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Spotlight on … Julia Kristeva Powers of Horror: An Essay on Abjection (1979)

 

‘Every year around Halloween—near the first of October, really, as I like to have a whole month for this—I tend to re-read old ghost stories by the like of M.R. James, folk tales of British corpse ways, and historical non-fiction about vampires from the Balkans. Halloween makes for a grand excuse for becoming immersed in things gothic, the dark and gloomy for a whole month or better. This year, I decided to focus on a less common but equally apt work in the canon of horror: the linguist and psychoanalyst Julia Kristeva’s classic work on abjection, Pouvoirs de l’horreur (Powers of Horror). Kristeva’s objective in this book-length essay is to address the role of abjection as a psychosocial property and a literary device. Coming from her background as a practicing psychoanalyst and also a pioneering linguist who wrote her Dr. d’État dissertation on the semiotic development of the early European novel, no one appears better poised than Kristeva to address this topic and she does a magesterial job. To me, the concept of a nuanced essay that explains via both theory and example the mechanisms of abjection in literature is something not only quite useful to the scholar but something that has been missing from how general scholarship of gothic literature, film noir, and a variety of other genre have been commonly approached.

‘Kristeva defines the abject as “To each ego its object, to each superego its abject. It is not the white expanse or slack boredom of repression, not the translations and transformations of desire that wrench bodies, nights, and discourse; rather it is a brutish suffering . . .”. She continues on this motif further explicating in poetic terms her vision, but the core point has been made: within the Lacanian framework, the abject is a central waypoint on the definition of the relation of the personal ego with the greater world; it is not just the presence of disgust or horror, but that entire gamut of suffering we encounter.

‘Kristeva later notes that “The abject is, for Dostoyevsky, the ‘object’ of The Possessed: it is the aim, and motive of an existence whose meaning is lost in absolute degradation because it absolutely rejected the moral limit (a social, religious, familial, and individual one) as absolute—God.” Therefore the abject is the fulcrum, it is that which we use as our compass of moral regulation by default. It is knowing when you’ve had too much to drink, or when someone is not a person you wish to invite to your party. However, it does not end there: the abject is also the horrors that via their totality and catastrophic nature cause a sense of awful wonder. A rocket hitting a multi-floor apartment tower, a bridge that fails and falls—cars, people, and all—into a cold river below, these are all things that are abject. When human design and the intent of malice come into play, the situation is even more dire and often more horribly enchanting. There is a photo from a school video camera of Columbine killers Dylan Klebold and Eric Harris stalking through the school with weapons in hand that I have seen republished in multiple articles about their murderous rampage: why should we tolerate seeing this, much less wish to see it? What is the draw of the obscene? It represents the horror: it shows us the murderers beyond any question of their acts or their evil nature. When we hear a ship has sunk, we wish to see the abject act—a ship, verily sinking—not an empty ocean of its aftermath.

‘Kristeva opens Powers of Horror with a general overview of what she means by the term “abjection” and how the “abject” and the process of “abjection” differ, plus a slight introspection into the history of the abject as a sociocultural phenomenon—covering with strong insight such aspects as how early Christian mystics delighted in the abject and how the concept of self-abuse and piety evolved in part from their views of abjection. Kristeva is careful to clarify the differences between the grotesque and the abject and how the abject can share in the material corpus of things that cause disgust but also transcends such a base emotional reaction. Working from there, she approaches a variety of oftentimes surprising literary examples, such as the works of Louis-Ferdinand Céline and through these works places the apex of the literary interest in the abject to run alongside the same timeline as the romantic era focus on the sublime and further into the modern era focus on psychological realism. As in her dissertation years before, Kristeva is highly adept at capturing all the verve of the carnival and grotesque in a write such as Céline plus the depth and scope of the variform abject she locates in literature.

‘Kristeva further delineates her view of the abject as “that experience, which is nevertheless managed by the Other, “subject” and “object” push each other away, confront each other, collapse, and start again—inseparable, contaminated, condemned, at the boundary of what is assimilable, thinkable: abject. Great modern literature unfolds over that terrain: Dostoyevsky, Lautreamont, Proust, Artaud, Kafka, Celine.”

‘What Kristeva demonstrates in her overall approach to the modern period is that these writers belong to a trajectory of acceptance of vileness alongside virile aggression and accelerated lack of confidence in a faith-based, morality-regulated society. We perhaps easily forget now how even Spinoza and Kierkegaard, who are considered essential to secular philosophy today, wrote within the guise of religion. They lived, after all, in a world of feast days, fast days, civil accord revolving around things holy while all that was not holy remained in civil discord unseen. Kristeva points to the abject as not however the absence of something—not, in example, famine due to a lack of harvest—but the precise presence of a matter of disgust or a means of arriving at disgust.

‘According to Kristeva, Jorge Luis Borges before her has already defined the abject and abjection—though not in those express words—as key to the crucial drive of all literature. Kristeva describes Borge’s declared objective of literature as “vertiginous and hallucinatory”, all tales told are after all “narratives of the infamous” and with Borges leitmotif of noir and reliance on the detective story’s tropes, abjection is rife in his works. Yet abjection does not negate hope: abjection, Kristeva explains, is the realization of disgust and the ability to process something from the point of being disgusting, repulsive, to the complexity of horror. While animals can be repulsed by something—a decaying corpse, in example—their response to such an incident is predicated on disgust more than horror. For the human, horror quickly pushes simple disgust out of the picture: a corpse unexpectedly encountered may be disgusting, but soon the primary raw emotion is one of horror and fear: why is there a dead body here, where it is unexpected? Is this a murder? Is the killer still on the loose? Could I be the next victim?’ — Mike Walker

 

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Further

Julia Kristeva Official Site
Julia Kristeva @ Twitter
The Kristeva Circle
Introduction to Julia Kristeva, Module on the Abject
how to not mean what we can’t say
‘The Body Politic of Julia Kristeva’, by Judith Butler
A Bulgarian “portrait” of Julia Kristeva
Body/Text in Julia Kristeva: Religion, Women, and Psychoanalysis
Julia Kristeva : “L’humanisme ne sait pas accompagner la mortalité”
Correcting Her Idea of Politically Correct
Julia Kristeva: The Berlin interview!
Semanalysis. Engendering the formula
Give Birth or Write: Julia Kristeva Lectures on Feminist Philosophy
THE NEED TO BELIEVE AND THE ARCHIVE: INTERVIEW WITH JULIA KRISTEVA
Embodied Language: Julia Kristeva’s Theory of Poetic Language and Tantric Buddhism According to Reggie Ray
Julia Kristeva ON THE MELANCHOLIC IMAGINARY
Julia Kristeva’s Maternal Passions
Head Cases: Julia Kristeva on Philosophy and Art in Depressed Times
Podcast: Julia Kristeva interviewed by Umberto Eco
Buy ‘Powers of Horror’

 

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Extras


On Julia Kristeva’s Couch


“New Forms of Revolt”


Julia Kristeva Philippe Sollers – Du mariage considéré comme un des beaux-arts


JULIA KRISTEVA entretien avec Frédéric Berthet 1976


Julia Kristeva (University of Paris VII Diderot) via Skype

 

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Interview

 

DONATIEN GRAU — You’ve just published a book in which you return to the question of time. Why come back to it now?
JULIA KRISTEVA — We’re living at a time when time itself has never been more problematic. They say we’re at the end of time, the thermonuclear and ecological apocalypse at the end of History. And at the same time we are at the beginning of time — since with one “click” we are now able to access information pertaining to all of History. How should we react when time can be performed in this way? The answer is: we ceaselessly experience new beginnings, over and over. Time does not pass, it does not stop, it just keeps on starting over again and again. As Chairman Mao once said, you count on yourself alone. In counting on yourself, yourself is not in itself an identity, nor is it a personality or an individuality. It’s the ecceitas of John Duns Scotus, the “this,” the demonstrative pronoun that has the ability to rebound. It’s a permanent resurrection. On the condition, again, that you are able to create connections, which is not possible unless the motor of this personal pronoun is the connection of love, the transfer. This is how I understand Freud’s message: It all starts again with the transfer, you begin again. Besides, the goal of psychoanalysis is to help people create connections based on this initiatory new beginning, which initializes the transfer.

