Month: June 2023 (Page 12 of 13)

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‘Gentlemen, I have done it. I have found a way to go slower than was ever thought possible.

‘You may remember from a few threads ago I made a vintage cars that used all the object data on the largest map possible – The Wheel Of Life And Death. The slowest ride with the longest possible track. at the time time i though this was the slowest you could go but I found a way to go slower.

‘When a roller coaster travels along a track of constant height its speed exponentially decays towards zero but never stops

‘With this in mind I build a spiral track on the biggest map. The train comes out of the station and hits breaks with slow it down to 4mph. then it travels along the track, always losing speed but never stopping, until it gets to the center. where it rolls back and does the spiral again until it gets back to the station. Calculations show that it would take 210 days to finish. not in game days. real life days.

‘Kairos – the slow

‘Just for comparison. Mr. Bones takes about – 70 minutes to complete. Wheel of life – 60 hours (3600 minutes) and Kairos – 210 days (303383 minutes).” — unnamed 4chan user

 

 

‘RollerCoaster Tycoon is a strange game. It was programmed by one man… in assembly language. The originals have stood the test of time in ways only the best 90s and early 2000s PC games do, even after a few sequels. That’s thanks not just to its solid foundation, but a creative fanbase that continues to output feats of engineering genius, from perfect roller coasters to viable microparks, but also, occasionally, an unrelenting doom coil of a ride that takes over 3,000 in-game years for unsuspecting guests to complete.

‘At first glance, Kairos might look like a spiraling descent into the underworld, but it’s just the isometric perspective fooling you. The actual ride is built on the largest map in the game, with tracks wrapping flat around the perimeter and spiraling into the center of the level. From there, the cars are supposed to roll back, complete the spiral a second time, and reach the initial station at the start. Brakes at the beginning of the ride slow the cars down to 4 mph, making for some painfully slow speeds throughout as that number decreases.

 

 

‘This is the only footage of Kairos apart from this Tumblr post documenting it, but you can see The Wheel of Life and Death, another creation by the same player, below — a fever dream of interlocking tracks like an eternal pattern in some abstract medieval hell.

 

The Wheel Of Life And Death

 

‘The first roller coaster as torture device creation, and the most infamous of all, is probably Mr. Bones Wild Ride, popularized on a 4chan thread that first introduced the madness of its 70-minute duration through a series of screenshots.’ — Motherboard

Mr. Bones’ Wild Ride

‘On March 26th, 2012, an anonymous 4chan user started a thread in the /v/ (video games) board, which included several screen captures from the amusement park management simulation game Roller Coaster Tycoon 2. The images showed a 30,696 foot roller coaster track with 38 riders that took four years of in-game time to complete. The original poster (OP) provided greentext descriptions of the images, explaining that passengers were constantly yelling “I want to get off Mr. Bones Wild Ride.” After the coaster ended, the passengers walked down a large path leading to another entrance to the ride, where they were greeted by an installation of a skeleton with a top hat and a sign reading “The ride never ends.” Prior to being archived, the thread accumulated over 325 responses.

‘After the 4chan thread was posted, a creepy pasta surfaced about a user visiting the Busch Gardens theme park while on vacation, where he discovers a strange ride as he wanders the park. After getting on the ride, he notices a giant skeleton tipping his hat next to a sign which read Mr. Bone’s Wild Ride.

‘On March 28th, 2012, Redditor lessonplan submitted a post to the /r/gaming subreddit titled “One does not simply get off of Mr. Bones’ Wild Ride,” which included several screenshots from the 4chan thread. Prior to being archived, the post received over 4,250 up votes and 225 comments. On April 3rd, FunnyJunk user SweatyAnReady submitted the same set of screenshots to the Internet humor site, which received over 19,500 views and 323 up votes within the next six months. On May 10th, a Facebook page for Mr. Bones’ Wild Ride was created, receiving 150 likes within the next five months. On May 22nd, a Mr. Bones thread was created in the /v/ board on 4chan, which received over 875 replies prior to being archived.’ — Know Your Meme

 

Etc.

