The blog of author Dennis Cooper

Author: DC (Page 142 of 1088)

Something just came over Noah Crooks *

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‘It’s been a cheerful day for video game crime news. First was the teenage father who sawed a former friend’s neck down to the trachea over some Xbox Live name-calling. Now an Iowa boy says he killed and attempted to rape his mother after she took away Call of Duty.

‘That’s according to the 911 call 14-year-old Noah Crooks of Osage, Iowa placed on March 24, 2012, the night he shot his mother 20 times. Crooks shot her with the .22 rifle he was given as an 11-year-old. The 911 tape was played in court this week as his trial began. His mother, Gretchen Crooks, had confiscated his video game about three hours before she was shot to death, an act believed to spark the fit of rage that led to her killing. It was the first homicide reported in that town since 1898.

‘The defense opened its case on Friday with testimony from Noah Crooks’ friends, one of whom played Call of Duty with him online. The testimony is meant to establish some type of rapid change in Crooks’ behavior. Despite constant references to an attention deficit disorder and the rambling 911 call in which he appears divorced from reality, he did say, “I feel crazy and I know I’m not.”‘ — Kotaku

 

 

‘When William Crooks got a text message in which his son confessed “I killed Mom,” he thought it was a joke. “Ok,” Crooks replied. “Just throw her in the grove. We’ll take care of her later.” This according to testimony Crooks, 41, gave in Wright County District Court in Clarion, Iowa Friday night. The full message Noah sent the night of March 24 read “Dad this is Noah. I killed Mom accidentally. I regret it. Come home now please.”

‘William was away from the family’s rural home at the time. Mitchell County Deputy Jeff Huftalin later called the older Crooks and told him there had been an accident. There was no history of domestic abuse or criminal records associated with any Crooks family members. William said his wife was the disciplinarian of the family, which led to some fights between his wife and son. “They’d have their issues but then the next minute they’d play games together,” he said. “Noah once told me he wanted to kill his mother, but I didn’t take it seriously. On a few occasions he said that he wished she was dead and in a ditch. I guess I didn’t take it as a threat at the time.” He testified that Noah had been on medication for A.D.D. since he was 8 years old, and had occasional outbursts in class and on the school bus. His troubles became more physical in fifth grade. “He would pull all of the hair off his head, his eyebrows, his eyelashes, and he’d pull the hair off his legs,” William said. “His arms too. Anywhere that he had hair, he pulled it out.'” He said Noah became more violent in recent years, breaking windows and using a knife to stab the wooden pillars, couch cushions, and doors in the family’s home. He said the violent outbursts came out of the blue and were not planned, adding that often Noah could not remember why he had acted out, but always atoned for his actions.’ — Daily Mail

 

 

‘The defense in the Noah Crooks trial began Friday afternoon by calling to the stand three school friends of the 14-year-old Osage teen accused of shooting his mother to death in March 2012. A 14-year-old boy from Osage said he played the video game, Call of Duty, with Crooks over the Internet. He testified that in 2012 Crooks would become aggressive and violent, occasionally stabbing classmates with pencils. The boy said the incidents would happen once or twice every few weeks and then not happen again for days or even months. Crooks threatened to kill other students and his mother, he testified. A 14-year-old girl, also of Osage, said she and Crooks became friends in the seventh grade. She remembered her friend talking about suicide last year. In March 2012 his behavior changed, she said. “He got angry quicker,” she testified. “In P.E. he’d get mad at things he wouldn’t usually get mad about.”’ — WFCCourier

 

 

‘On May 3, 2013 the defense in the Noah Crooks murder trial began calling witnesses, and it doesn’t look like things are off to a positive start for the young man. The tragic death of his mother was gruesome, but the details being shared by multiple sources paint a picture of a deeply troubled teen who may continue to be a danger to society. It seems as though the defense is painting the teen as someone who is too mentally ill to plan the rape and murder of his own mother. The state of Iowa is aiming to convict him of first degree murder, among other charges. The details that have come out in recent days are startling, such as the 911 call placed by the frantic teen:

‘“Something came over me and I’m serious. I’m 13 years old and I killed my mom with my .22. I’m not joking at all. She’s dead. I’m scared. I killed my mom with my .22. I don’t know why I did it. I am so ashamed right now.” [He repeated that several times in the course of the 10-minute conversation.] “OK. This is Noah. OK. I don’t want you to contact the news or do anything like that. I feel crazy and I know I’m not. I think I have some form of ADD. I tried to rape her. I tried to rape her but I couldn’t do it.” [He rambled on for several minutes as the dispatcher contacted deputies and dispatched an ambulance.] “Tell them my weapon is empty. I just wish it was a dream so I could wake up and I could kiss her and hug her. I need to get help. I don’t know why I did it. I’ve never thought about doing it before. Something just got in my head and I don’t know why.” [He said his mother made homemade doughnuts for him that night and he couldn’t believe he killed her after she did that for him. He continued talking about playing the video game, Call of Duty. He told the dispatcher his mother took away the game because he got some bad grades.] “Something just came over me. I’m going to have to move away. I’m never going to be able to get a good job now. I should have never played Call of Duty.” [He spent several more minutes talking about how he would never be able to marry his eighth-grade girlfriend or get into a good college.] “That goes down the drain now. I’m going to have to move. I am going to go to jail. I tried rape my own mom. Who tries to rape their own mom? My life is down the drain now.” [The dispatcher told him deputies were on the way.] “They’re not going to shoot me or (expletive deleted) me, are they?”’ — ksee24.com

 


‘Demonic 13 yr old Red Headed Child Murders his Mom after an Attempted Rape!’


‘Teen Kills Mom Over Call of Duty | The World Is Going Crazy’


’13-Year-Old Boy Shot His Mother Dead After Trying To Rape Her!’

 

‘After more than 18 hours of deliberations, a Wright County jury found Noah Crooks guilty Monday afternoon of second-degree murder and not guilty of assault with intent to commit sexual abuse in the March 2012 shooting death of his mother, Gretchen. “Their deliberation shows they put a lot of time, a lot of effort into this. And it wasn’t an easy decision for them to reach. We thank them so much for the time they put into this because it couldn’t be easy,” Mitchell County Attorney Mark Walk said.

‘“If I was speculating I would say it’s a compromise verdict. My best guess is that there were probably some people who wanted not guilty by reason of insanity, others who wanted first-degree. The compromise was probably, here again speculating which I shouldn’t do, we’ll come down to second-degree if you’ll come off not guilty by reason of insanity. I could be completely wrong but that’s my thought.”

‘Crooks showed no emotion as the verdict was announced shortly before 2 p.m. Monday. He will remain in a juvenile facility at either Waterloo or Eldora until his 18th birthday. Then at 18, or shortly before that, he will come back before this same court. They will make a determination of whether he should be discharged at that time or whether he should be sentenced at that time; whether he should be supervised at that time. The problem is no one knows what’s going to happen when he turns 18.’ — wcfCourier.com

 

 

Apr 20, 2018: ‘The Iowa Supreme Court has denied the appeal of the sentence given an Osage teen for killing his mom. The original judge sentenced him to an indeterminate prison term not to exceed fifty years without any mandatory minimum sentence. Crooks appealed the sentence saying he should not have tried as a youthful offender in adult court and the sentence given him was unconstitutional. The Iowa Supreme Court ruled trying Crooks as a juvenile offender allowed for time to assess his prospect for rehabilitation, and says the sentence given to him was based on the information in the assessment, and was not unconstitutional.

‘The ruling did address the issue of Crooks’ age. The ruling says the decision to waive jurisdiction over a child for prosecution as a youthful offender “does not automatically subject the child to adult criminal sanctions. Instead, the youthful offender provisions allow the courts to wait until the child is nearly eighteen-and to see whether the rehabilitative services provided in the juvenile system have been effective-before determining how to proceed.”’ — Radio Iowa

 

 

 