DONATIEN GRAU — For you the encounter is very important.
JULIA KRISTEVA — Who encounters whom? Because an encounter is a dual thing: I go to meet people, who have in turn chosen to come to meet me. The first people I met were Roland Barthes and then, through him Gérard Genette, who directed me to Philippe Sollers. This moment of germination was very important. At that time, Barthes was trying to explain that truth as a word is not taboo. I had read some of his writings, not much. When I attended their lectures, Genette and Barthes would ask me what I wanted to do, would ask about my thoughts on structuralism and Russian formalism. For me it felt a little out of date, because Mikhail Bakhtin had just been discovered, placing ideology in lieu of the subject and history in meaning. I was asked to give a talk about it at 44 rue de Rennes, where Barthes was giving his lectures. So whether I liked it or not, I positioned myself as the ancestor of post-structuralism by introducing two dimensions: subjectivity in language, and history through context, discussing how the novel as a genre emerged through carnival and religious texts. And in doing that, we breathed new life into semiology, taking it away from Ferdinand de Saussure, trying to build an interpretation of human practices other than Marxism, which reduces the meaning of history and the placement of individuals into production or reproduction. Neither Freudism nor Marxism, but the positioning of individuals in the flow of language. I also collaborated with the linguist Emile Benveniste. His theory of language seemed relevant to me because he was combining these two dimensions, which I then tried to translate into psychoanalysis. I do not use the word “semantics” and prefer to use “semiotics,” which is more oriented toward impulses and the unconscious, and “symbolism,” which returns us to the triangular meaning of the language sign: signifier, signified, referent.

DONATIEN GRAU — But since your work is also extremely contemporary, what is the contemporary meaning of these debates from the end of the ’60s and from the early ’70s? Is it still a distant landscape?
JULIA KRISTEVA — I think we are now experiencing a major repression, which corresponds to what I consider a weak moment of civilization. A weak moment in the civilization of the book, due to the explosion of the image with all the advantages it may bring — speed, fascination, communication — but also major toxicity. It is indeed the opium of the people: here I am sitting in front of my television, my computer screen, my iPhone, calming me and lulling me to sleep. We are living under the influence of various opiates. At the same time, in terms of language, there is the development of this hyper-connected, rapid web, most conducive to the homo horizontalis, thus diminishing the vertical dimension, which is the interior experience, the inner self, the psychic life. When it doesn’t wipe it out completely, it wipes out what Maurice Merleau-Ponty calls the flesh, a word I use in my own way: the flesh of the world, of language, of subjectivity. I call this particular dimension an asymbol, because through image, the web, and our hyper-connection, a censure of the essence of language is manifested, which doesn’t mean just one thing, but rather stands as a polyphony, a polysemy (a diversity of meaning). And this polysemy, because of the toxicity and rapidity, is reduced to utilitarian communication. The eradication of the depth of the sign and its polysemy is a terrible deficiency, a defect, carrying us far from the curiosity we used to have. Yet this curiosity persists as it did in the low times, in closed communities: university spaces, symposia, conferences, research in general. Here I am playing devil’s advocate, because it’s an invisible dimension in social life today — a discredited dimension, but one which I think exists. It often takes the form of microscopic or abstruse research, but it may well have general consequences if we are capable of approaching it in depth and translating it for greater communication.

DONATIEN GRAU — Your revolutionary ideal was also very much part of the way you conceived your action back then…
JULIA KRISTEVA — Back, then, the revolutionary idea was still very much alive. Today, I think it is best embodied in the word “revolt.” When I arrived in France and found myself surrounded by young people interested in political revolution, I thought it was a whim, a passing fancy of the young bourgeois, and I interpreted it as a desire to know, an archaeological approach, including the Communist world. This is why we, along with Philippe Sollers, launched a study of Chinese civilization. We needed to appropriate the enigmas that surrounded us intellectually: knowing the past, where it comes from, that sense of tradition. And regarding China, which is often a problem when we are speaking of our “revolutionary” pasts, we would ask ourselves: is there a Chinese socialism, and if so, what does it look like? The real question was to determine if there is a Chinese individual. To all appearances, no, because he belongs either to a clan or to the Tao — he is diffused somewhere inside the flux of the world and social connections. His adaptability matters, not his identity. But inside this structure there is the positioning of the two sexes in Taoism. It is the beginning of a reflection on the role of the woman, which is very important in Chinese civilization, thus facilitating the consideration of psychic bisexuality.

DONATIEN GRAU — You mentioned psychoanalysis earlier, which seems to be an important form of knowledge for you.
JULIA KRISTEVA — Psychoanalysis is a form of awareness, but certainly not of knowledge. In Bulgaria, I knew the work of Russian formalists, I knew quite a bit about philosophy, but I did not know that much about psychoanalysis, because the training we had there at the post-doctoral level was oriented toward Hegel and phenomenology, but not at all toward Freud. On the other hand, my father, who was an extremely cultivated man, had the only translation of Freud’s Interpretation of Dreams, which was hidden in his library and which we didn’t show to others, because Freud was considered bourgeois science. So I knew very little about psychoanalysis, but Sollers took me to Jacques Lacan’s classes. I was pretty lost, fascinated by his rather surrealistic presence. I did however realize, as I was preparing my thesis on the avant-gardes, that the language I was dealing with, that of Mallarmé or Lautréamont, with its densities and its esoteric side, could not be interpreted only with the tools of stylistics, grammar, phenomenology, or structuralism, that instead I would have to approach it based on the experience of the subject, his or her construction and deconstruction in and through writing. I would need to confront episodes of depression or psychosis, which these people experienced in solitude or as part of revolutionary movements, for example in Lautréamont’s relationship to the Paris Commune. The result was that I decided I’d better get into analysis. I needed to do it to see it from the inside, hunkering down inside the alchemy of the verb, on the couch, and in French.