Turkeyslam RollerCoaster Tycoon 2 – Euthanasia Coaster
This is the product of my friend and I getting hammered on strong booze. When I found out that the Twister Coaster allows launched lift hills…. we had to. This coaster is ten miles long and probably has strong enough G-forces to knock out and kill a whale.

 

PenguinCoastersProduction Roller Coaster Tycoon 3 – Wooden Rainbow Death Coaster

 

maciozo Here’s another one. This time, everyone dies.

 

GamingVerified Roller Coaster Tycoon 3: Death Ride

 

guavagirliee Roller Coaster Tycoon 3 Crash
RIP innocent minions 🙁 creativity at its finest~

 

Etc. Etc.

 

 

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p.s. Hey. ** Charalampos, Hi. My favorite Bertolucci films are ‘The Conformist’, ‘Luna’, and maybe ‘Spider Stratagem’. Yes, RIP Margit Carstensen. I should do a post about her. I’ll look into it. Hope you’re doing good in your new abode. ** T. J., Hi there! I’m excited by the mental image of those blurry pix, so you seem like you’re in a good place. Everything else good too? ** Dominik, Hi!!! You’re back! Wow, next Wednesday, that’s crazy. And so exciting. Can’t wait to read your new surroundings reports. The meeting with Puce Mary was really good. She’s working on some sketches for the haunted house sounds, and we’re going to meet again and listen to them on Friday. The editing is great. We’re about halfway through a rough first edit of the film now. I’m so happy you (and love) isolated that slave sentence since I loved and grabbed it so fast. Love turning the Eiffel Tower into a Whirling Dervish, G. ** Jack Skelley, Tuesday? Like … tomorrow? Whoa. Those images can definitely be part of the DC’s FOKA shebang, you bet. Wait, didn’t Gallagher die? And, if so, why isn’t his brother just carrying on? Or is he? I will admit I haven’t kept up. We’re only relegated two tiny scenes and a piece of a third long scene to the cutting room floor so far. So far. Not bad. Start practicing in front of a mirror. xo. ** Mark, Hi. Yeah, David and I were friends. I was actually the first person to ever showcase his work in an issue of my lit mag Little Caesar. Oh, your worked at Tom of Finland and kind of still do. I had several friends who worked there, but my closest friend who did was the artist Richard Hawkins. Did you guys share ToF time? I’ve met Durk a few times, but we just exchanged hellos and stuff. What’s going on in the GlobalSexual festival? Probably way too much for a comment, but … Yeah, I was interviewed on camera for ‘Queercore: How to Punk …’ but Yony cut me out of the film, ha ha. ** David Ehrenstein, I’ll have to watch that clip you linked to later. It looks curious. ** l@rst, Hey, L! How’s it going, bud? ** myneighbourjohnturturro, Oh, wow, hi! I was just thinking about you and wondering how you are the other day. Great to see you! Lurking is legit and understood. We’re definitely hoping for some kind of release or something in the UK with this new film. Way too early to know yet though. At the moment I’m kind of in love with the new Water From Your Eyes album. What about you? Oh, right, it’s almost mid-year Mine for Yours time. I have to get on that. Do be here anytime the inclination arises. ** _Black_Acrylic, Hey, Ben. Art historical types … whatev’. Let me know if I should dig into ‘M’ if you dig in. ** Jamie, Hi, Jamie. I seem to be perfectly okay, thanks. We’re actually at a little over 60 minutes edited. It is a surprisingly good pace, but it still needs a shitload of finessing work. Dodie is an excellent model for the essay form absolutely. The perfect model maybe even. I used to get impetigo every few years, always in the same patch of skin on my arm. But it hasn’t happened in a long time, weirdly. Probably a bad sign. On your face? Err. But it fades out pretty quickly, no? I think mine did? Flawlessly surfaced love, me. ** Misanthrope, He is a star! Our boy’s done good! I was sunburned for a month when we were shooting the film. At first I tried sunblock, but it made my eyes swell up and water so I had to surrender to the burn. Def. schedule that op. Ouchy. My weekend was pretty nothing much, which, even so, was an okay break from the editing. ** Bill, I like Simon Liu. I actually did a studio visit with him years ago when he was still a student. Nice lad. Congrats about the prize! That’s ace! I didn’t know or didn’t remember that you have carnivorous plants. Err, what do you feed them? Twinks, I hope? ** Kettering, Mr. C, yeah, ha ha. Uh, there used to be this terrible sitcom when I was young that I was strangely obsessed with called ‘My Mother the Car’, and I used to want to be the car. Don’t delete. I can handle a boatload of comments. I’m a vet. I haven’t rewatched ‘Toby Dammit’ in ages, but, yeah, I liked it. It was during Fellini’s especially good phase. I know I’m odd, but I read Bernhard from first page to last with great excitement. And, yes, letting go rules. I grew up going to Disneyland every few months, so I’m pretty attuned to surrendering above the neck. Thank you for the lovely pink energy. I could use some. Same to you and glittery. ** Tea, Hi, Tea! How’s it? Nice reading there, obviously. My copy’s still in the mail. Fiddle fiddle. ** Thomas Moronic, And finally the great man himself! Ah, thanks, pal. Ditto ditto ditto. Big love, me. ** Right. I thought maybe this restored post could satisfy both coaster lovers like me and coaster haters like maybe some of you? See you tomorrow.