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p.s. Hey. ** feellikeanumba, Hi! My pleasure. Film criticism, interesting. Do you write in Russian? I guess I’m wondering if your criticism is readable to an only English speaker like me. That’s great. I’m big film buff, as you can probably tell, as well as filmmaker, so that’s of real interest. Anyway, yes, if you feel writing fiction, you certainly have the gift. I love Gaddis, but I don’t think I’ve read all the way through his novels, except for the short ones: ‘Carpenter’s Gothic’ and ‘Agape, Agape’. I just like to get the heady rush from his writing mostly, I guess. I like Lish’s work. And, as I’m sure you know, he’s an amazing editor. A bunch of favorite fiction writers of mine (Garielle Lutz, Diane Williams, Sam Lypsite, etc.) studied with him. Yes, very sad about Barth. When I was high school, all the most interesting young people, including me, were reading him incessantly. He was really a big deal back then. It’s so good to talk with you. ** _Black_Acrylic, I haven’t been drunk in a million years, and I don’t miss it one little bit. And of course about the latest PT. All thanks to you! ** Misanthrope, Hi. It sounds like you guys will work that out. These are still early days. Lots to learn. Well, I don’t know the nuances, but it sure seems like you and/or Alex needs to tell Bruce that you’re a couple and that he needs to back way the fuck off or else. I hate guys like that. Yuck. ** James Bennett, Hi. It’s amazing to me to that so many great writers were diehard alcoholics. It’s hard to imagine how they juggled the drunkenness and the high level writing output, but they did. Granted that some of their talents went into descent at a certain point. I’m afraid of that Capote series. I’m a bit allergic to biopics, etc. in general. I can’t think of a really good fictionalisation on ‘film’ of a writer’s life off the top of my head, but there surely must be one or some. Do you know of any? What you wrote resonates with me completely. I think about that issue all the time. I think very sculpturally and 3 dimensionally about my writing for that very reason. And about Zac’s and my films too. So encouragement in that direction from me. Hm, this probably isn’t the space to go into that Blanchot quote in a full way ‘cos I’d have lots to say. On the most basic level, I guess it’s about paying close attention to the balance/relationship between presentation and subject and not letting the latter have inordinate power or something? But there’s a lot to say. Does that quote speak to you and your work at all? ** Allegra, I love ‘The Forbidden Room’. In fact I saw part of it being filmed. The Pompidou museum here used to do this yearly festival called Nouveau Festival, and they’d invite artists to present projects and things, and one year Maddin’s ‘presentation’ was that he filmed part of ‘TFR’ in the museum, and you could go stand there and watch for as long as you wanted. It was cool. I will, about ‘LLB’. Interesting: what are you doing on the archeological dig? Speaking of aligned tastes, and I may have mentioned his before, but when I was a kid I wanted to be an archaeologist for a while. And my parents arranged for me to go to Peru one summer and work on a dig there that a rich Peruvian friend of my dad’s was bankrolling. But it was kind of a fiasco because the people doing the dig were not interested in some kid helping them, so they made me just sit and watch and do nothing. And seeing how extremely non-eventful archeological digging is cured of my desire to do that. It was a long, long summer. That is very interesting about your master’s thesis. Wow. That’s very cool. I want to read it! Amazing, fun. Thank you letting me know. Happy day, xo, me. ** Steve, There’s much talk here in France about young people shifting away not only from alcohol but drugs too. At the same time, they say there’s a huge upswing in cocaine use, so I don’t know those things reconcile. Same here: I tell people I don’t really drink alcohol, and they immediately assume it’s because I had a problem with it rather than that I just don’t like alcohol’s effect. Everyone, A couple of things from Steve today. First, he ‘wrote about queer films at the New Directors/New Films festival’ here, and, second, here’s his PEOPLE’S JOKER review, Curious to see ‘People’s Joker’. I suppose it’ll get over here. Very best of luck with The Wire, obviously. Did you propose something specific to them? ** Justin, Hi, J. Aw, thanks, man. That’s so nice to hear. Maryse! She’s so great. Everyone, Justin shares a video/Zoom talk/interview thing I did a couple of years ago with the wonderful writer Maryse Meijer about ‘I Wished’ if anyone wants to see it. Here. Yeah, before I started doing the blog, I think a lot of people assumed I’m some kind of scary weirdo, ha ha. And, well, I’m sure some still do. Thanks, Justin. Great weekend’s kickstart to you. ** Harper, Hi, Harper. Yeah, that does seem to be the case. Alcohol just dulls me, so it’s like the opposite. Me too: I was okay with weed in my early teens, but then I had two huge LSD freak outs, and, after the second one, weed brought them back and made totally paranoid, so I haven’t touched it since. But I have a really good friends who are very good artists of different stripes who smoke weed from morning to bedtime. Mystery to me as well. I don’t know if I know what novels were written on weed. ‘Gravity’s Rainbow’ is proof positive that the combo can pay off. I’m guessing a lot of the more experimental work of the late 60s was written when high. I’ve never been able to write while high, or, well, not write well at least. I would write something on LSD that I thought in the moment was a profound masterpiece, and then I’d look at it afterwards and it would be, like, a single sentence — ‘The world is orange’ — or something. Do tell about the concert tonight. I hope it’s really fruitful. ** Darby🧫, Oops, I hope your roommate gets away with that infraction. I don’t mind your questions at all, au contraire. Mm, I’m a workaholic too, I guess obviously, and I don’t really know how I do that and not overload. I think I just gradually found the balance over time. And I don’t worry about working too much, maybe that’s part of it. If I want to recuse and work, I do, and if I get too zonked, I stop and go hang out with friends or something. I doubt that helps. That Medium thing sounds like a real accomplishment to me. Wow. I just ate what I always eat, which was fine but no big. Tomorrow I’m having pizza at my favorite pizza place. Until then, the usual. Potato pancakes are god or at least in god’s right hand. ** Uday, Hi. New Orleans, nice. I’ve only driven through it once. How are the presentations going? How do you tell if a presentation is going well? Does the audience applaud and yell ‘whoop’ and things like that? No, your tone in the question was masterful, I guess. It didn’t intimidate me at all. Enjoy N.O. Are you there for the weekend? Will you see the sights? ** Matt N., Hey. No, the sound mixing is finished. We’re waiting to do the special effects, which are minimal and mostly reparative, but it’s necessary. Then a last little work on the color, and we’ll be finished! Yeah, I guess it is important to give the director power in that instance. I write the texts for a French theater director Gisele Vienne, and sometimes I’ll give her a text that’s supposed to be comedic, for instance, and she’ll have it performed like it’s some deathly gloomy text, and I just have to go, ‘Uh … well, it’s your work’. Obviously your own film sounds extremely intriguing. So nice, under $1000 budget. Getting rid of the money raising hell erases, like, 80% of the hell of making films. Anyway, sounds exciting. Costa-like! Very, very nice. Is the documentary you’re talking about ‘Body Without Soul’ about prostitutes in Prague? There’s also one on the same subject called ‘Not Angels But Angels’, but I haven’t seen that one. If you meant ‘BWS’, yeah, I totally agree. Very uninterestingly perverse. Very good way to put it. ** Right. I thought I would restore and kind of update the post up there from ages back for no particular reason or, rather, for a reason I’ve forgotten. See you tomorrow.