DONATIEN GRAU — Your work, from the 1980s onward, on the analysis of the states of the soul, seems very relevant today.
JULIA KRISTEVA — It seems to have had more echoes abroad than in France. I discussed feminine sexuality at lengths: I engaged again with the issues related to maternity, which except in a few rare texts, had been abandoned by the feminists. Feminists from Simone de Beauvoir’s generation were extremely wary of maternity, which they perceived as a form of slavery, the submission of the woman to the paternal phallus, etc. In doing so, they pushed aside a fundamental experience in the lives of women, and limited themselves politically, as well. Maternal eroticism is far from being halcyon. We may have ecstatic moments which facilitate the transmission of sensitivity and language, but there are also moments of extreme violence: the expulsion of the child, the child separating from his or her mother, the mother relating to the child, all sorts of trauma. Which is when I created this notion of abjection, for this time when one is not yet a subject, when there is not yet an object. In this interspace, there is both repulsion and fascination. This idea, which of course comes from psychoanalysis, helped me when I was approaching borderlines states, for example, the characters of Céline, his style, and his way of being, which for me were horrifying.

DONATIEN GRAU — You’ve never stopped redefining three domains: the question of the subject, feminist theory, and issues of love.
JULIA KRISTEVA — I have been deconstructing and reconstructing them for years, but based on personal experience, running up against places that are obscure or not sufficiently developed in Freudian and feminist theory. They now seem to be recognized as neuralgic points, especially in terms of language, meaning, and difference. They also became flash points, targets, not only in terms of erudite thinking, where my question is personal, epistemological — but also in terms of social connections.

DONATIEN GRAU — Which brings us to the question of politics, because your relationship with it is definitely skewed. You are not in the newspapers, but you seem often to take sides. How do you see your role as an intellectual in politics?
JULIA KRISTEVA — It’s difficult to say because I’m not a media-oriented person. In general, the intellectual is supposed to fertilize or place himself in the political field through the media, and many of them do. I do not feel I can do that. I’m not hysterical enough, in the positive sense of the word — meaning I don’t have the exuberance, the glibness, and the ability to seduce, or the conviction to do it. I’m more about being discreet and precise. And I’m not into political commitments either, because being committed means having a cause for which to fight. I think that the role of intellectuals is to detach themselves from any affiliation, to escape any temptation to ally themselves, to remain tangential — while not choosing isolation either.

 

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Book

Julia Kristeva Powers of Horror: An Essay on Abjection
Columbia University Press

Powers of Horror is an excellent introduction to an aspect of contemporary French literature which has been allowed to become somewhat neglected in the current emphasis on para-philosophical modes of discourse.’ — CUP

‘Kristeva is one of the leading voices in contemporary French criticism, on a par with such names as Genette, Foucault, Greimas and others. . . Powers of Horror is an excellent introduction to an aspect of contemporary French literature which has been allowed to become somewhat neglected in the current emphasis on paraphilosophical modes of discourse. The sections on Céline, for example, are indispensable reading for those interested in this writer and place him within a context that is both illuminating and of general interest.’ — Paul de Man

 

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Excerpt

No Beast is there without glimmer of infinity,
No eye so vile nor abject that brushes not
Against lightning from on high, now tender, now fierce.
Victor Hugo, La Legende des siecles

NEITHER SUBJECT NOR OBJECT

There looms, within abjection, one of those violent, dark revolts of being, directed against a threat that seems to emanate from an exorbitant outside or inside, ejected beyond the scope of the possible, the tolerable, the thinkable. It lies there, quite close, but it cannot be assimilated. It beseeches, worries, and fascinates desire, which, nevertheless, does not let itself be seduced. Apprehensive, desire turns aside; sickened, it rejects. A certainty protects it from the shameful — a certainty of which it is proud holds on to it. But simultaneously, just the same, that impetus, that spasm, that leap is drawn toward an elsewhere as tempting as it is condemned. Unflaggingly, like an inescapable boomerang, a vortex of summons and repulsion places the one haunted by it literally beside himself.

When I am beset by abjection, the twisted braid of affects and thoughts I call by such a name does not have, properly speaking, a definable object. The abject is not an ob-ject facing me, which I name or imagine. Nor is it an ob-jest, an otherness ceaselessly fleeing in a systematic quest of desire. What is abject is not my correlative, which, providing me with someone or something else as support, would allow me to be more or less detached and autonomous. The abject has only one quality of the object—that of being opposed to I. If the object, however, through its opposition, settles me within the fragile texture of a desire for meaning, which, as a matter of fact, makes me ceaselessly and infinitely homologous to it, what is abject, on the contrary, the jettisoned object, is radically excluded and draws me toward the place_where meaning collapses. A certain “ego” that merged with its master, a superego, has flatly driven it away. It lies outside, beyond the set, and does not seem to agree to the latter’s rules of the game. And yet, from its place of banishment, the abject does not cease challenging its master. Without a sign (for him), it beseeches a discharge, a convulsion, a crying out. To each ego its object, to each superego its abject. It is not the white expanse or slack boredom of repression, not the translations and transformations of desire that wrench bodies, nights, and discourse; rather it is a brutish suffering that, “I” puts up with, sublime and devastated, for “I” deposits it to the father’s account [verse au pere—pere-uersion]: I endure it, for I imagine that such is the desire of the other. A massive and sudden emergence of uncanniness, which, familiar as it might have been in an opaque and forgotten life, now harries me as radically separate, loathsome. Not me. Not that. But not nothing, either. A “something” that I do not recognize as a thing. A weight of meaninglessness, about which there is noth- ing insignificant, and which crushes me. On the edge of non- existence and hallucination, of a reality that, if I acknowledge it, annihilates me. There, abject and abjection are my safe- guards. The primers of my culture.

 

THE IMPROPER/UNCLEAN

Loathing an item of food, a piece of filth, waste, or dung. The spasms and vomiting that protect me. The repugnance, the retching that thrusts me to the side and turns me away from defilement, sewage, and muck. The shame of compromise, of being in the middle of treachery. The fascinated start that leads me toward and separates me from them.

Food loathing is perhaps the most elementary and most archaic form of abjection. When the eyes see or the lips touch that skin on the surface of milk—harmless, thin as a sheet of cigarette paper, pitiful as a nail paring — I experience a gagging sensation and, still farther down, spasms in the stomach, the belly; and all the organs shrivel up the body, provoke tears and bile, increase heartbeat, cause forehead and hands to perspire. Along with sight-clouding dizziness, nausea makes me balk at that milk cream, separates me from the mother and father who proffer it. “I” want none of that element, sign of their desire; “I” do not want to listen, “I” do not assimilate it, “I” expel it. But since the food is not an “other” for “me,” who am only in their desire, I expel myself, I spit myself out, I abject myself within the same motion through which “I” claim to establish myself. That detail, perhaps an insignificant one, but one that they ferret out, emphasize, evaluate, that trifle turns me inside out, guts sprawling; it is thus that they see that “I” am in the process of becoming an other at the expense of my own death, During that course in which “I” become, I give birth to myself amid the violence of sobs, of vomit. Mute protest of the symp- tom, shattering violence of a convulsion that, to be sure, is inscribed in a symbolic system, but in which, without either wanting or being able to become integrated in order to answer to it, it reacts, it abreacts. It abjects.