Artwork by Michael Salerno

 

“I’m so close to falling apart. Fuck it. Who isn’t?”

Thomas Moore’s latest novel Your Dreams, the follow-up to 2021’s devastating Forever, is a visceral yet contained inquiry into the endless need to be understood. Eavesdropping on a debate about cancelled bands, listening to a close friend’s explanation of his disturbing desires, facilitating a conversation about kinks at a party until it goes wrong, Moore’s narrator is less of a character than a witness of desperate disconnection. Your Dreams, despite its impulse to hide, faces the reader head-on in an intimate unmasking, still grasping for closeness in a world of limits.

“Simple words. Deep emotions … beyond prose to another plane. Openness that pours through you.”
Jack Skelley, The Los Angeles Review of Books

“Thomas Moore is one of the best writers the world has in stock.”
Dennis Cooper

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Your Dreams – in conversation

An exclusive interview with Thomas Moore about Your Dreams, conducted by the incredible writer, Nate Lippens:

Fantasy and desire are central to the book, and this leads to questions of consent, abuse, and freedom and about what happens when fantasy spills into the real world or causes harm. This feels like a theme that threads through all your work but becomes explicit here. Was there a catalyst for this?

Yes, you’re right it’s definitely been a theme before, and it’s an area that I’ve thought a lot about over many years, but this time for whatever reason it just seemed to feel like the right thing to bring to very front of the work. I’m not sure what made me decide to make it such a key part to the book this time – it was a conscious decision, but I can’t remember if there was a specific catalyst for that. Once I made that decision though, I did have some in depth conversations with a few people about it. It just seems like this really rich area of thought for me, and my ideas about it change all the time and also there are just so many aspects of it … and once you start bringing other people and their ideas and experiences of fantasy versus reality into things, you’ve suddenly got a million different things sparking at once.

There’s a dreaded meeting with John, a longtime friend, that includes an incredibly disturbing conversation. The narrator attempts to get an honest answer and then the answer is so honest, so set in its own logic, it ends communication. The revelation of John’s true self is too much.

Yeah, that’s an important part of the book, I think. It kind of sets off a load of questions that kind of bounce around from that point onwards. And I guess that’s the thing – when you’re trying to align fantasy and reality it can be very difficult in a lot of ways. Sometimes the two are a lot further apart than people think they are.

Afterward the narrator briefly interrogates the way certain artists and writers talk, hewing close to ambiguity, eschewing definitions, embracing unknowability. That approach to language and knowledge can be freeing but also in dire moments where things need to be spoken and confronted grounded in the world, it can be frustrating, or even moral agnosticism that permits the horrific. Later, the narrator’s friends describe their sexual fantasies and one of the friends is shouted down by another for hers.

I was interested in the idea of speaking something – you know – like, the moment when something that is an idea is shared and goes from being this private moment to something that is suddenly heard by others. When something is so personal and private, there’s no way of promising that other people will think of it, perceive it, see it, react to it in the same way that the person voicing it might hope, that is if they can even articulate it in a way that fully gets across their idea, because again – when something is not really intended to go outside of the thoughts of the person thinking it – how can it really be explained fully with just language. Then there is the idea added on of people wanting to police what other people think. The idea of whether or not the mind is a free space or not.