Booze

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Federico Solmi The Bacchanalian Ones, 2021
Virtual Reality Experience with three unique hand-sculpted masks.

 

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Ay-O Then, Mr. Ay-O Got Drunk by the Rainbow, 1973
3M color-in-color magnetic process prints

 

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Gilbert & George Reclining drunk, 1973
Gordon’s gin bottle

 

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John Johnston John Wayne Drunk, 2016
animated gif

 

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Tom Burr drunk emily (drinking, drowning, Elizabeth Barret Browning), 2014
pieces of furniture, wooden elements, stools, chests of drawers, doors and false walls

 

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David Shrigley I’m not drunk – I have been harpooned, 2007
Ink and poster pen on paper

 

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Unknown Drunk Writers, 1950s – 1990s


Brendan Behan


Ernest Hemingway


Charles Bukowski


Marguerite Duras


Jack Kerouac


Osamu Dazai


John Berryman


Dylan Thomas


Jim Harrison


Truman Capote

 

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Sarah Lucas Beer Can Penis, 1999
aluminium beer cans

 

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Ed Ruscha Cold Beer Beautiful Girls, 1993
acrylic on canvas

 

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Pentti Monkkonen V.S.O.P, 2017
”The old man in building A drinks Fernet once a day / And his mate in unit 8 Sips chartreuse to get loose / The old lady in building B smokes Gauloises on the balcony / And the guy in unit 5 drinks Cointreau to feel alive / The couple seen in building G pours Dauphin in golden streams / The raconteur in unit 4 spilled Pernod on the floor’

 

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Francis Bacon Man Drinking, 1955
Oil on canvas

 

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Claire Chambers Walking Home Alone Drunk at 3am Thoughts: No.1 (2017)
Acrylic, gouache, calligraphy pen, and marker on canvas board

 

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John Waters Drunk, 1998
The images for Drunk are of Edith Massey in Female Trouble, on the left, and Glenn Milstead, “Divine,” in Pink Flamingos, on the right.

