabeth Ellen about this and that and the other thing @ Hobart. ** Dominik, Hi!!!! You too, with your insurance card. Bleh, hugs. Things are even more confusing on my end because the bank suddenly informed me they didn’t send the card to me expedited by UPS as promised because UPS won’t deliver to France right now because of the war (?!?!). So it’s on my way through the regular postal service, so fuck knows if/when it’ll arrive. But I’ll be fine. You too. A birthday-Xmas hybrid, that works. A cold apartment is the worst. Oh, no, did you get the landlord off his/her/their ass? You’re here because love broke your heart, let me fix that for you, G. ** Misanthrope, That poor beset woman, stubborn and dislikable and self-destructive or not. She’s pulling some Christian love out of my atheist heart. Me, I’m good. Editing is done. Now it’s just technical stuff and an upload and then send it off to meet its fate. ** _Black_Acrylic, Hi. Well, if you haven’t seen ‘Last Year at Marienbad’, that might be the go-to. ‘Providence’ is on YouTube, at least for now, if you can stand that modus operandi. I did not know Actress was a football player. Now that’s interesting. Huh. You’d never know? ** Tosh Berman, Thanks, Tosh! That Ho Thuy Tien waterpark in Vietnam is a long time dream visit. And I think I’m going to have to go find Western Village next time I’m in Japan. That’s a totally new one to me. Agreed about Los Angeles, although I refer to it as LA constantly. I need a New Year resolution, so there’s one. Hope you’re fully de-lagged and up and running. ** Jack Skelley, Jazebel. Wow, a fully Skelley-fied, max powered up comment. Stick that in something you’re working on. Sabrina already did her Disneyland thing? She didn’t tell me! I’m going to read her the riot act. Mishmash-less. Did you know that, just before what’s-his-name shot George Wallace back in the 60s, he said to him, ‘Penny for your thoughts’. I thought that was pretty good. ** Darby 👨‍🎤🎥🌛, I want to make a movie and use your emoji string as the screenplay. You got the job!!!! Whoa, sweet, congrats, pal! I do actually know what Spencers is, although maybe it’s weird that I do. Fingers remaining crossed on the DMV + you front. But that’s great!!! I really like the name of your Nymph-esqe creatures. You should re-employ them in something. Uh, I’m very weak on fantasy fiction, sadly. But, well, in ‘I Wished’ maybe the Santa Claus part and crater fairytale part count? My work’s all about fantasy, but not, you know, the classic kind. Enjoy your victory! ** Nick., I think lucky you is a fair self-designation based on the information you’ve imparted. Yes, I do feel as though I (and Zac) have become editors of the highest nature unless one determines that talent based on the popular success of what one edits. I definitely think my writer skills are involved in the editing, yeah. That’s why Z and work so well together. I edit like a writer, and he edits like a visual artist, and the twain meet. Go for the artists residency, for sure. There are lots of them all over the world, I think. My artist friends do them whenever they can, and I think they have all been fully sold on the virtues. You have convinced me. See you pronto. ** Audrey, Me too, about Los Angeles vs. LA. It’s going to take me some practice though. I’m one of those people who, when I talk, my mouth tends to work faster than my brain. You probably know this, but Wiseman recently shot a fiction film. His first ever. I’m very curious to see what that is. Is ‘Found Poetry’ a kind of anthology of found poetry or more a study of it? Rightly or wrongly, I tend to see the escort profile texts like the ones up above as found poems in a way. I think that’s how I choose the ones I do. I don’t think I know Radu Jude’s films? Huh. I’ll find out. My weekend was 90% working on the film, but it paid off because we’re finished with the edit, for now at least. And I went to a reading by the poet Ariana Reines, who’s a friend. And … that’s my weekend’s gist. Has this week thus far done anything to put your weekend memories in the dust? Love, Dennis. ** Right. I wonder how many of you are so accustomed to the blog’s schedule by now that you knew before you even opened this page that you’d see escorts today. More of a rhetorical question. See you tomorrow.

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