At the beginning of Your Dreams, the narrator expresses anticipation, fear, and numbness. He wants diminishment––“Maybe I’m craving for life to be less important right now. Maybe I don’t want things to count as much as they do.”––and nothingness. Both Forever and Your Dreams have a desire for the annihilation of oversized emotions or at the very least containment. The language, your syntax, creates this high tension between too much and too little. I’m wondering how you arrived at that, was it a process or was it more fully formed?

I’m definitely interested in trying to express or communicate hyperemotionality. I also interested in how hard it is to do that well, and I like the idea of therefore flattening it out and using that to make this tension that I find really fascinating for reasons that I don’t think I could explain. I think a lot of that is instinctual, really. It’s there, and I don’t know why, and I don’t know if I feel too inclined to unpick it.

The narrator observes his own and other people’s performances of their selves, the ones they present to the world and the ones they construct just for themselves. When he meets up with a queer artist he’s been in communication with online, he notes, “there doesn’t seem to be any disparity between the online and the real self.” He seems surprised by this. Accustomed to the mask or the split. The encounter is a sweet reprieve from the anxiety that’s consuming him.

You’re the first person to pick that moment out, which is cool and nice to see. Thank you. Yeah, sometimes we have these moments when things just seem to click naturally, and there’s no other cultural baggage getting in the way of stuff. I think they can be quite rare. I think sometimes if we are still, we can have these moments where we just exist and things happen and we are right there in the moment of it, not overthinking anything from the outside. I think it’s a pause that the book needed at that point, too.

Sightseeing in New York City, the narrator goes to the Christopher Street Piers, once home of infamous 1970s cruising spots. “Google lets me know which one is probably the most important to me.” It’s funny and also true, the vanished worlds, especially queer, especially around gay sex and cruising. This is also something that appears in Forever and Alone, seeking for primacy not just personally and sexually but also historically. I have a similar preoccupation, so I’m wondering how it’s shaped your life and your writing.

Oh, I mean, just certain points of queer history, and my imagination of what they might have been like– have also haunted me and inspired me, and for whatever reasons have ended up in my work. Artists from those periods have been very important to my work. And for this book it felt like it all linked in because I’m dreaming of these places and times where I never was, so again it’s this version of fantasy versus reality. My imagination rather than memory. And then memory itself versus reality – memory isn’t real either, memory is just a reconstruction anyway. And then with reality – how large a role is perception in any of this? What is actually real?

At the Piers, the narrator expresses ambivalence about community and describes how the gay scene was repulsive and reductive to him when he was younger, especially assimilation and consumerism and the body fascism of the ‘90s. Then he has a whole fantasia of men fucking that ends abruptly with a man tutting at him lighting a cigarette. It’s so perfect to how sanitized and moralized and monetized queer culture is now. Simultaneously there’s a vilification of trans people and the ugly return of the Christian trope of gays as groomers. What do you make of the moment we’re in?

I guess I was just thinking about the difference of being young then, when the idea of community and assimilation seemed like the boring thing to do. It was the people on the outside of it all who attracted me. Now, for a number of reasons, a lot of the narrative seems to be about fitting in and acceptance and all of that stuff. I’m not casting a judgement – it’s complicated. The moment we are in? I don’t know. I’m always loathe to try and sum things up because I like to think that things are constantly changing. A man jogging did tut at me on the piers though. That much is real.

I know you work instinctively and intuitively but you’ve mentioned that when writing In Your Arms and Alone you had the final lines and wrote toward them, but with Forever you didn’t know the final lines until you got to the end of the book. What was the process like for Your Dreams? Were there different devices or stylistic choices than your other books?

With Your Dreams, no, I didn’t have the final lines until towards the end. With this one the process was that I had a number of ideas that I wanted to address and I tried writing scenes that involved them. I had a constant running list in my head of stuff like brain vs body, dream vs real, awake vs asleep, and on and on. I tried to find ways to tick off as many from the list as I could but also not get stuck in this very obvious repetitive thing so that the narrative could keep some kind of propulsion.