 

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Erwin Wurm Bar (Drinking Sculptures), 2019
‘The artwork is only completed when a performative act takes place: here the participant must engage in becoming abundantly drunk and simultaneously part of the sculpture. Wurm hereby relentlessly asks whether today’s world can only be endured in ecstatic states of intoxication.’

 

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Phil Penman Drunk in Midtown, New York, 2018
Gelatin silver print

 

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Calixte Dakpogan Drunk, 2010
Mixed media

 

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Nicole Eisenman Sloppy Bar Room Kiss, 2011
oil on canvas

 

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Herbert List Drunk – Intoxication (double exposure), Germany, 1933
Vintage Gelatin Silver Print

 

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Jeff Koons Travel Bar, 1986
stainless steel

 

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David Claerbout KING (after Alfred Wertheimer’s 1956 portrait of a young man named Elvis Presley), 2015
‘KING (after Alfred Wertheimer’s 1956 picture of a young man names Elvis Presley), a silent black-and-white projection, is based on a photograph that marks Elvis Presley’s transition from ordinary life to superstardom. That week in 1956, photographer Alfred Wertheimer portrayed a young man, then 21, who generously returned every shot with an incredible calm, allowing the photographer to come very close and feel at ease with a ‘body’ that would soon transition from casual to monumental. It is at this intersection that KING has been conceived.’

 

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Yuki Kimura Table Matematica, 2016
granite, steel, wood, and Jägermeister bottles

 

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Andy Warhol Liquor bottle, glasses and paper towel still life, 1986
Unique gelatin silver print

 

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Pruitt-Early Sculpture for Teenage Boys (Blonde with Beer Disguised As Soda, Mixed Case), 1990
Pabst beer cans with decals

 

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Various Various, 18th century


Annibale Carracci Boy Drinking


Goya The Drunken Mason


Francis William Edwards Facing the Enemy


Eugene Laermans The Drunk


Joaquin Sorolla The Drunkard


Wojciech Weiss The Demon (in a Café)


Vladimir Yegorovich Makovsky I don t let in!


Jean-Louis Forain After the Ball. The Reveler.

 

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Benkosoft Drunk Show, 1994
Emulator spectrum. Emulator_ext z80

 

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T E R A V I B E The Moment A Drunk Artist Was Inspired One Night In 1926, 2023
‘I’m trying to create my own genre, Audio-Visual-Experience Art that hasn’t existed so far. My ultimate mission is to enhance each human being to maximise the frequency of his own soul.’

 

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Gillian Wearing Drunk, 1997-1999
‘Wearing’s 23-minute, three-screen digital video features unregenerate drunks doing what unregenerate drunks will do: they fight, fall down, get up, fall down again, nod out and, above all, drink themselves into oblivion. With no bar or barstool to speak of and stripped down to their one essential prop – the continually half-empty can or bottle – Wearing’s drunks appear as if on a stage, acting out a particularly absurdist pantomime of temperate behavior.’

 

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Charles Ray Puzzle Bottle, 1995
‘Puzzle Bottle is a precisely-scaled wooden model of Charles Ray, assembled inside a corked wine bottle like a traditional model ship. The sculpture’s dislocations of scale and context force viewers to adjust their perceptions and reconsider how the human figure occupies space. The miniature figure of Ray stares out from the confined space of the bottle, his worried gaze seeming to question how he got there.’

 

 