The corpse (or cadaver: cadere, to fall), that which has irre- mediably come a cropper, is cesspool, and death; it upsets even more violently the one who confronts it as fragile and fallacious chance. A wound with blood and pus, or the sickly, acrid smell of sweat, of decay, does not signify death. In the presence of signified death—a flat encephalograph, for instance — I would understand, react, or accept. No, as in true theater, without makeup or masks, refuse and corpses show me what I perma- nently thrust aside in order to live. These body fluids, this defilement, this shit are what life withstands, hardly and with difficulty, on the part of death. There, I am at the border of my condition as a living being. My body extricates itself, as being alive, from that border. Such wastes drop so that I might live, until, from loss to loss, nothing remains in me and my entire body falls beyond the limit—cadere, cadaver. If dung signifies the other side of the border, the place where I am not and which permits me to be, the corpse, the most sickening of wastes, is a border that has encroached upon everything. It is no longer I who expel, “I” is expelled. The border has become an object. How can I be without border? That elsewhere that I imagine beyond the present, or that I hallucinate so that I might, in a present time, speak to you, conceive of you—it is now here, jetted, abjected, into “my” world. Deprived of world, therefore, I fall in a faint. In that compelling, raw, in- solent thing in the morgue’s full sunlight, in that thing that no longer matches and therefore no longer signifies anything, I behold the breaking down of a world that has erased its borders: fainting away. The corpse, seen without God and outside of science, is the utmost of abjection. It is death infecting life. Abject. It is something rejected from which one does not part, from which one does not protect oneself as from an object. Imaginary uncanniness and real threat, it beckons to us and ends up engulfing us.

It is thus not lack of cleanliness or health that causes abjection but what disturbs identity, system, order. What does not respect borders, positions, rules. The in-between, the ambiguous, the composite. The traitor, the liar, the criminal with a good con- science, the shameless rapist, the killer who claims he is a savior. . . . Any crime, because it draws attention to the frag- ility of the law, is abject, but premeditated crime, cunning murder, hypocritical revenge are even more so because they heighten the display of such fragility. He who denies morality is not abject; there can be grandeur in amorality and even in crime that flaunts its disrespect for the law—rebellious, liberating, and suicidal crime. Abjection, on the other hand, is im- moral, sinister, scheming, and shady: a terror that dissembles,* a hatred that smiles, a passion that uses the body for barter instead of inflaming it, a debtor who sells you up, a friend who stabs you.*. . .

In the dark halls of the museum that is now what remains of Auschwitz, I see a heap of children’s shoes, or something like that, something I have already seen elsewhere, under a Christmas tree, for instance, dolls I believe. The abjection of Nazi crime reaches its apex when death, which, in any case, kills me, interferes with what, in my living universe, is supposed to save me from death: childhood, science, among other things.

 

THE ABJECTION OF SELF

If it be true that the abject simultaneously beseeches and pulverizes the subject, one can understand that it is experienced at the peak of its strength when that subject, weary of fruitless attempts to identify with something on the outside, finds the impossible within; when it finds that the impossible constitutes its very being, that it is none other than abject. The abjection of self would be the culminating form of that experience of the subject to which it is revealed that all its objects are based merely on the inaugural loss that laid the foundations of its own being. There is nothing like the abjection of self to show that all abjection is in fact recognition of the want on which any being, meaning, language, or desire is founded. One always passes too quickly over this word, “want,” and today psychoanalysts are finally taking into account only its more or less fetishized product, the “object of want.” But if one imagines (and imagine one must, for it is the working of imagination whose foun- dations are being laid here) the experience of want itself_as logically preliminary to being and object—to the being of the object—then one understands that abjection, and even more so abjection of self, is its only signified. Its signifier, then, is none but literature. Mystical Christendom turned this abjection of self into the ultimate proof of humility before God, witness Elizabeth of Hungary who “though a great princess, delighted in nothing so much as in abasing herself.”

The question remains as to the ordeal, a secular one this time, that abjection can constitute for someone who, in what is termed knowledge of castration, turning away from perverse dodges, presents himself with his own body and ego as the most precious non-objects; they are no longer seen in their own right but forfeited, abject. The termination of analysis can lead us there, as we shall see. Such are the pangs and delights of masochism.

Essentially different from “uncanniness,” more violent, too, abjection is elaborated through a failure to recognize its kin; nothing is familiar, not even the shadow of a memory. I imagine a child who has swallowed up his parents too soon, who frightens himself on that account, “all by himself,” and, to save himself, rejects and throws up everything that is given to him— all gifts, all objects. He has, he could have, a sense of the abject. Even before things for him are—hence before they are signifiable—he drives them out, dominated by drive as he is, and constitutes his own territory, edged by the abject. A sacred configuration. Fear cements his compound, conjoined to another world, thrown up, driven out, forfeited. What he has swallowed up instead of maternal love is an emptiness, or rather a maternal hatred without a word for the words of the father; that is what he tries to cleanse himself of, tirelessly. What solace does he come upon within such loathing? Perhaps a father, existing but unsettled, loving but unsteady, merely an apparition but an apparition that remains. Without him the holy brat would probably have no sense of the sacred; a blank subject, he would remain, discomfited, at the dump for non-objects that are always forfeited, from which, on the contrary, fortified by abjection, he tries to extricate himself. For he is not mad, he through whom the abject exists. Out of the daze that has petrified him before the untouchable, impossible, absent body of the mother, a daze that has cut off his impulses from their objects, that is, from their representations, out of such daze he causes, along with loathing, one word to crop up—fear. The phobic has no other object than the abject. But that word, “fear”—a fluid haze, an elusive clamminess—no sooner has it cropped up than it shades off like a mirage and permeates all words of the language with nonexistence, with a hallucinatory, ghostly glimmer. Thus, fear having been bracketed, discourse will seem tenable only if it ceaselessly confront that otherness, a burden both repellent and repelled, a deep well of memory that is unapproachable and intimate: the abject.

 

BEYOND THE UNCONSCIOUS

Put another way, it means that there are lives not sustained by desire, as desire is always for objects. Such lives are based on exclusion. They are clearly distinguishable from those under- stood as neurotic or psychotic, articulated by negation and its modalities, transgression, denial, and repudiation. Their dynamics challenges the theory of the unconscious, seeing that the latter is dependent upon a dialectic of negativity.

The theory of the unconscious, as is well known, presupposes a repression of contents (affects and presentations) that, thereby, do not have access to consciousness but effect within the subject modifications, either of speech (parapraxes, etc.), or of the body (symptoms), or both (hallucinations, etc.). As correlative to the notion of repression, Freud put forward that of denial as a means of figuring out neurosis, that of rejection (repudiation) as a means of situating psychosis. The asymmetry of the two repressions becomes more marked owing to denial’s bearing on the object whereas repudiation affects desire itself (Lacan, in perfect keeping with Freud’s thought, interprets that as “repudiation of the Name of the Father”).

Yet, facing the abject and more specifically phobia and the splitting of the ego (a point I shall return to), one might ask if those articulations of negativity germane to the unconscious (inherited by Freud from philosophy and psychology) have not become inoperative. The “unconscious” contents remain here excluded but in strange fashion: not radically enough to allow for a secure differentiation between subject and object, and yet clearly enough for a defensive position to be established—one that implies a refusal but also a sublimating elaboration. As if the fundamental opposition were between I and Other or, in more archaic fashion, between Inside and Outside. As if such an opposition subsumed the one between Conscious and Un- conscious, elaborated on the basis of neuroses.