I hesitate to give too much away, but there’s a section where the narration jumps to third person and a kind of direct self-recrimination/self-exposure. It’s what someone might call brutally honest and it shifts what has come before. First-person is often considered more intimate and direct, but this chapter has an excoriation that wouldn’t be possible as an “I.” It’s confrontational. How did you decide to do that?

I felt like that was the most natural way to go after all the stuff that had come before it – the overarching writer and what has been written: the ultimate fantasist and fantasy – me and my work. And again, it’s messing around with what is fake and what is imaginary and what is real and all of that. And it’s also a total change to anything that I’ve done before so I think that it really gives this jolt that hopefully people will feel – I think it was probably important to have something like that after dealing with the inside of the mind and daydreams and stuff for so long.

You address the label transgressive in that chapter and the author––who I’m still calling the narrator, rather than a one-to-one with you––dismisses it as a matter of course but being driven by a need to shock. I hadn’t thought of your work as shocking. It creates an extreme intimacy with the reader, an identification, which because of the emotions being described can be disturbing or upsetting––though for me, I find them to be freeing. The expression of honesty we’re all trained to stifle and to fear feels radical to me. What’s your relationship to shock value and transgressive art?

No, I never think of my work as shocking. I used that idea in this chapter because I was thinking about the idea of art being misunderstood, or simplified or when people just take things on surface value. I’ve seen that happen a lot of artists that I really like – I find pieces of work that I think are really deep and interesting and have this complex mixture or amazing things happening inside them – and then just because of the surface or the most obvious skin that the piece wears, people sum them up really crudely and miss the point. It was important for the work to be attacked in some way by this point in the book, so I felt like calling is “shocking” or implying that it was designed “to shock” felt like a pretty nasty and dumb insult to throw at it. The book is all about thoughts being misunderstood so it kind of made sense to me at the time.

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Photos I took in New York

The first section of New York is set in New York. Here are some photos I took in New York in October 2022. Some of these are very relevant to images I was thinking about in Your Dreams.

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Some clues that might help you unlock Your Dreams:

Fantasy VS Reality
Fake VS Real
Fake VS Impression
Impression VS Act
Act VS Tribute
Real VS Tribute
Real VS Acting
Body VS Brain
Brain VS Mind
Cartoon VS Real
Dream VS Real
Dream VS Nightmare
Pain VS Pleasure
Porn VS Sex
Masturbation VS Sex
Thinking VS Doing
Legal VS Illegal
Action figure VS Character
Character VS Actor
Writer VS Written
Written VS Read
Book VS Reader
Reader VS Writer
Touch VS Look
Documentary VS Movie
Scripted VS Unscripted
Improvised VS Planned
Thought VS Spoken
Internal VS External
Shared VS Private
Imagination VS Real
Online VS Offline

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Read an extract from Your Dreams

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Buy Your Dreams

Buy the USA edition of Your Dreams (paperback, comes with 3 exclusive art cards by Michael Salerno):
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Thomas Moore @ Instagram:
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Thomas Moore @ Goodreads:
https://www.goodreads.com/author/show/7326539.Thomas_Moore

 

 