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p.s. Hey. ** feellikeanumba, Hi! Welcome, and thanks a lot for coming inside. Honestly, I really like those paragraphs you wrote. The prose is impeccable and beautifully detailed, lush but still propulsive, just the right balance, and I love the long sentences, and how the ‘story’ complicates and kind of mutates as they build. Yeah, gorgeous writing. So, obviously, you’re a writer. You’re very skilled, and you have excellent instincts. It’s great pleasure to read. Do tell me more about your writing, or about anything else, really. I’d be interested to know. And thanks again. It’s cool to meet you. xo, me. ** Ника Мавроди, Cool. Well, all the films in the post are on youtube, so I guess you can hook up your flat screen to youtube and watch them that way? I think doing that is pretty easy? ** Misanthrope, Hi. I mean, you know what it’s like to receive signs that you’re attractive. It’s seductive and emboldening, and taking pleasure in receiving those signals is totally normal, but not to the point of being a prick tease. If Alex knows you’re uncomfortable with that, I would imagine he’ll start to regulate the way he deals with it. Or, if not, watch out for narcissistic tendencies, I guess? I’ve never been to a gym, but from what I understand, cruising and being cruised is part of the deal there, no? You haven’t read a book since last summer?! Dude, feed your head. ** Allegra, Hi. Congrats on getting the research proposal finished. I’ve been wondering whether to watch ‘Love Lies Bleeding’ since it just popped up on the free/illegal movie site I check in on. Hm, maybe on a slow night for those squelching foley effects alone. That intrigues. Oh, yeah, I like ‘Careful’. I’m a big Guy Maddin fan. So what is your immediate post-proposal finishing life going to consist of ideally? xo, me. ** _Black_Acrylic, Adored the new PT episode. It built so ravishingly. I like pretty much everything you picked and knew none of them prior. The episodes do seem to be ever more exciting. Thank you, Ben, it was a real soul saver. Nice goal. Second place is really good, no? Just one spot away from wearing the crown. Yay! ** Darby🧫, Right, wasser bear, that’s what they’re nicknamed. So nice. Thanks for the new pic. Quite an interesting couple there. People most always say Chapel Hill is a cool town. Lots of awesome music has originated there, I know that. Hope you can go. Two hours is easy, although I’m from LA where you drive two hours across town just to se a friend sometimes. I’ll be very careful about brushing tiny foreign entities off of my sleeve. Maybe give a high pitched shout if you see my palm heading down. ** alex, Good that all is well with you. Other than film-related stuff and a trip to LA to show the film to the cast and crew, I’m not sure what spring has in store. Hm. I don’t I ever finished ‘Moby Dick’, not because I didn’t like it, but mostly because I tend to read books for style and to pick up things I might learn from to use in my writing, and I often feel like I’ve learned what I can learn before a book is finished. Bad habit, I know. Sailboat! Your spring will colorful. You’re near a lake, or where do you sail? I wouldn’t worry about taking a break. When I was writing ‘I Wished’ I got stuck and took a break that ended up lasting about three years, and then, when I went back to it, I had the distance on it that I needed, and I was able to finish it quite unproblematically. So, yeah, no worries, I don’t think. ** Justin, Glad you liked them. See, now, I just used the link, and your face is a complete surprise because I obviously hadn’t made a mental picture of you at all. And you’re a gif, no less. I guess you know I have quite a fondness for gifs. Thanks. Now when I type with you my eyesight, or, I guess, the portion of my brain that stores what my eyes upload, will get activated as well. Cool. I guess you probably know what I look like. How was your … what day is today … Thursday? ** Harper, Hey, H. Oh, yeah, Eyvind Earle is amazing. I tried to do a post about him at some point, but it didn’t pan out, I don’t remember why. ‘Pinocchio’ totally marked/changed me when I saw it as kid. That Island of Lost Boys section particularly was really shocking to my system or something. It’s my favorite Disney film by far. Thanks, pal. ** Bill, Her animations are kind of a wonderful combo of silly/ corny but trippy/ transcendent. I’m hoping Dodie has some news/clue of where Lawrence’s mss. is. We’ll see. ** Matt N., Hi, Matt. Once the film is finished, it’ll become preoccupying in a different way — hunting for festivals, distributors, trying to get it born and give it the best life possible. So a lot of mental energy, but no hands-on work. Re: the book, there’s nothing much to do until it’s published, whenever that is, and then I’ll probably do some readings and interviews and stuff. Mainly I want to write the new film and get away a bit because I’ve been stuck here with film work for ages. Oh, thanks for reading ‘TMS’. Yes, I remember your brother. I was actually thinking about him when I made yesterday’s post and wondering if he’d like Reinigers’s animations or not. Two scripts, congrats! I’m assuming you like what the director plans with the non-yours one? What’s the plan with yours? Do you need to raise the funding and all of that? Anything you can say about it? That’s exciting! Yes, I hope you can show it here, and a coffee is a must if so. Well, it was complicated. My sexual fantasy projected onto the perpetrator, but my feelings/sympathy were always with the victim. So the particularity of my interest really confused me, which is I guess why I decided to spend so much time and energy writing about it. In the novels, I see myself in both types of characters, but more in the victims. I think that’s really important. And I think that’s why the boy characters tend to be more dimensional than the perpetuator characters. Or something. But when I was young, no, I never felt vulnerable in that sense. I was always suspicious of older people in pretty much every way. Thank you for asking that. ** Okay. Alcohol and its representation is your topic for today. See you tomorrow.

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