Owing to the ambiguous opposition I/Other, Inside/Outside—an opposition that is vigorous but pervious, violent but uncertain—there are contents, “normally” unconscious in neu- rotics, that become explicit if not conscious in “borderline” patients’ speeches and behavior. Such contents are often openly manifested through symbolic practices, without by the same token being integrated into the judging consciousness of those particular subjects. Since they make the conscious/unconscious distinction irrelevant, borderline subjects and their speech constitute propitious ground for a sublimating discourse (“aes- thetic” or “mystical,” etc.), rather than a scientific or rationalist one.

 

 

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p.s. RIP Paul Reubens. Of all the recent famous deaths, this is the saddest one for me. ** Dominik, Hi!!! Brains are so great, especially when you’re asleep. Or on psychedelics. Your weekend sounds very nice indeed. Mine was nice, saw friends, worked a little, no big, but no small either. I have crush on your yesterday’s love. Love giving the person in charge of our film project truth serum, G. ** Charalampos, ‘Landscape Suicide’ is fantastic. Obviously I support your film idea. Mm, all of Gisele’s and my older works are fully documented, but I don’t think any of the videos are available publicly. Her decision. The ‘Jerk’ film is on DVD and online, but you’ll never see the ‘Jerk’ play. It’s a dead duck. After8 is easily one of the greatest treasures that Paris has. If it wasn’t closed for its summer break right now, I’d go over there today. Happy almost new week. ** Cody Goodnight, Hi. I’m having to deal with a bunch of shit, but I’m okay. So sorry about the recent personal things, and the hospital time, but I’m glad all is well. ‘Duelle’ is really strange and luscious, I think. Funny you mention Kate Bush since I just saw on social media that it’s her birthday today. Yes, I like her, of course. I like that you find Bauhaus and Cocteau Twins interchangeable. I saw a friend yesterday who told me they tried to get their 8 year old son into Bauhaus and that it didn’t work. Wonderful, wonderful Tuesday in its entirety to you. ** _Black_Acrylic, Go, Japan! Okay, I’m on board the Japan cheerleader squad. That is really great news about the writing class restarting! Jonesing for some new Robinson prose, buddy. ** Montse, Hi!!! Gare de Nord, cool, that’s easy. It’s hard to say how busy we’ll be on the film when you’re here, We could be, but we could also easily be in between work spurts. In any case, I’ll have plenty of time to see you and hang out, for sure. Hopefully our amazing non-summer weather/ temperature will still be doing its pleasant thing then. Yay!!! ** Steve Erickson, Learning ropes is a gift. Well, or can be. Either the person we work with to do the sound mix and design will have their own studio or will work in a professional studio, yes. The guy who did our first two films and who we really hope to work with on this film if we can scrounge up some money somehow has a great little studio on the canal. ‘LA VISA DE CENSURE NO. X’ is a serious trip, highly recommended. ** Darby (just Darby), Hi. Whatever kindness I evinced was automatically pulled out of me by Scully. Did you wake up to him fully in tact and ready to scare/amaze? I’m so sorry about the woman’s death. Yes, very sad about Sinead O’Connor. My social media feed was basically all Sinead all the time for about four days. I’m okay. A bunch of shit with our film producer, but that’s tragically normal. Unless I have amnesia, I’m not DB Cooper, unfortunately. But I guess if I have amnesia, it wouldn’t matter since the loot’s location would be a mystery to me as well. ** Gray_gary, Ha ha, cool, thanks, G_g! ** Right. Today I turn the blog’s spotlight function onto an ultra-seminal book by the one and only Julia Kristeva. Read it? Want to? Don’t want to? Etc. See you tomorrow.

“Want to force me to bob for apples blindfolded in a barrel of piss? Do it. Want to put me in a hole in the ground and vomit all over me and bury me alive? Do it.”

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PleaseSlapMeAround19, 18
I like to be throat fucked, choked, slapped in the face and punched in the head, to feel my mind destruct.
I’m looking for a boss to train me to not suck to learn not to say no any more.
Don’t use my cock anymore unless the boss wants to milk it.
Live tied up with chastity cage I love it.
Really into older men I love it I lose my mind.
If I’m interesting contact me I’ve been watching porn I’m in grave need I’m sick of it.

Comments

PleaseSlapMeAround19 (Owner) – July 24, 2023
Life is going well and I have never been more positive about the future.

ExcitedTony – July 24, 2023
Would you be into getting crystal meth injected in your feet, nipples, arms, hands, ears?
Injections in the feet can be VERY PAINFUL so if you like pain or the endorphin and adrenaline rush that comes with having crystal injected in the foot this might be for you.
You don’t look 18 tho but you can be younger just please don’t tell me.

MasterFog – July 22, 2023
Looking for a boy to befriend and bruise. I am the sweet but violent dom every boy craves – and yes, those whips are mine, and I very much look forward to using them on every inch of your body.

aggrostyle – July 18, 2023
Better if you use your wide cowboy belt or a razor strap to burn his ass up.

pickupthrowhard – July 18, 2023
@For_Now He has a skinny ass, but it makes a lot of noise while you smack it.

For_Now – July 18, 2023
I just want to spank you so damn bad!


 

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JourneyToDestruction, 19
Looking for a one way ticket to Hell
*chems/addiction/overdose
*bugchasing
*starvation/malnourishment
*extreme breath control
*lungfucking
*wounds/scars/burns/surgery/amputations
*every toxic substance
*loaded gun/sharp knives/chainsaw
Idc about my body and what happens to it
I want to be locked in a basement with nowhere to run to with no light so I can’t see and destroyed to death in any way the person sees fit

Comments

Anonymous – July 14, 2023
You would if you were mulched.

JourneyToDestruction (Owner) – July 14, 2023
I’m 6’3″ I would not fit in there

corpsebreeder – July 13, 2023
Hi, Anonymous. I’m a Necro lover and lover of all dead twinks. If he’s still in that suitcase I would love to take it off your hands.

Anonymous – July 12, 2023
He’s inside

What_about_life – July 8, 2023
I would do anything to fulfill this boy’s fantasy, I’m even ready to go to prison or a mental asylum (Hell I belong there).



 

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WILLDOANYTHING!, 18
Outside world sees me as this really cute shy guy. Underneath, though, I am the biggest cock slut in cottage grove, minnesota. I was put on this earth to make men orgasm. A lot. I will literally do anything for anyone. Stuff my head into the goddamn fucking toilet as you fuck me doggie style to your climax. And if you’d like to put a camera there to document me, I’d even be extra grateful. Bring your friends I want to get up to 100 loads busted in my guts by saturday.

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cowboyhotshot – July 17, 2023
I’m very potent, have several children, can shoot 7-8 loads back to back. If you don’t mind driving up to St. Paul, I’ll happily knock you up way past the 100 mark until you won’t want to take another load up your ass for your entire life.

fuckyouintheass – July 12, 2023
I gave him a couple of loads a few months back and after I was done with him he begged me to eat his ass out. When I mean eat ass- I mean my tongue EXTREMELY DEEP inside his piggy hole… I ate the hole and filled it with saliva which lead to more pounding. That made me crazy horny and well, I kept taking a break, pulling my dick out to suck his hole, and I kept on going until I’d shot liters of milk in that ass. All of which caused me to catch a devastating STD, but it was AMAZING.