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p.s. Hey. This weekend the blog assigns itself the joyful task of being a doormat for the new novel by Thomas Moore. Thomas has been a distinguished local of this blog for, gosh, years and years, and it’s such a thrill to see his work being given the recognition and respect it’s deserved for ages. If you’ve read his earlier novels, you know, and if you haven’t, maybe start here? Enjoy, and thank you so much, Thomas, for thinking of sharing the great news with this place. ** Mark, Very true about Printed Matter. I’ve often wished it had outposts all over. Quimby’s in Chicago at least used to be an excellent zine supporter/stocker. Yeah, not for a while re: Tom of Finland, but I’ve had a bunch of friends who worked there, so I’ve penetrated it on occasion, ha ha. Totally, about the Beats as a stepping stone. I have a lot of friends who had the same experience. I just happened to find the kind of work I was really drawn to before I checked out the Beat guys. I tend to like the first, oh, ten or or pages of Kerouac novels, or his prose at least, but then I get tired of it. ** _Black_Acrylic, Early Kusama is definitely her best work by far, if you ask me. I had a crush on Dexter Fletcher back in the ‘Caravaggio’ era, but he has one of those Mick Jagger faces that didn’t age prettily. ** Mieze, Hi, Mieze! So wonderful to see you! ‘Dick around’, right, damn, that post could have been so much rangier if I’d had my head screwed on. Yep, seeing Sparks on, mm, I think the 13th. I haven’t seen them live in ages. Well, I hope you come across a pot of gold at the very least on one of your walks. Thanks about the film, and the warmest hugs to you, my pal. Love, me. ** Misanthrope, Urgh. Yes, attend to that now, Georgy, *rausch* It’s pretty sunny here, so I suspect RG will play out. I’ll remember to turn on the TV later. I’m going to try to enjoy the outdoors this weekend since we have a two-day editing break. Great luck with yours. ** Darbz 🐘🎪, Hi! No, I didn’t hear about the little elephant. In Hawaii? I can almost imagine it having a successful escape there. Yeah, I used to spend summers in Hawaii (Maui) when I was a teenager, and my dad lived there (Oahu) in his later years, so I’d go over to visit him. I know embarrassingly little French. I understand it sort of a little, at least when I read it, but when people speak I kind of get it at first but then my brain gets tired. ‘Laika’s Window’ is a nice title. Maybe I’ll seek it out. Yes, feel free to ask me whatever you want, yes. I definitely consider us to be friends. I feel like you can trust me, but that’s something only can you ascertain. Really big things? Well, tell me what if you want and when you want if so. Day like a day with a million days inside it. ** Jack Skelley, Dear Liam Gallagher, How is it that you can be so minusculey talented and such a lunkhead and yet be very funny in your interviews? You met Dave Davies! That’s so cool! On the other hand one of the big reasons why ‘Susannah’s Still Alive’ is such a good song is because of that killer piano riff that Ray Davies supposedly added to it. Tim was in seminary in his later years, yeah. He even gave up poetry for while in the heat of that. FOKA time! A very original post! I’m slobbering over here. Love, your only slightly less minusculey talented brother Noel Gallagher. ** David Ehrenstein, Dickies ** Bill, Thank you. I didn’t know that Lenk mural existed until it popped up in my search. Yes, I did an attempted google search on Enya, and of course you-know-who was all that came up. We’re up to just about 60 minutes in the edit now. But it’s a really early edit, tons to do. Did you get to any of those events since we last spoke? ** bruno msmsmsm, Hi, bruno! Thanks for coming back! I’m doing pretty well at the moment. I strongly suspect you’re not so ordinary, and you don’t seem remotely boring in any case. Thank you about my work and my blog, and about my taste. I imagine yours is pretty stellar too. Yes, I make films with my collaborator Zac Farley, and we just finished shooting our third film, title: ‘Room Temperature’, and now were editing it. Kisses back from the self-styled city of love Paris. How was your weekend? ** Steve Erickson, Ah, well, that explains it. Ultimately it sounds like a positive break. Yeah, when I shared yesterday’s post on FB, I used what I thought would be an image that evaded their algorhymthic spy — that image of the dick dressed up as Mussolini — but FB immediately killed it and warned me, so I had to use the pretty much only dick-less image in the post instead. We’re taking this weekend off from editing. Everyone, Three takes by Mr. Erickson re: three cultural items this weekend: (1) His review of Abel Ferrara’s PADRE PIO, (2) his review of Romance’s two albums of 2023, and his review of King Krule’s new album SPACE HEAVY. ** Kettering, Hey, Kettering. ** Nasir, Hi. I’m happy you returned. Yeah, I wouldn’t know what to say here either, but luckily I mostly get to answer questions. Thank you so much about my work. Opening you up creatively is really the ultimate thing I could possibly hope for. I have seen ‘The Dreamers’; but not since it was first released. I’ve actually been thinking I should rewatch it. I love Bertolucci’s early films. Is ‘The Dreamers’ a favorite of yours? Have a fine weekend. ** Right. Mr, Moore will take good care of your eyesight and related brain areas this weekend if you allow him to. See you on Monday.