 

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GiveYouTheBest, 18
I’m a newly 18 yr old who has never had sex but would love to some day.

Comments

GiveYouTheBest (Owner) – July 14, 2023
I’ve now had sex and I’m happy to talk about it, I won’t say it was the greatest thing in the world but I’m not letting it discourage me.

andrei_7772 – July 9, 2023

GiveYouTheBest (Owner) – July 5, 2023
Until that happens I’m giving away my sperm. Use it however you like! Play in it, eat it, use it as lube. I’m not looking for anything in return, just guys who want my sperm and will give it a good home.

 

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tabletop, 23
I was in a long-term relationship with my abusive bf. He trained me as a pain pig. This experience influenced my life. My masochistic preferences appeared like magic. I’m very addicted to pain. Love to be in pain. One of my long-term goals is to shrink my cock to a micro penis size.

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tabletop (Owner) – July 10, 2023
I can tell if a man is necrophile or not in about 10 minutes. For some reason they’ve always circled around me like vultures. I exposed one just yesterday. Probably the biggest shocker of my life was when I toured a morgue in junior high school and realized the chief medical examiner was a gay necrophile. I could see it in his eyes that he imagined me naked and dead on his slab.

CumDumper67 – July 10, 2023
I could never get enough of your dead butt. My nose twitches. My tongue licks my lips. My mouth salivates. My face in your dead butt. Your dead butt in my face. So young. So smooth. Open wide, boy. All my butthole fantasies fulfilled. I want it all.

KinkyoverVienna – July 4, 2023
You want an even smaller dick than the less than stellar one you have now?

 

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mydarksecret, 21
It wasn’t until my last dominatrix gf who really tried to take me from straight skirtchaser to gay sub. I do not have physical experience but mentally she got me ready. It’s quite a story and is not all about not being ready to accept myself. I can explain in a chat about this but point is her focus was on making me a fag. It’s a journey I want to continue and I have long way to get to where I want to be.

We aren’t together anymore but now I fantasize about being converted to gay.

I’m not from Vegas but travel there to get drunk a lot.

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mydarksecret (Owner) – July 13, 2023
Okay, I’m gay. There I said it.

Ollie – July 11, 2023
Fag, can’t even

lkj59404 – July 9, 2023
Unfortunately, have sex with him very carefully because he is exceptionally clingy.

iwilluseyounow – July 6, 2023
Sure seemed to me like you’re already a fag unless I missed something.


 

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Enjoy-the-vibe, 20
🚽m find 💩

Comments

Enjoy-the-vibe (Owner) – July 15, 2023
I’ve been trying to be a 24/7 toilet for years but now I realize it won’t be possible, at least not until I move again. I naively thought that settling in the countryside would bring me a certain peace of mind, in fact, it is quite different.

Enjoy-the-vibe (Owner) – July 13, 2023
I am very happy you allowed you to be yourself in my surroundings.

Feeder_Bln – July 13, 2023
am totally flashed after driving out to bumfuck nowhere to shit in him. felt super close and comfortable. was much more intense than i hoped. i see it as a privilege to have fed him

 

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AustinGreene, 19
Pretty simple. I’m here to get rid of a slave I have. It’s just holes that I’m over with and giving away. See the profile pics. I’ll send pics of its holes upon request.

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AustinGreene (Owner) – July 6, 2023
He is gone and that means I am whole.

HankSmith – July 3, 2023
Like that is remotely a problem!

AustinGreene (Owner) – July 3, 2023
Other than its holes it’s just a porn addicted femmy goontard.

HankSmith – July 3, 2023
Holy fuck! You’re insane. I’ll take it in a heartbeat.



 

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Hello👋World🌎, 18
Career and success-driven “straight acting” teen dude looking for a Master in Canada who is into genital mutilation and who will make me his bitch and cut off my dick.

I have 2 hearts beating in my chest. I’m struggling between those 2. I know I can’t have it both ways. So, I’m not sure where the future will lead me. My two contradictory life goals are:

1. I want a career-driven life founding my own business and driving my own company’s revenue higher and higher. I want total financial independence.

2. I want to be a 24/7/365 gay sex slave. I would sacrifice my dick for my Master! There is only one dick in our relationship and that is yours! The hunger to lose my dick (penectomy) is pervasive, and quite frankly and ironically it makes me rock hard.

As you can see, both of those goals are contradictory. So, please be aware of that when contacting me. I really don’t know what I want from life and whether I should abandon either one of those life goals.

However, I really really want to serve a lifetime Master and lose my dick. If you can convince me to dedicate my life to this, I’m all ears. Convince me and make me your dickless bitch for real!

Comments

Hello👋World🌎 (Owner) – July 26, 2023
I have been told this is about to happen to me. I’m very scared. But not scared enough to say “no”.

Hello👋World🌎 (Owner) – July 17, 2023
I have lived with gay guys before. I’ve experienced being kissed, massaged, given oral and receiving anal. I didn’t enjoy it but if my dick wasn’t there being so critical of everything I might.



 

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juan, 21
I’m muscled latino boy. I’m alone and poor boy. I’m slave for many men. I was also master for one old man (shown on the pics) but he died. Do you like sex me torture me and stab my chest my belly cut off my eight inch dick and more sir. How do you want to kill my naked body sir.

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wipeout – July 2, 2023
If anyone else gets hard and cums when imagining decapitating this boy’s head, or thinks about what it would be like to kiss it, or gets hard imagining sliding your dick into its mouth, or fantasizes about two men having sex, then bringing his decapitated head into it and having an orgy, or thought about french kissing his decapitated head while another huge dick fucks the neck and you lick his cum off the head of his dick through this decapitated boy’s mouth, or imagine sleeping naked and holding his decapitated head as a teddy bear/sex toy to rub on your hard dick at night or for some late night oral sex, or absolutely HATE seeing his head alive and attached to his body in those fotos, then we should chat.

Deluzional – July 2, 2023
Does anyone remember or have the video that used to be on bestgore where a latino teen guy is on the ground getting torn to shit by an axe? His screams were awesome. I havent been able to find it.

notyourx – July 2, 2023
I would like to stomp you to pulp with my steel toe boots, and then eat the pulp.

juan (Owner) – July 2, 2023
By day I’m an unremarkable supermarket clerk.

buffedbeachguy – July 2, 2023
You’d have a Perfect dead Body



 

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askmepersonally, 20
I’m a messed up boy that’s put on this planet for who knows what. I wanna be “kidnapped” tied up and used like a slave with 0 free will. I’ve got a shitty immune system so I can’t do any penetration involving penises. I’m happy with anything else. I can only be used for short amounts of time on certain days so use me while you can. I’m also paralyzed from the waist down but everything down there still looks great and I can still half-feel everything.

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sperm666 – July 20, 2023
Like, a lot is interesting with him.

Nordstorm – July 16, 2023
There are few things hotter in this world than a cute paralyzed boy with a shitty immune system.

askmepersonally (Owner) – July 14, 2023
Last night a man said “Oh holy God” as he slid into my hole. I knew that meant he was gonna bust in three pumps, and it REALLY stroked my ego that even though I can’t feel it anymore, my hole is still velvety smooth and hot!


 

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Notheretoliveuptoyourwackideasofhotornot, 19
His name is Jordy, 19, bisexual, slim average body, little body hair, 6″ inch cut dick, boxy ass.
Jordy likes the occult, the paranormal, spirituality, ancient languages and the ancient beliefs of the ancient world.
He studies and researches the most important books of the ancient Middle East, so call him interesting.
About a week ago Jordy was with his boyfriend and his boyfriend’s 12 year old brother and all three of them got completely SHITFACED.
Jordy’s boyfriend passed out and one thing led to another and he and the 12 year old ended up having sex and not just for a few seconds but all night.
Jordy and his boyfriend haven’t talked since and the 12 year old is in love with Jordy now.. so he fucked that up too.
Jordy’s boyfriend is looking for someone sadistic willing to teach Jordy a thing or two about what being a pedophile deserves, with some physical demonstration.
Multiple lessons are probably necessary.

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SirCharles – July 17, 2023
I am only temporarily controlling this pedo & storing it at a motel near Richmond for the time being. I can host there tonight/tomorrow or elsewhere at a neutral location for interested Owners to inspect, test, and use the pedo before any relocation of the merchandise as discussed/agreed upon. Also willing to have the pedo meet with interested Master virtually (skype, wickr, telegram, kik, etc.) before final approval if needed. Can relocate the pedo anywhere within the US, or arrange for the pedo to be picked up and taken away. Can discuss if/when we get there.

Caution: Don’t drink or do drugs when using this pedo because if you don’t keep a firm grip on reality you’ll end up accidentally killing him, no joke.

HorrorNerd – July 8, 2023
I enjoyed degrading and humiliating him. I mean I REALLY enjoyed it a lot!



 

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CarpetFag, 18
My face was born to LITERALLY be a silent crashed choked stomped carpet on the floor.
I am NOT looking 4 sex cause carpets don’t deserve 2 see or breathe a thing but the soles of the shoes of real men on the floor.
Carpet will not talk, not look in ur eyes, not move from carpet.
When u have guests/sleep/go out u can store me in ur shoe closet.
U just go and have sex with other teenagers. Not my business.
I am 8.5” hung but it’s only for show.

Comments

CarpetFag (Owner) – July 7, 2023
Am also wanting a boyfriend getting too weird now?

CarpetFag (Owner) – July 5, 2023
If it matters I’m a nonbinary genderqueer musical theatre nerd witch.



 

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90Volt, 18
I’m glad I found this gay community, I believe it’s the only alive online community. I’d like to share my story.

I’m the slave of a 49yo man with alphism. This means his melanin gene is mutant so he can’t produce it in adequate quantities. I suppose you’re familiar with the term albino. His eyes are red (no color pigments for blue, black, brown or whatever). His eyebrows are completely white. His hair is various shades between blond and white and of course his skin is very pale.

As a slave this excites me in many ways. Sometimes I fantasise that he’s from some very strange foreign country. Sometimes he’s the grotesque “product” of incest. Sometimes I pretend he’s the devil. Sometimes I fantasize he’s from outer space and that I’m being fucked by an “alien”. And so on.

I just wanted to share that story among men who might understand. But if any of you are excited and want to come over and use me with him, that can be arranged.

Comments

ilikedudes – July 21, 2023
You smelt my mind with the XTC of arousal.


 

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Drugmeuseme, 19
Last April, I was been strangled out and shot in the head by a trick that cause my death before doctors saved me…What a Tragic Experience…but first AND Foremost I’d Like to THANKS EVERYONE for youre Hopes and Prayer

Life after Death… I just saw my self lying-in a Dark and solid stone But I feel cold and feeling that I was center in a Stagnant Lake, I see nothing But All of my self…But I saw In the Sky the Earth it self, the sky the stars and even the galaxy thats very
Near from me… Just I saw lot of people dying in a flame! When a comet that strike the earth with no! Flame. The earth banished and everyone just change to shadows talking! Playing! Just like normal lives but just only Shadows

I’m Glad to back my real dimension…

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DomDad2023 – July 13, 2023
Youre astonishing! hope there will be no more accident…heheheh!

Drugmeuseme (Owner) – July 13, 2023
NEXT TIME I never look for men in the dark websites… where snuff is so much prone…

Faulty – July 13, 2023
Hahaha!!! Youre experience is so Cute dude just like you…Well hope it will never happened again…

Drugmeuseme (Owner) – July 13, 2023
Hehehehe! Thanks for the corrections of my english…IM STILL HAVE A BRAIN AND MEMORY DIFFICULTIES…THAT NEEDS SOME MORE TIME OF EXERCISES… BUT STILL IM HAPPY IM BACK…ALTHOUGH IM STILL IN THE HOSPITAL FOR MY PHYSICAL THERAPHY, AND PSYCHOMETRY. AND AFTER THIS IM GOING TO COURT AND TO OUR POLICE HEADQUARTERS

innervator – July 13, 2023
so hard to read..made no sense..BRAINS!

 

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somefuckingidiot, 19
Very open to suicide if anyone wants it

You have to drunk with me though whiskey gallons

I provide you drink and you give me gun, kill myself

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Guyyouknow – July 20, 2023
Don’t mind me i’m just 🪟shopping.


 

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himynameisjack, 18
I am into being physically and emotionally abused in a massive way.

I was told my body was meant to be kept naked, molested, used and consumed 24/7 when I was 13. They were right.

Now that I am 18, I believe it’s time to make this an effective reality.

Non smoker here.

Want to force me to bob for apples blindfolded in a barrel of piss? Do it.

Want to put me in a hole in the ground and vomit all over me and bury me alive? Do it.

My only limit is facial appearance changing.

No interest in your money, please don’t offer, it’s weird.

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BoyStrangler – July 17, 2023
Daniel Lee Siebert. Siebert was on death row at Holman Correctional Facility in Alabama when I was tasked with requesting him to provide a drawing of a “tree, man, and house” by a psychiatrist I worked for who acted as an “expert witness” in testimony before court to reverse death penalty cases, changing them to life without parole.

Over several years Siebert wrote me over a hundred letters, which I provided to the psychiatrist. He also mailed me dozens of beautiful drawings of male teenagers sodomized, mutilated, hung or shot. Siebert alleged he killed over 60 teenage male prostitutes, never providing enough detail regarding the locations of the crimes nor positive identification of the victims.

He preferred hanging and garotting, and severed the genitals of the teenage boys and ate them. The boys were bound with wrists behind their backs and were garrotted while he penetrated them attempting to ejaculate inside them at the moment they died, experiencing the final spasm of the teen’s rectal muscles at the moment of death. “At that moment,” he said “I felt their souls become one with my own.” He stated that he kept the dead bodies until they began to rot having anal intercourse with all until they became putrid.

corpsebreeder – July 17, 2023
Hey, BoyStrangler, just wondering, who is your favorite Serial Killer? Mine is Dean Corll.

BERSERKER – July 16, 2023
I’m not a penis fan, but his is kind of cute. When it’s hard, mind you. When it’s soft, ugh.

BoyStrangler – July 9, 2023
I started wanting to beat up cute young guys a long time ago and decided to do it with someone. I do not know what other men are mainly looking for with this guy, but I can say with confidence that I was not interested in an insensitive hookup. I just refuse to understand beating someone up without feelings. But I’m not judging anyone lol. I would tell you more about what I did to him and this comment would be very huge, but it makes no sense since I do not know if anyone on this site will be interested. I’m afraid to seem long, boring and tedious. I’ll finish with that.


 

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Preachy, 22
I am a conscientious, ambiverted, androromantic and androsexual, agnostic atheistic, right-libertarian anarcho-capitalistic and anarcho-individualistic, essential minimalistic, health-consciously sober vegan, anti-vaccinationist terrain theory advocating, cisgender male, ordinarily masochist-leaning and seeking a consensual, long-term, monogamous, childless, irreligious partnership — maintaining a mutualistic organically Dominant/submissive power dynamic — with a degree of interpersonal commitment akin to marriage.

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Cinephile – July 7, 2023
i dated him for 2 years but we broke up because hes mean

Yodi – July 7, 2023
you must be angry, resentful and be able to override his mind or he will make a mockery of the proceedings.

 

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ouchthatshot, 19
Have a stupid fag son (you heard me) who is finally learning his place in the world. Need help teaching him, stretching him, abusing him, wrecking him. Could be a simple pump & dump to a long destructive session. No limits. Scarier is better. Love hooding him and having guys come over and decimate him. Like hearing him whine and cry and retch and screech.

Hosting at Hilton Union Square in SF right the fuck now.

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Brain3 – July 12, 2023
I’ll take him.

SpunPartySlut – July 12, 2023
I’ll take him.

Architect – July 12, 2023
I’ll take him.

ouchthatshot (Owner) – July 12, 2023

takeItHard – July 12, 2023
Man, maybe, but it’s hard to tell from those pix you uploaded. You got anything that shows him better?

ouchthatshot (Owner) – July 12, 2023
I honestly want to get my son out of my life, meaning never let see him again, KNOW NOTHING about him again whatsoever!! I mean as in taken forever and never let out again or ever found again or heard of by me again. Is anyone that into him? If you’re not, then could you point me in the right direction please??? I’m actually very serious about this.



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your-alibi, 20
As you may have gathered, I’m not a real girl. But I’m indistinguishable from a real girl! At least as long as I’m not naked 😂. I’m looking for a man and is looking for a girl who is not a girl who he can date publicly as a girl while having huge amounts of secret sex with a boy. If you’re that man I am the perfect alibi.

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ShadowBlack – July 22, 2023
I’ve got everything i need in this life except for you joining me in my castle dungeon.



 

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BreakableBoy, 20
It’s was a great night having good sex at the party with some of my colleagues’ dads but the next day anyone that I text don’t reply, so I decided to make new fuckfriends cause the future is exciting, Ready?

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BreakableBoy (Owner) – July 20, 2023
Thanks, baby 😘😘😘😘😘

holyfucker – July 20, 2023
I love to ride his asshole like a bicycle, and shoot in my cums in it so much, also i like to open his asshole into two part make him screaming on bed that really get me more hotter then i can fuck him long and longer and longest on bed.

BreakableBoy (Owner) – July 19, 2023
I have a monogamous relationship with a boyfriend. He fucks me all the time and I love it. I have the best ass he’s ever gotten apparently and I am probably overly proud of that. Yes, I’m serious, I’m taken and cannot have sex with any more of you!

BreakableBoy (Owner) – July 10, 2023
What I have been talking about is what you want and have never done for whatever reason.

BreakableBoy (Owner) – July 9, 2023
You can brainwash my mind but leave part of it because I’m in college.

4fleshpocket – July 8, 2023
He’s a wordy twatsack you’ll feel desperate to punctuate.


 

 

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p.s. Hey. ** David Ehrenstein, Hi. Well, you know I’m a massive Clementi fan. It has been fully established that he didn’t die of AIDS. ** Ben Lipkin, Hi, Ben, welcome! Thank you for entering here. He’s one of my very, very favorite filmmakers too, and a personal great hero. Thanks so much! Obviously, feel very more than free to come back in anytime. What’s going on? Take care. ** Dominik, Hi!!! You are of course most welcome. Donald Pergoll doesn’t ring a bell, yeah. How interesting. How was your weekend? Is it cooling down there yet? Love who’s a girl who is not a girl who one can date publicly as a girl while having huge amounts of secret sex with a boy, G. ** _Black_Acrylic, Hi. I just heard a bit of the new Aphex Twin, and, yes, it’s exciting. Good old him. ** Mark, Hi. Oh, wow you’re from my hood. My LA pad is on Ambrose just east of Vermont. Titters and gratitude about the zine. Yeah, the Printed Matter is soon, isn’t it? Great week’s start to you. ** Dee Kilroy, Hey, Dee. ** Bill, I recommend seeing more of the films he directed if want more of him + bizarre. I heard about that ‘Midnight Cowboy’ doc. I’m currently on the hunt to see the new Sid Barrett doc, which does not seem to be very accessible. ** Montse Meneses Vilar, Montse! Whoo-hoo! Hey, pal! We’ve been on a short break from film editing, but we restart this week. It goes well, I’m very excited. You’re coming here! I’m pretty sure I’ll be here, yes, as my summer plans are just to stay here and work on the film. And now that I know you’re coming, I’ll make absolutely sure. Great, great news! Let me know when you’re here and where you’ll be and so on and so forth so we can make plans. I can’t wait! It’s been forever! Love, me. ** Darby Der Kunstler 🎅, Now that’s a great and appropriate moniker. And always nice to see Santa. Jonny Luke’s: noted. Thanks! Yum! Sculpting seems tricky. Yeah, demystification is a good idea. Well, with friends, I mean. Well, with good friends. Five miles! Whoa! I start two get sunburned if I walk down the street for too long. Too long being, like, for a half an hour. Or less. My weekend was pretty ok. Saw friends, did some nice but not that interesting to hear about things. I’ll try to score a bat for you, but those little fuckers are fast, and my arms are not long enough! Whoa, Scully looks totally great! What are you going to do further with him? Oh, mohawk, gotcha. I mean he’s pretty effective already. He makes me long for Halloween even more than I had been doing. Thank you a lot! Go, go, it’s terrific! ** Charalampos, Thanks, glad you liked it. As open as possible: totally. The supreme goal. Mm, I’m not sure if I exactly know what you mean about having things inside us that are from another source. I guess I think artists can absorb everything and it becomes theirs as long as they reinvent it through their natural uniqueness or something. My weekend was nice, I don’t know it was cute. A cute weekend sounds good, though. Maybe I can figure out to have one of those. I hope yours was cute. Zac gets back tomorrow, so we’ll start working on the film again in a couple of days. The bulk of the film is far along and just needs fiddling and refining. I mean in the edit. There’s still a lot of special effects work and sound mix/design and color correction left to do. Thanks! Mellow, temperate Paris vibes. ** Nasir, Hi. Pictures of whatever: I like that. My weekend: I saw a visiting friend a couple of times. I walked in the Tuileries. I went to the fun fair again. I wrote a little. I tried to solve film problems. I rewatched one of my all-time very favorite films (James Benning’s ’11 x 14′) which was just uploaded onto the internet for the first time ever. Stuff like that. May loveliness be heavily in store for you until the universe explodes. ** Okay. Yes, end of the month = your slave batch for July. See you tomorrow.

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